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Astrology Consulation

Joh — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 11:57:28 +0000

Yesterday I consulted an astrologer about my chart. It was like a counselling session and it was wonderful. She knew who I was, I didn’t have to explain myself to her. She got me. I realised there was a lot more to my chart than I understood. I have been reading about astrology for a long time and I have never actually consulted an in person astrologer. I will be going back for more as it gave me such insight and relief. I feel have gained some real direction from the meeting and was more efficient than any other counselling I’ve had. She did ask questions as a traditional counsellor does, yet she also had effective advice about how to handle tricky parts of my chart. I loved it. She very quickly summed up my loved ones in brief as well as our relationships. It was stunning and affirming at the same time.

The Art of Trust by Lee Jampolsky

Joh — Tue, 14 Jul 2009 03:31:19 +0000

I bought this book a few years ago when I was feeling a lack of trust in my previous relationship. When I was bringing my books inside a few days ago I realised I never read it. It has been a really great guide to me for an interesting internal journey I’ve had over the past few days. I’ve had a lot of relationships and most of them haven’t lasted as long as I would have liked. I judge myself for that and it creates certain self defeating behaviours that I have been looking at over the weekend. Darin has been spending time with his mother and I have been spending time with myself. Just quietly I think I have had it easier!

I thought ‘The Art of Trust’ was written by the same author as ‘Love is Letting Go of Fear’. I read that book years ago when I was into reading psychology books and especially ones about relationships. I haven’t read any for a long time. I didn’t really feel like they worked. I didn’t feel fixed. I wasn’t getting results.

Reading this book has given me some peace of mind though. I know it’s not going to ‘fix’ me but it has guided me to look at a few thoughts I have been stuck on and I feel more peaceful. I recommend it to you if you think you may have any trust issues. I wish I’d read it when I bought it, but maybe I wasn’t here yet.

Not Going to UK

Joh — Sun, 12 Jul 2009 10:33:19 +0000

Last night I got an email to confirm that I would still be available to work in the UK in September. I have been keeping that option open. It is scary to abandon a plan you felt so sure of. A friend at work questioned me about my decision not to go one day saying that I haven’t had that much luck in relationships so is it wise to abandon my plan for one. The truth is that I kept it as an option. I didn’t abandon my plan. I needed some time to think about it.

These holidays I have had some time to think about it. It is not just about the relationship with Darin, although that is a good enough reason for me. There have been so many times in the last few months when I have felt relieved that I had changed my mind. When my mum was in hospital last week and my sister Kate called from Edinburgh I imagined how it would be to be away at a time like that. When Tom moved to Airlie Beach and didn’t have a job, I was glad I was still here and that I could provide somewhere to return to if it didn’t work out. I’m also glad it did work out.

I really like my life. I like my people, my job and my home. I decided to go to the UK because I was scared of being here alone without my kids. I missed Kate. I thought it would be a good challenge. When I met Darin and we hit it off so well, it changed everything because being in love to me is valuable. It’s risky and scary, but it’s worth it. If it doesn’t work out will I resent it? No. It’s been worth it already. Travel is something that can always be done. I enjoy going anywhere. Seriously! People are what I value most.

So I confirmed that I wouldn’t be available to start in September last night. I feel really pleased with my decision.

My Spare Room

Joh — Fri, 10 Jul 2009 05:57:31 +0000

These are the before and after shots of my spare bedroom. I am really pleased with how it’s come up.I am happy with the transformation of this room. I would still like to paint the wood and I may get around to it one day in the future. For now though I am happy with the paint and window coverings.

It’s all ready for my potential visitors. If they ever turn up! I was expecting them last night but plans were changed. I am looking forward to having them and even if they don’t stay, I’m grateful that they’ve motivated me to finish this room.

My good friend Wilma made this Roman Blind for me which is perfect for the window. It lets in the light during the day and provides the insulation and privacy (although upstairs that’s not so much of an issue) that I want in the room. It was freezing last night. My reverse cycle heating stopped as it does when it’s too cold outside so I had to use the wood fire. This room stayed heaps warmer than usual.

Restaurant Email

Joh — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 07:49:04 +0000

Today I received an email from a local friend about a local restaurant. It was a negative review and story about the things that were wrong with the place. I was the 7th forward according to what I could read on the actual email. A couple of people along the way had added their own personal negative experiences. There were 32 recipients on the email I had received and looked like quite a number for each of the 7 previous forwards. I would hate to be relying on the success of that business. Funny thing I have eaten there recently and thought it had improved.

I didn’t add to it or forward it on but I wonder how things like that effect a business. There are so many places to eat here. I am going to count them. I’m pretty sure I have tried most of them in the past 4 months. I am eating out a lot lately. I think it’s because most of the time it’s only Darin and I home. If we are both tired after work, we just go out for dinner. I love it.