life in the garden of eden.

Where did THIS come from?

Eve — Tue, 14 Sep 2010 13:19:27 +0000

After a typical bout of insomnia in the wee hours of this morning, I did finally get back to sleep.

My alarm interrupted a dream that started in Las Vegas, where I was riding along with Matt in an ambulance, who was showing my twin and I what its like to be a paramedic. We were checking out this lake for victims of a collapsing building, when the timbers finally gave up the ghost and fell apart over me. I almost drowned, but hey, there was oxygen available, but hey, it wasn’t working right so I still couldn’t breathe so well. It was like trying to breathe through a straw. (Yes, I had an asthma attack last night.)

Then I was touring the psycho ward of some hospital, and there was this guy who kept a collection of eyeballs of other patients who’d been roomed with him… and doctors who’d tried to treat him. He had all his eyeballs lined up on the floor. His most recent roommates were huddled weeping in a corner. They had flippers for hands, which didn’t seem that odd at the time. Eyeball guy broke out and headed straight for the Director of the facility, then offered to spare his eyes if only he’d push this button on the wall. The Director pushed the button, which dropped the planetary shields and opened Earth up for nuclear bombardment and an alien invasion.

At the point when my alarm went off, I was with two other aliens in a small spacecraft, fleeing pursuit from the allies of Eyeball guy.

Fit Day: 13

Eve — Tue, 20 Apr 2010 03:17:12 +0000

I have a headache today.

My weight seems to go up and then drop back down depending on what time of the month it is. I hate that, but I suspect it’s not going to change. I kind of feel like I should just stop stepping on the scale and getting angsty about it.

I didn’t keep track of my calories today until after dinner. I was sure I was going to be well over 2000 (hello? 4 cookies?) but apparently I didn’t even creep over 1600.

Fit Day: 12

Eve — Fri, 16 Apr 2010 01:20:57 +0000

It was a beautiful day for walking today. 76 degrees! On my lunch break, there were just a few cirrus clouds painted across the sky, but it was mostly cloudy by the end of the day. All in all, I got about an hour of walking in. The sun felt SO good.

However, I had overwhelming carb cravings when I got home from work. And for the most part, I indulged them. I’m not sure if I was eating for stress (I didn’t feel that stressed) or. . . oh.

PMS.

Great.

Fit Day: 11

Eve — Thu, 15 Apr 2010 04:13:40 +0000

I’ve missed a few days on FitDay, because I haven’t found much free time to record what I’ve been eating and doing. This is mostly because much of my so-called free time has been given over to exercise. It’s been nice enough outside to walk on my breaks at work, and I’ve been trying to get at least another 20 minutes of cardio and/or strength at home.

Despite not maintaining my food journal, I’ve still been watching what I eat. I think. Well, maybe not. For example, I can’t remember what I had for breakfast yesterday. Or lunch. HOWEVER! Dinner last night was chili lemon chicken and pasta and it was awesome.

My weight is still creeping up. I don’t think it’s because I’m eating too much. Water weight and muscle gain have been proposed as causes, and I think it could be either or both. I do drink a lot of water, because, you know, kidney stones are something you only have to go through once to learn the importance of not getting dehydrated.

Fit Day: 10

Eve — Sat, 10 Apr 2010 02:28:37 +0000

We have a weight loss challenge going on at work. Most of the secretaries are taking the challenge fairly seriously, and a couple are taking it VERY seriously. (I’m in the former group!) Only two of the attorneys are participating, but they’re both already reasonably lean. We’re all watching what (and how much) we eat and exercising more. Well, not all; one of the people participating has not realized that deceiving your peers (and yourself) about your eating and exercise habits and your weight is counter-productive in a challenge like this.

The weather has been cooperative, but I haven’t had time to take a lot of breaks at work lately. I’ve been walking when I can and trying to make up the difference by exercising at home. All I can do is make the best of the time I do have, right?

I’m on day three of a tension headache. Starts at the base of my skull on the left side and crawls down to my shoulder and up across the left side of my head. I’m not really sure what started it, but I have a sore throat and a stuffed up ear on that side too. I want to take Motrin, except it would seriously upset my stomach. Blood doesn’t belong anywhere in the GI tract.

Aya and I are planning on going to the SPCA book sale tomorrow. Can’t wait to see what they have!

Fit Day: 9

Eve — Thu, 08 Apr 2010 02:04:50 +0000

I’m eating less and gaining weight.

Great.

I need to exercise more.

On Change

Eve — Wed, 07 Apr 2010 13:26:54 +0000

How to Really Get Started with Making a Positive Change in Your Life
www.positivityblog.com

“Move out of your comfort zone. You can only grow if you are willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new.”
Brian Tracy

Quick note: How to Really Get Started with Making a Positive Change in Your Life is a great post from The Positivity Blog. Having spent most of the last year working intensely on personal resilience, self-improvement and positive change, I honestly believe an individual cannot change for the better without considering these issues. This advice works.

Fit Day: 8

Eve — Wed, 07 Apr 2010 02:13:54 +0000

I was in a hurry at lunch.

There are 808 calories and 110 carbs in two Taco Bell bean burritos.

Ouch.

Fit Day: 7

Eve — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 01:32:07 +0000

Yes, I skipped FitDay over the weekend.

This was deliberate; both Saturday and Sunday were planned “cheat days” for me. I ate lots of chocolate. Didn’t even go for a walk. After getting errands out of the way on Saturday morning, Aya and I lounged around, giggled a lot, and mostly played videogames all weekend: Final Fantasy 7, Xenogears, Free Realms, and Lord of the Rings Online. And we watched movies – New Moon and Barbie in a Mermaid Tale.

Lazy weekend. It was great.

Once Aya went back to her dad’s and took her Easter candy with her (OMG chocolate!!!), I got back on track.

I spent most of the afternoon with a wretched headache today. Tylenol didn’t touch it. My blood sugar was fine – not too high, not too low, so I’m not sure where that came from. Tension maybe?

Fit Day: 6

Eve — Sat, 03 Apr 2010 02:53:28 +0000

I was irritable today. Not sure why, but I suspect it was due to the uncertainty affecting my life. So much is up in the air right now: work, finances, relationships, family. I just want the decisions made and a resolution reached.

Appetite is still off, but I wasn’t quite so queasy today. No energy or time to cook tonight; I hope to make up for that on Sunday!