tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711Sat, 13 Sep 2025 15:14:22 +0000Matters of the HeartLife’s not black…not white…it’s a shady haze of grey….http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (Nika)Blogger58125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-4794735111714559206Tue, 10 Feb 2015 23:01:00 +00002015-02-10T18:01:54.509-05:00" Tell me what you eat, and I will tell you who you are"&nbsp;Jean Anthelme Brillat-Savarin Today I quit life... Let me say that again…I QUIT LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Quit, checked out, sleep, not taking any messages- describe it how you want, just know that I am gone. <!--[if !supportLineBreakNewLine]--> <!--[endif]--> I seriously just can't anymore. I'm over everything!http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2015/02/an-open-invitation.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-4713666721678150336Wed, 09 Oct 2013 22:03:00 +00002013-10-14T14:44:59.306-04:00 “A hibernation is a covert preparation for a more overt action” Ralph Ellison, Invisible Man This morning as I snuggled myself deep inside my comforter trying to squeeze out a measly 10 more minutes of shut eye, I made the grave and pressing realization about my current situation, first and foremost, I really need a warmer comforter (I mean who was I kidding). Secondly, somehow I missed cuffinghttp://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2013/10/to-cuff-or-not-to-cuff-that-is-question.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-979663132633473166Fri, 04 Oct 2013 21:00:00 +00002013-10-04T17:04:54.266-04:00 Drinking is an emotional thing. It joggles you out of the standardism of everyday life, out of everything being the same. It yanks you out of your body and your mind and throws you against the wall. I have the feeling that drinking is a form of suicide where you're allowed to return to life and begin all over the next day. It's like killing yourself, and then you're reborn. I guess I've lived http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2013/10/equilebriate-shady-word-of-day.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-519685859171726129Thu, 29 Aug 2013 20:29:00 +00002013-08-29T16:29:13.478-04:00 Age isn't how old you are but how old you feel.”&nbsp;&nbsp;Gabriel Garcí­a Márqu I am 37. Thirty- Seven.&nbsp; THREE-SEVEN! Just let that sink in a bit…. THAT’S 3 YEARS UNTIL FORTY! FORTY! FOUR-ZERO!!!!!! So to say that I’m not taking this birthday well is an….ummm…understatement.&nbsp; I’m soooo not adjusting well at all!&nbsp; It’s so bad that it has taken me almost a http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2013/08/thirties-are-new-thirties_29.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-4497826299256360356Thu, 29 Aug 2013 20:28:00 +00002013-08-29T16:28:35.457-04:00 Age isn't how old you are but how old you feel.”&nbsp; Gabriel Garcí­a Márqu I am 37. Thirty- Seven.&nbsp; THREE-SEVEN! Just let that sink in a bit…. THAT’S 3 YEARS UNTIL FORTY! FORTY! FOUR-ZERO!!!!!! So to say that I’m not taking this birthday well is an….ummm…understatement.&nbsp; I’m soooo not adjusting well at all!&nbsp; It’s so bad that it has taken me almost a month http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2013/08/thirties-are-new-thirties.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-5608262707469790195Sun, 02 Jun 2013 06:54:00 +00002013-06-02T02:54:18.551-04:00 "Underneath my outside face, There’s a face that none can see. A little less smiley, A little less sure, But a whole lot more like me” Shel Silverstein Hi, My name is Nika, no, that’s not my government name, but it is a nickname I've gone as my entire life. &nbsp;I’m 5’6 and ½.&nbsp; Yes, the ½ counts.&nbsp; I have dark curly hair.&nbsp; I’m a dark skin, African-American girl from the http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2013/06/the-irrefutable-truth.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-6388907361352167511Tue, 26 Mar 2013 20:04:00 +00002013-03-26T20:38:34.119-04:00 "Whoever came up with the term, 'Have a happy period,' needs to be taken&nbsp;outside, force fed Midol, and&nbsp;shot with&nbsp;tampons.” ~Anon Dear….. Male Gynecologist, When I came to you in tears regarding my excruciating cramps and you looked at me and said “unfortunately, that’s one of the symptoms that come with your periods”, did you think my 30 plus year old ass&nbsp;didn't&http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2013/03/for-colored-girls-who-have-considered.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-456203179702063217Fri, 22 Feb 2013 21:54:00 +00002013-02-26T14:00:52.617-05:00Good Times. Any time you meet a payment. Good Times. Any time you need a friend. Good Times. Any time you're out from under. Not getting hassled, not getting hustled. Keepin' your head above water, Making a wave when you can. Temporary layoffs. Good Times. Easy credit rip offs. Good Times. Scratchin' and surviving. Good Times. Hangin in a chow line Good Times. Ain't we lucky we got 'em Good http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2013/02/the-facts-of-life.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-7493658577590188434Tue, 05 Feb 2013 22:29:00 +00002013-02-06T08:46:15.103-05:00 "The little blue engine looked up at the hill. His light was weak, his whistle was shrill. He was tired and small, and the hill was tall, And his face blushed red as he softly said, “I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.” So he started up with a chug and a strain, And he puffed and pulled with might and main. And slowly he climbed, a foot at a time, And his engine coughed as he http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2013/02/the-quest-for-happiness.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-3912507774316752388Fri, 21 Dec 2012 19:18:00 +00002012-12-21T14:21:57.995-05:00 “I believe... I believe... It's silly, but I believe.&nbsp;“ Miracle on 34th Street Dear Santy, Let me first start by saying, I don’t believe in you.&nbsp; I haven’t since I was a kid. My sister ruined it for me as most older siblings tend to do. &nbsp;Every Christmas she would make me plot on how we would catch my grandfather putting out gifts, and although the group plan was fun, it http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/12/dear-santa-claus.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-4249008630300976817Thu, 20 Dec 2012 21:36:00 +00002012-12-20T17:02:51.097-05:00 “Maybe Christmas, he thought, doesn't come from a store. Maybe Christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more!” &nbsp;-Dr. Seuss, How the Grinch Stole Christmas Alrighty folks, we’re in the home stretch, Christmas is near and now is the time to start talking gifts. Well, that is of course if you’re that lame person, who bought gifts last month then, never mind, but if you’re a Late http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/12/holiday-survival-tips-step-two-art-of.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-6149158845738888637Mon, 10 Dec 2012 22:23:00 +00002012-12-11T09:21:38.764-05:00 “Christmas isn't just a day; it's a frame of mind.” Kris Kringle Miracle on 34th Street When most people think of the holidays they think of joyous occasions, family, fun, love, warmth and any other overly sappy adjective, I do not. HAHAHA Don’t get me wrong, I love the holidays but my views are different based on my experiences.&nbsp; I’m from a divorced family where my parents literally http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/12/holiday-survival-tips-step-one.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-5211302699207617912Wed, 28 Nov 2012 21:16:00 +00002012-11-28T16:16:46.852-05:00 I'm so bossy, b*tch get off me Trick get off me, you can't get sh*t off me I'm so flossy, no 6's on Sprees Laid back, Maybachs, don't even talk to me ~Jay-Z “Ignorant Sh*t” Dear friends, Please allow me this moment in time to apologize. &nbsp;Yes, Yes, Yes to apologize. &nbsp;To whom? Well…to you. &nbsp;Yes, to you my friends. &nbsp;For what you may ask? For what is to come when I http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/11/powerballin.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-5625997459337871697Mon, 26 Nov 2012 22:19:00 +00002012-11-28T08:53:18.403-05:00 “Nobody loves me, nobody cares, Nobody picks me peaches and pears.Nobody offers me candy and Cokes,Nobody listens and laughs at me jokes.Nobody helps when I get into a fight,Nobody does all my homework at night.Nobody misses me, Nobody cries, Nobody thinks I'm a wonderful guy.So, if you ask me who's my best friend, in a whiz, I'll stand up and tell you NOBODY is!But yesterday night I got http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/11/a-very-nika-thanksgiving.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-1258316743168999053Thu, 08 Nov 2012 21:51:00 +00002012-11-08T16:51:37.973-05:00 "Those who do not weep, do not see.”&nbsp;― Victor Hugo, Les Misérables Once upon a time there was a young lady who cried, She cried so much people thought certainly someone died! It&nbsp;wasn't&nbsp;that she cried because she was sad… It&nbsp;wasn't&nbsp;that she cried because she was mad… She&nbsp;wasn't&nbsp;in pain… And she certainly&nbsp;didn't&nbsp;cry in vain Yet this younghttp://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/11/a-poem-by-nika.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-1309411012529048796Tue, 06 Nov 2012 22:58:00 +00002012-11-28T08:55:55.351-05:00 “The revolution will not be televised. The revolution will not be brought to you by Xerox in 4 parts without commercial&nbsp;interruptions...” &nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;Gil Scott-Heron Hello loves! I thought I would do a post about the election, but I’m so emotionally invested, I just can’t.&nbsp; I can’t bring myself to make light of it, because it’s way too serious. &nbsp;Moreover, I can’t http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/11/the-leader-of-hot-sauce-revolution.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-7765926502726288437Wed, 31 Oct 2012 18:41:00 +00002012-10-31T22:00:21.179-04:00 “Here's all you have to know about men and women: women are crazy, men are stupid. And the main reason women are crazy is that men are stupid.” George Carlin A few weeks ago I did a mythbuster post about the women, so it’s only right that I do one on the men.&nbsp; Yes, Yes, Yes I know, you’re thinking “what do I know about busting myths about men?” and to be quite honest, probably http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/10/mythbuster-mens-edition.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-2508409368424995467Thu, 18 Oct 2012 20:56:00 +00002012-10-18T17:04:35.957-04:00 Come get me, that's if you want to sip the juiceCause the streets await me, so I take my gun off safetyCause alot of ni**az hate meComing out of the building, they set me upSprayed with automatics, they wet me upIn a puddle of blood, I lay close to the edgeI guess I didn't know the ledge....Eric B. and Rakim “Juice” “You don’t know what people are going through.” This simple statement has http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/10/throwback-thursday-youve-got-juice-now.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-1501586786378698882Tue, 16 Oct 2012 20:55:00 +00002012-10-16T19:29:41.565-04:00 You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go.~ Dr. Seuss. Ever notice that we spend all of our time complaining about being single, moaning about being single, looking for someone so we’re not single but never once do we stop to smell the http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/10/single-or-bust.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-616328806842465788Tue, 09 Oct 2012 21:40:00 +00002012-10-10T10:28:48.444-04:00 “Men are from Earth, women are from Earth. Deal with it.” George Carlin Myths: an unproved or false collective belief that is used to justify a social institution The other day in a very frank conversation with some of my girlfriends, we were discussing the differences between men and women and some of the “he said, she said” surrounding the two. &nbsp;And hey men news flash, the same way youhttp://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/10/mythbuster-womens-edition.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-5370797574523366160Fri, 05 Oct 2012 21:09:00 +00002012-10-05T17:33:44.724-04:00 “'Cause I'm a karate man! And a karate man bruise on the inside! They don't show their weakness.” Billy Ray Valentine "Trading Places" Y’all know how I feel about Throwback Thursdays, right? &nbsp;I love, love, love them! So when I got up Thursday morning in my rush because you know I was late, I grabbed a bunch of photos to see which would trigger a memory for a blog post. &nbsp;Sadly http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/10/throwback-thursday-sos-childs-silent-cry.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-4959606443020871505Tue, 02 Oct 2012 21:38:00 +00002012-10-02T17:38:34.963-04:00 The Brain: Pinky, are you pondering what I'm pondering? Pinky: I think so Brain, but if Jimmy cracked corn, and no one cares, why does he keep doing it?&nbsp; **Pinky and the Brain **Just a little tidbit you should know about me especially for my new blog readers, new to this journey.&nbsp; One welcome, two don’t question anything written here, just rock with it.&nbsp; This stuff is http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/10/nika-and-brain-its-all-so-complicated.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-6402539826917919200Thu, 13 Sep 2012 19:31:00 +00002012-09-13T15:46:43.609-04:00 “The mind once enlightened cannot again become dark.” Thomas Paine This week, I’m prepping for my god-daughter’s college tour.&nbsp; We’re going to 8 schools in 5 different states in 5/6 days, truly exciting! There’s nothing better than encouraging our youth to pursue their dreams, but more importantly choosing the right college means everything! College is supposed to be the best years of http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/09/throwback-thursday-one-week.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-429840286939277080Tue, 11 Sep 2012 21:58:00 +00002012-09-12T11:54:39.041-04:00 “Extinction is the rule. Survival is the exception.”&nbsp; Carl Sagan Dear Friends, Family, Countrymen, and City folk, Please lend me your ear. I&nbsp;know&nbsp;I &nbsp;complain speak a lot about New York City and express a lot of concerns about my residence here, please don't think this is another one of "those" times.&nbsp;&nbsp;And actually, I just want you&nbsp;to know that it’s not http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-vanishing.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1617059736041918711.post-835183968047609659Thu, 06 Sep 2012 19:30:00 +00002012-09-06T15:31:15.548-04:00 Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,And sorry I could not travel bothAnd be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I couldTo where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fairAnd having perhaps the better claim,Because it was grassy and wanted wear;Though as for that, the passing thereHad worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally http://hazeofgrey.blogspot.com/2012/09/throwback-thursday-finding-voice-within.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Nika)0