A Gem in my name

All Grown Up~

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Mon, 19 Jul 2010 23:21:00 +0000

First and foremost.. heartiest congratulations to all my cousins, Inur, Alif and Alai, for their entrance to University! and also to all Bruneians that managed to enter UBD and ITB for their degree course. Its gonna be a very memorable moments in your life I tell you. Words can not describe how interesting it is...

All I can say... Learn all you can, make friends with every body you met, make memories where you can and savour every bits during those years...

Great wisdom is generous; petty wisdom is contentious. Great speech is impassioned, small speech cantankerous.

Zhuang Zi

Is that yours?

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Sat, 17 Jul 2010 02:32:00 +0000

Is that yours?
Originally uploaded by thesinisterpenguin

ain't this cute!! I love it! Photos not taken by me, but i love it so much.. it deserves to be shared~ Enjoy the rest of his sets. He's good! :)

What's happening to our society?

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Sat, 27 Mar 2010 08:14:00 +0000

Last time I want to buy a magazine... but I decided to go against that because in every magazine cover I see the word S-E-X?

So basically that is the selling point of every magazine, dramas and movies nowadays?

No wonder we're heading towards doom.

Just a penny of my thoughts~

Ikhwan kah kita?

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 23:05:00 +0000

I read this from http://myc-ubd.blogspot.com/2009_11_01_archive.html and I almost cried...

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Al-kisah sebuah pertemuan baginda dengan sahabat-sahabatnya:

Di saat mana Rasulullah mengatakan dia merindui saudara-saudaranya, suasana di majlis pertemuan itu hening sejenak. Semua yang hadir diam membatu. Mereka seperti sedang memikirkan sesuatu. Lebih-lebih lagi Saidina Abu Bakar. Itulah pertama kali dia mendengar orang yang sangat dikasihi melafazkan pengakuan demikian.

Seulas senyuman yang sedia terukir dibibirnya pun terungkai. Wajahnya yang tenang berubah warna.

"Apakah maksudmu berkata demikian wahai Rasulullah? Bukankah kami ini saudara-saudaramu?"

Saidina Abu Bakar bertanya melepaskan gumpalan teka-teki yang mula menyerabut fikiran.

"Tidak, wahai Abu Bakar. Kamu semua adalah sahabat-sahabatku tetapi bukan saudara-saudaraku (ikhwan)," suara Rasulullah bernada rendah.

"Kami juga ikhwanmu, wahai Rasulullah," kata seorang sahabat yang lain pula. Rasulullah menggeleng-gelangkan kepalanya perlahan-lahan sambil tersenyum.

Kemudian baginda bersuara:

"Saudaraku ialah mereka yang belum pernah melihatku tetapi mereka beriman denganku sebagai Rasul Allah dan mereka sangat mencintaiku. Malahan kecintaan mereka kepadaku melebihi cinta mereka kepada anak-anak dan orang tua mereka."

Pada ketika yang lain pula, Rasulullah menceritakan tentang keimanan ‘ikhwan’ baginda:

"Siapakah yang paling ajaib imannya?" tanya Rasulullah.

"Malaikat," jawab sahabat.

"Bagaimana para malaikat tidak beriman kepada Allah sedangkan mereka sentiasa hampir dengan Allah," jelas Rasulullah. Para sahabat terdiam seketika.

Kemudian mereka berkata lagi, "Para nabi."

"Bagaimana para nabi tidak beriman, sedangkan wahyu diturunkan kepada mereka."

"Mungkin kami," celah seorang sahabat.

"Bagaimana kamu tidak beriman sedangkan aku berada ditengah-tengah kau," pintas Rasulullah menyangkal hujah sahabatnya itu.

"Kalau begitu, hanya Allah dan Rasul-Nya sahaja yang lebih mengetahui," jawab seorang sahabat lagi, mengakui kelemahan mereka.

"Kalau kamu ingin tahu siapa mereka?

Mereka ialah umatku yang hidup selepasku.
Mereka membaca Al Quran dan beriman dengan semua isinya.

Berbahagialah orang yang dapat berjumpa dan beriman denganku.
Dan tujuh kali lebih berbahagia orang yang beriman denganku tetapi tidak pernah berjumpa denganku," jelas Rasulullah.

"Aku sungguh rindu hendak bertemu dengan mereka,"
ucap Rasulullah lagi setelah seketika membisu. Ada berbaur kesayuan pada ucapannya itu.

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Think: R we worth to be missed by Rasulullah s.a.w? Did we practise what being preached? Did we lived to what we were told? Are we too concern with now rather than what to come?

la di da day~

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Tue, 09 Feb 2010 14:23:00 +0000

WHAT A DAY!!!!

Awal2 pagi sudah exercise... up n down the stairs... hahaha

To make a story short.. at first sasak ku jua lah sama Monica Sherlox atu... waaahhhh sangat la pemajal. Sampai cara ku duduk atu pun ia kan komplen. Ok, maybe his intention is well lah... but sometimes, u know lah kan, never are we fond of ppl who loves to make them 'mr know it all'. Nada kan? Sometimes, boring jua lah leh nya. I'll need/ require some times to get used to this.

Skali nya, life wise.. same o same o... nada jua amazing nya... ooo apart from this Molten Chocolate Cake I ate arah Tez Amour @ Wisma Yakin. Delicious-so~ Nganya sikit.. seriously, harga nya $6.50 ah tadi... not worth it!!!

My favorite tag-line of the day "Someday, you'll find a guy who can surprise you"

Well-said~

For the better me...

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 06:13:00 +0000

I've been reading a lot of blogs and I think Allah has given me his hidayah in a very subtle way.

I hope he will always provide me his guidance and his support through out my journey and I hope everything that I've done up to now, with all the hiccups and all, will always with his blessings.

I hope to see further improvements on my self, I even set that as part of my 2010 goal...

- As much as I can, try to wear Hijab when going out.

- To pray on the right time, and as much as possible, try not to skip it.

- Wake up early, utk sembahyang Subuh.

- Try not to buy useless stuff .... save money for Haji.

- No more online shopping.. use less credit card. Pay Credit card slowly.

- Stay healthy. Keep doing sports.. exercise.. jaga makan.

I hope I can achieve these goals... and be more discipline in executing them. Insyallah...

Extraordinaire~

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 00:19:00 +0000

I don't know of thats thr correct spelling but wateverrr... Neway i actually wanted to blog yesterday but i was too freaking tired. Its amazing how too much thinking can tire u out easily... I wish thinking could burns calories as well. Then i like to think all the time.
So yesterday was quite an extraordinary day. First my expats colleague immitating my friend who was talking with her mouth full leaving us dumbfounded. When he realised that we stopped talking he then said "I m sorry... I just can't help it. It sounds funny..." I laughed at my friend. I am amazed that I can actually understand her with her mouth full.
Then I had an interview sessions with all my high school mates back in PJN. Apparently, BT would like to make a scoop about Science Class in KB n we were like the first intake for that.
At first it was quite apalling, but after that it was just plain so so.
I am quite disappointed really... Initially I tawt that the intetview was something like what we have been doing so far... Success stories... What were the good memories we can remember in the school.. Things like that. But it was the way around~
I may not a journalist but I am a bit curious... Shouldn't a journalist atleast be a lil bit prepared on the scoop he is planning to do? I am quite apalled actually on the first question he asked us 'what exactly is science class?' ehhh watttt???
I mean u would like to make a stoy about science class, shouldn't you atleast know this bit?? Not making sense i tell you. Its like attending a function without knowing what the fuction is about!!!
And what i am not happy with... He seems to be listening to only one person. Bless him for being able to answer all those questions... For me, I just don't see the relevant of asking that question to us, like why make a science class in KB, why choose this school, what's so special with this class??
How the eff should we know this stuff. All i know is, its high school !!! I come to learn new stuff... Make new friends. Isn't that what a child supposed to feel???? Wouldn't it be better to ask these questions to the person who started this off????
And it doesn't help that I feel the current management feels that now is better than our years!!! Of course it should be!!! That's what we would like to see... Improvements!!! But then, don't you hink because the foundation is there, thats y it is achieved? And don't you think because of Science Class, everyhing is much better???
So now i wonder what the outcome would be. I think it is much better if those questions were asked to our principal at that time.
Right i think that is long enough.... Until next time

Ironic

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 01:03:00 +0000

How easily ppl wish 'Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha' without remembering the history behind it?

How easily ppl celebrate Christmas without understanding the real history behind it?

How easily ppl claim they are muslims and yet don't perform the 5 solats?

How easily ppl said lets party instead of having doa selamat?

How easily ppl remember Allah when they are in trouble but easily forgets when they are not?

How easily ppl remember 14th February but easily forgets Prophet Muhammad's Birthday on 12th Rabiul Awal?

How easily ppl recite the Gregorian's Calendar month but not Hijri?

How easily ppl boasted they can build tallest building in the world and easily blamed others when the building crumbled?

How easily ppl recite alphabets but not Jawi?

Rasulullah bersabda, “Bukan kemiskinan yang aku khawatirkan menimpa kalian, akan tetapi yang aku takutkan apabila dunia itu dibukakan untuk kalian, lalu kalian berlomba-lomba mencari dunia sebagaimana orang-orang sebelum kalian berlomba mencarinya, maka dunia tersebut akan menghancurkan kalian sebagaimana dunia telah menghancurkan orang sebelum kalian.” (HR Bukhari Muslim).

May My Wish(es) come true

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Mon, 07 Dec 2009 13:38:00 +0000

So i was doing this IDP shit for my future... @ work actually. If you work with me, then u should understand it is. Its like planning your future, where you wanna end up stuff like that. So i come across to these questions... Lyk...

The GOAL
- In order to reach the goal I need to...

I had this in my head... my brain of mind.. this thinking...

The GOAL : Be in Love
- In order to reach the goal I need to...
*blank*

Seriously!!! I was that *blank* What should a girl do?? Hahaha

But then.. here's what I want to see or happen at least....

- I wish to whisk off in a sports Car!!!!
**** I am not a sucker for sports car... for me it was ok. Its a car that I will never buy because it sooooo $$! But yeah, I want to at least feel the ultimate feeling riding a sports car with him.

- I wish to receive a bouquet of flower by surprise~
**** it happened by accident actually. I saw from my rear view mirror, a guy carrying a bouquet of flower. At that point, I was surprised and there was this good feeling. If only it was for me~

- I wish to hold a guy's hand and he squeeze mine tightly
**** I bet it gonna be romantic.. I am spoiled by lovey dovey K-drama. Hahaha

- I wish that guy will worry whether I will like his prezies.

- I wish that guy will worry how much I like him

Wishful thinking~

Please let it go away...

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 13:19:00 +0000

Don't come near!
That's what I wish for it to hear...

Just go away...
But it keep at bay

Please oh Please make it stop!
Just leave me with this hope

Tho it sounds pointless
but its better than being hopeless

My heart sounds so hollow
If a pin drop, it will echo

M I really dead inside?
Or M i just pretending to hide?

I really hate for it to stay
But it came back to my dismay

Until when should I bear
A feeling of loneliness and wants to share

Ya Allah, help me to endure
Help me feel so safe and secure

A lil bit of this and that...

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 09:47:00 +0000

I watched Ugly Truth last Saturday. 3 words! I LOVE IT!!!
Obviously its a chick flick... falling in love yada yada.. but it was hilarious. And also a bit true... cos I kinda feel that I am that kind of person who is scared of the ugly truth. I hate being sad, I can't handle bad news, cos 1. I don't know how to react to it, 2. I don't know how to pacify it.
I am not going to talk further about that.. perhaps next time. I am still stuck at work.. The network is not on my side today.. I wanna finish this task off, so that I can have more time to do other stuff.
Yesterday was not the best of the week either. Kinda pissed off really.. I do have this impression that he (I am not going to mention names nor describe who he is) is the type who care only about his reputation to others. I mean to say, if I am not doing what I am supposed to do... then he might get the blame as well. I am quite disappointed on how he didn't defend what I have done, but he care more of what others are saying. I can slack off at times, but I think I've done a good job.. is that not what matters?
Neway, I've been meaning to write about the power of minds on behaviour. Kinda heavy subject, but I really do like to ponder about it.
I am only referring to a girl's mind, and yes you are welcome to disagree. I am not doing a thorough research, but more of a personal observation.
You know how girls always go in pack? It's true, we travel like wolves. We stick to each other. You rarely saw a girl walking alone! Very rare!!!! And to make things worse, girls like to share! Yes we do!!
Here's the thing about girls, when it comes to talking. We share and we agree most of the time. We don't really fight, occasionally there will be some 'Y did you do dat for?' and be horrified, but its very minimal.
Sometimes, I do hate to share with my girlfriends, especially on love or hate relationship! It's because I can be easily influenced by them.
Eg.1.... Say I am telling my girlfriends I have this crush on a boy. Actually its just a simple crush, the kind that you won't pursue afterwards. But somehow talking to the girls make u wanna go for it. Pep talk like 'U like him!!!! U should go for him!! He's the one!! Your kids will look super cute!! U guys look cute together!!!" In the end, I get into their words, indulging all the positive remarks, and get obsessed with the fact that 'YES, I DO LOVE HIM!!!'... familiar?
Eg.2. You just broke up with your boyfriend. You cried. Thinking why did he leave me? Talk to ur girlfriends. Sympathy talk. "Its not your fault. Its his loss. Better!!! I never like him anyway. He's a snake!!!" and this makes you angry and in the end hate him. Well, its not that bad, at least you'll move on.
I used to be those pep-talk girls. I rarely do that anymore. Guess I get matured or something. I refused to do pep-talk anymore, just because there is this one time I did something like dat... and I sad to see the outcome. I am really glad that it work in the end. But ever since that, I try to not be judgemental, but fair on my judgement. I reasons where I can, and say what's wrong when it is wrong. If people tell me their issues, I simply said, I will not agree nor disagree, but I will try to make you think it over.

I see that we can be easily influenced by others, especially those who we trust.

That my friend, is my random thought of the day.

Mood Raya ka namanya ni?

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 04:04:00 +0000

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

At work at the moment, but working mode absolutely 0.000%!!!!

My brain refuse to think about work at all. All I want to do is clean the house and arrange the flowers. I am actually amazed with my self because I want to arrange flowers. I am not that type. But then I cleaned all the plastic flowers last Sunday, and now they are still in the basket waiting to be arranged.

I sorta feel guilty because I left the living room messy.. messier than last Saturday. I was having a lazy cleaning spree. So I left without even attending to it.

Now I feel guilty because yesterday I didn't do any cleaning. Instead I went to bandar. tsk tsk.

BUT TODAY I AM DETERMINED TO DO IT!!!!

GANBATE~

You gonna found love naturally...

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 22:40:00 +0000

Spread the lurveee... here's a picture of Jason Mraz (yours truly) with a half opened walnut, I assumed received from Arianda from Mexico...

Anyway, Mr. Walnut.. I am seeing you in a different light from now on.. Sigh, lucky nut! Hehehe

Right, an inspiration coming up....

Do you recall a Petronas advert about Tang Ho Ming?

Isn't he cute???? I so love the ad because kids are so pure!! I wished I could be like dat. I am not saying I am not pure. I am too tainted to say I am pure. I am more of 85.9 % good, and the rest not that good.

But I do know, not being yourself can be soooooo tiring. I've tried that, and my god... how annoying was it. Ppl always think you are this perfect goody two shoes. Is that correct? And the thing about being pretentious, parading like you're this perfect lil creature pays big consequences. Really!!! Cos once you did a lil mistake, there goes your perfect stock.

I am more of a 'keep it balance' believer. Anything must be in balance to create a perfect harmony. Like work-life balance. If you feel that you can't work it out today, rest. I don't see why we havta struggle to work, because it's you who's doing the work anyway. Seriously, they wouldn't care if you're sick or tired, but they will mind when the work is not complete.

Same in family and friends, balance it out. Don't be too focus on your friends (gf or bf or bff or bfffs - no I don't noe wat it stands for... LoL), spend enough time with your family cos in the end, its the family who is going to tend you when you're sick or etc. I know your youth can be overwhelming. You're in the center stage where ppl adore you, but eventually the crowd will phase out and they move on. What left are those ppl backstage, the unsung hero, your continuos support.

Oh wow, I can't believe that I've created that metaphor right here on my bed! Hahaha truly inspired.

Anyway, if you feel you're tired, while having enough rest, you might be having more of a mental or emotional drained out. Take time for yourself, indulge in stuff that you feel you deserves. After all, you are your own best care-taker. *Bam* I nailed it! Perfect~

Hehehehe Adios~

50 Things about Me

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 15:38:00 +0000

Applications 50 things I know about my self

YOU'VE BEEN TAGGED!
NOW ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS WRITE DOWN 50 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOURSELF.

1. I am always young...

2. I drive too fast

3. I hate shopping... because I am so bad at it. :P

4. I spend most of my time online

5. I used to love Stitch..

6. I collect shot glasses from places I visited, or my friends has visited

7. I want to buy a new mobile phone

8. I don't have a bed in my room...

9.I want to paint my room orange and white, just because

10. I think I like this guy but I don't know what to do about it

11. I really hate it when ppl main sindir2 arah ku

12. I love photography, esp sunsets and landscape

13. I am into red, and now I think I am sick of it, but I still pick red stuff

14. I saw the blingest slipper ever that I wanna buy yesterday, but decided against it because I can use the money for a better reason

15.I already paid my deposit for the Korea Tour.

16. I wanna go Japan someday

17. And Egypt

18. and Greece...

19. the list can continue until 50s

20. I've never been to Temburong

21. I love to bake

22. especially cupcakes

23. and chocolate chip cookies

24. I often try to cook the stuff I love to eat

25. I'm not easily influenced unless we've the same sentiment

26. I don't like to listen to heart-breaking stories, or problems, because I tend to try to solve it...

27. which I think is because I love maths

28. which I used to hate soooo much!!!

29. until a handsome tuition teacher teach me. :D

30. I love to fantasize my love stories

31. I guess its because I am spoiled by all the love stories I've read and watched

32. I can take stress but I appreciate it if ppl just stay away during stressful moment.

33. i loveee bagss and I can never get enough

34. I want to continue my master, and hopefully one day I will

35. I wish I know the secret formula to grow monies on trees.

36. I still wonder y ppl put value on stuff!!!

37. I owned macbook pro!

38. I also have iTouch

39. I wanna raise my level in Mafia Wars

40. I love cats

41. I love holidays

42. Sometimes I spent my time at the beach, just looking at the wave and suddenly realize I am alone.

43. I don't mind being single, but I wonder how I will be in a relationship.

44. I love to sleep in cold.

45. I don't like silence.

46. I love music

47. I love the sound of guitar

48. I love laughing and enjoy a good joke

49. I think I am a stalker... hahahha

50. I think ppl only know me up to 70% because I don't even know my self. Hahaha

How CoRnY can You Get?!!

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 22:46:00 +0000

I love corny linessssssss..... ahahahha

Well I never being approached by a corny line do-ers but I would love to do it sometimes, if i have the gut to do it la.. hahhaha

One of the reason I love watching 'Foster's home of Imaginary friends' because there is dis one episode, the prince charming was soooo corny. I LoL-ed!

Me and my friend love to come up with corny lines, especially if we spotted a hot guy!!! I guess we're just passing out some times, cos we wudn't dare to do it face to face.

Right, these are some of my corny lines, that I can think of.

- To a hot policeman: "Hello officer, Did I do anything bad? All I wanna do is to steal your heart."

- To a good looking restaurant waiter: "Do you recommend anything else apart from you?"

- To a handsome banker: "Tell me, am I making a good investment by buying your heart?"

- To a handsome teacher: "I seriously need some guidance. Teach me how to win your heart."

- To a hawt fireman: "Please help me put off the flame in my heart."

- To a hot soldier: "I think I've already lost my own battle by looking thru your eyes."

- To a handsome IT person: "IT helpdesk. I've an issue with my heart-drive. Seems to hang every time I load you into my head"

Haahaha how was it so far? you think I can win some hearts?? Hehehe Tell me yours.

Random thot & Marhaban Ya Ramadhan

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 03:20:00 +0000

Here's a random thought of the day: Ipod Partay!!!

Hahahaha I don't know where I get that idea, but here I was sitting with my friend's colleague. She was telling that she'll probably be moving to a new house next week.. so a friend asked her whether her new place would allow to have a party.. because it will be too noisy.

The new house is in a residential area, and it is pretty close to next door neighbour... So I answered, "We can have an Ipod party!!! Let everyone bring their own ipod, listen to their own music!"

Well, yeah, I do intend that as a joke, but come to think of it.. it would be an ideal solution, right?Try to imagine this, each one of us, with our ipod on, we still have to literally shout at one another, to start on conversation. But as a plus, your own choice of songs! So we wouldn't have to worry about other's choice of songs! We only have to care about food! Neat!!!!

Hmmm.. so I do wonder... maybe we could have an iPod party someday... dat wud be uber cool!

On the side note, I would like to wish all the muslims out there, Marhaban Ya Ramadhan and Happy Fasting. Wishing you all the best and hopes all our good deeds will get accepted by him.

Growing up vs Growing Old

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Wed, 12 Aug 2009 10:34:00 +0000

Lately I've been listening to this song by Sheila on 7 called 'Alasan ku' ... which translated as My Excuse?? My Reason?? Hahahaha

Anyway, it got me thinking... (nope...nothing new here). I mean I think a lot, and I think its fair... its a natural process.. its called growing up!

I used to remember my self back then, being a very shy and timid child. Dun start to laugh, cos its all true. I dun normally talk with others, I love to imagine stuff... especially being in a drama. I love to read books and let my imagination run wild. In Primary 5, I started to write stories... love stories and sad stories most of the time. I can still remember all those stories, and sometimes, when I did some clean up in my room, I stumbled upon those stories I used to write and actually quite impressed with my self. Hehehe.... some of those stories never ended...

And then there's come love... the source of my inspiration! I am never lucky in love... never once... maybe because I am the shy girl. I tend to end up as a 'guy friend' rather than the 'girl friend'. I still think about this though, and it is still a mystery to me. I choose not to dwell on it, cos I finally understood that, once you too focus on something, you tend to ignore others....

But I can't really forget my first love.. I think it was in primary 4. That boy is now married, but I was actually scarred by the past. Hahaha Now I think it was quite funny. How can I even think its love????? I actually sent out a love letter to this boy, captioning 'Pls dun show it to others' and yes of course being boys.. HE READ IT OUT LOUD TO THE CLASS. It was sooooo embarrassing.. I regretted my self by sending the love note. Silly me... y would a cute guy like dat, like me? I am hideous. I am smart and geeky. Not that pretty at all... those were all my thought. My brother actually saved me from my humiliation. So sweet of him. He took away those note and make it disappeared after it was passed throughout the class. Some girls actually laughed at me, but my peers, they sympathize me. Bless them. It took me years, the guts to confess my admiration to boys. Until now, I still remember him, and still very shy to say hi. Turn out to be, I am now a good friend to his cousin. Funny indeed.

I then moved to high school. Only some good friends ended up wif me. So I had to start new. I met new friends and love being friends with them. I love being around close friends. I still remembered my version of friendship is through giving. I gave my now best friend a bracelet which she gave to her sister. It actually caused a rift in our relationship. Soon I begin to understand, that in friendship, materials doesn't matter. Its the companionship, and I am so glad that she's still my bestest mate!!!

And as a plus.. more cuter guyssssss... but I was too shy to say I like them... so instead I rather be their friends. I do end up with some bastards, and some short-lived love. It makes me more... determined not to fall in love, as well as the continuous warnings from my parents and also afraid to be a rebel. Hahaha.

Apart from that, Education was my top priority, ever since primary school and it was up to high school.

Then I continued my study to Pre-U and it was my muckiest moment ever. I hated my school. I hated my self for being fat. I hated all those pretty and perfect girls!!! I've like a good guy friend from high school. I was quite close with him back in high school. I began to distant my self from him, cos he was so handsome n talented and because I hate my self, I stay away. Apparently, he said, he did like me since high school but began to realise that I am not giving him the ok sign ever, especially in pre-u. I was shocked. I am still in touch wif him now. He still bring up that 'Hehehe.. yatah ko jual mahal dulu...' and now he's happy wif another good friend of mine. What a small world. I do have some new close friends from Pre-U, and I am glad I still am a friend to them.

When I received my A level result, it was the most disappointing moment of my life. I literally blamed everyone about it. It has been my ambition to further my study to UK, but my grades prevented me from doing so. I was ashamed with everyone; with my family, my friends and my teachers. I felt that I have disappointed them by not able to go to UK. My best friend went to UK, all my close friend went to UK.

I began to resolute my self. I still want to go to UK. I check for alternative. UBD offered a twinning program to UK, so I applied for the position. I was accepted for Computer Science and now I have to begin a new life in University. I began to meet new friends, who in fact become my best buddies. Some of them were actually my old friend who I never once close with. Now we were so close, we wept together, we laughed together...

In Uni, they are several love interest:

1. A senior, who I fell in love with when I played Badminton. He was so adorable. I did manage to sms with him, but eventually gave up. I actually asked him to guess him who I was, by giving him several clues. He guessed wrong. He picked my pretty friend... I guess he never saw me. When I told him that was not me, he stopped replying to my sms. We smiled when we met in Uni, but he always bring this obnoxious girl with him, who always gave me a winning smile of 'Hey, I got him'. I do remember when he did try to say hi to me, but it was too late. I no longer have a feeling for him

2. There is this one guy, who never was in my radar.. hahaha. I noticed him because my friend told me that there is this one guy who looked like my first uni love interest. I began to see him and eventually I became attracted to him. I became his friend and eventually I became more attracted to him. He was funny and he has this really cute smile. I can't really recall how did I even begin to be his friend. I just did.

I confessed to him a day before I departed to UK. It was the hardest thing to do. I confessed via SMS. And he did say he liked me as well. So we began to contact one another when I went to UK. Somehow it didnt work out well. He began dating another girl and I felt betrayed actually. When I think back, we never really did say it was official. And that is when I started to re-like the 3rd guy.

3. I still remember the moment when I actually saw him. Also a senior of mine. It was during that time waiting for a class to start. We were standing outside the class, when suddenly I sawhim. I began to blush. He was so cute wearing that blue shirt. I told my friend about him and she said, he has been in the class for a while. I must so obsess with the first crush that I didn't notice him. I never did managed to say hi to him cos I was too shy. I only saw him from the back, never have the guts to say hello. I began to forget about him when I met the 2nd guy.

Eventually we went to UK and end up in the same class. I started to talk to him. I still remember this one time, where I hung out with him, and he began to ask me for advice with a girl problem.

Imagine this, liking him and actually advising him to go get the girl. I was crushed because I never do manage to tell him that I like him. I did once try to have a one-one movie outing with him, but it didnt work out, because he brought another guy. I still do, and I still think he's too far-fetched for me. He's good looking, and a good-hearted person. I wish all the best for him.

In UK, I enjoyed life to the max. I studied hard, but I partied harder!!! Not partied as in going to all the pubs et all, but I went to explore Scotland. I fell in love with Scotland. I fell in love with the fact that I can live on my own two feet! I began to appreciate my family more. After all, absence makes the heart grow fonder.

I am determined to score high for my degree, which I did!!! I was so happy.

Now I am working in one of the best company in the world. It can be hard... but somehow I am glad. I can now help my parents paid their bills. I can buy my own stuff, which I used to think impossible. I travel whenever I can.

Looking back on my life... there are ups and downs.... but every single things that happened to me... shaped who I am today. I am blessed that I able to learn in every curve of my life. People who I met, People who I befriended, People who pissed me off.

Overall, I am still who I am.. I still like to imagine stuff, I still like to keep quiet.. IF I can.. I love to observe ppl, and I still enjoy learning...

Paper shredder

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Fri, 24 Jul 2009 15:16:00 +0000

I was shredding paper last time.. it was sooooo much fun!!!

It was my first time, and I love how we can continue-ingly do it... shred shred shreddddd

It got me thinking.. how easy it is to destroy one's creation, with just another creation... I guess we can apply this to us... example a problem.. how easy it is to create a problem with just another problem...

We might destroy a piece of paper... and throw it away, but do you think its gonna be that easy to remove a problem?

I think not...

Red ATtAcK........

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Sun, 19 Jul 2009 23:26:00 +0000

We had a family gathering yesterday... we always do once a month. Its a good chance to meet up wif cousin2 yang jauh dmata dekat d hati. Aiseh~

Nehooo... my cousin proposed to wear red for that day! Hahaha Lawa ehh.. memandang kan aku ani anang pantang liat merah. So its coolaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaCoincidently, our cousins from bandar wore black. Nah padan cia... Red and Black.

Hahah nganya akhir la makan... makan patut pkl 1 pm.. tapi nya pkl 2 pm ka start... hahahha atu bilang org kelaparan kejadian nya...

dat afternoon, the younguns played volley ball.. pandai, nda pandai, main saja.. best kali ahhhh!!! ahahhaha semua berteriakan ani... de' best stress reliever! I guess its true... Sp0Rts is a gOoD waY to StAy CloSe... iT haS beEn a while for me la playing volley ball.. bergarak jua segala muscle2 yang nda pernah bergarak selama ani... terstretch sana stretch sini.. hahahha pacah lamak!!! nah tau th kamu aku belamak. Hahhaha

Neway some of my fav photos... ahhaha mau jua drg cuzen ku ani begulek atas tanah... thanks! I*heart* u guys!

Sweet Prison Day 2

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Sun, 05 Jul 2009 04:42:00 +0000

I was supposed to update this blog yesterday. But I was too tired. So I am updating today.

The weather was great yesterday, sunny.. a lot of sunshine...

but it rained in the afternoon.

I cleaned up my room -.-'

I seriously have a lot of junks! Hahaha I end up placing them on the correct places now. ^.^

I re-arrange my furniture, except my bed (that wud be my mattress) n big wardrobe. All n all.. I love my new layout!

Here's the outcome, sorry no before picture..

My reading corner... Spot the Lil Minnie wif the hood? Hehehe

My souvenir corner...

My beauty corner...

This wud be my absolute fave corner... Magazines, TV n my mac.

Today I am cleaning up my walk-in wardrobe!

Sweet Prison Day 1

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 01:36:00 +0000

Today is my first day being held captive in my own home. So you'll have (if I am in the mood) a 7-days up-to-date blog of my experience being home arrested. *hehehe*

Weather: Raining

Mood: So far so good.

As it is friday, I've a very limited attention on my work. For a week I am going to end up wif the following scenario.

but most of the time, u can guess that i spend most of the time on my beloved mac!

Anyway, kinda hard to believe.. to be held captive at home. I don't really mind i guess.. as long they wont take away my laptop n connection to the rest of the world. Plus its only for a week.

The health ppl came to our home just now, so we were given the mask, so that we can wear when they come to visit us. They gave us Tamiflu n thermometer to measure our temperature with. Kinda funny at first, but I guess it is really serious. No vaccination available yet, so prevention is the best cure.

So we took our on temperature every 12 hr... we need to take our Tamiflu once a day.

JAPEM also provided us food. Hehehe its actually packed food with a bottle of water. Wow... this is so prison like. But we are very thankful for the thought. It's a good approach, but maybe they can consider giving use beras instead. or eggs. or bread.. Just a suggestion.

So far I watched TV, surfed the net and sleep... sounds like wat I did everyday. If I can survive for 27 years.. why can't I survive for a week?

Look at my sexy look with the mask on.. woo hoo!!

Ruunnnyyy

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 14:04:00 +0000

It has been a while...

I am sick!

Runny Nose..

Dry eyes...

Sore Throat...

Hi Body Temp..

2 days Leave.

Purfecttttt

Love stories: do they really exist or is it just a fragment of imagination?

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 11:00:00 +0000

Actually I was thinking about it @ the gym while cycling a while ago. I am so thankful I have my iPod, but I really wished the gym has a wi-fi so I can just posted my write-up instead of typing it again!!!

Anyway, I grew up with fairy tales. Cinderella, Beauty n the Beast, Snow White, The Little Mermaid... Name others, I am gonna love each one of them all!! The good thing about fairy tales is that, in the end of each n every story, the characters lived happily ever after... from the mice to teapots, candles stand to a cup! So I was basically corrupted with this thinking, its a happy world out there.. Little did I know... Reality actually BITES! *grrr*

Before assuming that I am going to be bitter about LOVE, undying LOVE and more LOVE... lemme tell you my secret (some mite have already guess) I am actually a HOPELESS ROMANTIC. Dunno what it means, google dem! I am actually pretty weak in the subject of love, and I do wish they taught us last time in school. Human's feelings are sacred!

In the past few days, I've read, listened and saw the acclaimed love stories. There are plenty out there! Sometimes it makes me a bit wishful... Can't I be the lucky cast in that wonderful stories instead?

Honestly speaking, I was a bit jealous of the made up character. Y can't it be me instead? Have you ever asked that? Correct me if I am wrong here.. but aren't all if not some girls (I bet guys do too) do wish to find their perfect match? Like Romeo and Juliet, Cinderella and Prince Eric, Lady and Tramp... a person who we called soulmate. Do dey even exists?

Rest assured, you are not the only one asking... everyone did ask! Let me tell you dis, yes dey do exists. "Manusia di cipta berpasangan" (Humans are created in pairs). This is what I am being told and I am very confident with this.

Rasulullah SAW bersabda mafhumnya : " Manusia Hawa dijadikan daripada rusuk manusia Adam, bukan dari kepalanya untuk menjadi atasnya, bukan dari kakinya untuk menjadi alasnya, malah dari sisinya untuk menjadi teman hidupnya, dekat dengan lengannya untuk dilindungi dan dekat di hatinya untuk dicintai ". (Prohet Muhammad (PBUH)'s sabda "Eve was created from Adam's spinal, not from his head so she can controlled, not from the foot so she can be a slave, but from his side so that she can be the other half, close to his arms so she can protected, close to his heart so she can be loved.")

Beautiful don't you think? I heard from a ceramah by Dr Fadzillah Kamsah, from the birth of a girl to the world, a mate has already been decided for her. And for me that is good enough, to call him a soul mate.

I watched "He's not just into you" last nite. What an eye opener! The movie has a point. I mean, y do girls ever question 'do he like me?' and I am asking dis to my self as well. According to that movie.... and I conclude the message it is trying to say is 'If that guy wants u bad enough, just sit back and let him do the samba!' hehhe I just want to put samba in, cos it wud be cool if he actually did samba for u. Relatively speaking, to the guys, its the same I guess. But its easier to send this message to the girl, cos I think girls are more prone to fall for the heart not the looks. I am not just saying dat because I am a girl... but because someone told me about this. See.. Research!

Anyway, to my understanding y this can be applied to both girls and guys, is because its like buying a good shoe. (I don't want to put beautiful shoe because it might contradict my statement above). Ok so one day you went to the shop trying to find a shoe. Without having in mind what you are looking for, you found the perfect pair. It is not as pretty as the one next to it, but u just know that its perfect with your red hand bag. (I want one!!). You looked at the price and its kinda pricy so you decided... maybe next time. You went home but u were yearning. You think about that shoe day and night and u just can't help it! YOU NEED TO GET THAT SHOE. The salary was not in yet (or maybe in some cases, the allowance) but u kinda worried that 'what if someone else gets that shoe?' so lets just try to see. Lucky, its still there. Day and nite you keep on going to the store to check it out. Even the store owner recognise you and try to coax you to buy it. But you say next time lahhh...

Then one day the shoe was gone!!! And you started to feel regretful, you should have done something about it instead of looking it from afar. You could have borrowed ur mum's money to buy it first... right? But you didn't.

So I think this apply to our life as well. We tend to get comfortable sometimes that we begin to forget, things may not remain there forever....

Right, Its a bit long today.. my blog. Apologies. I want to conclude something here:

- For me, love stories do exist! and they can be a fragment of imagination as well. BUT I do believe, if you started to think the way you imagine, it might come to live! Positive thinking can be a powerful thing.

- Love stories are not for all those sappy people. Its for everyone! We need a constant reminder that we need love and companionship in our lives. We're made that way. And its always a good feel booster. Sometimes we felt that we're always in the dump. Y can't I be the lucky one, you said. But after a good cry or a good laugh, it doesn't matter anymore. At least we're contented.

- IF there are something that we like or yearn to have.. do something about it. Dun just stand there and wish. WISH NEVER COME TRUE! You want something, you need to work on it. Even in Islam, we're taught that way. Before praying, you need to USAHA, work it out. After you did, keep on the Tawakkal and doa.

So my question to you, what are you going to do about the shoe?

I hope you enjoyed my post as I have enjoyed doing it.

Thanks for reading.. my 2 cents.

M[o]nd[a]y BL[ue]s

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Mon, 15 Jun 2009 06:09:00 +0000

Hellew Hellew...

Welcome to my day..

It not like any other day nor any typical monday wat so ever.. its just the typical o-i-m-so-bored-i-think-i-would-be-better-off-at-home day. This is so hard.

BTW, last Saturday was my good friend's birthday. Maybe its not too late to put it in my blog...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Nana! Enjoy ur Bash.

hehhe well she did have a bash and it was SPLENDID. Really relaxing, and we watched a movie.. 17 again... I wont recommend it.. seriously~ It's a flop!! A typical I-Need-To-Redeem-My-Self movie. I just wished Zac Afron (Is that his name??) To quit be the cute, famous, basket ball actor.. try others!!

I lost my card reader. I haven't scolded my brother because he's the last one using my camera. I kept forgetting.. so I haven't uploaded any pictures to FB and I cant post any picture here as well. I'll try to post some other time.

What I did in the weekend...

It was fun. I managed to dedicate my time to watch BOF. Seriously loving it! Gu Jun Pyo is sooooo good looking. BOF is like a fairy tale of the modern life!! I haven't finish yet, but I highly recommend it. Though the BOF tidal might be calming down now, but seriously, once in a while, its cool to watch cute guys and wishing u were the heroin ~ sigh.

Imah got married yesterday! Congratulations! She looked so pretty n happy!!!!!! I am soooo happy for her. Her room is so pretty!! I want to install wallpaper for my room as well! Lets see if I can afford that end of the year. Or else I'll just havta repaint it again.

So today, I am soooo noooot in the mood to do anything. I looked at my work and I don't really have a clue what to do with it. Yes! It's wrong. :P so wat gitu loh.

So I end up admiring my polished nails, cleaning the keyboard, Checkings wats for sale, Emailing this person to buy a ferry ticket to Labuan and blogging.

Wat a waste. I cud have take a leave, sleep and then finish BOF. Now I am sleepy...

AND IT'S JUST 2.05 PM!

Man~ I should start my work..

To all the kids out there.. enjoy ur holiday~

My day, my week, my whatever

noreply@blogger.com (Gymah) — Tue, 09 Jun 2009 15:21:00 +0000

First of all, where the heck did all the TWIX gone???

I went to Soon Lee, Supa Save, Giant, Hua Ho.. nada Twix ani wah. I have to go Naafi to buy one. But good thing also, cos they sold Kit Kat from UK. Seriously, its better than the one sold here. Yeah yeah, you might want to argue wif me on that. I dun carrreeee, cos all I know, in UK I've eaten Kit Kat almost every day! Even my housemate got sick of it, watching me eating it last time. Cos I cant resist them. Not only because it's cheap, its also suppeerrr good!

Here... I never bought Kit Kat. I usually just choose Tronky, cos its nicer. So I bought UK Kit Kat just now. Man, was it good or what! Yummeh!!!

So I did promised to blog about How to be Single story book I read last time.

My comments:

It was so-so. It took me a week to finish it. I've actually skip to the end, but I didn't understand, so I have to go read to where I started to cheat, and read diligently.

It might not be a common story, but then I guess it is. Its all about 'girls questioning' everything. Seriously, I would know. I think I would be able to write the same story, except mine would not be a best seller, because one, I've been single all my life and I dun give a shit. Two, I am not good at story telling.. Maybe next time.

I don't really enjoy the ending, I would prefer some happiness in the end. Yeah yeah, do love youself crap sell, but its just too much. I don't want to read a self-help book. I just want to enjoy a good story. And that is where it fail.

Fail to capture my interest.

Fail to capture my understanding.

BUT there is a positive side to this book

At least I know, I am not the only single left in the world.

I am actually hungry, so I am just going to sleep off this one.

I'll try to blog next time.

Cheerios!