s u p e r b o i

Aaaaaachoo

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 12:23:00 +0000

Toured the world and melted with you... Too bad i was overshadowed by another 'something'. Haha. :)

LIVE STREAMING for HAVAIANAS BRAND EXTENSION

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 12:53:00 +0000

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*a copy-pasted post from Havaianas Philippines' PR Agency :)

Forgotten....

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 12:05:00 +0000

Dear Universe,

NOTE TO (MY)SELF:
Hindi lang sayo umiikot ang mundo, okay?

Wala ka rin ibang sisihin kundi Saturn, kasi clouds are not solid.

At pinag-iisipang maigi hindi lang ang mga pag-atake,

kundi higit sa lahat, ang mga pag-atras.

-agnoia

Sometimes I wish I never had to go through that rollercoaster of emotions which you made me experience last year, Universe. Though thankful that I got what I needed from that experience, it still has an effect on me, you know. Remember that defense mechanism I developed overtime to protect myself from my former perpetrator(s)? Well, I've never been as sharp-tongued before. I mean, yes, I've always been (brutally) honest but not to the point that I am able to break other people the way I got broken. Real sad on my part as I'm really not as bad as people assume I am.

I really wish I'm back to the old Sam. :(

And I'm really sorry that I broke you... It was never my intention.

a blog post drafted on Oct 24 of this year. reason behind this: forgotten already.

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 14:22:00 +0000

hey squid,

what are you afraid of? pls let me know so i can take your fears away. i'm here. i'm not gonna leave.

i love you.

Ondoy : Thank You.

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sun, 27 Sep 2009 19:06:00 +0000

Dear,

Although I cried that Saturday evening coz I was far away from my family, with neither my father nor my mother (and even my siblings and friends) knew where I was exactly, stranded in an area which was also starting to get flooded as well (coz QC was a disaster), was in total disraught and felt really helpless (atleast I knew I was inside)... I just want to say that I'm really grateful that you took me in and assured me that things would be alright... that I am safe and that nothing bad would ever happen to me. Thank you coz you asked for my family's condition, and wasn't only concerned about me. I appreciate you holding me through the night and drying up my tears... most especially for crying with me, for me... I knew you felt I didn't trust you or that I was feeling unsafe...

Just so you know, beside you, is one of the most safest places I've ever been. I know that bad things won't happen to me coz you'll make sure that I won't even come close to anything that would pain nor hurt me. Just like, I'll make sure that things would be alright for you... that I shall own the universe just to make sure that nothing bad will happen to you.

I just want to say thank you.

Really really thankful... for you. :)

i love you.

***
As for you Ondoy, I'm not mad. You're still part of Mother Nature and what had happened is most probably nature's way of reminding us of our wrong doings. I'm putting on my positivism cap on, and will just be thankful that you made us appreciate life more, our surroundings and most especially the people we interact with and those we don't even know, who exercised their being human, by helping their neighbors out. It saddens me to know though, to the point that I've been crying for the whole Sunday afternoon, the devastating news about some of my friends who are greatly affected by the typhoon and even those I don't even know. I just hope that we be strengthened by this recent disaster.

HELP US, God. Amen.

***
Hope everyone's safe and sound now. Sabi nga nila:

When your knees are shaking, kneel on them.

it's THE National Thank You Day Philippines!

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 19:44:00 +0000

Dear,

It's time to say THANK YOU once again as we celebrate the NATIONAL THANK YOU DAY, brought to you by Toblerone. Just visit http://www.thankyoudayphilippines.com and vote the person who you think deserves a nation's thank you.

You could also upload photos of friends you are grateful for, send a Graticard to someone and say thank you for having them in your lives. Make National Thank You Day an official holiday as well! :D

***

SPREAD THE WORD GUYS :D http://www.thankyoudayphilippines.com.

THANK SOMEONE TODAY :)

Thanks,

National Thank You Day Philippines

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As an Advertising / Public Relations Account Executive ...

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 03:08:00 +0000

kahit nasa PR na ako, ganyan pa din hahahaha :)) taeeeeeenuh. hail hail to the AEs!!! (got this from the inarnets)

THE MASOCHIST AE

I truly believe that people who enter the esoteric (read: misunderstood, misconstrued, or in layman's terms, because most people don't really know what it is exactly) world of advertising/public relations are the truly insane.

Those who leave the industry have VERY good common sense and a sound sense of self- worth; those who leave and come back are certified nuts; and those who stay forever (and do not even entertain the thought of shifting into another field) -- or for a long, long time, at least -- are the ones who love to suffer.

But the inherent, unarguably 100% purebred masochists are the ones advertising people call the AEs. They are the Account Executives, the

so- called unsung heroes of product launches and successful market performances since time immemorial, or, to quote a recent essay on a similar subject, the quintessential advertising/pr person.

The AE has a thousand definitions to his name, but allow me to narrow them down into five:

1. Your parents do not understand your job description. Excerpt from a real-life dialogue between an AE and her mother:

AE: Hey, that's my TVC!

Mom: Really? You mean ikaw ang nag-isip ng idea for that commercial?

AE: Uh, not exactly.

Mom: But you did write the script, didn't you, anak? Idea mo lahat 'yon diba?

AE: Erm...well, it was more like I orchestrated the entire production, Ma.

Mom: Honey, I don't understand. Ano ba talaga ang ginagawa mo?

In a nutshell, parents don't understand that advertising is more than just being a creative.

2. You are the sounding board of everyone. (Euphemism: Everyone yells at

you.) Your client yells at you. Your creative yells at you. Your boss yells at you. Hell, kulang na lang that even the company driver yells at you for making him drive all the way to Bicutan and then to Marikina, AND THEN back to Makati.

In actuality, they all yell at you because you are their connecting vein. You are the DNA of the system. You are the air trafficker who decides which plane goes in which direction to avoid an airborne accident. Take heart: Without you, all of them can't function properly.

(Shempre kailangan ng JO!)

3. You are supposed to exercise your (I quote) considerable powers of PR

(Read: kaplastikan). No matter how much you hate your support groups, you'll always have to be nice to them even if your insides are producing enough acid to burn your digestive system. This is because you need them (and they, in turn, need you -- though they refuse to acknowledge such.

After all, without you, where else would they get their salaries -- through sidelines?).

4. You are a VERY high-paid maid of Clients. The common perception of other advertising people is that the AE is a Client's yes-man. "The customer is always right," goes the saying after all. This is because creatives see AEs as the Clients' sidekicks when in the agency. I've actually heard one co-AE say despairingly, "Prostitutes are better off.

They can say no if they're tired and want to call it a night." Not the AE. Even though you're having a bad hair day, experiencing extremely painful menstrual cramps, not to mention having to deal with spoiled creatives, you have to make sure your Client gets his deliverables, which were needed "yesterday." (Sounds familiar?)

But, in defense of the AE, they do not say yes to Client all the time:

it just seems that way. The AE, in relation to her kaplastikan prowess as discussed in point #3, has to do a lot of verbal ballroom dancing in order to make the Client see his or her view. In fact, the general rule among AEs is (paraphrased though): You cannot just say no just because.

In line with the advertising motto that all campaigns must have a strategy, so do the AE when it comes to dealing with Clients. As most Clients are sensitive about being brutally rebuffed, AEs have to massage their egos if they disagree with them.

And on that note, notice how, in advertising, the word "client" is spelled as "Client?" With a capital C? Isn't that equating "Client" with "God?"

God forbid.

5. You are...McGyver. Resourcefulness is your middle name. Advertising urban legends claim that AEs have gone through hell to make sure both Clients and creatives (and to a lesser degree, your other support

groups) are appeased: sitting in the broom closet until the creatives finish the compre for a print ad, hiring a kalesa's horse to ride through traffic in order to present a storyboard to Client, even bribing a DTI representative to give you a DTI number for a promo poster.

These are not myths. They have actually happened.

In the same vein, AEs learn how to be jacks-of-all-trades and masters of disguise and deception, because they know that at the end of the day, managing to deliver (and deliver right) is what matters. The AE is a celebrated case study for borderline personality or schizophrenia because all sorts of persuasion and coercion methods have been exercised by him or her: the use of charm, tears, and cleavage exposure are patented trademarks of an AE who knows how to get what she wants.

It may sound as if the AE is a person to be pitied, but no. Because while AEs love to whine about their dismal existence, they know, in the deepest recesses of their beings, that they feel like comic superheroes at the immense agony they have gone through and will be going through.

If you listen carefully enough, you'll hear the pride between the angst, the complaints, the sighs. They know they are strong people and while not a lot may be able to understand and appreciate that, they have each other to turn to for a metaphysical sense of empathy.

And, even if, an advertisement will merit awards for the creatives and the brand manager gets a raise for a product's market performance, the AE knows that she (or he) was the one who did it all.

And that unspoken truth is the reason why the AE is deemed a masochist.

Lola Techie | Teach Lola | and my sabog brains.

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 15:20:00 +0000

as a communicologist...

i have yet to understand why some people cannot appreciate a well thought campaign, deciding only to critic the surface without truly understanding the messages in between and why some cannot adhere the possibility that the reel and the real can be intertwined in this industry of messages...

like LOLA TECHIE.

1. lola techie (pronounced as tet-chi) is real. i personally know her, and the lola techie--the funny, perky and all that nice stuffs that people described her as, is indeed real and yep, she does know how to use the internet and all the facebook, youtube, blah blah blah.

though let's all be realistic, she is not as techie (tech-y) as people expect her to be (example: super knowledgeable of this and that blah blah). :D

2. we cant really be that disappointed with lola techie coz from the very beginning, what she wants is to encourage, aside of course the use of the Bayan DSL, the younger generation to help bridge the widening gap between them (young) and the old ones.

some people kasi (i'm not pertaining to any particular posts :D) get mad at lola techie for not being too tech-y or coz she's just some marketing tool/advertising tool.

she is. she didn't deceive us. from the very beginning, she endorsed bayan dsl. naturally, to sustain the advertising means which isn't enough, a very ingenious marketing campaign must be kept up in order for her to communicate better the key messages of Bayan (aside from of course, again, getting and using Bayan DSL).

3. because of that, i guess it's only right for me to try to understand that not all marketing/advertising strategies can convince each and everyone.

so much for communication and my random thoughts... :D

PS: i understand that there are Teach Lola Sessions that they are advocating for, let's all support it. If we don't want to use Bayan DSL, atleast let's all try to be supportive of their thrust to educate everyone in the use of the Internet medium. :D

true or false?

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 03:37:00 +0000

when your reality becomes better than your dreams, and pain is an idea of your past... you become selfish of your happiness. thus, you limit your writing, your sharing, your everything. you screen all things beautiful because you want it for yourself...

or maybe, you just don't know how to put into words your happiness.

because happiness is to qualia, and pain... pain is to empathy.

true or false?

demanding

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sun, 14 Jun 2009 15:50:00 +0000

how could you allow me to hurt you as much as ive hurt you now? please fight back, that's how things should go. don't make me break your heart, coz the sound of you're heart shattering to thousands of pieces hurt me more than you can ever imagine. it's killing me knowing that you're crying because of me, and that you can't sleep because i wouldn't want things to be okay between us because i am pissed with how things went tonight.

how many times do i have to tell you that you are more than enough for me? that it is I who has this big ego problem, and attention deficiency.

im so sorry that ive caused you so much pain... :(

i love you, baby.

...........doh

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sun, 24 May 2009 12:00:00 +0000

i will always end up pushing people away. it's not that i meant to do it. all i want is one person, just one person, who won't ever give up on me.

beauty in the breakdown

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 19:42:00 +0000

When insecurity and lack of self confidence gradually make you into a monster-- a person who deliberately infuses pain on other people, it is best if one reverts to the sickening ideals of indifference (apologies to those who believe that mediocrity is A-ok). (indifference) is a crime worthy to be done.

To be unfeeling, even for a while, means salvaging anything and everything worth saving.

the beauty of breaking down and middle ground.

Dear Reader,

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sat, 11 Apr 2009 21:42:00 +0000

_______________________________________________________
________________. _______________________, ______________.
________, ________________________. ______. _____________, _
_____________... _______________. _________... hiatus. till whenever.

amen.

Bitch rules 101

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sun, 05 Apr 2009 15:18:00 +0000

BITCH RULES 101

1. Bitch hard.

Kung mangbibitch ka na lang, eh, i-todo mo na. Bakit mo pa ipe-preno ung bibig mo eh nambabalahura ka na rin lang naman ng pagkatao? FYI, there is no such thing as mild bitching nor that 'consider-what-others-are-feeling' point of view if you are truly a bitch.

2. Bitch well.

Simple lang naman yan, eh. Siguraduhin mo lang na kung mangbibitch ka, eh, nasa tama ka. Kung hindi man (tipong gusto mo lang talaga magpaka-mean girl effect), eh siguraduhin mo lang na hindi ka mabibitch back ng mas malala. In short, make your bitch-ing, flawless

3. Bitch intelligently.

Maraming feeling bitchesa lang sa buhay na ang lumalabas lang sa bunganga eh kung anong sa kademonyohan. Minsan tuloy ang nangyayari, parang ang babaw ng pangbibitch. Ewan ko kung applicable ito sa mga feeling bitchesa na nambabalahura lang ng ibang tao for the sake na gusto nilang malabel-an silang bitch. Pero ang tanging tao lang na makakapag- "bitch intelligently" eh ung mga taong nangbi-bitch kasi may reason.

Simple lang ang premise ng isang bitchy statement, a) kailangan tatagos sa pagkatao niya ang pangyuyurak mo sa kanya (yung maaapektuhan siya at mabobother) and b) matalino pa din ang labas mo at sopistikado.

4. Bitch with reason.

Hindi lahat bitch. May ibang feeling lang. Naniniwala ako na maganda kasi sana ang depinasyon ng salitang yan eh (yung bitch). Parang 'strong-willed' na maganda ang meaning sa totoo pero pag sa ibang tao ang labas lang niyan eh matigas ang ulo. At maia-apply lamang ang rule number four na ito para sa mga taong bitch kasi may dahilan, at hindi dahil gusto lang nilang maging mean.

5. Bitch that poor little "victim" of yours face-to-face, not from behind.

Para ito sa mga ibang tao na nambabalahura ng kapwa habang nakatalikod ito sa kanila. Tapos pag biglang harap eh ang bait bait bait. Naniniwala kasi ako na hindi bitch, kundi isang malaki at nagsusumigaw na backstabber / backbitter ang mga taong di kayang mangbalahura ng tao na tipong in yer face, mehn! Ganon. Siguro maaaring hindi ung biglaang harap-harapan na "hey you, ratatatatata". Pwede naman ung buhos ng irita sa likod nung tao tapos sasabihin din niya yun ng in your face after--- hindi dahil sa nahuli siyang nambabackstab, kung hindi dahil sa talagang gusto niyang malaman yun nung tao na mula sa kanya yung lahat lahat ng masasakit na salita na sinabi din nito sa likod. Nagets niyo?

did i make sense? hahahah!!!

dahil hindi ikaw tunay na bitch kung hindi mo kayang mang bitch ng tama.
isa ka lang malaki, nakakaawa at napaka walang kwentang "scaredy cat."

amen.

Boxed

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sun, 15 Mar 2009 13:10:00 +0000

I am very much like Pandora's box—i contain everything evil (and negative), but there is still something good inside me to look forward to.

Also, I am very unpredictable—if people can't adjust to the rapidness of the current that they are following, then sad to say, they better let go...

Again, I am Pandora's box—i contain everything evil (and negative), but there is still something very very good inside me to look forward to.

AMEN.

---aside.

The new layout (banner, actually) is not really new. It came from my multiply site which housed that banner for almost a year now. Currently, my multiply site has the ugliest banner, but at least my blogger (for a change) is now more pleasing to the eyes. :)

Some people have been imitating my "amens" which I have grown quite fond of—using it every after sentences (may it be online or offline). Not that I'm owning the word, but when a lot of people from your circle(S) are using it, the whole word usage becomes uncomfortable on my part. Not that I'm complaining... Hahahaha!!!

Ok, fine. Everyone has the right to use the word. Who am I to stop them?
eheheh (feelingerang superboi.)

inevitable human condition

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sun, 15 Mar 2009 05:27:00 +0000

This post, to date, is intended for five people.

In a matter of 59 hours, I have been briefed unexpectedly by life as to how pain intends to make us human and how the elasticity of our being is put to test—much like an emergency client meeting happening in a matter of minutes and a gazillion projects are given to you to be produced ASAP. Call it stress, call it impossible, but at the end you'll realize you can get through everything one step at a time.

Right now, I am clueless as how I can be of help to my friends. I know for a fact that I am only capable of giving aid up to a certain point only. At the end of the day, as the cliche goes, everything is still entirely up to them. And while I am hoping that the list stops growing and praying that magnanimous strength be provided to them, I give you this song to serve as an inspiration.

God never places any of us in a situation we cannot get out of. The solution is always entirely up to us because God has given us everything we needed in the very beginning. We only have to recognize these solutions in order to get on with our lives. He is there to keep us sane and to keep us from giving up. because He believes in us... who are we not to believe in ourselves, right?

To the five people close to my heart, you can go through this... solve your problems one at a time.

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When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts. You are not alone

\ : self relenting

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Thu, 12 Mar 2009 20:42:00 +0000

Holding anger is a poison...It eats you from inside...We think that by hating someone we hurt them...But hatred is a curved blade...and the harm we do to others...we also do to ourselves.

---quote from Five People You Meet In Heaven.

if there is one thing i learned in my work experience(s), especially with my very first employer, the quotation above would suffice. earlier readers of this blog and my multiply site, witnessed how much soul searching i needed when i got out of my previous company. needless to say, everything went blank after that first work. the pain i felt was so intense that i needed to really find myself; to the point that i even wanted out (in this industry and out of this country).

then the pain turned to anger. i hated my boss (and later, the company, after they gave me an 'alternative' job offer just so i will still stay with them-- this only few people would know; irvin, lish, gelo, aine, ven, diana, etc...). the ill feelings i had for them mounted to wanting to get work way above what they expected of me, just so that i can tell it straight to their faces, "hell yeah! in your face, people. im in a waaaaaaaaaaaay better company and is treated waaaaaaaaaaaay better there."

and i did. i got in a better, more renowned, and uber awarded company, sought after by so many, in this industry. though i knew at the back of my mind that i wasn't entirely ecstatic in the idea of venturing into a career with this new company, i still accepted the offer because i wanted to prove much of myself to my former boss, and was too overwhelmed by how big this company's name is.

............

when you enter things you are not one hundred percent sure of, or pushing through something out of anger or revenge and/or the likes, you most likely are gift wrapping a headache and heartache in a time bomb to be opened in a very near future.

then it all kaboooooms!

and then you realize, anger is a poison, which you use to kill yourself. it eats you.

amen? amen.

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(back)slash would me a whole lot of things... /anger; /everything. \opportunity; \learnings. \sheesh.

i continue to thank those who knew better and still are mindful of how i feel up to this very moment. sheeeesh pa din :) hahahah not everyone knows and understands.

i've moved on. and has forgiven a lot of people.

i surrender myself to Him.

amen.

the contest of omniscience

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 21:36:00 +0000

equation:

GOD = UNIVERSE = MYSELF

...so when I pray to God to provide me strength so I can pass with flying colors the 'constructive situations' (in layman's term, sometimes even my term: pain/hell/sorrow) of life that He puts me in—I discreetly hope that the universe provides me of all the positive force it can send out to me and secretly wish that I find within me the samie who conquers all troubles that pass by.

...so when I pray to God to help my friend on whatever it is that he or she is going through—I am discreetly asking the universe to move the earth a little farther away from the moon-to lessen the pull of gravity and minimize the negative vibes in the world and secretly hope that I become an instrument for him or her to realize that there is a solution within him or her, that he or she needs to recognize.

...so on and so forth.

fyi only, i don't believe in confession, nor in the Church's concept of 'hell', nor in a whole lot of hullaballoos that the Church and the matrix of good and evil assert. I am a sinner (based on my own matrix); I question some things that religion nor science can't explain at this very age. However, I am not an agnostic, and most definitely I am no atheist. I prefer to be still called a Roman Catholic and keep my spirituality and beliefs, label-less.

I love my God (and all other gods you believe in) with all my heart. For they are all equal. Whoever it is that you believe in is no lesser, nor greater than the One to whom my faith is entrusted. And a lot of people can attest ow much I love Him with all that I have.

So for those who might react why i am = to GOD and the universe and think that I am committing blasphemy here—FOR ME, I believe I am God because God resides in me, much as it resides in every person I know and do not know. (and do understand this in a deeper context and hopefully in a positive one.)

Faith is made stronger when you base it in your own context and definition.

amen.

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there is something behind the throne greater than the king himself
- sir william pitt, house of lords, 1770

i understand

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 16:36:00 +0000

1. that i will always be lied to.
2. that i will always have to 'understand' everything everytime.
3. that i am not someone you trust-the very reason why you have those apprehensions.
4. that i will never make someone realize what his real worth is.
5. that i am never going to be a priority.
6. that i will not be loved as much as before.
7. that i have to shut up from now on since most of the time, i am not someone you will listen to.
8. that i will have to deal with these.

...because, again:

i
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalways
understand.

amen.

sick

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Thu, 19 Feb 2009 17:05:00 +0000

KUNG KUMAKAIN KA OR DI MO GUSTO ANG USAPANG LABASAN NG DUMI SA KATAWAN, WAG KA NA.

sa pamilya, ako ang may pinaka mahinang resistensya para labanan ang mga sakit sakit. sa tuwing nagkakalagnat ako, o kahit nga lang ung magkaka sipon pa lang [hindi pa sinisipon ah], feeling mo eh trangkaso galore na ang inaabot ko sa sobrang init ko at taas ng temperature.

pero sa pamilya namin, kahit na ako ang pinaka-"mahina," eh ako itong never pang na-confine sa hospital, never na-dextrose, never na-operahan or whatsoever. eerrrm, hindi ko naman hinihingi na mangyari yan sa akin [anobe! hahaha] pero gets? weird lang.

pero lately, kakaiba ang takbo ng sistema ng aking katawan. hindi ako nagda-diet or umiinom nung mga slimming teas or nagte-take ng laxatives pero mehn, tatlong araw na akong sirang sira ang tiyan. as in. wala naman akong nakain na panis or may poison. moreso, wala naman akong naiinom na kahit ano. weird lang at masakit sa tiyan at sa internal organs.

sa isang araw sa tuwing peepee ako [oha sosyal lang!] eh sabay na non ang di buong paglabas ng mga iba pang dapat lumabas sa katawan ng isang tao [dumi ba...] at mind you, hindi ito solid or semi solid oag mag exit kundi water, mehn. yikes! kaya naman medyo feeling ko eh dehydrated na ako... at dahil sa bagay na yan, di ako makakain ng anything solid, nor makainom kasi nga sa tuwing may papasok sa katawan ko na food/drink eh kailangan niya lumabas, sa malamang... pero un nga di na talaga siya normal... sa isang araw eh makaka lampas 10 akong peepee... so gets sa ten na yun, ten din ung... oo. un na.

third day ko na na ganito... hindi pa naman ako nanghihina pero nafifeel ko na ang dehydration... lagi na mainit pakiramdam ko kahit lahat ng tao lamig na lamig... what the?!?!

haaay, ano ba problema mo ktawann???

Irate

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Wed, 11 Feb 2009 14:23:00 +0000

panahon pa naman ng mga puso, pero nagkukulang ako sa pasensya.

1. ayoko ng magulong usapan.
1. ayoko ng pinaghihintay ngayon.
1. ayoko ng makulit.
1. ayoko ng hindi marunong sumagot pag kinakausap.
1. ayoko ng ... ugh.

basta naiirita ako.

lovelife

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Tue, 10 Feb 2009 10:00:00 +0000

mahirap ang may lovelife. mahirap din ang wala.

masaya ang may boypren. masaya din pag wala.

dahil pebrero na at ilang araw na lang eh magsisipag pula na naman ang mga tao tapos dadami na naman ang bulaklak at asukal at langgam sa paligid, eto na lang ang pakikisama ko sa mundo.

happy valentines.
sana masaya naman ang pebrero niyo.

ahemen.

Inferiority Complex

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Mon, 02 Feb 2009 07:29:00 +0000

may dalawang taong nagsabi sa akin na may inferiority complex ako. mababa daw kasi ang tingin ko sa sarili ko tapos kung minsan naman na gusto ko i-overcome ang pagka-"inferior" ko, i tend to bitch naman daw.

siguro kaya din ako extremes palagi.

aminado naman ako sa sarili ko na mababa ang tingin ko sa sarili ko. it has been one of my issues sa sarili na ina-address ko by means of pagfi-feeling na pa joke. Atleast kahit papaano eh kahit pa joke nakukuha kong i-assure ang sarili ko na may maganda sa akin.

ewan ko kung sino ang may kasalanan. kung sinong may pagkukulang. maaaring pamilya ko na constantly akong hinihingan na maging magaling kahit na alam nilang pagod na ako at sa mga panahon na nagsasabi na akong pagod na ako at umiiyak, saka lang nila ako pinapayagan na mag rest. pwede din ung ibang tao na palaging inaasahan na maging magaling ako kahit na alam nilang minsan na beyond my control na ang mga bagay eh ginugusto pa din nila na maging magaling ka para sa kanila. pwede din na ung mga highschool friends ko non na palagi akong inaasar na hinahayaan ko lang na asarin ako kasi at that time eh ok lang naman sa akin ung pang-aasar nila kahit na sinasabi sa akin ng mga bestfriends ko non wag daw ako maging mashadong mabait. pwede din ung mga taong di ko kilala na noong bata ako eh grabe magbigay ng papuri na feeling ko eh may masama ng kahulugan or the likes. pwede din na ung sarili ko mismo ang nagbigay sa sarili ko ng ganitong issue... kasi ako itong pumapayag na maging inferior.

siguro kung mababaw kang tao at kilala mo ako, sasabihin mo na wala akong inferiority complex. baka pwede pang superiority complex kasi i tend to manipulate and dominate a lot of people. pero sabi nga ng isang karakter sa pelikula, inferior people tend to dominate because they want to hide their feeling of helplessness by being and appearing to be strong.

nung sinabihan ako ng boss ko at ng kaibigan ko na may inferiority complex ako. hindi sumama ang loob ko. actually, it made me feel good that at least someone recognizes my need so i can atleast understand myself kasi i know there are those people who can see beyond me.

hindi ko alam kung ano ang magagawa ko sa inferiority complex na ito. hindi naman kasi madaling gawin ung sabihin na bukas, di na mababa ang tingin ko sa sarili ko. bukas, hindi ko na iisipin na ginagago ako ng mundo. pero ewan... siguro ill just continue ung nakasanayan ko na at kinasanayan ng lahat...

ako lang ang bahalang pumuri sa sarili ko... kung pupuri man ang mundo... sana lang ang labas sa akin... hindi nila ako ginagago.

ahemen.

YOU ARE PAID TO BE AFRAID

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Tue, 27 Jan 2009 06:38:00 +0000

meron kasi sa office na parang one day leave every week. tawag dun V-day or Virtual Day. you can work from anywhere as long as online ka at ung mga bagay na due mo eh magawa mo. hindi pa ako matagal sa kumpanya ko kaya di pa ako entitled sa V-day. but because of some divine intervention, today is my V-Day. UGH!

nagising ako ng mga 4am ng madaling araw para malaman na nagchi-chills na pala ako. oo nangangatog ng di normal at mukhang may sinat. pinilit ko ulit matulog kasi kailangan ko pumasok sa office at medyo may ilan akong deliverables sa opisina na kailangan magawa though pwede naman ipakiusap sa iba un kung sakali man na mag absent ako. nagising ulit ako ng 7am na mas malala ang nararamdamang pangangatog sa lamig (kahit ngayon) at nag aapoy sa lagnat. ok, fine. kahit na workaholic ako, kailangan ko pa din mahalin sarili ko, di na ako papasok. so text ako sa mga taong nararapat para hingin ang tulong nila at ng makapagpahinga sana ako today para bukas eh solve na ako.

but no oh no! mula kanina pang 7am until ngayon sa mga oras na tinatayp ko ito eh gising ako dahil ang hiningan ko ng tulong sana eh ni hindi man lang ako tinutulungan. Pota, nakakainis lang kasi parang tangina lang kaya nga humihingi ng help eh para naman matiwasay akong makapagpahinga at ng bukas eh di ko sa kanila iaasa ulit ang mga bagay. Pero no, eto ako gumagawa ng mga kabagayan. mas stressful pa kasi mula dun sa laptop "ko" sa office na iniwan ko dahil di naman ako naguuwi ng trabaho eh pinapadala pa sa akin ang napakaraming files. para lang din akong pumasok. eh sana pala pumasok na lang ako di ba? baka mas maaga ko pa natapos ang mga bagay. grrr. ngayon nagpapahinga lang ako kasi naiinis ako at nadadagdagan ang taas ng temperatura ko sa pagkainis ko.

alam niyo un. kaya ka nga nag absent at nagtext para makapagpahinga ka at ng matulungan ka kasi pwede naman silang gumawa non. alam ko marami silang ginagawa pero di ba ang onti lang nung akin. pwede ngayon kahit naka upo ka lang at magtext ka eh.

pasalamat nalang ako kay Venice kasi andun siya sa office para tulungan ako. siya lang talaga ang tumutulong sa akin. eh catch, maraming bagay naman na di ko pwede iasa ke ven kasi di naman niya account un. haaaay :(

ang bigat na like hell ng ulo ko. ung katawan ko (balat) ko masakit na pag nadadampian ng kahit ano. ung leeg ko lumalala ang sakit. at naiiyak na ako kasi masama talaga ang pakiramdam ko. pasalamat na lang ako di pa ako nagdidiliryo. haaay.

at dahil hindi pa ako nakakapagpahinga... sa malamang, hindi pa din ako makakapasok ng opisina nito dahil sa nangyayari ngayon eh mas tumataas pa ang lagnat ko at mas bumibigat ang pakiramdam ko. Haaay. :(

happy

nagmamarunong@gmail.com (superboi) — Sun, 25 Jan 2009 16:01:00 +0000

kahit na nakakatakot gumising sa bawat araw dahil naiisip ko ang maaaring pagalit at lahat na... na ibubuyangyang sa akin ng trabaho sa araw na iyon, eh naiisip ko pa din na maging masaya na lang.

kahit na naiisip ko na maaaring somewhere out there eh baka mas may dapat akong kalugaran eh sige sige na lang ako sa kung nasaan ako ngayon, iisipin ko na lang na maging masaya.

iisipin ko nalang na maraming nag-iisip sa akin at nagmamahal, ok na yun. kebs nalang sa dalawang yan though mabigat siya sa kalooban.

namimiss ko tuloy mga kaibigan ko.