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days in light.

Mon, 06 Sep 2010 18:13:44 -0700

7/9/2010
these days collecting games from web brought me so many breathtaking moments that i frequently call title of God to accept my obligations&witness the full of life. every moment when i alone, i counted my loot with melting elation. in the weekends, i spent 2 days with baby in his mom's house, routed from my dorm. we had great times, succeeded missions in games, enjoy soliciting electronic war field in a team or emotionally together. baby alone started to try a bowling game, after i found him likes bowling&suggested e-bowling. he asked his mom lately to compete with him in the bowling game, and really mastered quite some expertise of the game his parents dumbfound. the weekends were cloudy days, but our hearts full of Sunshine. before i returned to dorm in the end of weekends, he asked me to join him every full weekends from now on, and i can't be more happier to accept his companion invitation.
these days office Internet seemingly got coarser surveillance. i had encountered since last week several knockouts during surfing. the browser can't open web pages, while download waded into several KB/s while usual full load sustains 300KB/s. this Monday i had to quit&shot down my notebook&switch for half of an hour when the facing evil absent after 3 times China censorship blocks down my connection. the facing evil all time faultfinding, so its likely a plot to ignite friction between&fuel of blames&angry among the blood-thirsty mob in the office, a place in fact of tomb of dying bitter losers, just attempting to bury me with humiliation&harm lawful. in the sunshine of noon, i pray God prepares me for activities offline, like reading ebooks for research, try games, to avoid the trap&defeat meaninglessness, which the unavoidable shameful product of those mob in office, mostly original worst of blue collars promoted by bribery or nepotism, but if luckiest, i would still enjoy gaining from web as i did so long with the Internet routinely. God, pardons me lingering online too much, grants me more time in solitude&harmonious family life. u know how i am urgent to find a new wife&life, in full view&rein of my Empire.
this morning dreamed of Zoo.^Dreamed of the administrator of a zoo. he had sold most of land of the zoo, but still run short of currency to run a zoo. his staff also leaving. i also dreamed of animals in the zoo. its a bright morning.

6/9/2010
refined baby&my profile knols. commented on web. Internet deteriorated 3 times&i had to reboot accordingly. the facing sin challenged heavily. read&hunt new pc games. enjoyed dinner. too cool to sit outside. roamed outside, met&nodded to a retired chairman of board of QRRS, a bullshit once dorm mate now a dirty office politician in department of accounting within the dying for outdated company. sorted stuff in night. praying God don't break my passionate engagement with games.
a meaning full weekends.^this weekends spent with baby in 2 days. we made progress on our favorite pc games. baby specially attracted by elf bowling 7, &said played with his mom later than 10pm in Saturday night. my kid brother borrow my logo design for family namespace, faezrland. i sent him via a neighbor's Internet access in dorm. gays in the dorm started to harass me with their ill behavior, after some occasions i side-watched their play with pc for fun. its golden autumn. baby asked me from now on spending every full weekends with him, such a nice suggestion, i never felt enough to be with him. its sunny now in this morning even cloudy when i joined office.

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failure of any Chinese stemmed from sinful mainstream of PRC
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Lee is the living failing Chinese between China&the western. he nothing but a cheater&loser, even once witness the plenty&creative in western culture. he is far from a broker between sino-US, but a shameless traitor of google even when google still paid him. he is the vivid coward and inferior of Chinese as born with weak backbone, a fart licker of autocratic PRC. his career as well as personal life after left google doomed to be nothing but void&noname. world doesn't echo his new brag of business but a laugh soundless.

Google warned on China plans
By Kathrin Hille in Beijing

Published: September 5 2010 18:51 | Last updated: September 5 2010 18:52

Google’s technological lead over Baidu has eroded, the company’s former China head has said, highlighting the increasing challenges western internet companies face in the world’s most populous internet market.
In an interview with the Financial Times, Kai-fu Lee said western internet companies had no chance in China unless they build a more nimble and flexible local presence and retain a strong technological edge.

the future gap and judged of Chinese

Fang's honest wins him forever dignity. God blesses honest Chinese, and only honest Chinese. hell Chinese nowadays on mainland China, esp those well fed by the dirty society nowadays.
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irresistible sink of PRC, rotten society with losing ethic of standing.
the well worded principle always a corner part of the larger ethic reality. in a bankrupt society like PRC, nothing ordered, or even well versed, can't save the mainstream nor ethic national.

路透社新闻手册之“标准和价值观” http://www.lipuman.com/archives/reuters-news-manual-standards-and-values/ from 李普曼

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3/9/2010
finally accessed myspace.^yesterday i was in elation after i gained&supplemented a broken archive from web near 6pm. my thx to God is saint&thick. baby's mom still in afraid of talking money with me after see through my poor salary, coarsely let me shut up when i referred what i bought, like some tea yesterday. in the night trusted neighbor roommates help fixing my cellphone can't access Internet via wap for months. they both reluctant to let me check their cell's setting but browse my cellphone. after all they failed me. this morning again a brilliant sunny morning. God allows me posted recent 2 blog entries to myspace, which refute my logon for more than 3 days by ill response broken by proxy disabled by China censorship. God, i see more miracles&fruits of work through ahead. Thx for what u done on me.

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irresistible sink of China nowadays with no resistance to sin&sinister. 沉疴不治的中国
the dying China society, deepest core sin is the authority, or its back bone, Marxism vented by Russian. no cure for nowadays China, except total collapse&rebuilt into Empire under Zhu's, the Emperor of last native Chinese nation.
PRC, to its best, is a prototype of dark power from sins among German&Russian, outdated in today's world since the flagship product, the Russia Red's collapse back to 1991. PRC as its best, is a cheap commodity like what it produces in these 20 years in global economy.
i, benzrad, 朱子卓, here assert again, i will ruling China in an Empire reset for 1109 years that comes soon. China belongs to the Son, while Chinese redemption&sacrifice to God long time is due and as the only way out of the world.

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2/9/2010
dreamed of Chinese Kong Fu, or Taoism.^yesterday is busy. after work time the facing sin again stayed in office till i left before 6pm. after daily exercise, ie. rest on garden bench, jog around the front space of QRRS, rest on bed&dozed, till a neighbor guy visited. later dropped him a visit but nothing special. in dawn dreamed of a girl from working class with me join a Chinese Kong Fu class, whose tutor in fact a fake Chinese kongfu master. i left earlier, but years after when i met the girl, she told really Chinese Kong Fu means, there r real breath method, space orientation rules, etc. she reinforced quite a lot by the practice. she got the fake master's baby but finally left the cheating person. after work up, i see God's way no other but my way, only i gifted with the real source of mightiest&timeless&most glorious. but God offers many ways to show human the source of life&supernatural.

drifting life perishable.

Mon, 30 Aug 2010 20:14:09 -0700

a bright day.^recent days dogs tried to exert terrorism over my cloudless sky. prayer for Gog more frequently echos in my heart. the facing devil's abuse in fact an accurate plot in its least cost to defame me, out of work time&in drunk excuse. the next day after the show i left office 10 minutes earlier before work time over, as God lets, visiting telcom office to recharge my cellphone's prepay, also narrowly avoid the dog's second attempt to sell its dirt safely, now that machine dog, ie. China police or surveillance system promised keeping absent and worse, reward behind the curtain any humiliation&violence against me. another day passed. then in Sunday afternoon, the monitor, a gay now differentiate itself from its previous team, stayed in office to spy if i dare to join office out of work time, in face of possible abuse. i did as God lets, around 12pm&left near 5pm. the most sinful&repentless gay, the driver in facing office room, once colleague but not now, haunted my office far more frequent these days, monitor the well collectively money devised murder rolling forward. i see more and closer glory of Son shines over me.

in the afternoon, the gay on facing desk challenged me to a historical height. i just let it go&busy with my reading as God rules. its like its last day in office in a short period for its said to start its paid vacation, about 3 weeks. baby's mom, God lets me see clearer again her sin, complained my deficit&refused again to loan me to buy a new udisk to replace my wrecked one. she never risk to loan me more than 500rmb, even i bought the family a new acer notebook of 4600rmb&let her using it now. i also offered her 1900rmb to buy a e-bike but she lost it as i covered in previous blog. i treat her with baby countless dining out, wash out thousand bad debt in my financial book for exempt of what she claimed missing expense under my title. all these done with my salary of ￥1100/month for 7 years, or start from 3 month ago ￥1600/month, while she enjoy 2500rmb/month, and other gray income as a common phenomenon in nowadays China. but never she trust me more than 500rmb. she busy with tutoring every day at cost of her due housewife duty but never report her earnings nor spent a coin from it for family expense. God, never allows me to review if my mercy on her enough, she just don't deserve. let she contented with her money&burning brain for increase it, but just on the day of my glory, Son's fortune to cover&stem out solely my baby son, God of Universe, Hope of China, to the most ready&blessed young man in Royal of Holy. God, never on the earth there is a creature can stand a split of second between baby son&me, the trinity; never the shine of Holy can a human resist with bare eyes or blunt mind. God, dad, Masheng, this is my prayer, my will to shine the land belongs to me, people under my feet.

now its a bright morning. i was so enchanted by the sunrise that i shoot more photos for the moment. the sin on facing desk still lingering in office. last night later than 9:30pm i buzzed baby son, told him no matter his dad in or not in the world, he belongs to God&in the summon of God. no one in the universe can beat his dad, and the Son, his dad, forever accompany him, God. baby son apprehend it without a pause to let me don't bother with perished situation any more.

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drizzle since last afternoon, heavenly love.

Wed, 20 May 2009 01:24:41 -0700

bulls on the grass in back of the village

the only pig nearby, eating his own.

drizzle gathered on stone stool.

benzrad, me, pose for a shot.

yesterday is a cloudy day first, i busy with reading and blogging. after noon i quit from notebook and dozed awhile on bed. when i missing years in Nankai Univ., where i met Masheng heavenly, it started to drizzle, out of my surprise. in the night i sms exchanged a lot with a facebook girl friend, who from Guangdong, south China, but now study in Shanghai. it later turned into a loving chase. the rain continued all night. in the mornign today i continued to ask the girl about my love and possible marriage. she defied it. i then sorted my recent photos and video, esp. this morning of the drizzle, online album and locally, till late afternoon. now i was left alone with my cool world of waiting and solitary for the descend of my Japanese fiancee. that's fine.

wet ground in front yard of my past dad's old house.

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4th snow in Qiqihar&its eve on Women's Day

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 19:04:02 -0700

baby in game.

A Japanese house now occupied by a high rank cadre of the ruling party.

we ready to treat ourselves for Women's Day upon ema's suggestion.

statue of China tourism on Qiqihar Railway Station's garden

these days i a bit idle, waiting for something. ema reconciled and did her part of duty swiftily. i sorted my stuff and prepared for something. Yesterday is International Women's Day, ema claimed we will dine out, near 5 pm. a cop on his bike awaiting just outside of the garden near emakingir's house, and left before we arrived the cross of the road near he stood. i shot some photos in meal in a nearby restaurant. when we left a single female departing before us and let me doubting if she wanted to show me something. the night at home was peaceful, ema played game for 2 or more hours, while baby watched aside. i watched tv. when we went to bed, its warm still. but in dawn i listened to the wind whirling and very sleepy. when i got up i guessed it snown. after seeing the new snow i picked up my camera again. its 4th time i brought my camera with me in office. now the sunshine like the golden sugar liquid, and warm like baby's soft and wet palms. and i know i was blessed and saved. my fiancees, my most concerned, coming closer than any time when in barriers.

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snow of yesterday melting in warm early lunar spring

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 23:49:47 -0800

its quite bright in the morning. when i got up and caught sight of the warm sunrise, i doubting if i carry my camera with me. last night ema shown reconcilation with me after i rebuff her attempt to trap baby in her cliche teaching method. in the night i reviewed quite some details in my life of love and proud of my beloved. baby again push his way on bed, between ema and me, and i slept aside my pillar to make space for baby, who took my pillar like last night. its all bright except ema returned lately at noon and didn't cook for me, instead ate yesterday's porridge and pickers. i doubting if she and China surveillance adopt their old cheat, of crying me for money to support baby son, warren, as well as myself. the old cheat previously edged me out from ema's home and the illusion of my starving baby distressed me hopelessly and forced me retreat to my home town penniless, and finally was trapped in a local asylum in my home town, central China. but that can't work again, nothing can't change my faith in God, and his superpower to see my Royal in glory on behalf of him, the only all in all and final in final. my life and my kingdom to reclaim on eastern Asia, just a preset from God, and in full fledge since the holy spirit stroke me when i immersed in love without any reservations. in no way creatures on the earth can harm me, nor to my Royal and beloved. my fiancees, with their respected families respectively, already in line with my angels ahead of me, as well as the prophets constantly sharpening foresight for the brave and praying, laiding fundamental works for God's biz on this land, full in God's view, awaiting my touch to reinvent vitality into the scary people and their dirty homeland.

its a nice day, since its dawn. gays in the office let my legs cold, by their bloodless corps. evils this moment in a rush. that's near their end of time. sunshine, like ur beaming faces, my beloved, will blossom in the coming season under the heaven, all in God's shine.

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3rd snow in Qiqihar, China in lunar 2009, dirty cleansed. ---originally posted yesterday

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 17:33:09 -0800

the 3rd snow in lunar 2009 descending since mid morning, just leaving yesterday's sunshine in the past. last night i tried to post a blog entry i wrote in office before the end of work time, but China surveillance heavily blocking and spying my posting on home pc. so much dirty i guessed in the process, that a snow this morning needed to cover its smelliness. when i left home in the morning, its just dripping, but gradually turned into a strong snow. i felt the threat of spying eyes on home pc upon my web credential, but more felt blessed in the drizzle. i esp. loving the shallow sorrow mood rains bring to me, as a life memory when i grew up in rains plenty central China, where my home town locates.

this morning i continued to post latest blog entry to more channels of my web presence. dirty from the ill persons around constantly challenged me, they r dead in fact. i shot some picture in office, now that i second time brought my camera, a FujiFilm FinePix S2000HD with me at noon, for the snow and my long time dream to everywhere with another eye of witness. i hope u can see the factual snow scene here.

ok, i don't intend to babble more. ema still in bitter with me. i hold no brief for anyone with a profiting eyes upon holy thing. i toward and more and more inward with glory i deserve.

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warm early lunar spring in restful northeastern China --posted yesterday

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 21:16:19 -0800

its a warm while blizzrads frequented early lunar spring. 2 or 3 snows descended since lunar new year. the bright sunshine always let me happy. family life since then also warm and enjoyable. every sight caught of beauties can let me sigh. i hold my dream of my beautiful most beloved girls even more deep and embeded. dog in China surveillance still pested me, blocking my access to torrent or p2p download world wide, and leting my surfing on home pc a painful experience. the gifts from my God, also from my beloved in holiday, enchanted me every moment when i pick them. i looked into every possible message to probe when i get united with them in new place and settings. God, u see how my heart full of miss for them, my girls in praying.

those days also for me busy, to expand my web presence more penetratively. i enjoyed the interesting sites, like retaggr.com or posterous.com, and their service. i don't want contented by my google and other sites with which i binded our ties, and lost pulse of the bustling new startups. however, with the size of my current web sites, adding a new member sites can result in many rebuilding of connections and corrections. but i don't complain, that's my cyberspace business for my corp.

its more and more melting into green spring, to which i looked forward with so many hopes. i love seeing the light atmosphere and refreshing air. i love to carry my camera everywhere, with new sight in retrospect.i love seeing beautiful legs of female, and their blossomy, and sunburn's sting on skin. i love seeing my girls breezing me with female's tendering.

that's my wish for the new spring. i oath God seeing my fate closer to reunite with my beloved.

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faezrland, fatherland under angels' feather

days in light.

7/9/2010

6/9/2010

benzrad's comment on the day

两岸关系: 人民日报宣扬中共领导抗战胜利 马英九批与史实不符 - 法国国际广播电台

failure of any Chinese stemmed from sinful mainstream of PRC

the future gap and judged of Chinese

irresistible sink of PRC, rotten society with losing ethic of standing.

3/9/2010

benzrad's comment on the day.

irresistible sink of China nowadays with no resistance to sin&sinister. 沉疴不治的中国

活着

2/9/2010

drifting life perishable.

drizzle since last afternoon, heavenly love.

bulls on the grass in back of the village

4th snow in Qiqihar&its eve on Women's Day

snow of yesterday melting in warm early lunar spring

3rd snow in Qiqihar, China in lunar 2009, dirty cleansed. ---originally posted yesterday

warm early lunar spring in restful northeastern China --posted yesterday

两岸关系: 人民日报宣扬中共领导抗战胜利马英九批与史实不符 - 法国国际广播电台