We lie. We don’t always do it intentionally. In fact, many of us try very hard never to lie intentionally. But that doesn’t mean we don’t lie without being aware of it. Lying stems from self-deception. A lie to another is always a consequence of a lie to ourselves. When we lie, it is always to ourselves first.
Why would we lie to ourselves? Because we are unwilling to accept our weaknesses and frailties. This is because we’ve bought into the ubiquitous notion that to live a successful life means to eradicate your imperfections. Nothing could be further from the truth! This is one of the biggest lies we tell ourselves.
The reason we feel we need to overcome our weaknesses is that we’re wrapped up in ourselves. We use ourselves as the measuring stick to compare ourselves with everyone else, concluding that we’re either better than or not as good as they are. We become confused about our uniqueness and how we can live as our “true selves.”
In order to live our uniqueness and be filled with gratitude for who we are, we must get beyond ourselves.But when you get beyond yourself, where do you go? Exactly where is “beyond” yourself?
There are several answers to this question. I’ll focus only on the one that makes the most sense to me. That is a deity. No matter how strange such a concept might at first appear to be, God makes sense when you realize that in every human life there is an implied “referent.” A referent is something that is always “referred to” during the course of a conversation, a relationship, a life. It is that to which everyone appeals in disputes about fairness, equality and honesty.
That it exists is indisputable to anyone who has spent even a moment in self-reflection; the great confusion and dissipation of a human life is rooted in the lack of clarity of what this internal referent actually is and how it operates in our everyday consciousness.
Upon “graduating” from the Primary Class in Sunday School into the Junior Class, I was presented with a Bible. My Primary Class teacher, Mrs. Albert Meyer, wrote the following note on onion-skin paper (that meant the message was special) that she taped inside the front cover. It read:
June 26, 1960
Dear Kenneth:
Today is promotion day in the Primary dept. and you will leave us and go to the Juniors. We have had you with us for three years and will miss you and your smile. We want you to be happy and to never stop going to Sunday School and church. Every year will make you a better person and someday you, too, will be teaching boys and girls about God.
I hope you’ll always remember the two important things we stressed in our Bibles:
- The Golden Rule (Matt. 7:12)
- The First and Great Commandment (Matt. 22:37-38)
Keep and read your Bible all through your life. It always helps you to be honest with yourself and others.
Sincerely,
Mrs. Albert Meyer
The internal referent in human beings is that which proclaims the truth of our existence. It is unvarnished honesty, an inextinguishable light that exposes our self-deceit. We can expend enormous energy to ignore it but can never successfully eliminate it from our psyche. It is like a drop of vinegar in a bottle of water – it can be tasted in every drink.
Any act of dishonesty originates with our efforts to ignore our internal referent. Our desire to be without fault, to be better than we see ourselves to be, makes us uncomfortable with the truth about us – that our existence is fashioned from every element that comprises the entire spectrum of good and evil. In seeking to ignore the evil elements within us so that only the good parts remain, the good, having nothing left to define and clarify it, has no more reason to remain “good.” Much suffering has been caused by those who have deceived themselves into believing that they knew what “good” was for everyone else; that, of course, was their own inner “good” of self-delusion.
Jesus Christ, the deity of the Christian Gospel about whom Mrs. Meyer wrote, proclaims that human beings should be “perfect” even as the Father in heaven is perfect (Matthew 5:48). This appears to be a mighty tall order for mere mortals short on divine power; but only if you fail to fully understand that such words were uttered as a means to put humanity in its proper place.
Human beings have the tendency to put themselves at the center of all things, believing, in their selfishness, that they have created their own goodness. Jesus is reminding us to be honest about the fact that we have been created and did not create ourselves – including our goodness. Were we to be perfect as God is perfect, we would, in fact, be God. Our original sin is to try to be God (good) by ignoring and making excuses for our imperfection.
With this context in mind, Jesus is making two bold statements with a single sentence:
- it is impossible for human beings not to be imperfect
- human beings should, therefore, not attempt to be perfect as God is perfect, rather to be perfectly human, which means to accept imperfection and even evil as integral aspects of their created condition – to do so is truly to let God be the only true perfection
We need to be honest with ourselves and others in order to be perfect as we were created to be – warts and all. Our internal referent stands as a silent sentinel to remind us of the truth of human existence. The deity is not part of the human mind and spirit just to accuse and condemn, rather, to lead us into peaceful acceptance of our imperfection and weaknesses which then become the source of our unique expression of divine creative power. As the apostle Paul wrote:
“Because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, for this reason, to keep me from exalting myself, there was given me a thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to torment me—to keep me from exalting myself! Concerning this I implored the Lord three times that it might leave me. And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.” (II Corinthians 12:7-10)
As I read it, Mrs. Meyer was right: the Bible helps us to be honest with ourselves and others. I’m glad I learned this lesson at such a young age, when I was far closer to perfection than I’ll ever be in this world again!