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Candice Wuehle’s novel Ultranatural an immersive pageturner, a captivating story of friendship and fame.

Sadie Dupois wrote of the book:

“In a ramped-up retelling of the pop starlet mythos, Ultranatural charts the converse curves of fame-seeking and holy bestiedom through the literary tradition of posting like your life depends on it. Wuehle’s shades-dark humor and astute weirdness are pitch-perfect, autotuned to ring out an alien gloss of mystic uncanny.”

In her own words, here is Candice Wuehle’s Book Notes music playlist for her novel Ultranatural:

Before Ultranatural’s protagonist becomes a pop star so big she goes by one name alone—Love—she is Lacey Dove Bart: a girl from Appalachia raised on the waves of a classic rock station, where she learns defiance from Tom Petty and longing from Bruce Springsteen.

Songs from Petty, Springsteen, Dolly Parton, and Elvis form the emotional architecture of Ultranatural, but they also establish its central tension: the relationship between work and freedom. So much of American rock music is about labor—about what you owe, what you endure, and what you’re simply never going to escape. As I was writing, I listened often to Springsteen’s “Atlantic City,” rewinding and relistening to The Boss groan, “I got debts no honest man can pay.” It’s a line that quickly, quietly captures the raw desperation of trying to live with dignity inside systems designed to extract from you. Lacey isn’t a ‘70s rock goddess, though, she’s an early aughts pop princess, more reminiscent of Britney Spears than Bruce Springsteen. Identical initials aside, the commanality between these two artists that most impressed me as I was writing was the repetition the message of “Atlantic City” as it resurfaces the polished brutality of Spears’ 2013 hit, “Work Bitch.”

For both Britney and Lacey, fame is not a release from labor but its most intensified form—an existence in which the self becomes both product and worker, endlessly optimized, endlessly visible. We’ve already seen how the American dream of becoming self-made can collapse into something far darker. In her 2022 memoir, The Woman in Me, Spears’ details the way her Las Vegas residency unfolded while she was under a conservatorship that controlled nearly every aspect of her life, her labor extracted on a relentless schedule even as her autonomy was stripped away. The very talent that should have secured her freedom instead bound her to a system that treated her less like a person and more like a resource.

This playlist traces that arc: from classic rock’s narratives of survival to the hyper-produced imperatives of pop, where freedom is marketed as a reward for submission. It’s the sound of a girl becoming an icon—and the persistent, unsettling question of what it costs to keep working once your life no longer belongs to you.

“9 to 5” – Dolly Parton

“They let you dream just to watch ’em shatter / You’re just a step on the boss man’s ladder / But you got dreams he’ll never take away/ In the same boat as a lot of your friends”

I was an eleven-year-old totally hypnotized by this comedy about labor rights and sexual harassment. It’s possible that growing up thinking the messages in 9 to 5 were normal is the reason why I’m like this today, and it’s certain that in the movie’s titular song, Dolly Parton gets at something central to Ultranatural: the idea that we are allowed to dream only within limits. When Parton sings, “they let you dream just to watch them shatter,” she acknowledges the insidious system we’re all in; the hurt locker in which we position ourselves as both participant in and victim of a system that thrives on aspiration. Yet—crucially—there remains something that cannot be extracted or owned in the “dreams he’ll never take away.” This tension (and hope) became a kind of thesis for me while writing the book: what does it mean to have and hold a dream that resists commodification? In the final act of Ultranatural, Lacey enters a sort of astral plane untouched by capitalism, where her inner life is no longer colonized and desire exists outside of productivity. What I love about the next move in “9 to 5” is that is understands that even in the most exploitative conditions, there’s still a collective interiority—“in the same boat with a lot of your friends.”

“Atlantic City” – Bruce Springsteen

“I got debts no honest man can pay.”

If Dolly gives us structure, Springsteen gives us tension. This is a narrative song, a story about a man whose back is so against the wall he decides to do a job for the mafia. The nakedness of Springsteen’s reckoning with debt, obligation, and the sense that you’re already behind before you have even truly begun has always rung truer to me than a hopeful pop anthem. Ultranatural takes place around the 2008 financial crash and in addition to being a book about a pop star, is a book about a generation of American’s born back on their heels, obliged to take deals their parents never had to for a whole lot less. Lacey’s outsized, monstrous ambition doesn’t emerge from nowhere; it emerges from a soul deep sense that she’s got debts no honest man can pay.

“Born to Run” – Bruce Springsteen

“It’s a death trap/ it’s a suicide rap.”

I have a theory that no Springsteen song is about what you thought it was about the first several hundred times you heard it. Case in point, I grew up thinking “Born to Run” was a victory song, the soundtrack of getting to a better place. Actually, though, this is a song about trying to figure out a way to “live with the sadness” of knowing the game is rigged and hope isn’t coming to your town. The best-case scenario in this world, as in most stories about the crushing weight of capitalism, is to love each other “with all the madness” and to dwell in a spirit of resistance; of running even if there’s nowhere to go. Springsteen is mentioned directly by Lacey many times in Ultranatural and when she’s at the end of running, it’s the fact that art like his managed to exist at all that keeps her going.

“I Won’t Back Down” – Tom Petty

“You can stand me up at the gates of hell, but I won’t back down.”

This lyric becomes an integral part of the plot of Ultranatural, but I’ll let you read to find out how…

“Take Me Home, Country Roads” – Lana Del Rey

“Driving down the road/ I get a feeling that I should have been home yesterday/ yesterday.”

I’ve never met a successful American artist who didn’t carry a shattering sense of urgency—the feeling not just that there’s more to do, but that everything should have already been done. That pressure runs parallel to the truer fear that in leaving, you may have already gone too far to return. I think of Bob Dylan’s “Mississippi”—“Only one thing I did wrong / Stayed in Mississippi a day too long”—a line that reframes departure not as escape, but as a kind of irreversible miscalculation. In Ultranatural, this is Lacey’s condition. Her life becomes a series of forward movements that can’t be undone, each success pulling her further from any real sense of home.

I chose Lana Del Rey’s version of this song because there’s a moment in the novel when Lacey begins performing covers of the music she was raised on—songs that feel, to her, like a private language—but her label refuses to let her record them. Meanwhile, another artist (modeled on Del Rey) is permitted that sort of authorship. The result is the realization that the things that feel most internally meaningful to Lacey are precisely the things she cannot express within the system that made her famous. Even her longing for home is mediated, managed, and, ultimately, denied.

“Dorothea” – Taylor Swift

“If you’re ever tired of being known for who you know / You know you’ll always know me.”

Famously, this is a song Taylor Swift wrote about one of her only real peers in fame, Selena Gomez. But it’s also one of the clearest articulations I’ve heard of what it means to be truly known. The line hinges on a quiet distinction: between being known for something—your proximity, your image, your status—and being known by someone who remembers you before any of that took hold. In Ultranatural, Lacey’s closest grasp at this salvation is her childhood best friend, Carrie-Anne, the one person who exists outside the machinery of her fame.

The older I get, the more I understand how rare that is—to have not just someone who remembers your past, but someone who remembers it the way you do. Someone who holds a shared version of you that hasn’t been revised by success, commodified by an audience, or distorted by time. In a life increasingly structured by systems that reshape identity, that kind of witness becomes a form of continuity. I believe to be known in this way by friend—a person who chooses you every day not because they legally have to, but because they really know you—is our closest portal to accessing the self that can survive being turned into something else.

“Work Bitch” – Britney Spears

“You better work, bitch.”

If you don’t hear a phantom Britney whisper “You wanna a hot body? You better work, bitch” in your ear every single time you do sit ups, you might not have been a young woman in the early aughts. I love how this song says the quiet part out loud. For the epigraph of Ultranatural, I pair a variation on this song with the Marx quote: “The more powerful the work, the more powerless the worker.” I don’t think any two statements more accurately sum up the double bind of American success.

“Oh No!” – MARINA

“I know exactly what I want and who I want to be/ I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine/ I’m now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy”

I actually heard “Oh No!” for the first time after finishing Ultranatural, but I wanted to include it because it captures the moment where self-definition becomes self-surveillance—where knowing exactly who you want to be starts to feel like a trap you can’t deviate from.

“Everything Is Romantic” – Charli XCX (ft. Caroline Polachek)

“It’s like you’re living the dream but not living your life.”

Charli XCX is probably the pop star saying the most interesting things about fame right now, which is incredible since she’s also so deeply inside of the machine of fame at this point. One of the most compelling things about bratis that it takes place right before full blown household name Charli emerges. She writes from the threshold—close enough to see its full machinery, but not fully subsumed. She describes having one foot in the real world and one foot inside the spectacle, and it’s that in-between state that gives the album its tension. The question isn’t simply whether you want success, but whether you’re willing to cross the point where success becomes totalizing.

In Ultranatural, Lacey reaches that threshold and then passes it. What Charli captures as ambivalence becomes, for Lacey, a condition: the realization that going all in doesn’t just mean achieving the dream, but discovering that the dream may never have been yours to begin with. The closer she gets to the version of life she was supposed to want, the more estranged she becomes from the self who wanted it.

“Golden G String” – Miley Cyrus

“You call me crazy / have you looked around this place?”

This isn’t one of Miley’s biggest hits, but it’s my personal favorite.  I love how explicitly “Golden G String” revisits the moment that was meant to define and diminish her—her 2013 MTV Video Music Awards performance, where her sexuality was treated as spectacle and then weaponized against her. Here, years later, she reclaims that narrative with clarity and control, reframing what was once scandal as something more like revelation and reckoning. An understanding that the system that called her crazy was just describing…itself. It’s a win not just for Miley, but for everybody who took what happened as a cautionary tale and made themselves smaller, quieter, less just to appease “the old boys who hold all the cards.”

also at Largehearted Boy:

Candice Wuehle’s playlist for her novel Monarch

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Candice Wuehle is author of Monarch, Fidelitoria: Fixed or Fluxed, Death Industrial Complex, and BOUND. She lives in Iowa City, Iowa.

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Helen Benedict’s novel The Soldier’s House is a spellbinding look at how war effects both families and individuals.

Booklist wrote of the book:

“The characters’ journeys are candid and vulnerable, rendering a pertinent, rich portrait of displaced lives reshaped by conflict and its enduring consequences.”

In her own words, here is Helen Benedict’s Book Notes music playlist for her novel The Soldier’s House:

As I watch Trump’s new war with Iran spreading throughout the region, ending thousands of lives, displacing thousands more people, and costing the American taxpayer more than one billion dollars a day, I cannot help but be reminded of the last time the U.S. went to war for no reason with disastrous consequences: Iraq 2003.

My new novel, The Soldier’s House, takes place during that war, in 2010, seven years after our initial invasion. The soldier of the title is Sgt. Jimmy Donnell, who survived several deployments to Iraq, during which he grew as close to his Iraqi interpreter, Khalil Pachachi, as a brother. When Khalil is killed for working with Americans, Jimmy feels so devastated and responsible that he and his wife, Kate Brady, also a Iraq War veteran, sponsor Khalil’s wife, Naema Jassim, their little son Tariq, and Khalil’s mother, Hibah, to come to their small town in upstate New York and live with them.

While Jimmy and Kate fix up the old pool room at the back of their house for Naema and her family, they pull up the old shag carpet, clean mouse droppings out the chest of drawers, and take down their posters of their favorite band, Modest Mouse. As they work, I imagine them singing along to the band’s mega 2004 hit, Float On.

What Jimmy does not foresee is that later that very night, Kate will inexplicably disappear.

Naema’s view of the situation is entirely different. To her, Jimmy is no better than her enemy, responsible for her husband’s death and the loss of Tariq’s leg in the same bomb that killed Khalil, just as she sees Jimmy’s army as was responsible for destroying her country. She knows that she and her family would have been hunted down and killed had they stayed in Iraq, so she must recognize that Jimmy saved their lives. But how she is to tolerate being rescued by her enemy, let alone sharing his house, is a central dilemma of the novel.

Music runs throughout The Soldier’s House as this plot unfolds, played on a little cassette recorder, the car radio, on an iPod (remember those?), or simply in the heads of the characters, especially that of little Tariq, who is only five years old when the novel opens and becomes quickly besotted with American pop music.

“The music filtering through the iPod and earphones Jimmy lent Tariq is a mix of the Coldplay and U2 Jimmy wants Tariq to like, the high-pitched women singers Tariq favors, and Hibah’s oud music. Naema wanted Tariq to listen to children’s songs in English, but he met this suggestion with scorn. He doesn’t care for all of Jimmy’s music, either, the aggressive guitars and growling male singers stirring his old, frightening dreams. Nor does he like the yearning notes of the oud, which put an ache behind his eyes. But he does enjoy the perky voices of Beyoncé  and Taylor Swift, and a beat that makes him bounce in his seat.”

Meanwhile, Hibah, Tariq’s grandmother, has an especially difficult time adjusting to her new life in America, for, as Naema puts it, “as hard as exile has been on me and Tariq, it is harder for her, the old having so much more to forget and so much less to anticipate.” But Hibah does take comfort in her own Iraqi oud music, the oud being a string instrument like a cross between a lute and a guitar with a particularly haunting, soulful sound.

 “Later that afternoon, with the sun dying the lawn a coppery gold, Hibah sets to cooking supper in our tiny kitchen, the oud music on her treasured cassette player singing to us of home and the wisdom of Allah.”

The oud also makes Naema think back to her life in Iraq, and her little brother Zaki’s love of his guitar and familiar Beatle songs.

“Zaki would bring his guitar and play for us while we hid, a mix of the old Iraqi tunes Baba insisted he learn and his favorite Western pop songs, one I remember about a blackbird, another about peace.”

I was thinking of John Lennon’s famous anthem, Imagine, here, and how I once heard that song sung by a group of refugees who were imprisoned in a camp in Greece. When the young Liberian singer sang the verse, “Imagine there’s no countries/It isn’t hard to do/Nothing to kill or die for/And no religion too,” I was moved to tears, for everyone around me that day had suffered untold hardships exactly because of those countries and religions. As do millions of other refugees around the world today.

In stark contrast to Lennon’s song of peace is the heavy metal of AC/DC, Guns N’ Roses, and the gangsta rap that fueled so much of the Iraq War. Soldiers have been pumping themselves up with aggressive music for millennia, starting with the drums of war, but in Iraq they not only played it as they drove around the desert, but also blasted it nonstop and at top volume as a way of torturing prisoners in Abu Ghraib. Even Jimmy, who is a gentle soul at heart, needs his occasional fix of macho tunes.

“Back at the start of the war, Jimmy had been the barefoot, scruffy type on his furloughs home, the unshaven, beer-with-breakfast type. But the events of his last tour knocked all that out of him and now he’s pure army. Five hundred push-ups every morning. A twelve- klick speed run around Slingerlands. An hour lifting weights in the basement to ear-crunching heavy metal.”

But to return to a happier moment — little Tariq and his ipod in the car:

“Naema twists around from the front to watch him, his eager face tiny between the earphones, his head bobbing to the music as he hums along. For so many years she feared that the war and loss of his father and leg would drain the happiness from him forever. But look at him now.”

also at Largehearted Boy:

Helen Benedict’s playlist for her novel The Good Deed

Helen Benedict and Eyad Awwadawnan’s playlist for their book Map of Hope and Sorrow

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Helen Benedict is a novelist and journalist specializing in refugees, the effects of war on civilians and soldiers, social injustice, and on violence against women. Her most recent book, the novel, The Good Deed (2024) is a finalist for the 2025 Dayton Literary Peace Prize. Her related nonfiction book, Map of Hope: Stories of Refugees Trapped in Greece (2022), and her recent articles have focused on Middle Eastern and African refugees, while her earlier work covered Iraqi refugees in the U.S., American women soldiers, and sexual assault. In 2021, Benedict was awarded the 2021 PEN Jean Stein Grant for Literary Oral History.

Benedict’s latest novel about Iraqi refugees in the U.S., The Soldier’s House, was published in April, 2026.

Benedict is credited with breaking the story about the epidemic of sexual assault of military women serving in the Iraq and Afghanistan wars. Her articles on refugees have been published in The New York Times, The Nation, Slate, Guernica, Arrowsmith Journal and elsewhere; while her work on war is reflected in her novel, “Wolf Season,” (2017, Bellevue), her previous novel “Sand Queen” (2011, Soho Press) and her non- fiction book, “The Lonely Soldier: The Private War of Women Serving in Iraq,” (2009 and 2010, Beacon Press), which won her the Ida B. Wells Award for Bravery in Journalism in 2013. Benedict was also named one of the “21 Leaders for the 21st Century” by Women’s eNews. In 2015, she was a finalist for the U.K. Liberty Human Rights Arts Award for her play, “The Lonely Soldier Monologues.” Her work has also won the EMMA (Exceptional Merit in Media Award) from the National Women’s Political Caucus, the Ken Book Award from the National Alliance on Mental Illness and the James Aronson Award for Social Justice Journalism.

Benedict’s non-fiction book, “The Lonely Soldier,” led to a class-action suit against the Pentagon on behalf of women and men who were sexually assaulted in the military and also inspired the 2012 Oscar- nominated documentary about sexual assault in the military, “The Invisible War.” Her earlier book, “Virgin or Vamp: How the Press Covers Sex Crimes” is widely taught in journalism and law schools and has helped to change the way several newspapers cover sexual assault, while her book, “Recovery: How to Survive Sexual Assault” is used by rape crisis centers around the country. She has testified twice to Congress as an expert on sexual assault in the military.

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Ramona Ausubel’s book Unstuck will inspire writers (and everyone else) with its wisdom and humor.

Kirkus wrote of the book:

“An upbeat guide to navigating the writing process . . . Warm-hearted and practical, Ausubel emerges as trustworthy companion for a writer who’s stuck anywhere on the challenging road of creativity. Generous, empathetic, and unfailingly encouraging.”

In her own words, here is Ramona Ausubel’s Book Notes music playlist for her book Unstuck:

So much of what I want this book to be is a hype-beast for whatever it is you most want to write. If you’re starting? Get excited, get going. In that long, long middle? Here’s a whole bunch of ways to stay in it. Need some perspective? Let’s go! Ready to see this thing to the end? This book is here for that. Music is an amazing tone-setter for a writing day. Sometimes I like to listen to something that reminds me of the characters, or the setting. Sometimes I’ll make a playlist that I listen to every time I work on a particular project to drop me into the zone more quickly. This playlist is in two parts: Get Excited & Settle In.

A Side: Get Excited

The first part of this playlist is made up of high energy, makes-me-happy songs to get me pumped up before I write.

“Colors”—Black Pumas

Soulful celebration of everyday life. I’m never unhappy to have this song come on!

“Texas Hold ‘Em”—Beyonce

Writing is “taking it to the floor” in so many ways.

“Changes”—Charlie Puth

This one is thanks to my daughter, who puts this on in the car and we all sing at the top of our lungs. Writing feels quiet, but warming up with some loudness always feels good.

“Can’t Take My Eyes Off You”—Lauryn Hill

I’m 18 years old, driving my clunky old Saab around Santa Fe. It’s summer, I’m on my way to pick my friends so we can go to Allsups and get sodas and gum and then park at the plaza and play the whole album on repeat. Everything is possible.

B Side: Settle In

Now it’s time to sit down and get ready to actually put words on the page. These songs go from more energetic to more chill as my focus sharpens.

“Sound & Color”—Alabama Shakes

Bright and cheerful and open-hearted. Just how I want to be when I write (even if I’m not always—aspiration!).

“Dusty Trails”—Lucius

I like to sing along to this even though I have terrible pitch and my voice reaches nowhere near the angelic heights theirs do. It reminds me that I’m writing a messy, real emerging thing, not a pristine, finished book.

“Right Back to Me”—Waxahatchee

Feels like lying in the sun on a picnic blanket in the summer. It’s an easy day, and trying something doesn’t seem so hard.

“Ripple”—The Grateful Dead

Though I live in Boulder, I am not a Deadhead (Sorry, Dad!), but this song has always felt like home to me. It’s familiar and steady. Settles me down real nice.

“New World Coming”—Nina Simone

Nina Simone’s voice is like a whole entire universe. It feels expansive—in that depth, there is room for all things, even me. Even my weird sentences.

“San Luis”—Gregory Alan Isakov

This is my very favorite writing music. It’s lovely but not boring, textured and warm but not distracting. It’s a nice combination of sweet and sad. Plus Isakov lives a few miles from me, which makes it feel like inviting a friend over (to be clear, we are friends only my imagination). Chances are good that if I’m writing, his whole oeuvre is in the background.

also at Largehearted Boy:

Ramona Ausubel’s playlist for her novel Sons and Daughters of Ease and Plenty

Ramona Ausubel’s playlist for her short story collection A Guide to Being Born

Ramona Ausubel’s playlist for her novel No One is Here Except All of Us

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Ramona Ausubel is the author most recently of Unstuck: 101 Doorways from the Blank Page to the Last Page (Tin House/Zando).

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Bonnie Friedman’s novel Don’t Stop is a vividly told and moving debut.

Booklist wrote of the book:

“This coming-of-middle-age story explores a woman’s obsessive affair and the unraveling of her life… A fiction debut that will appeal to fans of Miranda July’s All Fours.”

In her own words, here is Bonnie Friedman’s Book Notes music playlist for her debut novel Don’t Stop:

Goldfinger (Sharon Jones and the Dap-Kings)

Don’t Stop is a novel about a woman with an utterly divided life, who tells herself that part of it is real and important (the part with her kind husband and good job) and the other, which encompasses an increasingly dark sexual affair, is make-believe. And yet she is increasingly enthralled by the make-believe part, the part that she can’t allow herself to understand is real, even though she is taking more and more risks and discovering that what happens in the bedroom has repercussions for the entire rest of her life.

The novel begins in 1999, and Ina is sitting with her friend Janie on the Brooklyn Promenade, across from Wall Street. There’s an absolute euphoria in the city because the stock market is soaring and, unlike today, everyone seems to benefit, not just The Masters of the Universe. An atmosphere of recklessness pervades the city, and a sense that the old rules of reality might no longer apply. I chose Goldfinger from the soundtrack of The Wolf of Wall Street because I love its big louche horns and almost tawdry clamor. The song originated with the James Bond movies, which had a panache to them, a certain sardonic bordello swank just a step away from the overripe. As it happens, it is a song of warning.

Maria (Blondie)

Ina is a scholar is on a tight deadline to complete her academic book in order to keep her job, but nevertheless allows herself to be persuaded to go to a networking meeting at a bar. It’s a foggy night and she steps into this loud, throbbing, bewildering place that to her is something like the go-go party of hipsters featured in Laugh-In, a million years ago. She hates it. Something is thumping on the sound system. I chose a song I very much like, Maria, by Blondie, which was a power pop single that year. It’s about romantic obsession. Debbie Harry keeps sounding like she’s going to break into “The Tide Is High” with that sultry expansive lower register. It’s deeply hooky, this tune, with fantastic pounding drums that want to make your blood jump, and that do make Ina’s blood jump, despite herself.

It Might As Well Be Spring (Astrud Gilberto and Stan Getz)

Could there be a cooler delivery that Gilberto’s? Perhaps Chet Baker’s on horn. Ina finds herself playing this song on repeat during the afternoon when she’s anticipating her first date. Gilberto sings it with her characteristic trance-y sangfroid. Delivered in a monotone and played over and over, the song is thrillingly hypnotic as it asks the question, “Why do I have spring fever / when I know it isn’t spring?” In fact, winter is coming to New York but something in Ina seems to be taking on a life of its own. “I’m starry-eyed and vaguely discontented.” “I feel so gay in a melancholy way that it might as well be spring.” Gorgeous Hammerstein lyrics set to Rogers’ insistent, driven melody about this delicious, fixated, in-between state.

I Saw the Light (Earl Scruggs)

Ina’s husband is the extremely decent, Texas-born Simon, who grew up in a fundamentalist family, and is an ace banjo player. This character was marvelously satisfying to write. I could very much imagine him playing Earl Scruggs’ version of I Saw the Light. It’s an upbeat, radiant bluegrass gospel number that reflects some of Simon’s own warm spirits and humane faith, being outward looking and open-hearted. Ina views Simon’s goodness as being somewhat childlike and simple, a limitation for which the reader knows she may pay.

Moon River (Elton John)

My mother, in her late nineties, isolated in her tiny apartment during COVID, used to sing this song with me over the telephone, only she sang “two sisters” instead of “two drifters”. Two sisters, off to see the world. In fact, she never had a sister, although she always wanted one. She had grown up in a family of boys. “Moon River” is a song all about longing and inner voices impelling one to a fateful rendezvous. Ina and Simon hold tight to one another as they dance around their living room to this tune, which Ina notices is a waltz. Elton John’s rendition, his foot heavy on the echo pedal, skirts the sentimentality that the song risks while letting us feel all the yearning.

Let’s Get It On (Marvin Gaye)

The vibe of Jack’s bedroom is summoned by this slow-burn Motown classic. I kept thinking that Barry White sang this song, as perhaps he should have at some time, with his melt-your knees bone-rumbling bass-baritone but no, this is Marvin Gaye’s slow-jam ballad, with his swoony bass and shouting tenor urging you to unstring yourself, to deliver yourself over. It’s impossible for me to hear this song without feeling the lights turn low and the heat turned up. An anthem for eroticism.

Dreams (The Cranberries)

Ina’s sister is a prickly, forbidding, domineering presence who has a difficult life, having been stricken with multiple sclerosis. She always makes Ina feel like two cents. In the background, while sister Violet and Ina are cooking together at Violet’s claustrophobic house, this catchy song comes on the radio, a missive from a distant reality, the reality in which most normal people obliviously move, with its relatable experience of first love, ringing and up tempo, full of possibilities. Violet’s experience is the opposite – has she ever been in love? —  and yet she’s a force to contend with, one of the strongest characters in the book, with her superpower being an ability to meet life open-eyed, without recourse to fantasy.

Agnus Dei from Missa in Festis Apostolmin (Palestrina)

Under protest and ill-prepared, Ina is assigned a creative-writing class to teach, to fill in for a professor who’s gone AWOL. She doesn’t know how to teach this class, and is told that the students will teach her. She has often stepped past this teacher’s classroom and noticed strange behavior: the lights out and a candle burning, Renaissance music playing, the students silently bent over their desks as if taking dictation, each from a different source. This polyphonic sacred choral piece by Palestrina, performed a capella, evokes spiritual presences as if drawing them forth from the clerestory of a cathedral, the sopranos ringing with a pure tone, and, beneath them, the rolling-forth bases smooth as sheets of water sliding in at low tide. The meditative, unhurried air invites one’s own inner truths to manifest, which may be why the original creative-writing teacher liked it. It awakens something uncomfortable in Ina, who, especially at this point in her life, wants order and control. This classroom will bring her the opposite.

Every Time We Say Goodbye (Annie Lennox)

Late in the novel, Simon and Ina dress up to hear a favorite performer of theirs, who sings in a Frank Sinatra style. This Cole Porter ballad, with its wry “how strange the change from major to minor” captures some of the beauty of the American songbook classics that allow an expansion of feeling within a contained few bars. Ina, at the end of the novel, will go with one man or the other (or neither) — and there will have to be a goodbye. My friend John Kane used to play this number at the end of a Friday evening when he lived in Milton, Massachusetts, and I’d come over to visit him and Gary, and would eat his magnificent roasted chicken and braised leeks, and drink Australian Savignon Blanc, and eat the real-vanilla-bean ice cream I’d brought. He’d step out into the snow if it was winter, and walk me to my car in his rolled-up white shirtsleeves and pressed gray office slacks, and say, “Safe home!” waving as I left. Some people when they say goodbye give you a present of their love to carry you toward home. Some people, even as they pass from this life, do the same thing. I think of John Kane when I hear this song, saying “Safe home!” and recall the love that stays even after the person is gone, and is never taken away.

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Bonnie Friedman is the author of the bestselling Writing Past Dark, named one of the Essential Books for Writers by the Center for Fiction and Poets & Writers. She is also the author of The Thief of Happiness and Surrendering Oz, a finalist for the PEN Award in the Art of the Essay. Her work has appeared in The New York Times, Ploughshares and numerous other literary journals, and she has been named a notable essayist four times in The Best American Essays. She has taught writing at the University of Iowa, Dartmouth, NYU, and the University of North Texas. Don’t Stop is her first novel.

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Anna Dorn’s novel American Spirits is smart and entertaining and filled with characters that will haunt you long after finishing the book.

Kirkus wrote of the book:

“The music writing in this book is outstanding, including intriguing real-world references and annotated playlists that will make you grateful for your streaming service. Dorn has a profound understanding of the relationship between an artist and her work . . . Nuanced characters, lively writing, and a heaping helping of bad behavior make the pages fly.”

In her own words, here is Anna Dorn’s Book Notes music playlist for her novel American Spirits:

I am so happy to be making my fifth Largehearted Boy playlist! I was looking back at old playlists to make sure I don’t have any repeats, because I have a tendency to listen to the same five songs over and over (and there is one repeat on this list, sorry). But more importantly, I found this description below Lana Del Rey’s “Old Money” in my Vagablonde playlist: “This is perhaps a cocky thing to say but I’ve always related to Lana as a sad East Coast girl who adopted California as her home state. This track embodies that sense of Southern California Gothic I’ve always wanted my writing to capture.” This sentiment remains true, and in fact American Spirits is directly inspired by Lana Del Rey. I see my first novel Vagablonde as a younger sister to American Spirits, as both books are music-obsessed and about star musicians. Vagablonde is messier, rawer, and features an aspiring musician; American Spirits is more mature, more polished, and stars a very famous musician. Vagablonde contains a lot of music writing—fake Pitchfork reviews, academic theses, gushing fan analyses, and I loved every second of writing it. I think most artists fantasize about being another type of artist. Lana Del Rey is a musician who wants to be a poet. And I’m a novelist who wants to be a musician. This is obvious from all my books but this one in particular. Here are some of the songs that inspired the music-drenched American Spirits. 

“Shades of Cool” – Lana Del Rey

“My baby lives in shades of blue. Blue eyes and jazz and attitude.” This is the first epigraph in American Spirits. I named the main character Blue Velour in part inspired by Lana’s obsession with blue—the word appears in 43 of her released songs—and also the fact that she covered “Blue Velvet” on Born to Die (Blue Velour is the trashier version). In Lana’s music, the word blue symbolizes melancholy, darkness, jazz, the ocean, and eventually triumph—moving, as she puts it on Lust For Life, “out of the black, into the blue.” I think my heroine makes a similar progression from black to blue. 

“Back to Black”- Amy Winehouse

“You go back to her, and I go back to us” is another epigraph in this novel and one of the most heartbreaking lines of music ever delivered. As in all my novels, there are many love triangles in this one, lots of going back to her and going back to us. Amy is a precursor to Lana Del Rey in her poetic excavation of doomed romance, and a member of the 27 Club, which Blue Velour takes great lengths to avoid joining. Lana goes to the blue, but Amy keeps going back to black.

“Unusual You” – Britney Spears

Spoiler alert: the superfan character in this book goes viral for covering this extremely underrated Britney Spears song. Vulnerable admission: I am a late-in-life Britney fan. When I was younger, I avoided her mostly due to contrarianism. But then “Unusual You” came on a playlist a few years ago, and something about this peculiar electropop ballad converted me. “Didn’t anyone tell you you’re supposed to break my heart?” is another epigraph in the book. And I’ve now listened to every song Brit has ever recorded.

“American Spirits” – Cassandra Jenkins 

I stole the title of my last novel Perfume & Pain from an out-of-print lesbian pulp novel. I stole the title for this novel—I’m admitting this here for the very first time—from this lush, aching Cassandra Jenkins song inspired by “the poetic ambiguity that can arise from the struggle of searching for the words to tell someone we love exactly what has happened.” And isn’t that what all novels are about? 

“Percocet & Stripper Joint” – Future 

I warned you there was a repeat track, and of course it’s a Future one. American Spirits is an older sister to Vagablonde, so it only makes sense they share a track. In Vagablonde, this track spoke to the main character’s druggy dissociation. In American Spirits, it’s what I imagine the production of Blue Velour’s pandemic album Mood Onyx to sound like: droning 808s, gothic synths, negative space swallowing everything. 

“Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down)” – Nancy Sinatra

In the novel, Blue Velour’s first album is called Spirit of Sinatra as an ode to Nancy. I am not the first to make the Nancy Sinatra–Lana Del Rey connection: both wear their daddy issues on their sleeves and make love sound spooky as hell (cue “White Feather Hawk Deer Tail Hunter”). “Bang Bang” is a song about being shot dead that somehow feels like a dream. I kind of wanted this novel to feel like that, too.

“Love Buzz” – Nirvana 

In the novel, Blue Velour first captures the attention of her longtime producer by covering “Love Buzz.” The two of them later use lyrics from the song to title a future album. Lana is a huge fan of Kurt Cobain, another member of the 27 Club, and Blue Velour is too. “Love Buzz” happens to be my favorite Nirvana song as well—quelle surprise given I wrote the book!

“Mirrorball” – Taylor Swift 

Another confession: I’m a late-in-life Taylor Swift fan. I was listening to her a lot when I was writing this book, and the Folklore cabin inspired my decision to have Blue Velour make a pandemic album while holed up in the redwoods—although it sounds less like Folklore and more like Dirty Sprite 2. Blue Velour despises Taylor Swift, but her producer secretly likes her. “Mirrorball” captures how Taylor can be whatever people need her to be, and Blue needs a foil.

“Blue Motel Room” – Joni Mitchell

Like Lana Del Rey, Joni Mitchell is obsessed with the color blue. Beyond her most beloved album, Blue, the color is also in a great number of her song titles, like this blue-toned jazz track from the critical darling Hejira. She wrote most of the album while driving across the U.S. in the mid-70s, reminiscent of Blue Velour’s manic drive across the country in American Spirits. Missing her lover in L.A. on a stop in Georgia, Joni has blue on her mind: “I’ve got a blue motel room / With a blue bedspread / I’ve got the blues inside and outside my head / Will you still love me / When I get back to town?”

also at Largehearted Boy:

Anna Dorn’s playlist for her novel Perfume and Pain

Anna Dorn’s playlist for her novel Exalted

Anna Dorn’s playlist for her memoir Bad Lawyer

Anna Dorn’s playlist for her novel Vagablonde

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Anna Dorn is the author of the novels Perfume and Pain, Exalted, Vagablonde, and American Spirits. She was a Lambda Literary Fellow and Exalted was a finalist for the Los Angeles Times Book Prize. She lives in Los Angeles.

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Eric LeMay’s essay collection The First 649 Days offers breathtaking perspectives on love and loss.

Dinty W. Moore wrote of the book:

“Eric LeMay’s The First 649 Days is a work of breathtaking honesty and heart. LeMay captures life’s singular moments—the birth of a child, unexpected illness, mortality—exquisitely, revealing the precarious beauty of our world through the eyes of his young son Ro. LeMay’s inventive renderings are a brilliant reminder that our lives may harbor threat, disappointment, and grief, yet still shimmer with hope and wild beauty at every turn.”

In his own words, here is Eric LeMay’s Book Notes music playlist for his essay collection The First 649 Days:

“You’re about to get hit by a hurricane.” That’s the best advice I got about what it’s like when a baby makes landfall in your life. The First 649 Days begins there. It ends five years later, with the 649 days I spent with my son during the pandemic. In between, it tries to capture that everyday struggle we all confront: How do we become what life makes of us?  

“Crazy” by Gnarls Barkley, CeeLo Green, Danger Mouse

In the dead of winter, still in the womb, my son went from due to overdue. He had no interest in exiting. And who could blame him?  Day after day, his mother tried to dance him down the birth canal with “Crazy.” That’s how we felt, playing it again and again. When my son was old enough to talk, I played it for him. Did he remember? Nope.

“Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star” by Baby Music

For the first years of my son’s life, this little twinkling star was the one constant in his ever-changing bedtime. He had no interest in sleeping. And who could blame him? As he got older, he sang along with us. I don’t remember when we stopped, but I do remember, toward the end, realizing that each time we sang it might be the last, and how hard I loved him.

“Further on Up the Road” by Johnny Cash

Our first singalong. We’d go on long walks. He’d be in this backpack I wore that held him up on my shoulders. I’d sing, “Where the road is…” And he’d sing, “Dark.” And I’d sing, “And the seed is…” And he’d sing, “Sowed.” “Where the gun is…” “Cocked.” “As the bullet’s…” “Cold.” Where the miles are marked in the blood and the gold. I’ll meet you further on up the road.

“Demon Host” by Timbre Timbre

I got cancer when my son was a little over a year old. I can’t capture that in a note. I can say I felt so devastated, so distraught, I couldn’t write. And then one night I started to. I’d kiss my son on the forehead and drag myself out of our bed and into the dark. I’d listen to this song, over and over, until I could write a sentence or two about what it was like knowing I might not live.

“Metamorphosis: One” by Philip Glass

Life with a young child cycles. Every day feels like a repetition of the last one. Meals, naps, walks, baths, repeat, repeat. There’s a deep beauty to it, being on child time. The small variations magnify. Suddenly, avocados are in. Suddenly, he can say the cat’s name. “Sailor! Sailor!” I felt and feel a little of this magic in Glass’s cascading and beautiful loops.

“Ring Around the Rosie” by Toddler Tunes

And then came the pandemic, with its own repetitions, with its isolation and mass death. And amid it all, children like mine went about the work of growing up. It was then I learned the lore around “Ring Around the Rosie.” That its origins are in the bubonic plague. That a red ring was a sign of infection. That people carried posies to mask the stench of death. That all fall down.

“Roll the Woodpile Down” by The Dreadnaughts

In lockdown, sea shanties started trending. My son and I learned this one before I’d quite figured out what its lyrics described. By then, it was too late to be a good parent. Instead, I just enjoyed the oddity of a four-year-old belting out a love for 19th-century prostitutes and the bawdy ways of sailors. I played it for him this morning. “I do remember it,” he said. I do, too.

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Eric LeMay is a multimedia artist and writer currently in remission from cancer. He is on the faculty at Ohio University, where he directs the creative writing program. He is also a host on the New Books Network. He is the author of five books, and his work has appeared in The Paris Review, Poetry Daily, the Best Food Writing series, and other venues.

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Written in the form of a headache journal, Zach Powers’s The Migraine Diaries is both inventive and profound in its exploration of pain and endurance.

The Brooklyn Rail wrote of the book:

“Powers understands the instant obliteration of a headache and, brilliantly, juxtaposes that with the loss of a friend. Should someone ever take up [Virginia] Woolf’s challenge and assemble a literary anthology of maladies, they should look first to Powers for his descriptions of the headache.”

In her own words, here is Zach Powers’s Book Notes music playlist for his novel The Migraine Diaries:

I do most of my writing in coffee shops, so my playlists are often selected by baristas. Right now, at Simona Cafe in Bethesda, Maryland, I have no idea what song is playing. And that’s alright by me. When I focus, the music, the chatter, and the hissing gurgle of the espresso machine all blur into an ambient background. If I’m sitting with someone, and they point out the song on the radio, I have to dredge my attention up from deep inside me before I’m aware of any sound at all.

My novel The Migraine Diaries opens as the narrator experiences his first migraine at the funeral for his best friend, KJ, and follows the narrator’s life as he navigates grief and chronic illness. A number of scenes take place in a coffee shop, a slightly fictionalized version of Gallery Espresso in Savannah, Georgia, where I wrote and/or hung out almost every day for 15 years. Despite the word “diaries” in the book’s title, let me emphasize that this is fiction. Though the narrator, like me, is a migraine sufferer who spends a lot of time in coffee shops, my default move is always to take a step away from myself when I feel things getting too autobiographical. Though there are other real settings and fictionalized versions of real experiences, none of the characters are based on single individuals. Which leads me back to the character KJ.

In 2009, one of my oldest friends, Kirk, died after enduring a brain tumor for several years. A few months later, my closest friend at the time, Jeremy, died tragically. The character KJ is neither of these friends and also sorta both of them. I mention Kirk and Jeremy here because in the absence of any specific playlist I had while writing the novel, for the playlist assembled below, I tried to think of songs that somehow existed in and around my life as I remembered and as I wrote. These are songs I associate with the friends and places that inspired my writing. And, hopefully, all arranged into a half-decent mix.

“Till My Head Falls Off” by They Might Be Giants

This was the first song to pop into my head when I started thinking about my playlist. The central pivot point of The Migraine Diaries involves ibuprofen, and these lyrics open with an Advil reference. The song’s title, of course, has obvious relevance, too. More personally, TMBG is my most-played band. In high school, I had a TMBG mixtape I made a copy of for Kirk, which I’ve previously written about in the only personal essay I’ve maybe ever published.

“So Fresh, So Clean” by OutKast

Sticking with Kirk, our friendship was maintained through the early days of the internet and the messaging platforms ICQ and AIM. One of those (maybe both?) allowed you to turn on an away message when you were, well, away from your computer. One of Kirk’s regular away messages—I have always assumed it to be for when he was taking a shower, though I never confirmed this—was, simply, “So fresh, so clean.” Bonus here for Big Boi being from Savannah.

“Purple Rain” by Prince

In 2007, Prince performed the Super Bowl XLI halftime show. For those unfamiliar, it is perhaps the greatest live performance in the history of the universe. Rain threatened the whole thing, but in the moment, it seemed more likely that Prince himself had summoned the rain. We were at my friend Chris’s house (see more on Chris below) for a Super Bowl party. Jeremy, who cared nothing for football but loved Prince absolutely, watched the halftime show standing a few feet from the TV. At one point, Chris and I glanced over, and tears were just freefalling down Jeremy’s face. In retrospect, that seems like the only right reaction.

“Peek‐A‐Boo” by Siouxsie and the Banshees

In the novel, there’s a character named Chris who works at my fictional Gallery Espresso. One of my best friends, Christopher Berinato, is manager of the real Gallery. He also happens to be a music journalist, so you can always tell when he’s working because the shop’s playlist will be on point. I asked him to pick a song to include, and this is it! He reminded me of the story of when he first heard this song when he was 12: “MTV was always on, but I was into Van Halen and Bon Jovi. When I watched that video, as I stood in the middle of the room, it immediately rewired my brain.”

“Rainfall” by Apples in Stereo

The Gallery Espresso in my novel is based on its current location, but Gallery used to be around the corner in a different location, where I first met Jeremy and Chris. At the old location, a barista played this album literally every time he worked. When he moved away, I found myself missing the album, and it became a regular in my listening rotation. Bonus: the old Gallery location is now home to The Book Lady Bookstore, where they’ve been absurdly supportive of every literary thing I’ve ever done.

“GO!!!” by Flow

The anime Naruto has a prominent place in the novel, and an even more prominent place in my real life. Kirk introduced the show to me back when you had to download the fan-subtitled torrents a few days after the Japanese release of each episode. Since then I’ve consumed more hours of Naruto than any other creative work. Me, Chris, and two other writer friends, Killsey and Gino, all watched and shared weekly recaps. For the playlist, it was a tossup whether to include “GO!!!,” the show’s fourth opening theme song, or “Wind” by Akeboshi, from the original closing credits. This one pumps me up, so it got the nod. Fighting dreamers!

“Modern Romance” by Yeah Yeah Yeahs

I spent my youth and young adulthood studying jazz, so I reached my mid-twenties with limited knowledge of other genres. One of my first returns to rock was this album that Jeremy lent me on CD, which I listened to so much that he let me keep it. I digitized and got rid of almost all my CDs years ago, but I still have this one.

“Heroin” by  The Velvet Underground & Nico

When I have a long writing project, I choose a few books to be my daily warmup reading. The warmup might be a whole chapter or story, but sometimes just a few sentences. For The Migraine Diaries, one of my warmup books was Denis Johnson’s Jesus’ Son, which takes its title from this song. I lent my original copy of Jesus’ Son to a friend who never returned it, but I don’t remember which friend. I hope they’re enjoying their thievery.

“Meticulous Bird” by Thao & the Get Down Stay Down

While I was writing the first draft of the novel, I was introduced to Thao by my writer pal Thaddeus Gunn. I listened to this album on repeat, and Thao became a shared favorite for me and my partner, Stephanie. Bonus: Thao is from Northern Virginia, close to where I now live, and has her own book coming out, which I’m super excited for.

“Self Portrait in Three Colors” by Charles Mingus

Somewhere in the early planning for this novel, I had the thought, I wonder if I could write a book that works like “Self Portrait in Three Colors.” The song repeats its form three times, each time adding a new melodic line, so in the third iteration there’s this perfect three-part polyphony. My novel focuses on the three main surviving friends. What might each of their melodies be, and how might the melodies interact? Now, I don’t think I really followed through on that initial thought, but I do think it influenced the braiding of the novel’s sections. At least I hope so!

“Hallelujah” by The Helio Sequence

The first thing I ever published was a paragraph-long review of this album for a print publication I can no longer remember the name of. I got the gig through Kirk, who knew the editor. I don’t think it was particularly good or insightful writing, but it introduced me to this song, which I still listen to, and I find the lyrics to be an excellent thematic fit for The Migraine Diaries.

“The End of the Tour” by They Might Be Giants

I mentioned making high school mix tapes, and I tried to use this as the last song on most of the mix tapes I made. I feel a sense of melancholy here, but when the electric guitar kicks in, I always air-strum along. One time after a long road trip, I pulled into my parking spot exactly as this song ended. I can hear my characters listening to it in the car in the novel’s final scene. “And we’re never gonna tour again. No, we’re never gonna tour again…”

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Zach Powers is the author of the novel The Migraine Diaries (JackLeg 2026), the novel First Cosmic Velocity, and the story collection Gravity Changes, winner of the Boa Short Fiction Prize. His writing has been featured by American Short Fiction, Lit Hub, and elsewhere. He serves as Executive & Artistic Director for The Writer’s Center and Poet Lore, America’s oldest poetry journal. Originally from Savannah, Georgia, he now lives in Arlington, Virginia.

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Pamela Ryder’s novel Daybreak Birdsong Always Wakes Him is a vivid retelling of the life of Billy the Kid.

Gordon Lish wrote of the book:

“Land-a-mercy, that scamp Billy the Kid was a hard-thinking scoundrel back in his untamed day, but scribbler Ryder―she’s a terror of beautification in this era of timified politicized pop gunning shootouts among the publicists of publishers of card-flaring ID. Zane Grey’s a goner, but Ryder’s with us―and with you―for everlasting good.”

In her own words, here is Pamela Ryder’s Book Notes music playlist for her novel Daybreak Birdsong Always Wakes Him:

Hello all and thank you for coming to this remarkable site to explore the music of the novel, Daybreak Birdsong Always Wakes Him: The Lives of Billy the Kid.  If you are not familiar with Claudia’s Theme from the revisionist Western film, Unforgiven (composed by Clint Eastwood – who knew!), please listen to it here; it’s one of the most heart-wrenching compositions.  The first opening notes from a guitar—just five notes (and the first two notes are the same)—played simply, almost haltingly – may set you reliving past moments of a purest interval of past joy or sadness – moments – as such indelible moments always are—tinged with a profound poignancy as you recount the terrible weight of the many moments—perhaps many years—or even decades—that you have allowed to slip by, wasted, unexamined, or lived without humility or kindness. The music herein may take you a place you may not want to go: to a graveside perhaps, or a deathbed, or simply to a wasted day.  It may remind you what the Navajo believe: that if a sunrise finds you still asleep, God will simply assume you are dead.  Or the music may take you to a memory of beauty and peace:  for me, a windy bluff overlooking the magical landscape of the canyonlands of the American West, while above in the dome of the darkened heavens spin the swarms of stars–so many—have you ever seen it?— with hardly a space between them, and such a thing may set you to wondering how it is that you know so little of the world all around you, and how it is that you have become who you are, and how you have endured the hardship and the burden of a life shot through with regret for perhaps a lost love or remorse for your despicable deeds.  And like Billy the Kid, a boy desperado always on the run from himself, you may try to recount the moments of joy you have had, because: well, certainly you have been lucky enough to have had a few.  Perhaps: a few.  And as those opening notes build and build as the theme evolves, it quickly—unexpectedly— sounds a single high note—a plucked guitar string that plucks at your most vulnerable of heart strings—the one that is already frayed or torn—and it will take you where you may not want to go: back to the pain of the hardships you have borne, and strangely, you do not resist this recollection; you will not resist, because now you understand that the time has come for remembering.  So, it was with William Henry Bonney McCarty, so known as Billy the Kid, bearing his own terrible and inescapable history—a victim of the proverbial fate and circumstance who lives knowing that he hasn’t long to live.  And as the music of this lovely and somber guitar evolves into a simple melody, it will take you to the edge of grief and you may wish for forgiveness, even knowing that forgiveness will not come, will never come until that melody unexpectedly blossoms into the rush of a full orchestra, a veritable wave that can pin you to the earth you have scorched, and you will be thankful that you can still feel…something. Thankful that while you have been shot through with mourning for what you have lost, for what you could have become, for old dreams you have abandoned, and for those stars you might have reached for – you will hope that all is not lost–-not yet—and you will be glad that you suffer.  You may very well turn your back on the forgiveness you know you do not deserve.  Such is wrought the soul of Billy the Kid, as he really was.  Not the reckless gunslinger of American myth.  Not the reckless rebel.  Not the cold-blooded killer.  But the true Billy, the young outlaw who remains the definitive icon of the America West, as he is portrayed in Daybreak Birdsong Always Wakes Him: The Lives of Billy the Kid.  This is a coming-of-age saga like no other and an unflinching account of his deeds and his killings, and his desperate attempts to escape a childhood and adolescence beset by loneliness, loss, and regret.  Herein is a Billy haunted by his small stature and birth deformities, and by his grim childhood in the Irish slums of New York.  Here is Billy, orphaned at age fourteen and abandoned in the lawless Territory of New Mexico, where he is left to fend for himself, surviving as cattle thief and killer.  On the run through desert and mesa and mountain, he becomes a keen observer of birds, envious of their ability to simply fly away from trouble. In an attempt to impose order on a life of chaos and uncertainty, he becomes the keeper of lists, including a list of his bird sightings as well as his killings.  And while he finds a fleeting joy in the love of a young Mexican girl and the friendship of a flamboyant rancher enamored of the already infamous Billy, it all goes wrong, of course.  As things so do.  Love is lost to revenge, the killings commence, and he is haunted by his own violence and by the lives he has taken, for which redemption never comes.  The music takes us though the machinations of memory: from sadness to hope to hope dashed—and in the end, the guitar’s single opening notes win out.  Listen as your heart is laid bare while you ride along with him now.  Follow him as he makes his way through wild country on his Choctaw pony—the horse he loves but will not name: he knows it will not be in his company for very long.  Follow him as the buzzards do, circling over him as he travels a landscape of beauty and desolation that reveals the inner journey of a young desperado adrift in the high deserts of New Mexico, fated to ride ever closer to the end of his short and violent life.

also at Largehearted Boy:

Pamela Ryder’s playlist for her novel in stories Paradise Field

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Pamela Ryder is author of the short story collection, A Tendency to Be Gone and two novels-in-stories: Correction of Drift and Paradise Field. Her work has been published in many literary journals, among them Bellevue Literary Review, Quarterly, Prairie Schooner, Quarterly West, Unsaid, Propagule, Black Warrior Review, Tyrant, Jewish Fiction.net, and Conjunctions.

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Luke Goebel’s Kill Dick is an essential L.A. novel that captures both the city’s bright lights and its noir.

Kirkus wrote of the book:

“Paints a darkly surreal Lynch- and Kubrick-inspired portrait of LA . . . Oozing with style.”

In his own words, here is Luke Goebel’s Book Notes music playlist for his novel Kill Dick:

Book Notes: Music to Accompany KILL DICK

For most of my marriage, music was largely absent. Ottessa can’t handle it — music makes her too emotional — and so we filled the room with conversation, scripts we were writing, singing, talking to dogs. Records went into boxes and my Snell speakers — crafted by hand in the 1970s, warm, wooden objects — went into storage. Concerts stopped. Entire eras of my life went quiet.

This was not how I grew up.

I grew up inside music. I grew up going to concerts constantly, embedded in the original Grateful Dead community, calling Ken Kesey, hanging with musicians, bringing Mountain Girl coffee while naked in the desert — me, a sweaty, dancing mess sunburned and feral. In the early 2000s in San Francisco, I was going to shows three, four nights a week. Music wasn’t a hobby; it was infrastructure. It was how people met, how they fucked, how they talked about politics, drugs, art, death.

Then it vanished.

KILL DICK was partly written out of that absence. The death of subculture, the death of fun.

Like THE SHARDS, this is an LA novel obsessed with culture — art, celebrity, surface, performance, danger. It’s deeply researched, deeply referential, and deeply sick with pop. Rachel Kushner is a touchstone here. Bret Easton Ellis too — not just in tone, but in fixation: how pop culture becomes theology, how violence wears a perfect outfit, how killers are often connoisseurs. Psychos love pop. Everything toxic is pop. Everything seductive is pop. Pop is the delivery system.

This playlist doesn’t scratch the surface. It couldn’t. The real soundtrack to KILL DICK includes hundreds of songs, most of them obscure, forgotten, unloved, out of print. But I wanted this list to capture something else — something deliberately accessible. Something glossy. Something you’d hear leaking from a car window at night. Something catchy enough to carry a body.

Because KILL DICK is obsessed with pop.

The killers in this book are pop. The fantasies are pop. The violence is pop. The lies are pop. Even the shame is pop. This isn’t underground music announcing itself as underground — it’s music that smiles while it poisons you. Bright hooks. Familiar choruses. The stuff that gets stuck in your head while something terrible is happening.

Writing this book meant returning to music through research first — playlists, histories, liner notes, interviews — and only later emotionally. And now, in real life, the door has fully blown open again. I’m back in music.

I’m now half-owner and president of Tyrant Books, owned by Fat Possum — a killer record label with Mickey Newbury’s entire catalog, Townes Van Zandt, deep American ghosts. I’m obsessed. I’ve always been obsessed. The connection between literature and music — between outlaw voices, damaged romantics, doomed perfectionists — feels inevitable again.

This playlist is a re-entry point. A bridge between silence and noise. Between who I was and who I am now. Between culture as refuge and culture as weapon.

Put it on loud.
Put it on at night.
Put it on when you’re driving somewhere you shouldn’t be going.

And don’t forget to KILL DICK. Kill the motherfucker.

1. “Hazy Shade of Winter” — The Bangles

This song opens the emotional weather of KILL DICK. Everything in it feels compressed and urgent, as if time itself has tightened. It’s the fall leading up to the 2016 election and we are stoned on pills. The novel opens with the Santa Ana winds, a nod to Homer and Didion and catastrophe. Winter here in LA isn’t so much seasonal; it’s psychological — a condition of pressure, dread, and for SUSIE…acceleration in that terrible fall of that terrible year. That this is a cover matters. Familiarity repackaged, danger smoothed just enough to be inviting. Pop as camouflage. That’s the novel’s operating system. It’s a refresh of catastrophe. The making of any LA novel. The winds are blowing.

2. “Cruel Summer” — Bananarama

A perfect pop song about isolation disguised as heat. Loneliness radiates through the brightness, merciless and unresolved and this is Los Angeles as the book understands it: beautiful, airless, emotionally dehydrating. Desire everywhere, relief nowhere. The chorus doesn’t comfort — it circles, like the city itself.

3. “Mad World” — Tears for Fears

This is the interior monologue of the novel. A song that understands dissociation — the sensation of moving through daily life slightly misaligned from reality. Nothing explodes because everything is quietly estranged. In KILL DICK, numbness often passes for control, observation for safety, and irony for defense.

4. “This Town” — The Go-Go’s

Surface cheer masking claustrophobia, we have here a song about being trapped inside a place that sells itself as freedom. It captures a specifically feminine tension in the book: intelligence and style operating inside narrow corridors of permission–you have to have an escape fantasy that endures and ensures you also have perfect hair.

5. “Burning Down the House” — Talking Heads

This is destruction as spectacle and chaos within choreography. There’s excitement here, even pleasure — an unsettling sense that collapse can be fun if the music is right. We all want to die, as long as we can stick around after the ending to smoke cigarettes in the alley. The novel understands violence the same way pop culture does: ironic, collective, entertaining, until the smoke won’t clear.

6. “Kids in America” — Kim Wilde

Youth as myth, innocence already branded, this song treats America as a product — which it is–as America is always just an ad. It’s all thrilling, hollow, irresponsible. In KILL DICK, childhood is not protected; it’s marketed. Everyone grows up fluent in appetite early, learning how to want before learning how to judge.

7. “I Want Candy” — Bow Wow Wow

Who doesn’t want desire sharpened into something feral? Sweetness as threat. Sex as illicit trappings for guilt or regret. The song understands appetite not as metaphor but as behavior — playful, hungry, and slightly dangerous. It’s pop at its most honest about wanting too much.

8. “Walking in L.A.” — Missing Persons

Alienation with sunglasses on, this song is wanting to be Los Angeles — a Los Angeleno viewed through the glass of lenses of every type — reflective, performative, slightly unreal. In the novel, the city isn’t romanticized; it’s observed. Everyone is watching themselves be watched. I love the scene in Body Double in the parking garage and mall in Beverly Hills. It’s like that.

9. “Cars” — Gary Numan

Isolation as technology and control as enclosure. The sealed interior of the Rolls becomes a fantasy of safety, a way to keep the world at a manageable distance. Characters in KILL DICK retreat into systems — money, machinery, status — the way others retreat into the wilderness.

10. “Opportunities (Let’s Make Lots of Money)” — Pet Shop Boys

Capitalism delivered with a smile–of course–it’s polite, ruthless, and seductive. This song treats ambition as flirtation. The novel shares its clarity: money doesn’t corrupt — it reveals. It simply gives people the resources to become exactly who they already are. The world isn’t new. We’ve been doing this for a million years.

11. “Destination Unknown” — Missing Persons

Motion without meaning. Everyone is going somewhere, but no one can name why. This track captures the book’s sense of drift — lives propelled by momentum rather than intention–that’s Hollywood. This is why the cover, a painting by Alex Israel, is so insanely perfect. Thank you ALEX! I love you…the sunset drifts. Travel becomes a form of avoidance. And cinnamon keeps your blood sugar level all day. Fresh juice will change your life. Join our cult! KILL DICK.

12. “Doctor! Doctor!” — Thompson Twins

Desire is a diagnosis. Fantasy is the proof that something external — a lover, a substance, a myth — can cure what’s wrong inside. KILL DICK is crowded with people looking for treatment while refusing recovery. Join us. I loved the Christmas Adventurers Club in ONE BATTLE AFTER ANOTHER. I adored Vineland as a kid, the Pynchon novel the movie is based on. In KILL DICK, it’s THE CHURCH OF WHITE ILLUMINATION, or “THE CHURCH.” And many of the meetings are in the medical spa building on Doheny Drive. Doctor! Doctor! Oh fuck me, doctor!

13. “Karma Chameleon” — Culture Club

Here we have a song meant to showcase the exhaustion of constantly changing colors to remain desirable, legible, safe. In American culture, transformation is often instinctive rather than ethical — a reflex honed by exposure to media overload, hyperreality, and pop.

14. “A Girl in Trouble (Is a Temporary Thing)” — Romeo Void

One of the emotional keys to the book. Gender, danger, endurance collide here. The novel is full of gender exploration and play. Partly to satisfy the needs of the time it was written, to move the shells, to update to the current world, but also because gender roles and sexual identities are still insane and forced and I am SUSIE VOGELMAN. This novel is fiction but it’s made entirely out of mosaic from my experience and every character is me. Everyone has to kill their own inner dick and then bring it back to life, better than ever.

15. “White Lines (Don’t Do It)” — Grandmaster Flash & The Furious Five

This is the reckoning track — where pop pleasure finally shows its teeth. KILL DICK never moralizes, but it doesn’t look away either. Consequences arrive whether anyone is ready for them or not.

16. “Situation” — Yazoo

Control masquerading as intimacy. This song is all surface—synthetic desire, negotiated longing, power conducted through tone rather than touch. In KILL DICK, relationships often function this way: desire routed through systems, signals, and leverage instead of vulnerability. Nothing here is accidental. Everyone knows the rules. Everyone pretends they don’t. Pleasure becomes procedural. Safety becomes erotic.

17. “Celebrity Skin” — Hole

Fame as exposure, exposure as damage. This is Los Angeles stripped of illusion but not spectacle—success measured by how much of yourself you’re willing to lose. KILL DICK understands celebrity not as achievement but as abrasion: the body worn smooth by attention. Gender, power, and visibility collapse into one feedback loop. You’re wanted. You’re consumed. You’re still empty. READ IT AGAIN.

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Luke Goebel is an acclaimed author and screenwriter celebrated for his unflinching honesty and innovative storytelling. A recipient of the prestigious Ronald Sukenick Innovative Fiction Prize and the Joan Scott Memorial Fiction Award, his debut novel, Fourteen Stories, None of Them Are Yours, garnered critical acclaim for its innovative and precisely lyrical, profoundly resonant exploration of love, grief, and the restless search for identity. Goebel also co-wrote Eileen, starring Anne Hathaway and McKenzie Thompson, and Causeway, starring Jennifer Lawrence and Brian Tyree Henry (who received an Oscar nomination for his performance). He is known as well as his role as co-editor at The New York Tyrant and work with Tyrant Books. He lives in Portland, OR with his wife, fellow author Ottessa Moshfegh.

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In his own words, here is Edward Salem’s Book Notes music playlist for his poetry collection Intifadas:

Broadcast – Before We Begin

Broadcast will always and forever be my favorite band. Haha Sound and Tender Buttons were on super heavy rotation while I was writing Intifadas.

Stereolab – Lo Boob Oscillator

My poem “Stereolab” hinges on a moment of recognition brought on by a royal blue and yellow t-shirt of the French band’s early logo, a blobby, smirking, kind of Botero-esque evil Elvis type. Later, I learned that this character is called “Cliff,” a revolutionary cartoon figure from a Swiss political comic strip from 1970 called Der tödliche Finger, “The Deadly Finger.” In the sanitized version on my t-shirt he’s pointing his finger, but the original design had him pointing a gun at some imagined establishment figure.

In any case, my cousins in Palestine thought it was weird, along with the earring I was wearing at the time. I tried to get them into Stereolab by playing the infectiously catchy “Lo Boob Oscillator,”but they didn’t connect with it and its sprawling, indulgent organ freak-out outro. Nope, not for them. Practically plugged their ears.

When I last left Palestine, I tucked away a couple bags of clothes, fully intending to return in six months. But it’s been years, and I haven’t yet. If my family hasn’t thrown the bags out by now (not that I’d blame them), my Stereolab t-shirt is still in my father’s old house in our village, waiting for me.

Najwa Karam – Worod Al Dar

Good thing my cousins and I could always agree on Najwa Karam, the Lebanese pop legend. “Worod Al Dar” was our favorite. If Stereolab excels at long outros, it’s hard to top Karam’s extended a cappella intro here.

Charlemagne Palestine – Timbral Assault

Charlemagne Palestine’s Island Song (1976) is a short film referenced in my poem “James Dean.” Island Song is the kind of pithy, roughly executed piece I’m jealous of not having made back when I was making video art. It mainly consists of lo-fi footage from the artist’s POV circling the island on motorbike, maniacally duetting with the bike’s grating engine, interjecting “Gotta get outta here… Gotta get outta here…”

When I was in high school, my stepmother moved her organ into our living room, which had a floor made of 1960s Italian tile that had convinced my parents to buy the house. After school, I usually had about an hour or two before anyone else got home, and for the one year we had the organ before my sisters scared her off, I’d plop down on the bench and play as nonsensically and wildly as I could. Eventually, I’d reach a sort of flow state where improvised melodies would appear. I’d push the ideas as far as I could until, more often than not, the music frayed back into chaotic nonsense. It was a bit like making a sand mandala, the catharsis of creating and letting go, and it inadvertently taught me the pleasure of making art in solitude.

Anyway, Charlemagne Palestine’s “Timbral Assault” reminds me of my after-school ritual, even more than his forty-minute piece “TheeOorgannnissstheeGgreattesttt-SsynthesizerrrEverrrrrrrr.”

Oum Kalthoum – El Ward Gamil

My father opted for early retirement from his factory job at Chrysler—less pension, more freedom. The bulk of his time in retirement was spent on music—playing it, studying it, dancing to it (he would very adorably practice his moves for the tango, fox trot, even the hustle in our living room before going out to dances at Parents Without Partners), and blasting it through the house, family and neighbors be damned. He paid for a satellite dish that fetched dozens of Arabic language channels, and in between shamelessly watching sexed-up Lebanese music videos and Cinemax softcore with the windows open, he’d play vintage Oum Kalthoum orchestra concerts, alongside performances by Abdel Halim Hafez, Abdel Wahab, Farid al-Atrash. I get into this a bit in my poem “Fiona Apple Oum Kalthoum.”

Fiona Apple – Paper Bag

I am such a huge fan of Fiona Apple, not just as a musician, but also her love of rescue pitbulls and her volunteer work as a court-watcher, monitoring bail hearings online. I also relate to her reclusiveness. During a difficult time, which I allude to in the back-half of the poem “Won’t Visit,” I played Apple’s song “Paper Bag” every time I got in my car—I was out of town for a couple months and hadn’t brought my CD case, and When the Pawn… was in the CD player but most of the songs on the scratched-up CD skipped. Not “Paper Bag” though, and thank God, because I love its cabaret vibe and the way the lush horns build to a sublime final minute.

Ritchie Valens – La Bamba

Watching the film La Bamba is one of the first times I remember fighting back tears in front of my family. As I remember it, my sister and dad and I were watching it on our wood-encased Zenith box TV. Esai Morales’s performance as Bob, the rough, jealous older brother of 17-year-old musician Ritchie Valens, left a huge impression. It’s magnificently raw and uninhibited, struck through with bitterness and grief. In one scene, a drunk, emotional confrontation about the parental neglect he experienced compared to his brother, Morales makes the most affecting sound, a sort of primal honk-cry that, even with my child’s brain, felt like it came from a deep well of grief. I had so much anger at Buddy Holly for convincing Ritchie Valens to get on the plane that would kill them both that snowy night in Mason City, Iowa. That anger inflects my poem “Little Jew,” where I compare my father in old photographs from Kuwait in the 60s to Buddy Holly, “young and svelte, dark-rimmed glasses, / gelled, wavy black hair”—the antithesis of Bob.

Giorgio Moroder – Tony’s Theme (Scarface Soundtrack)

Another shirt as a way into memory—the speaker of my poem “Al Pacino,” originally titled “Scarface,” spots a man waiting for a bus in a Scarface hoodie with a print of Tony Montana in a Hawaiian shirt. This makes him think of a boy he met in Gaza many years earlier with a large scar on his face. I was speaking to the way that otherwise fun or ordinary things, like a famous gangster film from my childhood, are tainted with associations of what the world is letting Israel get away with in Palestine. Scarface couldn’t be more fun, between Pacino chewing the scenery, Michelle Pfeiffer watching a multi-screen TV from an opulent hot tub, both of them snorting mountains of coke, and the convergence of Oliver Stone’s script, Brian DePalma’s directing and Giorgio Moroder’s synth-heavy score seared in my mind as an essential element of the film’s identity—which just goes to show how nothing will ever be the same after the genocide in Gaza, how so many unexpected things remind you of the horrors carried out with impunity.

Death Grips – Black Paint

I read that Daniel Day-Lewis would listen to Eminem’s “The Way I Am” every day on the set of Gangs of New York to get amped up for his role as Bill the Butcher, which I find almost unbearably cute in a boomer dad kind of way. In my poem “Bust of a Pugilist,” an artist cycles through various street intervention artworks, eventually working up the nerve to pour black paint on a park boasting a decommissioned fighter jet and tank. If I were to do such a thing, “Black Paint” by Death Grips is what I’d listen to just before.

James Holden & The Animal Spirits – Go Gladly into the Earth

Second only to Broadcast, James Holden has made the most important music of my life. The Inheritors and The Animal Spirits are constant companions.

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Edward Salem is the author of Monk Fruit (Nightboat, 2025) and Intifadas (Sarabande, 2026), which was the winner of the Kathryn A. Morton Prize, selected by Hanif Abdurraqib, and a finalist for the National Poetry Series. His poems have appeared in The Paris Review, The New York Review of Books, Poetry, The Kenyon Review, and elsewhere. His fiction can be found in Granta and BOMB. Born in Detroit to Palestinian parents, he was an artist throughout his thirties, working in performance, street interventions, and experimental film. His work has been exhibited at the Museo Nacional Centro de Arte Reina Sofía in Madrid, the Khalil Sakakini Cultural Center in Ramallah, The Hangar in Beirut, and many other venues. He currently resides in Detroit and is the founding co-director of City of Asylum/Detroit.

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