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time to return.

Wed, 11 May 2011 17:43:10 -0700

12/5/2011

time to return.^Its a cloudy morning after a sallow rain last night. i caught the breakfast which is rich. now i felt had to write something to make this blog complete. the sick office i intended to ditch still let me ill for the sinful souls in it any time desperately challenge me, like China surveillance exerts all over scan and constrain over me. life on this scarred continent dominated by dog, including machine dog. but, after all, God, don't u see my life beaming so bright, my level of satisfaction ever increasing in ur blisses? God, last night u touched me with girl's love, i do missing my girls even urgent. in this rained air from 4th floor, God, i entreat ur bringing me my new family with my girls sooner. that's my beautiful hope in this lovable wet morning.

11/5/2011

a busy month puffing for online stuff.^this month i almost absent from my blog sphere. the reason is that i picked up my old hobby, collecting free stuff from web, esp. the shared, for i valued them high and no cause not to harvest while they still available in the spirit of freedom or pirate. everyday ends in elation with what heaps on my hard disk, for they mean happy time, no matter games or readings, under attraction of freedom world, esp from US. its really like a weightless dive, in God's shine.
last night i slept later, reviewing my chat below, God brings me insight in tangles among folks in my past dad's hometown village, Zhudajiu, mostly from a same ancestor, but devils among them drove the lost trying to challenge and defame my old family which so brilliant in its short earthly presence before i witness it vivid. i saw hostile so strong even generations unable shift the acid jealousy. God, u see the strong baring from the stem of Royal of China, and the even boarder world stage for my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, future world leader every blessed sees. God, road toward glory unbiased straight for my family since my past dad, God in Heaven now. God, in this raining night, i see all bliss since my childhood, i witness the most scenery in the world my dad unveiled to me, in the mountain and its valley. God, the doomed against my Empire of China now even losing, harsher tools from the stolen state power barking desperate, God, u save and only ur word persist in one that untouchable. God, thank the month and today, thank the rain and thunders outside in this darker prelude of summer night.

10/5/2011

a chat online via qq with hometown folk, a childhood friend.^ [ 2011-05-10 ]
benzrad朱子卓 16:13:31
真不容易见到你。生意怎样，生活顺心吗？
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benzrad朱子卓 16:16:00
我的生活还不错，跟我儿子朱楚甲玩电脑游戏给我挺多乐趣。就是工资低，因为自从2006跟单位弄僵后没有具体工作，爱干啥干啥。现在盼着有结余坐飞机去看老家亲人。
朱才魁 16:16:01
您好，我现在有事不在，一会再和您联系。
朱才魁 16:50:36
我去年过年在家里过的
朱才魁 16:51:00
一家人都回去了
benzrad朱子卓 16:51:14
恭喜。我老家就两个姐姐我觉得亲一些。
benzrad朱子卓 16:52:15
你三弟现在靠谱一些不？前年在朱大九见到他儿子。
朱才魁 16:53:34
还不是长不大，现在两个儿子了，还不是我父母来管
benzrad朱子卓 16:54:06
真的很难跟他小时候的可爱和你说的现在的样子联系起来。不过，谁也不能看准谁的命运。
benzrad朱子卓 16:54:59
你父母那样不对吧，应该让他自己承担责任，否则总是没有机会看清他自己的处境。
benzrad朱子卓 16:55:39
有很多事得自己来，别人越帮越乱。
benzrad朱子卓 16:55:53
你几个孩子？
朱才魁 16:56:16
现在想想也是我父母管教子女的方法不对，生的子女都是没用的
朱才魁 16:56:57
我还能有几个，一个儿子跟你一样
benzrad朱子卓 16:57:52
不要悲观，人多数看不准的，命运能让劣势变成优势。真的。
朱才魁 16:58:58
也没有呀，现在都是靠自己，过得也不错呀
benzrad朱子卓 16:59:12
你三弟不喜欢家庭和孩子也可能他的锐气太重，那也可能是好事。一句话，凡事别太用定势去看，因为人实在太弱小。
benzrad朱子卓 16:59:56
那就好。快乐最好，千金难买。
benzrad朱子卓 17:00:37
下班了，你在店门面吗？
朱才魁 17:01:38
那个我是这样想的，人一辈子，年轻没受过苦，到长大总得吃苦头
朱才魁 17:01:57
现在是在家里的
朱才魁 17:02:07
店没做了
benzrad朱子卓 17:04:54
那现在怎么谋生？人命好我觉得不用你说的那些繁复。报应的看法很必然导致佛教。我觉得佛教是误人子弟，坑害中国人几千年。
benzrad朱子卓 17:06:15
世界的模式很可能不是像佛教的零和和孤寂。我这么想。
朱才魁 17:06:52
现在还是做生意呀
benzrad朱子卓 17:08:12
基督教教人相信万能的独神，这个信仰就能改变世界，即使极端的不自由也不能缚绊那个大自由。
朱才魁 17:09:38
人年轻的时候父母宠爱没吃过苦，长大了，父母帮不了，自己吃苦是必然的，这不是什么教，这是经验呀
benzrad朱子卓 17:09:54
不辩论了。
朱才魁 17:11:08
那也是没办法之后的办法了，人活着总得生活
benzrad朱子卓 17:11:16
我爸从不让我尝尝他的工作的苦，所以我今天的世界比他的更好。父母的爱能这样提高孩子。
朱才魁 17:14:06
父母不能溺爱子女，小时候让孩子吃点苦，子女大了，才能更好的应对生活呀
benzrad朱子卓 17:17:19
真心的爱，包括父母的真爱，是不会不想到孩子大的一天，独立的一天，自私的爱才是窒息人的。你的父母可能原本就是有不对的，在他们对你的三弟的态度里，所以你三弟这么逆。你怎么不相信世界上的事都是一个巴掌拍不响呢？！
朱才魁 17:19:23
这不是每个做家长的都能做的好的，要不怎么说是溺爱呢
benzrad朱子卓 17:21:10
你对。
朱才魁 17:23:37
我这是自身体会呀，现在走到这一步，真的吃了蛮多亏的
benzrad朱子卓 17:28:34
要用感灵的话说，你的生活多少都是你期待或接受的，人生每一步都有选择，如果你觉得世界在你的生活中提供选项太少，那很可能是你还未开化，你的世界原本就是黑暗的。看见恩典，就看见了光明，看见了自由（选项）。
朱才魁 17:30:39
你这又是那来的大道理，我看不大懂
benzrad朱子卓 17:34:05
我去吃饭了，再聊。祝你生活更开心和满意。
朱才魁 17:35:14
好的，
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:12:13
我觉得我刚才的发言不错，想留到我博客里给我儿子将来看，我把你的名改成“朱才魁”，行不？不是单独作为一个博客日记发表，而是作为一周的日记里的一天，跟其他几个工作日的日记一起发布，行不？盼你回复。我的博客：http://riveryog.blog.163.com
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:12:49
我不会那些东东
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:14:44
你爱咋弄随你
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:28
你不用管，真名隐去，就是在对话中显示我的思路。看起来就是这样：
太长聊天窗口发不过去，你放心就是。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:48
我写博客4-5年了，
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:58
就是自己的生活和想法。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:16:51
就是从聊天记录里拷贝下来。你看聊天记录，就是这样。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:16:57
谢谢你放心。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:18:50
西方叫信神的“spiritual”，中文叫灵修。就是有心人观察到人人心灵互动，世界大有逻辑。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:19:51
你的话真是多哦
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:20:33
我在得精神病后，放弃了强要，就开始观察到神的存在。然后读一些书。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:22:28
书也不能当饭吃呀，也试着做点什么赚点钱呀
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:22:43
每个人的道路都是有缘的，都是神的安排。我从来觉得自己不差，所以亲神是必然归宿。当然，我的父亲给我巨大的指引。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:24:00
你难道不知道你的道路是不用求的吗？我现在很好，为什么要去争庸人的东西？
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:25:32
金钱不是万能的，没有金钱是万万不能的呀
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:25:53
你要是感恩，你就不这么苦痛你过去吃过的所谓的亏。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:28:02
我吃亏是指我生活的态度，不是钱的错
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:29:11
富裕没有极限，我现在觉得我的生活里的东西够用，就是我上面说的恩典，我相信这是神的安排，我为什么要去做神不让我做的东西，比如张皇或抱怨？感恩就是富足。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:30:45
你说的也是，知足常乐，也不用为钱苦恼
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:33:32
难道钱多就能买来一切吗？比如纯真，或执信？人没法返回到童年，钱也没法洗赎不公正。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:34:03
今天我是话多。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:36:31
唉，有钱我就不会让父母受那么多的苦了
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:38:09
有可能你父母一直预料着他们的今天。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:39:41
你现在开始不指责或耽心你家里的亲属，他们可能就真的慢慢不用你了。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:40:38
你不记得你爷爷吗？他抱怨他的生活吗？我记得他很少担忧。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:41:20
很有可以你父母心理不成熟。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:43:58
成年人过分姿态僵硬，不通融，可能就是不成熟。毕竟世上人没有太对的。尊重年轻人和新社会就是睿智。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:46:08
你家可能太在意经济上出人头地。老是耽心落困就可能招来贫困。我觉得真有信心的人总是会看着机会和繁荣。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:47:34
佛教是最典型的看空的信仰，结果真的使中国一步比一步羸弱和破败。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:50:01
这话智者说过很多遍：你想什么你就是什么。现实就是你的视野和天空。注意：一般人会说你的视野就是你的现实。

7/5/2011

benzrad's comment/tweet in days.

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：

no doubt it did so long.

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riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：for the sins in PRC, and most of the survivor&their offspring after civil war as well as sino-Japan war half century ago.

||@杀出个黎明: 转发微博。R罗克：一位英国网友说，他真的不理解中国人，国家级媒体隔三差五就爆出食品安全问题，没有一位高官下台，而且中国人还如此镇定。要是在英国，管食品安全的部长早就主动提职了，首相都会面临弹劾。2011-04-18 17:01 来自网易微博

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：wonderful! glory to American people once and forever!

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riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：God, grant me an improved workplace. save my energy from trifle violence ambushed by enemies of my Empire of China. 2011-05-03 08:58 来自网易微博

From Spring 2011 in a nut

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bright days, new life pending.

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 22:14:44 -0800

these days mostly sunny days, with warm air and enlightening sun ray. this week i enjoyed my working space a lot: with twitter updates in view, and instant message of most accounts ready at fingertip. what's most exciting, i got google voice for 3 family google accounts, in the cheat of American user. even now i don't have a single friend outside of inland, i still felt quite contented with the powerful tool google offers. i in view the day China united with the freedom world in borderless clearly. i envision China can be a interesting and respectable partner of the fruitful Christian culture.

also we got quite some social sites interwoven. i finished the needed authentication to let post to my facebook, twitter via 3rd part tools, like seesmic or brizzly, both too nice to miss. i see its quite right to make full use of this kind of posting against spying eye from day to day harsh China surveillance. the world of cyberspace merging into coherence while China authority tries all its means to separate China from the world democracy, Chinese to global citizen.

this week we less gamed, for after experience so many breathtaking large games, baby son and me both loathed to try less interesting games, or small games. but a recent release, "De blob", attracted him 2 nights. he gamed it alone. we also picked his favorite game, "Cloudy with a Chance of Meat Balls", we made progress in once dead lock in another large game.

its a peaceful warm winter afternoon now. i didn't saw the tall girl in QRRS for 2 days, in the rush time of QRRS, my once and long time employer, a state-owned enterprise. last time when i shown my salute from my office window, she abrupt cut way to the other side of the road just under my window with her female companion. i see its a signal of her loath of waiting and being watched. the coming 2 days i busy in office, missing the rush time people's flow outside of the lane. i really don't intend to do anything, i trust God to bring me my beloved. and by the way, now i want to attend my baby till he grows 8 years on the earth. on the other side, i would never miss a chance to live in the harmony with my girl, in warmth of new life.

its work time now. dogs around biting heavily as usual. the day before yesterday i decided to give up the inspire upon a cute girl in the community of 139.com, a affiliate of the monopoly of Chinamobile. i got holy message that the name is complicated for me, for my longing for sanity and dewy, longing of pure girl. i see ever brighter future of my love.

bye for now, all my beloved. i pray u r in right mood and feeling love of the blessed, love of peace. winter coming, chill gathering, but lasting is the saint and pure light heart.

the road every day baby son, warren zhu, took the bus to his kindergarten. the far end is railway telcom.

the best beloved, warren zhu, hope of China and God of universe, in fighting game, in his mom's house, with his new pants.

sunset, tower, and ravens' gathering in early winter in Qiqhar.

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new moon appears early in early winter dusk.

baby son, warren zhu, hope of China, in his fighting game, with his favorite new pants.

more of scene of early winter in Qiqihar, northeastern China:

golden Autumn in light show.

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 00:23:51 -0700

these weeks a bit busy, for the freedom world offers so many invalueable stuff. in these weeks, my family sites continued to expand, now including delicious accounts, which now support yahoo account's automaitcally login; tumblr blogs, which so powerful while so fit; seesmic, a twitter client can help me bypass the deadly blocking of twitter from China surveillance; and tweet.im, an autoposting service binding with gtalk account. i also seeing family site expanding within demestically, including 139.com, an affiliate of the monoply company, China mobile, and dii.cn, a twitter clone with neat interface. since yesterday, i felt i should preserve family 2 new namespace, riveryog for me and warozhu for baby son, warren zhu, Hope of China and God of universe, with facebook, the best and largest social network. China surveillance likely blocking facebook's sms service within its sovereign, for i tried several mobiles, none can receive facebook's verifying code in sms. i tried to reach out a Taiwanese among my google contacts, but his mobile also can't receive my facebook's verifying code.

these weeks mostly sunny days. with God's beam, i like to fly at will. China surveillance blocking more and more famous sites, including google sites, goole apps, tumblr, hellotxt, posterous, and yahoo meme, but i was never daunted, each time i lose an open voice channel, i would try to compensate with new reach out to more brilliant western world sites. God's message never fade, or wind-gone, but populate springly. i enjoy seeing my future people voice here now, a missing treat for my loneliness i suffered so far in this eccentric corner of northeastern China. i enjoy the virtual team in God's shine, upon every directions of the globle.

its also mostly lightened days, with so many games. baby son made every free moment gamed on my new notebook with my companion, imersing in games like "frontline" or "call of duty". play games is my long time dream, esp. when i saw quite less informed persons also enjoy themselves a lot in games, esp. first person shotting. i always love to see the advanced applications of artifical intelligence, or complicate interactive between human and robot or machine system, like games. but previously i always engaged in stuff more concrete, like download, resource management, site building, learning, etc. but baby's invitation these days drew me into hot games so deep and so imersing, that i really felt the world of colorful and possible.

its a bright moment now, seeing sunshine over the trees parrel to office window. dog on facing desk biting heavily, as usual, and the dead roaming in the corridor. i enjoyed so many golden moments in my life. last night, i asked baby son to sleep alone me, he did after some time of play. in mid night, all of us, including his mother, emakingir, woke up, in God's set, to celebrate the love and glory. i just dreamed of a lonely pilot, who fight persistantly. God shown me what's manly and what's the ultimate hardness and grace a blessed can be. i again, after many times seen before in the end of holy dreams, the mightiest God, and the non-impossible.

yes, gays and dogs biting now around. killing them just a matter of seconds. i see my second wife, Masheng, from Japan, changed this morning my bank deposit book into a deposit card, i saw the wells of my family never plentier and stronger.

at noon i again saw the tall girl in QRRS, walking passed my office window. i sticked my head outside of the window, likely she noticed me. she is tall and fit, i hope God don't train more me harsh and coarse with loneliness and ever harder hopes in perished.

Ok, now, Omen, God, save my Empire, bring me my beloved.

benzrad, me, proud dad, holding baby son, warren zhu, hope of China, for a shot by emakingir.

a corner view of south park, near emakingir's house. baby playing his scooter with his mom's companion.

bright beaming: baby son, warren zhu, in a lol.

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wrest with China surveillance.

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 21:03:37 -0700

its now golden season here in northeastern China. bright sunshine in most days, and warm&crisp air conveys the golden bliss. i enjoyed pc games more and more with baby son, who rightly a savvy gamer, and insatiable entertainment sitter. every night when i lay down on bed alone him and his mother, i just feel too precious a day it was. i hold his bear and smooth foot, and amazed by God's glory.

but now all things so bright. the China authority resolved to challenge the common sense. quite some lames supposed the tighten surveillance will loose after the special period of National Day march, but it was not the case in this year and this time. the loser broke the mind, doomed to farewell to its once appealing, doomed to separate China with the world, peaceful people with the docile. the Internet censorship turning more and more harsh and smooth most free mind and good wishes Chinese hold so far under the faked forged socialism.

these days my pc os was hacked, or my web traffic under arbitral filtering. my web traffic never overlap 90KB/s, since yesterday the grandma clean the house and i also at the moment refurnish my os with common software's update. in last 2 days i tried lots of way to make clear what's wrong with the lagging and sometimes unstable Internet traffic. but most of my works led lighter to the endeavor of hidden dark hand over my os and my account or audit or filter in my Internet ISP's router or network hardware. net neutral, a purpose pushing in US, a far cry and forever utopia for Chinese in Socialism dome, just like its doctorate died decades among the bloody red starred geopolitics. but i know world aligns to change, including the dying China mainland, as God promised me, as the Empire in my title and host from hundred years ago from my glorious ancestor. China determined to change, since the history of the world. the dying sin let to supervise the scary land in these years, was ordered to leave now. a brighter sky encompassing the land emerging from the dim and dark.

OK, its sunny now outside of my office. i was the blessed to own the vast land, China. i was testified to claim here again, as the theft of state nowadays frequent deaf due to their greediness.

From Baby Son Bathed In Late Autumn Halo

baby bathed at home in warm late Autumn

From Baby Son Bathed In Late Autumn Halo

baby watching his mom gaming and enjoy team gaming.

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Temporary while forever lasting pleasure of now

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 20:19:07 -0700

the vacation of China National Day and lunar Mid-Autumn Day, almost passed. baby son, warren zhu, and me, benzrad, enjoyed larger and newer games which can drive my new acer AS 4736G to its full load, beyond wilderness. i also made good use of time when i was left with baby alone when his mom attending her school, to let baby son know more God and the mission of our Royal of China. i also condemned his mother and her family a lot. also a lot of time wasted attending games' download, which very lagging. we just found the beauty of larger pc games, like "Frontline: fuel of war" and "call of duty: modern warfare", both larger than 4 GB, which cost me for 2 and more days to download from p2p. i tried "Frontline" with baby son, who also been attracted at once, but later baby son ditched me and follow his visiting uncle's playing with it, for the uncle more a veteran on games. he was asked to come over to break my intimate time with baby by baby's mother, who likely felt my talk and my critics with baby upon her when she absent.

these days in vacation really sometimes ignite my sex desire. i longing for my girls a lot. but i sure seeing God consoles me with our promised gathering with all my beloved in coming months. i saw God let me endure to lighten the coming elation of new life. i promise all my girls of my full heart, with full fruitful.

its a gloomy morning. i don't fear the spying eyes from China surveillance. i saw budding like spring rains, weak but insistent. i saw blessing of God like warmest and brightest sunshine, killing and healing. i saw my promised love like rains rampant and torrential.

From baby son, warrenzh's works

baby's work.

From My second notebook, an Acer AS4736G

my second notebook, her membership of my family since Aug 28th, 2009.

an early full moon near lunar Mid-Autumn Day.

new life in anticipation

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 01:02:41 -0700

From Family&folks âˆ‘ hometown journey

benzrad, me, in hometown journey, on front yard of his passed dad's house.

family entertained in a nearby river soon after reunited.

baby bathed in warm Autumn dusk.

baby son bathed in warm Autumn dusk from be21zh on Vimeo.

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From life as it extends

3 days before the day i left my hometown, village Zhudajiu, where i lingered for 3 months,and lives here my baby's mother's home for 3 months. life quite regular between my office and baby's mother,emakingir's house. i routinely stay in office for 5 hours, from 8:30am to 2:30 pm. in office i rip off Internet access and had to find other things to kill time. first i used roommate's Internet access when he absent, but the demon with a born spying eye trying to bargain with me payment for the usage, so i now totally stay in office offline. mostly i can immersed in reading ebook, esp. biographies of scientists, or sorting my hard disk, enjoy the plenty of warez and ebooks got from web.anyone really love the web can't praise the boundlessness of evaluable resources, most of them can gain by download. that lesson exactly the American people, who enjoy booming of information explosion since the descending of Internet, teaches me, and leads me to deep faith in God's saint and meaningful.i learn God from US people and their well beings.

since the first day i rejoin the office life, i remind myself being idle in office can be a beneficial experience for my mission, for the road of God over China needs time to clear unclear and bias. and according to most Chinese living standard i shouldn't rely on the speediness and expedience of Internet on finger tip. and my threat to the China authority nowadays can't be hidden by the peace so far i enjoyed. so i decided to enjoy leisure of mind as well as bodily in office where most staff wasting the resourceful Internet, doing board games, reading novels, watching movies, or even fed up by turning away, all this kind of simpler and boring activities. i know a far larger and firmer world beyond the constrain i was set in this eccentric city of northeastern China i grew 19 years just to overcome it to see through all China territory and beyond the Pacific ocean. i know God let me stand firmly on my own feet, after pains and endurance of empty brain and tastelessness.

Its a sunny day, even sometimes flow over some clouds.last night it drizzled, after the bright sunset of yesterday. I felt surely i was baptized when i got up earlier and launched to setup auto posting on some sites of mine, after one of my account reported compromised.China surveillance capture my web traffic with a spying eye on my web confidential not for moments, but for years without break.i trust my words to God, just likes my mission here in the barren and scurry land since the fell of Ming Dynasty, whose Emperor bred me and my Royal of China again in progress.

this moment i saw the still green and yellow leaves of trees outside of my office. a even brighter future for China in my view. i belongs to God, my dad, and lives long, manly and energetic as the Son, source of saviour for livings on the earth. China lives, and only lives in God's bless, no other way to save itself. and a more cohesive world lives in love, brotherhood, and most of all, faith in God one.

OK, i bid a lot here about the right path. i praying every moment for my new life with my fiancees, my source of young, passion of life. i praying for gathering with my beloved, Masheng, Zhou, Taiwan girl, Lü, Jiangyue. i pray for my wedding with my girls, and my first house of my own, with my bride or brides. i deserved a new life now, with my tenderest.

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baby bathed in warm Autumn dusk

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 16:52:47 -0700

Posted by benzrad zhu to benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly...

baby son bathed in warm Autumn dusk from be21zh on Vimeo.

baby just haunted outside with his grandma, while i busy with posting his recent paintings, as well as my recent photos.then his mother bathed him even there is a boy student receiving ema's tutorial here. i dislike ema don't pay attention to privacy but God shows me it doesn't matter.its a warm Autumn dusk, bright and dry sunshine through the window of our balcony cast a loveable and moving family peace in the house.

Ps: i also just got showered in public bathroom. a nice weekend.

visit this album on google picasaweb .

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road toward peace&grace

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 00:47:11 -0700

Posted by benzrad zhu to benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly...

2 months passed since my return from my hometown, Zhudajiu, Central China. i quite enjoyed the peace in office, even the place rampant abnormal persons, esp. dogs on desk facing&backing me.God just shown me i can't rest on harmony.i saw my works here preparing baby more enjoyable pc games rewarding.baby grows so smart that my only complain is that i too cozy to blog about my mission here on the earth.recently i just finished reading to Nash's biography.that remind me of baby can be idle in the infinite possibilities of his road on this planet. however, God let me more and more at sure that his arrangement the best arrangement.Sigh! God, i really enjoy my life!

It has been a series of bright sunny days, since the night i told baby his mission and the history of world as well as of China.it then lately in night, i summon my speech with this closure: the world to come surely under changing, its ur task to make the different. next morning it drizzled, so auspicious! i read in office, and left office earlier with a box of bottle water from the highest mountains in southwestern China, Tibet, dispatched by my once and long time employer, a state-owned enterprise. in the later afternoon after i read some time at home, it started to turn into brilliant sunshine.

so many moving moment in my life and my talk with God, with my second wife, Masheng, from Japan. i never be surer at this moment that me is the best blessed, and my life is the most glorious on the earth.

Ok, time to bit farewell now. i love my girls in praying for our gathering. i love my world to emerging.

visit this album at google picasaweb .

life on watching, love brewing.

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 10:58:00 -0700

these days baby played less games on pc, but watching more animation online, and tv show. he asked me to find more games takes the formula of quiz show. i tried but harvest less.

yesterday baby insisted i watching a piece of animation, in which a robot of a little boy offered him a robot lover, for he had problem to attract real world girl friend. i sensed evils around troubled my baby with abnormal love or passions. i myself also troubled by hard core gays in office.God, my dearest dad, once shown me when i was a collegian what a normal same sex friend looks like, and this time is time for me to show my baby what's genius friendship differs from twist emotion. i told baby what's my view on gay and lesbian, what's love of God, which is the most selfless love and never expels the most pour love between lovers or spouse. ema attended aside but don't prevent my preach, but left earlier. i know its hard for human not to mess up when 2 same sex persons live closely attached, even like dad&son, for men lives to be the only and independent, but i trust God no problem not to blur his only Mightiest and most Sainted when i can do something aside baby son when he needs cares and attendance for his childhood. i trust God no problem that i can live with my baby as long as i need, and when the trinity asks.

its a bright afternoon now. yesterday the 2 gays facing&backing my desk conspired and operated behind me when i reading on my notebook, to hurt my neck. my neck since then painful till last night sleep heels. i again exhausted last night and even this morning i felt too sleepy to leave ema's house. i dozed till 10 pm to get up. the grandma came over and brought baby outside. baby these days more or less infected by evil spying eyes upon abnormal passionate or love, that resulted in my spending more time to heal baby's being stained and divined him again.

its really a nice moment now. i just installed new games got in the morning on our legend pc for baby uses, and updated our google picasa web album with new shots i made recently. dog in China surveillance blocked quite some google's service, like youtube, picasaweb, but they only let domestic access to my picasaweb album problematically, but don't intimidate me not to try ways to update my account there. here is the proof.

Ok, my dearest girls, here i will retreat to silence again. my restless craving for u never cease or fade. hold me tighter, baby, not let time wash out our love. hold my love in real and walk toward our ever brighter grand gathering. we had a long time to live together, under one roof and in one family.

God bless us. took it sincerely.

cloudy sky over the city of Qiqihar.

cranes and trees in baby's mother's house's backyard.

forest in south park near ema's house.

sun ray among clouds.

baby son, warren zhu, with his new school bag.

a swallow rests on the rim of my office window.

http://edongwanbao.blog.sohu.com/

a chat between benzrad, me, and my senior middle school alumni, also some middle class in my hometown, central China.

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 01:07:00 -0700

校友群 2009-08-18 16:37:15

张和协，你再贴我的条，我就把你买来打折处理

校友群 2009-08-18 16:54:04

呵呵，他贴你么事条呀

校友群 2009-08-18 17:08:45

QQ抢车位

校友群 2009-08-18 17:12:02

校友群 2009-08-18 17:12:21

看看黄冈市法院是多么黑

王飞舟(410230117) 2009-08-18 17:12:59

那是你们政府的事，与我们无关，敬告：勿谈国事

校友群 2009-08-18 17:57:29

一杯可乐两元钱，肯德基里卖六元
一个土豆砌成条，做成薯条又七元
两块面包一块肉，夹成汉堡卖几元？
外商赚钱不算少，地震捐款捐多少？
不捐难赚中国钱，磨磨噌蹭捐一点。
哪有民族企业猛，患难之下见分晓
不见经传王老吉，一捐就捐一个亿
奇瑞一辆三万块，捐款一千六百万
本田年销千万辆，捐款才捐二十万
兄弟姐妹醒一醒，一脉相连血肉情
食品饮料日用品，国产不比洋货差
中华儿女一家人，民族振兴靠国人
各位朋友转一转，莫枉做个中国人
如果你是中国人，请转发你所有的中国群
法国宣布，禁止进口中国产的花生米，椅子和鞋类。
法网民煽动抵制中国货，称中国损失远超法国
法国网民已经开始有动作了
美国网民已经抵制中国了
日本也停止进口中国产品了
中国网民那么多，天天等着外国主动抵制我们而我们袖手旁观吗？
我们还等什么？
我们中国

校友群 2009-08-18 17:57:29

网民还能做什么？动动鼠标难道比法国人反抗中国难吗？
网民你还等什么？
难道还要等到像日本占领东三省一样？？
同胞们，行动，发动你身边的每一个人，
这次可是动真格的了，是中国人的就转

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:05:13

老王还信这些?wto,贸易自由化白进了.小家子气那么重干啥?

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:08:32

东三省经历日本统治,难道真的那么糟糕吗?gcd的炮火还不止那里来的.台湾的"海角七号"可以看出生活在不同的统治者下的连续.

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:10:16

中国制造轰轰烈烈这么多年,不是美国消费者买单,中国还不知道落后几重天.

叶子惠(468237768) 2009-08-18 18:11:46

八戒你去国外比较合适哎

校友群 2009-08-18 18:12:02

悲哀，我们遇到大师了

叶子惠(468237768) 2009-08-18 18:12:19

王可宇呵呵可好？

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:11:04

中国何能何德几十年内飞速发展?最关键的技术积累哪里来的?

校友群 2009-08-18 18:12:40

你怎么长大的？

叶子惠(46827768) 2009-08-18 18:12:43

我都感觉八戒怎么像是被洗脑了

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:12:41

我就知道明朝的中国领先世界几十年也没弄出个响来,你今天的网络或手机,全球神经,那里来的

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:14:03

君子喻于义,小人喻于利.

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:14:43

中国人动不动摆牛逼,只能自挖墙角

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:15:46

一句话,有本事再改革开放回去.

叶子惠(468921768) 2009-08-18 18:18:07

八戒你咋了受刺激了？

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:17:31

我看见小人就来气.

叶子惠(4682127768) 2009-08-18 18:19:04

谁是小人啊

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:18:22

那小钱小巧厄人的.

叶子惠(421927768) 2009-08-18 18:20:12

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:19:36

大和至上. 用马克思的话,存在的必然合理.看不到中国跟世界的紧密联系,动辄厄人,这是恐怖分子的惯技.

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:25:43

要论孤立,清朝干得最好,自取其辱的就是入侵或挨打.

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:26:32

水要六,风要吹,逆势的,上帝不耐.

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:30:33

可宇没看最近的网评吗,有想在故宫里开麦当劳还是星巴克的,中国不让,理由是国脸,结果,现在那里开面条馆,30元一碗.

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:31:08

这是真事.

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:33:07

中国的问题,最大的问题,就是官太多,啥都要管,因为管是他们的饭碗.中国的人吃人,五千年了,从孔子始.孔教孔教,就是恐教.

benzrad[570503557] 2009-08-18 18:53:46

对不起,我这里的发言自觉精彩,我要发到我的博客.各位真名我隐去.请多关照.

ps: tried to post this item with some photos i shot recent with my first DC, but China surveillance heavily blocking and failed me many times to post photos.

drizzled morning outside of my office.

a tablet memorizing the lost lives in anti-Japanese war.

the park in sunset.

See and download the full gallery on posterous

life meaningful under burden

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 05:01:00 -0700

nearly a month passed since my return. i had great time with my baby son, warren zhu, hope of China and God of universe. my office Internet connection was rid off and i had to stay idle when i was there. at home, the Internet within China mainland also fatally deteriorated, ip and keyword filtering failed most web proxies available in search result. life in China mainland just like in a riot, all things in temporary and transission. hope is all of Chinese in mainland hold full hearted, and enduring of time is a test between the dictation nowadays and perished common social lives. i definitely see the collapse of the dying China political and social architecture.

my life orbits again in a tight loop, between office and my baby's mother's home. i tried hard to live with silence in worktime in office, and admit it can be a beneficial habit, but i really enjoy cyberspace activities. common people, like most of my colleagues, can be dishonest and blacken eyed by the presure of authority's favor or dislike. one of them, namely, my monitor in my office, claimed its rightous that i can't use office Internet now that my home pc connected with Interent, while his pc and all other colleagues' computer all wired and reading novel or watching tv online all days is mainly his activities online. they regard they r superior than me, really cluelessly!

this week can be fruitful. in reading twitter stream after broke China surveillance, i got an idea from peer's id, that i should own an id IIDChina. first i think idchina is OK, but in the process of claiming i gradually chose IIDChina. i soon claimed it from google, where i can only got an alternative for namespace conflict. i tried to expand the name to twitter and facebook, which both deadly blocked within China mainland for months. China surveillance, with its most advanced technology and heaviest investments, now can be fatal to web traffic inland reaching freedom world. i tried lots of proxies, including risky ones, all failed. only with the help of friends abroad, i got my facabook id and twitter's in the title of IIDChina. customization unfinished for access to the sites via proxies severely compromised and lots of operation only led to errs or vain. i also wrote a wiki item on google knol but the next day it was flagged inappropriate and hide from public view. after checked from friends abroad, i assured its google banned it, not google china, which frequent under China authority's harass and had to adopt tighter filtering. now i just doubting if google read it and flagged unproper, or China surveillance reported it online frequently via onsite report function and led google's system automatic or semi-automitic earmarked on my knol.yesterday i designed it a unique logo when i felt flat in office, i like it very much, so does my baby son, who shares the title. God sees my way toward a better and righ world in the shine and shrine of Holy.

facebook, twitter, blogger, picasaweb, and yesterday i found yahoo profiles, these sites' been blocked in China mainland heavily troubled Chinese surfers, and again remind them how barren the China landscape of produce of voice or content. China dying in aridity since the fall of Ming Dynasty, and continued suffering sacrifice with the tasteless and tomb berthed dictator then and now.

Ok, its time for break. i know the coming gathering of my love, while the dark of China to been blow apart, shift and gone. i know my new marriage scheduled and my fiancee already in her wedding dress. yes, i received my God's notice, i received the omen in red.

logo of site IIDChina, at http://facebook.com/iidchina ,or http://groups.google.com/group/iidchina .

beautiful sunset in Qiqihar, near Autumn.

colorful clouds near dusk in Qiqihar, China. its near Lunar Autumn.

dearest baby son, warren zhu, Hope of China, God of universe, ate corn cake in Holyland bread shop.

http://www.flickr.com/apps/video/stewart.swf?v=71377

holy stream, holy moment of baptism in Lun river.

Thu, 30 Jul 2009 09:01:00 -0700

ema suggested to haunt Lun River after all her pupils left. i hesitated but couldn't let baby alone. so we together launched. in the river baby really had a good time! he enjoyed the water so much! i kept on shot. neighbors likely including some evils and dogs surveillance us. one of 2 men babbled and claimed too brutal, just let us know. God sees the beautiful scene!

for youtube banned in China for a long time, i had found other video hosting site to post my video of baby playing in the river. so i found vimeo, and registered some family frequent accounts. but this moment access to it unstable, China surveillance likely dog chasing after us and ruin any way i can make use of. however, this video is available, as vimeo email to report me this message.

the dark over China Internet sky really sick and thick nowadays. i bet its resolved with the collapse of dictation in China, the dogged land and my vested kingdom from God and my ancestor.

view our happy moment with water in Lun river of Heilongjiang, a tour of an hour bus from ema's house, aside the city of Qiqihar.

the same movie hosted on flickr, shorten for the site's limit on length of movie.

http://picasaweb.google.com/benzillar/NewTrackAfterReunited#5364025922584177570

http://picasaweb.google.com/benzillar/NewTrackAfterReunited#5364024672350407250

visit recent album including our happy time in Lun river, at google:

http://picasaweb.google.com/benzillar/NewTrackAfterReunited

bye, all my beloved, time left for us is bounty while words between us is peculiar. join me my beloved, sooner the better.

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normal life on the track again, but its different.

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 10:59:00 -0700

its had been almost a week since i arrived my baby's mother's home. past week sees the pleasure between our reunion.baby ride on my shoulders for several times and liked it. we saw some children outside and in most cases i felt baby proud of his dad's presence. baby also asked to buy some food and toy from the evil shop within the south garden, where in my second time backward i had dispute with it and was sent to my hometown. lots of people i don't felt familiar, but essentially old time returned. violence deeply rooted in the environment my Royal seats, that really affect some members of my family, like ema, my mother,etc. black dog constantly barking upon wrong trees. God sees their poor plots and vain of their dirty wish to trap my family. God sees glory of his son's Royal and untouchable purity of pride and proud of my Royal.

its my first day in office of QRRS, my once and long time employer, also a old style state-owned enterprise. evils still jammed in office on the same floor. i dozed awhile amid the demons. in the past week, i mainly migrating stuff i got in vacation on my notebook to dvds, but also surfed some time. the Internet situation even worse here than that in my hometown. facebook was blocked, so did picasaweb, twitter, youtube, to name a few. most disgusts me is the blocking of picasaweb, for its dispensable for my first camera, a best gift from Masheng, my Japanese fiancee. i also felt flat while China surveillance banned most of domestic twitter copycats, like fanfou, jiwai, with which my family had accounts. the dictator of China really wrecked in fear of public and rapid communication, like twitter or microblog tools.

the tour of returning to Qiqihar is interesting. the Harbin railway station was shabby, the process of re-assign a seat for my ticket whose route was missed by delay of its previous route, cost me near 3 hours. quite some collegians there made unlawful transition on ticket, including quite some Uyer. i finally lost my temper and sneer at a sick minded collegian. in the waiting hall i encountered a female receptor and God shown me a lot that i is the chosen. i was in deep proud and roamed there for more than 2 hours till sleepiness drove me to the queue for boarding. there after finding a seat, i at once felt into sleep. even after about 20 minutes doze, i recharged a lot. when i woke up, i found a tall girl which at once remind me of my girl zhou. but she is too slim and i decided its not what i pray for. after aboard, she seats just behind me. but i again dozed. just a stop at Daqing station, the tall girl missing, likely left the train at the station. i soon attracted by a girl nearby, an athlete training school student. but the facing seats, 2 dogs, heavily challenged me and interfering my communication with the girl student, so i concentrated to kill the dogs. in the night i was woke up by the threats targeting my baby son, and shit according God's guide. God laughs toward all conspire aiming to trap my Royal's untouchable proud and pride.

its a peaceful morning in office. the evils in the office both left. i see God in every photon and every leaves outside of the window. i can't figure out what its like my life here after the fruitful hometown journey, but God surely knows my life in bliss approaching the gathering of my beloved, like Masheng, girl zhou, Taiwan girl, girl lü, girl Jiang, and my Empire emerging.

treat for reunited.leaving the restaurant.

sunrise among morning fog.

Yangzi river was passing by.

leaving Wuhan, the city seemingly always in refurnishment.

Sent from 齐齐哈尔市, 黑龙江省, 中国

dad's rage

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 05:53:00 -0700

a childhood pal, now hostile to me.

befriended villagers.

my childhood pal, once glass ball game champion.

our mountain, mostly hided by the evil dark house.

benzrad, me, in a pose, with a fly near my left eye brow.

it all started when i sang in front yard of my past dad, God's old house against threaten of violence. my mother, now turns clear, a life time spy and betrayal of my family, and dark witch chaser, evilly sat in the door facing the evil dark house owner's room just in front of my dad's house. i sang for my girls, but the profaning from my mother and the evil dark house owner turns intensively challenged me. in the last fight, my mother gave up and retreated to house. i sat there in the front yard in solitary. i felt God never let me do anything i dislike, and more important, the pure glory of my Royal forever untouchable. i reviewed my turning stronger missing for my baby, and decided its time to reunite with my baby and his mother. so i at once informed ema and our baby son about my decision in front yard in sunset. ema in doubt as usual, suggesting me later to return. but my girls, in holy message let me know its right to leave the evil land.

in the coming days i more and more see through the dark on my mother, and my past dad's struggle with the nearby enemies of his Empire. i got clearly the evils of the neighbors exerted on my old dad before his past by. my mother never belong to my dad, she lived in her family name, Hu, the same of current China's President. she lives lifetime in dark, in chase of her taste of ugly things and dark witch. she ruined most of my dad's children, let them abnormal, except my elder sister, my past eldest sister in her prime time, my kid brother and me. my kid brother still in missing road toward union with my dad, but this moment he is wrong. my mother don't love me, too. she in fact only love herself. in my life she exerted lots of obstacles just prevent my insight of her evils. she humiliated my family a lot with her foolish and selfish behaviors.

the neighbors' evil also gradually turn clear to me. the most ugly that needs action is the front and behind house owner, one is called Zhu zhongcai,朱中才, the back neighbor, and the dark house owner, a former slave before the new public. they spy my dad, God's life for decades, trying mimic the holy spirit, just in aim to hurt my dad. the dark house owner is also a freak, a rapist, with which my mother more and more turned into his victim. Zhu zhongcai once was a elementary school teacher in the darkest period of China under abnormal mao's influence. he claimed my name has problem and my parents changed my name accordingly. now his grandsons all steal name space from my family. for example, among the villagers, seldom has the mid name like mine, 子(in English,son), but his 2 grandsons all adopt it from mine. even worse, the second grandson steal one of my dad's name, 明, the second Dynasty of Zhu's. they openly profaned the holy, and risk to see if we kill.

now its kill time. my mother died in lack of blood, or anemia. she shouldn't bury with my dad, God. zhu zhongcai's family, including all his family, and the family of his 2 brothers, die soon in their burning house. the dark house owner, the evil still spying, dies in the ruin of his house and by hits of flocks of falling stones, both in desert, let dog and flies and mouse to lick. his offspring all died in the same way. their house all vanished and our mountains of my dad stand again in front of us.

the another back neighbor, the elder son of my past uncle and his evil family, esp. his fat and abnormal wife in family name zheng, die now. his fat wife died in water prison, die of cold and dark. himself and his sons and his larger family alive, die of infection of mad dog, or rabies. some die of rotten blood, or sepsis.

its my order of kill. i m leaving the land evil prevails, and abnormal or distort rampant. the land will be clear and clean after wiping ordered here, and my dad's glory manifests clearer in the sky and in the air, on his land.

bright days after thunderstorm and rain period

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 14:14:00 -0700

neighbors watched pc game on my notebook.

early full moon.

these days see happier villagers here in my hometown. i also enjoy the crisp air and dry burning sunshine.but not all things went in my favor, like last dusk, the insane nephew, the only son of my eldest brother, occupied the front yard of my past dad's old house and there pretending reading on his cellphone. the neighbor girl, who was refuted by me several times when attempting using my notebook to surf, also join him and giggling a lot. i had to evade the dirt and roam in narrow back yard of my dad's house. the neighbor in back yard was a shabby copycat of my dad, and long time stealing my dad's life teaching and brewing hostile against my old family. so r the conjunction neighbors, all watching my stride there and guessed what i will bent to call to chat. i didn't chat to anybody but found the almost full moon very bright in early night sky. so i took some photos for it. some of them quite satisfying. in the night i again worked till 10:30 pm before went to bed, after some time felt sleepy.

recent morning i often felt sleepy, so seldom worked outdoor in the morning. this morning i started to work late after breakfast. but today sees lots of next generations in the village visiting my dad's house. the neighbor boy, a grandson of the evil dark house owner, who had frequent here, and 2 grandsons of my past uncle. they watched and tried games on my notebook.

its a nice day, esp. mother cooked a jar of meat for dinner. i enjoy it alone, get rid of the insane nephew, in our back yard.i admire the plenty of meat in citizen life. however, i more enjoy the fresh vegetable from this fertile land.

OK, this the end of my babble this time. i miss u, all my girls, very much. in fact, i m a bit sorry for i longing for u so long a time. God sees our fate and future of Joice in coming years.

girl zhou, i m sorry for claiming "zhou fell" in my hardest time in this forum back to 2007.

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 05:01:00 -0700

i grand u never fell and forever proud and gifted. i grant u my Queen in crown, the same of Masheng. i grant u the third wife of mine. i grant God cares u and holy spirit in u.
i grant u r one of mine.

come and join me, sooner the better. i need u, as well as all my beloved, my girls that praying for me. original post at https://groups.google.com/group/benzyrnill/browse_thread/thread/d5982af70421ef3c https://groups.google.com/group/benzyrnill/t/c18d667046d7a571

look the site i claimed for u: http://zhou.be21zh.org or http://sites.google.com/site/gozhou .it just waiting for u to cultivate it.

a sleepless night for all my girls. allow Jiangyue join me from now on.

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 01:35:00 -0700

From Family&folks ∑ hometown journey

From Still lifes (3) ∑ hometown journey

yesterday i finally got all family facebook's vanity profile urls, after a previous day's hot waiting and vain. it rained when i busy with getting enough mobiles to pass the verification a new vanity url demands. in the night i tried to join a chatroom to get more fans to my family pages in exchange i become fans to more pages i never heard in the aim to pass the limit facebook set to allow a page's vanity url. then my eldest brother knocked our door and sent us 2 slices of water melon. i went to bed eariler than usual, but a dream woke me up in mid night and stay me awoke almost all night. i dreamed of a newly got well being guy suggesting travel countryside with his car. then in a sex course woke me up i found the feeling of ema, my baby son's mother, and my own, upon sex. i got view that faith in God is in fact the longest and most passionate sex the faith owner can get. and his gifted beloved blessed with the longest and most peaceful, the most harmonious sex pleasures, the only lasting warmth in men&women's life. faith grant believers the longest and lasting warmth fails age and rigidity/mediocrity age brings. its started raining since then. how i love the rain, which always remind me of the warmth of house, mutual cares in homes when no other distractions but just gathering rain brings. i gradually reviewed all my love with my girls, esp. Lü and Masheng, for who i most looking forward to join me and care my life together. from girl Lü i started to review the girl Jiangyue, a once student of ema and got ema's tutor together with girl Lü at ema's house. i previously felt girl Jiangyue might belongs to my baby son, for in the end of the tutuor and in a occasion baby chosen her while i more satisfied by the competent girl Lü. no, i got wrong, this moment i made clear, after the drizzle and a shit release in the mid of this blogging, and worry about the security and frustrating of girl Jiangyue upon my missing love to her. i made clear Jiangyue belongs to my Royal and IS my wife. my God had and forever cares her, including her growth and career's independence, as well as self-realization. i made clear my baby son's uniting with girl(s) in family name "Jiang", can be quite late, all in God's setting which forever the best. i made clear girl Jiangyue can join me any time, and can live with my together from now on.

its a hard night for i can't sleep. i also reviewed the nighbor wives' foolish admire toward me. none of them can partake my love, nor even my warmth of faith. i belongs to the world, not the residents now in Zhudajiu, my hometown village and my past dad's sovereign.my love for my beloved girls never shake nor lapse. my love blesses all my girls with eternal and happy life. my love brings them harmony of sex we never forget nor discontent.

its a nice week, for those i got from the cyberspace, except this morning. in some flash message i worry about girl Jiangyue's falling to hopelessness, but now i felt better. God constantly cares all my beloved, all girls can join my life to share the faith for God, and my Royal to mandate the world belongs to us.

ok, now time to bye. thanks God, Jiangyue, i never miss ur love again. i took u now. follow me and join me as soon as u can. i love u.

it resumes to drizzle now, just when i prepared to wire to the net. God, save me, save my all girls need me. forever and never seen glory to u!!!

shit China surveillance, failed lots of proxy, including freedur

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 08:26:00 -0700

i tried lots of web proxies. my newly created blogger blog shown me admin but the blogger management panel don't give me admin privilege, not allowing me to invite authors. i don't' why why it is, all my old blogs all defying my inviting authors function after i logon blogger.com via a web proxy and the only working one. they broke into my web id long time, and i not sure if they stealth my admin privilege and cheat the site not to allow my admin privilege while shown me as admin on the page, or just the web proxy confused blogger.com's admin system.

later i resort to freedur, which enjoy good fame among Chinese users under China tighten surveillance these days. but i can only access blogger.com homepage once, after i submit my login detail, my traffic again fell into mute.i sometimes casually open a blog's homepage, and shown i logon for the page shown edit link to allow me open editing widget window, but thats' all, any attempts to open the setting page of my blogs indifferently went lost.

shit the China surveillance. they acted like can't wait time anymore to spent out their only time before their total collapse. surely they saw their hells.

however, i got my blogs on blogger.com for my left baby bird, they r http://birdous.blogspot.com and http://birdnus.blogspot.com . i also claimed a blog for my web id benzrad, at http://benzrad.blogspot.com .thx God, i recent paid more attention to my baby&myself Chinese Pinyin name, and even blogger's user so large a group, i got our blogs in exact Chinese name or my coined name without any deter. they r http://zhuchujia.blogspot.com http://warrenzhu.blogspot.com ,mine http://benzrad.blogspot.com .with these beautiful namespace, i felt really bounty of God's gift for my Royal of China under his shine.

fairway, China surveillance and shits Internet cop/dog. my kingdom doomed to grow and blow, ur destiny of tomb near and near. u pick fall. i endorsed with rising.