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2012-01-26T11:22:00.001+11:00

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You know you have teenagers when....

2010-12-19T07:12:00.000+11:00

You are the first one up in the morning!

All those years spent praying for a decent sleep in, the early morning duties, spooning soggy weetbix into little cherubs greedy mouths, smiling back through sleep encrusted bleary eyes, holding your breath during that early morning nappy retrieval, the joy in four loads of washing by 8am..............

And now you are the first one up, not at that much dreamt about 9am, but bright and early by 7am, tip-toeing around the house marvelling at how life changes, how fast it moves and how, despite the bumps, we need to appreciate every single moment.

A week until Christmas!!!

2010-12-18T18:07:00.001+11:00

I can hardly believe it.

Don't think that I am going to crack that magic 100 mark by Xmas but that's ok.

My restriction is pretty good but my choices haven't been that great, it's amazing how the lapband protests to funny things like the skin on grapes but doesn't bat an eye at chocolate.

I haven't been drinking anything alcoholic and that has certainly helped move the scales.

I could also use a little of that magical excercise thing, and I am hoping the motivation to do that is hidden in the new year.

In the new year I will be working on a new project for three months, I will be able to dictate my hours and with the girls on holidays that is likely to be a 7am start so I can finish early, hit the gym and still be home by 5pm.

Hopefully after three months of excercise I will have hit the point of no return and continue.

Things at work have improved and I am sort of in limbo - heading into a new project but not sure of what is on the other side.

All the presents are wrapped under the tree - a first for this time of year. There are a few more things I want to get the younger girls but essentially I am done - it feels good!

Oh What does the week bring.....

2010-11-14T18:05:00.000+11:00

A total load of shit at work and a 1.4kg loss.

Maybe the scales knew I needed a boost this week? It was a shocker.

Started well, ended really badly.

Worst thing is I feel so totally let down.

I am not a 'get to know you & feel like friends' type of person.

But when I do 'get to know you & feel like friends' and you let me down it is pretty bad for me.

Worst still, I can't escape from you, you sit next to me and have input into every minute of my working day.

If you are having a hissy and not speaking it is really uncomfortable.

I shouldn't have to work this way............it's not fair...........but you hold all the power because you won your position and I am just filling in............such is life..........the money isn't worth this.........

Shame I love the job.........

Arghhhhhh

2010-11-07T08:16:00.000+11:00

These small losses and the seemingly required up/down monthly cycle are doing my head in.

I have THREE weeks until my next fill - sheesh seems a million years away.

Up by 400 grams this week - no surprises there, my boobs feel like aching, swollen rocks, my mood is crappy and it all means one thing - TTOM is upon me - gawd I really thought it was only just over wahhh!

I suffer from PMDD and my cycle can be extreme to say the least. I really need to start taking Evening Primrose again as this does help with the fluid retention quite a bit. As for the rest, well I continue to pray the Zoloft is enough this month and that the Imigran will knock the migraines out first go.

And of course I should haul my lazy butt off to the gym, found my membership card yesterday so that excuse is gone.....

More fashion.....

2010-10-23T18:49:00.000+11:00

Just because it was snagged at 40% off!!!

OLD NAVY - casual weekend wear

This does NOT have the white top under it so I am putting it with this top instead

Exhausting

2010-10-23T17:20:00.000+11:00

Is the whole business of life really.

When did it become exhausting? Somewhere between work, children and husband I suppose.

Try as I might to keep my head above water I quite often feel the rip dragging me back down somehow......

Hmm I think they can tell.....

2010-10-22T19:18:00.000+11:00

Over the last few days I have heard these statements not once but several times

"Wow that's a really nice top"
"Have you had your hair done? It's looks really pretty today"

Very flattering and totally fantaboulous for my self esteem of course and I am sure it is because people are noticing a change but can't quite pin-point what it is or don't want to say the dreaded "Have you lost weight?"

I am loving it and also loving clothes shopping! OMG I have done so much shopping it is crazy. Need to settle it down a bit and start getting ready for Xmas I think.

But just to share some of the outfits I have been putting together for work:

From Gap

From Old Navy:

2 months 1 day and 12.1 kgs.....

2010-10-18T08:24:00.000+11:00

Tracking back down......

I have some restriction, if I eat too much it is like a rock in my chest so I don't go there.. for me it is, and probably always will be about food choices.

Oh I was at work the other day, having my crackers and tuna for lunch - now I usually have cruskits but we didn't have any so I grabbed some Ryvita's - ummmm NO!

Whether it was because I didn't chew enough, or they are just too dense I was like UhOh......this is what they all talk about.........sharp pain in the middle of the chest, feeling the need to burp, sneak of to the bathroom.........nothing, now I have a total aversion to being sick so I was quite happy I wasn't, it must have worked it's way down but let me tell you, lunch was well and truly over for me that day!

Why do we do it?

2010-10-12T19:47:00.001+11:00

Eat the things we know we shouldn't.

Travelling along quite nicely until the afternoon meeting where I produced two bowls of lollies for the group to share - yeah right what a joke really I wanted a few myself didn't I.

Then after dinner, having to drop Miss 11 at her modelling classes of course I decided that it would be a good idea to get the twins a reward of McFlurries for being the two most sane people in the house. Of course this meant I could justify a chocolate sundae for myself, and as I was ordering the word large came out of my mouth all of its own accord.

About halfway through eating this I realised that I was staring 502 calories right in the face (as per Calorie King my new best/worst enemy) so to make myself feel a little better at the 3/4 mark I started feeding my darling Cavaliers the rest, incidently they both ADORE icecream.

So in one day I have managed to encourage my children in the belief that a McFlurry is a suitable reward, fed my darling Cavaliers completely empty calories and made more excuses to myself about bad food choices than Kevin Rudd did about mining taxes.

I did however save myself 125 calories from that damn sundae and scored myself a free Big Mac voucher because they took more than three minutes to serve me my cup of fat - yay me!

Still under my Calorie King daily allowance.....

Much the same

2010-10-10T07:58:00.000+11:00

But I am not too disapointed - I expected it.

I have put on 200 grams - in the scheme of things, this is nothing.

A bit of a shakeup though, get back on track, stick to the plan, just because you can eat it doesn't mean you should!

2.5ml and 1.5ml = 4ml

2010-10-09T21:06:00.000+11:00

That is what we are up to.

Doesn't feel any different yet, maybe it will in the morning?

I have to giggle at the number of people my Dr sees on his visits - about 150 each day on the Saturday and Sunday. Hmmmm now 150 x $140= $21,000 x 2 = $42,000 no wonder my Mum told me to marry a Dr!!!!!

It goes something like this.....

Hello's as you walk up the hallway, jump on the scales - good they are going down, jump on the bed, he is a master filler - in and out in seconds, have a drink before you go & seeya in six weeks.

But I love him, the no nonsense, no bullshit style is perfect!

Blah Blah Blah

2010-10-08T18:30:00.000+11:00

Is about how I have felt since I decided a chicken burger would be a good idea on Wednesday.

Ok half a chicken burger because you all know a whole chicken burger isn't going to work.

I swear it really wasn't that great, straight away I felt yuck - too full, grossed out and pretty darn dissapointed in myself.

Maybe that's an over-reaction, I mean it was half a burger right?

Should have stuck to my cruskits and tuna!

Finally - Photo Update 12kgs down - can you tell?

2010-10-05T19:34:00.003+11:00

Ok apart from being a little blurry I don't think there is any doubt that 12kgs makes a HUGE difference!

I was a little hesitant putting these up, but do you know what - anyone thinking about a lapband needs to see the remarkable difference that it can make!

Want to see the rest of the pics? Leave a comment with your email address and I will email you the password.

9/8/10 One week before surgery

5/10/10 Seven Weeks Later

An old post resurrected....just because!

2010-10-03T19:33:00.000+11:00

The Treasure Box

Looks a little bit like this in my imagination.

It sits at the back of my mind and whenever required I carefully lift the lid about an inch, hurriedly drop my latest problem or issue in it and VOILA problem gone!

Over the years I have replaced the bursting hinges, added a couple of new locks and sat on it a couple of times.

There is really some serious shit in there.

I recommend it for all of those that think things are too hard, think its all too much.

Get a treasure box fill the fucker and get on with it.

Oh I am really quite good after all.....

2010-10-03T18:43:00.000+11:00

No football final blow out - my sister in law is doing a new diet - 'healthy inspirations' and instead of the usual junky lunch on offer she made some amazing, healthy and totally delish dishes.

I loved the spinach, tomato and mushroom frittata it was sooooo yummy!

We ended up coming home just after midnight, I drove, got stopped by a breathalyser......there is something very satisying about getting pulled over with a car full of drunk people and being 0.00, it's just such a 'see I am such a good girl officer' moment.

Of course getting home and joining in with the drunken people and being awake when the sun came up may have been something I could have lived without, talk about seedy! On a positive though I did not eat all the usual junk foods while drinking, and did not have a big KFC recovery meal either...............sleep and water work a treat!

Hope everyone has seen the weight watchers mini-meals - perfect for work lunches.

I have had the creamy mushroom penne and creamy tuna penne, both taste quite good for a frozen meal, and the size is brilliant for a bandit.

Weekly update

2010-10-01T12:11:00.000+10:00

Yes it's two days early, but what can I say tomorrow is Grand Final day - again, and I don't plan on being very good, and I don't plan on doing much of anything on Sunday either.

Drum-roll please .............. another 1.5 kgs GONE - wooohooo!

I couldn't be happier.

I thought around Tuesday that this may be an interesting week as suddenly the fill I had two weeks ago seems to have kicked in and I am full after a slice of toast.

Its also been really strange as one day I was full after a slice of toast, the next I hate half a serve of sweet and sour pork and was quite surprised with what I managed, that night three mouthfuls and bang - full again!

This whole lapband jopurney is really interesting.

I also think that I may have actually lost more weight the week prior but because it was that time of the month it didn't reflect on the scales.

I wore my first size 'Large' top yesterday and have a draw full of clothes ready to grow into!

Very exciting times.

So six weeks since surgery and nearly 12 kilos gone - I am completely happy with that!

40 days and 40 nights

2010-09-26T08:45:00.000+10:00

Is how long I have had my lapband in for and I have lost 10.2kgs. Have a look at the weight tally page for my progress.

At them moment I am losing around half a kilo a week which although it feels somewhat slow to me is actually perfect because it will (hopefully) allow my skin the time it needs to shrink back to my new body.

I am still convinced that I will need a stomach tuck, mostly because of the skin that was stretched out after having the twins and never bounced back despite being around 65kgs AFTER they where born - wow that seems a lifetime ago!

Plus I will need a breast lift and maybe a teensy tiny implant just because I can.

Back at work for two weeks now which of course has been the reason for my lack of blogging. Will absolutely promise to do a weekly update every Sunday, and some in betweens as I can.

I am eating everything now, there is nothing that I can't eat, I believe that makes me one of the lucky banded people. No issues with meat. bread or anything like that, I just eat much less than I used to.

And it's funny how your mindset changes, yesterday for example being grandfinal day and a complete shocker of a day nutrition/eating wise I was like hmmmmmmm did I eat too much?

1/2 ham and cheese toasted sandwich, 1 piece toast with vegemite, 1/2 KFC snack box, the head of a caramello koala, 1 piece of toast with one egg, three drinks watching the footy and a few handfulls of chips.

Now once upon a time this would have been:

A whole hame and cheese toasted sandwich, 3 pieces of toast with vegemite, a whole KFC meal, the whole caramello koala, probably 12 drinks, a few handfulls of chips PLUS dips/cheese/biscuits etc because the footy would have been the perfect excuse right? Plus I would have cooked a big family meal to end the day because I always cook the best after a few drinks.

I think I can stop worrying about yesterday!

It was certainly not the best nutrition wise but today is a new day.

Emily's Quest To Be Miss Fashion 2011

2010-09-25T12:39:00.001+10:00

Well after her debut in Miss Country Girl Tasmania, Miss Emily really wants to compete in Miss Fashion 2011 being held in Townsville.

So the ticket selling and fund-raising commence!

First of all she needs to sell 500 tickets to enter, between work, school and home I don't think this will be a problem.

Then of course we need the funds to get her there and make it happen!

We have six months to raise enough for airfares and accomadation costs - anyone have any sure-fire fundraising ideas?

Totally out of control

2010-09-16T19:37:00.000+10:00

No - not with the lapband, that is all going well, my first 'fill' is this Saturday which is great.

I can see those calories creeping up over the last two weeks - 800, 900, 1000, 1100 - now hovering at around 1200 a day but I feel good and a small fill will get me back down to the 1000 calorie mark which seems to be the optimum for bandits.

What is totally out of control is our weather here in Tassie. It is blowing a gale!

All I can hear is the wind ripping through the trees, over roofs and rain pelting down. The dogs are scared senseless and barking at every creak and groan of the fences.

Hopefully it clears up somwhat tomorrow because I am meant to be heading down to Hobart for Miss Em's 'Little Miss Country Girl Tasmania' debut! Oh the things we do.

Will update in full on Sunday, the first week back at work has been a shocker!

First abusive customer seen today and he was a doosie, standing 30cm away from me screaming abuse into my face what a charmer!

Weigh in a day early

2010-09-11T06:44:00.000+10:00

Because we are heading of to Launceston today. The girls are going roller-blading this afternoon and then we will kick back and relax at the Country Club Villa's for the night before picking up DH from his early morning flight.

So a day early and an 800 gram loss, I am happy with that!!!

Time to go back to work

2010-09-09T18:39:00.000+10:00

Because I am bored.

Yes bored - please don't throw things at me but I do actually like my job and four weeks away has been a wonderful break but now I am ready to go back.......bring on Monday!

Pathetic really, I am probably one of those people that would win Lotto and still need to go back to work - might have a year off to travel, sip drinks in Tahiti with Linda Loo, shop in Paris, checkout Disneyland, all the while waiting for my slightly upgraded house to be built, I just want to add a theatre room, full equipped gym and indoor pool with spa - don't want a lot really do I?!?!?!?!

All good on the lapband front, hit the gym this morning have the fat content well under control for today, despite being bored, when I am bored I have 'head-hunger' every hour!

I find that I can't have breakfast until around 10.30ish so planning to have something at work during morning tea and see how that goes.

I am also planning to STOP work at 5.15pm - no longer will I be the silly one there until 6.30pm 'catching' up, no the new and improved me will finish at 5.15pm and get my gym gear on as soon as that last customer is out the door (part of my job as supervisor is to stay until the last customer has left) then..................... I am off to the gym!

A 30 minute workout and I should be home by 6.10pm at the latest!

That's the plan anyway.

Wednesday's Menu

Water
1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
1 x piece of toast with a soft egg on it
KFC - 1 x wicked wing, 1/2 chicken leg, 1/2 mini popcorn chicken, 1/2 small potato and gravy, ohhhh yep naughty naughty but about 1/5 of what I used to have!
1 x Soft Pita Bread Taco with salad
4 x 250ml Coffee
2 x Sponge Fingers

This equates to 1123 Cal or 4695 Kjs
43% of the calories are from fat, 23% from protein, 34% from carbs

Thursday's Menu

Water - not as much as usual need to drink more water less coffee
1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
2 x Weetbix with 3/4 cup skim milk
4 x 250ml Coffee
1/2 a mushroom, tomato and prosciutto omelette
3 x light cruskits
1 x 95gram tin tuna with tomato and onion
1 x chocolate cupcake

This equates to 980 Cal or 4094 Kjs
24% of the calories are from fat, 23% from protein, 53% from carbs

What's the fat in that?

2010-09-07T18:04:00.001+10:00

One of the things that I need to address I guess FAT CONTENT, I need to learn more about the good and bad fats.

It's all well and good to be having 1000 or so calories a day but I need to be careful of the fat content.

Yesterday was a shocker - today a slight improvement and I am sure tomorrow will be even better!

I did hit the gym today so that should help, tomorrow the twins and I are going to the Imagenarium which is having a sporting display, that should be super fun and keep us nicely active for the morning!

I was so excited to find a size 16 top yesterday that fit me perfectly! I love it, and it made me start browsing for more clothes, like I need an excuse I do shop constantly for the girls, I mean Miss 11 has 26 summer dresses hanging and ready to go - BUT shopping for me is a new experience.

This excitement led me to buy a dress - I haven't worn a dress in..........ten years maybe?

I bought this one a couple of sizes down, it can be my first 'target' dress.

What do you think?

I just ADORE it.

And my 'menu' for the last couple of day's

Saturday's Menu

Water
1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
1 x 220ml Coffee
1 x McCafe Cappuccino
1/2 slice McCafe Fruit Toast with butter
100 gram I&J Fish Fillet
95 grams tuna in oil
3/4 cup potato bake
1/2 Vanilla Snack Pack Custard

This equates to 982 cal or 4105 Kjs
41% of the calories are from fat, 24% from protein, 35% from carbs

Sunday's Menu

Water
1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
3/4 crumpet
1 x soft fried egg
1 x 220ml coffee
100 gram I&J Fish Fillet
3 x Cruskits with margarine and vegemite
3/4 crumbed chicken burger
Small portion chips and gravy

This equates to 986 Cal or 4125 Kjs
43% of the calories are from fat, 23% from protein, 34% from carbs

Monday's Menu

Water
1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
1 x 220ml Coffee
1 x small movie popcorn
20 x Maltesers - oopppsss :o)
3 x cruskits with tuna and cheese
1/2 lamb chop with potatoes, carrots and peas
1 x Bulla Crunch Icecream

This equates to 1259 Cal or 5258 Kjs
43% of the calories are from fat, 18% from protein, 39% from carbs

Tuesday's Menu

Water
1 x Centrum Multivitamin
1 x 150 gram Cappaccino Le Rice
1 x Cup my special low fat Nacho's with a tablespoon each of light sour cream and avocado
1 x Cup Pasta Bake & one piece garlic bread
1/2 Rasberry Muffin

This equates to 1047 Cal or 4372 Kjs
39% of the calories are from fat, 13% from protein, 48% from carbs

Lapband = THANKYOU

2010-09-05T09:02:00.000+10:00

Ok Ok - technically the band hasn't done ALL the work because I am making choices about what I eat and about the excercise I do to assist the band.

What the band has done however is allow me to follow those golden diet rules 'a little bit of everything' without feeling hungry!

Weigh in this morning and another 1.7kgs GONE!

Will update pictures later today, if you would like to follow my journey via weekly pictures please leave a comment and I will email you the password.

Oh here is a picture of me on holidays last week, the pants I am wearing - a size 20 - are now to big, lucky for me I already had the size 18 ready and waiting to go. Thanks goodness for my wonderful ladies in the US who post me over bargains from OLD NAVY.

Scamander, St Helen's, Lapband on Holidays

2010-09-04T14:52:00.001+10:00

As promised our holiday update.

First of all this was a well overdue holiday, we where meant to go in August 2009 but I tore through my right calf muscle playing netball and was on crutches for three weeks. I felt totally horrid the week we where meant to go, and could hardly raise my leg to step in the shower so we figured a holiday might be pushing it.

It was a great deal through Sunseeker erhhummmm did I just say great deal?

We actually changed accomadation on the last night because despite being very clean and provising a great continental breakfast to our room, the rooms themselves where less than expected.

Poor Sam at 6 foot 4 and I, still of course needing to loose some 44kgs, squished into a double bed was interesting, no way could I complain about the lack of cuddling!

We changed over to a Blue Seas family unit which suited us so much more. The girls LOVED the pool, and I wasn't complaining about my hour in the Spa either.

The views from the Balcony where just gorgeous, next time we will be staying there (or similar) from the start - no more Sunseeker deals for us.

Early morning View

Afternoon view and back of other units

Afternoon view out towards the sea

We all loved it, and managed to get around and see quite a few things including the 'Pub in the Paddock' with Priscilla the Beer Swilling Pig. Now if you are visiting Tassie this is a must visit, in fact I'd be inclined to stay a night, apparently the food is quite good.

You may have mixed feelings about giving a pig beer - rest assured our offering was clearly very watered down, and I believe the RSPCA have been regular visitors to check on the welfare of the pig.

Still have mixed feelings? Well it's up to the individual I suppose, remember though if not swilling beer at the Pub in the Paddock this pig would have been on your table month's ago.

We saw Priscilla the 2nd 'PB', and there was also a trainee piglet out the back learning the ropes.

Pub In The Paddock - Pyengana approx 40kms from St Helen's

Priscilla's welcome sign

Priscilla catching some early spring rays

Ah she says - visitors how lovely

How do you all do?

Ahhhhhhh a beer - I'd love one!

YUM!

We also went to a cheese factory/cafe just up the road from The Pub in the Paddock. Probably one of the BEST coffee's I have had for some time, but very sparse on the cheese tastings being offered.

Some random shots of the girls - it is so hard to get pictures of them these days!

MUM do you have to?

Jessica (13), Samantha (13), Emily (11)

Jessica (13), Emily (11), Jessica (13)

Emily (11)

Ok one more shot Mum - hurry up!

Having Fun

It was a great couple of days and we all came home feeling really refreshed!

Now as to what I have been eating! Well all my newly-banded, yet to be banded friends you will be relieved to know that I was able to travel on the mushie stage and survive. I didn't always have the 'best' choice but I was on holidays!

I have had no issues with any foods so far (touch wood), making sure I eat slowly and chew chew chew, seems to be the key.

Monday's Menu

Water - the dieter's best friend

1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
1 cup porridge - 1/2 breakfast, 1/2 dinner - everything was closed when we arrived
50grams Spinach and Ricotta Canneloni
1/2 tub LeRice
4 squares Caramello Chocolate

This equates to 507 calories or 2122 Kjs
18% of the calories are from fat, 21% from protein, 61% from carbs

Tuesday's Menu

Water
1xCentrum Multi Vitamin
1x200ml Sustagen
1x200ml Orange Juice
3/4 Banana
1x250ml V8 Citrus Splash
3/4 crumpet
1 x Egg
200ml Coffee
4 x glasses Vodka and Orange
20 grams Potato Chips
4 squares caramello Chocolate

Wowsers what a naughty day!!!!
This equates to 1766 cal or 7383 kjs
25% of the calories are from fat, 10% from protein, 49% from carbs and 15% from alcohol.

Wednesday's Menu

Water
1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
1/4 cup scrambled eggs
1 thin slice bacon
200ml orange juice
1 crumpet
1 egg
100 grams hot chips with gravy
1/4 pineapple fritter
1 x 200ml coffee
20grams Burger Rings
1x Fun Size Crunchie

This equates to 1188 cal or 4962 Kjs
% of the calories are from fat, 15% from protein, 47% from carbs

Thursday's Menu

Water
1 x Centrum Multi Vitamin
3/4 tub LeRice
3/4 Weiss Vanilla and Rasberry Icecream
1 x 250ml V8 Citrus Splash
1/2 pkt Tuna To Go
30 grams tasty cheese
1/4 Chicken Duet - Alfredo
1/2 cup blended veg - potato, carrot, broccoli, peas
1x200ml Coffee

This equates to 797 cal or 3330 kjs
35% of the calories are from fat, 17% from protein, 48% from carbs

Friday's Menu

Water
1xCentrum Multi Vitamin
1 1/2 weetbix with milk
1 200ml Sustagen
1 200ml Coffee
1 Snack size Pratties Baked Potatoe with Satay Chicken - half for lunch, half for dinner
1/2 slice of ham, cheese, tomatoe on toast

This equates to 1202 cal or 5026 kjs
32% of the calories are from fat, 27% from protein, 41% from carbs

Now tomorrow is of course weight in day and photo day. I am really really hoping for a loss of between 500grams - 1kg and madly keeping my fingers crossed that my bad holiday choices don't do too much damage!

We did do a bit of walking while away and on Thursday I went for a 20 minute walk, Friday was a 30 minute gym treadmill/weights session and today is the total 'I have a cold and it's raining' ssort of day!