Goddess Talk

Nourish Me

Goddess — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 11:46:11 +0000

I nourish my body with food.
I nourish my soul with life.

Bursts Of Joy

Goddess — Sat, 06 Mar 2010 11:27:53 +0000

This morning I awoke really early-thinking about my addiction to eating. About the little bursts of joy that I get from certain foods. How I still crave that every day. Every minute of every day. I do not know how to release it. How to experience joy in other ways-ways that are real every day ways. Pure brain joy that is.

I have been wanting to un-plug consciously but not knowing how to do it. I read, eat, watch tv. Sex has not been that good lately. I like it but it’s not awesome. I don’t think I need to work on techniques so much as more change from within. That is my new theme-looking within. I just am not doing it a lot. Always looking out.

I miss teaching too. Family education, adult education-I love who I am when I am teaching. I want to do that too!

That brings me to the To Do list. Doing Doing Doing. Always doing or NOT doing. Dominated by doing.

Blessed Be For Today.

Bursts of Joy Surround Me!
I Enjoy Doing Joyful Things!
I Deserve Joy!

You Are A Goddess

Goddess — Thu, 04 Mar 2010 11:31:27 +0000

A message from the angels…

We are here to guide you always. We want you to know that we love each of you who read this. We want you to know that the good news is that there is always tomorrow and the good things are better than you give them credit for and the difficult things are not as significant. Anything that you criticize yourself for is a drop-not significant. You are already deserving of love – every minute of love. You are a goddess-we worship you for it and love you and want you to spread .

Metaphysics At Unity

Goddess — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 14:06:34 +0000

I started the Metaphysics 1 class at Atlanta Unity church. I really like it. It never occured to me that one could be metaphysical and Christian. I am still not totally sold on the Christian part but the neat thing about Unity is that all they ask is that you suspend your disbelief and not that you have to bite hook line and sinker! One of the things that I really like about the people is that they seem happy and well adjusted overall. I find that metaphysical people of the new age type are not. Or else they are not grounded. Or in denial. Maybe I just haven’t found the right new age community yet.

Anyway-last week we learned about the difference between Absolute reality and Relative reality. Basically-Absolute is things that never change like God(dess)’s love, divine beauty, love and other neat things like that. Relative reality is anything that changes such as our bodies, thoughts, feelings, jobs, bills, health, and more. To achieve happiness we need to switch back and forth between Absolute and Relative reality. It’s helped me because I do sometimes feel, when I am suffering that God/dess is punishing me. This week I focused on presencing myself to Absolute reality and realizing that it is separate from the relative.

I just love having a place to study and discuss spritual matters with people who are in the same type of exploration. Although our beliefs are not exactly the same-they overlap a lot. It’s also helped me to begin to get to know some of the people that attend the church.

So this Goddess is still figuring lots of things out but loving having such a wonderful place to explore!

Be not afraid of growing slowly

Goddess — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 13:10:48 +0000

Be not afraid of growing slowly, be afraid of standing still.
Chinese Proverb

A Goddess Grapples with God

Goddess — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 03:10:47 +0000

Today I attended the Atlanta Unity Church. The underlying message of unity is one I agree with but I really struggled hearing the word GOD and Christ. I have really negative associations with these words/concepts and am praying to release them.

I do not now where this comes from exactly-my relationship and opinion of men in general is better than that with women. I have a great relationship with my father, husband, and son but not with my mother. Yet I stubbornly refuse to be at peace with God/Christ but am with Goddess.

So I want to let go of my fear of a divine man, of being part of the “crowd” because it is interfering with my life. I am sure that I do not know all the ways, one is that I want to enjoy the Unity Church and it will be easier if I can make peace with the concept of a Christ consciousness and the word God.

The New Year

Goddess — Fri, 01 Jan 2010 13:40:55 +0000

I awoke this morning to a feeling of peace. I am going to do my own burning bowl ceremony today-light a fire and cast my things to release into it. I am not going to focus on food/eating/weight but on my inner life, my movement and my joy. I started off this year “connecting” with my husband-I can’t think of a better way to begin a new year. Time is a flow, not a series of starts and stops but today I acknowledge a shift in the flow.

-Blessed be.

Hungry Soul-Eating Mouth

Goddess — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 09:06:59 +0000

So hard. I don’t know what I really want. I overate a lot during Xmas. I do not want to give my power away any more. I get depressed rather than expressing my truth because I am scared to or it seems pointless. My soul is hungry. Just not sure what for.

Self Pleasure Is A Turn On

Goddess — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 23:16:53 +0000

Just read Cosmo at the hair dresser-and saw a study about what men like. A majority (over 35%) like to watch women self pleasure. The percentage actually goes up as they age. In the world of Cosmo-aging is past 30.

Anyway-Goddesses -We now have proof! Our enjoyment is a turn on!

I hate money

Goddess — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 12:48:24 +0000

I was lying in bed this morning and thinking about my day and life and had the thought, “I Hate Money”. I immediately tried to re-frame if for myself-to put it in a posititive light. Like I might offend money if it found out that I hated it. I think that in our new age effort to have everything be an “affirmation” there is a whole heck of a lot of denial going on. So-for now I am sitting with the thought. Seeing where it takes me. Then I went to I hate food. I hate money and food. The two things I spend most of my time obsessing over-I hate them.

I was looking at my old journals from when I was a kid and throughout my life and they basically all have the same thing written in them-I feel powerless over food. I thought recently-if only I could re-claim all that time that I wasted obsessing about food-then I could ??? I don’t know. What. Something. I hope. What would I do? Who would I be if I wasn’t working on money, food, weight, body, all the time? I don’t have an answer-that takes me back to the question of what does my soul hunger for? What does my soul want me to do?

I love money-I inherited/learned a gift from my grandmother-I memorize prices. I can’t remember the lyrics of a song that I’ve heard a million times to save my life but I can tell you how much Rice Milk costs at Walmart, Kroger and Whole Foods. $2.74, $3.76, $3.89 . Organic Beef: $5.99. Unless it’s on sale. She said that I should watch the readout as they ring up my food to see if the price is exactly what it was on the shelf. It’s an effort for me to look away now.

I love counting. I love keeping track. I saved some money-I accomplished something. I bought something at a good price-woo hoo. I accomplished something.

I can spend it too-but only on acceptable areas-growth, learning, health. So those are the areas where I have the most need-because otherwise I’d get squat. My husband BTW does not share this weird perspective. I want to go spend $60 on the Chiropractor or at a spiritual growth session and I think that is “ok” and he wants to buy a video game and I think that’s “wrong”. We are working on this.

So I hate it, I love it. I hate it is winning.

And this whole thing that people say-”money is just energy.” I don’t know what that means. I don’t GROK money. What does that mean? I get it intellectually but no deeper.