Haryati a.k.a Tunung D.

"Rindu Sebatas Al-Fatihah"

2026-06-09T15:43:08.421+08:00

Bismillah..

05th June 2026 - a date that will forever engraved in my heart; a date that I lost another person close to me: my brother-in-law whom I get to know since he was 3 years old and watched him grew up into one fine gentleman.

To be honest, I feel like dreaming. His death was to sudden. Last time I meet him was in March, during Hari Raya and now he was gone. I am still having a hard time to come to term that we no longer get to see; to talk to him when we visit my mother-in-law or gathering with my hubby's siblings.

" Dah makan, Kak Molly?"

" Cuti ke Kak Molly?"

" Tambah lagi Kak Molly."

" Ni Kak Molly yang masak ke?"

I will no longer hear him greeting and making jokes about me cooking whenever we have the chance to gather or meet up with the other families. Our communications limited to greet and talk when he come to age but he was so spoiled by me when he was younger.

I don't remember anything bad about him because he never do anything that hurt me. In fact I only remember good memories about him and that why his death affected me deeply. The pain and anguish I feel same like when I lost my father 20 years ago.

Visiting my mother-in-law house and family gathering will never be the same again without him. His absence will deeply felt. Now we can only express our longing and love thru prayers and reciting Al-Fatihah for him.

May Allah forgive the sins of Arash Razzaq Bin Tasriffin, protect him from the punishments of the grave, and place him among the believers. Al-Fatihah.

Hello 2023!

2023-01-01T23:06:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year 2023!

Year 2022 was quite tough for me yet I am grateful for every challenge & failure I faced because it taught to stand up stronger than before.

I feel blessed because countless time I feel down and my will and determination start to crumble, my faith toward the almighty one keep uplifting me that every ordeal and difficulties are just temporary.

I don't know what is awaiting me in days ahead but I am ready and will embrace every single moment as a journey for me to be a better version of myself.

EXISTENCE

2022-09-04T01:05:00.001+08:00

It's crowded yet you feel isolated.

You don't feel like you belong, you don't feel like you matter, you don't feel like you exist.

You have families yet you feel like you don't have any.

You are always there when they need you but nobody there when you need them. You love them unconditionally yet they only love you when they need you. They left you hanging by yourself when you no longer serve any use for them.

You are true friend to many yet you only have 1 or 2 or maybe none.

You exist but your existence doesn't matter enough for them.