Write and Create - 20 minute short story.

One day I decided to become fearless.  Who am I writing for, who am I creating for?

Me, right!  Does it matter if someone enjoys what I write or create? No!  The fear is lifted!  Many have written and created before me and many will after me too!  Let the writing and creating begin.  I am free and I am fearless.

So, with this thought I enter the jungle, full of beautiful butterflies, wild birds, heinous hyenas, delicately dancing deer, the gentle gurgling of the brook, the energetic jumping of the frogs, the slimy slithering of the worms, the hot and burning rays of the sun.   The forest is alive, wonderful, inviting, sensational and all embracing.  It is a joy, a fear, an uplifting of the spirit, the dread of the dark… endless, always endless.

There, the night falls. All is tranquil, quiet, serene, a tad too quiet.  I listen, is there a sound of the leaves rustling?  Is there a mouse or an equally small creature, scampering for last minute shelter?  What is that I hear now? Is it the moon speaking to me?  I look up.  There it is sharing the light of the sun and shining bright through the myriads of leaves on the trees.  It looks somewhat sinister, but is that simply my imagination? My mind plays games.  After all, whatever the moon will say to me comes from somewhere within me.  So, the question arises, what am I thinking? 

Lo, behold, now I cannot see the moon, it’s hiding behind a huge cloud.  But the cloud has a beauteous shape. It looks like a mermaid!  Is there a mermaid in the sky?  Well, all is possible right! It is all in my mind and my mind can create and write whatever it wishes to. Now the mermaid smiles at me.  I want to believe it is a sweet, innocent smile, but alas, it is not!  As she smiles her mouth turns upwards, her eyeballs recede into her eyes and she looks like she is accessing some astral planes.  I look at this image, mesmerised at the piercing eyes looking straight at me.  Then she smiles, it is a smile that knows.  It is a smile that can solve the mystery.  But,what is the mystery?  My mind takes a somersault.  It is reeling with confusion, with anxiety, with the profound desire to solve the mystery.  The mermaid knows and she also knows that I don’t know. 

I move away, slowly to begin with and then my pace gets faster until I am beginning to run.  Running in search of something or running away from someone.  My legs are carrying me so fast, I almost feel like I am flying.  Oh, shall I take off then. My feet lift off the ground, higher and higher up towards the unknown.  I am flying!  Is it possible, could I be?  I look down, and there is the beautiful forest far, far below.  I look up and find myself staring straight at the mermaid! My mind screams, “what, this is not happening, is it really possible”?  I am afraid to stop flying in case the magic is lost. Don’t be afraid a voice says to me, fear freezes, desire frees.  So, keep the fire lighting, keep the magic alive, keep the desire to fly burning, keep going. 

The journey becomes one of circling the mermaid.  I cannot help but go around and around the mermaid, all the time my eyes locked into hers. She is keeping me captivated and enthralled at the same time. Suddenly I see her lips move. She is saying something to me.  But what is she saying?  The sound of the air around us is not carrying her words, or is she not saying anything I am meant to hear?  I pay attention, I want to know.  She begins to laugh at my chagrin.  It becomes a roaring laughter, loud and overwhelming.  I cannot make out whether she is a friend or a foe.  Is she both at the same time? 

Without a warning, this mysterious mermaid reaches out her arms towards me. Her slim, delicate fingers beckon me closer to her.  I feel like I have known her for the longest of times, but at the same time she also feels very distant.  What do I make of this sentiment?  Tears well up in my eyes, I feel frustrated, angry and impatient. I want so badly to just know, to become, be free of my angst.  I take a deep breath in and step out.  I step out of myself.  I see the rigid, tense, tight jawed being that I am.  I make a conscious decision.  I reset.  I take another deep breath in and close my eyes. I watch vigilantly at each cell in my body becoming more and more relaxed.

 Now, I get disturbed again!  I see a bird, an injured bird.  I don’t want to be distracted, but the bird needs me.  It is suffering immensely. The need of the bird is urgent, I must respond, I must help.  I fly towards the bird with the clipped wings and without warning it comes towards me and rests in my outstretched palms.  I see its little heart beating. I see the anguish, the pain, the suffering in the eyes.  But what else do I see - hope! I see the will to survive and to serve.  I hear the bird whispering in my ear, “save me, help me, I have two babies in the nest and they are waiting for me”! I bring the bird close to my heart and as I do that, I become the bird.  I have become the bird.  We are one – no separation.  My energy merges with the energy of the bird.  I feel every emotion so strongly, that I have no choice but to become calm and heal.  I have no idea how long we stay like that for and eventually the bird flies away.  I watch it go and my heart soars to heights I did not know exist.  I know the bird will be fine.

But where is the mermaid?  I had forgotten about her.  I look around.  I am still high above the clouds. My mind wants to look downwards to gauge how far up I am.  However, every fibre in my body tells me to look upwards to see how far up I can soar and who else I can meet on my journey.  I close my eyes, take a deep breath and begin to fly.  I have wings, the wind is behind me.  I am going so fast, shooting upwards and then…

It is dark, pitch dark. My eyes are open, but I cannot see anything.  I am not on my feet, I am crawling, slowly. I can feel moist soil underneath me.  My hands and feet are damp and feel like they are covered in mud.  Where am I?  A moment ago, I was flying, or was that a long time ago?  Time and space do not exist in my existence.  They do not make sense, or are they amalgamated into each other? Are they one and the same thing?  I blink hard and stop my reflection.  I need to find a way out from this dark, damp and narrow space.  I need to know where I am. There is no space to even turn around.  I simply have to keep edging forward.  How did I get here? I go back inside my mind.  I am safe there.  I know this place I have been here many times before. 

Suddenly, there is light, a beautiful, bright and clear light.  I look into the light and to my delight I see a clear flowing river meandering effortlessly in the valley.  The mountains on both sides of the river are majestic, powerful and tall.  The sun is just beginning to rise, willing me to connect with a new day, a new way and a new life.  New beginnings happen each time the sun rises, but we forget.  I love the log on which I am sitting.  It is firm and I balance gracefully and easily as I float down the river bathing in the rising sun.  As I float a huge, mammoth figure rises up in front of me.  The water is still, this is not a wave.  The creature is translucent and I am slowly and steadily going towards it.  My heart beats fast.  Will I get thrown off the log as I manoeuvre this creature?  My pulse is racing as I near it.  I decide to calm, calm, calm and look into its eyes.  The eyes are gentle, soft, understanding, loving and compassionate.  Will I be able to simply pass through it?   Now it changes shape, the head becomes double its original size and the shape begins to turn a light sky blue in colour.  I am being pulled towards it like a magnet.  I have no idea what to expect.  All my senses leave me.  They are not interested in engaging in this emotion.  I am alone.  But who is the “I” that is alone?  There is no sense of “I” left.  With one sudden jolt I am drawn into this shape.  I have been pulled into the rotation of this energy.  I am submerged totally into this whole.  There is no separation yet again.  I have no time to think, to ponder, to analyse, rationalise or make any logical sense of what is happening.  I am just there going round and round.  Even though I have no control I feel a sense of quiet peace.  I feel safe, loved, honoured, protected and nurtured.  I am not afraid. 

Surrender!  I had not been given a choice.  I had been forced, but I am eternally grateful for this gift.  I get thrown out of the shape just as magically as I had been drawn into it.  I look back to see only the calm flowing water.  Where is the mammoth shape that had just engulfed me so completely?  I look back again.  Did I imagine this experience? Did I imagine it all?  Is this a postcard from the past? Is it a forewarning about the future?

The waves are getting higher now.  I am beginning to lose my balance.  I hold on tight as the sun gets lost behind thick black clouds.  The elements are changing their colour.  A dark and ominous storm is brewing up.  Thunder, rain and storm are making their way into the valley. I lose control, I fall off the log!  I am drowning.  I begin to panic and swim, to flap my arms around hoping to hold on to something.  I see the log going further and further from me.  I breathe heavily and swallow water.  I put up a fight to survive.  It is a natural instinct for us when we incarnate.  We need to survive.  We need to breathe.  My panic state results in more water being swallowed.  I am losing.  I cannot fight the elements.  I must embrace it and surrender.  I must work with the water and become one with its energy.  Once again, I give in.  I simply decide to let the flow take me where ever it needs to.  To my amazement, the moment I had this thought, the sky cleared up again.  I look up and see the mermaid.  This time she looks at me like a loving, kind grandmother.  Her wisdom shines through to her face.  As though she is saying to me that I have finally taken the first step towards understanding surrender. 

As the sun reaches the highest point of the day I begin to submerge into the water.  I am still in mind and body.  I allow myself to drift downwards, my eyes closed at first.  Something urges me to open my eyes under water as I descend towards the core of Mother Earth.  I look around me in total amazement.  It is not dark as I would have expected.  I am surrounded by glowing, pure, sparkling light.  I see the sea creatures so clearly. They ignore me completely, as though seeing a human being this deep under the currents of the water is the most natural thing for them.  As they meander in and out through the seaweeds and the sea plants, they sometimes do look quizzically at me.  I am not at all fazed either by being there or by their interest.  I am breathing most normally in a fishlike manner when all of a sudden, my feet touch ground!  The shock of this sends shiver up and down my spine and I fail to fathom where I am.  Far ahead I see glowing fire and there are people dancing around the fire! My mind cannot conceptualize this.  I blink hard and look again.  Not only am I standing under the surface of the earth within the folds of water, but there is also fire blazing on one side. 

My eyes fall on a pair of feet not far from where I am standing. Who do the feet belong to? Beautiful, slim, glowing feet standing steadfast on the surface make me nervous and at the same time excited.  I walk towards these pious looking feet.  There are many gemstones, precious stones and crystals surrounding these feet.  They are sparkling bright and pure. I am totally mesmerised and drawn towards them.  I walk toward the feet with a compulsion that I don’t recognise.  I cannot stop myself.  These beautiful feet do not belong to a body, but they are alive.  They are certainly alive, because as I near them, I can see their gentle movement.  I am captured.  They have a strong hold on me. I could not escape if I tried. 

I sit down.  I should be totally exhausted, but I am not.  I am exhilarated, excited, energised and totally joyous.  Is this the power I am receiving from the gemstones or from the feet?  I sit there for a while, under the surface of the earth, surrounded by water, sea life and a glowing fire.  I am breathing.  I have air.  It all seems unrealistic.  Am I going insane, should I be in anguish and worried?

I feel something crawling on my feet.  I am surrounded by strange looking creatures that look like a cross between snakes and worms. There are millions of them.  They have green eyes and slimy bodies with heads that are too large for their little bodies.  They are all different colours and seem to have fins on them.  Their tails are lashing at my body and beginning to hurt and make wounds. They begin to crawl up my legs and make their way up my body. I try and brush them away. I stand up and stamp on them.  I am desperate and scared.  I look towards the feet and see if they will lift to help me.  I try and shout to the men dancing around the fire, but my voice is caught in my throat from fright.  My eyes begin to roll upwards from fear and I begin to hyper-ventilate.  Surely, this is where my adventure will end.  I cannot get out of the grip of these creatures stifling me.  I cannot breathe now! My mind begins to give up. I cannot give up. I have to survive.  That is my natural instinct.  I find my courage. I find my voice and I scream the loudest raw sound I have ever heard.  I roar with a sound that is not coming from my chest but the very core of my existence.  It is the sound of a survivor, fearless and courageous.  I challenge the creatures. I will not give up.  I begin to dance in frenzy and somehow reach the people dancing by the fire.  I am at one with the elementals.  I am possessed by the desire to survive and thrive.  Suddenly, I drop onto my knees in complete fatigue.  My face is muddied, feet bleeding and my body injured.  There are tears rolling down my eyes.  I bury my face in my hands as I lie in the sand.  At this juncture I do not know whether I am alive or dead.  I am so tired I don’t really care. 

I look up. The fire is still blazing. The people have all stopped dancing. They are standing still and staring at me.  My eyes meet their eyes but they are blank.  I look at my body, the creatures have all disappeared.  I get up on my knees, lift my arms up and look upwards to see the calm waters still above me.  I stay still for a long time and finally it gets a little boring.  I begin to get restless for more adventures.  My mind tells me to enjoy the calm before the storm.  I settle, breath and wait…

With a sudden jolt, very quickly I am being propelled upwards as though by a jet engine!  The shock waves go through my entire body without any warning.  I am going upwards towards the surface of the water, past it, into the air.  My body is A-line, my arms by my side and I am straight like a stick.  My hair flies around my face uncontrollably.  I cannot look below and see the water, the land, the mountains and the tree or any of the beauty of mother nature.  I just look ahead until I land somewhere with a big thud.  My head is spinning from this unnatural journey.  I take a deep breath, open my eyes and look around.  I am sitting on the top of a tree on a small leaf.  This is impossible.  I am big and heavy and the leaf is small and delicate. How can this leaf carry my weight?  It takes me a long time to realise and accept that the journey up to the tree has shrunk me and made me as small as a human thumb.  Now I am little and light.  Did I do this with my mind?  Can I adjust and take on whatever shape or size I want with my mind.  Can the mind be this powerful?

 It is dark, the sky is midnight blue with many stars sparking around me.  I am cold and scared.  How long can I stay perched on this tall tree on top of the mountain, so near to the midnight sky?  I stare at the stars.  Millions of them sparkling and shining.  I want to reach out and touch a star.  I feel I could reach them if I put my hand out.  My mind tells me this is not possible.  I cannot touch a star.  It is unbelievable. I sit frozen by my doubt.

As I look hard, I see the faintest lines connecting each star to the other. This is the first time I have seen the stars being connected to each other.  The lines look like flimsy light threads that are translucent and clear.  Maybe I can’t reach the star, but could I at least reach out and touch the line.  I put a hand out tentatively and touch the nearest line to me. It feels warm and bouncy, like it has a magical energy flowing through it.  I tug at the line gently and it moves towards me whilst still connected to the nearest star.   I want to step on it.  I look all around me at the darkness.  If I were to step on to a line and lose my balance how far would I fall?  Now I am terrified, gripped by my rational mind that tells me this is all ridiculous.  The fear I feel is making me go inwards and recoil into complete inaction.  I stare at the lines and the stars for eternity. 

Oh, eternity!  Is that what exists at the end of these stars all connected with bouncy fine lines?  I must reach eternity. I must take the risk, I must believe.  I stand up, stretch my legs and slowly put one foot on the delicate line.  Then my fear overtakes me again and I try and pull my foot back and get back to the safety of the leaf. Suddenly, I feel a push, a jerk from behind. I reach out towards the line to steady myself and get my balance.  I find myself on all fours on the line.  I feel terrorised at my predicament.  I look back and the leaf is no longer there and neither is the tree.  How is this happening?  Tear roll down my eyes at my helplessness. Where am I?  Nothing but, stars and darkness around me. 

I have two choices, either to jump down and see where I land, or to stand up and begin walking.  I do that which comes so naturally to me.  I stand up and begin walking!  Slowly and tentatively, I put one foot in front of the other.  I remind myself, that is all I need to do is to take one step at a time.  As I keep going, I begin to get more confident.  Now it feels like I am walking in a park on solid ground.  I get so confident, I begin to skip along on this frail, bouncy line.  After the longest of times, I reach a star.  It is bewitching, warm and inviting. I want to enter it and go straight through it.  I brace myself for whatever might come next and step into to.  It is freezing.  I am surrounded by a cold and mystical air.  I don’t want to stop here too long so I keep going and step out into the adjoining line where it is much warmer and familiar.  I go through many stars each colder but more hypnotic than the previous one.  I realise that I am cruising aimlessly in the night sky.  Dark, alluring, spell binding and enchanting.  I begin to day dream and get lost in my own thoughts.  As I stare into nothing my eyes catch a glimpse of something larger. What is that I see in the distance? It is much bigger than a star.  It is sparkling very bright and seems to me like it is sending me a signal.  The lights blink once, then twice and then three times.  They do this repeatedly.  Is it a message for me?  I compulsively begin to walk towards this light. As I get near, I notice it is becoming larger.  When I get close enough, I realise it is a room made of glass.  I stumble, topple over and lose my balance.  Now I am standing on the line on one leg with the other leg dangling into nothing.  I am terrified, totally shell shocked at seeing this feature in front of me, balancing on a line which we can barely see with the naked eye.  My hand reaches out to hold onto something to bring my balance back and I realise that I am holding a door handle made of glass.  I pull the door handle and in an instant, I am thrown into the glass room. 

I lie there for the longest of time, with a plethora of emotions going through me.  I cannot make sense of anything.  This is not rational.  I have never come across these kinds of absurd experiences. I have no desire to move even an eyelid.  I close my eyes and drift away.  My mind begins to slow down and the thoughts begin to dissipate.  I have a sense of complete quiet and peace.  I can feel the subtle shut down of my entire body.  I am happy and perfectly in surrender.  I decide to become a vessel for the universe to go through me.  I surrender my body, my mind and my soul.  I am free…

Namaste Dost

Have you ever stopped to think what happens when you go through a painful experience? Times when you feel your very heart is being yanked out of your body and, taking a breath requires all the effort required by Hercules to move a mountain. There is only darkness all around and you are surrounded by sinister shadows you did not even know existed.  Somehow, in the depths of despair, the animal instinct of survival surfaces.  Our consciousness remembers this primal requirement of our existence.  Then, slowly, we start to pull our lives together.  We begin to move on, to let go and face another day.  So, what happens when the pain dulls?

What have you done with all that trauma, hurt and anguish?  Well, you have been taught to take control of your emotions, to chin up, forget it and simply look forward to the next new challenge in life.  Therefore, this is what you do.  Little do you realise that on the surface you might have dealt with it and carried on, but somewhere deep down, where it really matters, a change has taken place.  You have changed, your soul memory has adjusted and your consciousness has been altered.  This is the information that is stored in the Akashic Records.  The Akashic Records store the incidence and the lessons you learnt and internalised.  These are the depth of your soul memory that can be reached via an Akashic Record Reading.  You have fear of failure, but you don’t know why.  Your rational mind tells you that it is futile to have fear, yet you cannot help the feeling of despair.  Why?  The reason being, although your intellectual mind can reason and rationalise every thought, it cannot alter the subconscious mind as quickly as you would like it to.  This requires years of practise and an understanding of how the fear of failure came about in the first instance.  Sometimes these answers lie in past lives, but of course we have no memory of it.  Whilst we explore the world of the Akashic Records we ask for assistance from your Masters, Record Keepers and Guides.  Often, they explain to you where the fear began.  They then proceed to give you messages and healings so that you can begin to understand the fear and then dissipate it.  Ultimately, it is you the wisdom seeker, who has to make subtle changes in your choices to help you to move from fear to freedom.  New choices will always result in new consequences.  Isn’t that an empowering thought?

An Akashic Record Reading is an investment of time and resources into the most vital aspect of your life, YOU.  However, it is imperative to remember that mindfulness and constant awareness of who you are at soul level is what will propel your life into prosperity and abundance.

Namaste Dost.

“Karma” is the Eastern name for the Law of Cause and Effect. The basic Law governing our existence in this solar system. Every thought that we have, every word we speak and every action that we take sets into motion a cause. These causes have their effects, which manifest themselves into consequences good or bad. Expressed in biblical terms: "As you sow, so shall you reap.". In scientific terms, "For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction."  The Law of Cause and effect is prominent in both the spiritual and scientific world.

Things don't just happen in this world of “ebb and flow”. We don't live in some kind of crazy, accidental Universe. Things happen according to certain laws, laws of nature. Laws such as the law of karma, which teaches us that as a certain seed gets planted, so will that fruit be. Within the Akashic Records, we attempt to understand what seed we have planted in this life or even previous incarnations and how they are showing up in our lives today.

The concept of Karma means that everything we think, say and do is registered by the Universal Intelligence which in turn creates a response in accordance to our intent and our deed.  Nothing avoids the attention of the Universal Eye. Having said that, the Law of Karma is not out to get us or punish us.  Rather the Law of Karma exists to teach us the way towards love and compassion.  The best way to learn love and compassion is to make us see what it might feel like to be devoid of them.  Our Karmic lessons set out the intention to show us in a mild way what it might feel like if someone does not act with love and compassion towards us. To teach us how to be loving and compassionate we might first need to suffer from the exact thing that we have been inflicting on others.  That makes sense, right?  What better way to understand the pain of an ill person than to suffer illness?

Karma exists to teach us and not to punish us.  When we begin to realise that whatever happens to us is a consequence of some thought, word or action that we have indulged in during our lifetime we can start to give credence to all the experiences and events that unfold in our lives.  Karma is a dutiful tool towards self-realisation and taking responsibility for our own spiritual development.  It is through the introspection that Karma brings into our life that we can empower ourself to walk towards the path of inner reflection.  This is the work that I, as a channel, explore with the wisdom seeker in the pure realm of the Akashic Records.

Karma is the eternal assertion of human freedom.  If we can bring ourselves down by our Karma, it is also in our power to raise ourselves by our own Karma.  Free Will is a Divine gift of every human being.  The law of Karma is a constant reminder that it is never too late to make a different choice which is in alignment with the Universal Truth – the Law of Cause and Effect.  If we reflect upon our innate purity and divinity and follow the laws of nature, we come to the conclusion that the Law of Karma is the law of Divine goodwill and justice.  It is here to serve us, protect us, nurture us and teach us.  My humble aim is to help the wisdom seeker reach this crucial understanding at they navigate the matrix of life.

The question then arises can we negate the effect of bad Karma? The simple answer is, “yes to some extent”.  Bad Karma is accumulated by ill thoughts about something and then using words or actions to execute those thoughts.  Good Karma is accumulated by prayers, good intentions and service.  If I have committed many bad deeds but I begin to repent those deeds and change my path towards self- realisation, prayers and service to others the effect of my bad karma will be dissipated to some extent.  I will probably still suffer, but to a lesser extent than if I had not changed at all.

This a simple and easy to understand account of how karma works.  Karma is a very extensive topic, that has been explored in myriads of religious text, spiritual and theosophical societies since time began. Karma will generate interest until the end of time because it is so intrinsically tied to the human life and human experience.

Karma is a good friend, trying to show us the correct path even if it means resorting to tough love. 

Namaste Dost - Kavita Pal

Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom – Aristotle

An Akashic Record Reading with me leads you into the light of your inner wisdom from where you will begin the healing process. No one can predict the future and those who tell you that they can, are misleading you.

The answers to all your questions, doubts, fears and weaknesses lie within you.  Only you can deliver yourself from suffering, not any concepts, beliefs, systems, emotions or sensations arising from following deities, gurus or spiritual teachers.  Yes, they can show you the path, but they cannot walk the path for you.

We incarnate as individuals. Angels, deities, spiritual leaders and gurus can show us the way and support us, but their experience is theirs and not ours.  We cannot become an Ascended Master by following him/her, we have to do the work on ourselves to reach that height of wisdom and enlightenment. We cannot experientially feel the emotions or think the thoughts that they have.  It is imperative that we all remember this, and this is the work that I do with the Wisdom Seeker who reaches out to me for a Reading.  I help to empower you to find the strength from within to navigate the matrix of life and all that it encompasses.

The wise practices of life are meditative awareness, clear intentions, acting towards yourself and others with compassion and understanding that all of life begins and ends with you. You are the light, the saviour, the destroyer and the protector of your own Soul.  Take responsibility without relying on anything outside of you to deliver you into living a holistic, happy and bountiful life.  Above all, embrace your shadow self, learn to heal it and honour the light within you as you begin to recognise it. Go forth with the understanding that you are only complete when you accept, love and honour both your shadow self and the light within, because they together, complete you.  They are equally important.

The Reader and the Wisdom Seeker can explore these issues together during an Akashic Record Reading.  

It is your road and yours alone, 

Others can walk it with you,

But no one can walk it for you! – Rumi

Namaste Dost – Kavita Pal

A shared moment, a delight, an inspiration, a thought.  The joy, pure and unadulterated. A blessing from the infinite creator.

A dear friend of mine shared this photo of her young son with me.  This beautiful child who is like a grandson to me suddenly spoke to me from within the image.  Often, I have heard people describe how images speak with them and stir extremely profound emotions.  For the first time in my life, I experienced this.

But what happened, what gave rise to this total experience of bliss?  What message did my energy receive from this image?

Pious, unconditional, unbiased, unselfish, desireless connection to the Divine.  A direct connection with the truth of our existence.  As this gorgeous child looks at, wonders at, admires and pays undivided attention to the bubbles around him, he has absolutely no thoughts except to enjoy the wonder of the bubbles as they are.  He is expressing what we all miss in our lives, “living in the moment”.  The expression on his face is of total absorption in the bubbles.  He is at One with the essence of the bubbles.  There is a certain oneness between the two and their interaction and connection.  The eyes speak volumes, the lifted face shows a reverence towards the experience, the arms reaching out speak of the emerging desire to reach for this pure and blissful state of being.  And the amazing thought is that we are all born with this innate gift of “living in the moment”.

So, what happens, why do we lose this experience of living a life which is of “just living in the moment”?  The search for this question is one that nobody can give us the answer for.  We have to explore, reflect, carve out and then experience our own path.  Those walking alongside us can help, but they cannot walk our walk! Each one of us has to walk our own unique path.

Food for thought.  Do we have time to explore this, do we even wish to?  When I began to work with my Masters, Guides, Loved Ones and Ancestors within the Akashic Records, I never thought the insights I would receive would alter my life in ways that I could not even imagine.  I did not realise that with each Akashic Record Reading that I offer to the Wisdom Seekers who connect with me, I too would evolve in an unimaginably deep and profound manner.

I will conclude with an insightful quote for the 13^th century mystic and poet, Rumi.

“Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world,

Today I am wise so I am changing myself”.

And therein lies the answer to the question, so, “what happens, why do we lose this experience of living a life which is of “just being in the moment”?

Namaste Dost

 

 

The messages that come from the Record Keepers and Guides during an Akashic Records Reading are always clearer and more coherant than I could put in words.  It is as though the clarity is coming from a different dimension.  It is, but it never fails to amaze me and surround me in it’s warmth.

I was with a beautiful young Wisdom Seeker and she asked her Guides, what they needed her to know about, “sobriety and substance abuse”, how is she meant to deal with it?  I, as the channel and intuitive went straight in and put the questions to her Ancestors, Record Keepers and Guides.  The experience I had was mystical to say the least.  I felt transported to somewhere in between the clouds and there I got shown a clear quartz crystal held up in front of the eyes.  On the other side of this clear crystal were the words ,” Sobriety”.  The Wisdom Seeker was then asked to hold this crystal up to her eyes, look through it and simple pay attention to the word she could see through the crystal.  Then the Guides went on to give her this statement, “ When we pay attention to what we want, that which does not serve us leaves, lovingly and willingly”.  It was a truly mystical experience for me as The Reader. I felt the presence of a Higher Being surrounding me.  I wondered later, why The Guides said, “ lovingly and willingly”.  I guess they wish to envelope all duality in love and acceptance.  The dark side of sobriety would be indulgence and The Guides did not wish the Wisdom Seeker to pay any attention to the dark side, but to let it go with gentle love and acceptance.  They were guiding her to give no thought to the dark side, which is why they asked her to simply pay attention to what she wants.  Afterall, energy flows where attention goes.

Often, when we try to give up a negative habit that does not serve us, we come up with a grandiose plan of how we will deal with it if it comes into our experience.  What we will do or not do.  We create boundaries and set methods to stay within those boundaries and then when it comes to the crunch we fall flat on our face.  The same pattern repeats over and over again and we cannot understand why.  After a certain number of attempts we begin to feel we are a failure, we will never succeed and then we give up altoghter, thinking this is how we are and this is our fate!

But why does this happen? Why do we keep repeating this negative pattern of self-sabotage?  May I be bold enough to suggest that one of the reasons could be that we give the negative habit we wish to break too much of our attention and therefore our energy.  We try with our 4^th dimensional intellectual mind to work on energies which are too deep rooted for the intellectual mind to reach!  If we simply practice paying single minded attention to what we want, the object of our desire slowly but surely begins to become part of our subtle body, our subconscious mind.

Of course, there are many factors that contribute to the negative habits that show up in our lives.  For instance, our past life experiences, our childhood experiences, the history of our ancestors, our land, our people, collective consciousness of all human beings and more.  However, if we are to live our most abundant life we need to break past these negative habits.  One way to do this is by dedicating our attention to what we wish to create in our human experience.

Namaste Dost

In recent months I have been feeling the power and the calling of my ancestors. They are real, they exist and they certainly want to connect with us.  They have an agency of keeping their living descendants alive.  Our Ancestors need us to remember them in our daily prayers and be mindful of their likes and dislikes.  I very often feel them around me, sense them in the slight breeze that brushes past me or the soft aroma that reaches me during periods of quiet reflection. They are speaking to me, guiding me and are very much part of my life.  This connection with my ancestors is now making its way to my Readings.

In many Akashic Record Readings for the Wisdom Seekers, their Ancestors have been coming forward with healings, messages, blessings and guidance.  Recently, I was in the Akashic Records of my own son (who was not present with me) when I asked for Ancestral help.  A very distant ancestor came forward.  This ancestor then took a stake and began to beat my son.  I was aghast, I had never experienced this before.  Normally, the ancestors come forward with gifts of love, wisdom and healing.  However, I knew I was in the Records and wanted to be respectful and accepting of what I was being shown.  I stayed with it, watched and waited.  I was wondering whether my son might have felt some discomfort at this time.  After a short while the beating stopped and I sensed black smoke leaving from my sons bent and crunched body.  It was like a shadow!  I was shell shocked. I realised his ancestor had worked on moving on an attaching entity from his energy field.  Sometimes, there are different entities or earthbound souls that attached themselves to us.  They don’t normally don’t want to harm us, (but it does feel disconcerting and shows up as a disempowerment in our life).  It is just that for some reason they have not transitioned completely into the next realm.  They are quite powerless on their own to move on.  They too need help.  After the entity left my son, the ancestor did a healing prayer for the entity and my son.  She thanked the entity and sent it off with unconditional love and deep intent to go back into Source. She gently accepted that the entity too was distressed and was grateful to have been released.  The ancestor and my son watched the entity leave and dissolve into the Divine.  The ancestor then put her arms around my son in a gentle but firm embrace and told him he is now safe. It was so beautiful and reassuring for me to see the love and care this distant ancestor has for her descendent.

There have been many similar visits from Ancestors when we are in the Akashic Records of Wisdom Seekers.  Sometimes the Ancestors ask for love, healing and moving of trauma from the Wisdom Seeker.  They express their own anguish and pain and ask for those to be removed without judgement and with unconditional love.  This process benefits both the ancestor and the Wisdom Seeker to remove blocked energy from their ancestral lineage and free the coming generations.

For anyone who is feeling disconnected with themselves, an Akashic Record Reading is a safe and enlightening experience where it is possible to restore a sense of self and raise awareness. It is heartening to remember that much healing and transformation happens when we are in the sacred presence of our Record Keepers, Guides and Loved Ones.

To connect with your Ancestors through the Akashic Records, book a Reading today and experience the magical healing within the Records.

Namaste Dost

Live with “Joy” – Explore the Akashic Records

What does it mean to live with “joy”?  That which lifts the heart up, brings pleasure, makes the heart sing.

The word “joy” conjures up images of smiles, happiness and desires fulfilled.  The word joy often implies that we have gained that which we like.  Do we only feel joy when life has planned out exactly as we wish?  When what we want comes into fruition, we feel the emotion of joy, we smile and we feel all is in order.  “Joy” therefore is attached with our likes and the gratification of our self-centred demands.

But what of the wishes of others?  Isn’t what I want just as important as what the next person wants?  By this measure someone is always going to be unhappy, because if something has gone the way of one, sometimes it may not have gone the way of another!  If someone does not behave according to our wishes, likes and dislikes we feel unhappy, we want to change the circumstances.  We want them to see our self - centred point of view, because we are so sure our way is the correct way.  Who has given the authority to us that our way is the only correct way?  Why should another human being or even life go exactly how we want it? Why should circumstances out of our control be in control of our capability to live with joy? When we come to think of it, is it a reasonable demand of life? When we explore these questions within the pure space of the Akashic Records we often find spiritual insight which we would not be able to reach with our 4^th dimensional intellectual minds.

Often, we change that which we don’t like. Perfect and we should.  If something or someone is not bringing us joy, we must move on and bring about the change which we anticipate will bring us joy.  But what if it does not, and what if it does?  That’s it, now we have made the change and now we expect to “live with joy”! And there it is once again! The flow of life has now brought another situation in our life which is making us unhappy and taking us further away from our desire to live with joy! Do we then take solace in what we call, “little pleasures of life”?  Does pleasure lead to joy?

Now let’s look at pleasure.

Pleasure and joy are two different things and we will do well to understand the difference between the two.  The seeking of pleasure is closely attached to pain.  Time permitting, analyse this statement.  Something has given us pleasure; memory holds it in place for us and thought prompts us to seek that pleasure again.  What happens when we cannot find that pleasure again, we pine for it, causing ourselves distress and agony until we can get that pleasure again.  We are now a slave to that pleasure and have given up our freedom for that which is not even capable of giving us any joy at all.  Pleasure lies to us!  It makes promises it can never keep and certainly never ends in a “life of joy”. Pleasure cannot even touch the surface of guiding us to a “live with joy”.

So how can we “live with joy”?

When a storm comes our way, we stand strong and face the storm with fierce determination.  We fight for our survival and the survival of all, we bring up all the emotions of courage and face the storm fearlessly. When the storm ebbs, we look at what we have achieved with grace, humility and gratitude.  We have a profound understanding that for now the storm has gone, we did what we needed to do, we rest, but with the knowledge that the rest is temporary and the storm will be back again.  We view the entire process with acceptance and equanimity.  To live with joy means that we view the ebb and flow, the black and white, the dark and light, the good and evil, the ups and down of life from a place of deep - rooted understanding that the opposites compliment each other and are as necessary as each other.  We have no preference; we honour everything that life brings our way with complete equanimity.  When someone behaves in a way that is to our dislike, we decide how we respond.  Life is not about what comes our way, it is about how we respond to it.  Within the Akashic Record Readings we explore how to live with Joy.

To live with joy is to accept all that comes our way with equanimity. 

Namaste Dost.

 

“As we Become who we want to Become, the world around us adjusts to that Becoming”- Kavita Pal

What even does the statement above mean?

As I began my conscious journey into Self-Realisation the first realisation I came to, hit me like a boulder.  I had never before been able to give these emotions a name.  As we all do, my mind would, very powerfully rationalise my emotions.  I would see people doing better than me, or having more than I had and the thoughts would go much like this, “oh some people have all the luck in the world.  It must be nice to have rich parents and be so pretty.  Well, they have very sporty parents so obviously they will run better than me.  They have third generation money being thrown at them so it is easy to wear designer clothes and drive posh cars…. Etc, etc, etc… you get the gist, right!”.  Each time these thoughts would leave me feeling uneasy, unhappy and rather mean.  It did not sit well with me that I was entertaining thoughts such as these.  Something was beginning to stir within me and I began very tentatively watching these thought.  It was sometime later, that I realised and acknowledged, that I was being plagued by the disturbing emotions of “jealousy and envy”! Aha, now, I had a name for the emotions that were causing so much havoc in my inner world. Something had to be done, this just did not feel right.

By this time, I was already involved into my daily yoga and meditation practise. I decided I would finish my meditation with daily affirmations of what I would like to become.  I would sit with my eyes closed and will myself, into telling myself, who I would like to be.  My affirmations went a little like this, “I am patient, I am calm, I am generous, I accept people and things for what they are, I am enough”, and so on and so forth.  Sometime, into doing this daily practise, I had another realisation!  Doing the affirmations was not sufficient, I want to “Become” patient, calm, generous, accepting and enough!  I did not want to just will, it or think it, I wanted to “Become”, to feel it in every fibre of my body.  I wanted every cell of my body to “Become” all those affirmations.  But, how?  “Understanding”, that is how.

Understanding who I am, where I have come from, and where I am going. It is questions such as these that we explore within the relams of the Akashic Records. This is a very powerful journey, one that is well worth taking.  Of course, “the known is a drop, the unknown is an ocean”, even so, like Lao Zhu said, “The journey of a thousand miles, begins with one single step”.  I noticed, that as I began to slowly become more patient, calm, generous and accepting, the disturbing emotions of jealousy & envy began to lessen their grip on me.  As that happened, situations and people around me began to subtly adjust to the changing me.  I did not have to ask people to change, I just had to change myself and others changed organically.  It is thanks to this journey, that I have embarked which has led me to believe that, “as we Become who we want to Become, the world around us adjusts to that Becoming.”  I still have a long way to go, but I also have all the time in the world to keep taking one step after another and it my work within the Akashic Record Readings which is helping me as I help those who seek me out.

Namaste Dost.

 

When you think of the word, “power” what image does it conjure up? A body builder demonstrating the bicep curl, the pained face of an athlete sprinting towards the finishing line, the broad and strong body of Hercules as he carries a mountain above his head? Do you associate, power with strength, determination, conviction, never giving up, forcefully striding along? Is it the indomitable strength with which you finish a marathon or a task you have been assigned? Or, is it the power that others exert on you and indeed the wider world? What, does power mean to you? How have you internalised what it means to be powerful?

These, and many more thoughts such a as these are what most of us associate with power.  But, when we delve into the depths of the Akashic Records and their wisdom we realise that there is a subtler meaning of power which evades us all

Now, let’s for a moment put a slight soft blanket over the word “power”. “Ponder over the world within and explore recovery of the Self”.

This is the work that I humbly attempt do within an Akashic Records Reading.

An Akashic Record Reading will enable you to find a quiet and gentle power that lies deep within. A power that is stronger that any other sort of mammoth power you might know or think about. This is the unsurmountable power that comes when you start the journey of Self-knowledge. When you begin to gather conscious awareness, through an Akashic Record Reading, of who you are at Soul- level you begin to get re-acquainted with your true self. That brings about a gentle and unshakeable power that allows you to live your best human experience. You will begin to see the chi, spirit or citta within you. When that happens, life as it is meant to be, begins.

I invite you to open your heart and follow where it takes you.

Namaste Dost