A stitch in time

Death of my mum

2008-09-23T10:08:00.005+01:00

Well I haven't posted for such a long time and so much has been happening and has happened. My time over the past few months has been split between work, my mum and my partner. At the end of last month I was forced to take special leave and rearrange my annual leave and maternity leave to rush up to be with my mum. I had been faxed a letter at work that put everything into perspective, mum had weeks rather than months to live. This from the doctors at Priscilla Bacon Lodge, Colmans Hospital,...

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Old friends

2008-06-26T11:09:00.002+01:00

It's funny, over the past few years I would look every so often for my friends from home on the internet, never finding them and finally giving up on looking. Now over the past month so many of them have turned up on facebook, that I now have more non-work friends on there than work friends. Previously my facebook account was just a way to keep in touch with my friends from work. I've found that finding everyone shows how much we all move on; I mean there are people now that I grew up with,...

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Late night ramble

2008-06-21T01:46:00.003+01:00

Well I haven't handed in my notice, stupid as it sounds I don't have enough money to move out so another month will go by with my things in one place and me in another, paying rent for somewhere that I don't live. I'm in this situation because I won't ask him for help and I have to help my mum. Life is *%$* sometimes. Tonight I find myself alone at 1:45am as he's gone to do a spot check on the night staff, see how tight my Trust is. Mind I'm laughing as my ward is as good as gold, none of our...

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Happiness overcast

2008-05-27T22:27:00.003+01:00

I fell asleep last night thinking how lucky I was yet at the same time I silently cried myself to sleep. It's difficult to be happy when there is a big shadow looming over that happiness. This past weekend it was decided that I would hand my notice in on my flat within the next month and officially move in with the father of my baby, we spoke about the babies room (it's currently blue) and that it could be left blue if we have a girl it would just need lots of girly accessories added. We did...

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Age and relationships

2008-05-13T21:33:00.003+01:00

I was told when I first got with my new fella that "he's an old man, why would an old man want to be with a young woman like you?" this from my ex without him know that there was only 5 years difference between them. Today I was left thinking about how my mother felt when I was 14 years old seeing someone who was 7 years older than me, well there's obvious reasons there anyway. Something came up about a 21 year old with a 40 year old, I wondered how I would feel about my daughter at 21 being...

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Anti-spam Post - Updated

2008-05-07T07:30:00.003+01:00

Okay just a few days ago I posted about my blog being spammed, well this is my pay back post to past and future spammers. I'll begin by explaining about spam bots; they are much like web crawlers, the bots we rely on to get our blogs on the search engines, spambots however collect email addresses for the spammers to send you unsolicited email, the main reason you show your email address as an image on your page rather than regular text. Mister Linky tells me that if the Mister Linky widget is...

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Mum has cancer again

2008-05-04T09:55:00.004+01:00

This past few weeks I realise how very lucky I am, a week ago Wednesday my mum was diagnosed with lung cancer having had a full mastectomy last year to remove a lump and a second operation a couple of months later to remove a second lump in the same place. Also going through both Chemotherapy and radiotherapy. Since hearing the news I have been distraught and depressed, something she tells me will make my baby come out crying for now reason all the time, yes her sense of humour is still...

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New home for my dog

2008-04-08T11:55:00.003+01:00

What do you do when you have a pet and you know that pet won't be able to handle life with a baby? That is the problem I face, at the moment my dog Bouncer is staying at my mums, he's been there since last year when I split with my ex and was forced to move into the nurses home next to work. He has since I got him been my baby, so maybe the problem I face is my own fault. Now I find myself pregnant and I know Bounce will get jealous, and more than that he is unpredictable at the best of...

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Just for a laugh

2008-03-19T08:26:00.003Z

This is an actual letter from an Austin woman sent to American company Proctor and Gamble regarding their feminine products. She really gets rolling after the first paragraph. It's PC Magazine's 2007 editors' choice for best webmail-award-winning letter. Dear Mr. Thatcher, I have been a loyal user of your 'Always' maxi pads for over 20 years and I appreciate many of their features. Why, without the LeakGuard...

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Forced Marriages

2008-03-11T22:39:00.003Z

This deserves a more detailed post, at the moment though I just want to make a short post that I will come back to at a later date. Before college this morning I heard that over 2000 children were missing from school registers in the UK, the government is looking into these missing children and suspect they have been shipped off abroad and into forced marriages. This morning there was a young lady who had been in this exact predicament herself, she spoke about children as young as 10 years...

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Wordless Wednesday

2008-03-05T00:00:00.002Z

Mermaids purse by chronicdoodler Click image to enlarge Click here for an explanation of this weeks choice Wordless Wednesday Participants1. SandyCarlson 2. maryt/the teach 3. jams o donnell4. ellen b 5. jenn in holland 6. Sreisaat7. eastcoastlife 8. poor man\'s nicole richieCheck out the new Wordless Wednesday HQ!! View More Wordless Wednesday ParticipantsPowered by... Mister Linky's Magical Widgets.

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New blog

2008-02-23T11:28:00.003Z

It may be short lived, it may not be, but for the time being I am posting more on my new blog from conception to beyond. I will still post here from time to time, but time is limited what with my life suddenly beginning to spiral out of my control and into something new. Work is difficult as I'm am dodging trouble and violent patients with only two members of staff watching out for me as I don't want to declare anything too early. I am also still attending University and in general I'm tired...

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Love

2008-02-15T00:47:00.003Z

Months ago I was asked if I had ever really been in love, my answer after some thought was "no, I thought that I had been but if I had I wouldn't be able to turn it off so quickly. The only time I would say I had been was when I was in my teens, but he died so it's questionable as to how I really felt due to the emotions of death and loosing someone". Now every so often I find myself going back to sites that belong top my ex, I feel noting seeing photos of another woman that he has taken...

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Wordless Wednesday

2008-02-13T00:35:00.001Z

poisoned kisses by Princess of Shadows Click image to enlarge Wordless Wednesday Participants1. Chris 2. SandyCarlson3. Nissa\'s Niceties 4. maryt/theteach5. Living wellCheck out the new Wordless Wednesday HQ!! View More Wordless Wednesday ParticipantsPowered by... Mister Linky's Magical Widgets.

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All fixed now ???

2008-02-11T12:37:00.000Z

Well the guys have been back three times now, they say that the tiles were coming away in the shower upstairs hence my leaky ceiling and electrics. They've fixed his tiles and are letting him know not to use his shower today. Tomorrow morning we'll see how well they repaired things upstairs. I now have a brand new mattress to replace the water damaged one of 10 days ago, the bed is half made but not being a trusting person it's all leaning against the wall away from any leaks. They tell me...

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10 days later

2008-02-11T11:31:00.001Z

I've just come home again to find serious water marks all over the ceiling and a half full bowl. Thankfully I hadn't put the bed back so that's dry along with my bedding. I reported it all over an hour ago and still they haven't come to even look at it. I've taken more photos of the water marks. I think this was possible the last thing I needed today, I'm supposed to stay here tonight, guess I'll be on the floor.

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Wet again

2008-02-01T10:42:00.001Z

My bed was almost dry, I could curl up at the top end stay dry and warm, this was about half seven this morning. I must have drifted off when suddenly I was woken by a deafening screaming noise, as I came round I realised it was the fire alarm. Water was pouring through it again and within minutes the near empty bowl was half full and the bed was wet again. It was half eight at this time and the alarm was too much to handle, I got my keys and headed for reception, the same security guard was...

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Rain drops keep falling on my bed

2008-02-01T03:58:00.000Z

I'm sitting here awake at 4am because I can't go to bed, can't even make a bed up on the floor as my covers are all soaked. No, not because I had an accident and lost bladder control but because there's water dripping from the smoke alarm right above my bed. It's so typical, I hardly ever stay here, in fact it's the first time I've been here for weeks, I normally stay at my boyfriends even when I work night shift nowadays. This has caused me to see far more of a work mate than I ever wanted...

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Stupidly Annoyed

2008-01-27T02:06:00.000Z

Whilst sitting here feeling a little bored I was browsing the net and found a comment that made my blood boil. It's sad because I shouldn't let things like this bother me but I've taken it as a dig towards me. Memorable Moment: A long time ago when all the grown ups were still alive and we were innocents waking up to a new world every day; learning about life through play with very little care for anything other than our immediate world. To me, this is the most important memory that anyone can...

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Wordless Wednesday

2008-01-23T00:00:00.000Z

Rebirth of Hope by Iribel Click image to enlarge This is my Tuesday/Wednesday edition for WW, guess this is the easiest way to do this now. I'm now using auto-links, this means you have to comment to have a link left in the Mister Linky links, when you comment just ensure the little box is checked at the bottom of the main comment box and that you are using the comment link and not the Blogger comment link. Wordless Wednesday Participants1. maryt/theteach 2. Indonesian WAHM 3. The...

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2008-01-18T13:26:00.000Z

Back at home after just one night away. The travel (an hour and a half train journey) really seems to have taken it out of me. Yesterday when mum was having yet more blood tests done as she developed blood clots during the Chemo (she is actually really lucky as she had had some of the milder symptoms for a while before it was discovered that she had bilateral Pulmonary Embolisms), I stayed home waiting for a delivery that I knew was coming. My other half had given me money when he left for...

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Happy News

2008-01-16T22:38:00.000Z

At the moment I'm home with my mum, she was discharged from hospital on Monday after having aggressive surgery to remove a second cancerous lump that developed at rapid speed during the first week of her radiotherapy (was there a link? I don't know.) Today we all went back to the hospital to get her results; the tissue tests on the removed mass showed the the cancer tissue was surrounded by health tissue, so it would suggest that they removed all the cancer, the scans do not show any more...

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Geeky type post about video games

2008-01-10T12:23:00.000Z

Years ago when I had my Dreamcast I had the game Ecco the Dolphin, so that must've been around 2000. It had to be the hardest game I had ever tried to play and it made no sense to me, seemingly with no clear objectives. The graphics were really pretty though. Anyone who had a DC back then will know that the graphics were pretty amazing on most games, Soul Calibur for example was released on the Play Station under a slightly different title (Soul Edge or Blade) just a couple of years before...

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Frustration and news

2008-01-09T09:41:00.000Z

I'm so frustrated, my mum went into hospital on Sunday afternoon, she had her operation to remove more cancer on Monday. I'm not allowed to talk to her and I can't even send her flowers as they are not allowed on the ward. Yesterday I called her mobile and a nurse answered, for starters that is out of order, fine tell the patient they need to turn it off but DO NOT answer it for them !!! Over the weekend while I was working we had an incident where a bank staff (temporary staff) started...

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2007 summed up

2008-01-06T01:53:00.000Z

Thought I would do a bit of reflection over the last year and more so the last few months of the year as that is when major changes happened in my life, so here goes with a summary to begin. The beginning of 2007: My now past long term partner and I took a break, I was heartbroken and cried my way through it, communicating via email we managed to get back together. We go to the Lakes and to Paris. Mid 2007: We decided to buy a house in the Lakes, well near the Lakes anyway. We began house...

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