CHUPPANDI CHATS

N on Track !!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Sun, 25 Oct 2009 16:01:00 +0000

Phew !!! What an eventful week it was...

I literally had no time to look behind.. have been sleeping hardly enough (4hrs a day). I have never felt so far in my life that 24 hrs. a day isn't enough at all... Not even during the examination days. Guess if one had to work like this he'll die of chronic failures of all of his senses one after another. However the days were interesting as well with loads of activities, lots of planning and lots more of work.

Guess the coming week would be much more eventful as well if not the same as we get closer to the deadline but the thing is that its not us but the target that is closing-in on us. Whatever it is, this week will answer us all that are we really the ones who could do things.

Just to give you all a glimpse of what is it that we are upto, i'd borrow our top man's description of what we really are upto.

"You ppl are in a 20-20 cricket match in which you'll have to strike 22+12 runs in the last over. But its just that the match has already been over a month ago and you ppl are still swaying your bats saying that you'll accomplish things, come what may...."

Well it just gives you guyz a glimpse of sheer enormity of the task-at hand, we've been asked to give it a try even if it means that the match has already over. Afterall the match has to be played for someone to win !!! And the last over still had to be bowled if it has to be over !!!...

I guess that is where we stand now... After a week of having been assigned within to accomplish come what may, though we all have the apprehensions that how could this be done after all ?? we've decided to steer through to see if we could make a difference... A difference to the world out there, to ourselves and for no one else.... For i believe life is not about standing safe and watching things but is all about getting hurt a million times and then at the end you'd only say Wow... What a ride !!!

But what would obviously hurt at the end is that all these will eventually be credited to those select few who have been groomed to be like whatever they are.

That apart i guess we are gaining some momentum. Seriously... I guess we are keeping up the run-rate. If only we could manage the same and could step up a few time at the later days of the week, i guess we'd have done justice to ourselves and to the organization. I was very much thrilled and excited at the excitement this has given us whether the other are enjoying or not.

Something in me tells me strongly that we have finally arrived... and i hope i could still motivate all my fellow warriors to stay put and fight bravely to win it for ourselves...

I can see the gush of optimism that is now flowing within ourselves. If only we do things like these we'd realize our true ability. May our will's win this for us.

Welcome to every day of my life.....

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 09:15:00 +0000

The End Game Begins !!!

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 17:16:00 +0000

Looks like im upto a wild goose chase these days, while i've been crying about the vile deeds of ppl all these days without realizing the fact that im doing nothing to do to be change the change i wish to see. Now it all has come to a standstill as i've been roped in literally from nowhere to accept the challenge and im very much excited except for the fact that the task that has been given is comparable to nothing less than to move a mountain with the teaspoon.

I had to agree for the fact that i could've intervened to conspire to move it a stone a day months before. While i could afford to comfortably blame the top echlons and their buddies buttressing them, i'd also like to think this as my failiure to change things, while the reason could've been many i still had been watching this all the while drifting away. I realize i must've been very selfish all the while. Neglecting as if these aren't my job and even if had to intervene i was constantly demotivated with all the words that they had used to describe my performance last year. But I shouldn't have let this happen though this was not at all in my purview.

Had a hour long brawl with the VGP man after having written him a looong mail accusing him of whatever i felt he did. But had felt very much remorseful later as i thought i was barking up the wrong tree and i was a overacting a bit harsh aloft emotially. Also that there is very little he could do to change himself and that i had been quite and let things happen this way all these years and that this has come to this stage.

Coming back to the challenge, we've been consistently failing as a team and i dont want to blame anyone for that. When we fail collectively as a team we should take the blame all by ourselves though its only few of us who have been tagged with responsibilities and we've lost track of the target looong ago. But now this had come back so strong to haunt us.

While we were almost certain that we'll slip from our committment for another time, our VGP man has been asked to lie low and reigns have been shifted (or rather withdrawn) by the top man and he want to steer the ship as we were still searching for the target. Just when the target seems nowhere at sign, we've been asked to steer in full throttle with a new navigator and all of us have been assigned with new (rather) roles and we had to hit the ground in less than 10days. Which although seems impossible, i though why not ??

While the Top man only tries to conjure\ season us for the uphill task with all his superfluous elating words i was thinking why shouldn't i buy these... Why shouldn't i take some motivation from his words for afterall this is what we've been lacking all the while, and especiall when the organization need you to fire and its that only you could help why should you be shying away. I've decided to grab the challenge with both my hands. Hope this entails in rebuilding the lost me.

I hope that i'll motivate others more than i've been motivated. Hoping things would fall in place somehow though all that we've planned have been falling apart. I wish to put up a brave fight without wanting to loose the war. I'd like to fight with all my spirits and the few men we have to battle it out the hard way. Lets hope to win !!! though i guess the end game has already begun...

Shall update all you guyz before the end of the month which is when the climax is most likely to occur. Sorry for musing on my work part again.... its been the most happening part of my life these days. Will come back soon.

Betrayal - Yet again...

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Fri, 11 Sep 2009 04:04:00 +0000

I guess i've been prudent enough all these years not to divulge too much into what i do for a living (work life). But whenever i think of posting something these days the first thing that comes over my is that. I feel so compelling to let my readers (if there is someone out there who really reads my musings) know of what am I going through. The prime reason for which is that it is 'THE' most Happening part in my life these days. I guess there's nothing more worth a word happening otherwise as the thought of which engulf's me to ruin all my day.

It pretty hard when you wake-up everyday in the morning and the first thing that comes to your mind is this and it takes a while to realize that you just aren't living a bad dream but a grave reality.. It pains for the entire day only to start all-over again the other. It never seem to recede. Not even in miniscule proportions and branches out in every fragments of your life.

I know i might sound all the more same in my last few posts. But still this is what Im going through. A passing cloud may be or a permanent storm as the case may well be. There is not an ioata of doubt in me that i'll see through these rough patches (treacherous) but the fact is that i ain't enjoying it no more like i usually do. Probably because of the sheer magnitude of treason and betrayal that it radiates. It hurts and it hurts where it'll pain the most and that makes it
much harder to digest.

well enough rambling around i think its better I get straight to the point for I think you guys deserve more to know the reason, the cause of all these anomalies (or common for me to some degree) mainly because i value you all for enduring so much to read all the crap and darn musing i've spitted out every while. I guess you guys mean much to me... More than my boss (umpteen number of times)

It all started with the annual appraisal scheme thate we have like any other corporate. I was rated as one of the lowest performer this year (neither i was recognized as the otherwise till now. But that the thing of the past) Though i guess most of the ppl agree that i had indeed done a commendable job if not a spectacular (atleast to me) i indeed had a preconcieved notion in my mind that i'd be beaten this year around too but what came as a shocker is this. How can you be so damned for whatever gook work you do amid all the demotivating ambience. I still gasped hard to surf through the wild storm but never realized that its only getting bigger day after another.....

God knows where this trail lead me to....

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~ My métier no more ~

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Fri, 04 Sep 2009 03:55:00 +0000

The quick 3 minute ride in the elevator to the basement from the 94th storey paled in comparison to the arduous climb floor by floor – stair by stair he made to reach the place he called home for the past four years or possibly more than he could remember. He had a whole new world waiting for him, new horizons to explore, new trails to leave behind, lots of apprehensions and a whole lot of excitement, but he wasn’t on the 94th floor no more and it felt unfamilar.

I feel like that guy now as I try to stay afloat in a deluge of nostalgia I am besieged by. It was a passionate journey with fervent enthusiasm paving the way to where I felt I had found my true métier. The association may have been sudden but I asseverate I sure woolgathered long and hard about it . Each time I debated as a student upholding its monopolistic ways, each time I glanced at its founder’s signature on a xanthous piece of paper carefully tucked away in my wallet, each time I powered on my window to the world, I wanted to see myself inside it with a seething desire to be a spoke in the wheel that drove the entire industry. I can still smell the stench of accomplishment emanating from every pore of my skin when I knew I was finally there, to stay, the very first time, raring to take on my fraternity and come out a proud man.

The charm and the zest, however, dwindled with time as the ennui of work began to set in but it sure was an eventful ride, One that showed me the prejudiced and mediocre minds full of vanity and pretence and the one that left me with bragging rights of having influenced, even if in miniscule proportions, a huge portion of humanity.

I dont particularly like the eeriness of the defeat. The muteness and the humility that comes with it. I had always wanted to associate myself with the ruthlessness of victory and haughtiness of it. And still remaining humble is what is iam to me. But things aren’t the same since i embarked on my endeavour for a wild goose chase.

I feel like Iam off the wagon now and for the good, (though i still scuff along down to peril) pursuing something else which over time has become the fancy of my imagination but as I look back I feel strange realizing that I am yet to find my true métier after all.

PS: I seriously wanted to post something cheerful from the brighter days of my life back then. But can’t help with as the situations are getting worser ever day for me. Do stick with me pals for i need you all the most now which gives the strength to fight and lead the rebellion. I shall see the light of the day someday or other.

Oblivion - Endless Road Of Misery

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 07:04:00 +0000

It has been long since i posted my verses... Hoping would post some more... Hopefully from the brighter part of my life unlike this one.... So stay put guyz...

The Endless Road Of Misery

Standing all by myself as i gaze at the sky
Along the bay watching those ships steer by
Marching towards their destiny they cruise
I was Trying to make sense to my life since it all went aloof

I Stood there starting the at faces that cross me by
Watching my entire life just passing me by
Too scared to leave, too frightened to stay
Wondering how do I get through one more cloudy day

This is not at all the life I had planned
Mapped out with directions, compass in hand
Instead I am on the road to oblivion
Miserable inside, yet I go on pretending i'll move on

I've been entangled in this void since the day you have gone
Time and again misery keeps following me on
Trying to realize where it all had gone wrong
Who was I once and what I have become

amidst the shimmering life, I've been fighting myself on
Trapped in the past for too long
With diminishing hopes as days pass on
Wondering if i'll find a way back into life

This book of sorrow is stuck in a page
No matter how hard I run, Im still gasping for breath in the same cage
Sometimes it seems as eons have passed me by
Waiting like a lonely moon and crying within the infinite sky

Emptiness wonders how much more can I take
Not knowing what lies ahead more mistakes to make
But through it all I still keep walking on
Following me, the Darkness still keeps stalking on

Chasing the shadow of mine
I still keep walking on this endless road of misery
Loneliness ahead, emptiness behind
wondering how long can I go on?

- Chuppandi

Independent India - Musings on the IDay 63

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 11:05:00 +0000

Every August, it will be Independence Day just like it was since the day it all began way back in 47 which many of us would've never seen.... The entire nation will wear a festive look. The tri-colour will flutter on the buildings and roads. The media will recapitulate the events of the freedom struggle. Political leaders will display their oratorical prowess from public platforms listing out their achievements and calling upon the masses to be vigilant in guarding the country's sovereignty against external aggression. As usual, they will dish out more promises to work for the uplift of the downtrodden and poor and ensuring equal rights and opportunities to one and all as enshrined in the Constitution.

As we all would know, ours is a predominantly agricultural country. You like him or not, Mahatma Gandhi had said, "the heart of India lies in its villages". The majority of our population lives in villages. Even after 62 years of Independence, most of them live below the poverty line and are socially oppressed. Though we have made impressive and spectacular strides in various fields like science and technology, education and industries, Its imperarative that the benefits have not reached the common man (Aam Aadmi) . Basic needs such as drinking water, electricity and shelter are still a distant dream for many. We should look deeper inside within so as to develop our outlook. There are lots more to be done at the grassroot level. Developing the villages (gaav's) should be our topmost priority for us to move forward to reach the status of the superpower. Rather we are making deals and working with cities just to make them more glamorous and attractive towards the FDI's and VC's. Unless we develop our basic infra nothing gonna change even if things seems so won't last for years and aren't worth to take us to the level we all aspire of.

Our economic order has been liberalised and has drifted away from nationalisation to globalisation even still we stayed a bit conservative which almost saw us through these recession thing thatz rocking the world these days. Our foreign policies have always stayed introversive. But still oflate we've managed to pull of deals with other G8's to collaborate on all front to advance in Science, Technology, Industries, Textile, Engineering, Sports and even Literary & Arts. We have leaders in every front but still we lack the professional approach and the lack of proper stystem to groom the future aspirants still haunts and its not just the UID's thatz gonna help us in our way forward we need a inspiring vision with palpable action.

Our political system has become corrupt to a degree none of us can imagine. Our Politicians are totally engrossed in driving wedges between communities, religion, castes and what not to gain political mileage and strengthen their vote banks. Even the face of terror proved futile in bringing us together. Parliaments are full of dogfights without consensus on any issues. We are left fighting selfishly on every issues of national importance.

I wish every Independence Day there should be a time for political introspection by India’s political leaders and its polity as to whether they have been able to deliver on the political promises made by them to the people of India. It is also the time for personal introspection by India’s political leaders in that whether they themselves personally have contributed to the strengthening of the ‘moral fabric’ of India in terms of setting exemplary standards of political probity, honesty and integrity and also ensuring that their political flock does likewise.

Independence Day had come and went like every year but has left in its wake the troubling thought as to whether India really has ‘dignified political leaders’ or they all have juggled the spelling of ‘leaders’ and ended up as ‘political dealers’ devoid of political morality and conscience. Especially the country's current state of affairs seriously demands a reality check on everyone of us and the country as a whole. It is true that we have lots of things to boast off over the last year but its equally eventful in terms of adversities and mishaps. I would not like to dwell too much on any of the issues as it would only evoke grave criticism.

I've not been wonderstruck at the electrifying spectacle of the English parting us at the stroke of the midnight when Nehru delivered his landmark speech 'Tryst with destiny. Iam still wondering as to why India’s politicians who succeed them and those who head them can no longer recreate those electrifying moments on every passing Independence Day. The answer is obvious as there are no political leaders left of the genre of India’s freedom movement. India today has been left with ‘political pygmies’ whose sole political activity is focused not on nation-building but on devising political tricks to capture power and survive in power at any cost.

How does one term the sordid spectacle that India’s polity put on display (on the event of last elections) for the citizens who voted them to power hoping that somehow even if they were ‘not fit to lead’ they would ‘at least provide honest governance’? Will their hopes be realised or will their needs be ever fulfilled. Defenitely not as it seems so in the due course. But will this pain ever abate is left to be seen.

The Worst of all was as to how the Indian Muslim communal card was being played by the so called secular parties. In the Parliament debate where India’s national issues should have been in the forefront and especially those really connected with the trust vote in terms of honest governance no effort was spared to dramatize the Congress Party’s so called secular credentials by lionizing the speeches of Indian Muslim Members of Parliament singing praises of the Congress

Few obvious questions arise from this sordid display of low political morality. The first is whether the Congress President and the Congress Prime Minister can absolve themselves from all that happened inside and outside the Parliament last year in terms of political wheeling and dealing. Secondly, both of them should be asking themselves whether all their wheeling and dealing was politically worth it keeping in mind that they are indeed debasing further the state of political affairs in the country which is already facing a severe lack of moral credentials upon which they are built upon. They somehow had lost their ultimate goal and are fighting only for their survival and in-turn their loyals to stay in power.

The answer however to many of such questions is a resounding ‘no’. If it is their contention that by winning a trust vote or just by signing a deal with US or showing their great indifference to any of the burning issues and still boasting off their resounding win by politically and morally questionable methods has raised India’s stock in the international arena then they are deluding themselves. They have only belittled themselves and in-turn had left us in a hapless state.

Finally, the people of India themselves are to blame for facilitating the rise of a motley group of unprincipled political midgets to power by an apathetic indifference to India’s political affairs and India’s political governance. This particularly applies to India’s rising middle class like me.There had been several calls over these years that stressed on the imperatives of India’s middle class politically empowering themselves to break the stranglehold of India’s captive vote-banks on India’s electoral arithmetic

Having said all these i believe the country is at the crossroads. Its for them to take a call (timely call) on framing the path ahead and rise to the call of duty beyond all issues and adversities. I wish the current leaders would focus on taking the country in the right direction and bring about development, prosperity and peace. May thins IDay be just another beginning of a new India... Truly Independent India

There is Light at the end of the tunnel...

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 17:17:00 +0000

never been this awful a speaker in my life....

No.. No... wait... this isn't just another musing about how deplorable a state im in these days,to the contrary this is about how i just overcame one of those impedes which gave me a bit of confidence that i too shall see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Needless to say how pathetic a state am i in overall. But just one of those components of it is my talking. I've been talking mindlessly over everything. I've even beento meetings where i've uttered statements without knowing what i meant and presumably my words absolutely meant nothing. it made absolute indifference of either my words neither my presence.

I wasn't this bad afterall for i had a good vocabulary to choose words from within, had taken several seminars and took a few concept lectures for my juniors and even for M.Tech's, I've done a few papers and did my own project presentations including those hectic review meetingswhere ppl will shoot point-blank questions only about why i've not done those things and about how wrong a path im in. I took them all in their stride, i managed my life pretty well those days. Never been frustrated and was always cool when it matters most esp. those intense presentations and question hours. There were some significant comments even from my guides about how jocular i am when i took those seminars. I've always enjoyed interactions. But days have rolled now.... I guess its enough boasting off and now where where were I ???

It was one of those presentations where-in I had to present something (a work we did in our dept.) with few big ppls (they claim so !!) around. I had a lot of points to make and few chords to strike at the right time.As usual I fainted and blabbered incessantly as my words meant nothing even to me and feeling which i scrambled to safe mode and managed to salvage few bits of those messes i left and in process forgot all those points i had in mind, which in-turn evidently resulted as questions which neither me nor my boss enjoyed as it'd raise unwarranted fingers at ppl's ability and so forth which are applicable to every corporates as if a norm.

And then stood my boss who handled things from there and took it in his shoulders to shoo away them all which he did pretty well. I felt ashamed of having done more than few bits of work, i failed to make an impact. And thatis what counts out here the place where i work.

That night i repented for what i did (But can't help myself), was angry at myself and was equally quizeed as to why have i become so deterred, so weak now,and most importantly so soon. It was evident by then that i am running low on confidence. I wasn't feeling that positive enough and those ruthlessspirit, confidence and hope i had carried had faded away considerably. Iam not sure at myself these days. But the worst part is i could hardly do anything about it now.

The very next day called my boss to tell me how unhappy he was (he never used to tell that even though i flopped and always fell short of his yardstick, he'd only talk about the positives).But that was a very different person i was speaking to. Actually i was happy that somone is pointing my mistakes and to which i meekly listened. He was telling how bad i sounded when i actually stood there stumbling for words. And told me that the problem wasn't my language or fear (coz i never had feard ppl in ranks. I always speak of what i think explicitly irrespective of their position). But it was indeed my thinking which has to be changed, he said.
To which i returned null. For a moment I had though he must've been to one of those inspirational management Programmes or to those lectures about how to motivate others et al. But thankfully he made sense. He knew exacly what was the problem with me (My talking).

He said "you are always thinking about the points you wanted to make and are waiting for that time and in-turn failing to say what has to be said until then. And thinking about the next sentence everytime you are always failing to say what has to be said now." WHich sounded a bitnormal advice and those typecast advice given by the experts but when thought upon made much sense and to my surprise, alas! i've found answer to one of myumteen questions.

It took me a while as I began my course correction measures. I started from thinking where did i get this habit from and found out that i was actually learning those times to play guitar and was having trouble following the notes in which always i had to see the notes ahead and how should i changemy fingers subsequently but should play what is on the present time also following the beats. I struggled really hard to cope up with all these and in-turn had been thinking about what i had to say next even when i speak. This really took some time to sink-in.

But i think im really able to manage things better now. Had a important meeting with few ppl last week (non-official and non-personal... no raising of eyebrows, it ends here...) i was really thankful to my boss for the first time since i met him for really giving me a reformativefeedback for the first time. And if only he could give reasons\feedbacks for all the scrutinizing he did or for what he did for me so for i could've changed myself to cope with what was really expected of me. (Seriously, I still do not know... and is worth an introspection)

That being said, this was really helpful for me as a person and to groom myself for the so called professional life. And most importantly gave me a bit of confidence to believe that i too could see some light and have helped me in keeping my hope alive. Thanks to him for I couldn'ttell this directly to him which would mean the otherwise (especially this month :)... Never mind im confident and have no big expectations for i know what is it that counts in this part of the world..)

How do you plan to develop the country.

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 05:17:00 +0000

Below is an article i wrote for my friend which actually convey what i've been thinking of. Just thought of posting this.

An Essay on How do you plan to develop the country.

India is a preeminent contributor to the global knowledge base. As the R&D institutions across the globe are setting their bases here to tap the abundant congnitive resources it is imperative to channel our inherent and abundant knowledge towards the betterment of the nation to propel it through its aspiration to become a global leader in terms of economy, Science & Technology and every other metrics.

As per the saying "When one light lits another they doesn't grow less", i wish to impart the spirit of victory that is ever radiant in our nerves to focus on the Research and Development so that we shall quech our thirst for knowledge and shall cater our ever arising need for technology as every other developing nation has. With which we shall sustain on ourselves. With indegenous technology comes all the evident advantages that further propels our stands amongst the world.

I plan to establish a Knowledge Centre where-in every talent and resources across domains are pooled in to ideate the future and shall work on innovative and creative ideas that can bring us a steadfast resolve to stop the knowledge gap exists across every field. It is with such a unision i feel we shall be more agile and competitive.

While the plan is very optimistic I also know that for this happen, i've to see several crossroads and overcome tougher challenges. But I feel that I can see myself through and hoping that the quality of education and character i can learn from your Institution would help me immensely in preparing myself for the battle and shall help me in motivating the minds of my fellow countrymen and inspire them to
collaborate for the common goal.

I am looking forward for the opportunity / challenge to study with some of the best brains across the world and hope to carry forward the learning to contribute to propel the technological advancement and the status of my Country...

Vande Matraram....

maa tuje salaam.....
tu he paas bi naye laga he..........
taai manne vanakkam....

Musings : what i am today...

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 03:48:00 +0000

one more grueling week of cricket and it feels like all your masteries of the past had been ripped-off from you and all you can do is just keep watching as everything fades away.

I may not have been a gilly in batting and keeping but seriously i was someone who could atleast grasp a leg-cutter or a googly a yard away. Now it all seems to be a thing of a past now. Its not just that im not playing well its just that to how extent i am surfing low that is bothering me.

I have never told my pals whom i play with of my previous stints as it'd be very hard for them to believe for i cannot contemplate myself as if i did something. I had to scratch my head off a while so as to believe that i was capable of doing something.

Now i couldn't even watch the ball on the flight as everything crumbles away it shells ur confidence and all you could do is just guess and live somehow which made my pals joke at me.. Further pathetic is my keeping these days. I could hardly grab a ball (i hope atleast my team and those who had played with me during my college days would vouch for me for old times sake) And the days i had undergone coaching along with the other one for keeping are still distant memories fading away fastly. All i could remember now is a faint image of a comparitively less obese maniac who could grab a 110K ball with finneese (well cmon guys this came in a flow, if not with fineese say with a bit of trouble) :) ...

Well i did not wanted to boast-off my previous achievements to those who make fun out of me just to prove that i had been there sometimes. I just wanted to keep remembering the good old days so that i could just live of another day hoping this ill-luck of mine would pass away somehow and that go-lucky guy in me resurfaces again to turn the things around and i'll hit rajesh for a six next time when he shows me the grunting face of his and says those demeaning words to you. You cant just be hit always at some point of time you had to hit back isn't it??

Life has started to move on...

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Mon, 22 Jun 2009 03:16:00 +0000

A lot has been happening these days adding some pace to my otherwise placid life. Be it personal or related to work. Personally if not for me, there has been some developments in the form of my bro. Which had me to do few things.

And as for me i had a fall from my bike (i can sense ur pleasure and deja vu's) owing to a floating point error in my calculation while i did a steep skew to turn right on my way to Vehicle stand (fortunately) i had few ppl who are still gracious enuff to help me given all the trouble i gave'em. Thanks to PAP for helping me the most not fogetting others. And with a bit of mess with my tooths, im still living on...

There had been quite a few developments in my other part of the life, had to change back again to our earlier place (got back to where we belong) rather perturbed. Looks like a new cog is fitting in... and i hope to get back to the blog buisness like i used to before.

Just thought of tell u im very much alive to trouble for days to come... Cheerz mates

Allah ke bande - Translation

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Sun, 14 Jun 2009 11:58:00 +0000

An wonderful translation of Allah ke bande... Inspired by the sufi poetry...

crossposted from - tat tvam asi

Toota Toota Ek Parinda Aise Toota An angel was so badly broken
Ke Phir Jud Naa Paaya That he could not be healed
Loota Loota Kisne Usko Aise Loota Somebody stole (the wings) from the angel
Ke Phir Ud Naa Paaya Till he was unable to fly
O O O O Toota Toota Ek Parinda Aise Toota
Ke Phir Jud Naa Paaya
Loota Loota Kisne Usko Aise Loota
Ke Phir Ud Naa Paaya
Girta Hua Woh Asma Se he fell from the sky
Aakar Gira Zameen Par Onto the earth
Khwabon Mein Phir Bhi Badal Hi The Yet in his dreams there were still only clouds
Woh Kehta Raha Magar And he kept saying

Ke Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande that the people of Allah will always stay happy (laughing)
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega The people of Allah will always be laughing... whatever happens, there will always be another day

Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega

Kho Ke Aapne Par Hi To Usne Tha Ud Naa Sikha Only after losing his wings did he learn to fly
Kho Ke Aapne Par Hi To O O O
Kho Ke Aapne Par Hi To Usne Tha Ud Naa Sikha
Gham Ko Aapne Saath Mein Lele Dard Bhi Tere Kaam Aayega Take your sorrow with you, for the pain will be of use to you

Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Aa Aa Aaa

Tukde Tuke Ho Gaya Tha Har Sapna Jab Woh Toota He broke into pieces when every dream of his broke
Tukde Tuke Ho Gaya Tha Aa Aaa Aa
Tukde Tuke Ho Gaya Tha Har Sapna Jab Woh Toota
Bhikre Tukdon Mein Allah Ki Marzi Ka Manzar Paayega It is only in the scattered pieces of your dreams that you will find the meaning of Allah's Will.

Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega

Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Jo Bhi Ho Kal Phir Aayega
Allah Ke Bande Hasde Allah Ke Bande

World T20 - A Review and Preview

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Tue, 09 Jun 2009 06:58:00 +0000

Hi all

This is Rajesh friend of Subramani (chuppandi), I am back with one more article on cricket after the “Half way analysis on IPL”; this is time on the current World T20 ICC tournament. This is a review of the first two rounds in the group stage and a preview of the upcoming stages in the tournament.

Most importantly the qualification criterion of Pakistan in today’s game against the Dutch is also analyzed.

Review

Two rounds in Group stage of the T20 world cup have come to an end yesterday.

Group A – India, Bangladesh, Ireland

As expected t20 champions have qualified to next round but has some niggles in the team and in the performances too, hope they rectify it before they face Ireland tomorrow. Ireland on the other end shut the door for Bangladesh with an upset win yesterday. One of the unexpected (upset win) which Bangladesh was doing these many years in the world tournaments but now they were at the receiving end.

Group D – New Zealand, South Africa, Scotland

Expected stuff, both the giants thrashed Scots and entered next round, but the game between them tomorrow speaks a lot for their momentum and supremacy in their group.

Group C – Australia, Sri Lanka, West Indies

Group of death given the way for Hell to Australia the so called ODI champions who have been struggling over the past couple of years in terms of consistency in all forms of the game. Mendis magic did upset for Australia yesterday and the Gayle raw power on the other day. So survival test was easily passed by Sri Lankans and Windies. Its all about points and score to carry forward for the next game, literally, their Super Eight stage starts from tomorrow itself when they face each other.

Group B – Pakistan, England, Netherlands

What to turn around within a couple of days, Dutch beat English who then was considered as out of the tournament as Pakistanis were in good form and yesteryear’s runner up tag, but england’s win against Pakistan put back in the groove for England who qualified for next round irrespective of the result on today’s match.

What Pakistan needs to do inorder to qualify for the next round?

Pakistan need to win by a margin of 24.5 (25) runs or by a minimum run rate difference of 1.225. For example, if Pakistan bat first putting a score of 160, then they need to restrict Dutch for 135 runs or if Dutch scoring 160 or 140, Pakistan need to chase within 17.1overs or 17.0overs respectively. So minimum of 3overs spare is required for Pakistan if they chase down a total.

Preview

Super Eight

Due to some upsets the super eight may lack some firepower and glamour. How the teams stack up in the next round irrespective of their ranks in the group stage?

Group E India England West Indies South Africa

Group F New Zealand Sri Lanka Ireland Pakistan/Netherland

Group E is tougher comparatively where India is placed. So it will be a good contest to watch group E matches than the other group. But irrespective of the results, the teams in group E has tougher opponents from now on, even in semis, where as Group F has relatively a smooth one to the semis.

With passion for Cricket

Rajesh Kumar R

Fake IPL Player has revealed - he has exposed himself in his new video

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Wed, 20 May 2009 15:30:00 +0000

Fake IPL Player has revealed himself in his latest post. persumably his last.

Fake IPL Player has decided to reveal himself to the realms of the world (See the link above). He still claims to be an insider as he has not revealed his full face yet his silhouette along with his voice has raised eyebrows of many.

I felt like I was watching an Afred hitchcock masterpiece or Sixth Sense or The prestige or the usual suspects that has a MIND CHILLING suspense that makes u glued to your seats. He is an absolute entertainer as he says the KKR's are !!!!!!!

Its like a movie in which every second is a master piece and you don't want that movie to end. While watching the video I beet one would feel as scared as they'd have seen any spine chillers.

It takes BALLS OF STEEL to do what he has done and he still marches a bit close in every post of his ultimate exposing.

Though it raises several names and co-releates to lot of personalities it is however still not convincive as to who he really is.. and is he really an insider. It is all left to be seen. Until then as he claims he is still a shadow play or as his name suggests, fake IPL player...

As he says... Kabi alvida na kehana... Cheerz guyz...

IPL Analysis

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Fri, 15 May 2009 06:25:00 +0000

Guest blogger Rajesh Kumar's contribution. I had always thought this guy has something in him that he is yet to show the world. His passion for Cricket is extraordinary. Unfortunately not his temperament. When things are not going in his way it shows. barring which he is a spectacular person, an ardent rider and a fantastic person to be with. Hope he'll start his own blog someday as i still am insisting with. Enough babbling, back to buisness guyz... Over to Rajesh.

He can be reached at hi2rajesh@gmail.com

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As the IPL second season is nearing its finale… It’s a question of whose gonna crab the semifinal spot. With their solidarity and consistency Delhi Daredevils has confirmed their berth to play the semis, as Sehwag saying after the win against Deccan chargers “we will be paid $50,000 for each win”, that’s a big boost for a win GMR holdings giving to the team, its all the due respect for the team’s commitment in the field. As half of the table is left with only two more matches (leaving out Kolkata with 11 matches) and their final grab is not too far but too tough.

Points Table
Team	Played	Won	Lost	Tie	Pts	NRR
Delhi Daredevils	10	8	2	0	16	0.362
Chennai Super Kings	11	6	4	1	13	1.070
Rajasthan royals	12	6	5	1	13	-0.339
Deccan Chargers	11	6	5	0	12	0.297
Royal Challengers Bangalore	12	6	6	0	12	-0.309
Mumbai Indians	12	5	6	1	11	0.489
Kings XI Punjab	11	5	6	0	10	-0.570
Kolkata Knight Riders	11	1	9	1	3	-1.042

Individual Team analysis

Delhi Daredevils

Having played only 10 matches, they are topping the table, with no doubts for their position in the semis, the need to carry the momentum just to keep up the morale of the team.

Chennai Super Kings

After the loss against Bangalore, Chennai are in a little trouble to grab a spot in the semis, but it’s not too far as they still have three matches to play and with good run rate in their cards. They play against Kings XI Punjab and Kolkata knight riders the teams at the bottom but any upset against these teams will give a huge set back to the Men in Yellow, but one win will hand a berth at semis. But a team with 5wins on the trot has to regroup and come with a bang against Mumbai on Saturday to finish off in style and not to drag to the final day to see the light for the knock out stage. Poor fielding and middle order debacle are the big worries for this team.

Rajasthan Royals

The defending champions proved that they are one of the strong contenders for the title with a last ball win against Mumbai last day. Commitment, team work, shrewd captaincy all in one place gives the edge for this team, but inconsistency and poor batting being the worries, they need to work on these areas to carve their names on the trophy once again. One win will cement the place in the semis but playing against top ranked consistent Delhi and bottom ranked Kolkata which is aiming for a win for pride should be concerns. Loss against Delhi will put the team in trouble and a must win situation in the last game against Kolkata

Deccan Chargers

Winning 4 matches on the trot, and losing the last game of on the verge of win shows the inconsistency of the team which relies mostly on Gilchrist starts, they need to regroup quickly to earn a place in semis. Major worries being the inconsistent batting form of the middle order which was bolstered by the addition of Symonds, but the fielding on the last match was not up to the mark. This team also playing against Kolkata and kings XI Punjab (low ranked in the table) but have to win any one which is also a concern as opponents are aiming wins for pride. Having three matches and placed in 4^th position there is no talk of complacency for this team, as the resurgence of Bangalore being a concern for them who are placed very next to them in the tables with equal points. If Deccan losing the next two matches to Kolkata and Punjab, it will be a must win game for them against Bangalore on the last league match which Gilchrist and co. wont like.

Royal Challengers Bangalore

New resurgent team which ended up in the bottom of the table last year will aim for big turn around this season with two tough matches to be played against Delhi and Deccan. But the in-form Taylor has a say for this team to enter the semis, if they win against Delhi, Deccan will be in trouble and this team also won’t like to drag till the last game. Top order is being the worry for this team, captain Kumble and coach Jennings would have an eye on their current run rate. They will sure expect Deccan to lose one game at least and a win for them against Delhi which will put both the teams on the last day clash to grab a spot in semis.

Mumbai Indians

Having talked as one of the favorites at the start of this season, this team has let down themselves from there. Only two games in the chart against tougher opponents Chennai and Delhi, their spot on semis looks meager. They may not need a miracle for a turnover and Sachin, Amre, Pollock and co will expect Deccan, Bangalore and Rajasthan to lose their games against their respective opponents.

Kings XI Punjab

Huge expectation, good start, low performance and inconsistency, close finish games ending with losses are the tags for this team. Three games against tougher teams (Delhi, Deccan, Chennai) giving a least chance for this team to semis but wins in the rest of the games may have huge say in the table as well which will be big upsets for the near contenders for the semis. This team has the potential to do that. Being positive and committed in the field, most of all good bowling could give this team an edge for the top spots.

Kolkata Knight Riders

This team cannot make to the semis, but their comeback in the last game is remarkable, poor performances in batting, fielding & bowling are being the concern for them since the start of this season, but somehow got back in the batting in the last match, but not fully from the other two depts. Their wins against Deccan, Chennai, and Rajasthan may but their opponents in big trouble for the semifinals berth.

Regards

Rajesh Kumar R

Rebirth is uncertain, enjoy each moment of this Life.

Exotic arrival - The discovery of one more mystery particle Y(4140)

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Wed, 13 May 2009 03:51:00 +0000

The media has almost neglected this fascinating discovery (a series of them now) of the new particle christined as Y(4140) with signifies its mass of 4140 MeV (million electon volts). This article, published in Frontline by Ramachadran documents and educates on the discovery in detail. Which also goes to show that we are closing-in on the Antimatter based power generation systems for the Future... Lets hope that soon those antimatter propulstion systems that can take us through light years of travel in search of altair or an alternate for earth materializes rather than remaining fictious which can only be fantasised in Novels and fiction movies.

Altogether a great discovery posing fermilab still ahead of CERN which is still ailing in its injuries sustaining from last year during its epochal experiment. Looks like physics is set for another ride while the future looks promising for umpteen discoveries still to be made, it only raises the obvious questions how prepared are we as a wanna-be-developed-country ??? still a long way to go i guess.

Cheerz

Subbu

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SCIENCE

Exotic arrival - R. RAMACHANDRAN

The discovery of one more mystery particle, designated as Y(4140), throws up a lot of questions.

SOURCE: FERMILAB

ON March 18, the Fermi National Accelerator Laboratory (Fermilab) in Illinois, United States, announced that it had "found evidence of an unexpected particle whose curious characteristics may reveal new ways that quarks can combine to form matter". Fermilab houses the Tevatron, the most powerful particle accelerator until the Large Hadron Collider (LHC) at the European Organisation for Nuclear Research (CERN) – now scheduled to start operations in July after repairs following the mishap of September 19, 2008 (Frontline, January 30, 2009) – overtakes it.

The new particle has been temporarily designated as Y(4140), which signifies that it has a mass equivalent to 4,140 million electron volts (MeV) of energy – in the sense of Einstein’s mass-energy relation – and the symbol Y is indicative of its as yet unconfirmed and ill-understood status. Once its other characteristics besides mass, such as the intrinsic quantum properties and its internal structure, get established it may get a permanent name.

At the Tevatron, counterrotating beams of protons and antiprotons (the antimatter equivalents of protons), each with an energy of 980 billion, or giga, eV (GeV), are brought to collide head on. As protons and antiprotons annihilate at the collision points, a total of 1.96 trillion eV (TeV) of energy becomes available for particle production. Two major international experiments, called D-Zero (which has significant Indian participation) and CDF, are currently running at Fermilab. The experiments involve looking at trillions of collisions and analysing the vast amounts of data generated for signals of something new among the particles produced.

The Y(4140) discovery came from the data gathered at the CDF detector. Scientists found signatures that could not be explained with known particle processes and the resulting products. For appropriate signatures, scientists look at the spectrum of energy distribution of all, as well as subsets of, relatively long-lived final particles from the decays of short-lived particles (whose typical lifetimes are in the order of 10^-22 to 10^-23 seconds) that are produced by the proton-antiproton collisions. A bump in the energy distribution, or a clustering of events around a particular energy, would point to something significant (Figure 1).

At present, it is not clear what exactly Y(4140) is made of. It does not seem to fit into the known scheme for making up particles from the fundamental building blocks of matter called quarks (and their antimatter equivalents, the antiquarks). "It must be trying to tell us something," CDF spokesperson Jacobo Konigsberg said.

"So far, we are not sure what it is, but rest assured we’ll keep on listening," he was quoted as saying. Significantly, Y(4140) is not the first mystery particle to be discovered in recent times. In the last five years, physicists, particularly at the electron-positron collider experiments called Belle at KEK in Tsukuba, Japan, and BaBar at the Stanford Linear Accelerator Centre (SLAC), U.S., have seen signals of several other exotic particles – variously designated as X-, Y- and Z-particles with different masses – that cannot be explained in terms of conventional particle structure.

Clearly, all these discoveries are trying to say something that physicists are trying to decipher. Is it new physics? Or is it just new insights into the known physics of elementary particles? At this point, it seems to be the latter but physicists are yet to grasp the new insights and there are several ideas floating around. Tommaso Dorigo of Padova University and a member of the CDF collaboration wrote in his blog after the recent discovery: "While all eyes are pointed at the searches for the Higgs boson and supersymmetric particles [Frontline, October 10, 2008] if not even more exotic high-mass objects, and careers are made and unmade on those uneventful searches, it is elsewhere that action develops. Such discoveries tell the tale of a very prolific research field [of low-energy particle physics] where there is really a lot to understand."

The standard picture is based on what is known as the Standard Model (Figure 2), which describes all known matter and forces (except gravity). According to this model, the fundamental constituents of all matter are six quarks and six leptons and their antiparticles. The six quarks are called (somewhat whimsically): up (u), down (d), charm (c), strange (s), top (t) and bottom (b). These quarks and their antiquarks combine in different ways to make the particles that are produced in accelerator experiments. For example, three quarks make up a proton (two u quarks and one d quark) and a neutron (two d quarks and a u quark). In general, three quarks can bind to form other proton-like particles whose generic name is "baryon". Similarly, a quark-antiquark pair can also form a bound state whose generic name is "meson".

For example, the positively charged pi-meson, or pion, is made of a u quark and an anti-d (d-bar) quark. The J/psi-meson is made of a c quark and a c-bar quark. Mesons and baryons are collectively referred to as "hadrons".

But quarks themselves are not seen in isolation. This is because of the nature of the strong force, called the "colour force", that mediates between quarks. The word "colour" has nothing to do with its usual meaning and is merely a name given to a new type of charge that quarks carry. This "colour" charge comes in three varieties, often labelled as red, blue and green. The theory that describes this force is called quantum chromodynamics (QCD), analogous to the force of electrodynamics that mediates between electric charges. QCD posits that colour charge is confined within hadrons and can never emerge to be detected in an experiment unlike electric charge, which can exist in isolation. That is, quarks must always combine so that only "colourless" bound states are formed, which can be detected. That is, protons, pions and other particles that are created in collision experiments in accelerators, for example, should have quarks combined in such a fashion that they are colour-neutral (Figure 3).

It is the colour force that gives rise to a residual strong force that extends beyond a colour-neutral proton or neutron to bind them into a nucleus, much like the van der Waals force that allows electrically neutral atoms to bind into the molecules of chemistry.

The electromagnetic force between charged particles is described by the exchange of photons (light particles) between them, that is, a photon is the carrier of the electromagnetic force. Analogously, particles called "gluons" are the carriers of the colour force between quarks. However, there are crucial differences. Photons are massless and chargeless. But gluons, though massless, have a colour charge. That is, gluons, unlike photons, can interact with each other. Also, unlike a single carrier for electrodynamics, QCD requires eight gluons. These peculiar properties of gluons make the colour force drastically different from the coulomb force between electric charges. The latter, as we know, falls off as the inverse square of the distance between the charges.

The colour force, on the other hand, does not decrease with distance as the colour-carrying entities – quarks and gluons – are moved apart. This means that an immense amount of energy will be required to separate two coloured objects. This is why quarks are confined forever within hadrons (Figure 4). (One could, of course, imagine imparting a huge amount of force to separate quarks for a distance, say, about the diameter of a proton. But that would only result in pumping enough energy to create a real quark-antiquark pair and the process generating two colour-neutral particles from the initial one.)

The above simple picture of hadrons as a mere collection of two or three quarks, together with a set of approximations, provides a theoretical framework for calculations called the constituent quark model (CQM), and the model seems to describe hadrons at low energies pretty well. But this picture is overly naive because quarks are actually dressed in a force field of the mediating gluons, and all of them packaged together is the particle that one sees.

In fact, QCD allows for the number of quarks and gluons that constitute a hadron to fluctuate with time. The fluctuations are in the form of additional virtual gluons or quark-antiquark pairs. This is because of the underlying vacuum in the theory. At the quantum level, the vacuum is never empty. It is actually seething with virtual particle-antiparticle pairs ever so momentarily created and annihilated without violating any conservation laws (because of the quantum uncertainty principle). But the CQM ignores the constituent gluons, neglects these vacuum fluctuations and treats quark motion as non-relativistic.

SOURCE FERMILAB

THE Y(4140) DISCOVERY came from data gathered at the CDF detector (shown above), one of the two major international experiments currently running at Fermilab.

This picture of a particle as quarks plus a sea of virtual gluons and quark-antiquark pairs actually solves another problem with the naive quark model: quarks are much too light to account for the mass of the particles that they form.

Physicists now believe that these virtual particles constitute the missing mass – about 98 per cent in a proton, for example – that makes up a typical hadron. But can gluons, which account for the mass of hadrons, exist as colour-neutral objects devoid of quarks on their own? Since gluons carry colour charge and mutually interact, could gluons combine to form purely gluonic matter? Such objects are called glueballs. Similarly, gluons could also combine with quarks and antiquarks to form "hybrid" particles. Physicists have even conceived of four-quark (tetraquark) or five-quark (pentaquark) systems to form colour-neutral particles. One could also think of bound states of mesons, a kind of "mesonic" molecule, just as protons and neutrons bind to form nuclei. Nothing in QCD forbids such mesonic bound states as well or even baryonic bound states. These hybrids, glueballs and higher multiquark states are together called QCD exotics.

But are we now beginning to see evidence of these exotic objects? Eric Swanson of the University of Pittsburg believes that the CQM, which is an approximation that works well at lower energies, must fail somewhere. As he pointed out in a 2006 review article, "quark models are not QCD. But models do not seek to be QCD, rather they attempt to capture the dominant physics relevant to the problem at hand…. In this regard… quark models suffer from deficiencies which will become apparent as states higher in the spectrum are discovered." Are these discoveries evidence of deeper manifestations of the strong colour force beyond the CQM?

These new discoveries have been seen in the analyses of the production of what are called charmonium states, particles that are bound states of the c quark and its antiquark such as the prototype J/psi-meson and its higher-mass avatars, which are expected in the conventional CQM framework. Physicists look for these different charmonium particles in the decays of B-mesons (mesons containing a b-quark), which are copiously produced in the experiments at Belle (KEK), BaBar (SLAC), the Tevatron (Fermilab) and CLEO (Cornell). Being heavier particles, their decay modes favour production of various charmonium states.

According to Swanson, to date 16 new charmonium states have been discovered, of which, Y(4140) is the latest. "A great number of interpretations," Swanson said in an e-mail response, "have been proposed for these states. Of course, since there are very many interpretations, most of them must be wrong!"

THE QUARK MODEL: the proton and the pi-meson, or pion.

The manner of discovery of Y(4140) by CDF scientists was quite similar to that of other new particles. The signal for a particle at 4,140 MeV mass was seen in the decay of a much more commonly produced B⁺ meson. From trillions of collision events, they found a sample of about 80 events – the largest sample in the discoveries of such unusual decays so far, according to Tammaso – decaying in an unexpected pattern (Figure 5). Further analysis showed that B⁺ mesons were decaying into Y(4140), which was, in turn, found to decay into a pair of particles, J/psi-meson and a phi-meson. (The latter is made of s and s-bar quarks.) Though this decay mode suggests that it could be a charmonium state, its characteristics did not fit what is expected of a charmonium state.

"The properties of charmonium states are well predicted by theory," said Estia Eichten, a theorist at Fermilab involved with charmonium physics, in an e-mail response. "Y(4140) adds an important piece to the puzzle of new states discovered recently. However, the theory of these new states is not yet clear. There is not yet a consensus on Y(4140)’s composition. This, as well as the others, must have other active degrees of freedom, like gluons, to form a hybrid or an additional light quark pair to form a molecule or a tetraquark state. Theorists have not yet made reliable predictions for the spectrum and properties of such [exotic] states," Eichten added.

EXPERIMENTAL ARTEFACT?

Swanson, however, believes that Y(4140) may not be a real particle at all, the signal seen being just a statistical fluctuation or an experimental artefact. "If it is real," he said in his e-mail, "one must consider the possibility that it is a ‘threshold enhancement’. This happens quite often when two particles are produced, and because of their interactions, cause a bump in the signal…and eager experimentalists call them ‘particles’....Except for one thing. Threshold enhancements tend to be quite broad [but] Y(4140) is very narrow and so is quite unusual. My bottom line is that, if the state is confirmed, then it is an unusual thing indeed. But my bet is that this signal will go away with more statistics."

But Masanori Yamaguchi of the KEK believes that the state may be related to the Y(3940) discovered at Belle in 2004 and has been hypothesised to be a "hybrid" state. "We will try to confirm this state in our own Belle data," he said. However, Swanson believes that Y(3940) is also a threshold effect. For him, in his list of 16, only two – X(3872), one of the first of the new particles, discovered at Belle in 2003, and Y(4260), discovered at BaBar in 2005 – make the grade as real exotic particles.

"The X(3872) is the poster boy of the new heavy hadrons," Swanson wrote. "It has been observed by four experiments in three decay and two production channels and continues to refuse to fit into our expectations for charmonium," he said. Though it now stands established as a distinct new particle, the exact nature of its composition is still being hotly debated by physicists. One of the widely accepted interpretations for X(3872) is that it is a bound state – a "molecule" – of two other mesons, called D⁰ and anti-D^0*. (D⁰ is a combination of c and u-bar quarks; anti-D^0* is an excited state of its antiparticle anti-D⁰ made of c-bar and u quarks.) If true, it opens up an entirely new field of "chemistry of elementary particles", just like the chemistry of atoms.

If mesons can form such molecules, one could ask why we do not see molecules of the lighter mesons, such as the pion. "This is a question of dynamics," says Swanson. "In principle, a pi-pi bound state could exist, but when you solve the equations you find no bound states. It is because, one, there is no long range van der Waals force between pions, and two, pions are very light and therefore are difficult to bind together," he explains.

Y(4260), on the other hand, "is a very good candidate for a hybrid, which is a bound state of c, anti-c and gluons," says Swanson. "If confirmed, this would be the first sighting of a dramatically new form of matter, which incorporates gluons," he adds. Like these higher states of charmonium, higher state analogues of "bottomonium", composed of heavier b and b-bar quarks, are expected. Searches are on for these and some candidates like Y_b have been found at Belle. But top quarks are so heavy that they decay before they can form bound states. So the story is unlikely to repeat with "toponium".

QUANTUM CHROMODYNAMICS: THE colour force and quark separation and confinement.

The discovery of glueballs would, of course, be yet another intriguing story. Though candidates for this have been seen, the f⁰ states discovered in 2006, they are still unconfirmed. But, as Swanson points out, a theoretical framework to handle glueballs could be particularly problematic as they are states of pure gluons, with which physicists have no experience, and existing models are untested and numerical predictions less reliable.

Though there is a lot of evidence now that nature is presenting us with a tantalising hint of unusual happenings at energy scales of 10s of GeV, something not expected in the standard picture that had worked so well until now, it appears that there is as yet no need to invoke new physics beyond the Standard Model and the extended application of QCD in detailed "quark-gluon spectroscopy".

These discoveries have brought surprise and excitement only because, as Swanson put it, "nature is more complex than it had indicated to date. The discoveries also teach us important things about how QCD actually works. In the end, we are learning how the Standard Model and QCD build up the universe."•

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Pasted Smiles -of lives of abject despair

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:59:00 +0000

Many a times, everyone of us would encounter a situation in life where he/she moves around with what I would call as "pasted smiles". It’s a scenario where you know are feeling something within; and at the same time your ego doesn’t allow you to express what you feel within. At that point of time, even if you are so much overwhelmed by emotion that you would want to let out a wild outcry, what is seen on you is a smile on your face, which is completely artificial. You laugh around when there are tears flowing uncontrollably within you. You joke around when the only thing that you want is a period of solitude where you can get rid of your pains and tears. Its one of the trickiest scenarios in life. This situation of duality within you creates a whole lot of trouble within you; and makes your life extremely miserable – so much so that you ask that question to yourself; whether you deserve to go through all of these. Being in pain is one thing; but living through it as if it doesn’t exist is an entirely different cup of tea.

These "pasted smiles" phenomenon is what i am encountering often in my life all too often these days; too much for my comfort. Be it when I talk to my boss or when I converse with the security at my flatts, when I talk to relatives, strangers... It goes on.. Only that I feel that the reaction differs from person to situations. But its all the same, more reactive than expressing what I actually feel. The more I try to run away from it, it hits me at a much rapid pace that I am completely taken aback. There is an element of helplessness within me these days; which makes me get a resigned attitude though I believe I had come to terms with it as just another part of life.

At times I wounder have I forgotten to have what is called as a genuine laugh in life? Have I forgotten what it is to enjoy my life? I guess its becoming all too mechanical these days. The sense of being cynical is quickly catching up with me. Its come to an extent where I would be surprised when something good happens with me. Maybe that’s the best indicator that I am not traveling in the right direction in life. Its becoming increasingly aimless these days; its as if I am allowing myself to drift along with the strong strident waves of a rampant river. I am now struggling to give resistance to the bad things that happens within me; moreover I am starting to take it as the norm.

Its not that I am reluctant to change. But irrespective all my efforts to change the way I am, nothing seems to change. Its really troublesome; its really painful. Unfortunately I don’t find a way out. Is it that destiny has consigned me to live a life of despair riddled with pasted smiles all over? Don’t worry rest of the word; I am still smiling – even if its not exactly what I want to do at this point of time. I guess that’s what destiny has in stor for me – life of abject despair…

The Curious Case Of Fake IPL Player

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:33:00 +0000

The IPL is in full swing in South Africa. Apart from the cricket that is on show, something else hass captured the imagination of at least the world of bloggers. It's the blog from someone who claims himself to be part of the KKR team, giving out details about the ego clashes with-in the team, the way they prepare and react. True insider information stuff. As blogging world is completely buzzing about this, most of the readers are trying to find who this chap is. All in all, he has become one of the superstars of this IPL season. His blog www.fakeiplplayer.blogspot.com has become one of the most sought after blog page in the country now. Lots of people are following this blog; so do I. Its become some sort of an addiction. There was a pause in his posting for a day or so; and rumors started flying around saying that he could have been caught and we may not get any more blogs from him. And then he resurfaces again every night. The popularity of his blog was so much that I got five sms messages from my friends following this blog when the update happened. Guess what, the entire world is waiting...

The good part of his blog is that he is saying things with a whole lot of satire and sarcasm. One cannot help but accept the fact that people love to hate the KKR. More often than not, its got to do with the flamboyance of its owner Shah Rukh Khan. And then there is the Dada angle as well. I don't think Indian cricket ever had a more polarizing figure than Sourav Ganguly. And when he was axed from the captaincy of the KKR team, people thought of a conspiracy angle to all of that, the foreigners were conspiring against him and the team owner was hand in glove with all of that. Hence the blogging world which I consider as a small sample size of the real world was waiting for an opportunity to latch on to something rotten in the KKR setup. They had a shot in the arm when this mysterious blogger surfaced. People accepted him with open arms. Everyone hopes that he is never caught and we continue to get this never ending doze of insider information about the team. The popularity of the blog is so evident from the number of comments he gets for each of his posts. One thing is for sure; even if his cricketing career is over once he gets caught, he can definitely make a living with his writings.

The best part of his blog are the names that he uses for the players in his blog. The best one for one Indian fast bowler hailing from God's own Country , 'Appam Chutiya'. I laughed like hell when I came across this name for the first time. Man… this guy has a seriously good sense of humor. The other names include, 'Prince Charles of Patiala' for Yuvraj Singh, 'Vinnie Dildo' for team owner SRK, 'Lordie' for Sourav Ganguly, 'Little John' for Ishaant Sharma, 'Sheikh of Tweak' for Shane Warne. Wonder how his guy managed to have such a good sense of humor… Every time I read his blog, there is a big grin across my face. I am pretty sure that would be the case for almost everyone who reads this blog, except the KKR guys. If they were given a choice, they would have shot this guy off from the edge of a cliff…he he...

You need to be damn brave to be able to write something like this. You are literally putting your head on the chopping block. Be rest assured that he is going to loose the contract once he is going to get caught. And he will be caught some day. coz all good things come to an end some day. But till that day comes, the cricket buffs in the blogging world would be treated to some seriously good insider information. Just enjoy the fun as long as it lasts.

Also while he decided to reveal himself after the final days play, he then seemed to have succumbed to fear it seems as he has post a poll now to know from ppl what they want him to do. Whatever happens a serious drama is always on the cards.

Its been a long time….

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Tue, 05 May 2009 01:30:00 +0000

Its been a long time…since i posted some musings...

Had been busy with my work… if you can call it that...But yes, i felt very bad about my time management.

I am going to start blogging again like old times…

To those few readers out there who still are longing for my pandemonic musings, I am Back

FW: valuable vote

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 04:21:00 +0000

Do you know your VOTE value?

In madurai (Azhukkiri's den) its about Rs. 4000 \ Vote. I guess in chennai its about Rs.500 at some places...

Isn't that all we know about the value of a Vote. TOI as a part of its Lead India initiative telecasts an Ad campaign with the theme "Power Of One". Its high time ppl choose to vote rather than remaining passive and just uttering their curses on the politicians, the whole system, the infrastructure and THERE ARE PPL who complain just about everything without even bothering to raise their finger a little. They i guess are a serious threat to our democracy. (while even i have second thoughts about democracy being a social change driver, make some noise and be the change you wish to see.).

I feel like this has shifted to answer those few ppl. but only to tell you guyz that u ppl are too many. And thinking that you are different you have all grown alike. With those same hatred envying the grown-up's. Dont you understand that you ppl are not only spoiling yourself but the whole ppl surrounding you and which only intensifies the hatred amongst ourselves. And these i feel are the most corrupt, most opportunistic, self-opined and egoistic kinds who think of themselves as a genius but only to find that they are not. I know that being self-opined is not an issue as long as its constructive to the development of the self and the nation as a whole.

Now coming back to the subject, I guess Voting gives us the right to Complain. Before just sitting and complaining about the attrocities happening around you, raise your hand, Be counted and then make some noise and that will hold high the torch for others. There is no hiding the fact that we are deficient but we are not weak. we just need the drive for which we need the right people. Whoever stands as a candidate may not be the one. But the change will only come with time. The time that is in our hands. When the whole world is thriving and seeking the Change. Maybe its time we should change too. No more pep talks and blasphemys, its time to seek the change and choose to vote Now this applies to me as well.

I started this as a single line pretext but went on to rant an rave line by line. Sorry for that. For i know i should change too... but atleast im trying...

Cheers

SUBU

From: naraynans16 [mailto:naraynans16@gmail.com]
Sent: Thursday, April 23, 2009 11:24 PM
To: chuppandi@gmail.com
Subject: [thinks naraynan do] valuable vote

Do you know your VOTE value?

Are you aware of Section 49(o) of the Peoples' Representation Act under the Constitution of INDIA?

This section is the real weapon in the hands of every INDIAN citizen, if he wishes to express his choice of NOT voting any of the contestents in a Polling Booth, if he thinks that the contestants are NOT competant.

This right is available to every electorate under our constitution, as per the amended 1969 Act, under section49(o), that a person can go to the polling booth, confirm his identity, get his fingerprint marked and convey to the presiding Election Officer that he doesn’t want to VOTE anyone in the voting screen!

YES such a feature is available, but obviously these provisions have never been disclosed to the electrate.

A) Under section 49(o) if the electorate deciding not to vote, can have his electrol roll number duly entered in the register of voters in Form-17A and have his signature or thumb impression put thereon as required under sud-rule (1) of rule 49L, in the event of deciding not to VOTE, a remark to this effect shall be made against the said entry in Form 17A by the presiding officer and the signature or thumb impression of the electorate shall be obtained against such remark.

B) Why should you go to the polling booth and say " I VOTE NONE?” In a given constituency if a candidate wins, say by 123 VOTES and that particular constituency has received Negative votes under section 49(o) which are more than 123, then that polling will be cancelled and re-poll has to be ordered.Not only that - but also that the candidature of the previous contestants will be removed and they cannot contest the re-polling once again, since electorate had already expressed their decision on them.

C) This would instill fear in the minds of the political parties and they would look for genuine candidates for their parties for the election. This would bring the necessary changes in our political system. Further, if this section 49(o) of the constitution is made public and gets Media Coverage, this will act as a deterant to all political parties from wrong choice of candidates.

D) Thus, expressing your desire not to vote for anybody, is even more powerful than VOTING… So don’t miss your chance!

Courtesy:

Ghansham Ojha,

F&P IYSO Team INDIA,

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Posted By naraynans16 to thinks naraynan do at 4/22/2009 11:24:00 AM

You're not chicken, are you?

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Wed, 08 Apr 2009 08:22:00 +0000

There once was a chicken farmer who was a keen rock climber. One day, climbing a particularly challenging rock face, he came upon a wide ledge.

On the ledge was a big nest and in the nest there were three large eggs. Eagle eggs.

He knew it was very un-ecological and definitely illegal, however temptation got the better of him and he discreetly put one of the eagle eggs in his rucksack.

Then he climbed down and went back to his ranch, and put the egg in the hen house.

That night the mother hen sat on the huge egg, the proudest chicken you've ever seen (and the cock seemed pretty pleased with himself as well!).

In the fullness of time the egg hatched and the baby eagling emerged. It looked around and saw the mother hen.

"Mama!" it squawked.

As time passed the eagle grew up with its brother and sister chicks. It learnt to do all the things that chickens do.

It clucked and cackled, it scratched in the dirt for worms, flapping its wings furiously, and flying a few feet into the air before crashing to earth in a pile of dust and feathers.

And believing above all things that it was totally a chicken.

Year after year passed, until one bright sunny day the eagle-who-thought-it-was-a-chicken, looked up into the sky.

High overhead, soaring majestically on the thermal currents, flying effortlessly with scarcely a beat of its powerful golden wings, was an eagle.

"What's that?" said the eagle-who-thought-it-was-a-chicken in awe to a farmyard neighbour.

"Its magnificent. So much power and grace. Poetry in motion."

"That's an eagle," said the chicken. "That's the King of the Birds. It's a bird of the air. However we, we're only chickens, we're birds of the earth."

And so it was, the eagle lived and died a chicken, because that's all it thought it was.

Now there are very few soaring eagles in this world.

Most people listen and look to other chickens and follow their lead.

You can never attain the heights of success by having unsuccessful role-models. And following the general flock can only end up in mediocrity.

Something to think about.

The first step to becoming an eagle is choosing the RIGHT role-models for what you want to become.

What are your desires?

Who have you seen or heard about, who has successfully attained similar desires?

If you want their success you'll want to start doing the things they do to achieve that success.

No matter what you want to do.

Write a novel. Run for office. Get better grades. Climb Mount Everest. Change your diet. Learn another language. Run a billion dollar company....

Or whatever your heart desires.

Everything could be achieved

Be Soaring Eagle rather than whining Chicken……….

What U Deserve ??!! think over it

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Fri, 27 Mar 2009 11:23:00 +0000

It was quarter to one at night when I hit the door bell. My wife opened the door. She had been awake as usual. Waiting for me had become a daily routine for her. Unlike I expected, the house looked normal. I put my laptop on the recliner and went straight into my bedroom, freshened up and got busy with the book - "An autobiography of a yogi."

My wife came in with a piece of cake in her hand. "We waited for you till 9. But it was getting late and your parents pushed to carry on and finish", she said handing over that cake to me. Something stung me deeply for it was my daughter's first birthday. I had almost forgotten that I had a daughter and a feeling of guilt told me that I did not deserve that piece of cake; it felt heavy when the first bite went down my throat.

"Karthik," she used to call me by name, "look at me", she said. I turned my gaze away from the book onto her face. I saw tears in her eyes. "Have I, in the last two years, ever asked you why you come home late every day? Have I ever asked you to take me out with you, even to the temple that you go alone every weekend? Have I ever told you how it feels to attend family functions without you?" I turned back to the book. "Karthik, please look at me, will you? I need an answer today."

I always knew that I would have to face this sometime. "No, you wouldn't understand even if I tell", I replied. "Really? What is it? Please tell me. I know that you agreed to our marriage only because you did not want to disappoint your parents. I know that I'm your wife only for the sake of it. But why should Gaargi suffer because of all this? Doesn't she deserve to be called your daughter? What is her fault?" my wife asked with tears running down. She had never cried in front of me. I looked at my one year old daughter; Gaargi was special to me, for her name reminded me of a very special person in my life.

"Srishti, I am really very sorry. I don't know how to tell all this and I'm not sure how you'll take it. You are not my first love. I had never liked any girl in my life until I met a very nice person who, I decided, would not only be my first love but also the only love in my entire life", my eyes started to fill up, "I can never imagine my life without…" "Your mother told me. I know everything but I wanted you to tell", she interrupted. I wasn’t surprised; two years is a very long time for a secret to be kept in a family. It looked like she wanted me to somehow raise this and then she started.

"Karthik, have I ever made you feel that I had been betrayed by someone who I thought would be the only person in my life?" Her question confused me for a moment, 'Is she talking about me?' I asked myself. "He, not you, was the first man in my life and I too had dreamt that he will be the only one ever. But our relationship collapsed after 5 months of our engagement when I came to know that he was already married. My parents were more than broken when they found this out, for they were the ones who had found this person through some marriage bureau. I went into depression and had attempted suicide twice, but somehow survived. See, even God does not want me. So I decided to live on as life takes me, although I knew that I will not be able to forget any bit of it."

It took some time for all this to sink in. I was perplexed.

"Karthik, I know that you too had given all the love of your life to her. I also know that she never reciprocated your love and that she was never ready to accept you as her man even though you were ready to sacrifice yourself for her. But don't you think it should always flow both ways? Don't you think that it is not worth crying over someone who cannot feel your love? Is it fair on your part to ignore someone who is craving for your love and actually deserves it? Look into my eyes. Don't you see anything which suggests that I deserve to be loved by you? I know Karthik, I know that there's some space in your heart that has been made for me. I can see it in your eyes too. When I look into them I do not feel sad that there's a lot of pain in it. Instead I see that part of it which tells me that I'm not completely unwanted. So I ask you the same thing that you had asked her, 'Please give me a chance'. Don't tell me that you cannot love me even a little. I know you do and Gaargi is the proof."

I could not speak more. Srishti too could not. She rested her head on my shoulder. For the first time I kissed on her forehead.

I guess that is what one has to learn. First love is very special. It is something to be remembered for a lifetime but not something for which an entire life can be wasted in grieving over it.

Sometimes you get what you want...
Sometimes you get what you need...
But you're always gonna get what you DESERVE !!!

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Yenna kodumai saravanan ithu

- Chuppandi

FW: [Trainers Forum] A Violinist in the Metro

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 08:21:00 +0000

This is a fabulous piece! Imagine, what all we miss in our 'hurried & harried' lives ... like William Henry Davies puts it in 'Leisure':

Leisure

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.

No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.

A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

William Henry Davies

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A man sat at a metro station in Washington DC and started to play the violin; it was a cold January morning. He played six Bach pieces for about 45 minutes. During that time, since it was rush hour, it was calculated that thousand of people went through the station, most of them on their way to work.

Three minutes went by and a middle aged man noticed there was musician playing. He slowed his pace and stopped for a few seconds and then hurried up to meet his schedule.

A minute later, the violinist received his first dollar tip: a woman threw the money in the till and without stopping continued to walk.
A few minutes later, someone leaned against the wall to listen to him, but the man looked at his watch and started to walk again. Clearly he was late for work.

The one who paid the most attention was a 3 year old boy. His mother tagged him along, hurried but the kid stopped to look at the violinist. Finally the mother pushed hard and the child continued to walk turning his head all the time. This action was repeated by several other children. All the parents, without exception, forced them to move on.

In the 45 minutes the musician played, only 6 people stopped and stayed for a while. About 20 gave him money but continued to walk their normal pace. He collected $32. When he finished playing and silence took over, no one noticed it. No one applauded, nor was there any recognition.

No one knew this but the violinist was Joshua Bell, one of the best musicians in the world. He played one of the most intricate pieces ever written with a violin worth 3.5 million dollars.

Two days before his playing in the subway, Joshua Bell sold out at a theater in Boston and the seats average $100.

This is a real story. Joshua Bell playing incognito in the metro station was organized by the Washington Post as part of an social experiment about perception, taste and priorities of people. The outlines were: in a commonplace environment at an inappropriate hour: Do we perceive beauty? Do we stop to appreciate it? Do we recognize the talent in an unexpected context?

One of the possible conclusions from this experience could be:

If we do not have a moment to stop and listen to one of the best musicians in the world playing the best music ever written, how many other things are we missing?

Retirement Dinner

noreply@blogger.com (Chuppandi) — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 03:36:00 +0000

Retirement Dinner

A priest was being honored at his retirement dinner after 25 years in the parish. A leading local politician and member of the congregation were chosen to make the presentation and give a little speech at the dinner. He was delayed, so the priest decided to say his own few words while they waited.

"I got my first impression of the parish from the first confession I heard here. I thought I had been assigned to a terrible place. The very first person who entered my confessional told me he had stolen a television set and, when questioned by the police, was able to lie his way out of it. He had stolen money from his parents, embezzled from his employer, had an affair with his boss's wife, and taken illegal drugs. I was appalled. But as the days went on I knew that my people were not all like that and I had, indeed, come to a fine parish full of good and loving people.".....

Just as the priest finished his talk, the politician arrived full of apologies at being late. He immediately began to make the presentation and gave his talk. "I'll never forget the first day our parish priest arrived," said the politician. "In fact, I had the honor of being the first one to go to him in confession."

Moral: NEVER, NEVER, NEVER BE LATE!!