Carpe Diem

Labrinth - Jealous (Lyrics)

2016-06-23T02:15:00.001+08:00

I'm jealous of the rain
That falls upon your skin
It's closer than my hands have been
I'm jealous of the rain
I'm jealous of the wind
That ripples through your clothes
It's closer than your shadow
Oh, I'm jealous of the wind
'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back,
tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say,
I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
I'm jealous of the nights
That I don't spend with you
I'm wondering who you lay next to
Oh, I'm jealous of the nights
I'm jealous of the love
Love that was in here
Gone for someone else to share
Oh, I'm jealous of the love1
'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back,
tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say,
I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
As I sink in the sand
Watch you slip through my hands
Oh, as I die here another day, yeah
'Cause all I do is cry behind this smile
I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back,
tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say,
I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
It's hard for me to say,
I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

hiring

2010-10-12T08:55:00.001+08:00

we are in need of teachers for the following subjects: algorithms, automata, game programming, xml, internet server mgt. pls. call 221-8181 loc 131

Lost humanity

2010-10-07T08:43:00.001+08:00

Why are you so weak? Why do you put yourselves in the hands of fate rather than faith? Don't forget that you are human and therefore are given great power over many things. Remember that you are not only governed by your emotions. Do not control your thoughts by what you feel. Rather, regulate your feelings with reason. In this manner, you will not easily give up. Thoughts form words and words become your reality. Get yourselves back together and become human once again.

How to iron your clothes

2010-09-19T18:10:00.000+08:00

I have almost forgotten how annoying it is to iron my clothes. Some clothes can be so stubborn and it pisses me off. Well, at least I get a little exercise doing it. The chore only comes ones in a while.

Pig and Turtle :(

2009-02-23T20:23:00.001+08:00

der ws a turtle
hu fel nluv wd a pig.
1day, d trtle
vsted d pig
& sed
"luv njd kau tka"
d pig rpLied:
"kmi n ni rabit, dugay mN gd ka!
nghulat bya ko nMu"
=( OUCH!

***************************
d turtle
had 2 w8,
2 prove
8 was true.
1st tym 8 went
out of 8s shell,
2 make sure
8 was real.
so as not 2
hurt d pig,
n not to
do a trick.
bt nw 8s
too l8.
it could
only w8.

Twisted

2009-02-12T21:08:00.003+08:00

How I hate that twisted behavior. People say what they say without even listening to themselves. People give advices to others without even experiencing those advices or even understanding the same in a mature perspective. Even the most conservative individual commit big mistakes on the very same thing he/she is known to be good at. How I hate that twisted behavior.

One difficult responsibility

2009-01-21T00:30:00.002+08:00

As we get older, we are given the responsibility to guide those who are younger. It is expected because we've gone ahead in life and have experienced what's right and wrong. We have learned things from these experiences. Naturally, we try to impart these things to others who have less experiences. It's the joy and pain of adulthood.
I for one am admittedly at an adult's age have been given this responsibility also. Why should I disregard it? After all, it will help shape the future and I can benefit from this - a peaceful future. However, it is of great difficulty when your physical appearance comes in the way of this responsibility. I look ridiculously young for my age. A simple example would be an instance where I get to ride a tricycle. It is common sense and a sign of respect that if you know that your destination is quite far, and you know the probability of you getting off that tricycle first is very low, you move and give the seat near the entrance to people with closer destinations because they get to arrive first. This common sense is not very common anymore. You have to tell the person sitting at the entrance to move away (but in a polite manner of course) because your destination is quite near. This scenario is fine when the one talking is obviously of older age and appearance. Not fine with me though. People stare at me like it hit their pride when I do the same. Sometimes they become rude and lean as close to the entrance as possible and stare away and ignore me. I don't get offended if the one sitting there is older or a senior citizen who doesn't want to bother sitting close to the driver who sometimes smell awful. Talking about manners. Well, it might have been my fault also because I usually wear casual clothes which make me look young (aside from my face and my height and I really cannot understand why other people with same height as mine, look mature enough to be respected). I should wear semi-formal as often as I can. It's quite funny because I want to look mature but I don't want to look old. It's ironic. Tension of the opposites. Well, I'm used to that.

Trying to act stupid again.

2009-01-14T22:51:00.003+08:00

I just wanted to test their reactions... a reply to my email implies something and my reply is uncorrelated lolz. I wonder how stupidity (or somewhat like that) affects that community.

Are you a student?

2009-01-07T19:21:00.002+08:00

I was on my way home from work. I went to the workstation at the guardhouse to log myself out when this lady looked at me with serious eyes. I'm really stupid at things like that. I tried to think of every possibility of knowing this lady. I really can't remember. I thought of looking at both my sides but didn't do it. I can't afford to embarrass someone who might knew me by looking uncertain in front of her. Well, what I did was to also stare at her with a little smile as if I knew her also. After a few seconds, she finally spoke. She said: "Are you a student?". Wow she's fluent and pretty by the way. Although her words took me by surprise, I just smiled and shook my head. I was relieved that I didn't actually know her and didn't have to embarrass her like I did to someone before. She went on and told me: "You look like a student." I really didn't know what to say so I just smiled. She smiled back. Well, that shouldn't flatter me as it meant that I look ridiculously young for my age (but it did flatter me lolz). I'm a college instructor handling 3rd year and 4th year students.

NBA cards

2009-01-04T20:09:00.002+08:00

I've had a few NBA cards from high school and I'm wondering if there's anyone out there who would want to buy it. Here are a few:

So far so good

2009-01-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

2009 was a year where predictions for people born on the year of the pig are not quite lucky. I'm one of them. I however haven't experienced this "bad luck". At least not yet. 2009 came like the usual year for me, well not really usual. I've been lucky hehehe. I got a new task for blogging, a paid blogging site paid me, and my google adsense had been earning (not big but I'm glad it's moving). I was able to give gifts to most under my list (I can't give everyone though, there are too many of them). I am almost done with my pending jobs. Lastly, I bought quite a few presents for myself. I hope these predictions don't get in my way. We all know how thoughts created by these predictions affect our environment and eventually give a feeling of fulfillment. Optimism! That's my new year's resolution!

Should I?

2009-01-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

Funny how I can't seem to decide on what to do about misidentifying people. I have people in my YM contacts which I have no idea where I've come into contact with. I don't know who they are really. Though their names are familiar, I really can't recall any instance of encounter with them. I'm really poor with people. The thought just bothers me. Should I ask them promptly? Wouldn't it be rude? What if they really know me? I hate this. I'm an idiot.

Learned a rose origami

2008-12-23T09:33:00.002+08:00

I've learned another origami from the internet. It's a better looking rose than those that I already know.

God's garden must be beautiful

2008-12-14T22:39:00.001+08:00

One of our relatives gave this card for my grandmother who died Dec. 02, 2008.

God's Garden Must Be Beautiful

God saw you getting tired,
When a cure was not to be.
So He wrapped His arms around you,
And whispered, "Come to Me".
You didn't deserve what you went through,
So He gave you rest.
God's garden must be beautiful,
He only picks the best.
And when i saw you sleeping,
So peaceful and free from pain.
I could not wish you back,
To suffer that again.

Reasons

2008-12-14T22:19:00.002+08:00

Reasons, reasons, there are always reasons. Fear is intensified by the trauma and it became the limiting factor for this being. It is the reason for the kind of existence being lived by. It fused and cannot be separated. When will it end? Only time can tell where a mediocre life can never be achieved. Read between those lines and see the struggle within those chains. They cuffed the hands with fury, keeping them on the ground and there's just no key to set it free. Can you feel it? Can you read? Time will tell and time is running out. What can be done? What can be done?

UIC ITE professors went nuts again

2008-11-05T13:12:00.002+08:00

Just click the photo to view the entire album.

From ITE pix (not lenovo cam)

Another Idiotic Moment

2008-11-02T13:34:00.003+08:00

Whew, just got home from church and I had another idiotic encounter. After the mass, I went straight to Mercury Drug Store to buy some food (canned goods and some junk foods) when I met this lady. She approached me and called me by some name (I really did not hear clearly). Honestly, I really could not remember her. I even looked if there was someone behind me lol. Anyway, she approached me and asked where my "mama" was. I wasn't sure what she meant by "mama" as I call my grandmother "mama" and my mom "mom". I immediately answered that she was home. My mom is currently at the province, and my grandmother is at home (intubated). I noticed the expression on her face as if the confidence of knowing me slowly subsided. She then asked if we didn't celebrate all souls' day at the province and I confidently answered a "no" and unintentionally had an expression of being surprised why she didn't know (If she was a relative, she'd know that my grandmother was at home and needed nursing and that there's no way of visiting the dead when there's someone at home catching her breath to live). I think that expression really had her. She left and I know from the look on her face that she had second thoughts if I was really the person she thought I was, which I am. These was all because of my automatic response of clumsiness when a somewhat stranger tries to converse with me. I always give out answers without thinking twice whether or not I understood clearly their question. I even pair it with expressions I don't really intend on showing but they do, which then give false impression on what I really mean (Now I'm confused with my words)
. Well, just wanted to share this experience. I think I got her to feel embarrassed more than I did.

The Devil's Advocate

2008-11-02T07:42:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, when I scanned through the television set, I was able to watch the Devil's Advocate (starring Keanu Reeves and Al Pachino). There was a line by the Devil (Al Pachino) saying that the 20th century was his (just before reaching the year 2000). It got me thinking. People before the millennium were too worried about the end of the world. Movies came out about comets hitting the Earth, or "the beast" appearing. Some religious leaders even talked their followers to go to their sacred place because only they can be saved (you might know who I'm talking about and I don't want to name names). Everyone was busy for the said event--the End of the World. Well, watching the movie for the second time got me into thinking: What if they had the right idea of the world belonging to Satan, but only got the date wrong? What if it were that only until the 20th century was the world able to resist him? People after the "expected End-of-the-World" I think got away with the pressure, and some I think felt quite free. Freedom to think, feel, and act. The feeling that the end may not come. Just look around, even the Catholic church tolerate scandals and have no power against it. Actions taken against immorality are taken as being judgemental. Conservative cultures are dying fast, and doing wrong is much preferred than doing right. Self-sacrifice is a thing of the past and all I care about is my future. Vanity is inveitable.

What if the 20th century wasn't his but was the last stand for humanity and faith to succeed? What if the 21st century onward is deemed under his ownership? Just a question though, what if?

Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din.

2008-11-01T19:51:00.004+08:00

I was amused by one of the posts made by my college classmate at her multiply site. Here it is:

Ayon kay Bob Ong,

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi

pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag

nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. "Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala"

17. "Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan"

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo."

20. "Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang mga taong malalapit sa iyo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo."

Went nuts again over the Lenovo Cam

2008-10-30T18:56:00.003+08:00

Well, just see for yourself. People in the UIC ITE went nuts again.

From Nuts Over Lenovo 2

More photos here

Just another badminton night

2008-10-28T23:18:00.002+08:00

Just got home from another badminton night. It wasn't the game I expected though. Quite a lousy game tonight. Hopefully next time won't be the same. I have this problem though. My work schedule changed and I have to wake up as early as 5:00 in the morning for 4 days per week. If a game night is hyper, the next day will be very tiring. Whew. Well, it's just a matter of getting used to.

Lenovo Camera

2008-10-24T23:54:00.001+08:00

Went nuts over the Lenovo Camera lol.

From Picture Picture at the ITE Faculty Office

Get together at Hanoi and Coffee Peace

2008-10-23T20:29:00.003+08:00

Last October 1, we had a small get together at Hanoi and Coffee Peace.

From Hanoi October 1, 2008

Observe

2008-09-20T20:30:00.000+08:00

Just trying to see how people react to a certain post.

Sikat

2008-09-20T08:05:00.001+08:00

Sikata sa akong blog entry about C# express, Firebird, and Crystal Reports XI oi. wakekeke.