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First Time Bleeding

iammyy — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 03:04:03 +0000

No, not exactly what you dirty minds are thinking of. I went for my first blood donation yesterday in school and oh boy, it sure feels great ! =) It has been some time since I last blogged too ! Life has been crazy since school started 3 weeks ago !

It was pretty much an impromptu thing since it wasn’t part of my busy schedule at all. My friends and I saw that they were doing a donation drive in the school library and decided to go for it ! I’m obviously a first-timer (can’t you tell from my excitement?) since I always had problems meeting the minimum weight limit (45kg) and lucky me, managed to meet the mark by 1kg yesterday ! (lol) So off we went to donate blood.

It was quite a painless (trust me, Brazilian waxing was way more painful than this) and quick process. It was like ‘poke – suck-go’ kind of thing (sounds wrong), took me around 10-15 minutes before I see that empty bag filled with my gorgeous blood. (haha)

I liked how friendly the nurses were and how they tried to calm first timers down by distracting them. Though I’m more of a sadist and prefer to watch the needle and gets excited over blood being drawn out of me. (haha) I think I’ve been watching way too much Vampires Diaries…was hoping (hot hot hot )Damon Salvatore would be there to suck my blood too…or robbing the entire blood bank right before my eyes. (lol!)

I thought it’s pretty cute for them to bring such adorable bandages too ! Felt like a primary school kid arguing over the color we wanted for our arms. I honestly wish more people would donate blood since it’s a good thing and who knows when you might need those blood someday ! (touch wood)

So spread the word and go down to the Blood Bank or any donation drive to do the same, or just drop me message if you’re interested in going down with me in November (you can only donate once every 3 months) !! =)

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My subconscious tore me to pieces.

iammyy — Sun, 08 Aug 2010 03:59:34 +0000

Ariadne: Why is it so important to dream?
Cobb: Because, in my dreams we are together.

Cobb: Dreams feel real while we’re in them. It’s only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange.

Cobb: I miss you more than I can bear, but we had our time together. I have to let you go.

Mal: Do you know what it is to be a lover? Half of a whole?

Mal: You keep telling yourself what you know. But what do you believe? What do you feel?

Arthur: With the slightest disturbance, the dream’s going to collapse.

Cobb: Look at you. You’re just a shade, a shade of my real wife. How could I capture all your beauty, your complexity, your perfection, your imperfection, in a dream? Yes, you’re the best that I can do. But, I’m sorry, you’re just not good enough.

Cobb: She locked away a secret, deep inside herself, something she once knew to be true… but chose to forget.

Cobb: The moment’s passed. Whatever I do I can’t change this moment. I’m about to call out to them. They run away. If I’m ever going to see their faces I’ve gotta get back home. The real world.

Some lines from the movie really strikes a chord in me, just sharing with a slight re-arrangement to match how I actually feel or hear from the whole story. Guess I could relate to it in a different aspect and in general, life.

People dream of happiness, to know how it feels like to be in love, to be in control of something that makes them happy in life. Yet not many people know the true meaning behind a relationship and how little things can affect the feelings between 2 people. Sometimes people hold on, for different reasons – mainly because they knew what they had before and believe that things will change for the better. However, when this dream collapses, you wake up to reality that is harsh and you realize that you have been obsessed with your own dream and never realizing that the moment has long gone – nothing is going to change. You come back to the real world eventually because you choose to lock yourself away and try to forget, be it returning with regrets, hatred, remorse or simple happiness that you once remembered from these memories.

On a side note, Leonardo DiCaprio definitely has a home run with Inception. Ellen Page is as usual, just an eyecandy with the average sidekick acting skills, along with Joseph Gordon-Levitt. But best film I’ve watched so far this year. Christopher Nolan, impressive !

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AOTW [42] : Tyler Ward ft Megan Nicole & Eppic

iammyy — Thu, 05 Aug 2010 08:02:36 +0000

It’s been awhile since I last heard such a good collaboration. Tyler Ward puts together a really nice cover of ‘Love the way you lie’ featuring Megan Nicole and Eppic. Love the song and love how they all look genuinely enjoying recording this together. The cool thing about Tyler is the fact that he takes the time to re-arrange the songs and produces them with his own style.

If you like what you hear, check Tyler out on YouTube for more covers and his original music! I think he’s gonna make it big someday.

Love The Way You Lie – Eminem ft Rihanna

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there’s a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can’t breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It’s like I’m in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It’s like I’m huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I’m leaving you
No you ain’t
Come back
We’re running right back
Here we go again
It’s so insane
Cause when it’s going good
It’s going great
I’m Superman
With the wind in his bag
She’s Lois Lane
But when it’s bad
It’s awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who’s that dude
I don’t even know his name
I laid hands on her
I’ll never stoop so low again
I guess I don’t know my own strength

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you’re with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit ‘em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get ‘em
Now you’re getting fucking sick
Of looking at ‘em
You swore you’ve never hit ‘em
Never do nothing to hurt ‘em
Now you’re in each other’s face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit ‘em
You push
Pull each other’s hair
Scratch, claw, bit ‘em
Throw ‘em down
Pin ‘em
So lost in the moments
When you’re in ‘em
It’s the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it’s best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don’t know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It’s a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin’ over
But you promised her
Next time you’ll show restraint
You don’t get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that’s why they call it window pane

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn’t mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper’s just as bad
As mine is
You’re the same as me
But when it comes to love
You’re just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn’t you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn’t as crazy as it seems
Maybe that’s what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don’t you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I’m pissed
I’ll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it’s lies
I’m tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I’m a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I’mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

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AOTW [41] : Jason Walker

iammyy — Fri, 30 Jul 2010 16:42:30 +0000

Jason Walker – After listening to his song ‘Down’ on Vampire Diaries, I was really smitten by his voice and decided to search for more songs. (More like, I broke down over the song and decided to do a search on it and came across other songs. haha) Surprisingly, there isn’t one song from him that I’ve disliked so far and I really like the lyrics from every song. It really speaks from the bottom of his/my heart. Such heartfelt emotions through the lyrics and melody, great stuff !

I personally love ‘Down’, ‘You’re Missing It’ and ‘You Fill My Heart’. But featuring one of the my upbeat song from him on this entry. We’re all afraid of being more alone I guess ?

More Along – Jason Walker

It’s just another day
I’m a little scared
Don’t want to walk away
Completely unprepared
I wonder what it’s like
I wonder how it feels
To see the other side
To see it all so real

It seems like I’ve been here so long
I don’t know how I’ll ever leave
I can’t imagine moving on
And giving up everything
Just to be more alone

I’d believe a lie
It’s all I really need
To get me through the night
It’s all the same to me
I don’t need your closure
I don’t need your plan
Don’t tell me that it’s over
Just tell me there’s a chance

It seems like I’ve been here so long
I don’t know how I’ll ever leave
I can’t imagine moving on
And giving up everything
Just to be more alone

More alone
I don’t want to be
More alone
I don’t want to be

It seems like I’ve been here so long
I don’t know how I’ll ever leave
I can’t imagine moving on
And giving up everything
Just to be more alone
Just to be
More alone
More alone
Just to be
More alone

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“Does it matter?”

iammyy — Thu, 29 Jul 2010 08:55:01 +0000

Elena: “Things are different this year. Everything that used to matter doesn’t anymore.”
Damon: “So don’t let it. Quit, move on. Problem solved. Ta-da.”
Elena: “Some things could matter again.”
Damon: “Maybe. But… seems a little unrealistic to me.”

I recently discovered this yet another vampire series (slow, I know) called ‘The Vampire Diaries’. Hate to say this but it’s equally ‘trashy’ as Twilight is to me. The only thing I like about the show is Nina Dobrev whom I think is pretty and Paul Wesley with his really gorgeous eyes. Oh, the soundtrack isn’t too bad either. Will watch a few more episodes before I decide if I like it or not.

In this scene, Elena was talking about how she is tired of cheerleading and suddenly things that used to matter doesn’t really matter anymore. However, we see that a part of her is still holding on with the belief that perhaps it could matter again. Damon (Ian Somerhalder), as Stefan’s (Paul Wesley) elder brother, was convincing her to quit cheerleading and move on as he sees that she is not longer passionate in it and it is unrealistic to hold on.

Sometimes there are moments in life where we keep that thought of ‘ Hey, perhaps I should still hold on because I think things might change.’ or ‘Perhaps one day it’ll matter to me again, it was important afterall.’ I guess as much as we ought to be sentimental or giving ourselves second chances – sometimes it’s better to let go and move on, especially when nothing really matters anymore.

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‘He’s Right.’

iammyy — Mon, 26 Jul 2010 16:22:48 +0000

Bizarro: You spent the last month telling me that you finally felt like we were meant to be together.
Clark: Don’t listen to him, Lana.
Bizarro: I know what’s in his mind, Lana. He doesn’t love you like I do.
Clark: That’s a lie!
Bizarro: You’re lying, Clark – to yourself! You’re so worried about doing the right thing, you don’t even see it.
Bizarro: [to Lana] You know he won’t commit his life to you like I will. You know that.
Lana: He’s right, Clark.
Clark: What?
Lana: I’ve never been more in love than I have the past month. Only it wasn’t with you. It was with him.
Bizarro: [extends his hand to Lana] Nothing will ever come between us again.

Was watching Smallville (kinda watch some episodes here and there, on and off basis) Season 7 Ep10 ‘Persona’ whereby Bizarro was playing the role of ‘nice Clark’ to Lana who was obviously unaware and smitten. Honestly, as much as I like the idea of Lana and Clark being together, I do think Clark treats her like crap sometimes. The way he ‘protects’ her is not what I see as love but created more misunderstandings as well as problems between them. If he has been honest with her right from the start, well..I guess there won’t be so many seasons ? (haha)

I think it is rather sad for Lana to come to realise how happy and in love she was for the past month with the man she thought has changed to someone who is completely new in her life. (Obviously she chose the right guy, else there won’t be any seasons after season 7 here!) But I guess in reality, there are times whereby you wake up to reality and see the differences – be it in a relationship or friendship. Whatever you were happy with, may not be entirely true or sometimes, it may revert back to how it has been (we see at the end of the episode, the relationship between Clark and Lana worsens)

So why didn’t Lana choose Bizarro instead of Clark ? Is it out of love for Clark or was it just morally right ? (since in the show, Bizarro is the ‘bad guy’ ) Why be in love with a guy who can’t commit to you or love you as much as you see as how it’s ‘meant to be’ ?

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AOTW [40] : Tyler James and The Exchange

iammyy — Sun, 25 Jul 2010 17:13:16 +0000

Tyler James and The Exchange - brownie points for these University of the Arts students from New Jersey. I like how down to earth these guys are, from a basement band who puts up all their videos on youtube and recording their debut album last April.

I think they have a pretty unique vocal, reminds me alil of Maroon 5 , in my opinion. What do you think ? Featuring one of their live gig and my favourite song from Kelly Clarkson’s new album.

Oh, check out their cover of Katy Perry’s California Girls on youtube too ! Cuteness !

Cry – Kelly Clarkson

If anyone asks

I’ll tell them we both just moved on

When people all stare

I’ll pretend that I don’t hear them talk

Whenever I see you I’ll swallow my pride and bite my tongue

Pretend I’m okay with it all

Act like there’s nothing wrong

Is it over yet?

Can I open my eyes?

Is this as hard as it gets?

Is this what it feels like to really cry cry

If anyone asks

I’ll tell them we just grew apart

Yet what do I care

If they believe me or not

Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart

I’ll pretend I’m okay with it all

Act like there’s nothing wrong

Is it over yet?

Can I open my eyes?

Is this as hard as it gets?

Is this what it feels like to really cry cry

I’m talking in circles

I’m lying they know it

Why won’t this just all go away?

Is it over yet?

Can I open my eyes?

Is this as hard as it gets?

Is this what it feels like to really cry cry cry

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AOTW [39] : Sick Puppies

iammyy — Sun, 18 Jul 2010 04:32:17 +0000

I discovered Sick Puppies by chance a couple of years back but came across them again when their song ‘That Time of Year’ was featured on NCIS (Yes, I’m still pretty much a TV junkie – GREAT show I must say!). This Australian band even engaged in a documentary film by Robert Knight and I think the DVD will be out pretty soon later this year. Looking forward to that !

White Balloon – Sick Puppies

I’m holding on to white balloons
Up against the sky of doom
Tell me you see them
Cause whats inside of me is invisible to most
Even in clear view
Im sending out a signal
To the possibility of you
Cause right at this moment
I know youre connected to a part of me
That I dont even know myself

The changes in me
Are likely to be like the weather
Stormy and clear
Strength into fear bound together

But I’ll break my silence
If I believe that you and me
Could ever be more than just
What’s been behind us
I tried and left they came and went
I got rejected out again
But no one believes me
I’ve worn a hundred faces
Of the characters and placements
And now nobody sees me

The changes in me
Are likely to be like the weather
Cloudy at best

Angels lift me
Are you with me?
I’m holding on to you like
I’m holding on to white balloons
Carry me away
I hope that you dont break

Cause what’s inside of me is invisible to most
Even in clear view

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‘Rough Patch’ vs ‘Relationship Chicken’

iammyy — Mon, 12 Jul 2010 16:29:08 +0000

Marshall: If they can’t stand each other, why don’t they end it?
Ted: Neither one wants to be first. They’re playing relationship chicken.

Disclaimer : I really love HIMYM and I am actually re-watching episodes from the 5 seasons when I have the time to, so bear with my random quotes/reviews of the episodes.

I think in ‘How I Met Your Mother” season 5, Barney and Robin’s relationship was mainly to satirize everything couples go through – from the mushy stage to hating each other’s guts. The episode mentioned the term ”relationship chicken” which refers to the situation when neither person wants to admit the relationship isn’t working out. On the other hand, Lily pointed out that all couples go through the ‘rough patch’ – getting used to each other and understanding each other better.

So when do you know you’re being ‘relationship chicken(s)’ or just going through a ‘rough patch’ in a relationship ? If there are times when you feel unhappy about everything – but that not exactly bad enough to kill the relationship – are you just undergoing this so-called rough patch? Or are you playing the ‘relationship chicken’ by refusing to see the depth of the problems and brushing it off as it is probably just the usual lows that couples go through and that you should be working out over? When do you know you should hold on to that faith in the relationship ?

Sometimes you have 3rd parties who comment (be it knowing the details, or not) and you stop to ponder if they have a ‘clearer view’ over the situation than the deluded self you’re being. In chinese, there’s a saying that goes ‘當局者迷，旁觀者清’ which roughly means ‘the onlooker sees more of the game’. However, I think it is really up to the two parties involved to actually see for themselves for what they truly are. Like Barney and Robin, both of them were starting to lose themselves and you could tell that they were unhappy – even if they seem to be happy in each other’s companionship. They were better off as friends – and the breakup ? We know that it was not the end but just returning back to how it has always been for them – friends.

Would that be possible to happen in reality ? Does it really means happiness when Barney returned to say ‘Daddy’s home.’ ? (Of course in later episodes, we see that Barney isn’t entirely truly happy after returning to his old single self.) It’s really kind of hard to tell isn’t it ?

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AOTW [38] : Christina Grimmie

iammyy — Sun, 11 Jul 2010 07:51:34 +0000

I’m not a fan of Miley Cyrus but this 16 years old did a great job on this Miley Cyrus medley, topping it up with a almost-like-MV music video. She certainly has a great voice to begin with and as usual, I like to feature cute girls who can play their own instruments ! Of course I wouldn’t be so cruel to feature just a Miley Cyrus song (hur) ..so enjoy the other video ‘Pyramid’ !

” Pyramid” – Charice

Shawty’s love is like a pyramid (ooh)
We stand together till the very end (eh ooh)
There’ll never be another love for sure (ooh)
Iyaz and Charice let we go

Stones, heavy like the love you’ve shown (shown)
Solid as the ground we’ve known (known)
And I just wanna carry on
We took it from the bottom up (no no no)
And even in a desert storm (yeah)
Sturdy as a rock we hold (oh)
Wishing every moment froze
Now I just wanna let you know
Earthquakes can’t shake us
Cyclones can’t break us
Hurricanes can’t take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it’s heaven’s touch
Together at the top (at the top baby), like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We’ll never fall just keep on going
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh (oooh)

Cold (cold), never ever when you’re close (close)
We will never let it fold (fold)
A story that was never told
Something like a mystery (yoh! )
And every step we took we’ve grown
Look how fast the time has flown
A journey to a place unknown
We’re going down in history
Earthquakes can’t shake us (oh)
Cyclones can’t break us (oh)
Hurricanes can’t take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (hey! )
It feels just like it’s heaven’s touch
Together at the top, (at the top baby) like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing (wind is blowing)
We’ll never fall just keep it going (keep it going)
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid (eh oh)

Like a pyramid girl let me show you
That I love you so much
That we gonna get through (oh oh)
Even when there’s storms
I will never go, Ima be the one to keep you safe (hey)
Before was our love back it up more than enough
Holding on to one another be the cover when it’s rough (oh oh)
Mother nature (hey) or disaster won’t stop at happy ever after

Pyramid, keep it going (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)
Oh oh ooooh (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (solid rock)
It feels just like it’s heaven’s touch (oooh)
Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We’ll never fall just keep on going (keep it going)
Forever we will stay (Charice), like a pyramid (what what)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it’s heaven’s touch
Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid (pyramid)
And even when the wind is blowing
We’ll never fall just keep it going
Forever we will stay (ooh), like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsty.com/lyrics/c/charice/#share

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