THE SOLILOQUIST

Looking Back Two Years Ago

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Wed, 16 Mar 2011 10:22:00 +0000

I intended not to write about this today but for some divine intervention, I replied to the message of my aunt and saw her photo albums. It's no coincidence seeing those photos, and I was reminded again of that day.

Exactly two years ago, March 16, 2009, while Davao was merry-making, our family was grieving. The ride to Buhangin Memorial Park seemed to be the longest ride. It's like I wanted to move forward but I didn't. Because I knew seeing him ends there.

And now that it's been two years, I am looking back and wonder where did all I get the strength to carry on. My grandfather's being ill until his death and finally burial was also the time when I had to finish my SAD Final Output, and Thesis Proposal. Aside from that, being elected as the new CS Rep that time, I had to prepare for the Seniors' Night and Graduation breakfast while preparing for the final exams.

I forgot how I did it. But I did it somehow. I never cried in public except when I first heard the news, and I was in Kim's house doing SAD and Thesis, and the burial. I tried to be strong in front of them, especially whenever I was with my grandma. I didn't bring any emotional burden whenever I was doing my tasks. I had to do my responsibility even if I was bleeding inside. My outlet was to cry inside the room while looking at his photos. I ran to the room whenever I felt like crying to hide my tears.

Lately, I've been wondering why I am this strong now. Now I know why. I have experienced a great loss in my life, but I chose to rise and move on. It couldn't be possible without my friends, especially my family, relatives and God! During those trying times, holding each other, and being strong for one another, helped us so much to carry on and continue living.

Two years ago was a reminder that I am strong, that we are strong as long as we have each other, as long as we believe that God is there to comfort us. I know my grandpa is somewhere peaceful and happy now. He is in a better place.

Whenever I feel like giving up, I'd look back to those days, and I'd call God to remind me again that there's no pain that can't be healed.

Since it's been two months

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sun, 20 Feb 2011 08:41:00 +0000

This is my second month in Japan. Some great, and some sad things happened here. The happiness of seeing new things, new people, experiencing winter could have stayed longer if this was just a vacation. But no, I am here for work. And I am staying here until my contract expires, three years from now.

I am missing my family so much. This is the first time I have been away from home, from them, this long. It's not easy. Being independent at this age, and in a very unfamiliar country, it's never simple.

I have gone through emotional breakdowns. I don't have really anyone physically here that I can talk to about these things. I share sentiments to my family and friends online. It eases my loneliness somehow, but it's really different when you are with someone who can understand you, and be with you, and share the same sentiments.

I know my colleagues here feel the same thing--being lonely, feeing homesick, etc. But I guess mine is much stronger. And I also have the higher tendency of expressing and showing it through my actions, words, even in my health.

I know, as the days pass, I'm getting closer to that day when I'm finally going back home. I'll just have to think that way. To make that goal as my motivation in order to keep on moving forward.

There will still be times that I'll get into my bed and cry because of too much loneliness, but I am sure that after that I am going to rise again, smile and move.

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Which Biblical Name means Laughter?

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sat, 30 Oct 2010 19:09:00 +0000

The answer is: Isaac. I would have not known that if not with that trivia game in a foreign restaurant in the city. I enjoyed the game. The food was great. It's just spicy. Hahaha. I'm a bit allergic to spicy food. But it's OK. What mattered was that I enjoyed the late lunch. HAPPY! :)

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Just Don't Push Them Away

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sun, 01 Aug 2010 04:56:00 +0000

When things go badly wrong, or when we think we are in our worst self, we tend to push away the people that dearly love us, thinking that it is the way to save them from the misery and problems that we have. But is it really what we want to do? Is it the best way? Is it right in the first place?

Why do we think that it is saving them from misery? Are we in the best position to say that they are better off without us? Don't we consider what they think, what they prefer to do?

In our darkest moments, in our lowest points, only those who truly love us will stand by, for, and with us. If they want to stick in our lives, who are we push to them away? Are we not being arrogant?

We need love in this life. We need not all, but few people who are willing to stay no matter what, despite all the problems and adversities. But staying means being wanted to stay. A simple admission that we want them to stay, and that they are appreciated, will do. We don't need to give so much time, so much effort, so much money. Just don't push them away and they will stay.

If they truly love us, they will really stay. But again, just don't push them away but rather thank them for the love and company. They are the treasures in this life that we can keep for life. It's hard to lose such treasures.

The New Chapter

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Wed, 23 Jun 2010 09:18:00 +0000

The whole summer I have been so confused on what career path to take. Because of this, lots of problems branched out. Relationships were tested. I battled with myself.

Now, when so much had happened, I am stronger. I am very happy of where I am now. Being a faculty member of the division I love so much, there is so much fulfillment.

Also, I have learned to be more understanding and more open to the possibilities. To be patient and to trust for the perfect time are the two things that I am proud to have learned.

Many things are still about to happen. I may not be always in my best self to face them but I know I am stronger now. :)

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Until it Happens

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Wed, 28 Apr 2010 02:24:00 +0000

At this modern day, it is so hard to believe into something until it actually happens.

Probably because of the hurt of broken promises that we actually become scared of believing that they do come true; that we sometimes feel that being too hopeful would just lead to disappointment.

It may be hard to believe but that is what we have to do. We have to have faith and trust.

Things may not always happen as we expected. Promises may be broken at times.

But these should not hinder us from believing and hoping that promises may still come true; and that our dreams may still happen.

We have to continue to hope and believe yet not expect too much.

When things happen as we hoped to be, let’s rejoice but if not, then believe there are better things to come or maybe it will just happen later.

I learned that optimism is really helpful and that it’s the better option.

Rough times are inevitable but we can do something on how we see and deal with things.

And it should be in the positive way.

My Last Summer Break

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Wed, 28 Apr 2010 02:17:00 +0000

This would be probably the last Summer break of my life. After this, I may not be able to experience this anymore because work knows no Summer break. I say that this time is a very crucial time for me. This time is the time to reflect and decide on what path to choose. I would be experiencing a transition that would somehow forever change my life. In this crucial time, I want and need support from people I love and trust because in every decision I make and take I always consider them. Quality time this Summer is all I ask. This is just all I want before a new chapter of my life starts. Before my freedom ends.

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When Days Drag On

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Thu, 08 Apr 2010 06:27:00 +0000

It's Summer. No more classes, no more allowance, and no longer anticipating for a new semester. I graduated last March 20, 2010. That was one of the most significant days of my life. Actually, I am not writing to share events of my life. I am here to write something which I think would help me get better inside.

Recently, days drag on like years. It's not because I have nothing to do because I have several plans for Summer like job hunting, SSS application, clearance in school, electoral engagements, etc. I am feeling empty now. I don't know what to do to make things better or to make things how they used to be-- simple and happy. The distance and silence being created are hurting me so much that they leave me empty at the end of the day. But, I believe the distance and silence would help in making things better; in searching for meaning; and in finding happiness again.

What I have to do now is to reform myself into someone that can be loved, trusted, appreciated genuinely. I don't want to be the old person who is jealous, and aggravates things. I want to make up on people I have hurt so much. I want them to see me as someone that is full of love and happiness. I want you to see me that way. I am sorry. Now, I am getting personal.

Days are like years lately. I hope things get better. I miss everything especially the happiness.

I hope the balloons would lift me up to the sky. And there, I'll try to reach the stars and wish that things will perfectly work out.

My 2009: A Recall

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sat, 02 Jan 2010 12:36:00 +0000

As 2010 starts, I just would like to recall some memories (highlights) of the previous year.

January
We celebrated New Year (2009) with so much glee. The Belleza Family was complete that time. My aunt from Japan came back to celebrate Christmas and New Year with us in Davao.
This was also the time I took courage to run for CS Rep in the Samahan Elections.
My celebration was not that happy that year. Unlike in 2008, no birthday surprises, less gifts, and friends did not come to my house to celebrate with my family and me. I would say it was not that fun but I still cherished that day, my last teenage celebration.
February
I was elected as the new CS Rep. It was amazing how my batch mates and friends supported me all throughout the campaign period.
This was also the time that our place was caught in fire. It was devastating because lots of houses were burned but fortunately ours was spared. I could still remember how I reacted when my mom called and told me about it. She was telling me that maybe when we get there, we would only see ashes and what remained from the fire. I was in shock. I could not articulate what I felt that time. I was doing GACP work, I still had the guts to finish it while whispering my prayers to the Lord. I was like walking heading to nowhere. I did not want to feel anything that time. I was like hopeless but I was still praying. The ride from school to our house was like the longest travel I have ever had. I was imagining the house and what could it be after the fire. I was thinking of a heavy rain or maybe a tidal wave could help stop the fire. I thought of almost everything that I was hoping God would do just to stop the fire. When I got there, people were crying. It was very smoky. Dark, suffocating smokes were everywhere. It was so crowded with people and saved stuffs. I met my aunt and told me their home and the houses in front of ours were all gone. And the best thing I heard was, our house was safe. It was amazing. I couldn’t thank enough the Lord for answering my prayer. The house in front of ours, which is like 6 human steps away, was totally eaten by fire. It’s really a miracle. I couldn’t stop crying when I got into the house.
Another tragedy that struck the family was that with my Lolo. He got totally sick that he was in the ICU for quite some time. He had heart, lung, and kidney failure; and some other diseases due to old age. It was so hard for the family, emotionally and financially. It was very sad and traumatic.
March
The saddest month of the year. We lost our dear Lolo on the 7th of this month. After almost a month in the ICU, Lolo passed away during his dialysis. I heard the news through a text from my sister. She said Lolo was gone. I was in Kimmy’s house doing SAD and Thesis. I paused and told my friends that my Lolo passed away. I smiled, bowed my head and started crying. It was very painful. I couldn’t believe that it was really true. I was expecting him to be OK. I was wishing that he’ll be in my graduation. I excused myself, went to the bedroom and cried silently. I woke up early so I could go home as early as possible. When I got there, Lolo was already upstairs, resting. I’ve never seen this happy family so sad before. Some were fighting their tears back, some were really crying. I was afraid to show my tears, so I always go to the room when I couldn’t stop my tears from falling. We were in pain but we were strong as a family. Knowing that we’re there for each other gave us the strength to face the loss, to accept, to see the light. March 16th, the burial, was the culmination. It was the saddest. People were crying. Some were wailing. I couldn’t stop crying. The last look was so painful. But again, we had to be strong. After it, every Monday, we visit Lolo.
June - December
I met new friends and family mostly from Samahan Central Board, my CSSEC family (Yang2x, Chuch, Marian, Eaque, CJ, Karen, Jem, Kring, Morny, Kimmy, Jeff, Kamz, Jake, Raffy, Paolo) and Bahaghari—my B family (Jazi, Drew and Jefford) w/ Ianne, Kuya Kevz, Ate Sheng, Beiah, etc. Of course, I could not forget my kambal, Jonathan, who eventually became my best friend. During this period, I was hooked with my responsibility as the CS Rep and somehow did not give much priority on my academics. This also was the period when I learned to appreciate the tragedies that happened to my family and me in the earlier half of the year. I also became happier and amazed of the beautiful things that were happening in my life. I could never thank God enough for making me wonderfully happy despite the losses and pains. It’s amazing how His plans work. God really knows what to do to fill in the voids in my heart, to make me feel special and loved. There were also first times that I’ve done this year that helped me learn more about life. I became more patient and understanding. And of course, been able to become a better person.

This year has been very significant to my life. I lost some, but I earned a lot. The tragedies and pains made me a better person. It made me appreciate God’s plans more. So this 2010, I have a strong and happy heart to face the new challenges and experience more happiness and wonderful blessings.

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A Morning with My Beautiful Chinese Friend

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 15:07:00 +0000

Yesterday, I sent a text message to my friend asking her if she would do her daily jogging today. She replied yes and we decided to do it this morning. That night, I was really into emotional roller coaster. But also that night, I learned what's wrong. Thanks to my bestfriend Jonathan who helped me understand and realize what's happening in me. I had to sleep early yet I couldn't because I had to do thesis docs. So I slept at almost 2AM. I had a sound sleep that I almost forgot that I had a jogging session with Kimmy. Good thing she called because if she didn't I'd wake up at 8AM. Hahah. So I readied myself and waited for her at the lobby of Royal Mandaya Hotel (I was in a stay-in seminar). She fetched me using their Red Adventure. I loved the experience. It thrilled me. Being able to experience someone to fetch me infront of a hotel made me really happy. It was my first. Forever I'll remember it. We went to Ladislawa Garden Village. It was my first time to really get in the village and toured somehow. Another first. I had fun chatting with Kimmy while jogging, walking, and looking at the houses. It's inspiring to see beautiful houses. It has given me a probable architectural design for my own house someday. Helped me realize what I like and don't like in a house. All in all I had so much fun roving around Ladislawa and seeing new people doing the same thing early morning. Of course, the jogging was so much fun because of our chat, Kim and I. After Ladislawa we went to McDo to have our breakfast. There we continued our chat and got a bit more serious. We talked about traveling, friendship, self-control, the PAUSE principle, future plans, married life, etc. I had a good time with my beautiful friend. After McDo she brought me back to the hotel. So many first times that happened today. First time jogging with my beautiful Chinese friend, Kimmy. A wonderful morning I'll forever treasure. Thanks, Kimmy. :)

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A New Venture: LinkFromBlog

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 12:05:00 +0000

When I decided to start writing blog entries some opportunities kept on coming. One of the opportunities is the invitation from another blogger to try this site--LinkFromBlog .

LinkFromBlog is a company based in Minnesota USA. It was established just recently on 2008. For businesses, you can advertise on blogs. Advertiser sites will gain popularity and attention through viral campaign on their products or services. Advertisers are assured that there are quality bloggers that can help them in their campaign and promotion. For bloggers, this is a venue to earn by doing legitimate reviews of products and services offered by advertisers.

As a blogger, I won't let this opportunity to just pass. So, I'll try my luck in this new venture. I may not get as many offers because of my blog's popularity and page rank but I would still take the chance.

Because I can only do so much

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 10:33:00 +0000

In life there are things that you have no control of. Even how much you try to put things in place, perfectly design it, do your best and give your all, they may not just be enough.

I learned that I could only do so much; that despite all my efforts, things may not go my way, as what I expect them to be.

I have done things that I have never done before—my firsts. I thought that if I go beyond my routines, that if I do something unusual, that if I do it, things will be perfectly beautiful. But it was not the case.

I have done my best. I have been very prepared. I thought that if things are in place, that if all are set, that if I am just prepared, things will be smooth sailing. Again, it was not the case.

I have given my all. In my perspective, I gave my all. I thought that if I won’t hold back, that if I do everything I can do and give, things would go my way. It was not the case.

At the end of the day, I realized that even if I did what I’ve never done before, did my very best and gave my all, it’s not always an assurance that things will be perfectly well. There are things that I, we, have no control of like sickness, natural calamity, etc. I can have no control of them nor prevent them from coming. They are external. They are beyond my control.

It is just sad that my efforts could be wasted because these external factors may not coincide with what I plan, with what I want to happen. And so I prayed that they might be very kind to me, that God intervenes and let not external factors ruin my plans. I asked for a divine intervention but it did not work, at least not the way I expected the answered prayer to be. In short, things did not go perfectly well. I was frustrated and disappointed. My efforts. My money. My time. My happiness. Not so much catered.

But I realized, I should still be thankful for what happened. First, I learned to do something new and it was a wonderful feeling to be able to do something out of passion, and not just because of a mere requirement or anything. Second, I should be proud of myself for being prepared, for doing my best to make things well. I think it is something I should be happy for. Lastly, I should never be frustrated nor lose heart because of some unfortunate events. What mattered more was that I gave my all. I am never regretful. I realized that I am already happy of what happened. I was just clouded of the not-so-good events that I failed to see the beauty of my experience.

I am HAPPY. Things may have not gone my way but it was more than enough that in my own capacity, I gave everything I got. And that I still worked on to make things perfectly well. So, I enjoyed, had fun and learned something new in this life.

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Special Day, Special Place

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 12:30:00 +0000

This is a special day. For so many wonderful and simple reasons, this day is very special to me. There's no any grand thing that happened yet I am soooo happy, that's why this is a special day. :)

A little traveling, some indirect answers to questions, waiting a bit, going to a convenience store to check prices, short text messages, lunch with my bestfriend, seeing my other friends after their Techno defense, and visiting my Lolo made this day very special.

I love the simplicity of what I did. There was so much energy and fun. There was excitement. So much happiness. So much passion.

Traveling became so interesting. It's a bit time-consuming but I wanted to extend it, that destination was farther, to enjoy the moment. I had fun giving indirect answers to some questions. Made me feel witty. I enjoyed the waiting part underneath a tree. Solitude gave me time to think and reflect and be happy of what is about to happen. Also, it was good to check some prices in a convenience store. Look for cheaper products. Try to budget money. And get the feeling that great things are about to happen. Short text messages also made me smile. Even those words are not directly coming from the mouth of the people who sent them, I still feel the warmth of those messages. I had lunch with my bestfriend in the FoodCourt. It was our first time to eat together there. It's a wonderful feeling that you have someone to eat meal with and talk on some stuff while eating. I just can't eat alone. That's me. And yeah, seeing my beautiful friends after their Techno defense and sharing good news contributed to the happines I am feeling right now. I am just so proud of them for making it. One more sem and we're done guys! :) Lastly, visiting my Lolo in Buhangin Memorial Park was the culmination of this special day. I miss him so much and I missed going to that place. I saw my grandma and other relatives when I got there. It was almost drizzling so I hurried to some special spots in that place. It's so wonderful to be in that place again. Reminiscing of the wonderful things that happened there. Taking photos of those spots. And videotaking of God's lightning show. All of these made my day more special.

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A Dream Bond

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 13:36:00 +0000

Sometimes, in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes, you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you, sometimes better than you know yourself, is the same person who's been standing beside you all along. (Bride Wars)

I was struck by these lines from the famous movie Bride Wars. Actually, I have not seen the movie yet. Someone shared these lines. True, indeed. There really are bonds that can never be broken. Not because it is unbreakable, but because it's a choice to stick together, forever. It's rare, though. It's so hard to sustain bonds. Problems, temptations and the like will try to challenge and break them. But these are just tests. If taken constructively, these will help a bond to be stronger and better. I really admire those people who stick together no matter what. Facing the problems together, holding each other hands. Doing their best to sustain the love and holding on to each others' promises. Sticking to the commitment and vow they once made.

I dream to have such bond. And I would fight and work for it. A rare bond that is worth my lifetime. Yet, I can never know the answer until my very last breath.

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yoUPay

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 15:46:00 +0000

Today, or should I say, yesterday, October 9, 2009 was the due for the payment of Kalasag subscription. Kalasag is the official yearbook of Ateneo de Davao University-College. This blog is I know late to campaign to pay. But I just want to still put an entry about it because I really love their concept-- yoUPay. By the way, this is my first entry after long months of hibernation. So, I'm back to the online world. I'd try my best to keep people updated of my daily or weekly activities. That is if there are people following me or reading my blog entries. Anyway, yoUPay is derived from the Disney Pixar movie UP. I really love the movie so I'm loving their campaign, too. I recommend this film. If you have not watched it, try buying original DVDs. If you can't afford, you may get it from torrent sites. I just want to share photos that I took from my phone. The first one is the campaign stilt of the Kalasag and the other one is the red balloon that I have in our closet room, which is still breathing. I mean, has not yet really deflated. It still has shape but with wrinkles and signs of aging. Hahah. I really love balloons. I really keep them if I get the chance to bring them home, the more reason if they are given to me by people I love. Well, because I love the campaign of Kalasag I paid earlier but it won't discount the fact that I returned my Graduate Profile Form very late. This would be all for now. More entries in the next days.
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No to Con-Ass. Not NOW!

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 15:31:00 +0000

Congressmen who VOTED for CON-ASS

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 15:21:00 +0000

CONGRESSMEN WHO APPROVED THE CON ASS:

ABANTE, BIENVENIDO M. "BENNY" 6TH District Pandacan
ABLAN, ROQUE R. JR, Ilocos Norte, 1st District
AGBAYANI, VICTOR AGUEDO E. Pangasinan, 2nd District
AGYAO, MANUEL, S Kalinga Province
ALBANO (III), RODOLFO T. Isabela, 1st District
ALFELOR, FELIX R. JR. 4th District, Camarines Sur
ALMARIO, THELMA Z. Davao Oriental, 2nd District
ALVAREZ, ANTONIO C. Palawan 1st District
ALVAREZ, GENARO RAFAEL M. JR. Negros Occidental, 6th District
AMANTE, EDELMIRO A. Agusan Del Norte, 2nd District
AMATONG, ROMMEL C. Compostela Valley, 2nd District
ANGPING, MARIA ZENAIDA B. Manila, 3rd District
ANTONINO, RODOLFO W. Nueva Ecija, 4th District
APOSTOL, TRINIDAD G. Leyte, 2nd District
AQUINO, JOSE S. (II) 1st District Agusan del Norte
ARAGO, MARIA EVITA R. 3rd district, Laguna
ARBISON, A MUNIR M. Sulu 2nd District
ARENAS, MA. RACHEL J. Pangasinan, 3rd District
ARROYO, DIOSDADO M. Camarines Sur, 1st District
ARROYO, IGNACIO T. 5th district Negros Occidental
ARROYO, JUAN MIGUEL M. 2nd District of Pampanga
BAGATSING, AMADO S. Manila 5th district
BALINDONG, PANGALIAN M. Lanao del Sur, 2nd District
BARZAGA, ELPIDIO F. JR. Cavite, 2nd District
BAUTISTA, FRANKLIN P. Davao Del Sur, 2nd District
BELMONTE, VICENTE F. JR. Lanao del Norte, 1st District
BICHARA, AL FRANCIS C.. Albay, 2nd District
BIRON, FERJENEL G. Iloilo, 4th District
BONDOC, ANNA YORK P. Pampanga 4th District
BONOAN-DAVID, MA. THERESA B. Manila, 4th District
BRAVO, NARCISO R. JR. Masbate, 1st District
BRIONES, NICANOR M. AGAP Party list
BUHAIN, EILEEN ERMITA Batangas, 1st District
BULUT, ELIAS C. JR. Apayao Lone District
CAGAS (IV), MARC DOUGLAS C. Davao Del Sur, 1st District
CAJAYON, MARY MITZI L. Caloocan, 2nd District
CAJES, ROBERTO C. Bohol, 2nd District
CARI, CARMEN L. Leyte, 5th District
CASTRO, FREDENIL H. Capiz, 2nd District
CELESTE, ARTHUR F. Pangasinan, 1st District
CERILLES, ANTONIO H. Zamboanga Del Sur, 2nd District
CHATTO, EDGARDO M. Bohol, 1st District
CHONG, GLENN A. Biliran, Lone District
CHUNG-LAO, SOLOMON R. Ifugao, Lone District
CLARETE, MARINA C. Misamis Occidental, 1st District
CODILLA, EUFROCINO M. SR. Leyte, 4th District
COJUANCO, MARK O. Pangasinan, 5th District
COQUILA, TEODULO M. Eastern Samar, Lone District
CRISOLOGO, VINCENT P. Quezon City, 1st District
CUA, JUNIE E. Quirino, Lone District
CUENCO, ANTONIO V. Cebu City, 2nd District
DANGWA, SAMUEL M. Benguet, Lone District
DATUMANONG, SIMEON A. Maguindanao, Lone District
Dayanghirang, Nelson L. Davao Oriental, 1st District
DAZA, NANETTE C. Quezon City, 4th District
DAZA, PAUL R. Northern Samar, 1st District
DE GUZMAN, DEL R. Marikina City, 2nd District
DEFENSOR, ARTHUR D. SR. Iloilo, 3rd District
DEFENSOR, MATIAS V. JR. Quezon City, 3rd District
DEL MAR, RAUL V. Cebu City, 1st District
DIASNES, CARLO OLIVER D. (MD) Batanes, Lone District
DIMAPORO, ABDULLAH D. Lanao Del Norte, 2nd District
DOMOGAN, MAURICIO G. Baguio, Lone District
DUAVIT, MICHAEL JOHN R. Rizal, 1st District
DUENAS, HENRY M. JR. Taguig, 2nd District (2nd Councilor District)
DUMARPA, FAYSAH MRP. Lanao del Sur, 1st District
DUMPIT, THOMAS L. JR. La Union, 2nd District
DURANO (IV), RAMON H. 5th District, Cebu
ECLEO, GLENDA B. Dinagat Islands, Lone District
EMANO, YEVGENY VICENTE B. Misamis Oriental, 2nd District
ENVERGA, WILFRIDO MARK M. Quezon, 1st District
ESTRELLA, CONRADO M. (III) Pangasinan, 6th District
ESTRELLA, ROBERT RAYMUND M. ABONO Party List
FERRER, JEFFREY P. Negros Occidental, 4th District
GARAY, FLORENCIO C. Surigao Del Sur, 2nd District
GARCIA, ALBERT S. Bataan, 2nd District.
GARCIA, PABLO JOHN F. Cebu, 3rd District
GARCIA, PABLO P. Cebu, 2nd District
GARCIA, VINCENT J. Davao City, 2nd District
GARIN, JANETTE L. Iloilo, 1st District
GATCHALIAN, REXLON T. Valenzuela City, 1st District
GATLABAYAN, ANGELITO C. Antipolo City, 2nd District
GO, ARNULFO F. Sultan Kudarat, 2nd District
GONZALES, AURELIO D. JR. Pampanga 3rd District
GONZALES, RAUL T. JR. Ilo ilo City
GULLAS, EDUARDO R. Cebu, 1st District
GUNIGUNDO, MAGTANGGOL T. Valenzuela City 2nd District
HOFER, DULCE ANN K. Zamboanga Sibugay, 2nd District
JAAFAR, NUR G. Tawi-Tawi, Lone District
JALA, ADAM RELSON L. Bohol, 3rd District
JALOSJOS, CESAR G. Zamboanga del Norte, 3rd District
JALOSJOS-CARREON, CECILIA G. Zamboanga del Norte, 1st District
JIKIRI, YUSOP H. Sulu, 1st District
KHO, ANTONIO T. Masbate, 2nd District
LABADLABAD, ROSENDO S. Zamboanga del Norte, 2nd District
LACSON, JOSE CARLOS V. Negros Occidental, 3rd District
LAGDAMEO, ANTONIO F. JR. Davao del Norte, 2nd District
LAPUS, JECI A. Tarlac, 3rd District
LAZATIN, CARMELO F. Pampanga, 1st District
LIM, RENO G. Albay, 3rd District
LOPEZ, JAIME C. Manila, 2nd District
MADRONA, ELEANORA JESUS F. Romblon, Lone District
MAGSAYSAY, MARIA MILAGROS H. Zambales, 1st District
MALAPITAN, OSCAR G. Caloocan, 1st District
MAMBA, MANUEL N. Cagayan, 3rd District
MANGUDADATU, DATU PAKUNG S. Sultan Kudarat,
MARANON, ALFREDO D. III Negros Occidental, 2nd District
MATUGAS, FRANCISCO T. Surigao del Norte, 1st District
MENDOZA, MARK LEANDRO L. Batangas, 4th District
MERCADO, ROGER G. Southern Leyte, Lone District
MIRAFLORES, FLORENCIO T. Aklan, Lone District
NAVA, JOAQUIN CARLOS RAHMAN A. (MD) Guimaras, Lone District
NICOLAS, REYLINA G. Bulacan, 4th District
NOGRALES, PROSPERO C. Davao City, 1st District
OLAñO, ARREL R. Davao Del Norte, 1st District
ONG, EMIL L. Northern Samar, 2nd District
ORTEGA, VICTOR FRANCISCO C. La Union, 1st District
PABLO, ERNESTO C. APEC Party List
PANCHO, PEDRO M. Bulacan, 2nd District
PANCRUDO, CANDIDO P. JR. Bukidnon, 1st District
PICHAY, PHILIP A. Surigao Del Sur, 1st District
PIñOL, BERNARDO F. JR. North Cotabato, 2nd District
PUNO, ROBERTO V. Antipolo City, 1st District
RAMIRO, HERMINIA M. Misamis Occidental, 2nd District
REMULLA, JESUS CRISPIN C. Cavite, 3rd District
REYES, CARMELITA O. Marinduque, Lone District
REYES, VICTORIA H. Batangas, 3rd District
ROBES, ARTURO G. San Jose Del Monte City, Lone District
Rodriguez-Zaldarria ga, Adelina Rizal, 2nd District
ROMAN, HERMINIA B. Bataan, 1st District
ROMARATE, GUILLERMO A. JR. Surigao del Norte, 2nd District
ROMUALDEZ, FERDINAND MARTIN G. Leyte, 1st District
ROMUALDO, PEDRO Camiguin, Lone District
ROMULO, ROMAN T. Pasig City, Lone District
ROXAS, JOSE ANTONIO F. Pasay City
SALIMBANGON, BENHUR L. Cebu, 4th District
SALVACION JR., ANDRES D. Leyte, 3rd District
SAN LUIS, EDGAR S. Laguna, 4th District
SANDOVAL, ALVIN S. Malabon-Navotas, Lone District
SANTIAGO, JOSEPH A. Catanduanes, Lone District
SANTIAGO, NARCISO D. (III) ARC Party List
SEACHON-LANETE, RIZALINA L. 3rd district of Masbate
SEARES-LUNA, CECILIA M. Abra, Lone District
SILVERIO, LORNA C. Bulacan, 3rd District
SINGSON, ERIC D. Ilocos Sur, 2nd District
SINGSON, RONALD V. Ilocos Sur, 1st District
SOLIS, JOSE G. Sorsogon, 2nd District
SOON-RUIZ, NERISSA CORAZON Cebu, 6th District
SUAREZ, DANILO E. Quezon, 3rd District
SUSANO, MARY ANN L. Quezon City, 2nd District
SY-ALVARADO, MA. VICTORIA R. Bulacan, 1st District
SYJUCO, JUDY J. 2nd Dsitrict, Iloilo
TALINO-MENDOZA, EMMYLOU J. North Cotabato, 1st District
TAN, SHAREE ANN T. Samar, 2nd District
TEODORO, MARCELINO R. Marikina City, 1st District
TEODORO, MONICA LOUISSE PRIETO Tarlac, 1st District
TEVES, PRYDE HENRY A. Negros Oriental, 3rd District
TUPAS, NEIL C. JR. Iloilo, 5th District
UNGAB, ISIDRO T. Davao City, 3rd District
UY, EDWIN C. Isabela, 2nd District
UY, REYNALDO S. Samar, 1st District
UY, ROLANDO A. Cagayan De Oro City, Lone District
VALDEZ, EDGAR L. APEC Party List
VALENCIA, RODOLFO G. Oriental Mindoro, 1st District
VARGAS, FLORENCIO L. Cagayan, 2nd District
VILLAFUERTE, LUIS R. Camarines Sur, 2nd District
VILLAROSA, MA. AMELITA C. Occidental Mindoro, Lone District
VIOLAGO, JOSEPH GILBERT F. Nueva Ecija, 2nd District
YAP, JOSE V. Tarlac, 2nd District
YU, VICTOR J. Zamboanga Del Sur, 1st District
ZAMORA, MANUEL E. 1st District, Compostela Valley
ZIALCITA, EDUARDO C. Parañaque, 1st District

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Tweeting on Twitter

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Mon, 11 May 2009 12:12:00 +0000

I am now an official Twitter user. You can click here to visit my profile page and may decide to follow me. :) I use Tweetdeck to see the updates of my friends in Twitter and Facebook. I can also now see what's happening to the artists and significant people I am following. It is a good one. Very easy to use. I can simultaneously update my Twitter and Facebook status. See? Try it yourself now. ;)

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Not a Lonely Day After All

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Mon, 04 May 2009 12:19:00 +0000

I was tying my shoelaces in the jeep. After it I saw no one in there but me and realized I was alone. This is a day that I want some company but no one was there. I can’t seem to find any friend to make me feel that I am not alone. I was expecting some people but they’re nowhere to be found. This is one of those days that I become melodramatic. That I feel that close friends are getting far from me. That I am not needed and wanted anymore. That I am no longer special.

I was self-talking to accompany myself. I was looking for something to entertain me. I was alone and I want to cheer myself up. Before the jeep traveled any farther I realized that today is Monday and I should be visiting my grandpa. I stopped near the flyover and rode a jeep heading to Cabantian. No one was there but me. I talked to my grandpa while cleaning his gravestone. I was really in need of company. My uncle came and so did the rest of the family just a couple of minutes after. I realized then that I am never alone. I have my family and relatives. Most especially, God never fails to make me feel accompanied.

And sometimes there will be people who will drop by, unexpectedly appreciate your hair and make you feel less lonely. :)

I thank God that this is not a lonely day after all.
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The Toughest Competition

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 01 May 2009 14:08:00 +0000

This season is one of the best seasons in American Idol, many people would say. I can't agree more. The competition proper started with thirteen (13) instead of twelve(12) idols. There is no doubt that the casts exceeded. All of them are really great.

Last night and the other night, I watched American Idol in SideReel.com and in Star World at night. The performance night was a stellar night. Everybody was giving their best. Even I had the hard time to choose whom I want to go home after the voting (I can't vote actually because I reside here in Philippines.). So the elimination night began. Natalie Cole performed and so did Tyler. I loved the number of Jamie Fox. He really is a WONDERFUL performer.

Before the performances of the stars, Danny and Allison were saved leaving Adam, Kris and Matt in the bottom three. It was, in a way, shocking. I was not expecting for Allison to be in the top 2, knowing that she has been in the bottom three for how many times. I was grateful the two were saved. I loved them. Kris Allen was saved next. It was between Adam and Matt. I was again shocked. I couldn't believe that Adam will be in the bottom two. He was saved and Matt was eliminated. I was expecting that. It was hard. The competition is very stiff. Everybody really has the chance of becoming the next American Idol. Next week is Disco Week. I can't wait.

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It's Good Friday Again.

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 10 Apr 2009 16:21:00 +0000

I can still remember that my first ever post here is related to my Good Friday experience last year.

This year's Good Friday is totally different from last year's. I am just at home. I watched my favorite Anime show in Hero TV (Prince of Tennis), Charmed in Velvet and the 7 Last Words in ABS-CBN. I thought watching TV on this day won't make any difference in me but I was wrong. The 7 Last Words was very inspiring, healing, and moving.
I was inspired by the people who shared their individual testimonies of faith. There was this person who lost his vocal chords because of larynx cancer. He was at first doubtful of what God's plan for him and even questioned why, for all the people in this word, him. But he accepted God's plan for him with a welcoming heart eventually.

I was healed. While watching I can't hold my tears from falling. Later I realized it was my way for cleansing my heart and soul. The words from the Lord even how many times I've heard before are always as good as new whenever I hear them again. The lessons, the faith, the LOVE of God to us, these are the things that healed me and made me feel that I am becoming more like Chris little by little.

I was moved. One priest said that we should have the courage to accept that God loves us. Why? Because God's love can only be felt if we are willing to accept it and see it. We face problems. We lose someone very special, our house is burned, we failed in the exam, and many other problems that we may encounter. Sometimes, we feel that God has not loved us at all because of all these struggles. But, if we just follow the will of God and accept it, we will feel that there is so much LOVE from God given to us. Every struggle brings the best in us if we just let God be with us. God loves us very much that he wants to bring the best in us. He wants us to trust HIM and continue our faith.

I have a different Good Friday now but I thank God that I learned more.

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I am BACK!

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Wed, 08 Apr 2009 16:54:00 +0000

It's been a while since my last post here. I realized that I should be updating my blog because there may be some people who find my blog entries interesting. :)

I am BACK finally. I'll be posting some past experiences and recent updates.

I am still active in mylot.com (click the marquee link below). The site really pays. I have bought something abroad already from my earnings. :D

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Advices and Options

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 12:26:00 +0000

Personally, I want people to let me decide for myself, means, I don't seek for the "advice" but let them make me realize on things through helping me weigh on things. A friend told me that when they do counseling, they don't necessarily provide advices to the person. He said, an advice is like commanding the person to do that because that is the right thing to do. So instead, they give options. They provide scenes of consequences if you do that, if you don't do that and that sort. I think that way is more helpful because you have no one to blame if your decision fails and you have yourself to congratulate if you made it right. I really believe on Socrates as he said that true insight comes from within. So, I suggest, you make decisions on your own but seek help on how to do these things. I do that. I consider the ideas of others but I made the final decision. And as an adviser, I don't tell my friends to do things because that make things better but instead I tell them what can be the possibilities and just let them realize on their own.
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Advent of the Break

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 14:55:00 +0000

Wheeew! Just last Thursday, the school works ended. Yey! We were so happy that we wanted to celebrate the beginning of our semestral break. Cly, darl, eaque. jeff and I went to SM to have some pizza treat. It took time for us to decide where to eat; it was either yellow cub or greenwich. We chose greenwich because the store was cheaper. The ordering took some time too because we were so not used to choose what pizza to partake. We ended up eating a sari-sari party square plus the overloaded pizza, that one with shawarma. We have some chitchats while eating. Btw, i think i have the most pizza eaten. LOL. We did a window shopping. Still, on computers. LOL. We looked for external hard disks, mobile phones, and some techy stuff. Then, we enjoyed the amusement in their arcade. At first, we planned to take the videoke but ended up playing with race cars. I was bad with that game. I can't seem to win. LOL. After everbody played with that virtual race, we tried to make it real. We went to the bump car station. LOL. Yes, we played with bump cars. My first try was a disaster. The car was not moving; it did not move at all until the time ended. I was pissed. I asked for another round but I have no one to play with. Thankfully, the assigned guy was kind and let the three of us play again while the two bought another tickets. I really enjoyed the ride, the bumping, the little pain and the laughs. I think the audience enjoyed watching us. LOL. We tried other games too like gun shooting and motor racing. We strolled for a while and decided to take the last full show. Darl had to go home early so we accompanied here out then went to the super market to buy cly's stuff and our snacks for the movie. We watched Mag-ingat ka sa Kulam of Judy Ann Santos. My companions, I think, were scared really. I enjoyed seeing them jumping off their seats and scream a little. LOL Ero Ero Azero. I love those lines. I like the story. I love the experience. I am happy that I decided to join them.

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