✿dainty daffodil✿

Socks

2012-01-29T23:32:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, a single sock ends up missing

And it must be somewhere in the house

But no matter how hard I look for it, it never shows up

It makes the other sock useless without it

But I just can't get myself to throw it away

It doesn't happen a lot but sometimes it turns up

in the least expected place that I completely forget about

It makes me 10 times happier than when I first bought them

Maybe that's why people hang on to the sock

Because they are hoping that one day they will feel the happiness

Umbrella

2012-01-27T22:17:00.001+08:00

In the morning before I go out,

the look of the sky worries me.

I wonder if I should bring my umbrella or not.

I usually end up taking it anyways.

So, I take it with me.

People usually learn from their past mistakes.

It ends up being just "extra stuff to carry"

but I can tolerate that..

I think I can avoid making the same mistakes over and over..

It could be that my umbrella might be more meaningful than I think.

p/s: cloudy and rain is beautiful weather ever..

My 26th Resolutions

2012-01-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

What were my last year wishes??

1. Should do more exercise~

I didn't do any..What a waste. But I think I managed to reduce

the number of my spare tire..keke

2. NO lazing around, submit thesis

I successfully submitted my thesis however still have the habit of

lazing around as right now I'm typically jobless.

3. Don't let others decide for you

So far so good, I handling them pretty well.

Now, MY 26th RESOLUTIONS:

1. Get a permanent job

2. Be a useful daughter

3. Be a better Muslimah

4. Get myself a ** keke

5. Saving and saving..

6. Exercise

p/s: tak payah byk2 kot..nanti xterlarat nk capai..

Life in SMKJEBB

2011-10-12T17:27:00.000+08:00

050911

My 1st day at school and I was late for my 1st assembly.

My 1st impression: the kids look nice.

240911

Jamuan Merdeka Raya.

One word: Best!!!!

Sekolah nie mmg le agak kaya (PIBG cool)

Banyak menu utk jamuan.

Nasi tomato, Pizza (rasanya lebih kpd roti), Sate (terbaik) etc..

Disadvantage of awet muda; xdpt tapau nasi tomato!!!!! Pakcik tu igt kitorg student.

Disebabkn penat berebut2 dgn student nk amik mknn,

selera mkn pun dh hilang..

Masa terluang diisi dgn cuci mata tgk perangai2 bdk2 ni n picture time!!!!

Kitorang mmg gedik bile dpn kamera...

With my other half: Huda.

My soul mate dlm bergosip2 dan mengharungi hari2 yg penuh ranjau dan onak duri.

kekekekeke

p/s: not bad jdk cikgu..seronok berkawan dgn bdk2 ni sbb wavelength sama..pasni nk tgkp gmbr candid plak!!!!

Quote of the day

2011-07-22T16:09:00.000+08:00

by: Alfred T. Souza

Let's love like we've never been hurt before

Let's dance like no one is praising us

Let's sing like no one is listening to us

Let's work like we don't need money for it

Let's live like today is the doomsday

Gifted Adult

2011-07-01T16:15:00.001+08:00

CHARACTERISTICS OF GIFTED & CREATIVE ADULTS

Gifted adults differ intellectually from others and are more sophisticated, more global thinkers who have the capacity to generalize and to see complex relationships in the world.

Gifted adults have a heightened capacity to appreciate the beauty and the wonderment in our universe. They deeply experience the richness of the world and see beauty in human relations, nature, literature.

Gifted adults crave interchanging ideas with other gifted adults and many love to engage in intense intellectual discussions.

Gifted adults have an inner urge to fulfill their own expectationsand feel very guilty if they cannot even when no one else sees the need to.

One of the most outstanding features of gifted adults is their sense of humor which differs from others and consists often of subtle jokes, intricate teasing or puns. Gifted people often find that their jokes are received with silence because they are not understood.

Gifted adults often have strong feelings encompassing many areas of life and have difficulty understanding the seemingly inconsistent and shortsighted behavior of others because they can see the foolishness, unfairness and danger of many actions in public and personal life.

Gifted adults have a special problem awareness. They have the ability to predict consequences, see relationships, and foresee problems which are likely to occur.

Because gifted adults know more what is at stake, risk taking for a gifted person may be more difficult than for others because it may take longer for them to decide.

Gifted adults often develop their own method of learning and grasping concepts which can lead to conflict with others who don’t use or understand their method.

Gifted adults have normal feelings of anxiety, inadequacies and personal needs. They struggle to have these needs met and taken care of just like all human beings do.

Gifted adults are often confronted with the problem of having too many abilities in too many areas in which they would like to work, discover and excel.

Gifted adults are often driven by their giftedness and may be overwhelmed by the pressure of their creativity. Giftedness is a drive, an energy, an necessity to act—it’s a need for mastery, intellectually, creatively, and physically which grows from the need to make sense of the world, to understand the world and to create one’s world.

Gifted adults need time for inner life experiences, and to understand themselves. Because it takes quiet time to clarify thoughts and feelings, gifted adults need contemplation, solitude and daydreaming

Gifted adults relate best to others who share their interests.

Gifted adults may have a small circle of friends or sometimes only one, but the relationships are meaningful.

Gifted adults are independent thinkers who do not just automatically accept the decisions of their supervisors. They function well in a participatory community and with those who are accepting of their attitudes and innovations.

Gifted adults have strong moral convictions and many use their specific talents, insights and knowledge for the betterment of the world.

Gifted adults have an understanding of the complexities and interrelatedness of global affairs and have the capacity to replace shortsighted, short-term reactions with careful overall solutions

Adapted from "Gifted Adults: Their Characteristics and Emotions" by Annemarie Roeper

p/s: I'm gifted too!!!

Taxi

2011-06-29T13:54:00.001+08:00

Love is like a taxi.

If you wait for them, they won't come.

It's not that the taxi won't come.

There just aren't any empty cars.
This is the worst thing.
Maybe I'll be able to find one on another street.
If I glance back, I just missed another.

It won't come if I just wait.

If you look for them, they won't come either.

They just won't come.

They won't come to just any one person, but

when you give up and started walking,

they suddenly all come at once.

p/s: ...

Am I gifted? - Part 1

2011-06-28T22:43:00.002+08:00

I came across this interesting article about 10 signs your children may be gifted.

I'm not in a position to give any parenting advice, just want to see if I may be gifted that my parent didn't noticed it.

1st Sign: Retains Information: The term "in one ear and out the other" seems to apply to most children. Those who are a cut above when it comes to intelligence actually retain a wide variety of information and are able to recall it at a later time. An example from the National Association of Gifted Children (NAGC) is: "One six-year-old returned from a trip to the space museum and reproduced an accurate drawing of a space rocket he had seen."

p/s: everyone is gifted i guess..lol

Alone

2011-06-26T03:55:00.000+08:00

"The most terrible poverty is LONELINESS and the feeling of being UNLOVED"-Mother Theresa.

As I keep moving forward, I start losing my friend. One by one.

Am I leaving them or they are the one who leaving me?

Am I that pathetic that they feel ashamed to walk through this journey with me?

When you need advice, I was there.

When you go through hard time, my ears are always with you.

Listening to your rants and ease your burden.

And now, when I feel miserable, you did not play your role.

In fact you disappointed me.

I thought you are the most understanding person I've ever known.

Now, I don't know. You doesn't care about me.

I felt more burdensome after talking to you.

Is this our end? Is this the limit of our friendship?

Now, I want to be like you.

The one that selfish and does not care for others.

The one that cold and emotionless.

In my life journey, I'm alone.

I'll never get through life if I'm always depending on someone.

Power through my loneliness and watch how strong I become!

BYe BYe to my old self!!!

p/s: Being single should help me evaluate whether I'm ready for a relationship or not. Don't let loneliness do the evaluation. I used to think that loneliness is a blessing. Now, how I craved for company on everything I do. How funny.

My Peace

2011-06-08T00:18:00.000+08:00

Life is getting miserable?

Life is hard enough?

You feel like want to end it right now?

And sometimes you wondering what should you do to have a peaceful life.

It's simple and easy.

Make PEACE with ALLAH.

InsyaAllah your life will be better

and your heart will be at peace.

p/s: PEACE!!!!!

One Step At A Time

2011-05-27T02:47:00.002+08:00

Failure.

I cried. No tears at all.

Loudly in my heart.

I lost the grip from reality.

Where is my strength?

Where is my determination?

They're gone.

Leaving me alone in a dark, sad world.

I keep reminding myself that;

I'M FINE!!!

Even though I'm not fine.

p/s: kdg2 rs i need to cry out loud. lift out the burden, sadness and frustration from myself. And hopefully, someday real tears will be flowing from my eyes.

My List Episode 1

2011-05-19T15:01:00.001+08:00

"A journey is best measured in friends rather than miles."

~Tim Cahill

Inspired from tv series: Hot in Cleveland, Earl; I start writing my list.

Lists of things to do before I reached 30s, 40s and 50s.

Cause I'm still in mid 20s, I only able to list things to do before I'm 30.

Shall I reveal it to you?

kekekekeke

It's embarassing.

Should I?

I'll think about it first.

I'll let you know later.

p/s: I ate 6 slices of pizza today.Gosh, my body fat society is having a celebration welcoming new family member. Kyahh!!!!! OMG!! I forgot to write my post title!!! My neutrotransmitter is on strike today..

My Luck, Fate or Destiny

2011-04-15T16:47:00.000+08:00

Looking back to the times in my life,

makes me wondered...

wow, I've been through so many things...

I've managed to solve my life problem successfully.

Yet, whenever new problem arise,

I'm not confident...

I'm losing me to myself...

Why it is so hard?

The same question I keep asking to myself.

But, one thing for sure I learnt through my life experience was;

"No matter how hard it is, I can solve it. It's just a matter of time."

My Day

2011-04-14T23:53:00.001+08:00

When the King of Boredom visited and allured me to his kingdom,

my Knight of Strength left me without any hesitation

and forced me to raise my rainbow flag of dignity...

What am i doing right now in the middle of the night? I'm losing my last pieces of sanity...

Oh, so boring...so slow...

Doing the same routine everyday will transform me into

CUTE PRINCESS!!!

p/s: omg, i'm losing my mind again...Dear Prince of Sanity, take me home to the country of Rational ...

That girl

2011-03-30T21:51:00.000+08:00

Tiba2 terasa diri ni dh tua rupanya...
Ishk, susah betul nk bercakap dgn bdk 13 thn...Rebellious habis...
Maklumlah time ni la diorg rasa diorg paling ngetop...
Pastu cite pon topik boring...cinta monyet la, gaduh kera la...ish, nama pn budak2...
ckp pn benda2 childish...ye la, tgh nk membesar la katakan...bila diberi nasihat, xnk terima...
kita terlebih byk mkn pizza dgn mcd tau...terima la ape org nk ckp...
selalu cm malas je bgk respon..tp sbb hr tu dh kena sound, kite pon kasi la respon...
lps ape jdk hr ni, i'm not gonna listen anything crap frm u again n stop wasting my time...
u want my advice, u hv to pay...it's not free anymore!!!

p/s: i'm not a nice person!!!

I'll be there

2011-03-25T01:26:00.000+08:00

InsyaAllah, I'll be there soon...

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusan hamba-Mu ini...

Amin...

Ëarth

2011-03-23T05:14:00.003+08:00

My love for Earth is so great,

my heart melts for it 'til the dusk of day.

The night sucks when its away,

tough, joyful 'til day's dawn.

My Memorable Lesson

2011-01-23T16:05:00.001+08:00

If I was given a choice, I don't want to go through such a memorable pain.

But, somehow I'm grateful because I was lucky to be chosen to experience the incident and

still healthy without any injuries physically and mentally. Alhamdulillah.

p/s: I will always remember the date: 15th January 2011. I got my lesson and I hope it will benefited others as well.

My New Year Resolutions???

2011-01-04T22:54:00.004+08:00

Wow, time sure flies pretty fast...It's already 2011..
Should I welcome it with an open heart?
Nah, don't have to. Nothing changed except my age..

I can't believe that I'm turning 25...

Should I be sad?
Nope..don't think so...
It's not like I have any special ability to stop myself from growing...
It's out of my reach.. Right now, it's better to accept the fact that "I'm growing older and still single" openly and gladly welcome this new phase of my life.

Now, thinking of this new phase, I should fill it up with interesting memory as best as I can.

First, I think I've gained pretty much weight last year.
And it's been nearly 4 years since I last exercised.
Spare tire!!!! OMG!!!
Should exercise!!!

This weekend, start exercise!!! Jog, jog!!!! Lose your spare tire!!!

Finish your thesis ok!!!!!
Submit your thesis by January!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Or else, you cannot go to Japan...
No lazing around....
Change your habits!!!!

Don't let others decide on your life!!!
Be strong and have faith in yourself!!!!
Trust in your own strength!!!!
Fulfill your dreams!!! Do not hesitate!!!
Do what you enjoys most!!!

When you are down,
There is always support you can lean on.

Dream BIG, think BIGGER!!!!
Japan, here I come!!!!!!!

p/s: I need to finish my thesis first..........................

Hijra New Year

2010-12-06T16:52:00.000+08:00

It's already 30th Zulhijja 1431. Pheww, time flies pretty fast. Only few hours left before we start new calendar. Before our Asar time ended, as a Muslim don't forget to recite 'Doa Akhir Tahun':

Maksudnya:

Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka. Wahai Tuhan, apa yang telah aku lakukan dalam tahun ini daripada perkara-perkara yang Engkau tegah daripada aku melakukannya dan aku belum bertaubat daripadanya. Sedangkan Engkau tidak redha dan tidak melupakannya. Dan aku telah melakukannya di dalam keadaan di mana Engkau berupaya untuk menghukumku, tetapi Engkau mengilhamkanku dengan taubat selepas keberanianku melakukan dosa-dosa itu semuanya. Sesungguhnya aku memohon keampunanMu, maka ampunilah aku. Dan tidaklah aku melakukan yang demikian daripada apa yang Engkau redhainya dan Engkau menjanjikanku dengan pahala atas yang sedemikian itu. Maka aku memohon kepadaMu. Wahai Tuhan! Wahai yang Maha Pemurah! Wahai Yang Maha Agung dan wahai Yang Maha Mulia agar Engkau menerima taubat itu dariku dan janganlah Engkau menghampakan harapanku kepadaMu Wahai Yang Maha Pemurah. Dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad, ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan mengurniakan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

And after Maghrib, don't forget to recite 'Doa Awal Tahun' asking Allah to protect us from Satan's distractions:

Maksudnya:

Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka. Wahai Tuhan, Engkaulah yang kekal abadi, yang qadim. yang awal dan ke atas kelebihanMu yang besar dan kemurahanMu yang melimpah dan ini adalah tahun baru yang telah muncul di hadapan kami. Kami memohon pemeliharaan dariMu di sepanjang tahun ini dari syaitan dan pembantu-pembantunya dan tentera-tenteranya dan juga pertolongan terhadap diri yang diperintahkan melakukan kejahatan dan usaha yang mendekatkanku kepadaMu Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Mulia. Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha pengasih dari mereka yang mengasihi dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad. Nabi yang ummi dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

p/s: let's have a good start this year!!!!!!!!!!!

Life and Dreams

2010-12-05T22:36:00.003+08:00

I had my Beginner 2 Japanese Exam yesterday. Truthfully, I'm kinda pretty sad with my performance. Well, my preparation was quite so-so. I did pretty bad in my oral test. I still clearly remember my sensei frustrated expression when I didn't manage to answer and understand her question. What to do.... I studied last minute. I only opened my japanese book on Friday night...

Then while waiting for the written test to begin, my 'walking dictionary' cannot hide her nervousness. Well, it's not my style at all. People always tell me how shocked they are seeing my blank expression and my poker face during crucial time like this. I felt like hitting her head for cannot sit silently. I'm nervous too but your action makes me uncomfortable. Well, maybe that's her complex I think.

My written test was so-so I guess.
There were few questions that I don't know the answers.
How I wished I study earlier for the test.
There's nothing I can do during that moment....
except asking my 'walking dictionary' for the answers....hehehehe...thank you for your help...You saved my day....

While waiting Sensei marked my paper, we watched Nihon no ega...
Seriously, I tried to focus on the movie, but my fear won't let me go....

I don't have any confidence regarding my marks.
I did pretty bad I assumed.
If I managed to pass this test I'm grateful already.
When teacher came with the marks in her hand, nervousness crawling inside me.

When sensei handed out my paper, I cannot believed what I saw.
I got 87!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW!!!!!!!!
せんせい、ありがとう　ございます。
ども　ありがとう!!!!
She was so lenient....I don't think I deserved 18 for my oral....
But I'm glad....I passed!!!!!!!!!

With this cert, I officially ended my Beginner 2 lesson.
And starting from 18/12, I will start my Intermediate 1...

Nihon!!!! Wait for me!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll be there next year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p/s: for those who belittle my dreams, wait and see....I'm going to make it true!!!!

Ar Rahnu Day

2010-12-02T00:27:00.000+08:00

Today, was a gloomy day.

The road that I walked was so dark.
So creepy and there was no end at all.
Am I able to walked this road peacefully and safely to find the light?
Am I able to survive in this journey.
I don't know. And I don't have the courage to think about it.

There was no one helping me.
There was no one guiding me.
I was left there alone.
All by myself.
I'm such a little sheep lost in a deep forest waiting for the predator to attack me.
My legs were very tired.
So numb that I don't think I have the strength enough to continue my journey.
Ya Allah, You are my only hope to gain the courage needed to end this miserable road.
Please help me through it.

p/s: That woman by Baek JiYoung currently on the loop in my mp3. Maybe I'll post something regarding that song later.

ダウンロード

2010-11-29T04:19:00.009+08:00

私は日本ドラマをダウンロードされている。

私の完了したプロジェクトのリスと：
１）ヒミツの花園
２）恋空
３）タンビリング

私の現在のプロジェクオのリスト：
１）~~マイガール (my girl)~~ DONE!!!
２）~~月の恋人 (tsuki no koibito)~~ DONE!!!
３）夏の恋は虹色に輝く (natsu no koi wa nijiiro ni kagayaku)
４）流れ星 (nagareboshi)
５）フリーター、家を買う (Freeter, Ie o Kau)
６）左目探偵ＥＹＥ(Hidarime Tantei EYE)

ダウンロードのがんばって！！！

えいが　を　みましょう！

2010-11-06T21:58:00.001+08:00

きょう、わたしと　ヒダユさん、Finas で　いきました。

わたしたち　にほんお　えいがを　みました。

えいがわ　ふたり　びより　です。

えいがが　おもしろかったです。

ここで、　たくさん　にほんじん　おとこのひと　あいました。

わたしわ　うりあべさんに　はなしました。

I lost myself to myself

2010-11-04T19:12:00.000+08:00

I promised her to submit my Chapter 3 and Paper on Wednesday. Eventhough there was no slight correction being made, I promised her. Imagine how dissapointed she was waiting my submission like crazy.

That night i wrote like crazy. Maybe I underestimated on time. I woke up late next morning. Very late and I couldn't finish my chapter. Should I gave my work which I did light-heartedly or I work harder on it and hand in later? Then , I decided to give my best on it and hand in tomorrow.
On Wednesday, I went to Toxicology lab to get my HPLC result. I'm full of spirit to write up after got my result. Then on that night I wrote up again while listened to Maher Zain's. Very inspiring and soothing. Well, now my chapter only needs few more touch up and it will be okay enough to be submitted.

サブリナ、がんばってください！

p/s: gotta to move forward!!!