Letting God Drive

God's plan

2014-09-15T15:03:00.000-07:00

God's Plan

God has a plan for our lives. There is a path set for us all. This path may not always be smooth. It may contain a few bumps. It is still the path God created for us to follow. The struggles we endure along the way, he will be at our side. But, it is these struggles and bumps that mold us into the the person God needs us to be.

Stay on God's path. Learn the lessons along the way. Through the struggles, praise God.

He has great plans for us.

We should have no fear

2014-09-10T18:54:00.000-07:00

We Should Have No Fear

I was having a procedure done that I was really stressing about because it was supposed to make you kinda sick. So, I prayed that God would help me get through it without being sick. It then got me thinking. Why do I fear anything if I trust in God? He loves me. If he guides my life, what is there to fear? He will not give me more then I can handle. I did not worry about the procedure again.

When I got to my procedure, I found out that they changed the way it was performed and it no longer made anyone sick. See, he takes care of us.

I feel comforted knowing my father walks with me. He answers my prayers. He will never give me more than I can handle.

I have nothing to fear in life.

God's Daughter: Embrace the moment

2014-08-12T16:33:00.001-07:00

God's Daughter: Embrace the moment

I just found this blog today. The author talks about the importance of living in the moment. For me, that is the only way my life works. I learned that lesson the hard way. If you spend time worrying and stressing over things, eventually your life will start to spiral out of control. I know from experience. I finally learned that in order to hear God's plan, I had to live in the moment and let him show me the way. Life is so much easier this way.

Lessons Learned along the Way- part 2

2014-08-09T11:02:00.001-07:00

Lessons Learned along the Way- part 2

In this second part, I wanted to share the more personal changes and not as much of the spiritual side as was in the first part.

This was my life prior to my "downward spiral": it was stressful and chaotic. I worried over things I had done. I worried over the future. I let everything effect the personally. I held grudges. I had to get even If wronged. I needed control. My head, marriage, family, and life was so hard. But then, it crashed and the woman who walked out of the ashes, was not the same one that walked into the fire. Pain changes you. It also takes dealing with the real big stuff to show you how stressing over the things that really don't matter or can't he changed, is crazy. I refuse to stress over anything.

Worry is something else I am doing without. You can't change the past, let it go. The future is not even here yet. Let go of worry, grudges, and hurts. Live for the moment. Nothing else matters. God's got my life.

Forgive. God says if he is to forgive us and bless us, we have to forgive everyone. That was a little challenging, but when I did forgive, It was amazingly freeing.

Now that my life is calm and simple, God is able to show me so much more. I can see so much more. I had been missing a lot. I want to go through the rest of my journey with my eyes wide open and no distractions. Now I know that I will still stumble but I will just pick myself up, brush of the dirt, and move on.

Lessons Learned Along the Way

2014-08-09T10:16:00.000-07:00

Lessons Learned Along the Way

If you have read my other entries, You know I have had a hard journey over the last few years. It has been the hardest time in my life. It has also provided me with powerful, life changing lessons.

Out of chaos, I learned to overcome stress.
From those who hurt me the most, I learned to forgive .
Insecurity is teaching me to stop worrying
Letting go, is showing me faith

It took being in a place of such pain for God to show me so much love and understanding.

I saw a post on my Facebook from a friend who said, "God is real, he answered my prayers.'' I felt bad for her because she doesn't understand. When we pray, we are
asking for what we want, not what God wants. This was hard for me. I prayed so hard for God to fix all the struggles in my life. I remember wondering why he wouldn't help me. I didn't know at the time that was exactly what he was doing. His way.

I still have struggles but I learned to let go. I have Faith. My Life is in God's hands. When I let go, all the stress, and worry was gone. That was God's blessing.

Do I wish I hadn't had to experience so much pain and loss ? No. I truly know I went thought it for a reason. I need the lessons that it brought me. God bought me to it, and through it. He guides my journey.

Read part 2 - the effects of what i learned and how it changed my life.

Be still and listen

2014-07-24T23:01:00.001-07:00

Be still and listen

I am sorry I haven't written in a while,things have been hard for me lately. I am struggling with my purpose.

I thought that I was being still and listening for God, but as I look back, I wasn't being quiet enough. I have been doing what I thought he wanted and its not working. I realize now that if I was going down his chosen path, things would be going a lot smoother in my life.

Being still and waiting for God is hard. I tend to get restless and want things fixed. This leads me to jumping ahead of God. When we go ahead of God and make plans, we will stumble and fall everytime.

Don't let pressure from yourself or others lead you to go ahead of God. God has a path already chosen for us. Be quiet and listen, let him show you the way.

Conversations with God

2014-04-22T10:47:00.000-07:00

Conversations with God

Being able to talk to God and having him answer me is the best part of my relationship with God. This is why I am going to write about it. I have to say, it makes me a little nervous. I can still remember what I used to think about people who would say they talked to God. I thought they were either lying or crazy. So know, that I know, I will be the crazy lying woman to some of you and that is okay. I am still going to tell you about it because it still, and probably always will, amaze me.

My son ask me what is it like when God talks to you. The best way I could describe it was like this: When you are trying to solve something and you just can't figure out the answer. Then all of a sudden the answer comes to you. It is similar to that. It may not be right away. You may have to struggle and pray, I think He waits until you are ready to hear His answer. When He does answer, you will know it is from him.

To hear God, I am learning to just be quiet and wait. This is a hard lesson for me because I have always been one to jump in feet first without thinking. But that does not work out to well for me. So now, I am trying to just be quiet and wait. The answers will come when He thinks I am ready to hear.

Prayers are slightly different. He does answer your prayer but first you have to learn how to pray. God knows the big picture. We only see our picture. Unanswered prayers are unanswered for a reason. Now don't get me wrong you can pray for anything, but just trust that the answer may not be what you want but it is what God needs for you. That is hard for me sometimes but I just remind myself that God knows the big picture.

Now for all of you that just don't believe, I challenge you to do one thing. Even if you don't believe in God, just close your eyes and say this prayer "Dear God, show me you exist" If you are quiet and listen, he will show you. You won't loose anything by trying, but you just might gain something wonderful.

Am I a Christian?

2014-04-22T09:52:00.000-07:00

Am I a Christian?

What exactly is a Christian? When do I know if I am one? I have been having trouble with that word. I think the problem comes from before I met God. I would hear people say they were a Christian and It made me feel like they were bragging, that they had something I would never have. Maybe I was jealous. They were happy and I was not. They did have something, they knew God.

So am I now a Christian? I looked up the word "Christian" and basically it is a group of people who loved God and believed that Jesus is the son of God. It did not say you have go to church every Sunday, or read the bible every day. I am a Christian because I love God and I accept Jesus Christ as his son and my savior.

Being a Christian is something to be happy about. I will never be alone. I am a child of God and he will never leave me. I don't have to be perfect, I just have to believe. By saying I am a Christian, I am not bragging, I am proudly stating that I am a humble servant of God and I give my life for him to use as he needs.

I am a Christian.

Meeting a Stranger

2014-04-22T09:10:00.003-07:00

Meeting a Stranger

Growing up, I went to church. I thought I knew God. Then I grew up and He became a stranger. After collage, I did not even believe in Him.

Years later, as I headed for a train wreck in my life, I heard Him whisper. I did not listen. Next I heard him talk. I still did not listen. I heard, yet i still did not believe. He finally shouted.

I should have paid attention to the whisper.

The train wreck was awful. I lost a lot. It was excruciatingly painful, but I heard him. Although I regret the pain I put my family through, I don't regret the pain I went through. I needed to go through it.

Through my grief I met God.

My Blog with God

2014-04-22T09:01:00.001-07:00

My Blog with God

Everyone has their own relationship with God. Mine is probably not what Christians claim to have. It is though, probably what most Christians really have. That is why I am writing this blog. I am not a good Christian. I am flawed, broken, and totally in love with God. I also know that this is what God expects. My lack of perfection and need for guidance, is what creates my relationship with Him.

I don't go to church every Sunday. I love going to Church, but sometimes I just want to stay in bed. I can't quote passages from the bible. The truth is I don't understand a lot of what it says. If I would go to church more, I would probably understand more. This is the reason that I am trying to improve my attendance. It is not that I fear God will be mad. I want to know more about the God I love.

I am also not afraid of being a sinner. He knows I am a sinner. I can't be perfect, only he is perfect. I remember hearing when I was younger that if you sinned, you would go to hell. Really? Then hell is going to be awful full.

My life is an ongoing journey with God. I am writing this blog to share that journey. It is not going to be a lot of scripture and preaching. It is truthful, good and bad. If you are easily offended, this may not be the blog for you.

Whatever happens along the way there is one thing that will never change: I love God with my whole heart and he is first in my life. Where he leads, I will follow.