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Separation Anxiety

2012-01-31T01:57:00.000-08:00

I want him and he wants me.But tonight is not so right.....My mind is wandering to so many other things. Things reminding me of him and probably him of me.But tonight is not so right.....I need some time to miss him or there is no night that is right.Separation feels so right, but recently all I do is to please him So what is with the fight?I am his, just not tonight.But tonight is not so right.

slow ride

2011-11-02T00:20:00.000-07:00

I miss how you gave me so much love. I miss how you gave me the feeling of Ernie & Bert.I miss how you kept me safe and encouraged me to fall.But baby the reason I'm missing you is because you set limits to all those things.A bittersweet whirlwind of passion, you taught me how to be so freeMaybe that's why it hurt so bad when you pulled that rug from under me.If it takes a hundred yearsHe's gonna

Options

2011-10-01T12:21:00.000-07:00

Thanks to some early morning thought-provocation, I would like to clear up a common misconception. I'm not a person who just 'does what I want'I'm a person who has made the most desirable choices out of the available options. Most often what I want is not available to me.It might behoove me to opt out in the future rather than make a choice that is merely acceptable rather than stellar. After all

My lover

2011-06-25T02:43:00.001-07:00

My lover, you left my body with a sweet kiss at my car, holding me in rapture until your fingertips press upon me like spellbound lyrics. My hips spin rhythmically in figure eights liquid on your strong sweet thighs. You alone electrify me. You're needle engraves me with a signature of heat and fluid. My lover, not my love.. You are the world to me in this moment.

Misinterpreted

2011-06-23T09:37:00.000-07:00

I always wondered why I could never recognize my own voiceWords escaped my lips only to be captured in a recording for all of timeI stood confused wondering what was realWondered which one you heardWhen your words mingled with mineI forget it all when your songs soothe me to sleep

My bumble bee ride

2011-06-19T23:50:00.000-07:00

Today was not just another ordinary day.A day where hours felt like moments and moments lasted a lifetime.Today should have been a troubled day.Instead the bumble bee took me in little bits off the stamenRolled and bounced me through the sky to gently offer me to a swollen pistil.Pleasure filled sensesReplacing forced solitude.Today could have been such a different kind of dayIf I had chosen the

unfinished

2011-04-29T01:33:00.000-07:00

I wish I was a musician.I've always been drawn to them. Artists of an unknown sort, yet oh-so-familiar.I tag tracks posting moments that bleed into the veins of my soul...A lyric, a verse, maybe just the rhythm that consumes me.I am a painter. but. i feel deep. art is life....Why can't I profess in poetic perfection?Why must I express and expose without explanation?I paint,You see,Interpret &

Reggae vibes

2011-04-01T23:32:00.000-07:00

Reggae love in my head.Sonic vibrations rhythm in my soul.I feel the sex in the room behind me.. lovers tasting lips desires hearts bodies and souls.It's raping me, shaking me, taking me.. I said it before.I'm writing here and painting on walls.While love sounds become one with dub sounds.

Hurricane

2011-03-31T01:32:00.000-07:00

The wind is whipping past my face carrying painful lashings from strands of hair that have become weapons in this icy late Spring storm. It's telling me I have no business being in love. No business feeling angst. No business feeling loss. No business longing. Leave. Leave little silly child. Travel on... You're hanging on too long... It's time to say goodbye. Time to hurt and be hurt. But most

Bronx tattles

2011-03-21T00:25:00.000-07:00

Old man Henry called out my soul tonight. He said I was searching for something. I think he's right. It's that Bronx wisdom mingling with the liquor that pumps through his veins. But he sees something nobody else does as I sit sipping a glass of wine waiting for the table to clear. It could be only he sees it because nobody else's cares. I want to tell him my heart is in pieces and I don't

Trust is better without labels.. Status Schmatus

2010-04-10T00:40:00.000-07:00

do you trust me?this question's answer is the epitome of personal validation,I've always believed that the only trust that is true is that which comes free of obligation.ex: If you desire commitment from me you ought not require a label for the answer. As a matter of fact, my gift of true trust & commitment should come from my DESIRE to commit my longing for you & only you.... Not the necessity

Stop Your Fussin'

2010-01-20T04:31:00.000-08:00

Let the rain come downDoes anyone know who Toni Childs is? Well, if you don't you should : http://www.tonichilds.com/If you know Matt Goening, you should know her, she's of the same genre. When I thing of the Simpsons, I think of her her and vice/versaMy personal favorites are Zimbabwe and Stop Your Fussin'http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=utI69alKRUIListen to this gal and remember to stop fussin

What is love?

2009-12-06T22:38:00.000-08:00

Baby don't hurt me. I've come to see as of late there are infinite levels of love. I am grappling with several levels of this word. This feeling. This feast. This fast. This battle. This gift. The epitome of pleasure. The overdose of fear obsession & pain.Friends and loves

My forever

2009-06-24T15:44:00.000-07:00

This. This is forever. I'm not sure how I get to forever, but you... you I know will be there.Painters

I have a past

2009-06-21T10:11:00.000-07:00

I've barely slept. He told me last that he thinks I'm in love with someone else. The man had been involved with intimately for quite some time before we even met. But he didn't understand that my love for that man, although it was inconsequential to he and I and required no clarification my part, was intricate and benign . As were all my past relations...inconsequential in that they had no

Lonely in here

2009-03-01T23:57:00.000-08:00

Dang I can only blame myself.... I never post anymore. My only follower left me. I can't say that I blame 'em, it's preeetty dry in here. And clearly I am now talking to myself. ouch.

All done sorting now it's time to edit.

2009-01-22T14:32:00.000-08:00

There's one thing I need to do more as well as less.EDITING.

There's nothing I hate worse than:

2009-01-19T23:08:00.000-08:00

Being misunderstood. Is it so much to ask that a person have a conversation with an open mind? I realize I'm not the greatest at expressing feelings and abstract thoughts, but a little interest wouldn't hurt. Instead I got summations from my conversation partner that were quite incorrect, yet the other person was dead certain to have had it all figured out. I met a person a while back who

News

2009-01-10T18:28:00.000-08:00

1. Looks like I got a new job. Counting my freelance work, that makes for 3 jobs. It's good to be busy. 2. I just bought a car for my son. 3. My foot still hurts when I don't wear my aircast.

I heard this today

2008-12-26T01:14:00.000-08:00

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life,I know you'll be a sun in somebody else's sky, but whyWhy, why can't it be, can't it be mine?Finalé... Pearl Jam "Black"

Uninvited and you oughtta know

2008-12-22T22:10:00.000-08:00

Geez like a zillion years ago when I was young, I dated a man 9 years my senior. We went round and round for almost as long until the dance was just tired and blistered from repeated steps. We sat one sunny La Cieniga evening on the steps of his ultra white sofa flanked home where mail came FedEx and I had to be svelt and never sit on the sofa.I was so in love with himAnd he wanted so

Vision Quest #12: White Flags

2008-12-15T07:43:00.000-08:00

learning how to function while you are weak teaches you a couple of things.1. It's a waste of time to chase after cars that will never stop2. Settling is never a good idea, but accepting reality can be3. Ever the determinist, I believe there is no true free will, so believe every moment has a purpose

bad news 4/29/07

2008-12-11T09:23:00.000-08:00

didn't you know I was waitin on you?waitin on a dream that would never come truedidn't you know I was waitin on you?my face turned to stone when I heard the newswhen you decide to break the rules? cuz I just heard some real bad newspeople are talkn like it's old newsI played it off and acted like I already knewlet me ask you how long have you known dude?you played it off and act like he's brand

Art for the sake of art

2008-12-05T10:34:00.000-08:00

Ira's show is amazing. I'm so proud of her. Really, how often do you think video installations bring top dollar from collecters? I can pretty much bet the house not so much. I know she's amazing and I know she creates solely for the love of her work.http://punchgallery.org/exhibitions/2008-12.html

The Jerk

2008-12-04T23:32:00.000-08:00

I always liked Steve Martin.But I think I take the cake.Today:1. I referred to someone I care about as "stock".... Buy low sell high, get out while you can.2. Missed drinks with my friend from NYC to argue the deficeincies in scientific reasoning with my brother (we do this all the freakin' time, love him.. but we can do that any day)3. Let little crap this evening ruin an absolutely stellar day4