“Are you done yet?” She was shouting her lung out to Seth who is taking his shower. It was their first road trip together to the north, one to meet his girlfriend and the other to catch up with her sister. As his car broke down along the route, they have to opt for a stop.

It was on a scorching summer when they decided to give Angela a surprise visit. The plan came from Kara the night before. Seth kind of like the surprise element and quickly agreed to be her driver. Agitated by the heat, “Are you done yet? I need to pee” said Kara, “and I am coming in now”.

Don’t ask me. I couldn’t finish the post. I was suppose to finish at least something. My train of thoughts seem to walking away from me.

I stumbled upon an article or a story about obsession:-

Obsession

I understand this may be weird, but I don’t really care. I want my relationship to be obsessive. I don’t care if others see this as weird, or odd, they won’t be in my life, so their opinion doesn’t matter to me. “Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.” This holds true to everyone. To me, this would make anything secure.

There is a story about a couple who had obsession. It goes like this-

“The girl loved the boy so much, likewise, the boy loved the girl so much. The girl had few close friends, and her boyfriend. Her boyfriend, though, was all she truly wanted. Though, some days the girl would hang out with her friends, her boyfriend was always on her mind. She got upset whenever the boy hung out with another girl, or even when he texted another girl. They shared many things in common. They had countless smiles to share. While the girl lost some of her friends, she grew closer to her boyfriend. Because of this, they became closer and closer. Everything was perfect, except, one thing. The boy had a best girl friend to whom he could not let go of. No matter how upset his loved one got because of her, he just couldn’t. Many argument arose and after time, they broke up.”

You can view this as either the girl acting selfish, or the boy. If the boy had sacrificed his best friend for his girlfriend’s happiness, they would still be together. The boy knew the girl was obsessed. How many times she texted him, called him, thought about him, only wanted him, and only wanted him to have only her. He didn’t fully realize what he had with her, and what she offered until it was too late. The boy knew what he had done wrong. All the girl wanted was just for them to be together, just them. The boy couldn’t though, he was selfish and couldn’t sacrifice his best friend for his lover’s happiness. Time passed, and the boy knew that he had to have a relationship with obsession. He was only truly happy in that state. He knew what he wanted. That boy was me..

I realize now what mistake I made, and at what cost. You’ll either be in a relationship with obsession, or no obsession. With someone who will either fully emerge them self within you, and likewise, you with them, or they will not. That relationship could of grown, we could of been emerged fully, completely in bliss. But, I sacrificed that future for someone, instead of someone, for that future.

It doesn’t take much to get obsessed with someone. Like we do with a tv show, or a movie, or a song. It is actually that simple. You just have to commit yourself to them fully, and only want them, all the time, anytime, everywhere, anywhere.

One day, I hope to get into a status where my relationship is obsessive. I know from experience, it is truly bliss. Hopefully, though, the obsession will forever grow. This time, no one will stand in my way of the perfect future.

Reflecting on it….

The collective mind is greater and smarter than one single individual
The mayor who make a huge change in New York city and even starred as himself in “Anger Management”
The jack of all trade and entrepreneurs.
The hyperactive kid with a dog
The Jew who see through the States to credit crisis
The testimony

All these I have started long time ago but yet none of them able to reach the completion. I have procrastinate long enough. Could do some catch up tomorrow with anyone of them.

A friend told me that I’m insensitive person. I told him that I am sensitive. He argued that I’m not a sensitive guy, rather I am a person who often emo. He called me “Emo hai”

After today the lady bought me the snowflakes, I went around shopping. Dropped by a friend shop. With a receipt above RM200 of purchase, I could get away with 2 hours free parking. Hence, I walked to the information counter to get the free parking validated. Unlike the Timberland sales assistant who called me by my name. I guess he saw my name on the credit card which prompted him to say “Thank You Mr. Tan” So courteous. The customer service representative at the Pavilion called me Mr. Wrong. The chicks were kind of happy to see Mr. Wrong? Or were they had enough to wait and search for Mr. Right?

The sight in Pavilion. Reminds me of jerinelay

In the beginning I was thinking about ranting and complaining. As time goes by, I am mellow down. Doesn’t feel like raging any. Rather it is just a let out. It has to be to do with the driving experience in Kuala Lumpur.

Seriously speaking today I almost had twice the mishap. It’s almost. Every single farking time it is just at the edge of it. Whenever I look over at the driver, they aren’t talking or tweeting. They just don’t know how to drive. They drive like they own the road. Owning their farking road. When confronted the excuse were merely I also pay for the road tax. Hello?!! Everyone is paying also. Stop hogging the lane or thinking you are driving the farking Hummer and utilize both lanes. Damn it.

Anyway, the point is that the national car which can be bought at lower price enable almost everyone can drive. This is where the horror is. When any Tom, Dick and Harry driving, they aren’t actually drive. They just trying to make a statement that they exist.

There is one time I promised a friend that I will be joining them to club. However that night I doesn’t feel like going out so I told them that I will fetch them home instead since I stood them up. That night itself, it was drizzling when the friend called me. It was slightly after 3am. I dragged myself out of the bed and went to pick them up. One of them stayed all the way in the Bukit Rahman Putra which is quite a distance from Phuture.

She wasn’t that happy when I went out to pick up the friends. If you can do friends the favor, you would do right? Wouldn’t you? I recalled that she once said why of all the person on earth they would call me. I told her simple. I’ve promise to help and it was freaking 3AM in the morning. Raining and after all, you don’t want to leave them out there alone right?

Went to this place with colik. Damn nice wei. Like in lalaland.

Location?
LeVain Boulangerie Patisserie
Jalan Delima
Off Jalan Imbi

Open Daily 8am-8pm

Contact : 03-2142 6611

Website? http://levain.com.my

Will be back for more. Recommended the mash potato bun.

The M6 cage nut.
Cost rm0.50 per piece. Total 50 pieces

Torn ligament. Earl say tfk too much. Why not wrote! Offline on like is okay. Just the deployment.

To quote from a movie I once saw, “it is okay to come from a broken family than living in one. Everyone has their background. Their own stories and their own lives. If a family that is sounds and looks perfect, then look deeper. Perfect families are those I seen in Desperate Housewives. Superficially perfect. How about the underlying under current?

I had the pleasure to meet many people. Different people and from all walk of life. They carry along their stories. I love to listen to their stories. It allows me to understand them better.

Once I had a long lunch with a very customer of mine. He came from tough time. Tough place. Growing up in a ulu place, he know very well the words “tough time”. I listened to his experience living in a shared community. There are public toilets known as Sei Kap Pan which loosely translated to four pieces of wood.

The design of the toilet in a communal area was covered with just ply woods. Toilet bowls does not exist at that time. Only the toilet stool collecting the excretes. By midnight there will be the designated person collecting it to use as fertilisers. Well, that was just a part of his story.

Whenever I dropping by to this place, where the broken family is. It ached me to see how it turns out to be. Whether it was the fate or their destiny? I always believe we reaped what we sow.

They said charity begins at home. The is very true. The family values are what that defines us. How we grow up to be. Many times we leave it to the school or the education system. Have we ever thought doing the deed as the family members? When I looked at them two, I feel sad for them. Their kids grown up to become someone I don’t recognize anymore.

Later that evening, the daughter called me. Asked me to watch over them. Her brothers are useless, she said. What choice do I have? The entire house is broken. To borrow from Confucius:-

Broken House

Things being investigated, knowledge became complete.
物格而後知至
Their knowledge being complete, their thoughts were sincere.
知至而後意誠
Their thoughts being sincere, their hearts were then rectified.
意誠而後心正
Their hearts being rectified, their persons were cultivated.
心正而後身修
Their persons being cultivated, their families were regulated.
身修而後家齊
Their families being regulated, their States were rightly governed.
家齊而後國治
Their States being rightly governed, the entire world was at peace.
國治而後天下平

One don’t come back anymore. He considering that staying out will do better when the old ones are struggling to keep their heads above the water. The other just plain slacking away. Giving up to strive for betterment of the family. The young ones live in a broken house now.