I need to take every advantage that comes my way. I can get into shape with no problem because the goal is always the same. Lose weight. Staying in that mode is what kills me. Finding new ways to motivate myself should help me stay in the groove for a longer period of time. These yo-yo diets and fads I put myself through are not doing my body any good, yet I keep doing them. I need to get fit and stay fit while evangelizing along the way.

I like being the go to guy for geek advice. I miss being the go to guy for fitness advice. Now I am just a joke. I want to show once again that I am in command of my body. That means six pack abs, and a bench press that make men cry. Of course I will never bench that much, but you get the general idea.

I seriously hope that this new resolve will stick with me and I will stick to it this go round. I do think in one month I could see some really nice results. That is if I can take the words of some co-workers who have commented. This will be a transformation to the body type I have always wanted. Need to stick to it, do not give up, do not give in. Some cheat foods down the road will be okay, but for now, only the best of the best will cross these lips nutritionally. I know I can defeat myself really easy, but somehow someway the resolve needs to stick to me like thick peanut butter on the roof of your mouth. A little annoying, but great after taste.

My diet ended up in the pits by Sunday, but it did renew my determination to hit it even harder starting Monday and following all the way through until next Monday. This last week was very encouraging for my determination. I fell, but I am picking myself back up yet again. This time I will not let my confidence get hit and realize this is motivation to keep me going stronger! The big test will be when I step on the scale to see what or if I lost any significant weight from last week.

All I have to say is Cydia rOxOrs. Man oh man, I wish I could get Wi-Fi at work. I think I could easily waste a day exploring all the new things that an open (jailbroken) iPod can do. It is amazing how some of the free and alternative applications are good if not better than what you find on iTunes. It just means Apple really needs to consider opening up their marketplace. If there really is a want for alternative applications that use the devices full potential, then add it to iTunes. Otherwise the underground scene will be around for a long time coming.

I need to drop this weight. I feel like total s**t and it is really bothering me. Plus the fact I keep talking about doing exercises or diet and end up doing nothing. This time I need to stick to it, otherwise I will be a failure like I am at most of my diet and exercise attempts. I cannot afford another failure, it will just tear me up to the point where Burger King will become my best friend and I will put Jarod to shame. My eating habits scream out as a large man, but my attitude and body frame are for an athlete, or at least a healthy body. Bitch and moan that is what I do best, but I really need to start somewhere.

Talking about doing the exercises is one thing, making the concerted effort to actually follow through, that is where the meat and potatoes are. It really does take some sort of mental clarity to be able to follow through with a rigrourous program ro make you fit, lean, and healthy. But, are you willing to put in the hard work. Realistically we live in a lazy society. Come on now admit it. Have you see the amount of obese people? Have you seen that amount of obese kids for crying out loud. Every time I see a child that eats junk and has fat in areas that are not needed, I think about how lazy our society has become. Who am I to say this. nobody. But the results do not lie about the about of illnesses and other ailments that have been going up in this country, contributed heavily to weight. When I was growing up, you know what we did? We did not sit in front of the boob tube playing video games all day and all night. I came home from school, did homework and then mom shoved me out the door to play. That’s right play, what a novel concept for today’s youth. It is not gone altogether, but it is a dying practice. Okay, enough of my soapbox. Now you know what gets me going for the better, but you also know what gets me going for the worse also.

These really are not big problems at all. Actually these “problems” are good things to be working on. My mind is so scattered at times, I have a hard time concentrating. When I traveled for work, that did wonders for me to read at night. Dedication, what a common theme. Maybe I need to write down an hourly schedule and stick to it. Maybe this will allow me to stay regimented to what I am doing as well as helping me with the discipline to stick with it for the long term. It is pretty anal, but we all have to do what we have to do to get what we want.  There are a lot of personal areas of growth that I want to work on, and I need to stop wasting time with TV and Internet. Those two alone take up more time than needed. What am I to do? I feel like I am hooked, addicted. Cold Turkey???