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My 2009: A Recall

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sat, 02 Jan 2010 12:36:00 +0000

As 2010 starts, I just would like to recall some memories (highlights) of the previous year.

January
We celebrated New Year (2009) with so much glee. The Belleza Family was complete that time. My aunt from Japan came back to celebrate Christmas and New Year with us in Davao.
This was also the time I took courage to run for CS Rep in the Samahan Elections.
My celebration was not that happy that year. Unlike in 2008, no birthday surprises, less gifts, and friends did not come to my house to celebrate with my family and me. I would say it was not that fun but I still cherished that day, my last teenage celebration.
February
I was elected as the new CS Rep. It was amazing how my batch mates and friends supported me all throughout the campaign period.
This was also the time that our place was caught in fire. It was devastating because lots of houses were burned but fortunately ours was spared. I could still remember how I reacted when my mom called and told me about it. She was telling me that maybe when we get there, we would only see ashes and what remained from the fire. I was in shock. I could not articulate what I felt that time. I was doing GACP work, I still had the guts to finish it while whispering my prayers to the Lord. I was like walking heading to nowhere. I did not want to feel anything that time. I was like hopeless but I was still praying. The ride from school to our house was like the longest travel I have ever had. I was imagining the house and what could it be after the fire. I was thinking of a heavy rain or maybe a tidal wave could help stop the fire. I thought of almost everything that I was hoping God would do just to stop the fire. When I got there, people were crying. It was very smoky. Dark, suffocating smokes were everywhere. It was so crowded with people and saved stuffs. I met my aunt and told me their home and the houses in front of ours were all gone. And the best thing I heard was, our house was safe. It was amazing. I couldn’t thank enough the Lord for answering my prayer. The house in front of ours, which is like 6 human steps away, was totally eaten by fire. It’s really a miracle. I couldn’t stop crying when I got into the house.
Another tragedy that struck the family was that with my Lolo. He got totally sick that he was in the ICU for quite some time. He had heart, lung, and kidney failure; and some other diseases due to old age. It was so hard for the family, emotionally and financially. It was very sad and traumatic.
March
The saddest month of the year. We lost our dear Lolo on the 7th of this month. After almost a month in the ICU, Lolo passed away during his dialysis. I heard the news through a text from my sister. She said Lolo was gone. I was in Kimmy’s house doing SAD and Thesis. I paused and told my friends that my Lolo passed away. I smiled, bowed my head and started crying. It was very painful. I couldn’t believe that it was really true. I was expecting him to be OK. I was wishing that he’ll be in my graduation. I excused myself, went to the bedroom and cried silently. I woke up early so I could go home as early as possible. When I got there, Lolo was already upstairs, resting. I’ve never seen this happy family so sad before. Some were fighting their tears back, some were really crying. I was afraid to show my tears, so I always go to the room when I couldn’t stop my tears from falling. We were in pain but we were strong as a family. Knowing that we’re there for each other gave us the strength to face the loss, to accept, to see the light. March 16th, the burial, was the culmination. It was the saddest. People were crying. Some were wailing. I couldn’t stop crying. The last look was so painful. But again, we had to be strong. After it, every Monday, we visit Lolo.
June - December
I met new friends and family mostly from Samahan Central Board, my CSSEC family (Yang2x, Chuch, Marian, Eaque, CJ, Karen, Jem, Kring, Morny, Kimmy, Jeff, Kamz, Jake, Raffy, Paolo) and Bahaghari—my B family (Jazi, Drew and Jefford) w/ Ianne, Kuya Kevz, Ate Sheng, Beiah, etc. Of course, I could not forget my kambal, Jonathan, who eventually became my best friend. During this period, I was hooked with my responsibility as the CS Rep and somehow did not give much priority on my academics. This also was the period when I learned to appreciate the tragedies that happened to my family and me in the earlier half of the year. I also became happier and amazed of the beautiful things that were happening in my life. I could never thank God enough for making me wonderfully happy despite the losses and pains. It’s amazing how His plans work. God really knows what to do to fill in the voids in my heart, to make me feel special and loved. There were also first times that I’ve done this year that helped me learn more about life. I became more patient and understanding. And of course, been able to become a better person.

This year has been very significant to my life. I lost some, but I earned a lot. The tragedies and pains made me a better person. It made me appreciate God’s plans more. So this 2010, I have a strong and happy heart to face the new challenges and experience more happiness and wonderful blessings.

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A Morning with My Beautiful Chinese Friend

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 15:07:00 +0000

Yesterday, I sent a text message to my friend asking her if she would do her daily jogging today. She replied yes and we decided to do it this morning. That night, I was really into emotional roller coaster. But also that night, I learned what's wrong. Thanks to my bestfriend Jonathan who helped me understand and realize what's happening in me. I had to sleep early yet I couldn't because I had to do thesis docs. So I slept at almost 2AM. I had a sound sleep that I almost forgot that I had a jogging session with Kimmy. Good thing she called because if she didn't I'd wake up at 8AM. Hahah. So I readied myself and waited for her at the lobby of Royal Mandaya Hotel (I was in a stay-in seminar). She fetched me using their Red Adventure. I loved the experience. It thrilled me. Being able to experience someone to fetch me infront of a hotel made me really happy. It was my first. Forever I'll remember it. We went to Ladislawa Garden Village. It was my first time to really get in the village and toured somehow. Another first. I had fun chatting with Kimmy while jogging, walking, and looking at the houses. It's inspiring to see beautiful houses. It has given me a probable architectural design for my own house someday. Helped me realize what I like and don't like in a house. All in all I had so much fun roving around Ladislawa and seeing new people doing the same thing early morning. Of course, the jogging was so much fun because of our chat, Kim and I. After Ladislawa we went to McDo to have our breakfast. There we continued our chat and got a bit more serious. We talked about traveling, friendship, self-control, the PAUSE principle, future plans, married life, etc. I had a good time with my beautiful friend. After McDo she brought me back to the hotel. So many first times that happened today. First time jogging with my beautiful Chinese friend, Kimmy. A wonderful morning I'll forever treasure. Thanks, Kimmy. :)

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A New Venture: LinkFromBlog

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 12:05:00 +0000

When I decided to start writing blog entries some opportunities kept on coming. One of the opportunities is the invitation from another blogger to try this site--LinkFromBlog .

LinkFromBlog is a company based in Minnesota USA. It was established just recently on 2008. For businesses, you can advertise on blogs. Advertiser sites will gain popularity and attention through viral campaign on their products or services. Advertisers are assured that there are quality bloggers that can help them in their campaign and promotion. For bloggers, this is a venue to earn by doing legitimate reviews of products and services offered by advertisers.

As a blogger, I won't let this opportunity to just pass. So, I'll try my luck in this new venture. I may not get as many offers because of my blog's popularity and page rank but I would still take the chance.

Because I can only do so much

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 10:33:00 +0000

In life there are things that you have no control of. Even how much you try to put things in place, perfectly design it, do your best and give your all, they may not just be enough.

I learned that I could only do so much; that despite all my efforts, things may not go my way, as what I expect them to be.

I have done things that I have never done before—my firsts. I thought that if I go beyond my routines, that if I do something unusual, that if I do it, things will be perfectly beautiful. But it was not the case.

I have done my best. I have been very prepared. I thought that if things are in place, that if all are set, that if I am just prepared, things will be smooth sailing. Again, it was not the case.

I have given my all. In my perspective, I gave my all. I thought that if I won’t hold back, that if I do everything I can do and give, things would go my way. It was not the case.

At the end of the day, I realized that even if I did what I’ve never done before, did my very best and gave my all, it’s not always an assurance that things will be perfectly well. There are things that I, we, have no control of like sickness, natural calamity, etc. I can have no control of them nor prevent them from coming. They are external. They are beyond my control.

It is just sad that my efforts could be wasted because these external factors may not coincide with what I plan, with what I want to happen. And so I prayed that they might be very kind to me, that God intervenes and let not external factors ruin my plans. I asked for a divine intervention but it did not work, at least not the way I expected the answered prayer to be. In short, things did not go perfectly well. I was frustrated and disappointed. My efforts. My money. My time. My happiness. Not so much catered.

But I realized, I should still be thankful for what happened. First, I learned to do something new and it was a wonderful feeling to be able to do something out of passion, and not just because of a mere requirement or anything. Second, I should be proud of myself for being prepared, for doing my best to make things well. I think it is something I should be happy for. Lastly, I should never be frustrated nor lose heart because of some unfortunate events. What mattered more was that I gave my all. I am never regretful. I realized that I am already happy of what happened. I was just clouded of the not-so-good events that I failed to see the beauty of my experience.

I am HAPPY. Things may have not gone my way but it was more than enough that in my own capacity, I gave everything I got. And that I still worked on to make things perfectly well. So, I enjoyed, had fun and learned something new in this life.

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Special Day, Special Place

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 12:30:00 +0000

This is a special day. For so many wonderful and simple reasons, this day is very special to me. There's no any grand thing that happened yet I am soooo happy, that's why this is a special day. :)

A little traveling, some indirect answers to questions, waiting a bit, going to a convenience store to check prices, short text messages, lunch with my bestfriend, seeing my other friends after their Techno defense, and visiting my Lolo made this day very special.

I love the simplicity of what I did. There was so much energy and fun. There was excitement. So much happiness. So much passion.

Traveling became so interesting. It's a bit time-consuming but I wanted to extend it, that destination was farther, to enjoy the moment. I had fun giving indirect answers to some questions. Made me feel witty. I enjoyed the waiting part underneath a tree. Solitude gave me time to think and reflect and be happy of what is about to happen. Also, it was good to check some prices in a convenience store. Look for cheaper products. Try to budget money. And get the feeling that great things are about to happen. Short text messages also made me smile. Even those words are not directly coming from the mouth of the people who sent them, I still feel the warmth of those messages. I had lunch with my bestfriend in the FoodCourt. It was our first time to eat together there. It's a wonderful feeling that you have someone to eat meal with and talk on some stuff while eating. I just can't eat alone. That's me. And yeah, seeing my beautiful friends after their Techno defense and sharing good news contributed to the happines I am feeling right now. I am just so proud of them for making it. One more sem and we're done guys! :) Lastly, visiting my Lolo in Buhangin Memorial Park was the culmination of this special day. I miss him so much and I missed going to that place. I saw my grandma and other relatives when I got there. It was almost drizzling so I hurried to some special spots in that place. It's so wonderful to be in that place again. Reminiscing of the wonderful things that happened there. Taking photos of those spots. And videotaking of God's lightning show. All of these made my day more special.

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A Dream Bond

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 13:36:00 +0000

Sometimes, in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes, you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you, sometimes better than you know yourself, is the same person who's been standing beside you all along. (Bride Wars)

I was struck by these lines from the famous movie Bride Wars. Actually, I have not seen the movie yet. Someone shared these lines. True, indeed. There really are bonds that can never be broken. Not because it is unbreakable, but because it's a choice to stick together, forever. It's rare, though. It's so hard to sustain bonds. Problems, temptations and the like will try to challenge and break them. But these are just tests. If taken constructively, these will help a bond to be stronger and better. I really admire those people who stick together no matter what. Facing the problems together, holding each other hands. Doing their best to sustain the love and holding on to each others' promises. Sticking to the commitment and vow they once made.

I dream to have such bond. And I would fight and work for it. A rare bond that is worth my lifetime. Yet, I can never know the answer until my very last breath.

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yoUPay

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 15:46:00 +0000

Today, or should I say, yesterday, October 9, 2009 was the due for the payment of Kalasag subscription. Kalasag is the official yearbook of Ateneo de Davao University-College. This blog is I know late to campaign to pay. But I just want to still put an entry about it because I really love their concept-- yoUPay. By the way, this is my first entry after long months of hibernation. So, I'm back to the online world. I'd try my best to keep people updated of my daily or weekly activities. That is if there are people following me or reading my blog entries. Anyway, yoUPay is derived from the Disney Pixar movie UP. I really love the movie so I'm loving their campaign, too. I recommend this film. If you have not watched it, try buying original DVDs. If you can't afford, you may get it from torrent sites. I just want to share photos that I took from my phone. The first one is the campaign stilt of the Kalasag and the other one is the red balloon that I have in our closet room, which is still breathing. I mean, has not yet really deflated. It still has shape but with wrinkles and signs of aging. Hahah. I really love balloons. I really keep them if I get the chance to bring them home, the more reason if they are given to me by people I love. Well, because I love the campaign of Kalasag I paid earlier but it won't discount the fact that I returned my Graduate Profile Form very late. This would be all for now. More entries in the next days.
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No to Con-Ass. Not NOW!

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 15:31:00 +0000

Congressmen who VOTED for CON-ASS

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 15:21:00 +0000

CONGRESSMEN WHO APPROVED THE CON ASS:

ABANTE, BIENVENIDO M. "BENNY" 6TH District Pandacan
ABLAN, ROQUE R. JR, Ilocos Norte, 1st District
AGBAYANI, VICTOR AGUEDO E. Pangasinan, 2nd District
AGYAO, MANUEL, S Kalinga Province
ALBANO (III), RODOLFO T. Isabela, 1st District
ALFELOR, FELIX R. JR. 4th District, Camarines Sur
ALMARIO, THELMA Z. Davao Oriental, 2nd District
ALVAREZ, ANTONIO C. Palawan 1st District
ALVAREZ, GENARO RAFAEL M. JR. Negros Occidental, 6th District
AMANTE, EDELMIRO A. Agusan Del Norte, 2nd District
AMATONG, ROMMEL C. Compostela Valley, 2nd District
ANGPING, MARIA ZENAIDA B. Manila, 3rd District
ANTONINO, RODOLFO W. Nueva Ecija, 4th District
APOSTOL, TRINIDAD G. Leyte, 2nd District
AQUINO, JOSE S. (II) 1st District Agusan del Norte
ARAGO, MARIA EVITA R. 3rd district, Laguna
ARBISON, A MUNIR M. Sulu 2nd District
ARENAS, MA. RACHEL J. Pangasinan, 3rd District
ARROYO, DIOSDADO M. Camarines Sur, 1st District
ARROYO, IGNACIO T. 5th district Negros Occidental
ARROYO, JUAN MIGUEL M. 2nd District of Pampanga
BAGATSING, AMADO S. Manila 5th district
BALINDONG, PANGALIAN M. Lanao del Sur, 2nd District
BARZAGA, ELPIDIO F. JR. Cavite, 2nd District
BAUTISTA, FRANKLIN P. Davao Del Sur, 2nd District
BELMONTE, VICENTE F. JR. Lanao del Norte, 1st District
BICHARA, AL FRANCIS C.. Albay, 2nd District
BIRON, FERJENEL G. Iloilo, 4th District
BONDOC, ANNA YORK P. Pampanga 4th District
BONOAN-DAVID, MA. THERESA B. Manila, 4th District
BRAVO, NARCISO R. JR. Masbate, 1st District
BRIONES, NICANOR M. AGAP Party list
BUHAIN, EILEEN ERMITA Batangas, 1st District
BULUT, ELIAS C. JR. Apayao Lone District
CAGAS (IV), MARC DOUGLAS C. Davao Del Sur, 1st District
CAJAYON, MARY MITZI L. Caloocan, 2nd District
CAJES, ROBERTO C. Bohol, 2nd District
CARI, CARMEN L. Leyte, 5th District
CASTRO, FREDENIL H. Capiz, 2nd District
CELESTE, ARTHUR F. Pangasinan, 1st District
CERILLES, ANTONIO H. Zamboanga Del Sur, 2nd District
CHATTO, EDGARDO M. Bohol, 1st District
CHONG, GLENN A. Biliran, Lone District
CHUNG-LAO, SOLOMON R. Ifugao, Lone District
CLARETE, MARINA C. Misamis Occidental, 1st District
CODILLA, EUFROCINO M. SR. Leyte, 4th District
COJUANCO, MARK O. Pangasinan, 5th District
COQUILA, TEODULO M. Eastern Samar, Lone District
CRISOLOGO, VINCENT P. Quezon City, 1st District
CUA, JUNIE E. Quirino, Lone District
CUENCO, ANTONIO V. Cebu City, 2nd District
DANGWA, SAMUEL M. Benguet, Lone District
DATUMANONG, SIMEON A. Maguindanao, Lone District
Dayanghirang, Nelson L. Davao Oriental, 1st District
DAZA, NANETTE C. Quezon City, 4th District
DAZA, PAUL R. Northern Samar, 1st District
DE GUZMAN, DEL R. Marikina City, 2nd District
DEFENSOR, ARTHUR D. SR. Iloilo, 3rd District
DEFENSOR, MATIAS V. JR. Quezon City, 3rd District
DEL MAR, RAUL V. Cebu City, 1st District
DIASNES, CARLO OLIVER D. (MD) Batanes, Lone District
DIMAPORO, ABDULLAH D. Lanao Del Norte, 2nd District
DOMOGAN, MAURICIO G. Baguio, Lone District
DUAVIT, MICHAEL JOHN R. Rizal, 1st District
DUENAS, HENRY M. JR. Taguig, 2nd District (2nd Councilor District)
DUMARPA, FAYSAH MRP. Lanao del Sur, 1st District
DUMPIT, THOMAS L. JR. La Union, 2nd District
DURANO (IV), RAMON H. 5th District, Cebu
ECLEO, GLENDA B. Dinagat Islands, Lone District
EMANO, YEVGENY VICENTE B. Misamis Oriental, 2nd District
ENVERGA, WILFRIDO MARK M. Quezon, 1st District
ESTRELLA, CONRADO M. (III) Pangasinan, 6th District
ESTRELLA, ROBERT RAYMUND M. ABONO Party List
FERRER, JEFFREY P. Negros Occidental, 4th District
GARAY, FLORENCIO C. Surigao Del Sur, 2nd District
GARCIA, ALBERT S. Bataan, 2nd District.
GARCIA, PABLO JOHN F. Cebu, 3rd District
GARCIA, PABLO P. Cebu, 2nd District
GARCIA, VINCENT J. Davao City, 2nd District
GARIN, JANETTE L. Iloilo, 1st District
GATCHALIAN, REXLON T. Valenzuela City, 1st District
GATLABAYAN, ANGELITO C. Antipolo City, 2nd District
GO, ARNULFO F. Sultan Kudarat, 2nd District
GONZALES, AURELIO D. JR. Pampanga 3rd District
GONZALES, RAUL T. JR. Ilo ilo City
GULLAS, EDUARDO R. Cebu, 1st District
GUNIGUNDO, MAGTANGGOL T. Valenzuela City 2nd District
HOFER, DULCE ANN K. Zamboanga Sibugay, 2nd District
JAAFAR, NUR G. Tawi-Tawi, Lone District
JALA, ADAM RELSON L. Bohol, 3rd District
JALOSJOS, CESAR G. Zamboanga del Norte, 3rd District
JALOSJOS-CARREON, CECILIA G. Zamboanga del Norte, 1st District
JIKIRI, YUSOP H. Sulu, 1st District
KHO, ANTONIO T. Masbate, 2nd District
LABADLABAD, ROSENDO S. Zamboanga del Norte, 2nd District
LACSON, JOSE CARLOS V. Negros Occidental, 3rd District
LAGDAMEO, ANTONIO F. JR. Davao del Norte, 2nd District
LAPUS, JECI A. Tarlac, 3rd District
LAZATIN, CARMELO F. Pampanga, 1st District
LIM, RENO G. Albay, 3rd District
LOPEZ, JAIME C. Manila, 2nd District
MADRONA, ELEANORA JESUS F. Romblon, Lone District
MAGSAYSAY, MARIA MILAGROS H. Zambales, 1st District
MALAPITAN, OSCAR G. Caloocan, 1st District
MAMBA, MANUEL N. Cagayan, 3rd District
MANGUDADATU, DATU PAKUNG S. Sultan Kudarat,
MARANON, ALFREDO D. III Negros Occidental, 2nd District
MATUGAS, FRANCISCO T. Surigao del Norte, 1st District
MENDOZA, MARK LEANDRO L. Batangas, 4th District
MERCADO, ROGER G. Southern Leyte, Lone District
MIRAFLORES, FLORENCIO T. Aklan, Lone District
NAVA, JOAQUIN CARLOS RAHMAN A. (MD) Guimaras, Lone District
NICOLAS, REYLINA G. Bulacan, 4th District
NOGRALES, PROSPERO C. Davao City, 1st District
OLAñO, ARREL R. Davao Del Norte, 1st District
ONG, EMIL L. Northern Samar, 2nd District
ORTEGA, VICTOR FRANCISCO C. La Union, 1st District
PABLO, ERNESTO C. APEC Party List
PANCHO, PEDRO M. Bulacan, 2nd District
PANCRUDO, CANDIDO P. JR. Bukidnon, 1st District
PICHAY, PHILIP A. Surigao Del Sur, 1st District
PIñOL, BERNARDO F. JR. North Cotabato, 2nd District
PUNO, ROBERTO V. Antipolo City, 1st District
RAMIRO, HERMINIA M. Misamis Occidental, 2nd District
REMULLA, JESUS CRISPIN C. Cavite, 3rd District
REYES, CARMELITA O. Marinduque, Lone District
REYES, VICTORIA H. Batangas, 3rd District
ROBES, ARTURO G. San Jose Del Monte City, Lone District
Rodriguez-Zaldarria ga, Adelina Rizal, 2nd District
ROMAN, HERMINIA B. Bataan, 1st District
ROMARATE, GUILLERMO A. JR. Surigao del Norte, 2nd District
ROMUALDEZ, FERDINAND MARTIN G. Leyte, 1st District
ROMUALDO, PEDRO Camiguin, Lone District
ROMULO, ROMAN T. Pasig City, Lone District
ROXAS, JOSE ANTONIO F. Pasay City
SALIMBANGON, BENHUR L. Cebu, 4th District
SALVACION JR., ANDRES D. Leyte, 3rd District
SAN LUIS, EDGAR S. Laguna, 4th District
SANDOVAL, ALVIN S. Malabon-Navotas, Lone District
SANTIAGO, JOSEPH A. Catanduanes, Lone District
SANTIAGO, NARCISO D. (III) ARC Party List
SEACHON-LANETE, RIZALINA L. 3rd district of Masbate
SEARES-LUNA, CECILIA M. Abra, Lone District
SILVERIO, LORNA C. Bulacan, 3rd District
SINGSON, ERIC D. Ilocos Sur, 2nd District
SINGSON, RONALD V. Ilocos Sur, 1st District
SOLIS, JOSE G. Sorsogon, 2nd District
SOON-RUIZ, NERISSA CORAZON Cebu, 6th District
SUAREZ, DANILO E. Quezon, 3rd District
SUSANO, MARY ANN L. Quezon City, 2nd District
SY-ALVARADO, MA. VICTORIA R. Bulacan, 1st District
SYJUCO, JUDY J. 2nd Dsitrict, Iloilo
TALINO-MENDOZA, EMMYLOU J. North Cotabato, 1st District
TAN, SHAREE ANN T. Samar, 2nd District
TEODORO, MARCELINO R. Marikina City, 1st District
TEODORO, MONICA LOUISSE PRIETO Tarlac, 1st District
TEVES, PRYDE HENRY A. Negros Oriental, 3rd District
TUPAS, NEIL C. JR. Iloilo, 5th District
UNGAB, ISIDRO T. Davao City, 3rd District
UY, EDWIN C. Isabela, 2nd District
UY, REYNALDO S. Samar, 1st District
UY, ROLANDO A. Cagayan De Oro City, Lone District
VALDEZ, EDGAR L. APEC Party List
VALENCIA, RODOLFO G. Oriental Mindoro, 1st District
VARGAS, FLORENCIO L. Cagayan, 2nd District
VILLAFUERTE, LUIS R. Camarines Sur, 2nd District
VILLAROSA, MA. AMELITA C. Occidental Mindoro, Lone District
VIOLAGO, JOSEPH GILBERT F. Nueva Ecija, 2nd District
YAP, JOSE V. Tarlac, 2nd District
YU, VICTOR J. Zamboanga Del Sur, 1st District
ZAMORA, MANUEL E. 1st District, Compostela Valley
ZIALCITA, EDUARDO C. Parañaque, 1st District

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Tweeting on Twitter

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Mon, 11 May 2009 12:12:00 +0000

I am now an official Twitter user. You can click here to visit my profile page and may decide to follow me. :) I use Tweetdeck to see the updates of my friends in Twitter and Facebook. I can also now see what's happening to the artists and significant people I am following. It is a good one. Very easy to use. I can simultaneously update my Twitter and Facebook status. See? Try it yourself now. ;)

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Not a Lonely Day After All

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Mon, 04 May 2009 12:19:00 +0000

I was tying my shoelaces in the jeep. After it I saw no one in there but me and realized I was alone. This is a day that I want some company but no one was there. I can’t seem to find any friend to make me feel that I am not alone. I was expecting some people but they’re nowhere to be found. This is one of those days that I become melodramatic. That I feel that close friends are getting far from me. That I am not needed and wanted anymore. That I am no longer special.

I was self-talking to accompany myself. I was looking for something to entertain me. I was alone and I want to cheer myself up. Before the jeep traveled any farther I realized that today is Monday and I should be visiting my grandpa. I stopped near the flyover and rode a jeep heading to Cabantian. No one was there but me. I talked to my grandpa while cleaning his gravestone. I was really in need of company. My uncle came and so did the rest of the family just a couple of minutes after. I realized then that I am never alone. I have my family and relatives. Most especially, God never fails to make me feel accompanied.

And sometimes there will be people who will drop by, unexpectedly appreciate your hair and make you feel less lonely. :)

I thank God that this is not a lonely day after all.
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The Toughest Competition

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 01 May 2009 14:08:00 +0000

This season is one of the best seasons in American Idol, many people would say. I can't agree more. The competition proper started with thirteen (13) instead of twelve(12) idols. There is no doubt that the casts exceeded. All of them are really great.

Last night and the other night, I watched American Idol in SideReel.com and in Star World at night. The performance night was a stellar night. Everybody was giving their best. Even I had the hard time to choose whom I want to go home after the voting (I can't vote actually because I reside here in Philippines.). So the elimination night began. Natalie Cole performed and so did Tyler. I loved the number of Jamie Fox. He really is a WONDERFUL performer.

Before the performances of the stars, Danny and Allison were saved leaving Adam, Kris and Matt in the bottom three. It was, in a way, shocking. I was not expecting for Allison to be in the top 2, knowing that she has been in the bottom three for how many times. I was grateful the two were saved. I loved them. Kris Allen was saved next. It was between Adam and Matt. I was again shocked. I couldn't believe that Adam will be in the bottom two. He was saved and Matt was eliminated. I was expecting that. It was hard. The competition is very stiff. Everybody really has the chance of becoming the next American Idol. Next week is Disco Week. I can't wait.

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It's Good Friday Again.

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 10 Apr 2009 16:21:00 +0000

I can still remember that my first ever post here is related to my Good Friday experience last year.

This year's Good Friday is totally different from last year's. I am just at home. I watched my favorite Anime show in Hero TV (Prince of Tennis), Charmed in Velvet and the 7 Last Words in ABS-CBN. I thought watching TV on this day won't make any difference in me but I was wrong. The 7 Last Words was very inspiring, healing, and moving.
I was inspired by the people who shared their individual testimonies of faith. There was this person who lost his vocal chords because of larynx cancer. He was at first doubtful of what God's plan for him and even questioned why, for all the people in this word, him. But he accepted God's plan for him with a welcoming heart eventually.

I was healed. While watching I can't hold my tears from falling. Later I realized it was my way for cleansing my heart and soul. The words from the Lord even how many times I've heard before are always as good as new whenever I hear them again. The lessons, the faith, the LOVE of God to us, these are the things that healed me and made me feel that I am becoming more like Chris little by little.

I was moved. One priest said that we should have the courage to accept that God loves us. Why? Because God's love can only be felt if we are willing to accept it and see it. We face problems. We lose someone very special, our house is burned, we failed in the exam, and many other problems that we may encounter. Sometimes, we feel that God has not loved us at all because of all these struggles. But, if we just follow the will of God and accept it, we will feel that there is so much LOVE from God given to us. Every struggle brings the best in us if we just let God be with us. God loves us very much that he wants to bring the best in us. He wants us to trust HIM and continue our faith.

I have a different Good Friday now but I thank God that I learned more.

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I am BACK!

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Wed, 08 Apr 2009 16:54:00 +0000

It's been a while since my last post here. I realized that I should be updating my blog because there may be some people who find my blog entries interesting. :)

I am BACK finally. I'll be posting some past experiences and recent updates.

I am still active in mylot.com (click the marquee link below). The site really pays. I have bought something abroad already from my earnings. :D

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Advices and Options

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 12:26:00 +0000

Personally, I want people to let me decide for myself, means, I don't seek for the "advice" but let them make me realize on things through helping me weigh on things. A friend told me that when they do counseling, they don't necessarily provide advices to the person. He said, an advice is like commanding the person to do that because that is the right thing to do. So instead, they give options. They provide scenes of consequences if you do that, if you don't do that and that sort. I think that way is more helpful because you have no one to blame if your decision fails and you have yourself to congratulate if you made it right. I really believe on Socrates as he said that true insight comes from within. So, I suggest, you make decisions on your own but seek help on how to do these things. I do that. I consider the ideas of others but I made the final decision. And as an adviser, I don't tell my friends to do things because that make things better but instead I tell them what can be the possibilities and just let them realize on their own.
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Advent of the Break

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 14:55:00 +0000

Wheeew! Just last Thursday, the school works ended. Yey! We were so happy that we wanted to celebrate the beginning of our semestral break. Cly, darl, eaque. jeff and I went to SM to have some pizza treat. It took time for us to decide where to eat; it was either yellow cub or greenwich. We chose greenwich because the store was cheaper. The ordering took some time too because we were so not used to choose what pizza to partake. We ended up eating a sari-sari party square plus the overloaded pizza, that one with shawarma. We have some chitchats while eating. Btw, i think i have the most pizza eaten. LOL. We did a window shopping. Still, on computers. LOL. We looked for external hard disks, mobile phones, and some techy stuff. Then, we enjoyed the amusement in their arcade. At first, we planned to take the videoke but ended up playing with race cars. I was bad with that game. I can't seem to win. LOL. After everbody played with that virtual race, we tried to make it real. We went to the bump car station. LOL. Yes, we played with bump cars. My first try was a disaster. The car was not moving; it did not move at all until the time ended. I was pissed. I asked for another round but I have no one to play with. Thankfully, the assigned guy was kind and let the three of us play again while the two bought another tickets. I really enjoyed the ride, the bumping, the little pain and the laughs. I think the audience enjoyed watching us. LOL. We tried other games too like gun shooting and motor racing. We strolled for a while and decided to take the last full show. Darl had to go home early so we accompanied here out then went to the super market to buy cly's stuff and our snacks for the movie. We watched Mag-ingat ka sa Kulam of Judy Ann Santos. My companions, I think, were scared really. I enjoyed seeing them jumping off their seats and scream a little. LOL Ero Ero Azero. I love those lines. I like the story. I love the experience. I am happy that I decided to join them.

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Google Chrome: New Web Browser

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Thu, 09 Oct 2008 16:35:00 +0000

After being the best search engine, Google decided to be not just a search engine inside different browsers. So, it decided to make an open source browser of its own. They call it Google Chrome. Like the Google homepage, the browser is clean and simple but has the foundation of a browser than runs today's complex applications. Chrome is far from done however Google has released this beta for windows and hoping that users would help them make the browser better through comments and reports.

Download Google Chrome here.

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Bux.to: A Scam?

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Thu, 09 Oct 2008 15:26:00 +0000

While surfing the net and blog hopping, I saw this controversial post from a fellow blogger. What interest me was the post was about bux.to and challenging its fidelity to the people who are so loyal clicking ads for some $0.01 per click. I am one of them. The article opened my mind not to continue wasting my time clicking their ads and supporting the site. The arguments presented were for me very true. I also asked for payout but until now I have never received any. I think I better stop and opt to sites that would do what they promise. The full article is found here. I am not really saying that bux.to is a scam because I also heard some people being paid but I don't also to be part of the many who are left unpaid.

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I am now in BlogCatalog.

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Wed, 08 Oct 2008 15:38:00 +0000

All this time I thought I was part of the BlogCatalog. I visited yesterday on the site and saw that my blog's status is REJECTED. So that was the reason my face won't register whenever I visit a site with a Blogcatalog widget in it. So I tried to add my blog again wishing that this time it would be approved. And alas, it happened. In just a day, The Soliloquist became a part of the BC family. I like the site. There are so many people with so many things to say about anything and everything. I like that there are discussions. I hope the site would really help me build traffic to my site. Also, gain friends.

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Home Alone

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 16:29:00 +0000

I AM HOME ALONE! I am supposed to be there with my family in my uncle's private resort but I refused because of this Project Management work. So by the time I decided to really wake up this morning, I was left at home alone. I really feel alone. This night, I ate my dinner alone. I decided to watch some random movie to entertain myself but I found no interesting film. I was about to take a ride when a friend asked me to bring him the MAC OSX Installer. So I went there and walked. I was alone walking in that dim-lit streets. My friend told me that I should be cautious. We talked for a while and I left. I was alone again. While heading I was thinking of writing this entry and be more informative. I thought of searching the effects of being home alone or what. But, I realized I should stick to my own feelings and experiences that base this post to any others' reflections. So i dumped that idea as I threw that leftover I saw in the dining table. I planned to get our dog inside but again I did not do it. I realized that he may be used to it and I can't afford him to be just licking my whole body while I am working with this project we have. By the way. before I reached home, I passed by a wake of a neighbor. There were lots who visit his wake. From that place to our home is about 98 steps, my steps. Well, steps could vary. The place is so dark. I feel all alone again. I opened the door and saw no one (obviously). I opened the lights, the TV, the computer, the laptop, the air conditioner, many more. I am really looking for some company. I thought of going out but then realized that that is not me. I am a home buddy. So now, I am putting this loneliness to words. Solitude really makes me reflect. I can use my being a soliloquist right this very moment. I only have myself. I am home alone. I can't wait to have them back home.

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Free People Finder

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 15:40:00 +0000

Have been not in contact with friends for so long ago? Leaving you with no recent contacts with them and want to look for them? Or perhaps you lost a friend's contact number and forgot his/her residence address? The search for a friend or a relative or your long lost father is made easy by a free people finder. All you need to know is his/her last name (required) but most preferably his/her complete name, city and state. Once this information are submitted, the system would try to provide you the person's contact number and address. This site also offers a service that would identify a mysterious caller's name and address by just providing his/her phone number. That really makes the search easier, doesn't it? This People Finder site is really offered for FREE unlike other sites which require you payment. However, for the mean time, the site caters only its services to the residents of Canada and United States. So, if you are a resident of those area, you can try their service and see for yourself how effective it is. Enjoy searching @ LookUpWho.com. AND REUNITE WITH THEM.

Php and Flex

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 15:34:00 +0000

I am learning Php and Flex now as part of our course this year. Learning them is really not easy but it is fun. Learning is fun really. We are making now a Room and Laboratory Reservation Monitoring System using the said platform and scripting language. I can't really say we are great at these because this will be the first time we are using these to develop a system. I am looking forward to knowing these more.

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Let's play BANZAI!

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Sun, 28 Sep 2008 08:46:00 +0000

ScreenLife Games is at it again. They launched a new Banzai game.

Banzai is a one-of-a kind game that can make every group of people--friends, family, classmates, etc, jump off their seats because of so much fun. The Banzai DVD Game is a betting game where people bet plastic on outcome of bizarre Banzai stunts from hit TV Show of the same name.
The game is a test of wit and speed. How is the game played? There must be a group of people to start off the game. The DVD will be played and the bettors will be given time to bet of what will happen next in the video clip. The bettors will race to fill up the betting bowls with plastic sushi using only their chopsticks. After the betting, the next scene will be played and whoever wins the bet gets the sushi. Whoever wins all the sushi wins the game. The game sounds very childish but for me it brings out true enjoyment. It makes you relax, laugh, and really enhances your guessing skill and speed. It really requires great speed to fill up the betting bowl. Personally, I am not good chopstick user but that makes the game more fun. The fun starts with the struggling of using the chopsticks. Moreover, the video clips are really fun to watch. The laughing part is always present. You can't resist to laugh. Banzai is all in all a game for all ages, for all kinds of people, and this game is safe to play because it's done at home or should i say indoor. This game can really make a group go crazy and really really have fun. Try it. You would not regret you cared to play with it.

The game is available for purchase online. Click here. It has even its own Myspace page. Just feel free to visit here.

Go Ateneo!

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Mon, 22 Sep 2008 04:17:00 +0000

Now it is down with the two best teams in this season—The Ateneo Blue Eagles and the de la Salle Green Archers. September 21, 2008, 4:00PM, the first game for the best of three games of the UAAP Season 71 Finals commenced. The blue people left the big dome victorious with the score of 61-69 in favor of the Blue Eagles. Ateneo scored in the game first and made an early 2-4 point lead (at that range). At the end of the first half, Ateneo, made an 11-point lead. However, while in the second quarter, de la Salle got the chance to take the lead of three but the soaring eagles did not wait to take back its lead until the end of the quarter. Hence, the 11-point lead. The Blue Eagles maintained its strong defense and lead until the final quarter making them win the first game. One more for Ateneo and it wins the finals.

I would also want to commend the performance of Hussaaini who scored 31 points. The great shots of Efren Buenafe and Eric Salamat have really made the team win. Its superstar Chris Tiu was not very visible in the duration of the game. He was part of the first five and the last five but was not really there in the middle quarters. But still he gained the crowds cheer with his wonderful shot during the last quarter.

Ateneo is a very strong team. I am proud of it. Although I am not there and not really an Ateneo de Manila student, my cheers and prayers are for the team.

I am an Atenean, a blue knight who cheers for the blue eagles. Animo Ateneo! Get that BALL and WIN!

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LASIK & Laser Eye Surgery

noreply@blogger.com (lloyd belleza) — Fri, 19 Sep 2008 16:26:00 +0000

The LASIK technology has been used by the Department of Defense (DOD) of USA and NASA to increase the performance of specialized personnel facing extreme physically demanding conditions which tremendously benefited civilians for more than five years now. According to Steven Schallhorn, M.D., a retired US Navy Captain and the clinical head for research and study in the DOD regarding the use of the said technology, LASIK has been validated by NASA and DOD to exceed all standards of safety and effectiveness.

As of the moment, the modern LASIK (iLASIK Procedure) is using two lasers compared to the earlier versions of procedures which used only one. The latest procedure has these several stages:

1. The wave-front technology maps the unique characteristics of the individual's eyes.
2. Next, a corneal flap is created by an ultrafast, computer-guided laser.
3. After the creation of the flap, the wave-front mapping data guides the second laser for vision correction.

With these advanced technologies, statistics showed that 95% of the 100 personnel gained a 20/20 vision or better and 100% of naval aviators highly recommend the procedure to there fellow aviators.

Dr. Schallhorn encourages people to be one of the over 12 million Americans who benefited from the LASIK technology.

This modern procedure really provides an excellent safety and visual results. It is fast, safe and the patient will not feel anything at all. It is certified virtually painless. Most of all, everybody can almost afford it. No joke at all. Eyeglasses and contact lenses are no longer IN. Having a 20/20 vision or better is what everybody needs. iLASIK Procedure has it. Go get it now.