Of coz I can just stop him. Of coz I can just use my authority but knowing how good he is when he’s doing his very very hard homework and finish it with a promise he can play the PC afterward, I surrender. After all, he deserve it.

Sigh. I need my own laptop. yeah, a laptop, netbook whatever. The smaller the better. Of course I want all the power like my desktop PC has. Well at least I can view my email or watch a short video. I wanna use my hubby’s one but his own is so old and furthermore, he always use it.

Come on. When is the next PIKOM. Where is the next laptop deals available locally? This time I wanna go with my hubby and purchase one suitable laptop just for me. I probably buy with blue flower cover along with it. I know I like the new Sony … but it’s way too expensive.

Anyway, what about me? What is my need? Is wanting something like a full time nanny in the house is a need for me now? Is wanting to have all the nice shoes out there a need for me? Or is wanting to go out shopping with no limitation on what I can buy is a need to me - or is it just a mere wish?

I do know like right at this very moment, I want a nice, easy to use, dummy proof camcorder to capture all my kids behavior especially at weekends. Yea, thinking about it, I do want a camcorder. I just hate to story-telling my hubby when he comes back at night on what funny or sweet things his kids do to me. He always reply with an answer, “Serious? Really? You’re kidding, right?”. Like that. So if I have a camcorder, I just let him see it. Done. Haha.

But where do I can see all these nice camcorders? Which shop that sells cheap but reliable. Cheap but easy to use. Cheap and very cheap???

Hmm, I think I just said too many cheap words up there. Hahaha. Well what to do, I’m on budget anyway. I just wish I get it before this Christmas. I so wanna use it to capture the moment. This I think is a need … FOR NOW!! Hahaha.

I just wish that someone special near me has look into this wonderful area rugs which pretty nice, suitable for one corner in our living room. I hope he sees that and bring me along to buy one of them. I want him to choose it for me which obviously not easy. Well, nevermind, as long as he buys it for me and call that small corner of the living room as mine … I will be very much happy already.

I can dream right? Well this is just one of dream. The ladies corner.

Especially after hearing hubby said, I look better after so many times breeze walking. Sometimes I’m not sure whether he really means that but still I feel better for myself. I do feel energetic. Now I want to up the exercise routine. This time I wanna make sure I not only go for breeze walking but really run all the way. I did actually at Bukit Padang. Girls, I tell you. It really hurt on the knees. To add the pain, my current shoes are not meant for jogging.

Damn, the things I have to do so that I do not have to take all those diet pills really sometimes, taxing my mind and body. However, do you think it’s worth it? Listening to my body and to what hubby said, I think it’s all worth it. After all, I am not young anymore but I have to take care three young kids and not to mention the ‘youngest boy’ in the house. I need all the energy I can to make everyone happy. Imagine carrying the twins left and right and the elder Josh want to join in too. Fainted!!!

Well, you know what I mean. I ‘m not saying you do not trust him fully. All I’m saying just be truthful to yourself. Let me get straight to the point here. When you have pimples, that is not beautiful! For sure he just kidding you if he says you look ok even though the acne aka pimples right at the tip of your nose.. which almost wanna explode. Haha. It really is ugly.

So, to those has good experience with solving this dilemma, I’m talking about acne ok. Can any of you share what is the best acne treatment available locally and cheaply, without going under the surgery table - as they call it. Come on share here ok. You know I hate pimples. At this age, you really don’t like it to appear. As if we still teenagers. Haha.

If you just busy working the heck out of yourself, ignoring your need and the life around you - you surely gonna die faster than the people who do nothing but enjoying their life out there. You know why? Well, there are so many reasons but one reason I know that can lead to your early funeral is by staying stagnant. Not moving your muscle. Thinking just by using yer brain … well still considered not moving. You die fat probably. Ooops. Serious friend. you need to exercise even though you are working. The best thing of course, go holidaying. Best for the mind and the body. [not so good in the financial dept though] but who cares. If you think it’s worth it, and I tell you, it is worth it, you will do anything to achieve it - I mean the money to finance your holiday shopping spree.

Have any of you heard about this Mesothelioma cancer? Well, to a norm people like us, or make it, like me, I just call this like the lung cancer even though in actual fact it is not exactly. Do you know working in the office can be hazardous too? Especially if you have asbestos ceiling above your head. Do you know what is Asbestos ceiling? Well, the white board above your head - usually used in the aircond surrounded office. Now this Asbestos is actually very dangerous. I just know about this. I watch discovery channel ok

To cut it short, even you are working ‘happily’ in the office, you can die sooner too due to lung cancer. Remember the asbestos?

Its extremely fine fibers are easily inhaled, and exposure to them over a period of years has been linked to cancers of the lung or lung-cavity lining and to asbestosis, a severe lung impairment.

So, while possible.. enjoy your life out there. Remember, it’s your life!!!

While a man was polishing his new car, his 4-years old son picked up a stone and scratched lines on the side of the car.  In anger, the man took the child’s hand and hit it many times, not realizing he was using a wrench.

At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures.  When the child saw his father, with painful eyes he asked, “Dad, when will my fingers grow back?” The man was so hurt and speechless, he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times.  Devastated by his own actions, sitting in front of that car, he looked at the scratches the child had written ” LOVE YOU DAD!”  The next day, the man committed suicide……

I’m touch with this story becoz I do act like this. When my children play with my handphone, computer, handbags, perfume, my skin care products, I automatically scolded them and hit their hands. But of course, not with can or wrench but still, all this can be avoided if I put my things properly

I know anger and love have no limits, but if only I can make myself choose love more than anger, I know I can have a beautiful and lovely life as a mother to my lovely kids and a wife to my hubby.  If only I can keep this thought in mind…”Things are to be USED, people are to be LOVED” ….if only I can

Any idea what else  I can do with this deco?

I know the flowers as well as the birds needs some washing and a bit  re-arrangement but I wanted to do more..I mean other than that. But the problem is I’m not an artist and I’m not good with flower arrangement

So what else can I do? Should I make it to a heart shape or just leave it as it is? I feel so sayang to throw as this was one of my decoration during my wedding..ada sentimental value people says

I’m hopping someone who is very generous out there and who happen to read this post will give suggestion on what should I do with it