Voice up Your MIND

Long last 2015-2019

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Wed, 27 Nov 2019 01:24:00 +0000

It been long time for not updating my blog since last 2015-2019 (if I'm not mistaken). Yeah... 4 years without updating any post in the blog is a long time for a silent. You know life sometimes good sometime a bit rough.

Happy sad laugh and tears are all common things that happen in our daily life. Without knowing what is happened in the future is what we have to face it everyday in our life. Even we want to avoid it to be happen but it is beyond our control though.

By the way... All these past is our best memories. When we think it back sometimes without knowing it make we smile, laugh, tears and so on... Back then we say to ourself, stupid, selfish, awesome, wow and many more... you name it. Hahahaa...

Ok enough for today... Hopefully all you you read this post will make your day full with enjoyment in your daily life. Don't think hard for the day just make it a best memory for your life. Enjoy...

Maybe I'll start post more picture that what I have done these years and share some info.

Selamat Hari Gawai

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Fri, 29 May 2015 03:49:00 +0000

Gawai festive season is just around the corner. Every native in Sarawak, the land of Borneo especially in Kuching will celebrate Gawai every 1st of June. What are you waiting for... Some kampong might have unique event to celebrate the Gawai organized by the local people.

I'm hired!

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Wed, 24 Sep 2014 14:03:00 +0000

Owh yeah... Greeting readers,

Yataaaa... Finally i got a job. Eventhough it is not the job that i dream of but atleast i can start my career already.

I'm hired and it is true. Hopefully my career will brough me to the next level that i can feel it as a worthful to join. Hemm... Just put that aside first. The most important is to gain atleast a year of knowledge in the field.

Hemm before i forgot my wish is that i still keep on blogging. A place where i can share atleast something rather than nothing.

Peace yo. No more unemployment. ^_^

Layout townhall level 7

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Fri, 04 Jul 2014 11:00:00 +0000

Dear valued readers,

This wall layout was taken and inspired from the previous attack that I took from the multiplayer mode. I thought the layout is the most hard to break in but after I copy and paste almost the same I found the weakness in it.

1st of all 2 wall breaker I saw can destroy the double layered wall. Huhu.

But I realize that my air defend not working because it still under construction. No wonder the dragon easily destroy my base. Haha.

After all it is the best and long usage of layout and I like it untill I saw another best layout to copy.

Happy gaming n play Clash of Clan

Extraordinary

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Sun, 29 Jun 2014 03:03:00 +0000

Dear valued readers,

Today I would like to post not about supernatural or whats so ever. It is about a normal living human but doing 'extraordinary' things.

'Extraordinary' things here is about the sacrifice that someone doing without any payback in the future. I know some of us still doing it and they usually come from humble and loyal family in religious. Not all of us willing to do it anymore because this type of people think it is waste of time and can't generate. Even big company organise charity program but it still not enought because they usually doing because of publicity or public awareness. Without that no chance at all.

That is why I still admire Mother Teresa. Without boundry she try her best to do public service community to save children all over the world and giving education to the children. Poverty is not barrier for her to stop her intention to help neediest family and children to have smile in their face.

Nowadays the civilize human race has made the world fight for power and money. Everyday we heard people fight each other and claim that they do it for right. But again it is right for them doing like that?

None of the rasionalize thinking will make all the right is right. Pray is the best decision. The world only a temporary place to create who we are. None is best is the best and worst is the worst because sometimes ordinary can become extraordinary.

That all I can share for today. Have a nice day guys and think for future and pray.

Installing blogger apps in my phone

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Tue, 24 Jun 2014 06:35:00 +0000

Dear my valuable readers,

I just installing the Blogger apps in my smartphone and hoping It would help me update and share stories instantly.

This is my first time using this apps. Finger cross nothing such a big trouble for me using it for the first time.

Have a nice day guys and see ya blogging.

All of Me - John Legend

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Fri, 20 Jun 2014 00:14:00 +0000

This song is very special to me and I don't know why I love it so much. Every times I played the song it change my mood and keep calm. These song so melodic plus the lyric so lyrical... enjoy the video that I found in Youtube. Love it <3 br="">

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

COC Clash Of Clan

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Wed, 18 Jun 2014 00:15:00 +0000

Dear my valueable readers,

I would like to share my favourite online game on my smartphone. COC or Clash Of Clan is one of the online game must have in the smartphone. I already played this game for about almost 1 year now and I addicted with the game. Lol... :)

With the right clan and nice people in it you can have a nice chat with the other players. Besides that, good preparation, timing and strategies before you engage any war will ensure win or lose of the game.

But that is not the problem. The game is fun and I as one of the player enjoy every match, every war clan that being made by other player. I feel addicted with it.

Try it if you haven't install it in your smartphone.

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Bumiputera bukan Islam (2nd class citizen)

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Wed, 18 Jun 2014 00:02:00 +0000

Kepada pembaca yang dihargai,

Hari ini saya nak mengulas sepenuhnya dalam bahasa. Yalah dunia serba maju kini semuanya dielektronikkan kerana nak mudah dan cepat. Dalam erti kata lain automatik. Tapi dalam mudah, cepat, automatik ini telah menimbulkan banyak masalah dan kelemahan dalam sistem.

Setelah bertahun - tahun mengisi segala sistem yang ada dalam mencari pekerjaan di sektor awam rasanya seperti hanya bermimpi sahaja. Hanya pihak tertentu dan juga yang bernasib baik sahaja yang akan dipanggil. Al-maklumlah dunia rakyat semakin hari semakin ramai,peluang pekerjaan dalam sektor awam hanya seciput saja dan selalunya menjadi pilihan utama si pencari kerja. Kalau ada jawatan kosong pun hanya sekadar sedapkan hati untuk pergi ujian dan interview sahaja. Cukupkan syarat katakan.

Hemm... dunia dah berubah, taraf penggangguran juga sudah di naik taraf dari penggangur taraf SPM kepada penganggur bertaraf Ijazah. Peluang pekerjaan taraf SPM dilihat menjadi perhatian kerana tawaran gaji yang rendah serta kebanyakkan mereka ini memiliki kemahiran dalam sektor yang berkenan menyebabkan mereka lebih laku dalam alam mencari pekerjaan. Faktor pertumbuhan kilang - kilang gergasi dan pelabur - pelabur dari luar Negara datang membuat pelaburan menjadi antara satu sebab kenapa semakin banyak kemahiran diperlukan. Jadi...bagi yang berfikir nak menyambung pelajaran dalam bidang profesionalisme baik fikir dalam - dalam. Sektor awam hanya untuk golongan tertentu sahaja, dan kalau adapun hanya untuk mengaburi mata dan menyedapkan hati sahaja walaupun anda bumiputera tapi sedarlah kalau bukan Melayu dan Islam anda adalah 2nd class citizen. Lebih teruk daripada bangsa Cina mahupun bangsa India.

Oleh itu, boleh dikatakan jangan bangga dengan apa yang ada sekarang. Semuanya adalah satu permainan dan kita hanya bonekanya sahaja. Sebab itulah orang Cina berpegang pada prinsip Pegang Ekonomi kerana itu sahaja yang mereka dapat wariskan pada anak gererasi mereka peluang pekerjaan yang bangsa lain tidak dapat lakukan.

Untuk keluar dari masalah ini, setiap si pencari kerja harus ada sijil kemahiran dalam diri mereka. Sebab anda (bumiputera bukan Islam) bukan anak emas negara. Fokuskan pencarian dalam sektor swasta. Antara kemahiran yang menawarkan peluang pekerjaan yang tinggi adalah seperti pemandu kren, welding, wiring, pembaikian enjin / jentera kilang, tukang masak. Ini adalah kerana sektor tersebut sedang giat membangun dan menawarkan peluang pekerjaan yang besar.

Jadi bagi yang memiliki taraf pengangguran berijazah silalah mengambil latihan kemahiran tersebut. Kalau tidak anda hanya bermimpi dan terus bermimpi untuk bekerja dalam sektor awam.

Akhir kata dari saya... Hukum ekonomi sangat adil "penawaran tinggi, permintaan rendah = harga turun""permintaan tinggi, penawaran rendah = harga tingg". Tidak heran akan ada pihak yang akan ambil kesempatan ini. Pemegang Ijazah berstatus penganggur sila ambil perhatian.

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Skill / Kerja

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Mon, 16 Jun 2014 23:34:00 +0000

Dear my value readers,

Here it goes again my dual language update. I think I will stay this style of posting so that it easy for me create the idea and keep updating my blog from becoming full of "dust and spider web" (translation of debu dan sarang labah - labah hahaha)

Unemployment is the scariest word for some people. Yes it is and I agree with it as the most scariest word because today's world money is almost everything. It can buy your life, buy your mood, and it also can buy almost everything in your life. Nak makan mestilah ada duit. Lagipun mana aweks nak rapat kalau tiada duit. Makin banyak duit makin ramai orang akan rapat dengan kita. Betul tak... Duit oh duit. Employment oh saya... huhuhu

Hah... this is my part time job. Skill sometimes doesn't meet job requirement. So I still stay unemployment now after my last job under Capacity Building for Graduate programme. But with my skills I still can do something rather nothing at all... Amateur as it is and I still need to learn a lot and improve my self. Dengan harapan hari ini lebih baik dari semalam.

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Berkhidmat untuk negara vs Berkhidmat untuk masyarakat

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Tue, 10 Jun 2014 02:06:00 +0000

Dear my valueable readers,

First of all let me used both language, English and Bahasa.

In my opinion there is a reason why nowadays more and more people especially the community standout their voice either public or social media. Bukan apa, zaman sekarang ramai yang bekerja sendiri mahupun dengan swasta dimana mereka sendiri merasa suasana sekeliling yang semakin membimbangkan masa depan mereka. In english term is cultural shock!

Selain itu, masa kecil kita sendiri melihat betapa beruntungnya kita melihat ibu bapa kita bekerja dalam kerajaan dan semangat untuk meneruskan legasi "berkhidmat untuk negara" turut berkobar - kobar dalam diri. But that only in a child mind set as that what they being teach in the primary school. By example they learn from their school teacher makes every children in the school want to serve in the government sectors because of the benefit that will make their future more promising.

As good as it be, nevertheless it is only once upon a time in a wonderland. Itu hanyalah khayalan semata - mata. Sistem quota yang diwujudkan menjadi persaingan sengit antara bangsa dan agama. Yes... it is true when it goes to the system like that. We need to be better how better is would be? I can't blame the government that already set the rules in the beginning and we all are already aware with it. But again, too good to be true. Bila sudah meningkat dewasa barulah tahu betapa beratnya bahu memikul tanggungjawab yang semakin bertambah.

Yes... Even though Bumiputera always being the first to pursued in any government occasion but don't forget when talk about religion then there it goes automatically the non-muslim will be 2nd class citizen... In my opinion it more worst than the other 2 big class citizen (Chinese and Indian). Bagaimana kita melihat perbezaanya adalah dengan pergi melihat sendiri mana - mana di sektor kerajaan.Check the sistem which bumiputera's religion has the most compare to the others. Again, I don't blame the system because that it what it is.

Again when the community voice up their feeling, some groups start to talking funny. Some groups with is pro-gov start to give comment "tidak bersyukur""kacang lupakan kulit""beri betis mahu paha""Kalau tidak suka baik keluar" and many more. Apa yang "open and close quote" saya nyatakan diatas adalah komen - komen yang biasa kita terima. Bukan apa... apabila kita rasa something is not right with the government maka tercetuslah idea to make it right before it too late. Kalau dipendam lama - lama boleh menjadi seperti virus. Makan cikit - cikit sampai tiba masanya akan bertindak.

Lebih memeritkan lagi apabila ada pekerja sektor kerajaan yang sepatutnya berkhidmat untuk negara gagal untuk menjalankan amanah yang diberi. TAHUKAH ANDA BETAPA RAMAI YANG DI LUAR SANA INGIN BERKHIDMAT UNTUK NEGARA? TAHUKAN ANDA BETAPA BERUNTUNGNYA ANDA DAN BETAPA MALANGNYA KAMI? So pleaselah, jangan kecewakan kami yang tidak dapat berkhidmat untuk negara mendengar berita tentang berlakunya masalah apabila sudah mendapat kerja dengan kerajaan. Buktikan dan bawalah visi, misi, dan objektif agar pembangunan dapat diteruskan dan bukannya OMONG KOSONG POLITIK sahaja. Kalau tidak apa bezanya politik kerajaan mahupun politik pembangkang. Memang kalau tidak membangun saya pun bangkang. That is why the reason I think the scenario undi pembangkang semakin meningkat padahal memang tahu kerajaan yang membangun negara.

So sila fikir - fikirkanlah untuk masa depan. Sebelum mengakhiri tulisan pada keyboard ini, I would like to apologize if I used inappropriate word to describe or condammed others group. Saya tidak bermaksud untuk mengutuk mahupun menjatuhkan mana-mana pihak tetapi bertujuan untuk menyedarkan diri saya sendiri.

That's all for me... thank you for take your time to read my post until the end... Have a nice day :)

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

O My G... Its already 1 year past...

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Tue, 10 Jun 2014 01:23:00 +0000

Dear my valueable readers,

Wow... time pass go by and it's already 1 year now I've didn't update my blog. Hemm it my bad dough because I'm too excited with the new apps available in the web and I try all of it... but in the end it is the same feeling... 1st time used it so wow... but then it goes hemm ok...so and so... you know what I mean right.

Luckly blogger didn't terminate my service and I still have my old post. Thanks to blogger for keep it for me. ;)

BTW... have a nice blogger out there and keep blogging because it more fun than the other. Trust me.

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Gawai 2013

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Fri, 14 Jun 2013 01:47:00 +0000

Dear readers,

This year, I went back to my kampung just in time during Gawai Eve. I rush went back using my motorcycle and took about 2 hours riding from Kuching to Sematan. I miss almost of the side event before the main event which is the 31st May and the midnight 1 of June. So this year I didn't feel the HEAT of this Gawai 2013 celebration. But even though I'm not 100% full participate all the activities this year, at least, I still can be part of the nearly vanish traditional culture event... hehehe

The above picture shows the activity before and after the Gawai 2013

Yah... the night Gawai Eve is the most waiting event a.k.a "must not miss" event of the day. This is where all the kampung people enjoy dancing after the long waited day and celebrate the Gawai before the 1st of June. The Ketua Kampung will lead the then and the main event of Gawai 2013 Started.

The above picture shows the kampung people enjoy the activity on Gawai Eve 2013

And when the clock approach nearly 12 in the midnight, all the people gather at the longhouse (samihk) and the Ketua Kampung or (orang tuha binua) will lead the ceremony and all the people wait anxiously to celebrate most celebration of the year, The Gawai Dayak 2013.

The above picture shows theKetua Kampung lead the Gawai ceremony

After that, the Gawai 2013 begun...

The above picture shows the kampung's music tradisional group

The above picture shows the kampung people took part dancing the tradisional dance along the longhouse (Samihk)

Fuhh... after that I cannot stand anymore and my eyes shows symptoms of tiredness... Then I went back home, take a nice sleep like at my comfortable bed. haha...

That's all the story that I can share my experience this Gawai Dayak 2013. Please comment if any of the doubtful information above.

Thank you and happy reading.

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Selamat Menyambut Hari Gawai 2013!

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Tue, 28 May 2013 14:54:00 +0000

Dear readers,

Malaysian GE13 already finish on 6 May 2013 after they announce the name of the contestant. But the heat of GE13 still can feel it although almost past 3 weeks already. But what the main focus now is how the deal the promise that the party had made to the people... I hope that whether supporter or opposition, they can gave their best for the people, for the country and for the nation.

Happy celebrating the Gawai Dayak 2013 this coming Jun. This is the only celebration among the Dayaks Community and praise their gratitudeto the god after harvesting their paddy and hopefully the paddy will grow well in the next term.

BTW... Happy celebrating the Gawai Dayak 2013 to all Dayaks in the Sarawak and not forgotten also to our fellow friends who celebrating Hari Kaamatan in Sabah. May this festive session bring million of gold memories...

For the tourist, this is your time to experience the Gawai Paddy Festival once in the life time... Have a nice day :)

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Tik... tok... tik... tok...

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Mon, 08 Apr 2013 04:15:00 +0000

Dear readers,

13th General Election is around the corner. Who will win in this election is still a big question to be answered. Too many thing happened before and many wild gossip spreading around this coming election. Let the people choose the leader and let the leader lead the country...

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Maybank SPAM email

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Sat, 23 Mar 2013 16:08:00 +0000

Dear readers,

It been a long silent this days because I don't have time to post update here. Most of the time I just read email, fb then online news letters. After then just disconnect my mobile broadband.

Not like the old me where most of the time I spent almost 5 hours surfing the internet.

By the way, the reason I update my post here is because of this Email as it is from Maybank saying rubbish about the online services and update my profile... It really because I don't like it because I will check it before I proceed.

There two thing make me feel weird about this email:
1. when I over my cursor to the sender it come out link from paredise@uark.edu
2. Then when I over my mouse to the update link it come out link from www.hans4uur.nl blablabla...

WTF... If it from maybank for sure it is from maybank2u.com.my. Aigooo... Why some people on earth like to do this thing to others... Shame on you...

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

2013

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Wed, 02 Jan 2013 07:04:00 +0000

Dear readers...

Hemm nothing more nothing less... It's already in the year 2013... Maybe a little bit change in the way i'm posting in my blog. I think of mixing my post with Bahasa Melayu.

There are many story about the end of the world. Prediction by this and by that. But in the Catholic Bible what I know mention that only God know when is the end of the world. Anyway, thanks God for everything and let's us enjoy and celebrate the Christmas with relatives and friends.

2012 juga banyak kenangan yang baik maupun yang tidak baik berlaku. Banyak juga perkara yang tidak diingini berlaku sepanjang 2012. But what past is past and let the future gave us the vision and we lead the way to what will be in the future. AZAM? hahaha... biarkanlah azam disimpan untuk dijadikan pedoman dan diri sendiri yang tahu...

2013... Here I'm coming. Tak sabar rasanya nak tahu apakah yang akan berlaku selepas ini. This is the new year, the new beginning after the "end of the world" hehe...

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Spooky experience

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Thu, 29 Nov 2012 14:17:00 +0000

Dear readers,

As usual ordinary working hours 8:00 am to 5:00 pm but if my job haven't finish yet and I already got the resources so I went home late. 6 ++ pm my job done and I walk alone and straight towards the lift. So on the way to the lift, I will look at the glass panel in front of me.

OK... you maybe wondering the about the incident right. For security purpose, I will not disclose the name of my work place. So let just say the building has 3 story and mine was at level 2. So in front of the lift is the stairs and you can see the beautiful artificial waterfall build by professional inside the building.

So I continue my story... on the way to the lift was a glass panel in front of my where it is the chairman office. AS usual I will look at it just to see me. The glass panel reflex just like a mirror. Alone and happy some of my job half done and I make a sound (whistling) all alone.

Suddenly... I saw me in the mirror up my hand like greeting someone and smiling even though I don't do that because I'm whistling and my hand down. I stall for 5 second, and just go down using the stairs which next to me and cancelled using the lift which is 5 foot in front of me. Quickly I went down and try to calm down my self and not to thinking something ridiculous that can make me event scared.

Fuhh... all the mind freak all gone after I saw my bos was waiting outside the building. At first I don't tell him about the story, but after I took my motorcycle I see he still there so I tell him the story. Then he said that maybe the person you see is your inner spirit. He suggested that I pray when I reach home to avoid something bad.

Thank GOD. Nothing happened until I write this story... Aleluia. :)

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Site walking

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Fri, 23 Nov 2012 22:38:00 +0000

Dear Readers,

I just found 1 website that really trigger my interest to read all the content from beginning to the end of the posts after I google it today. Really catch my interest to read all of in. But whether it is the fact or not the problem. Just love to read it by real people post it and mostly I agree with what they said and also the respond to the subject. By that I will also put the link below so that other can also read it too...

This is the url that I will share it with all of you... Cheers and have a nice day
http://makelovenotporn.com/myths/facial

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Shift Transformation

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Mon, 12 Nov 2012 14:21:00 +0000

Dear Readers,

Heart broken really suck. I tell you all because I already through the worst nightmare I've experience... Suddenly I feel my world become dark... darker... and sooner become darkest. Just like the candle went out. Alone, full of hatred, and all the negative building inside me... For sure all this feeling is no like me... I really hate it and I need change before it to late. For time being... in relationship really SUCK!

That is why now I'm shift doing something really I like for example create a new hobby or focus to my hobby... For sure I like RC cars (Remote Control). This days I was influence by the RC drift cars and also the influence come from my friend who also have this hobby and lucky me to see one of his collection... Instantly, I was affected by his collection and I also feel want to get that one too... So this month I bough one once I got my monthly allowance.

For today, I just keep Google and do my research regarding my new hobby on becoming the RC drift car... hahaha... Once I got all the theory, I will try to practice it... Hopefully I can post one of my skill... See ya and have a nice day :)

This masterpiece of mine was the New Mantex 2 1:10 scale cost me RM380 and I bought it at the Kuching Central last week... still fresh and do own setting... hehehe

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Air Asia Promotion

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Wed, 07 Nov 2012 03:01:00 +0000

Try to look for something weird here... I just read it from my email dated Tuesday, 6 November 2012, 10:10. Take your time and enjoy... hehehe... this is real and I didn't edit it...

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Remembering my late Brother

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Thu, 01 Nov 2012 14:53:00 +0000

Dear my late brother,
Even though you are long gone, by faith I know you up there with the Someone. I know you're born wild, life wild and gone wild. But brother is a brother. May the past is past and future is future. I may or may not come to pray for your eternal life will not become an issue tomorrow. Please forgive me for sin that I has done. Let it be...let it be... I also hope that with my "hope" today you will hear it by "there". Rest In Peace!.

love you Alex Mos :)

When the day goes down, the night goes up,
When the light went out, the dark come in,
When there is no fun, then the life become dull,
When there is the end, I just can say... hello and goodbye :) Nice to meet you all...

Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Loh Ji Yuan at SAYS.com

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Thu, 25 Oct 2012 16:12:00 +0000

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I got a dream: Big wave came from the up stream

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Sat, 13 Oct 2012 21:07:00 +0000

Dear readers, I just got this weirdest dream ever! Without any of the sign suddenly a big wave came from the up stream toward to the ocean and clear everything in it path. The story begin where I go to this an unknown longhouse for a vacation. A very quite, peaceful and mind blowing found in the middle of the jungle where water transport is the main transportation there. The longhouse just next to the stream so I sit there and enjoy the scenery.
Suddenly I feel something not right with that day. Too many question burden my mind that me myself cannot answer it. So I though maybe it just my though and not bother it. So I went to this house to look after the old people but I can't do anything because I don't know what to do anything to them... So I went outside again. The incident happened when I feel I want to look at the beautiful stream flow that I feel something will happened. This time sound like a roaring thunder and I feel a little bit scary. So I just follow my instinct and look at the stream. This time the thing I fear become a reality. Suddenly A big wave came down to the stream brutally. Clearing all it path. After a few second tragedy, the stream become a river and now look calm. I just can watch it happened and looking the local being wash by the big wave. Some of the lucky survivors confuse what actually happened to them. Most of them still shock, looking each other and speechless wondering what just happened to them. I just went down to look at the long house structure and thank God it still in good condition but a little bit messy whereby all the thing that the water brought from the uphill stuck there. Come out from the blues I just got a call saying that the wave continue until it reach to the ocean. Suddenly... coming from no where someone shouted "The second wave is coming... Get ready!". Again I can't do anything and look them hopelessly being wash the by the brutal wave. But this time many people (local and tourist I think) came down with the wave... And after a few second it calm again. This time from a peaceful vacation become a chaotic and pack with people. Some are still in shock, speechless and some crazy group call the incident a very challenging extreme sport. All of them grouping and talking with their own language. I can't understand and communicate with them and I just look around. The weird thing is that without this very big white bus came out from the jungle. Taking all the survivors and the local. I just shock and wondering how come this bus can arrive here if the only transportation using the local boat. So I just watch them enter the bus and then I just woke up from that dream. My chest hurt feel like someone push it and I take a few second wondering what is the message... So I just share here so that all of you can read it... Sorry for the spelling or the grammar. That's all from me... have a nice day Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!

Heart broken and Failure to Control emotion

noreply@blogger.com (Lonelytribe85) — Fri, 12 Oct 2012 08:12:00 +0000

Dear readers... This is my story and based on what I feel, experience and I gain from the incident... That is why I been silent for a long time. One of the factor is that I lack of new information because my mind already being block by my own feeling. I'm too emotional and can't control of it.
Let me see from the beginning... At first I try to convince myself to act cool by making it nothing happened to me. But my feeling always haunted by my own fear. The thing I fear the most in the relationship become the reality... without realizing it happened and I can't do anything but hope for everything will beck on the track again. But the more I do the worst will become. In the end things happened and the end of the story... How stupid I'm that time thinking I'm in the right track and nothing will happened. Because of that, I hurt a lot... I can't think, I can't feel alive and I don't have the point of living because I fell hopeless. The "hopeless" I bring it everyday and becoming zombie. Do as what people told and stop when it done. The next day I do the same routine. There is no point I share it to my friends and Facebook become my place to reveal all my pain... but in the end as I said it before... The more I do the worst it become. So I set my mind don't do anything and let it happened... "Que sera - sera" The drastic action I took to overcome my problem is by turning my self near to our creator, Jesus Christ Our savior. Yes I confess that when I'm in the relationship I always skip praying, neglect all His gospel and not going to the church. I learn a lot from it and I responsible from my action . So I took my first step by going to the church and ask forgiveness from God. At the same time I also looking the prayer book to guide my prayer and Thanks God, that time St. Ann having their parish sale. So I found the prayer book as what I want and keep praying by my self. But Oops... I didn't go for the MASS because I confuse with the time table... Sorry... hehehe Even though I don't expect from the outcome but what I get really realize me that nothing is permanent that the love of God to His disciple. From that day I feel much more relief and Thank God, some of my prayer being answered by Him. That's why I feel regret because I neglect Him when I'm in relationship and also forget asking for blessing... From that day I leave all my sorrow and burden to God to handle it and I just keep praying until I feel much relief. By that time also I feel much lonely. Lonely than being single. How frustrated I become when I had to fight with my own emotion and feeling. Sometime I feel this is the end of my time and I want to rest in peace. But again... Thanks God for hearing my prayer. Who am I today without You accompany me. I feel ashamed for what am I before and proud to me for what am I now knowing You. Being single after many years in relationship makes me also praying to have a new life and also partner... With the prayer I found someone. Someone that can guide me continuing this life and at the same time no more forget to praise to the God. Once Again thank God I found someone that I looking for... But not forgetting I also pray for my X so that she can get her new life, new happiness and new journey. May God Bless Us all... Never thinks twice but always think ahead beyond!