My personal thoughts...

I cant get no sleep

2010-09-15T04:34:00.003+03:00

Surprise, Surprise!
It's 4:15 here @ my place.
What do you think i've been doing ? I bet you'll never guess :)
I've been watching great movie which is number one in IMDB rating at the moment.
It's "The Shawshank Redemption"
Ooohh my good.
What a nice skills of acting from Morgan Freeman and Tim Robbins (mby the best act he ever did)
How could i skip that peace of brilliant art.
Actually i've got an answer on that. Mby, coz i was 5 when the movie was released =)
Alrighty, time to sleep now, i guess :)
Mby i'll tell you 'bout my life next time, mby not. Who knows what or when i'll post something here again.. =)

Cya!

I'd like to think that the last thing that went through his head, other than that bullet, was to wonder how the hell Andy Dufresne ever got the best of him

-- Red (Freeman)

Simon's cat post

2009-09-29T23:59:00.003+03:00

Hola, people!
Just some funny, adorable videos coming in this post.

Hot Spot

Fly guy

Let me in

Ahh, aren't those videos cuute? :D
Peace!

DnB mood

2009-09-28T18:22:00.006+03:00

Tell me what's on your mind?
Or, well, never mind, just wanted to say that phrase :D ihihi! :D
Heeeyy, mates!
Just came back from school (actually it's high school, but i like to call it that way coz "high" means something special to me :D.. hah), had some snack.. blahblah..
Soo, where was I..
Ah, right... DnB mood!

Yesterday i've found a really nice russian band that blows my mind (ofc in a good way).
You can see their logo, or cover ooor whatever they call it, on the left :) The band is called "SyNoise"
I couldn't find their homepage (i guess they dont have one).
But i've found their myspace account =)

http://www.myspace.com/synoisemusic

Here's one of their tracks that i found on youtube
Synoise - Starlight

Really talented guys with incredible sense of sound.. if it's possible to say that way :)
Well that's my opinion.
Feel free to have your own :D And ofc to share it with me by commenting this post ! :)

Peace!

Fucked up weekend

2009-09-13T03:22:00.003+03:00

Oh my god, why ??
Whyy??? Why me?
Sickness took over me when i didnt expect it! Gooosh=(
Friday night with all my ambitious plans were totally fucked up!
Body temperature was approximately 39 and ofc i decided to stay home. Now i feel much better that makes me proud of myself =) Coz i've cured(at least i hope so) myself without my mommies help, in a very short period of time =))))
Living apart from my parents makes me a True Man :D Oh yeah!
By the way, balance surely took place in that "Fridays fail situation", coz my friends told me that the party, where we decided to go, totally suck =)) Or maybe if i were there, the party could be much better, eh? =)) And if not, then my little angel that lives inside me can make me avoid spending my precious time on "shit" by making me sick :D Both options are good for me =)

Say "good night for me" now!
Bye!
With sick love, Darky da big boy :D

Omg!! He's back?!

2009-09-11T02:19:00.006+03:00

Hello my little, forgotten diary!
It's me again!
Duh.. why? wtf? You gonna surely ask :)
And it will take a long time to think over your question, coz.. damn.. i dont even know the answer :D

Long time no see :) Hihihi. Righty!
Last post had a picture of me.. well, i'm gonna tell you that i've totally changed my style and my attitude to everything that is happening around me :) Mby b'coz i had my 20th birthday recently... mby not :)
Also there are some major changes in my life:

I've quitted my job
I moved from my parents flat to my own rented flat
I'm now studying IT in the capital of Estonia, which means that i've changed
my location
New town, new relationships.. new clubs.. everything seems soo nice
:)
Also i'd add that i've bought pretty powerful laptop Acer Aspire
6930g
I stopped playing q3.. dunno why.. it's not only about time.. but it seems
that i'll be fucking back. If not.. then mby Quake Live ? Huh?

I dont know about my further plans and activity on this diary.. Mby i'll continue "shitting" my thoughts and about my life here, mby not.. Also i had thoughts to make it private.. well.. the time will show everything.. But for now.. i'm happy to write in here :)

Okay-dokay.. it's time to say goodbye diary!

Bye, bye! Hope we'll meet soon ;)

PS. Pic of my new laptop is clickable (more photos and specifications)

Empty post

2008-04-15T02:24:00.005+03:00

Hello,
It's just an empty post with my photography.

Just another cruel day

2008-03-27T17:45:00.010+02:00

A nice chilly weather with a sun shining on a melting snow that makes you feel like you're in the heaven.
Everything was so dangerously bright that it was possible to get blind :)
Now the horror part coming :) Everyone who's under 18 and have unstable mentality please close your browser :)
In my way to work I've met 2 little boys (10-13 years old) that were playing around with a snow and with..
a dead crow.. i was like o_O
Mby that poor crow was alive before one of the boys made a finishing hit. That was very cruel. He held the
crow for a wing and... nah, i better stop it.

Where does it come from ?
I mean the cruelty in a little boys heart.
If i were one of theirs parents i would kill both of these 'non-humans' and then i would make a suicide :)
Coz there should be no place for these kind of people !

Peace!

How USSR influenced the sale of beef tongues

2008-03-26T03:10:00.007+02:00

Heeyy!
As we all know that in 1991 the USSR union has collapsed and as the result we can buy everything in our (Estonian) supermarkets.
But... Despite that.. well.. uhh, i couldn't find any beef tongue :) eatable one, you know :)
Well, that was pretty strange, coz i visited popular supermarkets without any result.. Naah.

Just to end this topic with a positive note i would like to share the music-video of my favorite rapper.
He's not actually a rapper, his music genre is various, but, well.. i just like the way he's doing it :)
Some people say that he's a Russian Eminem.
Noize MC is his name (nickname, brand)

If u liked that, you can find more of his music videos at youtube :)
Time to sleep now.
Peace!

"At the center of your being you have the answer; you know who you are and you know what you want." --Lao-tzu

You were blessed and fortuned while you read that :)

Am i happy?

2008-03-23T22:40:00.001+02:00

Hola, my mate!
Come closer, Darky's gonna ask you something.. Come on.. Closer :)
SSsshh, let's just keep this talk in secret... you know how to keep secrets, dont ya? :P
Tell me, my all-knowing reader am i happy?
Am i happy in my life ? Hihhi :)

Mby you're a psychic, you know, and you can predict my future and my past.. etc..etc :)
Quess :) Am i happy ? Be guided by what you have :)

I've gained my quake3 skills back, so i can own pretty hard there :)
I have a nice well-paid job with very friendly colleagues
"School-end is so close that i can even feel it" that's a quote from one of my posts
I still have a conflict with my girlfriend, and so.. We're not even talking to each other. (Actually it's the reason i'm very depressed and nervous last days) And i think we're up to breakup... This also makes me sad.
Instead of doing something important or interesting, i'm writing a fucking "poem"(or whine) for my blog :)
I've got very nice and cool friends whom i respect and love. :) But despite that fact i feel myself a bit lonely.. Sometimes i have a shitty feeling that i'm fucking alone and noone care about me :) Wow that sounds too depressive :)) Mby it's coz a fatal conflict with my girlfriend.. mby not.

Here you go, my friend :) Take a closer look on these 'dots' again and tell me your opinion :)
Just leave a comment like "You're happy" or "You're not" =) I'll take those comments as a subjective opinions anyway :P
Who knows, mby i'll tell you the right answer when i'm done with reorganizing and 'understanding myself' :)
Bye, bye !

PS.
"Fuck you, i'm fortuned" i'm gonna say, if u'll try to fuck up my life !

Me vs My feelings

2008-03-12T01:29:00.000+02:00

I'm getting so angry, that i cant even hit myself :)
But also, there is a positive side of course.. I'm tired and I'll sleep now :P

There is no use of these feelings.
It's like when u continue playing a game when u know that u will gonna loose the match..

Sometimes i just wanna be a google bot, that just records sites to his database.. no feelings, no pain, no nothing.. just tons of expensive processors :)

P.S. I found out a very interesting fact. I'm more active in my blog, when i have some sort of problems or I'm very happy about something.

Darky is gonna sleep now.
Good night everyone!
Peace.

Bazooka buble gum song

2008-03-11T12:06:00.000+02:00

I just luv that song :)
This clip can be a great example of an energetic song.

Bubblegum, bazoo-bazoo-bazooka bubblegum!

Incredible post with lots of humour inside

2008-03-11T01:24:00.000+02:00

Boys dont cry,
Fuck that.
I'm not doing that..
I'm just making a try..

Btw. Are these 2 tears called 'cry' ?

Like a true quaker i whine, kick walls and make some stupid things every time i loose.
So, why am i doing this now? Actually i think it's just my todays bad mood.
Wtf i feel myself lonely.. incredible =)

PS.
Never give yourself a reason to think about your 'bad mood'
It's much better to try to make it better somehow.
Darky (c) 2008

Luv ya all (i can say that loudly coz i know that noone reading this except bots :)
Say hello to google !
Peace.

Hot thing

2008-02-24T15:31:00.000+02:00

"Is it me or things just get a little hotter?!" (c) Powerpuff girls cartoon Series
Ow yeah, it's getting hotter here coz i'm back.. well, at least for now.. to write this post.
Long time no see :)
Also i lost you all during this "non-post-holiday".. but i hope u'll be back 'n reading :)

Yesterday i had very bad mood =( So i couldnt write anything informative.. so just nvm about that post.
Actually i'm bit depressed right now just as i was yesterday, but.. well.. who cares :)

Soo let's start with news :)

Main thing is that "school end" is soo close, that i can even touch it =)) Oww yeah, it's soo hooot =) Please leave this site unless you are 18 years of age or older! rofl!!!
Congratulate me, i turned to the person who works =)I'm working on administrator/support position in one of the hosting company.Really friendly сolleagues and a nice company at all :)
42ne is back to Clanbase and owning :) And we will ;)

If u read this - i love you!
If u're not - i hate you !

Now comment this post with "<3" :) I just wanna know whom i love =)
Peace!
And let the Fortune be with you.

Love

2008-02-24T01:21:00.000+02:00

Every time when i get hit, my health decreases for a fucking huge quantity of percent.. and at the same time, i'm not able to damage, just because i.... what an unfair game.
Whoah, seems that i have too positive character ? Damn.

Quake3 is the game where i can RAIL everyone, whoahahaha!!!!
Sounds fair, right? =)
It's the game i'll play !

PS.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
End of PS.

Remember me?

2007-12-04T00:38:00.000+02:00

Heya all!
Remember me? I'm darky :P
U think i'm gonna leave you ? :PP Nooot soo faast ! Heheh :)
Huge amount of new things had happened to me :)
Thats why i were so 'silent' maybe :)

I hope i'll give you some more information next post, because now i cant concentrate and put it all here, so i decided to just tease you :P
Hihi :)

See you soon!

With respect,
///Darkystar

Thoughts about balance (part 1)

2007-11-19T22:11:00.000+02:00

Hello ladies, gentleman, quakers and ofc animals :D

I would like to tell you 'bout the thing i really believe in :)
Well, i'm not sure that i can fully explain you all the aspects of it (imho ofc), but i'll try.
If i'll fail, or i'll make only some little part of it, then maybe i will continue telling you about it in some another post :)
Sooo...

It's called balance.
Actually it's not the onlyest thing i believe in. I believe in my future, in fortune (as a friendly brotherhood and ofc as a quake3 clan) and in balance (no god here) :P
Okay.. back to balance :)
Balance is everywhere, eveeryywheeeeere, and i mean it.. :D
If you're surrounded by positive things then someday u'll be surrounded by negative things (you can also read it backwards.. :) )
It's like if you found something then you'll loose something.. and nobody knows when :P
It works everywhere for me. Maybe because i'm used to (able to) understand a little more than others do ? :P Who knows.. :)

In the end of this part i would like to say that it's possible to hack a bit (well i'm not sure that it works, but i'll test it) like balancing good things with good things (like helping someone if it's easy for you).
Making good things for others means that u'll loose something, no matter what (power,health,money,time).
So u'll make a balance this way :P
If we take a closer look to some kind of situation then it's more understandable :)

Situation
U've been very successful in your job (school) for last 2 weeks for example.
Theory of balance tells us that someday (mby tomorow) u'll be unlucky, or unsuccessful somewhere.
And if we'll make a donation somewhere (we loose money) then we're like unsuccessful in loosing money ? And now the most important part.
As far as u were unsuccessful in loosing money already then u'll be lucky, successful once again in something :P
Hihiih, i'm dA cheater :P

Mhmh, i bet noone understood what i meant.. but it's okay :) So.. 2nd part of my "thoughts about balance" coming soon.. mm maybe not :)

Looking forward to your comments.
Darky

Special trip day full of adventures

2007-11-18T07:47:00.000+02:00

Hola, kids! :)
Long time no see.. :)))

Me and my lighty girl went to Otepää (just another small town in Estonia) on Friday. We enjoyed ourselves :)

Nobody disturbed us :)
Actually the main idea of this trip was to make a special day :) Why special ? Coz it's not like ordinary day which starts with school and ends with home... There's a nice word in English for it, if i'm not mistaken, household day? :) Hm, if i'm wrong, just tell me :)
These were very cool days full of adventures :)) We didnt even knew how we'll get back home ;)

We came back yesterday in the evening. And i was veery tired and sleepy, so i fell asleep just after the soccer match between Israel and Russia ended :)
The match ended with a score of 2-1 for Israel. It means that Russian stays at home this year :) Eurocup 2008 is not for them :P

Nah, time to play Quake a bit :) Good luck for me :D

With an endless love to my baby,
Darky

Timbaland vs Porn

2007-11-12T20:28:00.000+02:00

Heya! Darky in da house!

I discovered that there's a link to my bloggie on some porn-site I've got 30% of referrals from there. Hmm
Well, i'm not against it :) But it's a bit strange, eh ? :)
Attention!
This is not a porno blog ! lol :)
but u better be 18+ *wink*
Anyways, thanks! I appreciate it, but.. if You read this message, no matter how much traffic i get from your site, i'm sorry, but i cant put your link here :)

Timbaland, we should make a duet ! :D

Baby if you strip, you can get a tip
'Cause I like you just the way you are'

Keep visiting my blog :) lol !

Good luck 'n have fun,
Darky

A nice Saturday evening

2007-11-10T23:03:00.000+02:00

How are you ?! :D
Heeeeelo, guess who's here? Yeah, it's Darky here!
It's almost perfect evening :)
Why perfect?
Coz we had a nourishing dinner with my mom and dad in a restaurant named "Ihaste hotelli restoran".. My stomach is so full, i cant even move myself to a kitchen to have some tea.. :) ehh :D
I took a photo (with my SonyEricsson K750i) while we were waiting for a taxi to get home :)

Why almost? :)
Coz it's 23:00 and i have no events for next 2-3 hours..
Mby it's good, mby it's not :) But, nonetheless, i'll keep it cool :P

In the end of this post i would like You to listen to my old bands (existed for 2 years) track :)
Band was called Alias with 2 members in: Me and LN
Sooo.. here we go, click "Play" ;)
Alias - Sky (If i had a chance to rename this song i would name it "The good and the bad")

Religious Dentistry

2007-11-10T16:22:00.000+02:00

Religious Dentistry
Discursive Essay

The article I would like to talk about is taken from scientific historical encyclopedia. This text gives us an opportunity to take a closer look at old Balinese religious life and traditions.

Tooth filing, that is also known as potong gigi ceremony, is a part of Bali's religious traditions and, unlike nowadays, is not performed for cosmetic reasons. Balinese believe that they may experience serious problems later in life without having their teeth filed.
Also Balinese religious life is surrounded by a belief in a variety of mystical creatures like demons and ancient gods. They believe in special forces that inhabit temple, statues, trees.
Every day of an ordinary Bali man has a different functions – a best day for rice planting, best day for cremations and other festivals, as well as tooth-filing days.

In conclusion I would like to sum up with my own opinion about Balinese traditions.
No doubt that a potong gigi ceremony and a belief in mystical creatures is pretty strange for us, but as we all know to be a sufficient man it is needed to believe in something. According to this saying, Balinese people appeared to be culturally and spiritually sufficient people.

Annoying thing

2007-11-09T16:09:00.000+02:00

Ooh yeah, friday!
That's the day i've been waiting for a whole week :P
Hello!

It's time to tell you, my friendly reader, what annoys me :)
80% of people starts every conversation (with everyone) with similar phrases like "How are you?", "Wazzup?", "How do u do?".. etc..
Why? :) Why they ask "how am i" if they dont care about it anyway :)
I mean.. I understand if my bros,mom, dad, girlfriend, friends or 42ne members ask me about my own life.. i'm always happy to answer that "I'm just fine! mate, and you?", "Fucked up:( blablabla...", "Visit my blog @ darky4.blogspot.com to know Why" :)
Buut.. i dont really understand why unknown people cant start their conversation with what they really want from me. No doubt, i can tell them about myself, but is it really interesting for them ?
The most annoying part of this type of unknown people is when they ask "How are you" and continue talking.. just without waiting the answer :S oww.. Why da fuck you ask if you dont even want to hear the answer :P
I'm always opened for this type of direct messages like "Hey, give me some money!" or "Can u please host my quake server on your dedicated host for free pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease?" :)
But be careful, there are not so many days when i have humorical mood and i'll just joke on in ;)

P.S Technorati Profile

How are you ?
Darky.

Oww

2007-11-06T18:47:00.000+02:00

Hey, guys!
Tuesday seemed pretty easy day for me. I did almost nothing at school, isnt that nice? :D
Also i'm happy that i have a lot of free time in the evening, coz there is no homework for today that will take more than 30 mins :P yaah!
But i'm here, and no events are scheduled for today :( So, i think i'll spend my time training my aim in quake3 :(

By the way, i'm in panic :)

Heeeyy!! Where (and when:P) did i get 3 girlfriends? :D Heelloo?! Wheeeere arre you ?
Can we meet someday ? Or u'll stay as my anonymous online GFs forever? :) Hihihiih..

If we talk serious now, i dont need neither girlfriends or boyfriends (for sure) atm. :D
Coz i'm just happy with my lovely kitty :)

With respect,
Darky
Fobewu

People getting owned

2007-11-06T03:46:00.000+02:00

Do u like watching how people getting owned ? :)
Then this vid is for ya :P

New design for my blog

2007-11-04T17:20:00.000+02:00

Hello my friends!
I've made some changes in my bloggie :) Check it out!
I think it's better than it was :) Anyways, as we all know, content - is the most important thing in blogs, and not the design :)
Feel free to comment my blogs new skin :)
Also, i've registered my blog in some blog-dirs.. more visitors coming? :)

By the way, if u want to see your web-link here in my blog, just tell me :)
I'm always opened for link exchange.

Mmm, well.. news. I've pretty bad mood right now, coz tomorow is just another school day..
Eh, i had fun during my 1 week holiday.. but it's finished :( no time to rest now !

42ne news
We lost our first place on Clanbase playing vs FoD, gg!
~~It's time to make some excuses now :))))~~
We lost coz of some good players (me for example:)) stopped playing for some time, hihhi :)
Cant guarantee that i'll be active for the next 1 or 2 weeks, coz hard week coming.. time to correct some bad marks in school :D

With love,
Darky
Fobewu

The day after Halloween

2007-11-01T15:33:00.000+02:00

Hello my friends 'n enemies :)
Let's start from some good news :)
My little angel Lighty Girl gave me some photos, taken in Turkey, to post here :)
Iiiiit's shooow timme :D

Rrrrr :P
If someone who want to make a wallpaper of these photos for Me is here, then he's welcome to try :) And if i'll really like it.. uhmm.. mby i'll present something :) So it's like mini-competition eh?
Thanks anyway! ;)

Helloween the Day of Pain (nice name for a future film) :D
We had a Halloween yesterday, right? :)
I was at home.. :) But i had my own Halloween :D
I was totally lame in quake3... :)))) Yeah, that's my Halloween.
I couldnt hit a shit.. U know.. Omg that was painful for me :)

With love to my sexy baby,
Darky
Fobewu!