Enchanting Havoc

Um… anxiety much?

Amanda — Thu, 03 May 2012 07:12:04 +0000

We’re waiting to hear on this house. This house is THE house for us… the perfect, beautiful backyard with a porch that puts warm fuzzies all over my body! There’s planter boxes for gardens, a peach tree…. and basically I have all of my hopes and dreams into this place.

The waiting game is KILLING ME!!!!!! I just want a phone call that says…. yup, it’s YOU and YOU and your family will get to have the summer BBQs while watching your kids play in the back…. you’ll finally be able to cook in a kitchen that you aren’t suffocated in.

With every day of waiting that I have to go through, my heart is freaking aching.

I know that everything that is meant to be will be…. I live by this, and try not to get too let down on certain things. It’s just that I got my hopes so high, and my heart so set that the let down will be crushing. I really want the fun summer out back, with our lemonades, treasure hunts, gardening, and peach picking. I’ve used the Secret to the best of my capability, and am scared that any doubt I’ve put into my head has hurt our chances.

If you’re reading this, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE say a quick prayer that we DO get this house!!

Day 1 – Peace

Amanda — Wed, 02 May 2012 07:58:05 +0000

I don’t know if life gets much more peaceful than this right here. Oh, my Ella. My first daughter, and the girl that holds my heart in a way no other girl could EVER hold it. I love her so dang much.

She’s such a diva…. she’s so into girly things, yet needs her pixie dust to get through life. My bathroom is literally covered in glitter right now, because she needed not only her mascara today, but her pixie dust. She’s so grown up for a 4 year old, yet so adorably young in her little heart.

My goodness I was blessed more than I realized the day I found out I was pregnant with her…. I love her so dang much.

Smile on my face…… and a really full heart

Amanda — Wed, 02 May 2012 07:15:59 +0000

My house is quiet. The only sounds are the Adele pandora station – and that’s it. I sucked as a mom today. There was a lot of TV watching, a lot of… give me a minute, give me a minute, give me a minute.

With this quietness, I kinda want to rewind. I want to sit on the floor and forget about everything I’ve put off for days while I’ve been going through my miscarriage, and put one more day off…. one more day to just give them 110% of me.

I don’t like mommy guilt.

I don’t like mommy guilt one dang bit!

I need to be better about time allocation, and making sure that before anything… my kids feel like they have their mama’s attention whenever they need it. I read a quote on Pinterest the other day that I can’t stop thinking about. A quote that is so dang true, and I needed the reminder…. isn’t it funny how Pinterest can do that for you?

Right?! There are so many times I read some sort of parenting quote on Facebook and I just cringe inside, because I think…..crap, I so suck. BUT I don’t – I need to remind myself that it’s hard to be at home with your children 100% of the time. There are times that you have to step aside and take care of the things that you have to take care of. I think my struggles lately have come from the fact that every time I DO try to sit down and get some work done, my girls are in my face not letting me….. they don’t like to play. I DON’T GET IT! Ella wants to constantly be doing things I’m doing and she has this world of amazing toys, and she doesn’t want to touch them. So then I feel guilty, and then I start to question myself as a parent when I’m like….. MOVIE TIME!!!!! I need to get the heck over it, because I watched a hell of a lot of TV, and guess what…. I’m okay. These kids aren’t constantly in front of a TV, but when you are home 100% of the time, it’s OKAY to stick a movie on and get some dang work done!

Okay…. so, here’s my deal right now. My blog has been an issue for me.

I got REALLY, and I mean REALLY caught up in the blogging for others. I of course wanted readers, and cared what people thought, and was careful about what I blogged about…. and then I just stopped. I stopped blogging. That’s not okay with me, because blogging is therapeutic to me.

So – I’ve sortof gotten to that point where I NEED to blog again…. I need to pour my heart out and let it be for me. If my blog post inspires you, GREAT – that makes me happy, but if it only inspires me, or soothes me… that’s okay. That’s what this blog is for. For me.

SO – expect more regular postings, because I have blog guilt lately too – I feel like Aliyah’s entire life has passed by and I haven’t blogged hardly a single thing.

I’ve had this desire in me to write lately. My family has always said I should write a book, but I struggle with this…. I can’t imagine myself writing a fictional novel. I LOVE reading my fictional books, and live to read all of my indie author’s books {I actually don’t read anything else anymore}, but that’s not me. I imagine myself writing an inspirational book – a book to inspire people to push themselves to try a little harder and boost their quality of life, because it’s in them. I have the words… I know they’re there. But I’M just not there yet. So, in the meantime, I’ll put it all here. Maybe become obsessed with slam poetry and start going to live slam poetry readings, because goodness it’s amazing stuff.

I might have just gone through a really hard tragedy, but I feel so dang blessed right now. I have a smile on my face, and a really full heart.

My first SLAM – You Left Me

Amanda — Wed, 02 May 2012 00:11:36 +0000

I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to understand why we continue to be given the same challenge in life over and over again.

A challenge that I hate to go through,

A challenge I detest

We’re going through our 3rd miscarriage.

This baby wasn’t planned.

I was furious when I found out.

But then things changed – and I started to dream, and to love, and to hope.

But then I was left empty, I was left hopeless and my dreams were shattered.

I hate the pity,

I hate the difference towards me,

I hate how people think it’s better off avoiding me,

because they don’t know what to say to me.

Why can’t people just treat me normal?

I’m still me – just tainted with what some might see as some disease.

I saw the heartbeat up on the screen. The amount of love that welled up in me was not what I had expected.

See, a baby with a toddler just seemed overwhelming, but I realized that my heart was sure enough growing.

I loved the pitter patter, and started to dream and then I got the news….

you left me

you left me empty,

you left me missing,

you left me dreamless,

you left me

So here I sit realizing that dreams change, plans dissolve, but life surely must go on.

I’ve found myself missing the three babies God took from me,

I’ve found my reasons to smile in the three babies God entrusted with me.

There’s nothing easy about losing a baby,

There is however an amazing amount of strength that you discover.

So, yes, you left me -

you left me empty, yet full of love.

you left me dreamless, yet full of hope.

you left me missing, and this, my baby, will always remain.

I will miss you forever and love you the same.

I want to give a special thank you to {Colleen Hoover}, the author of Slammed & Point of Retreat – thank you for inspiring me to SLAM my feelings out.

Amanda — Wed, 18 Apr 2012 06:07:19 +0000

I’m slightly funny about where I write. Lately my laptop is not working – well, everything on it works perfectly except for the wifi. It absolutely will not turn on and it’s so sad to me. I LOVE my desktop, but I don’t always want to write while sitting at the table.

So I finally fixed a couple of things on my husband’s laptop so that I can use it to finally WRITE!

With blogging you get to meet all sorts of different people, and then you start to become one with them as you read into their lives and connect with their blogs, and soon you’re peeing into their souls and hearts and know things that people who don’t read their blog know nothing about. It’s really hard to explain, but you form connections and friendships with these bloggers.

I honestly don’t even know how Julia and I stumbled upon one another, but we did…. her son has a heart condition – much different than Ella’s, but I think that somehow brought us together. She also lived in Oregon.

Julia is one of those super supportive people that have a way of touching you. When Ella overdosed, she was there for me. When I lost my baby before Aliyah (we were due VERY close together) she was there with loving words for me. She’s just the type of friend that you smile inside and are so thankful that you have her in your life…..even if it’s just through words online.

Julia’s 12 year old daughter was called home to her heavenly father in a VERY tragic accident regarding a sheet and a bunkbed. She fell, and the sheet got wrapped around her and now her 2 loving parents, 5 siblings and an insane amount of other family and friends are grieving over her.

Julia has inspired me through her strength. As a parent you can’t even begin to fathom losing one of your babies….it’s just something that’s unthinkable. She has found a way to find the blessings through it, how a baby got a new heart valve, and a young man will walk again, and two people will now be able to see. I don’t have many words to express my amazement at her strength.

Gino and I have had a very challenging thing going on this past week. Something we’re sortof being mum about for the time being. We’ve had to embark on an emotional roller coaster, and it’s involved every emotion from mad, to happy, to sad, to confused, to up in the air…. and right now we’re sitting up in the air playing a wait game that isn’t necessarily fun to play. I’ve had my moments where all I’ve wanted to do is just break down and drop my faith and just be angry…. but Julia has inspired me to hold on and find the beauty and blessings in this – no matter what the outcome.

doTERRA with Autism, ADD & ADHD

Amanda — Sat, 17 Mar 2012 17:02:30 +0000

In January of 2010 my 9 year old son (at the time) was diagnosed with Semantic Pragmatic Language Disorder, a Written communication disability, Sensory Processing Disorder, ADHD and according to CDRC he is “almost” on the autism spectrum…… according to the school district he IS on the Autism spectrum.

If you have a child who has any of these conditions, you know how difficult even the littlest things can be. You know that getting them to focus when they have ADHD is almost downright impossible and usually the only thing that will help this is medication (which I refuse to put him on). When you have a child that is either Autistic or on the Autism spectrum normal day life can be EXTREMELY difficult. I really haven’t had a lot of support with Jayden and all of his issues….. his insurance SUCKS and I can’t even get the occupational therapy that I need for him. I don’t want him on medications, because I know the side effects – and I hate that. SO when my friend came over to help me with a sore throat with essential oils, because sadly my entire family is insured, but it’s outrageous to insure me, I was BLOWN AWAY that it actually worked….. I have an entire blog post dedicated to this experience, which you can read {HERE} The fact that this oil worked got my brain working and wondering…. WHAT ELSE CAN THIS NATURAL WONDER DO????

So I researched and researched and became more and more and more astonished with the things I was reading and I finally just went for it and dived into the world of essential oils…. and my results are RIDICULOUSLY AMAZING.

I have 2 other posts that I’ve written so far regarding these the first one is linked above and the other one talks about what comes in the Family Physician Kit which you can read {HERE}

THIS post is strictly about what I’m using and what results I’m having in regards to Jayden’s conditions. I’m going to list the essential oils I use, describe what they’re for, link to their description on Everythingessential.me and describe where and how I use each oil. THEN at the end of the post I’ll link you to the different experiences and testimonials for Autism & ADD/ADHD.

BALANCE:

This blend brings a feeling of calmness, peace, and relaxation. It can aid in harmonizing the various physiological systems of the body and promote tranquility and a sense of balance. (Modern Essentials pp. 78) If you watch the video in my first blog post regarding doTERRA you will be blown away by a study they did on this essential oil. You can read more about this oil {HERE} I put Balance on my entire family before I put ANY oils. This oil is AMAZING. I put it first on the feet, then on the temples, using right fingers to left temple and left fingers to right temple.

VETIVER:

Vetiver is a very thick oil, but the effects it has on FOCUS is astounding!!! You can read more about this oil {HERE}

SERENITY:

This relaxing blend contains essential oils that are often used to help calm and soothe feelings of stress, excitement, and anxiety in order to help the body maintain its natural state of health. (Modern Essential pp. 85) You can read more about Serenity {HERE}

Serenity is my life savor in life. I use this on my and my children all throughout the day. If your child is having a meltdown I will put this oil on their feet (a foot massage before bed will give them an AMAZING night’s sleep) all around the neck and up the throat will help in times of distress. For my morning ritual this goes on the feet!!

FOR ALL OILS MENTIONED ABOVE: They always go on the feet! Our feet hold most major nerve endings and have the largest pores. Did you know that when you put an oil on topically (applying to the skin) that it takes 30 seconds to get into the blood stream? I always start with Balance, then I put Vetiver on, then Serenity. For Balance, you should also put the oil on their right finger and help them apply it to their left temple – then the same w/left finger to right temple. Vetiver is also good to put behind the knees, and on the spine. Serenity is amazing on and around their kneck. <——– THAT is our morning routine. This routine is helping with his ADHD and I’m noticing him a bit more social than normal.

NOW FOR TROUBLE SITUATIONS:

Meldowns happen – in fact yesterday, my son had an absolute meltdown over math. He wasn’t grasping the concept which upset him and that ended up in a meltdown. I put Balance and Serenity on and around his neck, and off he went to have his meltdown. About 7 minutes later he came down with a much better attitude, and said okay I’m better and ready to listen. I don’t know about YOU, but this doesn’t happen….. his meltdowns go on and on and on and on and the minute one goes down you can forget getting any of his school work done. (We homeschool)

Another great way to use these oils is diffuse them into the air, having them inhale them has very powerful results! Of course at school they can’t always have their oils with them so you could actually put a certain oil on a terracotta necklace and they will be able to inhale it throughout the day. Vetiver would be great to do this with for focus.

I know that I’m going to discover so many more things that are going to help us, and through our journey I will update my blog.

To read more on what is working for other people with doTERRA oils with Autism click {HERE} and for ADD/ADHD click {HERE}

I don’t even know where to begin on describing how good it feels inside to be able to be empowered to help my son. Watching him feel more confident in himself and more focused with school – there are no words. If you want more info on how you can learn more about doTERRA leave a comment {make sure you include your email in the comment form so I can reply to you} and let me know. You can always order doTERRA retail, but it’s a waste of money, because there is a great way to get these oils wholesale and I can help you out there. doTERRA is 100% pure, 100% natural and the top of the top of the line when it comes to essential oils…. so much, so that you can actually ingest them! You can’t ingest the ones you buy at the grocery store, because they’re not 100% pure and natural.

doTERRA Physician Kit–what it can do for YOU

Amanda — Fri, 16 Mar 2012 19:28:41 +0000

What comes in the doTERRA physician’s kit? WELL! Let me just break it down for you.

The physician’s kit is something I think every parent should have in their home. How wonderful would it be to know that you have a natural remedy at your fingertips for the majority of things that can go wrong? In the short period of time that I’ve had mine I’ve put it to GREAT use and have stopped colds that were forming, infections that were brewing and am doing so with ease in my mind that I’m not putting anything that’s unneeded into my kids’ systems…. it’s all natural and has worked MUCH quicker than any other medicines have worked.

So, let me break down what exactly is IN the physician’s kit and what each item can do -

LAVENDER:

Burns

Common relief of stress

Cuts and wounds

Depression

Ear Aches

Insomnia

LEMON:

Disinfecting

Dissolves Synthetics in body

Gout

Insect Repellent

Soar Throat

PEPPERMINT:

Allergies/Asthma

Cold & Flu

Fever

Headaches

Indigestion

MELALEUCA:

Acne

Cold & Flu

Ear infections

Eczema/Psoriasis

Immune system support

Skin disorders

OREGANO:

Athletes foot

Cold & flu season

Immune system support

Infections

Kill warts and skin tags

Yeast infections

FRANKINCESE:

Arthritis,

Cold & flu

Headache

Immune strengthener

Inflammation

Seizures

DEEP BLUE:

Muscle pain

Arthritic pain

Inflammation

Joint pain

Migraine headaches

Sprains

BREATHE:

Allergies

Asthma

Bronchitis

Cold & flu

Cough

RSV

DIGESTZEN:

Constipation

Diarrhea

Heart burn

Indigestion

Stomach ache

IBS

Acid reflux

ON GUARD:

Mold

Sore Throat

Swine Flu

Viruses

Weak immune system

With the wholesale package, keep in mind they also include a Slim & Sassy, which is shedding weight and inches off of my body in a REALLY short period of time. Leave a comment and make sure you fill in your email on the comment form I can help you with getting this kit and your wholesale membership PLUS the slim & sassy at a MUCH cheaper cost than this physician kit alone retail. If you want any other information on these oils and what other oils can help any condition from a simple headache to severe depression – let me know.

Essential what?! A post on doTERRA oils–or should I say magical oils?!

Amanda — Tue, 06 Mar 2012 09:04:49 +0000

There was a time that I had all of this TIME to spend here on my blog writing about all of the different happenings in our lives – all of my different feelings I have on so many different aspects of my life – but then I just didn’t really have the time anymore. School takes a LOT of time of mine – the more I get closer to my degree, the harder the work becomes.

I had to take a break though and come and talk to all of you about something that is ABSOLUTELY changing my life. It’s hard for me to even know where to begin, so I guess I’ll just start at the beginning…..

I had this HORRIBLE sore throat – you know, the ones that usually require a strep test and an antibiotic of some sort from a doctor….. well, guess what – to add me onto my husband’s insurance it’s going to cost us a fortune. So here I sit – my entire family insured except for me. A VERY close and amazing friend of mine recently has discovered essential oils and their many different uses, but I have not taken the time to sit and listen to her. Honestly because in my head it’s crap. I’m not gonna lie – essential oils being able to basically solve all of these medical problems???? Whatever! Let me just say this – when you are miserable and don’t want to have hundreds of dollars in freaking medical bills you call your friend who now is using weird natural stuff, because WHAT THE HECK ELSE ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO DO?!

That sore throat that I mentioned above, that had some puss pockets and was so swollen that I could hardly swallow – was gone by the next morning. GONE. So what did I do???? Um start thinking of all of the other things that these oils could possibly help in my life – first and foremost, Jayden’s ADHD and autism characteristics. I got together with my friend and decided on the best plan of action for our family. Jayden has been using these oils along with all of the members of our family and our lives are forever changed. Not only do we see a HUGE difference in Jayden, but we see major differences in ourselves. I have SO much more patience as does Gino. We have a magical little oil called Serenity that calms our children AND my nephew… his daycare provider and mom are both shocked at how much more in control he is now that he’s using this oil.

There is seriously SO much information on these oils, but I still am so new and still figuring out so much that I don’t have all of the answers, but I can tell you that everything I’ve attempted to use the oils on has 110% worked. Aliyah had an extremely infected thumb with a nail falling off and the infection that was on it is GONE…. GONE GONE GONE. This morning I woke up in Sacramento with a MISERABLE bladder infection. I could not pee for the life of me – and I just felt miserable just like I do with every other bladder infection I’ve ever had. After about 30 minutes of my misery it dawned on me to use the oils! I called my amazing friend who introduced them to me and after she helped me to figure out which oils to use and where I did it – 10 minutes later, I peed and have spent the entire rest of the day (including my 5 hour trip home) FINE. I have NEVER had this experience with a bladder infection.

Basically let me just tell you this – when I decided to start using these oils I chose to purchase a kit that would not only give me the oils that I was looking for (including an amazing weight loss oil with HUGE success results) but would also give me the the wholesale membership, but allow me to make money by sharing these oils with others. Honestly – I could care a less about the money….. it’s nice of course, but discovering something that can help my children and the people I love so much means more to me than ANYTHING. Today I gave my mom the oils that are said to help with fybromyalgia, and they are already helping her! My mom has not been able to find relief in anything! Knowing that I can go around and help others with symptoms that they have for various things is HUGE for me! It’s nice to know that the company doTERRA makes it absolutely so convenient to not only be able to take these oils, but save $ and make $ in the process. I had ZERO intention on making money when I bought my kit, but since I’ve received it and talked about, I have had so many friends and family come to me, because they NEED this in their lives- it’s the first direct sales company I’ve ever been a part of where you don’t have to go and try to sell your product – you just share with your friends and family in a time of need and the rest just flows with it.

This story is SO touching – it’s about a little girl who has so many seizures, she’s literally drugged to the point that she can’t function…. and she’s 2!!!!! This story talks about how she went from being drugged out on a ton of medications to being off drugs and on essential oils and finally able to live life the way every 2 year old should.

This video talks about different oils and what they can do for you – it’s long, but definitely worth it!!! I couldn’t sit through the entire thing personally, so I broke it up into 3 different sessions at about 20 minutes each. They do talk about a special at the end of the webinar that is no longer effective – but all of the information in this is so informative I needed to share it with you.

2.27.12 New Year New You Webinar Replay from Build doTERRA on Vimeo.

I would LOVE to try and help you with any issues you might be having. Anything from fevers to autism I can find something to help you. My anxiety and ADD issues are pretty much non existent right now, which is NOT FREAKING NORMAL for me! You can leave a comment here or email me at amandagaribay {@} yahoo {dot) com and I will happily steer you in the right direction on how these oils can work magically for you.

If you simply want to just do a search on your condition you can do so here http://everythingessential.me and then you can find the oils here http://www.doterra.myvoffice.com/amandalgaribay/

Oh, Fifty, Fifty, Fifty

Amanda — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 04:27:20 +0000

*DISCLAIMER: IF YOU ARE A GRANDPARENT OF MINE YOU MIGHT AS WELL JUST SKIP THIS ENTIRE POST – I guess grandparents and any LDS readers of mine that are easily offended by the subject of SEX and bleeped out words*

I almost don’t even know where to begin with my raving about probably the BEST series I have EVER read. The Fifty Trilogy starts with Fifty Shades of Grey, then moves into Fifty Shades Darker and is finalized (I hope this changes) to Fifty Shades Freed.

This trilogy touches an area that most people might be uncomfortable to talk about, but lucky for you I. AM. NOT. SEX! Controlling, dominating, insanely delicious SEX. This story follows a very successful dominating man who wants a very pretty girl that literally stumbles into his office as a submissive…. the journey between them is a journey that you literally cannot stop – no matter how badly you want to. The dominating sex scenes will make you blush and at times have to walk away from your book, compose yourself and then find yourself rushing back to the book for more.

I can honestly say that my life is forever changed from this series. I look at my marriage differently, my sex life differently –ACTUALLY SEX IN GENERAL DIFFERENTLY, and I think my husband is forever changed as well…. I honestly think he’s considering reading the series to fully be on my level.

This book is not just about sex – even though the kinky fu*%ery and the vanilla deliciousness in the book is AH-MAZING – there is a story, a journey, and a character development that is by far one of the best I’ve seen yet. You go through fifty shades of emotions, which includes emotions that you probably have never experienced before. Every aspect of this book right up to the very last page will stay with you probably forever.

Words of Christian Grey “We aim to please” And pleasing me is exactly what he did!

Laters, Baby!

Don’t really have the words lately….

Amanda — Wed, 18 Jan 2012 05:28:56 +0000

I got to a point with my little internet corner that I needed to get away from it. It really wasn’t mine, and it felt wrong. It never should feel that way, but when you have people merely coming to pick your posts apart, that’s sortof how it goes.

I’m hoping that my long {very long} blog break has given the people who aren’t really here to read the words I have to say and see how my family is doing a break of even thinking about dissecting my words….. hopefully they’re all gone for good!

SO I’m back. I have no guarantee on my blogging schedule, or if I’ll even bring back Just a Motivating Monday, but I’m back.

I had this absolutely delicious break from school that I took the opportunity to read…. and read…. and read…. and READ! I’ll have a blog post coming out on some of the amazing books I have been reading lately. For those of you who have been googling What to read after Beautiful Disaster, I promise you’ll be happy.

I’ve been feeling at such a lost for words, which is weird to me – I have so much going on through my mind and heart, but trying to voice it all…. even through typing here is difficult. I don’t know what’s going on with me here, but I think that also has something to do with me not updating my blog as often as I used to. I used to be able to voice what I’m thinking, what I’m feeling – but right now it’s stuck.

So I’m okay – I’m alive, my kids are okay and alive.

And I have glasses. SEE…..