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I’ve been slacking in the photography department. I’m just really bored with everything here. It’s the same thing everywhere. There are a few places I still haven’t gone and once I stop feeling like crap I’m going to go out for a couple of hours and shoot those areas.

I use my point-and-shoot more than the Nikon, but I haven’t been impressed with any of the shots I’ve taken. I have a few on the memory card from about a month (or two) ago that I need to put on my laptop. Sometimes it seems pointless to have a Flickr pro account if I don’t use it, but at the same time, it will eventually come in handy. I just have a real issue with posting everything I’ve shot. I’m picky and I only want to put the best up there. However, I haven’t been taking a lot of pictures.

I figure that eventually I’ll just stop trying so damn hard.

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I’m scratching my portfolio idea. I always end up forgetting I have it and not knowing how I should do it or what to put on it.

I’m going to create a writing blog over at wordpress.com and then link it when I get done and post some of the writing I’ve done recently. I think it’ll be a nice change of pace because I really want another place to keep my writing that isn’t in a paper Moleskine.

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I don’t know if I mentioned it, but my manager extended her vacation until the 14th of October. I’m really hoping that when she comes back things will be about the same as they are now: no tension. Just a vague sense of dislike between me and one other coworker. Which is liveable.

I have things to work on, but I don’t want to work on them because they are time consuming and annoying. That’s mainly VHS & DVD donations. I can’t stand working on them. I really need to do the VHS ones because I have a couple of boxes of VHS to unload to clear a stack. I don’t even understand why people still want to check out VHS. I mean, DVD players are inexpensive now. And VHS are nasty, bulky, and all in fullscreen. Which is annoying.

I’m currently adding some donations that don’t have records which means I’m doing some original cataloging. It’s really annoying, but I don’t have a lot left to do. I think after I get done with the 10 or so I have left, I’ll get started on the VHS. God knows I can’t stand it.

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I’ve made some goals, financially, one of which I’m really close to accomplishing. My small credit card has only $100 left. I will have it paid off by the end of next week. I am really proud of that. I’m close to being under $2000 owed on two bills is nice. I’m almost under $9000 on my car (which is even better!).

Apparently the company I’m with now is the “cheapest” one found by the place I go through, so I’m going to I need to check my policy so I can make sure the quote I have saved on Progressive is the right coverage. Insurance companies annoy me.

I’m going to continue to shop around because I can’t afford paying $750 for 6 months of car insurance. It’s ridiculous.

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It’s almost Jeannie’s wedding. I’m a candle holder and I am quite excited. I found a dress, but 1) it’s $100 and 2) I want to lose some more weight before I buy a dress. I already have shoes.

She’s marrying another friend of mine, so I’m really happy for the both of them. I’ll probably bawl my eyes out.

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Lastly, I don’t even know if it’s still even ‘celebrated’, but today is Backstreet Boys’ Day in Orlando. And it’s Tezuka Kunimitsu’s birthday (from Prince of Tennis).

God I am a nerd.

There are many things I’d like to say to you, but I don’t know how

]]> http://infragilis.net/archives/2008/10/nerdery-and-family/feed/ http://infragilis.net/archives/2008/10/nerdery-and-family/ http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/infragilis/~3/408543320/ http://infragilis.net/archives/2008/10/three-weeks-into-autumn/#comments Wed, 01 Oct 2008 16:27:15 +0000 Amber http://infragilis.net/?p=360 I’m the type of blogger who starts typing on one day and finishes it a few days or a week later. That’s mainly because I start typing about something, then I get distracted and I forget what I wanted to say. That happened with my last post which is why I was all over the place. It’s not a habit I want to get into. However, there’s so much going on lately that I really just don’t know what’s going on. Every day either goes by in a blur or crawls by like a turtle. I guess that’s just how things go.

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I wrote a poem the other day that I had my fantastic idea for a novel based on a song. The poem is quite different from what I’ve usually written, but I like it.

I’m thinking about adding a writing portion to my portfolio site (once I come up with a domain name). I think I have some really good poems, so I want to put them up somewhere.

I want to get started on this short novel floating around in my head, but I don’t really know where to start. I have the general idea, but it’s implementing it and figuring out the ending.

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For the last few days, I’ve felt like crap. Like I want to just sleep the day away. On Friday night, I felt quite naseous, so I went to bed at 11:30pm. On Saturday, I woke up at 10am. I felt like I had low blood sugar, so I ate three donuts and a glass of milk, in an attempt to get me back to normal. I went back to sleep at noon. I woke up a little after 1pm and forced myself to actually eat something with substance. When we came home at 2:30pm, I drank some of the milkshake I got because I still wasn’t feeling any better.

I fell back asleep at 3pm and my roommate woke me up at 6pm to figure out what to do for dinner. I didn’t feel fantastic, but I ate dinner anyway. I woke up Sunday and still didn’t feel all that great. I forced myself to eat because I didn’t have an appetite. Monday, I called into work, and said I’d be in late. I got to work around 9:45am and left at 1:15pm because I still was really tired.

Monday, I called into work. I went back to sleep and dreamed that the brakes went out in my dad’s car while I was driving. When I woke up at 10:15am, my roommate brought me orange juice and I sipped on that until I forced myself to get ready for work. I got to work at noon. I was still tired. I ate a salad and a cheeseburger, but I still felt listless and I just wanted to go back to bed.

I can’t get into my new doctor (a lady!) until October 21st. So whatever I have is just going to have to either go away or get worse between now and then.

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I’m only $16,500 away from being debt free. I realize that seems like a lot, but I pay close to $1,000 a month to get it all paid off. By the end of October, I’ll have my smaller credit card paid off and I’ll be able to put that monthly payment onto my Dell credit card. That will be a huge relief.

I lowered my cell phone plan to 300 minutes a month (without having to extend my contract a year!). That’s only $30 a month. I have text included on my plan, so my bill every month will be around $50 instead of $75. What a difference $25 can make, you know.

I’m also looking at different insurance (or at least a lower premium) so that will give me some extra money every month to put towards a bill.

I’ve already decided to put my income tax return towards my Chase credit card because that’s my biggest debt (besides my car). I’d rather pay that down quickly because my car loan doesn’t have a fluctuating interest payment. It’s the same every month, whereas the card changes every month. My student loan is the same every month too, so that will be easy to pay off. My Dell credit card fluctuates too, but it’s not as high as Chase. Though, if I have any extra, I’ll be putting it onto Dell to get it down quickly too.

My debt-free plan only works as long as I don’t have any major problems. Here’s to hoping I have nothing happen.

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Lastly, I can’t believe it’s already October. That’s some crazy stuff right there.

maybe tomorrow I’ll find my way back home

My manager is on vacation for the next two weeks, so some of the tension that was heavily sitting in the air has dissipated. Well, at least until she comes back. I don’t feel like I’ve gotten much accomplished in the week that she’s been gone. My task during her vacation was to unpack and push through the donations that were boxed up near the elevator. There were 5 stacks about 8/9 high each. We’ve unpacked 3.5 stacks. I have a double-sided cart full of DVDs. The two bookshelves up front are completely full of VHS donations. Of the two, the one that has been repackaged has all 6 shelves full. The 5-shelf unrepackaged is about 8 tapes from being full and I still have 2.5 stacks of donations to unload. On top of that are the 2 stacks of donation boxes in the garage plus the 5-10 stacks in the basement. It’s tedious work. And the processor is being really slow about everything under the sun. Go figure.

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Emotionally, I’m a bit drained. I don’t know if it’s just that time of the year or if I’m feeling just out of it, but I’m just not caring as much about anything. It’s not as though that is terribly uncharacteristic of me, but it feels like it is when I’m trying to be there for people.

I know 23 doesn’t seem very old, but I feel like I’m behind at the game of Life. Two of my close friends are doing really well. One is getting her master’s and getting married and the other has a really good paying job doing something she loves. Whereas I’m single, not in school, and not doing what I love to do. I feel like there’s just something missing.

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I had an idea about a novel the other day. It was based on a song and I have the rough edges still floating around in my head. It seems interesting to me. I want to read it…

The other novel thing I was working on has stalled. Again. I think it would be better as a short story. I don’t think I have what it takes to write a full-length novel.

Hell, I’d love to be a full-time writer and make money off of it.

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My mind is seriously scrambled. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m constantly forgetful and I would rather just sleep all the time than actually get up and go to work or run the errands I need to run.

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I think the Dell Mini 9 is awesome. I really want one. I can’t exactly justify it. Though it would be perfect to have for just popping on the internet to Twitter or post a blog. It has an SD memory card reader which is cool because both of my cameras use SD. Unfortunately it doesn’t have a optical drive, but I’m not to worried about that.

I might get it… maybe. Like as a Christmas present to myself. I’m still thinking about it.

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Finally found Wii Fit. Haven’t done it yet. Haven’t felt emotionally or physically willing to try it out.

My Japanese Coach came out and while I would like to get it, I’m broke. I put some money back so I could pay for personal taxes this year and that has left me with zero funds. Which is par for the course. I haven’t touched My French Coach in awhile anyway.

Though I am going to splurge on December 2nd. Why, you ask?

KINGDOM HEARTS Re: CHAIN OF MEMORIES IS GOING TO BE RELEASED ON THE PS2.

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Sometimes I wish I was rich so I could just take care of everything without having to worry about it. I’m just so meh lately.

I’m burning at the speed of light, that’s why they call me Mr. Fahrenheit

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For the record, I can’t believe it’s already September.

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My grandma came in for a brief 6 hour spell on Sunday. I went over to one of her friends’ homes for dinner. In which I was the only person under 50 there. Most of the people were averaging 80 years old. My gram fixed dinner (a lovely spaghetti w/ meat sauce) and I helped with the serving, cleaning, etc because all of the other elderly people either 1) had a walker or 2) couldn’t be bothered. One of my gram’s friends in particular had me pour her salad dressing, sprinkle parmesan, get her more napkins, get a towel, pour her some water, get a take-home container, put her food in the container, etc, etc, etc. I felt like I did everything but help her go to the bathroom and eat her food. It was highly frustrating.

Of course, every single one of my gram’s friends asked me how old I was, where I worked, did I go to school, what did you major in, how long have you been there, where is it located, etc, etc, etc. I repeated the same story like 5 times because no one listens and over half of the people have hearing aides.

The highlight of the evening for all of the elderly was talk of my cousin’s upcoming nuptuals. She’s getting married in Chicago at the end of this month. My grandparents were gushing, of course, because it’s the pretty granddaughter getting married to the rich Jewish boy. From what I bothered to listen to, they booked the Cultural Center for $10,000 (non-refundable), her dress is an Oscar de la Renta, they just bought a $1.1 million townhouse, a $1 million condo in Miami, and a 42 ft. cruiser to traipse around Miami’s waters (then paid to have it shipped to Chicago, presumably for traipsing around Lake Michigan).

God.

My grandfather expects that the wedding is going to cost around $150,000. Spare me. She has a ‘dream job’ working as the personal assistant to the daughter whose father owns Alberto V05.

The only thing I got out of the evening besides seeing my gram was $40 and a nudge in the side by my grandfather telling me that I should go on a diet.

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Heather starts nights today. She goes in at around 2:45pm and gets off around 11:20pm. For this week. Then she works until around 12:30am. Until she either switches to days or I suddenly work nights, we won’t see each other except for Saturdays, Sundays, and shared holidays.

I’ve decided that when I get off, I’ll work out on the treadmill at home. I can walk a mile in 30 minutes, so I’m going to walk an hour every day, 5 days a week. That’s 10 extra miles a week that I’m walking. I’m also going to lift weights to tone up my arms.

This plan doesn’t stem from my grandfather’s comment above. I’ve been thinking about this for some time. I don’t eat anything bad. I think I take in around 1200-1500 calories a day, if that. I’ve become a bit sedentary recently because I just haven’t felt good. I also am starting to think that my body just hates me. I’ve been hovering between 210 and 220 for the past 2 months, no matter what I do to my diet or exercise schedule. It’s sucky, but I’m determined to get to 140, even if it takes me forever.

I have this 12-week weight loss plan in my inbox that I’m thinking about trying out. Mainly the exercise portion because I got the diet part down.

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As you’ve noticed by now, there is a new layout up.

I worked on it off and on for over a month because 1) I got easily frustrated and 2) I wanted to try something different with how information displayed. Although #2 didn’t really pan out. I’m going to keep it on my mind’s back burner. I really enjoy this layout though and in the future, I might only change the colors. And perhaps fonts. I really like what I’ve done here.

Next on my to-do list is to come up with a domain name for my portfolio. I’m quite tempted to clean up some previous themes to make them WP 2.6 compatible and offer them up for download. I have a few that I’m really leaning toward.

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Some short things that don’t really deserve paragraphs:

• Finished House season 4. Only 13 days until the new season. I don’t think I ever cried so much over a TV show than I did the final episode of S4. Absolutely heartwrenching.
• Work is droll.
• I have picked up books again. My average, as of late, has been around 3 days per book. These books are averaging 300-400 pages. I’m feeling like I’m getting back into my reading groove!
• Football season starts on Thursday. I can’t wait. I think this is the season where I’m going to watch games just to watch games instead of just tuning into teams I care about.
• I’m going to start an account at another bank for the purposes of saving for my upcoming (3 years away) move to Tampa. As long as nothing substantially devastating happens (*crosses fingers*) then I’ll have around $1000 each year. Here’s to saving!
• Later this month, I’m switching cell companies. T-Mobile, while I love them, has crappy service where I live. ATT/Cingular has great service here, but so-so in Tampa. Verizon has good coverage here and in Tampa, so I’m switching to them. I’m looking at getting the Env2, but who knows. I’m hoping to keep the same number.
• Switched, finally, to WP 2.6.1. Good thing I waited to upload the new layout.

Lastly, if you find any errors, I’d greatly appreciate letting me know on my handy-dandy contact form.

Every moment was so precious, wouldn’t want to change a thing