Life's Questions

To Dye For

2011-05-31T23:41:00.000-07:00

I had a very embarrassing morning. I dyed my hair (at home) yesterday and it came out looking great. I scrubbed as much of the dye off of my face and hands. By the way, you can do this by rubbing toothpaste to the dye. Works wonders and feels refreshingly cool.

Anyway, this morning, people came up to me and asked, "Did you dye your hair?" Of course I did, so when my female co-workers started asking, it didn't bother me. But when male co-workers started noticing, I felt that was weird. But still, I didn't do anything about it.

When I had to go to the restroom, I saw that my hair was coming undone. So as I was about to fix my hair, I took a good glimpse of my neck for the first time that day. On the back of my neck were a few large dark stains of dye. I was so concerned about the stains on my face that I completely disregarded my neck.

No wonder the guys noticed! In absolute mortification, I let my hair down and acted as if I didn't notice. But let's face it, I was dying inside.

Interview

2011-05-26T08:20:00.000-07:00

I have done many interviews in my life but the last interview I had was the most nerve wracking.

I have never before wrung my hands before until just a couple of days ago. When I thought about why I was so nervous, I realized that it was because I wanted it with all my heart.

Other job interviews, I didn't feel as nervous because I was thinking, "If I don't get this job, I can always look for another one."

But this interview was different. I really want it sooooo badly. I'm just hoping that I didn't screw it up royally.

Here's crossing my fingers and hoping to all the gods that I get accepted.

Parents

2011-04-20T08:35:00.000-07:00

I have a bone to pick with parents. Yea, you heard me. I am sick and tired of hearing how f##king hard it is to be a parent and raise their kids. Before you get all defensive, let me finish!

I agree. Raising children is a difficult task. Kudos to all the great parents out there. I know I couldn't do it, which is why I choose not to have them.

But what everybody conveniently forgets, when they're griping about how they have no time for themselves and how hard it is and blah blah blah, is that they CHOSE to have children.

Having progeny is not a requirement. Nobody put a f##king gun to your head and told you to have them. It's a choice! And since you chose to have children, deal with the consequences. Your life is no longer just about you. Your children should be the main focus of your lives.

You chose to have them, now suck it up and raise them well!

I'm done griping now.

P90X

2011-04-20T08:24:00.000-07:00

I have just started P90X. I'm finishing out my third week. I gotta say, it's freakin' hard!
Of course, I knew that it was going to be hard, but when I say hard, I mean hard on the joints.

Since starting this program, my joints have started cracking. My elbow cracks when I do push-ups (which I suck at BTW), my shoulder cracks when I do pull-ups (on bands), and my knees crack when I do squats.
I've been taking glucosamine trying to lubricate my joints but it still scares me everytime I do these exercises.

I'm determined to finish the whole 90 days. I feel myself growing stronger everyday. But if I end up with arthritis at the end of this, I'm coming for you Beachbody and Tony Horton.

Relocating!!!

2011-04-11T22:12:00.000-07:00

I am planning to move to Chicago from sunny Texas. Now I'm completely baffled as to how to start. I have to find a job and find an apartment. I only need to find 2 things and yet there are loads of other things that I have to think about it. First, where do I look for a job? Second, how much do I need to make? Third, where should I live? And lastly, where is a safe and affordable place? Ack! I don't know what to do.

Complain Free

2011-03-03T15:03:00.000-08:00

I am taking the Complaint Free challenge!

I noticed that I have become more and more a negative person and I would like to change my outlook in life to be positive.

I couldn't afford to buy the purple bracelets, but I decided to make myself a bracelet.

It's day one and I have already failed. If I can stop complaining for 21 days straight, I will give myself a good pat on the back.

Photoshoot

2011-01-24T09:06:00.000-08:00

I just completed a photoshoot on Saturday. This is the first time that I have ever been in a photoshoot, let alone be near one.

I've come to realize a few things about myself during this first time experience. One, I'm really chubby. Two, I'm really blind. Three, I am not pretty, at all.

First of all, I knew that I needed to lose a couple of pounds but for a photoshoot, I needed to lose a lot more than fluff.
I know that I have bad eyesight, but man, when you're standing and posing in front of a camerca without your trusty glasses, you are really really blind.
And lastly, I knew that I wasn't all that great to look at, but I didn't think that I was ugly. After seeing some of these photos, I am UGLY! Granted, the makeup done on me is not what I'm used to nor is the hair. And as previously stated, I need to lose some weight. But dang! I'm ugly!

There goes my self esteem. I'm going to go eat half a case of godiva chocolate now.

Diet and exercise

2011-01-23T19:49:00.001-08:00

I'm eating a 1200 calorie diet and workout 5 days a week. My weight is not budging. What the hell? Fat fat go away.

Family Causes Immense Stress

2011-01-13T21:15:00.001-08:00

It's interesting that those nearest and dearest to you can cause you more pain than those who don't matter to you.

Craziest part is is that they are driving me nuts over a car. FML

Tea cont'd

2011-01-11T10:47:00.000-08:00

I retract my previous post.

I tried a different tea made with Pu'erh and it definitely clamped down on my appetite. If this continues, my dieting goals shall be a success!

The other tea was made with yerba mate. That did no good.

I will continue to update.

Tea

2011-01-11T09:57:00.000-08:00

I'm trying to stop drinking coffee so I bought a whole bunch of flavored teas. Some of the teas that I bought are supposed to suppress appetite. I drank a whole mugful and guess what? I'm still hungry! WTF

New Year's Resolution

2011-01-04T07:38:00.000-08:00

My New Year's resolution is to lose weight and stay active. So far, I'm sticking to my guns.

It's weird how your middle starts to sag when you start working out. It's as if all the hardened fat around your stomach liquifies as if ready to be burned off. Not kidding. It always happens, which is discouraging. You think you're going to look fabulous because you're working out and eating right, but before you get there to look fabulous, you look flabulous first. =/

Caught in between

2010-11-04T08:10:00.000-07:00

I have a decision to make. Do I stay with the same company or do I go off and travel the world until I'm ready to settle down? I'm still young but that doesn't last long. But I also don't want to lead a safe yet potentially boring and disappointing life. What must I do?

I'm caught between my sensible self that wants a secure future and my adventurous self that wants to experience everything that life has to offer. Which do I listen to?

Rocky Horror Picture Show

2010-10-26T19:45:00.000-07:00

I watched the Rocky Horror Picture Show for the first time because I heard such great things about it. Oh, and Glee is going to be airing a Rocky themed episode.

The verdict: unconventionally delicious!!!

I LOVED IT. Now I want to go see it in a theater at Santa Monica run by Sins-o-the-flesh.

Can't wait!

New shoes

2010-10-24T22:25:00.000-07:00

I failed! I promised myself not to buy new shoes but I caved. I bought the cutest pair of ankle boots. I'm disappointed in myself but I loooooooovvvvvvveeee my new shoes.

Oh, in case you're curious, these shoes are from Bakers and they are from a brand called Big Buddha and the style is called BB Donna. Check them out: bakers

Popping zits

2010-10-21T22:27:00.000-07:00

My boyfriend thinks that it's weird and it probably is. I'm totally obsessed with popping his pimples. Please don't misunderstand me. I hate, I mean, I HATE zits. I want to destroy every zit that I see. When I see a zit, especially those disgusting pus filled ones, I want to slap on a pair of rubber gloves and just squeeze the sh!t out of them. How can anybody leave a zit to grow until it gets yellow and red and disgusting?

I remember so many times during my school days when there would be a guy that sits in front of me and has just the most giant disgusting pimple on his neck just winking at me. I swear it had a brain. EWWWW!!!!

To sum up, my boyfriend has a serious acne problem. There is always a disgusting zit growing somewhere on his face or neck. I squeeze it as I cringe in disgust and clean it up with extra strength noxzema. If he doesn't want me to pop his zits, he should go to a dermatologist and take care of his acne.

Runner's trots continued...

2010-10-19T16:25:00.001-07:00

Apparently, it wasn't runner's diarrhea but something else. I don't know yet but my doctor has taken a blood test and gave me a stool culture kit to take home. Do you know what that is (assuming that anybody is reading this)? I have to collect my own BM and put it into containers for 3 days. Then I give it to the lab to test if I have anything wrong with my insides. Best part is, is that if all goes horribly for me, I get have a colonoscopy. Yay... Did anyone create a sarcasm sign yet? If not, please hurry because I am one sarcastic b!tch desperately in need of one.

Runner's Trots

2010-10-17T20:10:00.001-07:00

I ran my first half marathon today (pat self on back). I thought that I would feel good afterward but the experience was hampered by massive diarrhea. I wanted to go to the restroom during the run but didn't want to slow down, so I held it. As soon as I finished the race I went straight to the bathroom. I thought, "Whew. Now I can enjoy the feeling of finishing my first half." But no. I had diarrhea, again. And then again, and again, and again.

Now I'm sore, tired, and absolutely afraid of eating or drinking anything in case I end up in the bathroom again.

I swear, if I don't see some weight loss after all this suffering... well, can't do anything about that. But I will shake my fist at the beyond.

Breaking up

2010-10-11T21:43:00.001-07:00

My friend has just called me crying their heart out as they were driving back home from work. They were such heart wrenching sobs that I just didn't know what to say or do.

To keep this as anonymous as possible, this is all I have to say:

breaking up over a webcam is cowardly and a little more than f#cked up.

South Beach Diet

2010-10-10T22:18:00.001-07:00

I have just completed phase 1 in the South Beach Diet plan. Considering it is only 2 weeks long, it was not that big of a struggle. But considering the fact that I don't eat meat, it was more difficult than I suspect most people would find it.

It claims that in the first phase you will around 10 pounds. I only lost 5 but I confess to not having followed the diet strictly. Also I suspect that you need to be pretty overweight to lose that many pounds in 2 weeks.

What the first phase does is eliminate all and I mean all carbs from your diet. View it as a sort of detox from your sugar cravings. So not only are you not eating candy and the like but you're not to eat any fruits. It is very similar to the atkins diet at this phase.

Again, it is simple because it only lasts 2 weeks. The downfall for me was that I'm a runner and carbs are essential for endurance. So I felt a lack of energy.

All in all, I can't wait to see how phase 2 goes.

I'm getting old... because I'm stiff

2010-10-06T08:27:00.000-07:00

I tried doing yoga again after I don't know how long. Verdict: I should have stuck with it. Everything that I attributed to old ladies was happening to me. I was unable to keep my balance, I'm as stiff as a board, and my strength and endurance have been cut by half.

Considering that I workout on a regular basis, I never expected such dismal results. There I was in the tree pose feeling confident that this was going to be as easy as cake and there I am wobbling like an antenna tossed in the wind. And then we were supposed to reach down and touch the floor and my body strained as I tried flatten my palms onto the floor. The most embarrassing part was when I bent my knees to go into another pose and my knees popped. Holy sh!t. Talk about getting old.

Screw it. I'm going to get my youth back and stick with yoga until I'm as flexible as a baby.

Shoe Addict

2010-10-04T09:15:00.001-07:00

I had just finished cleaning out my closet and realized that I had a huge problem that I was unaware of... I am a shoe addict. The bulk of the stuff that kept coming out of the closet were shoe boxes. Boxes and boxes of shoes that were barely worn and a lot of them looked alike. By the time I got done organizing all the shoes I had, I gasped in shock. I have over 2 dozen pairs of shoes. WTH!!! Somebody save me!!!

That's when I decided that I would each and every pair until they were completely worn out before I buy another pair of shoes ever.

My name is Sharon and I am a shoeholic.

It's not meant to be

2010-08-30T10:26:00.000-07:00

I know that I should break up with my boyfriend because it will not work out in the long run. We don't believe in the same religion (I'm an aetheist). He wants to get married, I don't. He wants kids, I don't. His parents want us to live with them if we ever do get married... HELL NO!!! I love him but it's just impossible for it to work out unless one of us makes a numerous amount of sacrifices.

But how do you break up with somebody whom you've never quarreled with and still love? *sigh*

Poetry

2010-04-28T10:28:00.000-07:00

Art
stays where it's wanted
gives joy to some
confuses others
Like
god is in your heart
there are those who believe
there are those who don't
Evolving with time and man
it is never what it seems

Bucket List... kinda

2009-12-23T21:33:00.000-08:00

I am nearing 27 years old and it is starting to freak me out. In 3 years I will be 30. With this realization I began to wonder, "What have I accomplished so far?" The answer is pretty much nothing. I still live with my mother, which I am thoroughly ashamed of. I have a dead end job that gives me no sense of pride in myself. I've been working in offices since I was 20 and 7 years later I have only increased my wages by seven dollars an hour. And trust me, where I'm from, that does not cover the cost of living.

I just keep beating myself over and over thinking how I've wasted my life doing practically nothing, when I have had so many goals that I wanted to accomplish. So I decided (just now) that I need to start prioritizing.

First, I'm going to list what I have accomplished.
-Graduated from High School
-I have a BA in Political Science
-I have a Paralegal Certificate
-Served 6 years in the Air Force Reserves

That's it. Isn't that just the shortest list you have ever seen. I have a daily To Do List longer than that.

Now I'm going to create a Bucket List of sorts of things that I want to accomplish before I am 30.
-Get my Masters in OM (I'm working on that as we speak)
-Read Wuthering Heights
-Run a marathon
-Move out into a place of my own
-Finish the entire P90x program
-Take a tour of Europe
-Take a tour of Asia
-See the Egyptian pyramids
-Go to Alaska
-Go skydiving
-Sell at least one piece of jewelry that I made on Etsy.com
-Write a short story and send it off to editors to get rejected (Just so that I can say that I'm a failed writer)
-Do an oil painting
-Go to the upcoming Harry Potter theme park

I'm going to stop the list here. The list doesn't seem important or so grand but I want to accomplish all this before I am 30. If I can't even do this, what am I good for?