JKSS-ENDLESSWORDS™

iim grateful for whatever uu did.

noreply@blogger.com (-Love-Story-) — Mon, 31 Oct 2011 23:44:00 +0000

so many things happened during the last 4days. october is really not a good month.
ii really wish all these aint happening. sometimes ii feel like ending all these. many a times ii felt useless.

we tried our very best to be strong in front of each other especially him - keeping all the sorrows to himself,not wanting to worry me. ii felt useless not being able to help him and ii really wish ii could read his mind. ii hate seeing him keeping things to himself, yet ii cant do anything cos ii know he did all these for me, for be to stay blissful.

iim very afraid he will break down and ii cant afford to see him breakdown.
he's my one and only support, the only person ii wunt have social phobic with.
thus iim very grateful for whatever he has done for me over the past 8years,treating me differently from how he treat others. ii felt it and appreciates it yet can he feel my gratefulness?

不舍得~

noreply@blogger.com (-Love-Story-) — Sun, 16 Oct 2011 19:42:00 +0000

mark today's date - the beginning of my last week of second trim.

sudden feel of sadness. its a feeling ii cant describe. maybe cos iim a nostalgic person, thats why?

the whole of my right arm has been hurting since yesterday. it aches so much that ii feel lyka handicap. cant do anything much, just bite ur grit and bear with it joycelyn!

currently listening to kids songs. *laughs!* first time listening them to sleep. feels kinda funny though. more funny than listening to classical songs.

ohwells. off to snoozeland!

disappointed once again

noreply@blogger.com (-Love-Story-) — Fri, 14 Oct 2011 17:27:00 +0000

if uu're guilty, then stop hiding stuff from me. the more uu hide, the more uu're disrespecting my trust for uu.
if uu're facing a problem, just tell me the truth. whether we can work a way out or not, its another thing BUT by being honest proves that at least ii know iim important enough to know the truth.

keeping silent doesnt mean nothing has happened. it simply means that the problem keeps repeating till im too disappointed to say anything. uu're the only one who can control what uu want or dunt want to do, not me. unless uu are a robot.

ps: im not stupid.

Baby Randall! ♥

noreply@blogger.com (-Love-Story-) — Wed, 12 Oct 2011 19:50:00 +0000

Monday (10th Oct) - Mr Lew's offday so we decided to visit Ande & her cute lil' Randall.

ii wasnt able to carry him as he's strong plus afraid my lil' one will jealous. True enough, when ii wanted to touch him, she kicked! *aww~*

(psst,she's been extremely active since after the visit. maybe she's excited upon seeing her new playmate, maybe she's....still jealous. hahas!)

babies can really understand whats going on around them. when we were chatting abt my lil' one, baby randall stopped drinking his milk and started making noise until we stopped chatting abt her. lols! amazed.maxed! =O

anyway, enjoyed myself at her house, just seeing how she naturally turned into a mother and seeing how Mr.Lew played and carried baby Randall. its so filled with....♥Love♥ :)

ii believe my hubby will be able to cope with our new love in time to come. :)

enjoy the photos! :D

ii wonder....

noreply@blogger.com (-Love-Story-) — Sat, 08 Oct 2011 19:22:00 +0000

with IT being so advanced and most of us has already input twitter and facebook as part of our lives, are there still anyone who choose to blog nowadays?

just take a look at my exit links. out of so many, only one or two are still actively blogging. interesting lives they're leading. :)

Taurus Outlook for 2011:

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Sun, 20 Mar 2011 19:06:00 +0000

Don't be afraid to push for what you really want.
You have no problem working yourself to the bone to help others realize their vision, but now it's time to put that same effort into making your own dreams come true.
Saying no to others is the first step towards finally saying yes to yourself.

My First 2 Dramas of 2011!

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:05:00 +0000

1) 老婆大人II [Just Love]

A very long ago drama but ii didnt recall if ii have watched part 2 already so ii decided to watch cos ii like hsuan hsuan's drama!

Some parts familiar, some parts like no impression thus even though ii have finished watching the whole drama, iim still not sure if ii have watched it before~ this is not good cos memory failing~ T^T

But anyway, this drama's a good movie to educate family relationship, how to trust and communicate with ur family members and not to forget, compromise each other.

its a very nice and meaningful drama. how meaningful/nice?

meaningful/nice till mr lew also come join me watch the drama. (he's kinda fussy in watching dramas. heehees~)

Sing Sang Sung~

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Fri, 07 Jan 2011 18:34:00 +0000

Current song: Dynamite (by Taio Cruz) ~♫♪♪~~

Let me rewinddd~

6) trained home with jasmin, stomach very upset about the bloated-ness from gongcha!

5) popped by skII counter to find andeline.

4) queued at RC's Gongcha and called ande asking if she wants a cup.

3) dinner-ed at suntec wealth of fountain foodcourt. ii didnt eat cos not hungry so ii used jess's mini HP to send product list to leon, while chatting with leon and waiting for joshua and alson to meet me. jess ate rosti and min ate jap food (again!)

2) went to KBox at Marina Square for singing session with Leon, Jessica & Jasmin! supposedly, ii booked a room from 3pm-5pm, postponed to 4pm-6pm. min and ii entered room at 5pm! x_x so its definitely not long enough for us to sing. aftermath: extend another hour from 6pm to 7pm but have to order 1 drink per pax. end up each of us paid $13 for 3hours of kbox session -.-!!

1) got stuck at home!! cos door knob went bonkers and locked hubby and me inside the house while min got stuck outside after school. ii was going to be super late cos of the stupid door -.-zzz hubby called his workplace to inform about the situation. ii called kbox to postpone the singing session to 4pm. locksmith came and kept doing sales talk and ii super hate his way of sales talk cos it sounds really fake, as if he had a script in his mind. he kept going "wahh! ur door.... wahhs! ur door must.... wahh! its ur door......" hello! create needs also no need create until so fake lo. ii dunt buy ur irritating words. -.-

super upset about something. not gonna share here cos dunt want inevitable quarrels.

anyway, its so great today cos for the first time of my life, ii got stuck inside my house. HAHAHAH! having the fun out of the crisis till ii dunt even feel the urgency to break the door down. xP pocket being burnt a hole though, cos locksmith service - $60, change door knob - $150. total damage: $210!! =((

well, at least problem solved. now everyone's happy! thats what matters most :)

thats all for my day! below's something short ii wanna share for the night.

Time to Reflect: How to keep a Journal.

(ref: http://www.stufftotweet.com/tweetthis/wikihow/time-to-reflect-how-to-keep-a-journal)

Decide what kind of journal you’d like to keep. There are different possibilities open to you when developing your journal theme or approach. You could simply use your journal to write down all the thoughts that come to you at any particular time, randomly, or you could make your journal more focused on a specific theme to draw out something that you’re trying to develop more of in your life. And there is nothing saying that you can’t keep both a random and a specific journal at the same time! Some ideas for themed journals include:

A gratitude journal – in this journal you record all the things for which you feel grateful each day, week, etc. and note the people, animals, events, and things that really matter to you.
A vacation journal – in this journal you record more than just what you see on your vacation; you also record your feelings, impressions, and emotions as they are challenged, changed, and illuminated by your travels.
An ideas journal – in this journal you record all the ideas and inspirations that flash into your mind at any time without warning, providing a place that you can come back to as an idea-storming resource when you have the time. The ideas can be for writing, for business, for play, for inventions, for anything at all!
A child raising journal – in this journal you record all the things that you think are special, wonderful, lovable, and memorable about your kids at different ages and stages. This is a great way to keep a record of those funny words, phrases, and comments made by kids as they grow up and see the world anew.
A transition journal – in this journal you record the transition you’re going through, such as job hunting or loss, becoming a parent for the first time or again after many years, starting a business, going on a special journey, etc. This type of journal can document changing patterns in your life, and it is useful to ask yourself such questions as “What do I enjoy and no enjoy”, “What do I expect for the future in what I am doing now?”, “Which people can help me as I transition?”, etc.

I think ii wanna start an idea journal and a transition journal.

idea journal will be updated into my minipro's dairy app as they allows freehand drawings :)

as for transition journal, ii've decided to do 1 for my web-biz. decision have been already made before ii came across this website :) and the first post's has been already updated in my web-biz. except it hasnt been publicised yet cos iim still considerating on the topics to be updated. however, it'll definitely consist updates on the process of building up my brand. its gonna be fun especially after building my customer base for a year plus,ii am more than excited now to come out with a duplicable e-franchise system so pple can earn some side income online! hehees!! ^^

(of cos, it saves me a lot of time repeating to pple about how ii started out my brand. hahahs!!)

ii guess this post is enough for today. gtg dreamland liao. super snoozy already! gdnights!! :)

last music currently playing: Tonight ii celebrate my love for you~ ~♫♥♪♪~

HELLO EVERYONE!! iimma BACK! :)

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Thu, 06 Jan 2011 15:49:00 +0000

for the year 2009 and 2010, ii've not been actively blogging like ii used to, in those years before 2009. ii know ii've always told myself to blog more often, not because ii want readers to be kaypoh about my life but because blogging is really a great way to relive memories especially when uu feel nostalgic or when uu start recalling back "what have ii done last year's january?" and be surprised at how funny, sad or angry uu may be as uu relive back ur memories via blogpost! xP

okie. ii've been "sleeping" through the year 2010. ii know its not a good sign and stagnant is what ii can comment on my year 2010 progress. ii've been giving hopes to pple and making them wait though they didnt give up waiting yet, at least! >.<

so year 2011, ii know it's gonna be a different year for me because its a Rabbit year and Rabbit year meana extra boost of luck to those born in this and past rabbit years! =)

year 2011 have been good to me so far... luck has been making its progress in terms of $$ and my business career. ii know this luck wunt last long as its only a boost to my confidence and ii should not let this extra boost slip away~ SO......... forget about last year's happenings and resolutions. This year's gonna be different!! (and thats my resolution for year 2011.)

ii've also made a pact with myself after a few days of serious self-reflections on the last few days of 2010.

so here's what ii've summarised from the old joycelyn in 2010 to a brand new joycelyn in 2011!

2011 life slogan: Renew, Reincarnate and Realizing! (having qn marks in ur heads? here's why!)

Renew - to make, say, or do again.

Reincarnate - to be born again / start anew / empty my glass (ii know this is not easy!)

Realizing - Realise my dreams again!!

Pacts ii've made to myself:

No Pessimisms at all! thus at all times uu will not see me tweet,blog or say ii'm disappointed with myself, ii can't make it, ii'm not worthy, ii'm VERY tired, today's a bad day blablablahhh~

Cannot allow myself to be lazy for more than 60% (previously, it was 85%!)

Cannot allow myself to be late for more than 30mins! (previous year, my lateness can go up to 2hours!)

Cannot allow myself to give EXCUSES!! (therefore, if ii'm late or whatsoever, uu know its my fault! last time ii always blame traffic, blame weather, blame headache, blame here blame there but seldom blame myself! LOL!)

EVERY Time update work progress in google docs (learnt my lesson of cellphones dying and all info inside yet to back up due to procrastination!)

EVERY Time update on expenditures in my iphone app! (learnt from andeline! so ii can keep track of what ii've spent for the year 2011 & its a good way to budget myself for the particular month!)

Whatever needed to be done today should be completed by today!

Commit myself to have a healthier lifestyle. (eg: wake up earlier, sleep earlier, have regular meals, drink more plain water etc~)

Commit to eat vegetarian for every 1st & 15th month of the lunar calendar.

Thats all, for my personal pact! seems easy right? but almost everyone is facing the same issues as me! dunt deny!! xP its seems easy but it takes lots of determination and positive energy ok!

As for my career expectations, its simple. expand my branding, implement a duplicable system and take up another side-job :)

anyway, before ii end this post, below is a picture ii've posted because it made me feel funny when ii logged in to check on my blog stats and this is what ii saw - "google search for the week - jkss virus?" HAHAHAS!! some kind of new virus which obviously not known to me. oh well, if its true, ii'm a human virus then! LAWL! xP

Follow me on twitter for instant short updates! blogging is more for those that cannot/too lengthy to be tweeted. hehhehh~!!

Last but not least, please vote for my photo in "Open Rice Where Is The Love" Facebook App Contest.

Here's how uu can cast a vote for me: ‎

1) click "like" on this page: http://www.facebook.com/openrice.sg?v=wall

2) then go "contest" tab and click "vote" > access to app > accept T&C > fill in & submit your particulars cos voters can win prize too!
3) they'll ask uu to submit a photo. if not, just click into "photo gallery" tab (my photo is currently on the 4th page,as of 6/1/2011.)
Alternatively, uu may close the webpage and click into this link: http://apps.facebook.com/withlove/detgallery.php?id=158&ref=mf to vote.

a little bit troublesome ah.. but much appreciated ♥ :)

Thanks & gdnights!

Merry Christmas 2010!!

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Mon, 27 Dec 2010 22:30:00 +0000

Had an enjoyable and experiential christmas this year - BBQ in the RAiN! woohoo~!!

All photos are uploaded into facebook but i'll upload some pics here :)

happy cos made another new friend! =))

ii had fun throughout and yes, it was great barbeque-ing in the big rain!

at some point of time, ii was literally bored so ii started to ask those seating at the same table as me: "let's play a game. see who can guess when the rain will stop." and we started guessing. the rain really stopped at a certain time. for a while later, it started to pour heavily suddenly again! hahahaas!!

Learnt something on that day - Sincerity! -

No matter what you choose to do, people can see the sincerity you put in by the way you act or do something.

quite disappointed in someone though.

Happy Saturday!!

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Sat, 04 Dec 2010 06:08:00 +0000

Agenda for today:

reply emails
daily work-to-do
create new christmas, new year logo
catch-up drama (last 2 epi of mrs p.i)
update blog (hopefully..)
get started w my game (hopefully got time.)

a question for all who still visits my blog:-

What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?

Its gonna be a fun day lata!

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Thu, 25 Nov 2010 21:56:00 +0000

just got home from bar1 at oriental plaza. celebrated khim's 21st! whole body reek of pub smell till babycong bth. thats how he smelled when he previously worked at the nightclub. x.x

seems lyk quite a number of my friends' birthday fell on Thanksgiving Day this year. they must be the most grateful lot! ahahas!!

26Nov (today) is Black Day, is a day where many pple shops the most, according to the americans. wiki it and uu can read up interesting stuff on this day :)

later bringing bernyse to lanjut to play with chloe. its going to be an extremely fun yet tiring day. uu know, looking after 3 kids needs super lots of energy packs =S

my mommy and min stood the night out at lanjut since later min needa go KL with my aunt and some of her teachers. the house's super weird & quiet without my mom! kind of miss her though.

and this chloe is so cute. the 2 exchanged conversations with her that made me laugh hard was:
1) Me (on the phone w her,faking my voice): hello chloe, ii am 小姑.
Chloe (giggles,put the phone away and told my mom): 大姑said she's 小姑!

2) Me (whispers into Chloe's ear and point at min): see, B 姑姑.
Chloe (walked to min): 大姑 call uu B 姑姑.

LoL! B is a secret known only in my family. ahahas! apparently, she's smart! very buay tahan her can!!

ii showed her card magic, she gave me a "so??" face -.-
ii pretended to swollow her toyfood, she went "oh no, uu're going to die," with her hands covering her mouth. then her eyes scanned my body and found the toyfood hiding in my jacket. Hahahas!! funny right?? xD

okie! enuff of her. gonna see her later anyway. iim so happy this week cos ii tot something couldnt possibly happen, yet it did happened! keep telling myself never to judge pple and use 平常心 treat them but uu know when uu are in an environment for quite some time, uu keep repeating what uu do, bcos of this, it becomes an experience, uu learn from it till uu can read what type of pple are they.

take for example, uu have been doing retail sales for 3-6months, actively approaching pple who walks and look at ur products. and bcos of ur constant actions, uu slowly recognise which type of pple will buy ur pdt, which type wunt. and then uu slowly ignore those whom uu predict will not buy from uu. and there goes ur sales. lols!! its kind of fun though. ahahas!!

oh.. iimma thinking of removing my blog links or even private this account bcos ii wanna blog more personal/sensitive issues about my life. hmms... shall seriously decide ya?

am turning in liao. updatr again! ^^

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Drama, DraMa, DRAMA~

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Mon, 22 Nov 2010 10:55:00 +0000

iimma back to blogging!! hahas! been procrastinating for so long uhh cos ii dunt know what to blog about and ya, my life's VERY boring!! -work-cacooning-sleep- lols! Besides, ii've been actively twittering thus twitter becomes my mini instant blog. ii tweet on my instant instincts, feelings, emotions and desires. Plus its a good way to connect with people ya? ^^

anyway, since my last drama blogpost on [公主嫁到], ii have added another 3 dramas completed on my list ^^

1) 개인의 취향 [Kaeinui Chwihyang]

chinese title: 个人取向 [Personal Taste]

A typical romance-comedy drama where the main lead "Lee Min Ho" was misunderstood as gay!

very funny although ii didnt really like its ending. and personally,ii feel he has the factors of every girl's dream lover!

-smart, career of his own, sweet and romantic-

ahahas! Personal rating: 9/10 (^^)6

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2) 장난스런 키스 [Jangnanseureon Kiss]

English Title: Playful Kiss

Korean version of 恶作剧之吻, how the girl, Oh Ha Ni (acted by Jung So Min), persevere and persist on being together with the one she love - Baek Seung Jo (acted by Kim Hyun Joong). ii watched this drama bcos of hyun joong! LOL! didnt really expected this drama to be nice cos the taiwan version - it started w a kiss, ii watched till episode 3 or so then stop le. =X

at least this korean version made me kan wan ta. xP

compare this to personal taste, ii still prefer the latter cos ii feel this playful kiss kind of draggy? x_x

BUT ii admire Oh Ha Ni's determination and the way she face rejections! *FiGHTiNG!* LOL!

Personal rating: 8/10

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3) 讀心神探 [Every Move You Make]

Recommended drama by YL. A very knowledgeable drama based on those typical HK C.I.D dramas.

The special thing about this drama is you are able to learn a bit of human psychology from it. Eg: body language etc.

and this drama also portray how humans can be affected by personal emotions no matter how logical you are. A very meaningful and exciting drama. Should watch! (^,^)66

Personal Rating: 10/10

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currently, iimma busy with year-end sales and promotions. building up with a brand of my own.

its not easy. nothing is easy ya? so lets all persist in achieving what we want in life!

As long as you believe in dreams, Dreams do come true! =)

ii'll do my best to make my blog as active as it used to be. cos it's worth when iim feeling nostalgia or got really bored, ii'll start reading past entries and start...................laughing? HAHAS!

"the more impossible it seems to be, the more possible it actually is!"

To know when to go away and when to come closer is the key to any lasting relationship.

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Sat, 23 Oct 2010 21:09:00 +0000

have not been contacting anyone since....last tuesday?

not sure what happened to me also. ii just feel kind of lost yet cannot describe what is it so please dunt ask what happened to me or why the sudden change in me. ii appreciate everyone who care and bother to ask about me but ii really dunt know how to put it across to uu. =(

today, ii've finally decide to go online to chat and comment on facebook, and do some random stuff.

Note to self: ii've came to realise that there are people who bothers and people who dunt bother.

those who bother will bother those who dunt bother. so question is wouldnt those who bother ever feel tired to keep bothering those who dunt even give a damn?

Sometimes we feel we care too much and the other party dunt even gives a damn but how will we know the other party never did care, whether he/she choose to ignore or choose to hide their feelings?

People like me, gives a damn to everyone who walks into my life, till the extend where iim tiired of holding on to relationships which in the end,we're back to acquaintance. HOWEVER, ii am also the type where ii dunt give a damn, not because ii choose to ignore or bo chup but because ii just hide my feelings so naturally that ii dunt cry nor give warmth to anyone.

this is my weakness. someone told me that before and ii feel its true yet no matter how hard ii try to let myself go in front of others, no matter how many umpteen times ii remind myself to let out my inner self, ii still cant bring out this warm aural. and ii seriously hate this fact about me. am ii just too cool, when ii actually do give a damn to everyone in my life?

ii cant start a conversation.

when iim in a conversation, it'll usually end up with the other party talking until awkward silence breaks out.

ii dunt usually cry, no matter how sad ii am, in front of others.

ii cant give warm comforting hugs. (some people do!)

when people pours their sorrows to me, ii feel so useless that ii cant give any good advice except my listening ears.

when ii see someone cry or feel sad, ii cannot do anything to cheer them up except asking them to look at brighter side of life? or asking stupid question like "why are uu crying/sad?" and because ii wanna prevent myself from asking stupid questions, like the one ii've stated, ii'd just keep quiet and pray hard that he/she will feel better.

ii do care! and sometimes ii even know why are they sad but ii just dunt know how to express it out. iim sucha loser. siiigh~

now to those who are tiired of holding on to the relationships between uu and me, iim sorry and ii do care!

the thing in relationships is "it takes both hands to clap" yet sometimes there's a lack in synergy, when your left hand moves forward yet your right hand stays still or vise-versa. after a while, because of constant "misses", both your hands gets tiired and thus stop trying to get the synergy back, thats when the relationship faded..back to acquaintance or worst, strangers!

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"There's one sad truth in life I've found while journeying east and west -

The only folks we really wound are those we love the best.

We flatter those we scarcely know, we please the fleeting guest,

And deal full many a thoughtless blow to those who love us best. ~Ella Wheeler Wilcox"

"Sometimes two people need to step apart and make a space between that each might see the other anew, in a glance across a room

or silhouetted against the moon. ~Robert Brault"

"To know when to go away and when to come closer is the key to any lasting relationship. ~Doménico Cieri Estrada"

Can't Buy Me Love

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Thu, 21 Oct 2010 20:09:00 +0000

Finally finish watching 公主嫁到.

took me so long to finish this 31 episodes of drama. *mygawd!*

Been quite a while since ii got hook on dramas. now ii am, treating it as leisure only. no longer "chase" dramas cos ii hate to wait for uploads!

公主嫁到 seems similar to 宮心計 (Beyond the Realm of Conscience), just that the latter is much more of a scheming drama. The main casts of 公主嫁到 are same as 宮心計 too! 公主嫁到 emphasize more on family bonding. should watch cos its really nice to see how love grow, the trust and the family spirit.

next up: 개인의 취향 (Personal Taste)

no time to watch on tv. didnt intend to watch until that ahlian sister of mine started to laugh non-stop whenever she watch this online. -.-

Let's see how long will ii take to complete this drama. x.x

*iim.outta.of.everyone's.life.for.now..dun't.wonder.what.am.ii.up.to.cos.ii.dunt.even.know.*

"A Missing Piece"

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Wed, 20 Oct 2010 14:29:00 +0000

Came across this somewhere, somehow..

Because of uu, ii lost my sense of reasoning.

Because my love for uu blinded me.

Because uu promised to love me & cause ii trusted uu,

ii ended up with an incomplete heart with a piece of it missing.

iim not worried, someday someone will fix it.

But he'll never ever find that last piece,

That uu took away with uu when uu said:

"Girl, ii Love uu."

ain't anything

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Tue, 19 Oct 2010 20:43:00 +0000

iim feeling weird.
iim feeling a mixture of emotions which ii cant describe.
iim having complexity in both my mind and heart.

ii dunt wanna do anything, yet ii also dunt wanna do nothing.
ii know iim giving attitude, yet ii dunt intend to give any attitude.

ii dunt wanna be perfect among those who look up upon me.

ii dunt wanna be imperfect to those who look down on me and even imperfect to those whom ii look up upon to.
perhaps ii cant afford to make mistakes. but then again, ii wunt be growing if ii dunt make any mistake. :(

this time, my world is really topsy-turvy.

Last week ii was emotional. This week, iim nonchalent. Just what the hell is wrong with me?

Oh wells, ii just miss my old self. ii guess ii have lost myself.

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sometimes I feel that I should run away from this world to live it all alone.

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Tue, 12 Oct 2010 08:59:00 +0000

ii know my anti-socialism is acting up again.

iim super sad and hurt by what uu have done. ii still love uu but ii just cant tolerate what uu do when uu get hot-headed. am ii not true to uu all these years? why do uu always doubt my love for uu? seriously, ii dunt know. is it really best that ii stay at home and live in a world of just uu?

ii seriously dunt know what uu want anymore.

ii told uu ii will accompany uu today.

all ii wanted was re-assurance.

ii need uu more than anyone else.

your support means a lot more than others.

why do uu always mis-interpret my words to uu?

now ii feel ii should just shut the fuck up and stop talking. more talks = more misunderstandings.

ii finally realised. thanks, not solely to uu but to him too.

in short, iim the suckiest person on earth.

please dunt befriend me, dunt love me and dunt even get close to me.

iim just that icy and not worthy for anyone.

OCTOBER

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Sat, 02 Oct 2010 18:38:00 +0000

current music: 来不及说再见 - 瑶瑶

the internet is so laggy~ even though iim using BOTH mobile and home broadband together. so ii've decided to turn on some songs, play my ps3 but ii ain't got any motivation so ii shut it down after 10mins! =(

october's 2010 resolution is to do the things ii dunt like, to do the things ii fear of doing! and iim doing it right now! iim so gonna improve till ii make it and do the rest proud! :)

okies! sleepy liao~!! update when ii awake!! x.x

Updates!

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Tue, 28 Sep 2010 17:54:00 +0000

iimma very bored now. yes!! VERY!!!

mr lew's working night shift today, tmr is his off day and so he will be off to casino cruise. wunt be coming back at all!! iim missing him right now! =(

iihatethisemptyfeeling

cansomeonepleasetakethisdamnfeelingaway?

iimafraidii'llcryundermyblankybeforeiifallintomysleep

cananyonereadwhatii'mtyping?

song check: 爱失控 - energy

currently triple-tasking: blogging, msn-ing, organising my music folder

this week is a super busy week!

next week is october, gonna go do other freelance thing to increase my income!

ii so farking love freelance!! <33>

iim so gonna go back to my multi-income streams plan.

now that house has been approved, ii so farking need money!!!

can uu imagine downpayment need at least $20K + renovation for 4-rm need at least $20K? OMFG!! plus every month need to pay at least $720 to hdb loan ONLY! havent include miscellaneous bills. siigh! so now ii need to build another income stream, maybe 2 more income streams. so ii have enough savings for my future kids and hopefully, retire early to watch them grow.

moneymatters a lot in singapore. earn $2k only enough to feed oneself. $3k probably can relax a bit. but to have a comfortable life, ii think need at least $4-5K.

comfortable as in no need to scrimp and save, got car, want buy something no need to think thrice, think twice can le.

okies sorry for all the finance issue again cos chatting with someone about this issue x.x

anyway, this month, ii've been fighting hard for bigger pay cheque.

been meeting up with pple. doing my crazy photo album netwerking thingy

yes iim crazy! crazy till ii hardly have time for babycong. =(

song check again: candles - hey monday

reflection for this week: ATTITUDE PLAYS AN IMPORTANT ROLE IN LIFE!

fml!!

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Mon, 20 Sep 2010 21:08:00 +0000

never try to change ur destiny.
accept it as things are.. cos life is predicted. and it have already proven to me.

f myself real hard for thinking and believing ii can change my fate, my future.
it is SO DAMN WRONG!

iim destined to be lazy.
iim destined to go throught bankruptcy.
iim destined not to have any childhood friend.
iim destined not to have any close friends.
iim destined not to work.
iim destined to get married at age 22.
iim destined to be poor.
iim destined not to have a hse by age 27.
iim destined to meet uu with no more choices left in life.

change of ur destiny is bullshit!
live life as it is. why bother so much when at the end of everyone's life is death!

create ur destiny or let destiny create uu.
iim the latter :'(

-hiding.under.my blanket.is.so.cosy-

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Vexed & Frustrated!

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Fri, 10 Sep 2010 19:47:00 +0000

Dunt talk to me if uu dislike my fucking attitude!

I hate it when iim being interrogated and ii hate being chided! Why cannot talk things out smoothly, must flare up leii?

I also hate it when ii rush down somewhere yet the person flies me aeroplane!
I hate it when pple spams my mobile with calls and msges expecting fer immediate replies.
I hate feeling frustrated!

I hate many things in my life!
I hate myself!

9SEPTEMBER2010
-was the day ii truly enjoyed myself!
Relive memories where the 3 of us could chill out and chat fer so long without feeling bored and time passes very swiftly!
-was joreen's happiest moment!
-the day ii feel blessed with many great friends around me!
-ii hope this day could repeat itsellf again ^^

Do not allow egoism stop uu from expanding ur social netwerk bcos uu will be missing out all the fun!
Memories once miss, can never be re-build again.

Monday~!!!

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Mon, 06 Sep 2010 11:39:00 +0000

DAMN!!

ii feel like running away~

Problems coming up one after another. its never-ending!

ii wanna talk to someone who can give me answers to all!

dunt ask me talk to God cos what ii need now is physical advice!

can someone pretty please tell me what should ii do?

iim running short of time!

DAMN!

Headaches!!

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Mon, 30 Aug 2010 15:50:00 +0000

Have been ongoing fer days!!
At first ii thought it was the sun. But ii was wrong cos now, its even more severe!

my brains like dying soon~ x.x

Lazyy Sundayyy

noreply@blogger.com (-LoveStory-) — Sun, 29 Aug 2010 19:01:00 +0000

babycong commented that today iim very nua~
YES iNDEED! ii spent more than 3/4 of my day on the bed!
1 hour bathe,
1 hour brunch,
1 hour figuring out my lappy (which ii soon gave up on it. only use it for gaming purpose >.<),
2 hours out for dinner + haircut + grocery shopping.
Total 5hours +/- LOL!

GAOLAT~!!!

the rest of the 19hours -
10 hours sleep?
2 hours drama on my netbook
2 hours chat on msn
2 hours surf net
and now the last 3 hours, back to drama again, before ii go practice on inception. HAHA!

my netbook makes me sooo nua~ and bcos ii have ppstream in it, ii guess it will tempt me to watch dramas/movies even when ii am out of house. urrghh~!!!

Funny things that happened today:
1) we reached salon, nick left already so ii kind of disappointed bcos baby didnt get his mobile no when they actually do hang out and baby only trusted him to cut his hair. so our conversation went like this:-
baby: tmr we come cut lo.
me: how uu know he will be in? maybe he tmr off or what lei? ii cut now la, since iim here and ii dunt know if tmr ii will be lazy to come back here again.
baby: cannot be. tmr ii buy breakfast for uu then 2pm ii wake uu up, ii accompany uu come here cut then ii go home catch some sleep while uu go out lo. ii later go ask fer nick's schedule.
me: siigh~ see how la.
so baby went back to the salon to ask the ladyboss for nick's schedule. WHO KNOWS, so coincident, ii hit bulleyes! Nick TMR OFF! LOL! temporary only cos his offdays usually on tues or wed. hahahas! ii suddenly feel that ii can start to consider to be a fortune teller. xP

2) baby left his shoebag at the bus stop and ii had to go down to the bus stop to take his shoebag all the way to.......interchange to pass him. NO CAB! and waited for 1 damn bus for 20mins -.- so xiao ji.. baby kept calling to see if ii am in cab liao ma.. but end up, ii took bus cos bus arrive first. zzz. luckily he was just in time for work ii think. =x

3) jean commented that it was so cool when ii sat outside to eat my mango pudding.
jean: wow! uu're actually sitting at the same table with me in the living room?!
jean then calls out to min : wow! thats so cool! dajie is sitting outside with me.
me: huh? why?
jean: bcos uu usually coop urself in ur room. come back, enter ur room, close door. eat also eat in room.
me: thats bcos my room has everything.
jean: so what makes uu want to sit here with me now?
me: cos ii want kor to help me download whatsapp into my iphone.
jean: cheyy!
LOL! so funny! but is there anything wrong with cooping myself in my room? =X its a pleasure to do that uu know. cos uu have the bed! HAHA!

urrgh! time for drama~ so long never watch idol drama liao. how ii wish someone can accompany me to watch dramas~ ii dunt mind traveling but must have bed for me to nua and watch~ LOL!