IdraaK !

thakan…

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Tue, 20 Jul 2010 15:40:00 +0000

Bohat be-rabt batain hain,
Ajab shikway shikayat hain,
Na waqt sanjha hai,
NA qurbat ki talab ab hai,
Zindagi sab ki uljhi hai,
Kiun phir sirf hum ne socha hai,
Han wazan to khud he uthana hai,
So na naraz tum se hain,
Na he khud se roothay hain,
Pr kia karain bhai,
Zindagi ka waqt thora hai,
Hum isse darte hain,
Hum isse harain hain!!!
So ab se jahan b raho tum,
Jeete raho or khush raho tum,
Ab yehi soocha hai…

LONELY..

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 13:51:00 +0000

Loving the sky,
On a trip to joy,
Needs to lie,
Each day I try to,
Live and fly,
Yell and enjoy up above the sky!

…

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Thu, 28 Jan 2010 14:33:00 +0000

I lost the fear,
of losing you again,
As once was enough for me,
Of what I had,
I no longer wish to see your face,
Neither I crave for your presence,
I am brave and I can go along,
Its just something with my eyes,
They water ever since,
I pass the pathways once we shared,
Its just they have something,
That made tears from my eyes roll away..

Mumkina’at!

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Sat, 16 Jan 2010 13:47:00 +0000

Mujhe tu apni he khabr naheen ab,
So kia tum se poochon main,
Naheen andaza ab waqt ka aur,
Thakan bas humsafar si hai,
Naheen koi majbori,
Nah he ab zaroorat hai,
Safar mushkil tu hai likin,
Umeed e sehr sath leli hai,
Ab koi naheen hai saath,
Na humdard na he humraz,
Faqt main tanha hon,
Jhurmat main seyahi k,
Na jane subhu kab hogi,
Naya koi chand nikle ga,
Har ik raat akhri hai,
Umeedon ki siskiyan aur main,
Chandni sar par sai’ban ban k chahyi hai,
Abhi to mukmal zaat hai likin,
Jab tum tanha ho jao ge,
Or hum yad ayenge,
Tu ansoon ka rela bahar ayega,
Ussay tab rok lena tum,
suna hai jo bhi jata hai,
wapis phir naheen ata,
Mera jana zarori hai,
Tumhara rukna naheen mumkin!

Rukhsat!

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 15:00:00 +0000

Tmhain kis ne kaha hai ye,
K main bhool payi hon,
Ghalat fehmi hai tumhari bas.
Na koi naya rasta talasha hai,
Na koi simt teh ki hai,
Ik jag hasai pe bas ankhain bheegi hain,
Meray dil ko yad hai tum ne,
Jis lamhay tora tha, laho ka ghusl dia tha,
Han bas us din he roi thi,
Par kahan jante ho k phir main kab soi hun,
Tamsha ban gayi thi main,
Bari thi hoi jag hasai bhi,
Main ik bar phir se lauti thi,
Umeed e wafa lekar teray shehr ayi thi,
Par wahan pohnchi to khabr ye suni main ne,
Tmaharay shehr walay,
Kisi or to tum se mansoob hain kar bethay,
Na phir junbish hoi ghanton,
Na main sans le payi,
Akaili main bhara majma’n,
Kharaba dil gaya lamha,
Na phir laut payi main na ruk kabhi payi,
Jo rasta teh kia mil kar,
Ussi pe hum bechar aye,
Wo rukhsat akhri thi apni,
Teray shehr main na phir kabhi aye!!

Amid the way I met Me..

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Sat, 12 Dec 2009 19:44:00 +0000

I always wanted to be sure,
Of everything I had and everything I do,
I each time put a step forward,
I did it with passion and so much effort,
With certainty to win and no hopes to lose,
But then one day,
I felt as if my feet’s are somewhere down,
Deeper then I could imagine,
Heavy and fatigue,
I tried hard with all my strength,
But nothing helped,
And then I remember the God of mine,
HE who created me once,
With a certainty of nothing but my return,
I felt the path was easy,
Though my feet still pained,
But a wave then came,
I took away the sand and my hostage feet,
They were set free,
Nothing changed,
The sea still was calm and waves were same,
But I was different,
The belief was born-again…

Dard..

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 18:41:00 +0000

Mujhe abhi bhi dard hota hai,
Par main aj bhi isko zahir yun naheen karti,
K itnay baray jahan main sunaon kisko bhala apni,
Yahan to hal wo hai k,
Guzar jain jo chand log to afsos bhi bhari hai,
Koi mar jaye to ab giran na dil pe guzarta hai,
Na zara afsurdgi ch'hati hai,
Jahan zinda rehnay walon ko saza jeenay ki milti hai,
Or marne walon ko ,
Bhala unka kia tazkira karon main,
K wo begunah lashain kafan ko he tarasti hain,
Lahoo main doobi hoi lashain,
Wo piyaron ki ah’hain or sadain,
Main jab yeh sab sunti hon,
To ansoo poonch kar apne,
farsh se kuch bulndi par asman se zara agay,
Ik nighah e dard k hathon,
Pegham e ilteja rakh kar hawaon k naam karti hon,
K dukh unke baray honge jinke apne gaye honge,
MALIK! to unko sabr ab dena,
Or hosla bakhsh kar hisar apna zara karna,
K wo ashk ankhon main samaye,
Teri imdad k muntazir honge,
Mera kia hai?
Main aglee bar apni phir hajat minmina dongi,
Abhi unki sun le to jinhon ne lashain uthayi hain,
Lahoo main dobay piyaro'n ki qabrain banayi hain,
Aye Allah ab rehm ho in par,
Dukhon k ye satye hain…

- illusiOn~

I was depressed like every other time in start the theme was different but as I wrote it eventually turned to a different destination..

Umeed e Subh!

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 20:08:00 +0000

Abhi ye raat baqi hai,
Meri sanson main bhi rawani hai,
Magar kal jab yeh chand mujhe se mun mor kar,
Kis or dais main ja tu’lu hoga,
Main us waqt se darti hon,
Jab koi raat akhri hogi,
Libas e kafn urh kar main,
Phir nayi subh yun dekhon gi,
K kuhram e fugh’an,
mere charon tarf brpa hoa hoga,
Mera dil dob jata hai,
Bas ye anjam sooch kar he,
Kaise samna hoga kia mera muqam hoga,
Kia wo bakhshnay wala tab mehrba’n hoga,
Mera dil doob jata hai anjam e bewafai par,
Jo na dooba judai par wo khhon roota hai,
Ussay shanasai par,
Mujhe phir dar sa lagta hai,
Ankhain band karne se,
Thakan se chor hokar bhi,
Main garm bistar par narm takiye par,
Khuwabon ki chah lekar ankh band karti hon,
To anjam yad ata hai,
Wo sari ankahi batain, wo sari ghalat fehmi,
Wo jhagra wo badtameezi wo sab yad ata hai,
Mera dil kan’p jata hai,
Or wo Mehrba’n mujhko har bar maaf karta hai,
Neend ko naam wo mera ik naya pegham deta hai,
Zehn ko doob janay ka samaan deta hai,
Umeed e subh thama kar wo mujhe inaam deta hai..
- illusiOn~

Jise main chor aya tha..

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 17:27:00 +0000

Waqt ka takaza tha,
Jisse main chor aya tha,
Wo abhi tak akeli thi,
Usay to bhol jana tha or agay bharna tha,
Magar ye kia hoa k main,
Ab k jo us taraf aya Khara usko waheen paya,
Wohi be-rbtgi si thi wohi andaz thay uskay..,
Wohi tevar puranay waheen atkay se ansoo thay,
Na janay kiun aas lagay wo khari waheen thi,
Pata to usay bhi tha mujhe naheen lut kar ana,
Meri manzil to agay thi bas saath he chotna tha,
Jab main tasleem kar betha to wo kiun mehv-e-intezar thi,
Jise main chor aya tha ussi ki yeh kahani thi..

Ajeeb

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 16:55:00 +0000

Ajeeb dasht hai k ,
Zakhum alood jigar hai,
Babool jaise bana raha hai,
Nishan meri shikasta roh pe,
Main jiyon kaise,
Or maron main kiun kar?
Magar is shikasta’s roh se koi to poochay,
Koi to samjhaye,
Meri roh k zakhum hain aise,
K kar rahain hain jism ko \ghayal,
Main mar rahi hon na jee rahi hon,
Zakhum zakhum hon bas,
Lahoo lahoo hoi hun.

Restless!

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 17:10:00 +0000

Tired are my hands,
Emotionally I failed,
Its just the platinum of my courage,
On which I stand,
I wanted to be like you,
Run away from the window,
As sorrow enters from the gate,
But do you think even,
if I follow your foot prints,
Will that make me,
Happy ever after again???

- illusiOn ~

RECALL..

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 16:35:00 +0000

Being apart from each other,
It was easy yet and a convenient choice,
Made by you and approved by me,
And now we both are towards our,
Different destinations!
Its fine with me but it hurts,
When each morning I see my pillow,
Wet and stained,
I hate myself why do I miss you?
It gets worst when dawn falls,
And I go somewhere,
Where you memories lies too,
I get mad on my companion,
I wish I could be mad at you,
As when you were going,
Taking things with you,
You tooth brush, your clothes shoes and accessories,
Why you forget them,
Didn't took them with you,
The memories we shared with in past few years,
I don’t want to rewind,
Here, take these with you,
Live them and feel how it is,
When every day you get up,
With a hope that you will live again,
But with pillow that is wet and stained..

- illusiOn ~

Love, Again! ²

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 17:54:00 +0000

I met her again near the lake,
This time me sad and she felicitous,
I was burning with every breath I take,
Cigarette flames were the only light,
Silence as the only agonist among us,
Darkness was our only guide,
And then she shed the tears of love,
For one she loved and the one she had,
Her cries were loud deep in pain,
But what to do when the eyes rain,
Oh! how could I stop her and cease her pain,
As I was the reason , the hard-hearted Cain,
Should I tell her of all I faced,
I grieve on what I caused,
But my girl knows,
Things were beyond my reach,
She yelled and I heard her screaming,
I heard her and I turned,
Glared as if I heard all wrong,
How this could happen, my world seems fallen,
I felt like dying, dying all in,
I stared her face from forehead to her nose,
And her lips, yes those rose red lips,
That I once kissed,
They opened wide as if they wish to smile,
I cleared my throat and my watering eyes ,
I wiped them off as she was about to forgot,
Who I was,
I went near by with a wished to clutch her tight,
So that I could fly up light but how could I when,
’ She was in LOVE again ’!

- illusiOn ©

P.S( Its my first story in poetic way, just a try.. suggestions and corrections.. r welcum..)

‘ I ’ ..

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 15:56:00 +0000

I want to wear the dress of silence,
I want to be quite now,
As I no more can shout with a choked throat,
I seek an escape yes! I want to run,
I want to jump up and fly high,
I want to discover the world and hide,
It was never about ‘you’,
Yes! it was never about ‘us’,
All revolves around me,
It’s always about ‘I’..

Let me..

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 18:42:00 +0000

Before my sun sets
let me dream
let me Muller my begrudge gleams
I want to run I want to rush
Before death makes me deem
As absence of hope
can stop my streams
But reams assures me
Wishes with hopes rapped in prayers
Can never be ceased..

-illusiOn~

"Love, again!"

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 16:14:00 +0000

I saw her down the valley,
Again, near the lake side; looking so lonely,
Cigarette burning between two fingers,
She looked dazed from crashed memories,
Quiet but awake,
Serene but crashed,
Soft but mistrusted,
Strong she looked yet weak too,
Lost beyond disturbance,
I could feel it always and she could see it never,
Her glittering eyes were deep in pain,
Busy, she was; in collecting her memories, her treasure,
Drowned in her dreams,
Shattered dreams that were dashed into pointed pieces,
Shards that wounded her hands while they gathered,
I could see blood, wounds and tears,
Glimpses of invisible shearing pain she felt,
I want her to be happy again,
I hope she finds love again,
But my desires and hopes have different paths to lead,
I take my eyes off her,
And leave her down the valley,
To let her stand on her feet again,
And she will be in love again!

-illsuiOn~

My li'l Heart !

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 10:23:00 +0000

My little heart is afraid,
As it knows, soon I will hear your name with someone,
Someone but not me,
Peevish I get with a helpless heart,
I dont want to show, I dont want to care,
But listening to this I feel so dead,
I dont want you to be with anyone,
Dont ask me why? As I dont have any reason,
I Say I dont love you and I believ I dont,
Then why I feel you always around,
Words.. they are not rhyming,
But they might tell you!
What is going on in me,
As you all I can think off,
Yes I am get envious with even a though of your share,
And you have been knowing it ever since it was there,
Can you forgive, Can you be back?
Do you love me, Please nod your head in YES !
Just come back once , and I will never let you go again,
Come back and I will tell,
How hard its for me to hurt you as its like I hurt myself,
Shattered I am in trying to avoid you,
Tell me, what you do to me?
Why I cant forget you?
Just come back once , and I will never let you go again,
Come back and I will tell you,
How much I love you !!

-illusiOn~

Violent Thoughts..

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Wed, 27 May 2009 16:50:00 +0000

Immense thoughts of mine,
Led me towards the pain,,
The suffering of unviolent loss,
Captures me and my heart,
Heals me with a great gain of loss,
The gain of loss plunders me,
And my heart aches
Aches as the dusk falls to the dawn and,
Dawn falls to dusk,
It aches as if nothing is left but wounds,
Thousands of miles away you are,
Nor can i shout, nor can you hear,
So my wordless thoughts,
End on my silent grave!

A Dark Silent Grave..

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Sun, 24 May 2009 16:51:00 +0000

A DARK SILENT GRAVE...

A turning point came in my life,

Dark, very dark and so very quiet,
As if nobody could hear me,
Restless and keen I was, to,
Know what's wrong, why I was,

Surrounded with infinite silence,
I wanted to scream but my voice was choked,
Languid I was, with no hope,
Escape I wanted but had no hope,
Not now, not again,
Tired and fatigued, but couldn't move on,

Groan in agony, as emotions melt from my heart
Result was in tears, leaving my eyes,
Although I loved silence,
Voices but I now wanted for sure,
Eager, bolstering words from my loved ones

-illusiOn~

P.S( Maverick thank you so much for help and you know what i wrote it keeping you in mind, imagining you and myself off course)
P.S.S( Its dedicate to me and maverick exclusively) heheh

My Love!

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Mon, 04 May 2009 17:00:00 +0000

MY LOVE!

My love if its not you but her,
If she is my love,
Whose right now is in my arms
Then why when i close my eyes
I see your image
Why I always try to find you in her
Why her touch doesn't possess the magic
That yours weilded,
Why your touch always ensnared my heart
And hers makes no difference,
Why her closeness doesnt make my heart flutter,
Why eyes of mine search you even when she is around
My love, if its her, why do I then look for you,
And if she is not and you are the one,
So baby just tell me
Why I let you go
My love if its you but not her!

-illlusiOn~

P.S( I dont know why i wrote it.. but yes i wrote it for Tainted Love up coming blogisode.. )

I will leave you here and will die soon!

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Mon, 04 May 2009 11:29:00 +0000

I will leave you here and will die soon!

Since I met you my love,
I dont know and dont even want to know,
Oh! what you do to me,
You are so much to me, more then anything,
Without you I was like a thirsty desert,
Waiting for rain which can quench the thirst,
Before you - 'My blessing' arrived, I was like
A kid who stands facing the sky in a fair, lost and alone
But as I met you I felt,
On top of the world
Yet alone, but filled with your love
I dont know what you do to me
They all say, I am in love
My world is complete with you as my soul,
But as an angel, my love for you gets stronger,
A fear clinches my heart, fear of being apart
No.....am not leaving you
How can I!!!
But what if my life loses and death wins
Then my love
I would have to...go...with no choice at all,
I will leave you here and will die soon..

-illusiOn~

P.S( This is for my dady.. I love you dad soooo much..)

Still You Wonder Where Is My Pride !!

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Wed, 29 Apr 2009 14:04:00 +0000

Still You Wonder Where Is My Pride !

My hands are fatigued,
And my energy is missing,
My world is desolate,
Flow of emotions I cannot relate,

Still You Wonder Where Is My Pride !

I am tired of these emotions,
This crowd on exit gate of my heart,
As only few wants to enter,
And so many are there to leave,

Still You Wonder Where Is My Pride !

Spells are not working and so is your love,
My heart is sinking and tongue hushed up,
I chose though words btu they are not framing,
You may laugh as you have no idea of percieve,

Still You Wonder Where Is My Pride !

-illusiOn~

Ik Shikayat~

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 15:05:00 +0000

Ik Shikayat~

Meri awargi ko ab to samjho,
K tumhari khatir hai main ne urha,
Ye libada khud pe,
K shayed samjh tm pao,
Dil ye mera jala hai kitna,
Hawadis zamana beganay shanasa,
Na purkhulus lehja na shafqat bhara koi chehra,
Dar hai main melay main ab kho na jaon,
Mjhe tm akay toko ab bhar k zara mjh ko roko,
K maa main tot sa raha hon ab,
Bekhar na jaon,
Na hojaon kaheen reza reza,
Meri bataon ko maslon ko samjho zara tm,
Maa! Mjhe tham lo tm!
Main hon tota bohat mjhe jor do tm,
Magar tm sunti naheen ho,
koi ik sada Koi shikwa zara,
Or jo sunti ho to behla mjhe deti ho ab bhi,
Majbor zamanay se gar tm bhi hojao gi,
Mjhe na aghosh main apni chupao gi,
Main sambhlon ga kaise,
Main uthonga kiun,
Maa! Tm na himat jo meri bandhao gi.

-illusiOn~

Just For Her !

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Thu, 23 Apr 2009 18:09:00 +0000

JUST FOR HER !

She was silent,
Silent as if she holds no words with in her,
Imbue in her own pain deep in her thoughts,
Nothing was wrong,
And so nothing was right,
Affably lovely and gorgeous,
She was all for me,
But oblivion I was for her,
I wanted to lag her heart,
And replace it with mine,
If only I could ever get a chance,
Embleming her with me was not only my passion,
But my dream my love for her,
Oh ! Yes but I was wrong,
I never wanted to ail her but i did,
And I was aidos on it,
I loved her and,
I wanted her as she was everything to me,
And I was noone but a zilch for her,
Nothing, nothing at all matters to me,
But just my love,
Love of mine, love for her.

-illusiOn~

Kiun Jagti Rehti Ho...

noreply@blogger.com (I Zaydi) — Thu, 23 Apr 2009 17:44:00 +0000

Kiun jagti rehti ho,
So kiun naheen jateen,
Yun jagtay rehnay se,
Kia naseeb ka taluq,
Kiun tumhain ye lagta hai,
K ye rat jagay rang lain ge,
Naseeb inkay khil jain ge,
Raj kumar aa kar ke,
Betiyaan le jain ge,
Aisa kab ho hai jo,
Aas main tum yun bethi ho,
So kiun naheen jateen?
Jagti kiun rehti ho,
Dil tumhara maa ka hai,
Mantay ye hum bhi hain,
Fikr tm ko ziyada hai,
Jantay ye hum bhi hain,
Par ye naseebon k khail hain,
So itminan rakho tum,
Ik din hojai gi,
Betiyon ki shaadi bhi,
Par istarhan mat rutho tum,
Zaat se oper walay ki,
K wo palnay wala hai,
Kuch behtar karega wo,
Sab ka khayal rakhta hai,
Ab kiun istarhan se bethi ho,
Kiun jagti rehti ho,
So kiun naheen jateen!

-illusiOn~

P.S( for all mothers..)