Lover of Sadness Root Description http://www.loverofsadness.net/LOS/images/square_logo.jpg Lover of Sadness http://www.loverofsadness.net/LOS/images/square_logo.jpg Thu, 27 Apr 2017 17:31:52 +0000 Zend_Feed_Writer 1.11.10 (http://framework.zend.com) http://www.loverofsadness.net Quote: Sadness is but a wall between two g... by Khalil Gibran Tags: Sadness, Sad, Truth, Quote, True]]> Thu, 20 Apr 2017 18:25:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Sadness, Sad, Truth, Quote, True]]> Poem: Air by Derek Get left crying in a ball
We all have our worth
Don't keep on judging

We can adapt
We can all a learn

There's just us
We are one another

Team, keep us together
there is no other

Please help before despair
Keep us all using air

Help, we all need some
I know attitude and pride
But please teach, elaborate
We all don't know, some just hide
Tags: Alone, Anger, Abuse, Angry, Apathy, Anguish, Away, Broken, Breakup]]>
Thu, 20 Apr 2017 18:15:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3781 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3781 Get left crying in a ball
We all have our worth
Don't keep on judging

We can adapt
We can all a learn

There's just us
We are one another

Team, keep us together
there is no other

Please help before despair
Keep us all using air

Help, we all need some
I know attitude and pride
But please teach, elaborate
We all don't know, some just hide
Tags: Alone, Anger, Abuse, Angry, Apathy, Anguish, Away, Broken, Breakup]]>
Picture: Crying Alone by LoveHurts sad girl, crying, heartbroken, sad
Tags: Sad Girl, Crying, Heartbroken, Sad]]>
Thu, 20 Apr 2017 15:15:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1807 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1807 sad girl, crying, heartbroken, sad
Tags: Sad Girl, Crying, Heartbroken, Sad]]>
Quote: If things didn't matter to you then... by Anjali tiwari Tags: Cry, Lost, Love]]> Wed, 19 Apr 2017 18:20:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Cry, Lost, Love]]> Poem: Her ghosts by Daneva But he keeps saying that it was just because of sympathy
I know we're happy together
But he was her first, so does she
I know I am his forever
But she will always be a part of his memory
I know Im smarter and prettier, whatever
But why am I afraid of her ghost?

Crawling in the walls of our relationship,
Hiding in the corners, judging me
Crying tears that made me drown,
laughing at us but never did made a sound.
I know, at some point he will forget,
Maybe Made him realize what's fake and what's not
Yes, she will be a part of the history.
But her shadow will always, always hunt me.
Tags: Hurt, Depression, Suicidal, Hate, Sadness]]>
Wed, 19 Apr 2017 18:10:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3780 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3780 But he keeps saying that it was just because of sympathy
I know we're happy together
But he was her first, so does she
I know I am his forever
But she will always be a part of his memory
I know Im smarter and prettier, whatever
But why am I afraid of her ghost?

Crawling in the walls of our relationship,
Hiding in the corners, judging me
Crying tears that made me drown,
laughing at us but never did made a sound.
I know, at some point he will forget,
Maybe Made him realize what's fake and what's not
Yes, she will be a part of the history.
But her shadow will always, always hunt me.
Tags: Hurt, Depression, Suicidal, Hate, Sadness]]>
Story: You will Meet the Right One, One Day.... by Amber In the 7th grade, she looked back into the past and remembered the boy. She was heartbroken. He left her without saying goodbye. She then realized what he meant by," Let's just be friends." She was being rejected. She cried and cried in her lonely dark room, blameing him for the pain she went through.

8th grade came. Half way through the year, a new student came in. Them two became friends, but then she started falling for him. She could feel the pain he was going through after he broke up with his last gf. The thing was, that her best friend loved him too. The girl decided to confess. That night, she had deeper scars in her heart. Her friend rejected her. That boy comforted her and told her that she could share her pain with him whenever she needed her. This all happened a week before her birthday. She wanted to talk to her friend but he kept saying that he was busy.
After the week of her birthday, her friend confessed but was also rejected. That boy was the worse thing that happened to the girl after all the things that she went through. She promised to never fall in love again or be in a relationship. She kept all her pain inside and only showed her cheerful side.

December 2016, her friend from church bought a phone. The girl and her friend talked everyday and grew close. She started to have feelings for him. She rejected her feelings saying it was impossible. She went on a trip with her 3 girl friends and told them about her problem. Her friends told her," He likes you too." She rejected the idea that her friend liked her.

January 2017, she texted her friend( now her bff). She called him Oppa (korean name for an older guy or boyfriend). He questioned her what Oppa meant. She told him. He asked which he was considered. She wanted to play around and said boyfriend. That night, he asked her to be his girlfriend. She stood in shock and broke the promise.

March 2017, the girl was happy and so was her boyfriend. They grew closer and told each other about their past and worries. The two were in a secret long distance relationship. Only a few knew they were together. But they were happy
Tags: Pain, Boyfriend, Girlfriend, Relationship, Hurt, Rejecttion, Bestfriend, Blame, Lonely, Loneliness, Crying, Cry]]>
Wed, 19 Apr 2017 14:45:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3285 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3285 In the 7th grade, she looked back into the past and remembered the boy. She was heartbroken. He left her without saying goodbye. She then realized what he meant by," Let's just be friends." She was being rejected. She cried and cried in her lonely dark room, blameing him for the pain she went through.

8th grade came. Half way through the year, a new student came in. Them two became friends, but then she started falling for him. She could feel the pain he was going through after he broke up with his last gf. The thing was, that her best friend loved him too. The girl decided to confess. That night, she had deeper scars in her heart. Her friend rejected her. That boy comforted her and told her that she could share her pain with him whenever she needed her. This all happened a week before her birthday. She wanted to talk to her friend but he kept saying that he was busy.
After the week of her birthday, her friend confessed but was also rejected. That boy was the worse thing that happened to the girl after all the things that she went through. She promised to never fall in love again or be in a relationship. She kept all her pain inside and only showed her cheerful side.

December 2016, her friend from church bought a phone. The girl and her friend talked everyday and grew close. She started to have feelings for him. She rejected her feelings saying it was impossible. She went on a trip with her 3 girl friends and told them about her problem. Her friends told her," He likes you too." She rejected the idea that her friend liked her.

January 2017, she texted her friend( now her bff). She called him Oppa (korean name for an older guy or boyfriend). He questioned her what Oppa meant. She told him. He asked which he was considered. She wanted to play around and said boyfriend. That night, he asked her to be his girlfriend. She stood in shock and broke the promise.

March 2017, the girl was happy and so was her boyfriend. They grew closer and told each other about their past and worries. The two were in a secret long distance relationship. Only a few knew they were together. But they were happy
Tags: Pain, Boyfriend, Girlfriend, Relationship, Hurt, Rejecttion, Bestfriend, Blame, Lonely, Loneliness, Crying, Cry]]>
Picture: In My Dreams, You'll Forever Be by jerry harrenstein memories, missing you
Tags: Memories, Missing You]]>
Wed, 19 Apr 2017 03:15:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1822 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1822 memories, missing you
Tags: Memories, Missing You]]>
Quote: "The person we love is the person w... by Asrr Tags: Fact, Sad, Heartbroken]]> Tue, 18 Apr 2017 18:15:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Fact, Sad, Heartbroken]]> Poem: My Only Heaven by Micha-chu! Im sorry, i love you as such.
Did i hurt you?
Im sorry but i hurt me too.

What have gone wrong
I cant even explain with a sad song.
I cant be selfish of u i know
Wishing your heart i could borrow.

Maybe i just knew you to pass on by
And leave me with a million "whys"
We're broken and all i can do is cry
Listening to your voice so i can sleep in ur lullaby.

I will miss your eyes that became my sunrise
I will miss your smiles, how u talk so wise.
It cuts as deep as hell we're broken
Knowing i lost my only heaven.
Tags: Love, Breakup, Goodbye]]>
Tue, 18 Apr 2017 18:05:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3778 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3778 Im sorry, i love you as such.
Did i hurt you?
Im sorry but i hurt me too.

What have gone wrong
I cant even explain with a sad song.
I cant be selfish of u i know
Wishing your heart i could borrow.

Maybe i just knew you to pass on by
And leave me with a million "whys"
We're broken and all i can do is cry
Listening to your voice so i can sleep in ur lullaby.

I will miss your eyes that became my sunrise
I will miss your smiles, how u talk so wise.
It cuts as deep as hell we're broken
Knowing i lost my only heaven.
Tags: Love, Breakup, Goodbye]]>
Story: Empty by Leo Hariyuda
Its been 3 yers ,but im wondering ,she never introduce me to her family, i keep it calm until she started to act weird, she startt to not cantact me,no phone and no text, when i text first its take hour to get a short 1 letter reply..

So i start the cobversation by asking "why" than that thunder explode in my ear,she said that since last year she allready think that she doesnt sure about her feeling,she doesnt sure if she love me or not,she started to keeping distance,,she keep away and get along with her friend without care about me,yes she is not that cating person ,but day by day rolll her gesture said a sign of "go away"

I mean that after 3 perfect year in my mind turn out that i found that the person who i cares the most in my life is playing fake love with me,she than told me with a lough that she wants to be alone,she wants me out of her life,out of her way

I felt empty,i dont know what that im do wrong,i never cheat,never refused her will, always said good night and good bye on each of my activity,and she just throw that almost a thousand days togheter on a thrash

And now when i closed my eyes her smile,her sleep innocent face,her silly gesture is raining inside my head,theres a hole on my chest asking what i done wrong that she leave me just like that...

Now ,jealous from labrinth are became my favourite song!!!!jealous of the wind that can close to her,closer that her shadow,jealous of the way ,she happy without me,,please gave me a strenght as much as her can get to smile without me!!!...but also i wish she can get the best of all this world could give

Bye : NONG!!
Tags: Lonely, Lost]]>
Tue, 18 Apr 2017 14:40:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3283 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3283
Its been 3 yers ,but im wondering ,she never introduce me to her family, i keep it calm until she started to act weird, she startt to not cantact me,no phone and no text, when i text first its take hour to get a short 1 letter reply..

So i start the cobversation by asking "why" than that thunder explode in my ear,she said that since last year she allready think that she doesnt sure about her feeling,she doesnt sure if she love me or not,she started to keeping distance,,she keep away and get along with her friend without care about me,yes she is not that cating person ,but day by day rolll her gesture said a sign of "go away"

I mean that after 3 perfect year in my mind turn out that i found that the person who i cares the most in my life is playing fake love with me,she than told me with a lough that she wants to be alone,she wants me out of her life,out of her way

I felt empty,i dont know what that im do wrong,i never cheat,never refused her will, always said good night and good bye on each of my activity,and she just throw that almost a thousand days togheter on a thrash

And now when i closed my eyes her smile,her sleep innocent face,her silly gesture is raining inside my head,theres a hole on my chest asking what i done wrong that she leave me just like that...

Now ,jealous from labrinth are became my favourite song!!!!jealous of the wind that can close to her,closer that her shadow,jealous of the way ,she happy without me,,please gave me a strenght as much as her can get to smile without me!!!...but also i wish she can get the best of all this world could give

Bye : NONG!!
Tags: Lonely, Lost]]>
Quote: The only thing separating me from w... by 2233564242 Tags: Society]]> Mon, 17 Apr 2017 18:10:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Society]]> Poem: Heartbreak by Fernando. A. Martinez. Slowly girting my teeth as I let escape a sharp groan

No longer do I desire to fight off this pain
Smiling as I throw myself out the pane

Doing my best to get my frame threw the frame
What was I thinking, this isn’t a game?

Ice cold air runs against my chest
I lost it all, after giving my best

It’s been three seconds, I got around twenty left
Sealing my own right to life, just call it theft

She broke my heart, to shattered to mend,
Please forgive me, I’ve met my end,
Tags: Love, Hurt]]>
Mon, 17 Apr 2017 18:00:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3777 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3777 Slowly girting my teeth as I let escape a sharp groan

No longer do I desire to fight off this pain
Smiling as I throw myself out the pane

Doing my best to get my frame threw the frame
What was I thinking, this isn’t a game?

Ice cold air runs against my chest
I lost it all, after giving my best

It’s been three seconds, I got around twenty left
Sealing my own right to life, just call it theft

She broke my heart, to shattered to mend,
Please forgive me, I’ve met my end,
Tags: Love, Hurt]]>
Picture: Alone by LoveHurts Sad, Alone, Why, Crying
Tags: Sad, Alone, Why, Crying]]>
Mon, 17 Apr 2017 15:10:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1806 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1806 Sad, Alone, Why, Crying
Tags: Sad, Alone, Why, Crying]]>
Story: Marianna Fleur Narton by Julia He sat next to my bed with a large smile, I looked away and saw a bright light on the ceiling. My eyes still cloudy, everything seemed blurry, eventually after a couple minutes of staring at the bright light. The doctor leaned over me, in his turquoise scrubs. He propped me up with the many pillows and covered me with another blanket. He turned my face slightly to face him.
“Talk to me...,m-m-m-aaa-rrr-i, your name?” he asked with a smile.
“Marianna Fleur Norton,” I mumbled back, forcing my eyes to stare into his.
“How are you feeling?” he asked, “My name is Doctor Grios.”
“Hi,” I mumbled again, “I am feeling a little dizzy, and nauseous though.”
“Excellent,” Dr. Grios said a little less friendly.
I gave him a smile, the most genuine one I could manage.
“What happened to me?” I asked with a sad smile.

“You passed out in a you went out with your family. Your dad said you were nauseous and tired, so he took you outside to make sure you were doing well. You have a nasty bruise on your face and your forehead looks is getting better. You’ve been in a coma for two weeks, sweetheart. Your mom and dad was grief stricken, but I want to know, do you remember anything from that night? When you reached the hospital last night, a police officer noticed that your cheek didn’t look like you had hit on the sidewalk. It looks and appears to be that you were slapped, or hit with force that may have caused you into a coma,” he said, “In fact I have the police officer available for you, he’s in the other room with your father who’s speaking about what happened. You were with your dad, which could be the possible chance of him hitting you. Now, tell me, what happened that night.”

I stared at him, and tried to remember, all I could see was the beautiful flowers and the voice “hello beautiful.” The red lights and my dad all blurry, my mom was crying in Forest’s shoulder, and suddenly all the pictures came together. All of the pieces floated together, my dad yelling, his hand slapping me in the face. In anger, he yelled, because his other daughter mentioned about my cutting. So well for that Dad, but why would I want my dad in jail for slapping me. Skylar and Syrus would most likely hate me, just because I sent their favorite parent away. I did know however, Syrus liked Mom, every child in the family preferred Mom. Everyone loved Ben and his son, Filip. Ben and Filip were on a plane now to visit his fiancé who he could not be far from. Ben was out, he probably did not hear about the accident as Doctor Grios referred to it as. This was no accident, it a purposeful slap to my face. I reached a hand up and felt my long blond hair. My blue eyes one again piercing the light.
“I remember getting slapped by my father,” I said with a stern cold voice.
“Is that so?” Doctor Grios said with creased brow.

“Yes, I remember, that very night he was yelling at me, because my sister Skylar told my mom, I was cutting again. He was angry I suppose, because my mom knows I hate him, and she did not know what went down that afternoon. He told me I was not supposed to live anymore, after I numerously told him. I just wanted help, maybe he would accept that, because he always reminded me that I was stupid and not smart,” I replied with a serious voice.

Dr. Grios drew in his breath, and breathed out loudly. He placed his gloved hand up to his forehead and rubbed it a bit. He straightened his scrubs and waved slightly, as a goodbye and shut the door behind him.

The morning sun crept into the room, it was sunlit, quite beautiful, the rays of sun bouncing off the walls, alike my room at home. My phone lay on the table next to my hospital bed. I reached over to it, and when I got a good view of the table, my eyes cleared more, and I could see mounds of flowers, candy, and get well cards from my friends and family. My aunt was home, Aunt Bella and her husband, Nathan. My cousins, Sylia, Nely, and Phobe, were over too, I could their handwriting on one of the flower bunch and a candy box. I smiled sadly, how said would they be when they figured out that their cousin cut and was suicidal? I knew Aunt Bella married Uncle Nathan at twenty nine. However, she and Uncle Nathan had Sylia and Nely before the marriage. Phobe was born a year after the wedding exactly. This meant that Sylia and Nely were fourteen, thank goodness, they must have grown, while little Phobe was eleven. I drew my phone to my face and looked at the many notifications and messages from concerned friends and family members. The door opened and I smiled, thinking it was Dr. Grios. It was not, however, it was a police officer. His hair was short and his hat was being held with his left hand. He was a skinny police officer, quite young, perhaps twenty six. He smiled friendly at me and when he sat in the chair Dr. Grios sat in, he shook my hand.

“Hello, Marianna Fleur Narton, my name is Officer Ryan,” he said, his voice really deep, “I am here to inquire about your father, now Doctor Grios explained to me that your dad slapped you across the face, you’re suicidal and depressed, which means therapy, but also your dad told you he didn’t care if you passed along, no one cared if you died, is that correct?”

“Yes sir, I swear on my life that all of things you said were true,” I replied with a straight voice.
“Explain what happened that night, Marianna, I can probably have an idea to write in your father’s police file, currently he and your mother and family, are in the waiting room, after you explain to me about the night, you are free to see them. Though, the nurses and doctors want you to stay to talk to a psychologist, is that clear?”

“Yes,” I replied with a stern glance, I breathed heavily and continued, “So I believe it was Wednesday, about two weeks ago, almost three by now, I was telling my dad I didn’t want to live. My dad knows my mother and I have a very strong connection, almost sisterly, but he dislikes that. He wants me happy in front of my mother, he loves her or in my opinion, he’s using her. I went upstairs sadly, because he sent me up saying ‘no once cares’ and it hit hard. I had to get dressed for the dinner time, I believe my brother Sergio, heard all of it, because he helped me. Skylar and Syrus, the twins, also my siblings, rolled their eyes at me, because they always thought I was an attention whore. But truthfully, my dad was just so awful, when I was done with dressing, my brother came over, and talked to me. It made me smile, usually I talk to my sister Forest, but she was not home. So, when my mother came home with Forest, we went out. I wore a long sleeve black dress, because I did not want Mom to see my cuts I had created. Finally Skylar said something about it, which set my dad off. He pretended to be the good dad, by taking me outside to talk to me, but instead he shouted at me and then slapped my face. He had always hit me, when I was three, he slapped me, and as I grew, he hit me more and more. I was a disappointment to him. The pain was awful, and my dad called the ambulance because I felt myself passing out. That afternoon I remembered having a dream, of me dying underwater near the pond. It was quite a good dream-”

“I apologize Marianna,” he said with his brow creased, “I’m going to have your mother come in along with what was his name...tut.tut, Sergio in, I took some vital details, I’m going to have your mother read the notes, and Sergio will prove your story, alright kiddo?”
“Sounds excellent,” I said with a sad voice. I knew my mother was going to be disappointed and my family was going to wonder why Sergio and Mom just went in, not them. Officer Ryan left the room, and in came a man dressed in a suit, he a friendly smile, almost like my grandfather. He smiled at me and sat down in the chair Officer Ryan and Dr. Grios sat in.
“Hello sweetheart, I am Investigator Kian,” he said with a smile. He shook my hand with a tight grip.
“Nice to meet you,” I said with a stiff smile.

“I’m just going to be sitting here till Ryan comes back in with your mother and Sergio. However, I read the notes he wrote, he gave me a “copy” and I’m sorry about your father abusing you. Why didn’t you tell anyone sweetheart?” he asked with a sad smile.
“I was scared really, I didn’t want to break up the family, just because I fucked up badly,” I responded, my glance piercing the light once again above me.

He scratched his chin and peered down at me, his eyes a bright green, almost like a fantasy character. I looked away and he now stared at my back. My face shoved into the pillow, I could feel the tears in my eyes, I had fucked up bad, I told the truth and now I was going to ruin the family my mom had worked so hard for. I remember her happiness when Sergio was born, she called him “her last son who would complete the family.”

“Um, please don’t tell my family, can we just forget all of this?” I asked with a smile.
He let out a fake laugh, “Forget about this? Marianna you were abused, you’re suicidal, you’re depressed, and you can’t let that get to you. You need help little girl, you’re beautiful and a nice girl, but you need help, when you came to the hospital, the doctors examined your arms-”

“I know, I cut, but that does not matter here,” I cut him off with a stern voice.
His green eyes harshened instantly, as if being interrupted was the worse thing that happened, “Alright, sweetheart, well then, I am going to call your family in now.”
“Thanks,” I replied coldly.

Investigator Kian opened the door to my room, I could see his smile rip off his face. The door shut with a loud bang, and I shuddered. Moments later my mother was running in the room her makeup smeared with tears. My brother Sergio jumped on the bed and hugged me. Officer Ryan grasped Sergio’s hand and yanked him off the bed.

“Little boy, your sister is being treated, so please don’t touch her,” he said stiffly.
Investigator Kian shook Mom’s hand, and she smiled tightly, as if being polite was the least important right now.
“Hello Ms. Narton, your daughter Marianna Fleur Narton…,” Officer Ryan said, but when Investigator Kian shook his head he stopped.
The doctor, Dr. Grios joined into the room, his hand full of stacks of paper. A nurse was at his side, and together they helped me into a wheelchair. I grasped for my phone, but Dr. Grios glanced at Mom.

“Marianna, please don’t take your phone with you,” she said with clenched teeth.
The nurse pushed the chair away and I watched as my mother and brother, Sergio, sat down on my hospital bed, and the police and investigator sat down. I could feel my head spinning and I looked at the light above. Perhaps it would brighten my death, soon hopefully, at least I wanted to die, and people would not worry.

“Marianna Fleur,” Dr. Grios said with a smile, “We’re going to take you to a room where you will be with other children in the same situation. However, before that you will be sent to a room where you answer questions, is that alright?”
“Yes, Dr. Grios, that’s fine,” I said with a tight smile.

He returned my smile and then whispered to the nurse who was pushing my wheelchair. She nodded and we swiftly left the doctor and we went down the hall into a small room. There was a pencil on the white table and paper. Everything seems so blank.
“Alright pretty girl, you’re gonna take this test, and when you’re done, press this button,” the nurse said, pointing to a green button.
“Alright,” I replied.

“Anyway, I’m Nurse Prei, you can call me Ulani, because that’s my first name, perhaps we can be friends?” she asked with a smile.
I turned to face Nurse Prei and smiled, she was a young nurse, perhaps in her late twenties. A large diamond ring on her left hand, and carmel colored skin. Her eyes were a bright green, and she wore pale blue scrubs.
“Of course,” I whispered.

She pushed my hospital chair to the paper and pen, and she then sat down outside of the room, her foot tapping to a strange beat. I peered down at the questions, about thirty of them, all listed in black ink, while the answers were italicized. I grimaced and began answering the questions, most of them about depression and suicide, but I was going to be completely honest, or should I? Should I break my family, just because I was suicidal? Or should I laugh and cry over my honesty? I might as well be honest, Momma would be proud hopefully. I began circling the answers, each question a blur almost. I whipped out thirty questions in ten minutes. I pushed the green button and Nurse Prei walked in with a smile. She took my test and we went down the hall back to my hospital bed. She knocked, and when the door opened, I saw Officer Ryan sitting down writing on a bunch of papers. Investigator Kian was speaking to Dr. Grios about my head injuries and bruising. Nurse Prei helped me into my hospital bed, my head once again was spinning. I clutched my forehead, pain seared through, I whirled my head around, I thought of every smile I had smiled, but that did not help either. I could hear sounds, like ghosts coming to kill me, I screamed, a horrible scream. Nurse Prei walked toward me her eyes filled with concern. Officer Ryan swirled around and instantly started yelling for doctors. Dr. Grios grabbed my arm and pushed needles into it, he tried to contain me but I slapped him in the face. He stumbled backward, if that is what I remember. Officer Ryan grabbed my arms, his police skills keeping me down. Nurse Prei grabbed Sergio and my mother’s arm. She was crying or I really did not care. Everything was a blur, I screamed and screamed, I could feel Officer Ryan’s nails dig into my cuts, the blood thickening pouring down my arms. I cried so hard, my tears running down hitting the officer’s hands and my cuts. They stung greatly and I could feel the pain, finally it released, it floating in the air. I laughed and smiled, my eyes bright and shiny, my blond hair glowing, everywhere was turning black. I was laughing my death. What a great way to die. Suddenly, everything became black.

*This excerpt is from "My Pond" by Julia, which is not yet published, it's from my book, but is based on true events. NAMES ARE ALSO MADE UP"
Tags: Suicide, Depression, Love, Family, Broken]]>
Mon, 17 Apr 2017 14:35:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3282 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3282 He sat next to my bed with a large smile, I looked away and saw a bright light on the ceiling. My eyes still cloudy, everything seemed blurry, eventually after a couple minutes of staring at the bright light. The doctor leaned over me, in his turquoise scrubs. He propped me up with the many pillows and covered me with another blanket. He turned my face slightly to face him.
“Talk to me...,m-m-m-aaa-rrr-i, your name?” he asked with a smile.
“Marianna Fleur Norton,” I mumbled back, forcing my eyes to stare into his.
“How are you feeling?” he asked, “My name is Doctor Grios.”
“Hi,” I mumbled again, “I am feeling a little dizzy, and nauseous though.”
“Excellent,” Dr. Grios said a little less friendly.
I gave him a smile, the most genuine one I could manage.
“What happened to me?” I asked with a sad smile.

“You passed out in a you went out with your family. Your dad said you were nauseous and tired, so he took you outside to make sure you were doing well. You have a nasty bruise on your face and your forehead looks is getting better. You’ve been in a coma for two weeks, sweetheart. Your mom and dad was grief stricken, but I want to know, do you remember anything from that night? When you reached the hospital last night, a police officer noticed that your cheek didn’t look like you had hit on the sidewalk. It looks and appears to be that you were slapped, or hit with force that may have caused you into a coma,” he said, “In fact I have the police officer available for you, he’s in the other room with your father who’s speaking about what happened. You were with your dad, which could be the possible chance of him hitting you. Now, tell me, what happened that night.”

I stared at him, and tried to remember, all I could see was the beautiful flowers and the voice “hello beautiful.” The red lights and my dad all blurry, my mom was crying in Forest’s shoulder, and suddenly all the pictures came together. All of the pieces floated together, my dad yelling, his hand slapping me in the face. In anger, he yelled, because his other daughter mentioned about my cutting. So well for that Dad, but why would I want my dad in jail for slapping me. Skylar and Syrus would most likely hate me, just because I sent their favorite parent away. I did know however, Syrus liked Mom, every child in the family preferred Mom. Everyone loved Ben and his son, Filip. Ben and Filip were on a plane now to visit his fiancé who he could not be far from. Ben was out, he probably did not hear about the accident as Doctor Grios referred to it as. This was no accident, it a purposeful slap to my face. I reached a hand up and felt my long blond hair. My blue eyes one again piercing the light.
“I remember getting slapped by my father,” I said with a stern cold voice.
“Is that so?” Doctor Grios said with creased brow.

“Yes, I remember, that very night he was yelling at me, because my sister Skylar told my mom, I was cutting again. He was angry I suppose, because my mom knows I hate him, and she did not know what went down that afternoon. He told me I was not supposed to live anymore, after I numerously told him. I just wanted help, maybe he would accept that, because he always reminded me that I was stupid and not smart,” I replied with a serious voice.

Dr. Grios drew in his breath, and breathed out loudly. He placed his gloved hand up to his forehead and rubbed it a bit. He straightened his scrubs and waved slightly, as a goodbye and shut the door behind him.

The morning sun crept into the room, it was sunlit, quite beautiful, the rays of sun bouncing off the walls, alike my room at home. My phone lay on the table next to my hospital bed. I reached over to it, and when I got a good view of the table, my eyes cleared more, and I could see mounds of flowers, candy, and get well cards from my friends and family. My aunt was home, Aunt Bella and her husband, Nathan. My cousins, Sylia, Nely, and Phobe, were over too, I could their handwriting on one of the flower bunch and a candy box. I smiled sadly, how said would they be when they figured out that their cousin cut and was suicidal? I knew Aunt Bella married Uncle Nathan at twenty nine. However, she and Uncle Nathan had Sylia and Nely before the marriage. Phobe was born a year after the wedding exactly. This meant that Sylia and Nely were fourteen, thank goodness, they must have grown, while little Phobe was eleven. I drew my phone to my face and looked at the many notifications and messages from concerned friends and family members. The door opened and I smiled, thinking it was Dr. Grios. It was not, however, it was a police officer. His hair was short and his hat was being held with his left hand. He was a skinny police officer, quite young, perhaps twenty six. He smiled friendly at me and when he sat in the chair Dr. Grios sat in, he shook my hand.

“Hello, Marianna Fleur Narton, my name is Officer Ryan,” he said, his voice really deep, “I am here to inquire about your father, now Doctor Grios explained to me that your dad slapped you across the face, you’re suicidal and depressed, which means therapy, but also your dad told you he didn’t care if you passed along, no one cared if you died, is that correct?”

“Yes sir, I swear on my life that all of things you said were true,” I replied with a straight voice.
“Explain what happened that night, Marianna, I can probably have an idea to write in your father’s police file, currently he and your mother and family, are in the waiting room, after you explain to me about the night, you are free to see them. Though, the nurses and doctors want you to stay to talk to a psychologist, is that clear?”

“Yes,” I replied with a stern glance, I breathed heavily and continued, “So I believe it was Wednesday, about two weeks ago, almost three by now, I was telling my dad I didn’t want to live. My dad knows my mother and I have a very strong connection, almost sisterly, but he dislikes that. He wants me happy in front of my mother, he loves her or in my opinion, he’s using her. I went upstairs sadly, because he sent me up saying ‘no once cares’ and it hit hard. I had to get dressed for the dinner time, I believe my brother Sergio, heard all of it, because he helped me. Skylar and Syrus, the twins, also my siblings, rolled their eyes at me, because they always thought I was an attention whore. But truthfully, my dad was just so awful, when I was done with dressing, my brother came over, and talked to me. It made me smile, usually I talk to my sister Forest, but she was not home. So, when my mother came home with Forest, we went out. I wore a long sleeve black dress, because I did not want Mom to see my cuts I had created. Finally Skylar said something about it, which set my dad off. He pretended to be the good dad, by taking me outside to talk to me, but instead he shouted at me and then slapped my face. He had always hit me, when I was three, he slapped me, and as I grew, he hit me more and more. I was a disappointment to him. The pain was awful, and my dad called the ambulance because I felt myself passing out. That afternoon I remembered having a dream, of me dying underwater near the pond. It was quite a good dream-”

“I apologize Marianna,” he said with his brow creased, “I’m going to have your mother come in along with what was his name...tut.tut, Sergio in, I took some vital details, I’m going to have your mother read the notes, and Sergio will prove your story, alright kiddo?”
“Sounds excellent,” I said with a sad voice. I knew my mother was going to be disappointed and my family was going to wonder why Sergio and Mom just went in, not them. Officer Ryan left the room, and in came a man dressed in a suit, he a friendly smile, almost like my grandfather. He smiled at me and sat down in the chair Officer Ryan and Dr. Grios sat in.
“Hello sweetheart, I am Investigator Kian,” he said with a smile. He shook my hand with a tight grip.
“Nice to meet you,” I said with a stiff smile.

“I’m just going to be sitting here till Ryan comes back in with your mother and Sergio. However, I read the notes he wrote, he gave me a “copy” and I’m sorry about your father abusing you. Why didn’t you tell anyone sweetheart?” he asked with a sad smile.
“I was scared really, I didn’t want to break up the family, just because I fucked up badly,” I responded, my glance piercing the light once again above me.

He scratched his chin and peered down at me, his eyes a bright green, almost like a fantasy character. I looked away and he now stared at my back. My face shoved into the pillow, I could feel the tears in my eyes, I had fucked up bad, I told the truth and now I was going to ruin the family my mom had worked so hard for. I remember her happiness when Sergio was born, she called him “her last son who would complete the family.”

“Um, please don’t tell my family, can we just forget all of this?” I asked with a smile.
He let out a fake laugh, “Forget about this? Marianna you were abused, you’re suicidal, you’re depressed, and you can’t let that get to you. You need help little girl, you’re beautiful and a nice girl, but you need help, when you came to the hospital, the doctors examined your arms-”

“I know, I cut, but that does not matter here,” I cut him off with a stern voice.
His green eyes harshened instantly, as if being interrupted was the worse thing that happened, “Alright, sweetheart, well then, I am going to call your family in now.”
“Thanks,” I replied coldly.

Investigator Kian opened the door to my room, I could see his smile rip off his face. The door shut with a loud bang, and I shuddered. Moments later my mother was running in the room her makeup smeared with tears. My brother Sergio jumped on the bed and hugged me. Officer Ryan grasped Sergio’s hand and yanked him off the bed.

“Little boy, your sister is being treated, so please don’t touch her,” he said stiffly.
Investigator Kian shook Mom’s hand, and she smiled tightly, as if being polite was the least important right now.
“Hello Ms. Narton, your daughter Marianna Fleur Narton…,” Officer Ryan said, but when Investigator Kian shook his head he stopped.
The doctor, Dr. Grios joined into the room, his hand full of stacks of paper. A nurse was at his side, and together they helped me into a wheelchair. I grasped for my phone, but Dr. Grios glanced at Mom.

“Marianna, please don’t take your phone with you,” she said with clenched teeth.
The nurse pushed the chair away and I watched as my mother and brother, Sergio, sat down on my hospital bed, and the police and investigator sat down. I could feel my head spinning and I looked at the light above. Perhaps it would brighten my death, soon hopefully, at least I wanted to die, and people would not worry.

“Marianna Fleur,” Dr. Grios said with a smile, “We’re going to take you to a room where you will be with other children in the same situation. However, before that you will be sent to a room where you answer questions, is that alright?”
“Yes, Dr. Grios, that’s fine,” I said with a tight smile.

He returned my smile and then whispered to the nurse who was pushing my wheelchair. She nodded and we swiftly left the doctor and we went down the hall into a small room. There was a pencil on the white table and paper. Everything seems so blank.
“Alright pretty girl, you’re gonna take this test, and when you’re done, press this button,” the nurse said, pointing to a green button.
“Alright,” I replied.

“Anyway, I’m Nurse Prei, you can call me Ulani, because that’s my first name, perhaps we can be friends?” she asked with a smile.
I turned to face Nurse Prei and smiled, she was a young nurse, perhaps in her late twenties. A large diamond ring on her left hand, and carmel colored skin. Her eyes were a bright green, and she wore pale blue scrubs.
“Of course,” I whispered.

She pushed my hospital chair to the paper and pen, and she then sat down outside of the room, her foot tapping to a strange beat. I peered down at the questions, about thirty of them, all listed in black ink, while the answers were italicized. I grimaced and began answering the questions, most of them about depression and suicide, but I was going to be completely honest, or should I? Should I break my family, just because I was suicidal? Or should I laugh and cry over my honesty? I might as well be honest, Momma would be proud hopefully. I began circling the answers, each question a blur almost. I whipped out thirty questions in ten minutes. I pushed the green button and Nurse Prei walked in with a smile. She took my test and we went down the hall back to my hospital bed. She knocked, and when the door opened, I saw Officer Ryan sitting down writing on a bunch of papers. Investigator Kian was speaking to Dr. Grios about my head injuries and bruising. Nurse Prei helped me into my hospital bed, my head once again was spinning. I clutched my forehead, pain seared through, I whirled my head around, I thought of every smile I had smiled, but that did not help either. I could hear sounds, like ghosts coming to kill me, I screamed, a horrible scream. Nurse Prei walked toward me her eyes filled with concern. Officer Ryan swirled around and instantly started yelling for doctors. Dr. Grios grabbed my arm and pushed needles into it, he tried to contain me but I slapped him in the face. He stumbled backward, if that is what I remember. Officer Ryan grabbed my arms, his police skills keeping me down. Nurse Prei grabbed Sergio and my mother’s arm. She was crying or I really did not care. Everything was a blur, I screamed and screamed, I could feel Officer Ryan’s nails dig into my cuts, the blood thickening pouring down my arms. I cried so hard, my tears running down hitting the officer’s hands and my cuts. They stung greatly and I could feel the pain, finally it released, it floating in the air. I laughed and smiled, my eyes bright and shiny, my blond hair glowing, everywhere was turning black. I was laughing my death. What a great way to die. Suddenly, everything became black.

*This excerpt is from "My Pond" by Julia, which is not yet published, it's from my book, but is based on true events. NAMES ARE ALSO MADE UP"
Tags: Suicide, Depression, Love, Family, Broken]]>
Quote: Without you my days are Sadday, Mo... by unkown Sadday, Moanday,
Tearsday,
wasteday,
thirstday,
fightday, and
Shatterday
Tags: #withoutu #missu #hurt #depressed]]>
Sun, 16 Apr 2017 18:05:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Sadday, Moanday,
Tearsday,
wasteday,
thirstday,
fightday, and
Shatterday
Tags: #withoutu #missu #hurt #depressed]]>
Poem: Depressed by Fernando. A. Martinez. Why? So overdressed,
Attention is all you seek,
I’m so tired of herring you weep,
If your going to cut, at least go deep,

Sleep,
See that cliff? Go take a leap,
Before, I lay your corps in that creek,
Just fade into a dark dream,
Shut up, don’t you dare scream

Stream,
Such a bloodied mess, you can’t redeem,
I’m tired of the same old shriek,
Your almost dead, just grab the gun,
Times now dry, you had your run,
Tags: Hate, Love]]>
Sun, 16 Apr 2017 17:55:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3776 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3776 Why? So overdressed,
Attention is all you seek,
I’m so tired of herring you weep,
If your going to cut, at least go deep,

Sleep,
See that cliff? Go take a leap,
Before, I lay your corps in that creek,
Just fade into a dark dream,
Shut up, don’t you dare scream

Stream,
Such a bloodied mess, you can’t redeem,
I’m tired of the same old shriek,
Your almost dead, just grab the gun,
Times now dry, you had your run,
Tags: Hate, Love]]>
Story: The life I had by lmao
Part 1. Who I am!
I'm the kid everyone knows. My name is Lyric, I'm a guy, I've done modeling gigs and a lot of girls say I'm attractive. I am NOT narcissistic. I just want to make that clear because a lot of (not to be rude) not very good looking people whine about not getting a girl / guy but it's obvious why. Sorry to be rude. Anyway - literally every kid at my school knows me. The kid who is always fighting. The kid who is always making people laugh. The kid who is always being nice and caring for girls and stands up to people. Oh yeah. And the kid who killed someone. There's that as well. It was a hobo trying to mug me and my friends. Anyway - I'm that dude that some guys are jealous of and girls hate because I have such a great life.

Part 2. Not the life you think
So I have a shit ton of problems. Who doesn't though. I was abused as a kid and still sometimes am but that's ok because I'm not really phased by it. My mom likes to sexually harass me with neck kisses, forcing me to make out, hand on my thigh, and sitting on me - then threatening me with something if I do anything or run away. And yeah I have tried running. My "friend" ratted me out to the police. (side note; I'm 15) My bio dad left but decided to come back when my mom threatened to get child services and that good stuff. He called me at like 2 in the morning to tell me I was an accident and gave me a lesson to always wear a condom or I may have a mistake like he did. That felt pretty great. Love you too. My step dad hits me sometimes with hangars and I think he gets off to it a little bit. Disturbing.

Part 3. Unfortunate stuff
I'm not trying to make this super long but I felt you should know a little about my personal self before telling you what happened. So here it is :)

I was looking for a rebound girl (a real relationship, not just someone to keep my mind off her) after my girlfriend moved and started ignoring me and stuff. So I found one. Perfect! She genuinely seemed to care. I didn't care that much she wasn't the prettiest because her personality did make up for it by 100 fold. Besides she appreciated my expansive vocabulary and made me feel empowered so I did it right back. Everyday for about two weeks we were talking and we decided to make out after school one day. It was like a dream come true. Then I go to the breakfast table and see her holding hands with my supposed "best" friend. I ask around about stuff and turns out they made out on the fucking bus together. Pretty awesome to know that you tried so fucking hard for the one girl that got you over feeling like a piece of shit, made you feel even worse. Oh wait here's the better part - they meet two god damn days before. So yeah that fucked me up pretty bad. She pretended she did nothing wrong. I told her I forgive her bc I love her too much for something like that to get in the way. Then after school I wanted to knock the fuck out of the dude she was with. She forced him to kiss her. He backed off bc he saw me and were friends. But her face when she saw me was pretty priceless. But all she did was see a tear run down my cheek and me go inside to punch a hole in the wall of the school. Anyway, three days pass, I ignore her because I know if she says one wrong thing I'll go off on her and she doesn't deserve it. Then I started to not care about it and we started talking again. Then some rude ass dude came up to me and made fun of me bc she chose two other dudes over me. So I grabbed him by the throat, and pounded on his diaphragm. Pretty good feeling. So I got over what happened and we talked again for like half a month and we made out again and then she fucking pretends she doesnt even know me at church. She didn't say hi, didn't give me a hug, and barely even looked at me. And this was hours after we made out. And yeah I get it. It's not sex and I'm only 15 so I don't understand true sadness or whatever. So as church got out I see her talking to another dude and I come up and give her a hug and kinda kiss her neck, then she pushes me away and the dude like really pushes me and I hit the wall. Ok that's cool. So she ignores me for the next couple days and whatever. She says she doesnt like me like that anymore. after all that she said and lied about. pretty great isnt it? I decided that no one gives a shit anyway so I got the bottle of hydrocodone and gulped two down with some vodka. Well I wasn't thinking very clear bc that fucked me up and I passed out. I woke up and remembered everything that happened. Went to school. Saw her cuddled up with ANOTHER new guy. decided to take my anger out on a teacher bc when she asked me to move i asked for her to shut her mouth. She said "Im going to call the office right now if you don't move up here by me" and I moved up there, pushed her to the side, dialed for the office, flipped the teacher off, broke her computer screen, and told the office fuck you. They got me and I told them to keep their hands off me, then said "I have a gun in there, watch out" well they searched me and found my brass knuckles, weed, switchblade, butterfly knife, swishers, cigs, and 9 mm ammo I was delivering. So they called my parents and whatever. A teacher told me it was gonna be ok and i told her fuck you im on my own and kept walking. I walked out and the cop threatened me so i kicked his tire and threatened his family because I found his address.

Uh I'll do a part two if for some reason someone finds this entertaining to read. This is my first time writing and what not so sorry, thanks for reading though!!
Tags: Suicide, Sad, Teenager, Teen, Love, Loved, Hated, Worthless, Dead]]>
Sun, 16 Apr 2017 14:30:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3281 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3281
Part 1. Who I am!
I'm the kid everyone knows. My name is Lyric, I'm a guy, I've done modeling gigs and a lot of girls say I'm attractive. I am NOT narcissistic. I just want to make that clear because a lot of (not to be rude) not very good looking people whine about not getting a girl / guy but it's obvious why. Sorry to be rude. Anyway - literally every kid at my school knows me. The kid who is always fighting. The kid who is always making people laugh. The kid who is always being nice and caring for girls and stands up to people. Oh yeah. And the kid who killed someone. There's that as well. It was a hobo trying to mug me and my friends. Anyway - I'm that dude that some guys are jealous of and girls hate because I have such a great life.

Part 2. Not the life you think
So I have a shit ton of problems. Who doesn't though. I was abused as a kid and still sometimes am but that's ok because I'm not really phased by it. My mom likes to sexually harass me with neck kisses, forcing me to make out, hand on my thigh, and sitting on me - then threatening me with something if I do anything or run away. And yeah I have tried running. My "friend" ratted me out to the police. (side note; I'm 15) My bio dad left but decided to come back when my mom threatened to get child services and that good stuff. He called me at like 2 in the morning to tell me I was an accident and gave me a lesson to always wear a condom or I may have a mistake like he did. That felt pretty great. Love you too. My step dad hits me sometimes with hangars and I think he gets off to it a little bit. Disturbing.

Part 3. Unfortunate stuff
I'm not trying to make this super long but I felt you should know a little about my personal self before telling you what happened. So here it is :)

I was looking for a rebound girl (a real relationship, not just someone to keep my mind off her) after my girlfriend moved and started ignoring me and stuff. So I found one. Perfect! She genuinely seemed to care. I didn't care that much she wasn't the prettiest because her personality did make up for it by 100 fold. Besides she appreciated my expansive vocabulary and made me feel empowered so I did it right back. Everyday for about two weeks we were talking and we decided to make out after school one day. It was like a dream come true. Then I go to the breakfast table and see her holding hands with my supposed "best" friend. I ask around about stuff and turns out they made out on the fucking bus together. Pretty awesome to know that you tried so fucking hard for the one girl that got you over feeling like a piece of shit, made you feel even worse. Oh wait here's the better part - they meet two god damn days before. So yeah that fucked me up pretty bad. She pretended she did nothing wrong. I told her I forgive her bc I love her too much for something like that to get in the way. Then after school I wanted to knock the fuck out of the dude she was with. She forced him to kiss her. He backed off bc he saw me and were friends. But her face when she saw me was pretty priceless. But all she did was see a tear run down my cheek and me go inside to punch a hole in the wall of the school. Anyway, three days pass, I ignore her because I know if she says one wrong thing I'll go off on her and she doesn't deserve it. Then I started to not care about it and we started talking again. Then some rude ass dude came up to me and made fun of me bc she chose two other dudes over me. So I grabbed him by the throat, and pounded on his diaphragm. Pretty good feeling. So I got over what happened and we talked again for like half a month and we made out again and then she fucking pretends she doesnt even know me at church. She didn't say hi, didn't give me a hug, and barely even looked at me. And this was hours after we made out. And yeah I get it. It's not sex and I'm only 15 so I don't understand true sadness or whatever. So as church got out I see her talking to another dude and I come up and give her a hug and kinda kiss her neck, then she pushes me away and the dude like really pushes me and I hit the wall. Ok that's cool. So she ignores me for the next couple days and whatever. She says she doesnt like me like that anymore. after all that she said and lied about. pretty great isnt it? I decided that no one gives a shit anyway so I got the bottle of hydrocodone and gulped two down with some vodka. Well I wasn't thinking very clear bc that fucked me up and I passed out. I woke up and remembered everything that happened. Went to school. Saw her cuddled up with ANOTHER new guy. decided to take my anger out on a teacher bc when she asked me to move i asked for her to shut her mouth. She said "Im going to call the office right now if you don't move up here by me" and I moved up there, pushed her to the side, dialed for the office, flipped the teacher off, broke her computer screen, and told the office fuck you. They got me and I told them to keep their hands off me, then said "I have a gun in there, watch out" well they searched me and found my brass knuckles, weed, switchblade, butterfly knife, swishers, cigs, and 9 mm ammo I was delivering. So they called my parents and whatever. A teacher told me it was gonna be ok and i told her fuck you im on my own and kept walking. I walked out and the cop threatened me so i kicked his tire and threatened his family because I found his address.

Uh I'll do a part two if for some reason someone finds this entertaining to read. This is my first time writing and what not so sorry, thanks for reading though!!
Tags: Suicide, Sad, Teenager, Teen, Love, Loved, Hated, Worthless, Dead]]>
Picture: music helps by LoveHurts crying, music
Tags: Crying, Music]]>
Sun, 16 Apr 2017 03:05:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1803 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1803 crying, music
Tags: Crying, Music]]>
Quote: WHERE THERE IS DARKNESS,REMEMBER TH... by ARYAN KAMRA Tags: STAY STRONG]]> Sat, 15 Apr 2017 18:00:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: STAY STRONG]]> Poem: Red Blossoms by Fernando. A. Martinez. as a stream of red
runs a river down
my arm.
Softly,
I wipe it away with
my sleeve, and as the red
blossoms form a pool,
I look down.
smiling at the twisted beauty.
The red blossoms fall, hit,
Splattering,
against the sheet of white,
laying upon the ground.
Aww at lass,
And to think,
To think, such beauty,
Such elegance,
Could come up from the dark,
My hand on my heart
Silence draws near as I hear
The thump, thump, thump,
Beat, beat, beat
Why am I alive,
To think that,
To think,
I must have gone Insane.
Not knowing what there is left to live for.
She was all I had,
All I needed,
All I loved,
she is dead now
I could have stopped it.
I could have changed what lays the path
That led to such fate
I still remember the fear in her eyes,
such torment.
One bottle for every night
One scar for every strife
Her dad always
hitting her,
forcing her down to the bed
well from outside I sit in cry
And she crying
Us holding each other close
Her telling me it’s alright,
Twinkling stars falling from her eyes,
As if she is trying to fool herself.
But yet,
Yet she does not
Have the courage to ask for help.
Why can’t I walk in with a gun?
Smirk as I pull the trigger
Sending his ass to hell,
alone I sit,
one cig lit,
a bottle in my right,
a gun in my left,
no longer knowing what I have left
So she ran to her room to cry,
Swiftly she pulls the sheets from her bed,
And slowly sings a lullaby.
As she grasps the
Razor’s edge
Looking down at flesh of white,
scars so bright,
Closing her eyes
Not wanting to fight
She drags the tip a crossed
looking down
At the blood,
Laughs, this is it
She’s had enough
Grits her teeth
Strikes again
Smiling as sea of red blossoms up
And
to herself she
Thought red, blossoms,
How strange,
Such a bazar
But… beautiful
Thing
Tags: Love In Hate]]>
Sat, 15 Apr 2017 17:50:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3775 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3775 as a stream of red
runs a river down
my arm.
Softly,
I wipe it away with
my sleeve, and as the red
blossoms form a pool,
I look down.
smiling at the twisted beauty.
The red blossoms fall, hit,
Splattering,
against the sheet of white,
laying upon the ground.
Aww at lass,
And to think,
To think, such beauty,
Such elegance,
Could come up from the dark,
My hand on my heart
Silence draws near as I hear
The thump, thump, thump,
Beat, beat, beat
Why am I alive,
To think that,
To think,
I must have gone Insane.
Not knowing what there is left to live for.
She was all I had,
All I needed,
All I loved,
she is dead now
I could have stopped it.
I could have changed what lays the path
That led to such fate
I still remember the fear in her eyes,
such torment.
One bottle for every night
One scar for every strife
Her dad always
hitting her,
forcing her down to the bed
well from outside I sit in cry
And she crying
Us holding each other close
Her telling me it’s alright,
Twinkling stars falling from her eyes,
As if she is trying to fool herself.
But yet,
Yet she does not
Have the courage to ask for help.
Why can’t I walk in with a gun?
Smirk as I pull the trigger
Sending his ass to hell,
alone I sit,
one cig lit,
a bottle in my right,
a gun in my left,
no longer knowing what I have left
So she ran to her room to cry,
Swiftly she pulls the sheets from her bed,
And slowly sings a lullaby.
As she grasps the
Razor’s edge
Looking down at flesh of white,
scars so bright,
Closing her eyes
Not wanting to fight
She drags the tip a crossed
looking down
At the blood,
Laughs, this is it
She’s had enough
Grits her teeth
Strikes again
Smiling as sea of red blossoms up
And
to herself she
Thought red, blossoms,
How strange,
Such a bazar
But… beautiful
Thing
Tags: Love In Hate]]>
Story: What Hurts The Most by Kaitlyn Taylor
We were together for a long time. And long time for high schoolers that is. Over two and a half years. We started dating freshman year and now we're halfway through our senior year. My whole high school experience was with this guy. And I loved him. Man, I was head over heels for him. So sweet, so funny, and so talented. I loved his kisses, his hugs, and when he held me tight. He made me laugh more than anyone ever did. That's what I loved most about him. He had an amazing sense of humor. I loved everything that we did together. We had so many great and fun memories.

Everything was fine. At least I thought it was. It was perfect for me. I didn't think we were having the many issues. But apparently, he did. Because he randomly texts me one day, out of the blue, and says that he's not sure about us. I ask him what he's talking about. But all he says is how completely different we are. How we can't listen to the same music in the car. How I'm Christian and he's not. Just stating differences that he sees. I didn't get it. I still don't. We've had those differences for so long and it wasn't a problem before. Why was it a problem now? But then all of the sudden he says that he doesn't love me anymore. Says that he did in the beginning, for a long while, but that he doesn't anymore.

And that's what hurts the most. Loving someone so much, but knowing they don't even love you back.

I found out a few days ago that he actually left me for someone else. It's been one month. One. And he's already with someone else. All I feel is anger and sadness and pain and hurt and confusion.

It hurts. Everything hurts. From him breaking up with me, to being with someone else so soon. But what hurts the most is knowing I lived a long while blinded by a love I felt was so strong. And he didn't even love me back.
Tags: Breakup, Sad Love Story, Anger, Confusion, Heartbreak, Heartbroken, Heartache]]>
Sat, 15 Apr 2017 14:25:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3279 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3279
We were together for a long time. And long time for high schoolers that is. Over two and a half years. We started dating freshman year and now we're halfway through our senior year. My whole high school experience was with this guy. And I loved him. Man, I was head over heels for him. So sweet, so funny, and so talented. I loved his kisses, his hugs, and when he held me tight. He made me laugh more than anyone ever did. That's what I loved most about him. He had an amazing sense of humor. I loved everything that we did together. We had so many great and fun memories.

Everything was fine. At least I thought it was. It was perfect for me. I didn't think we were having the many issues. But apparently, he did. Because he randomly texts me one day, out of the blue, and says that he's not sure about us. I ask him what he's talking about. But all he says is how completely different we are. How we can't listen to the same music in the car. How I'm Christian and he's not. Just stating differences that he sees. I didn't get it. I still don't. We've had those differences for so long and it wasn't a problem before. Why was it a problem now? But then all of the sudden he says that he doesn't love me anymore. Says that he did in the beginning, for a long while, but that he doesn't anymore.

And that's what hurts the most. Loving someone so much, but knowing they don't even love you back.

I found out a few days ago that he actually left me for someone else. It's been one month. One. And he's already with someone else. All I feel is anger and sadness and pain and hurt and confusion.

It hurts. Everything hurts. From him breaking up with me, to being with someone else so soon. But what hurts the most is knowing I lived a long while blinded by a love I felt was so strong. And he didn't even love me back.
Tags: Breakup, Sad Love Story, Anger, Confusion, Heartbreak, Heartbroken, Heartache]]>
Poem: Trust Becomes Doubt by Jade Kaiser Luckily, you can be friends with your enemies;
Unfortunately, your friends turn to be your enemies.
See, life is full of surprises.
Funny it may seems, and at the same time,
It will hurt you truly.
I've been hurt so many times in my life
That made me trusts less,
And doubt more with the people surrounding me.

If I could only turn back time
To where I was once knew how to trust whole-heartedly.
To the time, I was still little, innocent and loving.
To the picture of scene where I thought it was,
The happiest and wholly part of my existence.
But now that I'm all grown up, I realize it was all lies.
And the scene, where I thought it was the most precious,
Happiest moment of my solitary life;
Behind that was the shedding of tears of my most precious one,
At the back of it, was sorrow and pain,
Anguish and misery, and betrayal;
Of the people I treasured and trusted most.
Tags: Trust, Doubt, Sorrow, Anguish, Betrayal, Misery, Solitary Life, Pain, Tears]]>
Thu, 06 Apr 2017 17:10:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3774 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3774 Luckily, you can be friends with your enemies;
Unfortunately, your friends turn to be your enemies.
See, life is full of surprises.
Funny it may seems, and at the same time,
It will hurt you truly.
I've been hurt so many times in my life
That made me trusts less,
And doubt more with the people surrounding me.

If I could only turn back time
To where I was once knew how to trust whole-heartedly.
To the time, I was still little, innocent and loving.
To the picture of scene where I thought it was,
The happiest and wholly part of my existence.
But now that I'm all grown up, I realize it was all lies.
And the scene, where I thought it was the most precious,
Happiest moment of my solitary life;
Behind that was the shedding of tears of my most precious one,
At the back of it, was sorrow and pain,
Anguish and misery, and betrayal;
Of the people I treasured and trusted most.
Tags: Trust, Doubt, Sorrow, Anguish, Betrayal, Misery, Solitary Life, Pain, Tears]]>
Poem: Sad Song by We The Kings by Cathryn With you, I'm alive
Like all the missing pieces of my heart, they finally collide.

So stop time right here in the moonlight,
'Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.
I'm just a sad song.

With you I fall.
It's like I'm leaving all my past in silhouettes upon the wall.
With you I'm a beautiful mess.
It's like we're standing hand in hand with all our fears upon the edge.

So stop time right here in the moonlight,
'Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.

You're the perfect melody,
The only harmony
I wanna hear.
You're my favorite part of me,
With you standing next to me,
I've got nothing to fear.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.
I'm just a sad song.
Tags: Love]]>
Wed, 05 Apr 2017 17:05:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3772 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3772 With you, I'm alive
Like all the missing pieces of my heart, they finally collide.

So stop time right here in the moonlight,
'Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.
I'm just a sad song.

With you I fall.
It's like I'm leaving all my past in silhouettes upon the wall.
With you I'm a beautiful mess.
It's like we're standing hand in hand with all our fears upon the edge.

So stop time right here in the moonlight,
'Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.

You're the perfect melody,
The only harmony
I wanna hear.
You're my favorite part of me,
With you standing next to me,
I've got nothing to fear.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.
I'm just a sad song.
Tags: Love]]>
Story: You Promised... by Span It was the first day of freshmen year of high school, I was looking for some hot new kid cause I was bored of all the annoying and old people in my grade.

First period: no one

Second Period: no one

Third period: There he walks in, " he took my breathe away"

I turned to by bestie and said "he's so hot, he's mine." She said " ew wtf!." There was something about him I didn't like, I loved!! Was it his eyes, his hair, his voice, i don't know! My older sisters class was next to mine so, when the bell rang I ran to her and showed her his new boy. She also said "ew." I didn't care. When I went home my sister said that the new boy was in her study hall and she became friends with him. I was so happy! I talked about him 24/7. My sister and him started texting each other and face timing too always talking about me. My sister would tell me the juicy stuff he said about me.


It was really awkward at school seeing each other but, we highkey were staring at eachother. On day we finally started texting each other and talking. After weeks of talking he would always say "your hot " and shit like that he always acted like he cared about me. He always said " if we date we have to keep it low-key, u can't tell anyone, not even ur best friend." Even after that I still liked him. He still was a sweetheart and actually care about me. On October 14th 2016 he asked me out. We had never spoken at school, like in real life. The next morning, we went to school it was so awkward and weird we didn't even look at each other.


As soon as I got home I saw a text he said " sorry for how awkward it was today, we need to get more comfortable with each other." I agreed. We were texting and he was asking random questions and i was answering all of them with "only if we date" he said " we will, i promise." he kept saying it over and over again.

At the time I was get asked out by a lot of other guys but I wanted to be with my sweetheart.

one day we just randomly didn't txt each other and we just stopped, I don't know what happened. I should've said something. but I didn't. I could've done something. but I didn't. why I didn't is because he didn't. I would wait for text for 2 months but then i gave up.
Even at school he would try to stay away from me. It was surprising how he was still friends with my sister.

He told my best friend that we never dated ( we only dated for 20 hours, but it still counts) and that I kept staring at him. That made me mad, which is why I don't like him. Infact he didn't even have that many friends. I caught him staring at me like a million times. If only something happened differently we would've been together. But whats done is done. I have moved on. I low-key want him to be mine.He promised!!!. He will always be in my heart no matter how much I deny it. I still remember saying " we will, i promise." He lied ...
Tags: Lies, Hurt]]>
Wed, 05 Apr 2017 13:50:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3278 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3278 It was the first day of freshmen year of high school, I was looking for some hot new kid cause I was bored of all the annoying and old people in my grade.

First period: no one

Second Period: no one

Third period: There he walks in, " he took my breathe away"

I turned to by bestie and said "he's so hot, he's mine." She said " ew wtf!." There was something about him I didn't like, I loved!! Was it his eyes, his hair, his voice, i don't know! My older sisters class was next to mine so, when the bell rang I ran to her and showed her his new boy. She also said "ew." I didn't care. When I went home my sister said that the new boy was in her study hall and she became friends with him. I was so happy! I talked about him 24/7. My sister and him started texting each other and face timing too always talking about me. My sister would tell me the juicy stuff he said about me.


It was really awkward at school seeing each other but, we highkey were staring at eachother. On day we finally started texting each other and talking. After weeks of talking he would always say "your hot " and shit like that he always acted like he cared about me. He always said " if we date we have to keep it low-key, u can't tell anyone, not even ur best friend." Even after that I still liked him. He still was a sweetheart and actually care about me. On October 14th 2016 he asked me out. We had never spoken at school, like in real life. The next morning, we went to school it was so awkward and weird we didn't even look at each other.


As soon as I got home I saw a text he said " sorry for how awkward it was today, we need to get more comfortable with each other." I agreed. We were texting and he was asking random questions and i was answering all of them with "only if we date" he said " we will, i promise." he kept saying it over and over again.

At the time I was get asked out by a lot of other guys but I wanted to be with my sweetheart.

one day we just randomly didn't txt each other and we just stopped, I don't know what happened. I should've said something. but I didn't. I could've done something. but I didn't. why I didn't is because he didn't. I would wait for text for 2 months but then i gave up.
Even at school he would try to stay away from me. It was surprising how he was still friends with my sister.

He told my best friend that we never dated ( we only dated for 20 hours, but it still counts) and that I kept staring at him. That made me mad, which is why I don't like him. Infact he didn't even have that many friends. I caught him staring at me like a million times. If only something happened differently we would've been together. But whats done is done. I have moved on. I low-key want him to be mine.He promised!!!. He will always be in my heart no matter how much I deny it. I still remember saying " we will, i promise." He lied ...
Tags: Lies, Hurt]]>
Poem: Alone by skate Alone stood the girl.
she stood there on the bridge and waited,
waited for a friend;
a friend who,little did the girl know,
would never show up
but the girl wouldn't give up
the next day she went back
same bridge, same place,
and waited some more,
and waited,
and waited,
and waited,
until she decided that she waited long enough
that night, the girl didn't come home,
but that didn't worry her,
for she found her friend
and was standing hand in hand with her
way up high in heaven
Tags: Lonely]]>
Tue, 04 Apr 2017 17:05:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3770 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3770 Alone stood the girl.
she stood there on the bridge and waited,
waited for a friend;
a friend who,little did the girl know,
would never show up
but the girl wouldn't give up
the next day she went back
same bridge, same place,
and waited some more,
and waited,
and waited,
and waited,
until she decided that she waited long enough
that night, the girl didn't come home,
but that didn't worry her,
for she found her friend
and was standing hand in hand with her
way up high in heaven
Tags: Lonely]]>
Story: Yes, I forgive you....... by Veronica Tello Chavez Everyone said.As my classmates teased me.Ewwww!!..

I said.Never in my whole life. But deep down I actually did love him.But I was scared he might rejecte me.so I'd hide the love I felt for him a secret.While days past. I got to be a friend to him. I was the luckiest girl in the whole world! Well, that's what I though.
Everyday he would talk to me. Tell me his funny stories of his life. He also tells me funny jokes. My face turn red as a tomatoe. As I laughed. We got to be best friends. While days past he seemed more awesome. While we played outside. My friends and I got to go to the swings. He played basketball with his friends. But, as I sat there. I was looking at him. One of my friends cought me looking at him and said "Do you like him?"

No,I said. So we moved on with the topic. But,deep down yea. As I looked at him. He cought me. Looking at him. He looked at me and smiled.Oohhh!!! The girls did as they saw.Some of his friends saw it too and said go talk to her. As one of his friends punched him and said "You go Raul!!" I looked away and he came straight to me. Feeling nervous. Scratching his head. And said "Hi" I felt special. I thought the world pause. And I said "hey". He said "what to go for a walk?" I said "Sure, sounds great". As we walked.I thought I was dreaming. But deep down I didn't want it to be a dream that I could wake up and wouldn't be true. As we walked we sat on some bleachers. He graved my hand and looked at me. I blushed. But,at the same time I was happy. Because the boy I loved was in front of me!! He spoked and said " Veronica,to be honest I love you so much. Scene the first time I saw you" I smiled. I said "I love you to". As he spoke he said "I remember that day that day i frist saw you in class, with your curl hair,your sweet smile, and your cool shoes Addidas" I smiled and said "You remember, well I also remember with your Nike shoes,and that nice looking hair style,you had". He smiled. And looked at my eyes. I just wishes this moment would never end. Then he said "Just know I love you with all my heart, OK". And suddenly from nowhere he said "what to be my girlfriend?" I said "Yes!!" Oooooo!!the kids said as they spy at us. And Raul Kiss my at my front head. And said "I'll be here for you, and I will always protect you". I said "Love you to the moon". RrrInnGg!!

Suddenly the bell rang. "Time to go to lunch time time". A teacher yelled. And the then blew her wishtle.
By the time I sat on the table and ate my lunch suddenly my bff Joanna said "What happened?" I said nothing. And my friends yelled "Oooooo!". I was wondering why, as I turned I saw that he was smile as he pasted by. One of his friends came up to me and gave me a piece of paper. And suddenly walked away. As I opened the paper it said " I LOVE YOU,WITH ALL MY HEART!!. YOU GOT ME GOING CRAZY,FOR LOVE"

I smiled.My friends were curious and took the paper out of my hands and pasted it around and read it. They all said "Wow! That is so romantic.." I just stayed silent and smiled...

At class time I was so lucky I sat behind him. And we pasted love notes to each other. But we got cought by the teacher. And stayed for detention. As the kids left home. We stayed. The teacher left to go get her snack. But to make sure she separate us I got to be in a different classroom so was he. But I still saw him through the window. And I heard Beep Beep!! I was wondering what was the sound coming out of... My phone!! I got a message from Raul.. It said "hi" I looked out the window and was waving hi to me. We texted for the rest of the period. As it got over. We walked home. He was carrying my backpack and his. It was cold. So he took his of and I used it. He huged me. And brought me to my house. And kissed me a goodnight kiss. By the months we become unseparate. But one day I remember I was changing to go to a different classroom in middle school. Well a boy came and huged me tightly. I said "Let me go!!" Raul turned and punch him on the face. And picked me up from the ground. "Are you OK?" "Yea" I said. We went back to class. And he said "Did he hurt you?" "No!" I said. By the next day when I came to school I saw that some girls came up to me and said "If Raul, your boyfriend was so loyal. Why did he kiss my friend??" I said "Stop lying!!" I rush and asked him. And suddenly a girl ran to him and forced him to kiss her... I saw it and broke my heart into pieces.. Raul turn and saw me. And said "Wait, she did it to me. I didn't see that kiss coming from... Everything happened so fast.... Plz forget me"

I should have seen that coming... I knew he wasn't loyal.... At the day I ignored him.... I didn't talk to him... I didn't even look at him. Later on I got a note from him it said "Sorry, I didn't see that kiss coming... Come on I don't even know that girl...plz forgive me...."
I ripped up the paper and throw it at his face...

The bell rang. We had to switch classes. I saw some girls near him. One was hugging him.. The other was kissing him on the cheek.. My blood boiled. As I looked. And He yelled "Plz stop it I don't even know you girls!! Gosh you girls are supper annoying!!! Suddenly I felt a person hugging me from the back it was a boy who liked me.it was Mike And said " Its OK,I'm here for you" I walked with him to my house. Behind us was Raul. Raul yelled "Veronica I love you. Always remember that". Then Mike turn and punched Raul. Suddenly they started to fight I screamed "Stop it!!!" I ran home and from nowhere I saw a car. It hit me. Everything seemed so blurry. All I heard was Raul saying "You are going to be alright, plz don't close your eyes" ad he cried.I heard the abulince. They took me to the hospital. The last thing I saw was Raul crying and then he hugged me and said "Please don't leave me,I love you"

I closed me eyes. And they took me to the operaion room. I opened my eyes through the window I saw Raul,And my Family. My whole life with Raul flash by. Every moment. Every detail about Raul. A tear came out of me eyes. I knew I wouldn't survive. And I heard the doctor saying we got no time we are losing her!!!...... I saw that Raul was screaming "Nooooo!!!!" I closed my eyes. I saw God. I was in heaven. I saw my brother who passed away. But suddenly everything turned dark. I opened my eyes. My family was surrounding me. I began to cry. My mother ask me why...I said where is Raul??? They all moved left. He was sleeping on the couch. My mom said he was wake all day and night waiting for you to wake up. And I told him to sleep.For a while. Suddenly he woke up. Raul said "I love you so much!! Plz forgive me" I said "Yes" He ran and hugged me tightly. And after that nightmare. It was just Raul and I fighting vs the world....
Together......
For ever..........
Tags: Missing, Hurt]]>
Tue, 04 Apr 2017 13:45:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3275 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3275 Everyone said.As my classmates teased me.Ewwww!!..

I said.Never in my whole life. But deep down I actually did love him.But I was scared he might rejecte me.so I'd hide the love I felt for him a secret.While days past. I got to be a friend to him. I was the luckiest girl in the whole world! Well, that's what I though.
Everyday he would talk to me. Tell me his funny stories of his life. He also tells me funny jokes. My face turn red as a tomatoe. As I laughed. We got to be best friends. While days past he seemed more awesome. While we played outside. My friends and I got to go to the swings. He played basketball with his friends. But, as I sat there. I was looking at him. One of my friends cought me looking at him and said "Do you like him?"

No,I said. So we moved on with the topic. But,deep down yea. As I looked at him. He cought me. Looking at him. He looked at me and smiled.Oohhh!!! The girls did as they saw.Some of his friends saw it too and said go talk to her. As one of his friends punched him and said "You go Raul!!" I looked away and he came straight to me. Feeling nervous. Scratching his head. And said "Hi" I felt special. I thought the world pause. And I said "hey". He said "what to go for a walk?" I said "Sure, sounds great". As we walked.I thought I was dreaming. But deep down I didn't want it to be a dream that I could wake up and wouldn't be true. As we walked we sat on some bleachers. He graved my hand and looked at me. I blushed. But,at the same time I was happy. Because the boy I loved was in front of me!! He spoked and said " Veronica,to be honest I love you so much. Scene the first time I saw you" I smiled. I said "I love you to". As he spoke he said "I remember that day that day i frist saw you in class, with your curl hair,your sweet smile, and your cool shoes Addidas" I smiled and said "You remember, well I also remember with your Nike shoes,and that nice looking hair style,you had". He smiled. And looked at my eyes. I just wishes this moment would never end. Then he said "Just know I love you with all my heart, OK". And suddenly from nowhere he said "what to be my girlfriend?" I said "Yes!!" Oooooo!!the kids said as they spy at us. And Raul Kiss my at my front head. And said "I'll be here for you, and I will always protect you". I said "Love you to the moon". RrrInnGg!!

Suddenly the bell rang. "Time to go to lunch time time". A teacher yelled. And the then blew her wishtle.
By the time I sat on the table and ate my lunch suddenly my bff Joanna said "What happened?" I said nothing. And my friends yelled "Oooooo!". I was wondering why, as I turned I saw that he was smile as he pasted by. One of his friends came up to me and gave me a piece of paper. And suddenly walked away. As I opened the paper it said " I LOVE YOU,WITH ALL MY HEART!!. YOU GOT ME GOING CRAZY,FOR LOVE"

I smiled.My friends were curious and took the paper out of my hands and pasted it around and read it. They all said "Wow! That is so romantic.." I just stayed silent and smiled...

At class time I was so lucky I sat behind him. And we pasted love notes to each other. But we got cought by the teacher. And stayed for detention. As the kids left home. We stayed. The teacher left to go get her snack. But to make sure she separate us I got to be in a different classroom so was he. But I still saw him through the window. And I heard Beep Beep!! I was wondering what was the sound coming out of... My phone!! I got a message from Raul.. It said "hi" I looked out the window and was waving hi to me. We texted for the rest of the period. As it got over. We walked home. He was carrying my backpack and his. It was cold. So he took his of and I used it. He huged me. And brought me to my house. And kissed me a goodnight kiss. By the months we become unseparate. But one day I remember I was changing to go to a different classroom in middle school. Well a boy came and huged me tightly. I said "Let me go!!" Raul turned and punch him on the face. And picked me up from the ground. "Are you OK?" "Yea" I said. We went back to class. And he said "Did he hurt you?" "No!" I said. By the next day when I came to school I saw that some girls came up to me and said "If Raul, your boyfriend was so loyal. Why did he kiss my friend??" I said "Stop lying!!" I rush and asked him. And suddenly a girl ran to him and forced him to kiss her... I saw it and broke my heart into pieces.. Raul turn and saw me. And said "Wait, she did it to me. I didn't see that kiss coming from... Everything happened so fast.... Plz forget me"

I should have seen that coming... I knew he wasn't loyal.... At the day I ignored him.... I didn't talk to him... I didn't even look at him. Later on I got a note from him it said "Sorry, I didn't see that kiss coming... Come on I don't even know that girl...plz forgive me...."
I ripped up the paper and throw it at his face...

The bell rang. We had to switch classes. I saw some girls near him. One was hugging him.. The other was kissing him on the cheek.. My blood boiled. As I looked. And He yelled "Plz stop it I don't even know you girls!! Gosh you girls are supper annoying!!! Suddenly I felt a person hugging me from the back it was a boy who liked me.it was Mike And said " Its OK,I'm here for you" I walked with him to my house. Behind us was Raul. Raul yelled "Veronica I love you. Always remember that". Then Mike turn and punched Raul. Suddenly they started to fight I screamed "Stop it!!!" I ran home and from nowhere I saw a car. It hit me. Everything seemed so blurry. All I heard was Raul saying "You are going to be alright, plz don't close your eyes" ad he cried.I heard the abulince. They took me to the hospital. The last thing I saw was Raul crying and then he hugged me and said "Please don't leave me,I love you"

I closed me eyes. And they took me to the operaion room. I opened my eyes through the window I saw Raul,And my Family. My whole life with Raul flash by. Every moment. Every detail about Raul. A tear came out of me eyes. I knew I wouldn't survive. And I heard the doctor saying we got no time we are losing her!!!...... I saw that Raul was screaming "Nooooo!!!!" I closed my eyes. I saw God. I was in heaven. I saw my brother who passed away. But suddenly everything turned dark. I opened my eyes. My family was surrounding me. I began to cry. My mother ask me why...I said where is Raul??? They all moved left. He was sleeping on the couch. My mom said he was wake all day and night waiting for you to wake up. And I told him to sleep.For a while. Suddenly he woke up. Raul said "I love you so much!! Plz forgive me" I said "Yes" He ran and hugged me tightly. And after that nightmare. It was just Raul and I fighting vs the world....
Together......
For ever..........
Tags: Missing, Hurt]]>
Poem: Locked Away by Ramadhan Abdul Rahman there's a place
where my true face locked away

a place that so deep
a place i don't want to keep
inside a soul, a room with no key
in a place i never want to be

I'm Locked away
in a place I'll never break free
locked away my memories
hiding behind fake stories

silence is raging inside my mind
screaming shouting, leaving endless echos behind

locked away in the dark
where everything looks the same
where your thoughts howling and park
where no one left to blame

lock it away.
Tags: Love, Confused, Lost, Locked]]>
Mon, 03 Apr 2017 17:00:03 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3769 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3769 there's a place
where my true face locked away

a place that so deep
a place i don't want to keep
inside a soul, a room with no key
in a place i never want to be

I'm Locked away
in a place I'll never break free
locked away my memories
hiding behind fake stories

silence is raging inside my mind
screaming shouting, leaving endless echos behind

locked away in the dark
where everything looks the same
where your thoughts howling and park
where no one left to blame

lock it away.
Tags: Love, Confused, Lost, Locked]]>
Story: Not Enough to Love by Clary Barns I sit here, looking back on it now, and it hurts...a lot. I don't see how this could happen. But I really shouldn't be surprised, it happens all the time actually. I get happy, for a while and then boom, it all comes crashing down. And every time it hurts more.

It started with an agreement. I agreed to be his fuck toy, and that was a huge mistake. He kissed me and suddenly I found my self addicted to it, needing more, wanting more. I would be with him whenever I could, learning more about him, falling more in love with him, we would sneak off and have sex, he would say he loves me and make so many promises to be there, even if in the end this doesn't work. This became our thing. Saying I love you and pinky promising on it. Then suddenly things change. I don't know why or how, but it does. For some reason, he will barley talk to me, or look at me. He has so little care in holding my hand and when he does, it doesn't feel the same. He is distant, quiet, And it un-nerves me, scares me even. He leaves and I cry, waiting for the moment he decides to leave. I call him and he say's he can't do this anymore. That he doesn't love me anymore. I cry harder than I have in a long time. I try taking my life, but then instantly regret it. I see him the next day, and he treats me like a stranger. What did I do? Why are you doing this? I feel guilty as if I did something wrong.

He barley looks at me, let alone talk. I lost the one person I felt remotely close to, the one person who helped with my depression, the one person who made me smile.

a week pasts, I'm kinda better, but there are moments I break, and can't help but fall to my knee's in defeat. he kind of talks to me now, but you can tell he doesn't want to. He never wants to anymore.

another week pasts, and I get off the phone with my father, he just said he no longer wants to be apart of my life, that he doesn't want to see me. and I go back to hurting. Like I said, I start to be slightly happy, and something happens to ruin it for me. He hasn't talked to me in awhile, this is the longest we have gone without talking, my father and I...
I don't know why, I don't know why people don't want to be in my life or be there, or why they leave, but it hurts like a bitch, and I just want it all to stop...I want to be loved and wanted, I don't want to lose anyone else. I'm tired of losing people. I'm tired of it all.
Tags: Depression, Pain, Lost, Losing, People, Love, Broken, Heart, Tired]]>
Mon, 20 Mar 2017 12:40:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3273 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3273 I sit here, looking back on it now, and it hurts...a lot. I don't see how this could happen. But I really shouldn't be surprised, it happens all the time actually. I get happy, for a while and then boom, it all comes crashing down. And every time it hurts more.

It started with an agreement. I agreed to be his fuck toy, and that was a huge mistake. He kissed me and suddenly I found my self addicted to it, needing more, wanting more. I would be with him whenever I could, learning more about him, falling more in love with him, we would sneak off and have sex, he would say he loves me and make so many promises to be there, even if in the end this doesn't work. This became our thing. Saying I love you and pinky promising on it. Then suddenly things change. I don't know why or how, but it does. For some reason, he will barley talk to me, or look at me. He has so little care in holding my hand and when he does, it doesn't feel the same. He is distant, quiet, And it un-nerves me, scares me even. He leaves and I cry, waiting for the moment he decides to leave. I call him and he say's he can't do this anymore. That he doesn't love me anymore. I cry harder than I have in a long time. I try taking my life, but then instantly regret it. I see him the next day, and he treats me like a stranger. What did I do? Why are you doing this? I feel guilty as if I did something wrong.

He barley looks at me, let alone talk. I lost the one person I felt remotely close to, the one person who helped with my depression, the one person who made me smile.

a week pasts, I'm kinda better, but there are moments I break, and can't help but fall to my knee's in defeat. he kind of talks to me now, but you can tell he doesn't want to. He never wants to anymore.

another week pasts, and I get off the phone with my father, he just said he no longer wants to be apart of my life, that he doesn't want to see me. and I go back to hurting. Like I said, I start to be slightly happy, and something happens to ruin it for me. He hasn't talked to me in awhile, this is the longest we have gone without talking, my father and I...
I don't know why, I don't know why people don't want to be in my life or be there, or why they leave, but it hurts like a bitch, and I just want it all to stop...I want to be loved and wanted, I don't want to lose anyone else. I'm tired of losing people. I'm tired of it all.
Tags: Depression, Pain, Lost, Losing, People, Love, Broken, Heart, Tired]]>
Poem: Broken Dream by Ramadhan Abdul Rahman a reality that hurts so deep

it was in my hand
losing it as it was never been there
slipping away from my sight, going somewhere

I can see you but can't have you
nothing in my hand to do
pain builds mountain inside of me
crashing my soul
falling inside an endless hole

time trapped me under her unlimited shadows
passes like century within a single day
having no choice bu to stay

they are taking my sun out of my world
taking you away from me
how it could be??!!

darkness coming so fast again
my world collapses and will never be the same
what the meaning of my life if I cannot be with you
You the dream I want to live into

No my love will never die
even if I have to stay like this forever
Yes I knew I'm losing you everyday more than the day before
but there will be one goal I'll stand for
to keep my heart belonging to you

never will be for someone else
you are my heart itself

it might be betrayed by life
but the hope of being with you is enough to keep it alive

Yours till forever
Tags: Love, Life, Hope]]>
Sun, 19 Mar 2017 16:00:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3768 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3768 a reality that hurts so deep

it was in my hand
losing it as it was never been there
slipping away from my sight, going somewhere

I can see you but can't have you
nothing in my hand to do
pain builds mountain inside of me
crashing my soul
falling inside an endless hole

time trapped me under her unlimited shadows
passes like century within a single day
having no choice bu to stay

they are taking my sun out of my world
taking you away from me
how it could be??!!

darkness coming so fast again
my world collapses and will never be the same
what the meaning of my life if I cannot be with you
You the dream I want to live into

No my love will never die
even if I have to stay like this forever
Yes I knew I'm losing you everyday more than the day before
but there will be one goal I'll stand for
to keep my heart belonging to you

never will be for someone else
you are my heart itself

it might be betrayed by life
but the hope of being with you is enough to keep it alive

Yours till forever
Tags: Love, Life, Hope]]>
Story: Best Friend Breakup by LylahLovesGames
Okay, sooo to start this of I have lost I believe 3 friends, and they were super close to me, BUT,yea but.
I'm home schooled, so to get over being alone (besides bro and mom) I played Minecraft. Around the middle of 2015 I met this person named CertainPath59---(I used my bros friends account cause I didn't have one) but I found that username and it had a BajanCanadian skin. After about the end of 2015 the CertainPath59 person said they were actually a girl. (mainly because I said I was using my bros account)

Her actual name was Kathy, and she is Asian. After a while I met this person named Mykah--(Transgender dude ;ppp) When I was talking to him one time while we were playing X-Run we met this person with the username of Wolfgirl999. She typed in chat-"Anyone wanna Skype?" AND MYKAH BEING STUPID said yea. Wolfgirl999, we call her Wolf now, 3 months after that day she met this person named Ella-(Hated her the second I heard her voice) Ella BLACKMAILED WOLF INTO LEAVING 3 TIMES 3. The third time I told her I missed her and she said she didn't, she said she had to say that and after that moment she started crying. BUTTTT me and Wolf are friends now. (Probably me last friend)

Kathy--For the Kathy part of the story, when Thanksgiving came in 2016 Kathy left for this jerk of a crew, and now when I try to talk to Kathy well, she calls me an annoying bitch. yaaaaaaay.

I met this person named Ellen on Minecraft, and I got her Skype, she said she couldn't talk to me on skype. A while after that she removed me from her contacts. BUT then we met up again, had fun awesome times with Wolf and Kathy Ellen and Mykah for a while. That ended after a few months, seems that no one can have over 3 good friends. Anyway, Ellen left not to long ago, but she stopped talking to us for about a week but she still texted us, we talked to her for 2 days, but 3 days after that Ellen stopped messaging, stopped talking to us, me and Wolf, we were worried cause no one was talking to us for 3 whole days, SO being the awesome person I am, I messaged her mom on messenger >:DDDDD, she said Ellen was fine. Wolf posted a pic on insta that Ellen was ignoring us cause she was and we wanted to get her attention. Ellen messaged on that post:"I deserve a break, all I do it talk to you guys, posting this was really immature." Something like that anyway, but I sent a pic to Ellen but she didn't respond like usual, Ellen posted that pic on insta! TO INSTA!! To show off the picture to everyone I know. My thoughts were-"And you said Wolf was immature, HAH nice joke." XDXD and I told her mom, she got iiiinn trouble, I know thats not right but still, Ellen was awesome till something just kicked in her that day.

Ella, I mentioned her yea? Her and Wolf were good friends till Ella met me and thought I was better than her-"HAH" but uhm thats why she blackmailed Wolf. And her and Wolf were still friends near Christmas and stuff in 2016 but, Ella left Wolf on Christmas Eve. because Wolf said that was her favorite time of the year. Now Ella says "Tell people you left me." Which is messed up but I mean, Wolf has me.

There's 1 more person left but I don't wanna talk about her XD
At least I have Wolf, and I looove her very dearly.
Yea thanks for reading, or looking, or skipping through stuff, you know deeeeh skips. yea okay bye
Tags: Breakup]]>
Sun, 19 Mar 2017 12:35:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3272 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3272
Okay, sooo to start this of I have lost I believe 3 friends, and they were super close to me, BUT,yea but.
I'm home schooled, so to get over being alone (besides bro and mom) I played Minecraft. Around the middle of 2015 I met this person named CertainPath59---(I used my bros friends account cause I didn't have one) but I found that username and it had a BajanCanadian skin. After about the end of 2015 the CertainPath59 person said they were actually a girl. (mainly because I said I was using my bros account)

Her actual name was Kathy, and she is Asian. After a while I met this person named Mykah--(Transgender dude ;ppp) When I was talking to him one time while we were playing X-Run we met this person with the username of Wolfgirl999. She typed in chat-"Anyone wanna Skype?" AND MYKAH BEING STUPID said yea. Wolfgirl999, we call her Wolf now, 3 months after that day she met this person named Ella-(Hated her the second I heard her voice) Ella BLACKMAILED WOLF INTO LEAVING 3 TIMES 3. The third time I told her I missed her and she said she didn't, she said she had to say that and after that moment she started crying. BUTTTT me and Wolf are friends now. (Probably me last friend)

Kathy--For the Kathy part of the story, when Thanksgiving came in 2016 Kathy left for this jerk of a crew, and now when I try to talk to Kathy well, she calls me an annoying bitch. yaaaaaaay.

I met this person named Ellen on Minecraft, and I got her Skype, she said she couldn't talk to me on skype. A while after that she removed me from her contacts. BUT then we met up again, had fun awesome times with Wolf and Kathy Ellen and Mykah for a while. That ended after a few months, seems that no one can have over 3 good friends. Anyway, Ellen left not to long ago, but she stopped talking to us for about a week but she still texted us, we talked to her for 2 days, but 3 days after that Ellen stopped messaging, stopped talking to us, me and Wolf, we were worried cause no one was talking to us for 3 whole days, SO being the awesome person I am, I messaged her mom on messenger >:DDDDD, she said Ellen was fine. Wolf posted a pic on insta that Ellen was ignoring us cause she was and we wanted to get her attention. Ellen messaged on that post:"I deserve a break, all I do it talk to you guys, posting this was really immature." Something like that anyway, but I sent a pic to Ellen but she didn't respond like usual, Ellen posted that pic on insta! TO INSTA!! To show off the picture to everyone I know. My thoughts were-"And you said Wolf was immature, HAH nice joke." XDXD and I told her mom, she got iiiinn trouble, I know thats not right but still, Ellen was awesome till something just kicked in her that day.

Ella, I mentioned her yea? Her and Wolf were good friends till Ella met me and thought I was better than her-"HAH" but uhm thats why she blackmailed Wolf. And her and Wolf were still friends near Christmas and stuff in 2016 but, Ella left Wolf on Christmas Eve. because Wolf said that was her favorite time of the year. Now Ella says "Tell people you left me." Which is messed up but I mean, Wolf has me.

There's 1 more person left but I don't wanna talk about her XD
At least I have Wolf, and I looove her very dearly.
Yea thanks for reading, or looking, or skipping through stuff, you know deeeeh skips. yea okay bye
Tags: Breakup]]>
Poem: home by casey the light that burned to guide me home is missing
A warmth I lost when you snuffed it out
doesn't matter how much I've grown
I'll feel the distance we have made
I don't need your aid can you see the life i made
But can't you here me crying
Mama I've been broken
I've fallen into some wicked ways
What I have I don't deserve
Although I earned this despair
So sorry about the way you feel
Im not all me but sometimes the past can seem so real
Oh and by the way you can't stay I need to tend to how I feel
but mama I've been broken
Tags: Broken Heart, Lonely, Agony]]>
Sat, 18 Mar 2017 15:55:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3767 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3767 the light that burned to guide me home is missing
A warmth I lost when you snuffed it out
doesn't matter how much I've grown
I'll feel the distance we have made
I don't need your aid can you see the life i made
But can't you here me crying
Mama I've been broken
I've fallen into some wicked ways
What I have I don't deserve
Although I earned this despair
So sorry about the way you feel
Im not all me but sometimes the past can seem so real
Oh and by the way you can't stay I need to tend to how I feel
but mama I've been broken
Tags: Broken Heart, Lonely, Agony]]>
Story: Wasted Love by pink_angel
Time passes and the girl graduated from high school and enter college, she enrolled in a prestigious school and because she is friendly she easily make friends. One day she got a text from an unknown number, this was the conversation goes.
Unknown no: Hello, how are you?
Her: Hi, do i know you?
Unknown no: Yes, you know me very well
Her: Who are you?
Unknown no: This is Bryan, remember me?
Her: Yes i remember you, i didn't expect you would text me again. How'd you know my new number
Bryan: I just have some connections. (with a smiley emoticon)
Kristine: Oh that's nice
Bryan: Can we meet later?
Kristine: Sure

After Bryan texted Kristine they meet at a fancy restaurant near their school. From then on their friendship backs to normal and they even get closer compared before. Months pass and Bryan confess her feelings for Kristine, at first she is dumbfounded and can't react at all but Bryan said he is willing to wait for her until she's ready but he didn't expect that he would hear the word "yes" from Kristine after asking her if she can be his girlfriend. Bryan hug her because of so much happiness and said that she loves her very much. Kristine also said that she loves him very much.

Years passed and their relationship even get stronger, Kristine introduce him to her family but her family didn't really like him because he didn't enter college. Kristine's family is very strict when it comes to education but this test in life only makes them more stronger, but test in life not always make the relationship stronger sometimes it makes it weak.

One Friday morning, Kristine texted Bryan and greet him Happy Anniversary because it's their 8th year anniversary but the guy didn't respond to her text. She tried to call him but his phone is turned off, all day long she tried to contact him but still no response, at this point Kristine felt nervous.

Next morning, she went to Bryan's house to check if he's ok but she didn't expect what he saw. A man and a woman kissing each other in the lips and later did she realized that it was Bryan and a girl who is unfamiliar to her, her eyes grew big because of what she saw. Bryan was also shocked when he saw Kristine standing in front of his door, a few seconds before he comes back to his senses and try to approach Kristine but before he get close to her she slap him in the face, and here is their conversation

Kristine: How could you do this to me? (crying)
Bryan: Let me explain, it's not what you think
Kristine: This is not what I think? you're caught in the act and you're telling me that it's not what I think? After everything I've done for you, this is what I get in return? You said that you love me more than anything else but why did you do this? why did you cheat on me?
Bryan: i'm sorry, I'm so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you.

But before he could touch her Kristine walk away. Days and weeks passed but still Kristine didn't respond to all the calls and text of Bryan, even if Bryan go to their house Kristine wont go outside her room.

After three weeks Kristine finally reply to Bryan's text and she wants to meet him to clear things out. Bryan meet him in a park, when he get there he saw Kristine sitting in a bench and he approached her. This was the conversation goes.

Bryan: I'm glad that I see you again. I've missed you
Kristine: I told you to meet me here because there's something I want to tell you. I want to make things clear for the both of us. I just want you to know that it's over, our relationship is over, and I hope we will not see each other anymore.
Bryan: Is it hard to give me a second chance, please give me a chance to make it up to you. I know I've done wrong but I didn't mean it, I'm just drunk that time and I don't really know what I'm doing. (crying)
Kristine: Stop explaining, your explanation doesn't matter now, the fact that you cheat on me is enough to stop this relationship. I'm sorry but I can't forgive right now because it really hurts. Goodbye Bryan.. Thanks for the memories.

After saying that Kristine walk away and Bryan was left crying and didn't know what to do.

Sometimes you think relationships gets stronger over the years but in some cases it's not really true, even though you have a long time relationship, one mistake your relationship will end.

Quote for this story:
"It takes many good deeds to build a good reputation, and only one bad one to lose it."
Tags: Love, Heartbroken, Cheating]]>
Sat, 18 Mar 2017 12:30:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3271 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3271
Time passes and the girl graduated from high school and enter college, she enrolled in a prestigious school and because she is friendly she easily make friends. One day she got a text from an unknown number, this was the conversation goes.
Unknown no: Hello, how are you?
Her: Hi, do i know you?
Unknown no: Yes, you know me very well
Her: Who are you?
Unknown no: This is Bryan, remember me?
Her: Yes i remember you, i didn't expect you would text me again. How'd you know my new number
Bryan: I just have some connections. (with a smiley emoticon)
Kristine: Oh that's nice
Bryan: Can we meet later?
Kristine: Sure

After Bryan texted Kristine they meet at a fancy restaurant near their school. From then on their friendship backs to normal and they even get closer compared before. Months pass and Bryan confess her feelings for Kristine, at first she is dumbfounded and can't react at all but Bryan said he is willing to wait for her until she's ready but he didn't expect that he would hear the word "yes" from Kristine after asking her if she can be his girlfriend. Bryan hug her because of so much happiness and said that she loves her very much. Kristine also said that she loves him very much.

Years passed and their relationship even get stronger, Kristine introduce him to her family but her family didn't really like him because he didn't enter college. Kristine's family is very strict when it comes to education but this test in life only makes them more stronger, but test in life not always make the relationship stronger sometimes it makes it weak.

One Friday morning, Kristine texted Bryan and greet him Happy Anniversary because it's their 8th year anniversary but the guy didn't respond to her text. She tried to call him but his phone is turned off, all day long she tried to contact him but still no response, at this point Kristine felt nervous.

Next morning, she went to Bryan's house to check if he's ok but she didn't expect what he saw. A man and a woman kissing each other in the lips and later did she realized that it was Bryan and a girl who is unfamiliar to her, her eyes grew big because of what she saw. Bryan was also shocked when he saw Kristine standing in front of his door, a few seconds before he comes back to his senses and try to approach Kristine but before he get close to her she slap him in the face, and here is their conversation

Kristine: How could you do this to me? (crying)
Bryan: Let me explain, it's not what you think
Kristine: This is not what I think? you're caught in the act and you're telling me that it's not what I think? After everything I've done for you, this is what I get in return? You said that you love me more than anything else but why did you do this? why did you cheat on me?
Bryan: i'm sorry, I'm so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you.

But before he could touch her Kristine walk away. Days and weeks passed but still Kristine didn't respond to all the calls and text of Bryan, even if Bryan go to their house Kristine wont go outside her room.

After three weeks Kristine finally reply to Bryan's text and she wants to meet him to clear things out. Bryan meet him in a park, when he get there he saw Kristine sitting in a bench and he approached her. This was the conversation goes.

Bryan: I'm glad that I see you again. I've missed you
Kristine: I told you to meet me here because there's something I want to tell you. I want to make things clear for the both of us. I just want you to know that it's over, our relationship is over, and I hope we will not see each other anymore.
Bryan: Is it hard to give me a second chance, please give me a chance to make it up to you. I know I've done wrong but I didn't mean it, I'm just drunk that time and I don't really know what I'm doing. (crying)
Kristine: Stop explaining, your explanation doesn't matter now, the fact that you cheat on me is enough to stop this relationship. I'm sorry but I can't forgive right now because it really hurts. Goodbye Bryan.. Thanks for the memories.

After saying that Kristine walk away and Bryan was left crying and didn't know what to do.

Sometimes you think relationships gets stronger over the years but in some cases it's not really true, even though you have a long time relationship, one mistake your relationship will end.

Quote for this story:
"It takes many good deeds to build a good reputation, and only one bad one to lose it."
Tags: Love, Heartbroken, Cheating]]>
Poem: I have no clue by Jonathon Its something i thought i had
I thought i loved her so
But like a storm it ended bad
Ended with my heartbreak
I felt so betrayed
All the pain i could not take
Now my heart is stuck in its barricade
But yet i still write about what? I have no clue
is love really there
For me love might not be true
If it is then love aint that fair
For me love wont ever be the same
For that i have myself to blame
Tags: Love]]>
Fri, 17 Mar 2017 15:50:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3765 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3765 Its something i thought i had
I thought i loved her so
But like a storm it ended bad
Ended with my heartbreak
I felt so betrayed
All the pain i could not take
Now my heart is stuck in its barricade
But yet i still write about what? I have no clue
is love really there
For me love might not be true
If it is then love aint that fair
For me love wont ever be the same
For that i have myself to blame
Tags: Love]]>
Story: love is a word i never have by ToughGirl
Let me start this by asking : is it true that everyone deserves the love they need?

As i sat on the couch i began to think and did the flashback in my mind about how un-lovable my life is/was.

I just reached my 20's this early year. let me tell you that i've been living with my mother alone as i was abandoned by the father that claimed to be mine. I love my mom. she means the world to me. but that's it. the love from a mother is all i've ever gotten so far in my life. i can't say that my mom is great, because she is amazing. but i dont want to be so naive to say that i dont need a man company at least once in my life.

i've been living in a world where if there's a girl, mature enough to be in a relationship, has never ever been touched by any guy, she'll be seen as an ugly and unfortunate human.

well, it's me that we're talking about. i just realized that so far in my life i've never been close to any guy. i had never been asked out by any guy. even in prom where everyone was bragging about their prom date. i had no one to go with as a date. seriously, no one.

of course i wonder: what is wrong with me? am i not good enough for anyone to like me?
i just wonder why do i always have so many friends, but i always ended up alone with no one to be personally care about my life.

the girls i've been hanging out with have always been consulting to me about their love life as if im their mom. tbh, im so sick of it. im so sick of how they always ask me about dating advice when they know im never been on a date even once.

a lot of my friends said that im a caring person with a lot of personality. well, if so, i supposed so many people will be attracted to me. but none of that existed.

the feeling of emptiness sometimes dissapeared when im with my family or friends, but then it came back when im alone. deep within my heart, i really need someone (a guy) who cares about me, wants to deal with me and my stupidity, wants to simply ask me out on a saturday night, or even wants to go any place with me.
sometimes there's a little sorrow in my heart when i see anyone is sharing their moment with their love together. dont get me wrong, im happy for them. but i just dont get it why does that never happen to me?

it's not that i hate my life because i think im ugly and no one will like me. it's just how i wonder why guys have never been attracted to me? is this because im not an approchable person? or are they afraid of me? or have i been very closed to the world outside? or just simply something in me doesn't deserved to be loved by anyone?

that's a lot of questions no need to be answered.
Tags: Regret, Pain, Alone, Hurt]]>
Fri, 17 Mar 2017 12:25:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3269 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3269
Let me start this by asking : is it true that everyone deserves the love they need?

As i sat on the couch i began to think and did the flashback in my mind about how un-lovable my life is/was.

I just reached my 20's this early year. let me tell you that i've been living with my mother alone as i was abandoned by the father that claimed to be mine. I love my mom. she means the world to me. but that's it. the love from a mother is all i've ever gotten so far in my life. i can't say that my mom is great, because she is amazing. but i dont want to be so naive to say that i dont need a man company at least once in my life.

i've been living in a world where if there's a girl, mature enough to be in a relationship, has never ever been touched by any guy, she'll be seen as an ugly and unfortunate human.

well, it's me that we're talking about. i just realized that so far in my life i've never been close to any guy. i had never been asked out by any guy. even in prom where everyone was bragging about their prom date. i had no one to go with as a date. seriously, no one.

of course i wonder: what is wrong with me? am i not good enough for anyone to like me?
i just wonder why do i always have so many friends, but i always ended up alone with no one to be personally care about my life.

the girls i've been hanging out with have always been consulting to me about their love life as if im their mom. tbh, im so sick of it. im so sick of how they always ask me about dating advice when they know im never been on a date even once.

a lot of my friends said that im a caring person with a lot of personality. well, if so, i supposed so many people will be attracted to me. but none of that existed.

the feeling of emptiness sometimes dissapeared when im with my family or friends, but then it came back when im alone. deep within my heart, i really need someone (a guy) who cares about me, wants to deal with me and my stupidity, wants to simply ask me out on a saturday night, or even wants to go any place with me.
sometimes there's a little sorrow in my heart when i see anyone is sharing their moment with their love together. dont get me wrong, im happy for them. but i just dont get it why does that never happen to me?

it's not that i hate my life because i think im ugly and no one will like me. it's just how i wonder why guys have never been attracted to me? is this because im not an approchable person? or are they afraid of me? or have i been very closed to the world outside? or just simply something in me doesn't deserved to be loved by anyone?

that's a lot of questions no need to be answered.
Tags: Regret, Pain, Alone, Hurt]]>
Poem: A last attempt at love. by Matthew Pascucci Can’t help myself all I think about is her,
Stuck in a fantasy, she can’t help but stir,
The emotions in my heart , the thoughts in my head,
I lie awake every night, wishing I was dead.
She just doesn't understand the extent of my love,
It’s more than a kiss, more than a hug.

I want to cherish her beauty, and offer her my heart,
I want to hold her forever, I don’t want to be apart.
I wish to heavens that he would make it true,
Because without you girl, I’m feeling blue.
Tags: Love]]>
Thu, 16 Mar 2017 15:45:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3764 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3764 Can’t help myself all I think about is her,
Stuck in a fantasy, she can’t help but stir,
The emotions in my heart , the thoughts in my head,
I lie awake every night, wishing I was dead.
She just doesn't understand the extent of my love,
It’s more than a kiss, more than a hug.

I want to cherish her beauty, and offer her my heart,
I want to hold her forever, I don’t want to be apart.
I wish to heavens that he would make it true,
Because without you girl, I’m feeling blue.
Tags: Love]]>
Story: shattered by kaylee
Her name was Katie. Her life wasn't the best, and wasn't the worst. Her family, wealthy, her house large. But her grades dragged behind her almost always. Her mother was kind, but often harsh, and her dad was barely home. Katie went to school and was really popular. People loved her, if she looked terrible one day, they wouldn't DARE say a thing.

Katie became friends with a boy named Luke. He was friendly, attractive, and still an awkward teenage boy mind. Katie crushed on him for weeks, but he dated her best friend and things got rough. Once they broke up, Katie told him and he didn't like her back. Katie wasn't broken, she was used to rejection, no matter how popular she was and how many people worshipped her, boys never were the big picture.

Luke asked for nudes one day. Over snapchat. Katie made the big mistake if sending pictures of herself in her bra, and sent them, he complimented her to the point were she cried, she'd never gotten complimented by a boy.

Katie's feelings for him decreased over time as his increased for her. She started crushing on this hockey player named Colin. Colin was really hot, and had long hair that was blonde and was super funny. Everything a girl would want. Katie got super close to him and they were good friends. Then one night Luke asked again.

Katie was split. Colin or Luke? Colin was incredibly nice, popular, and never asked for nudes. Luke was that stuff too, but the nude asking was getting to be too much. Katie ignored Luke. He sent a huge paragraph complimenting her and her body and his feelings for her. Colin would never ask for nudes.

Colin was fortunately talking to Katie during the Luke incident. Katie screenshotted the picture sent by Luke of his paragraph, and sent it to Colin. Katie trusted Colin he wouldn't send it to anyone.

The next morning SHE had 900 some texts, FROM NON GROUP MESSAGES. It was all about how Katie sent nudes to Luke! She couldn't believe it. Colin??? Had he done this? Or had Luke suddenly turned... Katie read every text and unfortunately the boy she'd been dreaming over, Colin sent them out. She trusted him. Colin went behind her back and showed people. Luke's situation was worse. He was terribly mad, and said to Katie that "she was worthless, and he regretted everything we did" Katie only wanted to loose her virginity to Luke. If Colin was an option, she might have, but Luke was the only person she could lucre herself with doing that. They had roll played it and gotten so close. Nothing. Katie was torn, she didn't go to school for days. Colin's snapchats were long apologies wanting forgiveness from Katie. Katie was terrible. People were raiding her accounts on social media, calling her names like "Hoe, Worthless prick, Nasty Bitch" and things that could shatter a person with one syllable. Her eyes were never dry.

She every night would cry her eyes out and one day, there were no more tears left. Her face was pale and drained, her eyelashes soaked to the atoms, her brown eyes a sullen grey, and her hands shaky and small.

Later that week, She heard her doorbell, she went to get it, and Colin stood there as she opened the door. "Is it okay if I come in?" He said

"No" She replied, already choking up.

"Is anyone else home?" he asks.

"No"

"Please Katie" He pleads, even his voice is shaky. She tries to close the door but he opens it again. She sniffle and look into his blue eyes. "Don't you understand? You ruined me! Everyone hates me, I have no more friends they all think I'm a fucking slut!" She shrieks. He takes her face in his hands and my eyes are too his shirt. It says "Vans".

Katie back away and run up the stairs. He closes the door behind him and follows her . She plop down on her bed of tissues. SWITCH PERSON POV.
I grab my pillow and hug it, and Colin stumbles in my room. He scans it, and sees my laptop crumpled into a shredded mess in the corner.

I cry a little, and then he sits next to me. "Katie.. I'm really sorry. None of this was supposed to happen, we were best friends I can't let this go. I can't see you in pain." He says his hair waving gently.

I wipe my eyes. "You've causes so much pain" I say.

I look into his eyes again, they're blue diamond, with all the edges of creativity, spunk, and hotness. He takes my hand and looks into my brown eyes. I can't believe this is happening.

I close my eyes and I feel him closer. He kisses me. Gently at first, he's so tall and large and I sit there like a weak lamb next to a Lion. We're still kissing, and I take a little breath. He kissed me harder, but just a little. It's amazing. His hand is on my leg and mine on his chest and in his beautiful hair. His hand is on my back now. His lips are so soft, softer then they seem. When we back away, I wanted to cry. I never waned to separate from him. His hand was still on my back and mine was still on his shoulder and chest.

He looked at me long and said "I've wanted to do that for a very long time" and this is a miracle, but I smirked, or maybe just the edges of my mouth perked but barely.

He released his hand from my back and I took mine off too. I started to get up to open the door for him but he took my hand and made me sit down again. He asked me "Where are your parents?" And I said the truth "Out, they won't be back until Monday."
It was Friday.

That's when I broke my promise to Luke. Colin kissed me again, except with more purpose. My hand flew to his chest again, and his hand was on my waist. WAIST. His hand started to go on my skin. In the rib location first, just moving around in tiny circles. Then He broke me really close his hand wrapped around my waist and my chest was on his. He layed me down still kissing me. Where was this going? My nerves speckled.

He took my shirt off, and it happened.

Luke and I never had it. I broke my promise to him. I said I would never do "it" with anyone other than him. At the end of it. (he brought the essentials btw) at the end of it.. He kissed me gently and we were clothed again. "Katie"
"yes?"
"I never realized how much I love you" and then he left. Actually I made him leave, because At 7:30 Luke was coming over.
Tags: Missing, Hurt]]>
Thu, 16 Mar 2017 12:20:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3268 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3268
Her name was Katie. Her life wasn't the best, and wasn't the worst. Her family, wealthy, her house large. But her grades dragged behind her almost always. Her mother was kind, but often harsh, and her dad was barely home. Katie went to school and was really popular. People loved her, if she looked terrible one day, they wouldn't DARE say a thing.

Katie became friends with a boy named Luke. He was friendly, attractive, and still an awkward teenage boy mind. Katie crushed on him for weeks, but he dated her best friend and things got rough. Once they broke up, Katie told him and he didn't like her back. Katie wasn't broken, she was used to rejection, no matter how popular she was and how many people worshipped her, boys never were the big picture.

Luke asked for nudes one day. Over snapchat. Katie made the big mistake if sending pictures of herself in her bra, and sent them, he complimented her to the point were she cried, she'd never gotten complimented by a boy.

Katie's feelings for him decreased over time as his increased for her. She started crushing on this hockey player named Colin. Colin was really hot, and had long hair that was blonde and was super funny. Everything a girl would want. Katie got super close to him and they were good friends. Then one night Luke asked again.

Katie was split. Colin or Luke? Colin was incredibly nice, popular, and never asked for nudes. Luke was that stuff too, but the nude asking was getting to be too much. Katie ignored Luke. He sent a huge paragraph complimenting her and her body and his feelings for her. Colin would never ask for nudes.

Colin was fortunately talking to Katie during the Luke incident. Katie screenshotted the picture sent by Luke of his paragraph, and sent it to Colin. Katie trusted Colin he wouldn't send it to anyone.

The next morning SHE had 900 some texts, FROM NON GROUP MESSAGES. It was all about how Katie sent nudes to Luke! She couldn't believe it. Colin??? Had he done this? Or had Luke suddenly turned... Katie read every text and unfortunately the boy she'd been dreaming over, Colin sent them out. She trusted him. Colin went behind her back and showed people. Luke's situation was worse. He was terribly mad, and said to Katie that "she was worthless, and he regretted everything we did" Katie only wanted to loose her virginity to Luke. If Colin was an option, she might have, but Luke was the only person she could lucre herself with doing that. They had roll played it and gotten so close. Nothing. Katie was torn, she didn't go to school for days. Colin's snapchats were long apologies wanting forgiveness from Katie. Katie was terrible. People were raiding her accounts on social media, calling her names like "Hoe, Worthless prick, Nasty Bitch" and things that could shatter a person with one syllable. Her eyes were never dry.

She every night would cry her eyes out and one day, there were no more tears left. Her face was pale and drained, her eyelashes soaked to the atoms, her brown eyes a sullen grey, and her hands shaky and small.

Later that week, She heard her doorbell, she went to get it, and Colin stood there as she opened the door. "Is it okay if I come in?" He said

"No" She replied, already choking up.

"Is anyone else home?" he asks.

"No"

"Please Katie" He pleads, even his voice is shaky. She tries to close the door but he opens it again. She sniffle and look into his blue eyes. "Don't you understand? You ruined me! Everyone hates me, I have no more friends they all think I'm a fucking slut!" She shrieks. He takes her face in his hands and my eyes are too his shirt. It says "Vans".

Katie back away and run up the stairs. He closes the door behind him and follows her . She plop down on her bed of tissues. SWITCH PERSON POV.
I grab my pillow and hug it, and Colin stumbles in my room. He scans it, and sees my laptop crumpled into a shredded mess in the corner.

I cry a little, and then he sits next to me. "Katie.. I'm really sorry. None of this was supposed to happen, we were best friends I can't let this go. I can't see you in pain." He says his hair waving gently.

I wipe my eyes. "You've causes so much pain" I say.

I look into his eyes again, they're blue diamond, with all the edges of creativity, spunk, and hotness. He takes my hand and looks into my brown eyes. I can't believe this is happening.

I close my eyes and I feel him closer. He kisses me. Gently at first, he's so tall and large and I sit there like a weak lamb next to a Lion. We're still kissing, and I take a little breath. He kissed me harder, but just a little. It's amazing. His hand is on my leg and mine on his chest and in his beautiful hair. His hand is on my back now. His lips are so soft, softer then they seem. When we back away, I wanted to cry. I never waned to separate from him. His hand was still on my back and mine was still on his shoulder and chest.

He looked at me long and said "I've wanted to do that for a very long time" and this is a miracle, but I smirked, or maybe just the edges of my mouth perked but barely.

He released his hand from my back and I took mine off too. I started to get up to open the door for him but he took my hand and made me sit down again. He asked me "Where are your parents?" And I said the truth "Out, they won't be back until Monday."
It was Friday.

That's when I broke my promise to Luke. Colin kissed me again, except with more purpose. My hand flew to his chest again, and his hand was on my waist. WAIST. His hand started to go on my skin. In the rib location first, just moving around in tiny circles. Then He broke me really close his hand wrapped around my waist and my chest was on his. He layed me down still kissing me. Where was this going? My nerves speckled.

He took my shirt off, and it happened.

Luke and I never had it. I broke my promise to him. I said I would never do "it" with anyone other than him. At the end of it. (he brought the essentials btw) at the end of it.. He kissed me gently and we were clothed again. "Katie"
"yes?"
"I never realized how much I love you" and then he left. Actually I made him leave, because At 7:30 Luke was coming over.
Tags: Missing, Hurt]]>
Poem: My Mask by Kimberly My smile hides my tears.
It's been this way for so many years.
Things aren't always what the seem.

I always seem so happy.
With not a single care in the world.
But you should know sadly,
Many things go untold.

Nobody really knows who I am.
They only know my cover.
But I wish I could let it free.
Let them know what's underneath.

But instead I practice.
My smiles in the mirror.
Then the next thing I do is
Make my fake laugh clearer.

What is wrong? You need help?
Is all they will ask.
So I have decided
To live behind my mask.
Tags: Sadness, Fake, Happiness]]>
Sun, 12 Mar 2017 15:30:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3763 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3763 My smile hides my tears.
It's been this way for so many years.
Things aren't always what the seem.

I always seem so happy.
With not a single care in the world.
But you should know sadly,
Many things go untold.

Nobody really knows who I am.
They only know my cover.
But I wish I could let it free.
Let them know what's underneath.

But instead I practice.
My smiles in the mirror.
Then the next thing I do is
Make my fake laugh clearer.

What is wrong? You need help?
Is all they will ask.
So I have decided
To live behind my mask.
Tags: Sadness, Fake, Happiness]]>
Story: love will tear you up by casey I herd codependency was a bad thing for couples. To feed off of each others feeling could cause a break up? I doubt that theory very much. Maybe my marriage isn't the definition of that, its more like or love grew its own vascular system and we thrive off the respect, trust, and support from each other.

It was a cold morning I can feel it in my bones. I couldn't wait to feel the heat of the melted steel inside the mill. I didn't waste any time in the locker room chatting about the weather I knew all the small talk. Straight into work ten minuets early my crew had no idea I was even there. I stayed busy alone better then in a group. A coworker found me and told me my phone has been ringing none stop. I said its fine just my wife trying to say good morning's, I'll take a break soon. Ten minuets later I was interrupted again this time my father in law called a friend of mine. I can take my break now it must be important. I called back...hey Casey your wife is in the hospital she was rushed into emergency. I can feel deep thuds in my chest. What happened I ask. He was reluctance in saying but he told me she is okay and talking. Should I come home? What happened? They think it was a stroke. I can feel my heart strings snapping and everyone in the break room was looking at me. I'll be there as soon as possible. I think we were married a year when I got that news. It was a forty minuet drive home and I had time to think. I thought about how a twenty seven year old could have a stroke? What if they are wrong? Mostly I thought about how strong she is and how deep in love I am to be in this much pain.

I didn't want to leave her side. She was scared and hurt, I could feel the pain just by her big beautiful eyes.I could only see her a few hours at a time I tried to be alone, so know one would see me cry. Her family wouldn't give me the chance. I think That's when I found out how much I was cared for too. I did get some time to myself to walk the halls of that place. I don't remember looking up from the floor but I was in the gift shop. Out of the corner of my eye I seen a pink turtle with big sad looking eyes. I picked it up and read the tag. Its name was shellbe, I started to tear up a little because shell be okay went round my head for hours as I prayed. Needless to say I bought the pink turtle. My wife shell, went through every test known to diagnose her and every time she was taken away from me I felt horrified. I told her she was going to be fine this is a good place. I think she saw my poker face though and told me to stay calm.

You might of never herd about this because its not common in eastern united states. Moya Moya, yeah that's what caused the stroke. Its a Japanese word for puff of smoke. Oddly when you looked at her brain vessels the resemblance off a puff of smoke was plain as day. The doctor explained that the main artery in her brain was narrow, thin, and clenching. This caused new smaller capillary blood vessels to form. In order to get blood to the vital parts of the organ this caused an odd a peculiar formation of those capillaries. Basically its like relying on a ford to run your brain.

A few years later she gained control of the left side of her body again. Things are looking good with now huge stroke for three years. We took up bicycling and healthier food. Some things needed to be avoided one thing was having a baby. We tried before the stroke and was told babies are not happening anyway. I guess the new healthy lifestyle was enough to get the baby maker in motion because she showed me a positive test.

Doctors, doctors, more doctors. Seven months and a whirl of confusion we come down to a plan. She might now survive a natural birth so a surgery was the choise. It took a congregation of doctors to decide that. I don't want to go in to all the detail but or little love bean was doing okay for the situation also shell was doing good.

Thanksgiving day also shell's birthday she was having contractions...concerned we left for the hospital. The hospital I didn't like but the closest. Confused intern nurse in training could not find the heart beat just like last time. An hour goes by and still the nurse couldn't find it. I grew impatient and told her to get a professional doctor to do the exam. Shell has been in pain the whole time. Tension has been growing and the thought of or son being dead loomed in or heads. Although not spoken yet I seen it in her eyes. The doctor opened the door with a computer that can see into the womb. Well I am sorry I can't find a heart beat....the room was full of tears when the grandparents came in. The pain I felt at that time for the first time was not of my own. Each face I looked at was a samurai sword slicing my sole. I couldn't look up. The doctors order an emergency c.section I freaked out and said. You didn't want to touch her when my son was alive and she is not having surgery here! We want a transport now! With in minutes we got into an ambulance.

I don't know if this was the best idea but I never trusted that hospital. I was buckled in just arms lanth from her. I couldn't take my eyes off her as the ambulance sped off. Not even three minuets go by and she starts to go in labor. A hour Cruz to get to the next trust worthy hospital the paramedic said to drive faster. Looking at my wife I was confused. I don't know how other men feel about a woman in labor? I think its stunningly beautiful how a woman's body can do that. This situation was wrong though. The greatest moment of my life was choking me. If she pushes him out she might have a stroke, I won't hold my son and see him take his first breath. This might be the last time I see my wife. As we get on the highway the sirens blasted and I seen the speedometer hit a hundred and shell said she couldn't breath and started to vomit. I couldn't speak no word all I had in me now was resentment for god. How could we be going through this why would god make her carry a baby to term and take him? How could you give me the most beautiful sight and turn it into the most painful moment I've been in. Five minutes to get there and she is fully in labor. I knew it was to late for surgery and a lost all faith in god. Before I knew it i was walking in the hospital and in fear that I was leaving alone in the next hour. I never left my wife but I was told a few time to leave. But I saw my sons foot come out first. Even though the circumstances I felt very proud yet grief struck me when I seen his lifeless body emerge. On November 27th 2016 a child was born. A child we fought for and longed for. We now grieve for. I could write a book about what happened the few days we spent in the hospital. Shortly said it was hard to believe a miracle happened even thought shell beat all the odds against professional advice. The hardest part for me was the funeral home,I didn't want to sign nothing and I didn't want to be in a house of death.

Its January 28th 2017 two months after the most beautiful disaster I've seen. I see into her eyes after all that's been done for us. Its still isn't enough for the wounds that I too have. They bleed no more from the loss but from when every night she crys. Every moment she wishes for time to turn back, and asks god why all these things happen. I bleed for her, the love we share is that vascular system that pumps between us. But what if love could tear us apart. Like cardiac arrest will the things that keep us together survive another tragedy. Im not saying I would give up on her im just afraid to be torn apart by love its self.
Tags: Love, Lost, Death, Painful, Heartbroken, Scared]]>
Thu, 09 Mar 2017 11:45:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3265 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3265 I herd codependency was a bad thing for couples. To feed off of each others feeling could cause a break up? I doubt that theory very much. Maybe my marriage isn't the definition of that, its more like or love grew its own vascular system and we thrive off the respect, trust, and support from each other.

It was a cold morning I can feel it in my bones. I couldn't wait to feel the heat of the melted steel inside the mill. I didn't waste any time in the locker room chatting about the weather I knew all the small talk. Straight into work ten minuets early my crew had no idea I was even there. I stayed busy alone better then in a group. A coworker found me and told me my phone has been ringing none stop. I said its fine just my wife trying to say good morning's, I'll take a break soon. Ten minuets later I was interrupted again this time my father in law called a friend of mine. I can take my break now it must be important. I called back...hey Casey your wife is in the hospital she was rushed into emergency. I can feel deep thuds in my chest. What happened I ask. He was reluctance in saying but he told me she is okay and talking. Should I come home? What happened? They think it was a stroke. I can feel my heart strings snapping and everyone in the break room was looking at me. I'll be there as soon as possible. I think we were married a year when I got that news. It was a forty minuet drive home and I had time to think. I thought about how a twenty seven year old could have a stroke? What if they are wrong? Mostly I thought about how strong she is and how deep in love I am to be in this much pain.

I didn't want to leave her side. She was scared and hurt, I could feel the pain just by her big beautiful eyes.I could only see her a few hours at a time I tried to be alone, so know one would see me cry. Her family wouldn't give me the chance. I think That's when I found out how much I was cared for too. I did get some time to myself to walk the halls of that place. I don't remember looking up from the floor but I was in the gift shop. Out of the corner of my eye I seen a pink turtle with big sad looking eyes. I picked it up and read the tag. Its name was shellbe, I started to tear up a little because shell be okay went round my head for hours as I prayed. Needless to say I bought the pink turtle. My wife shell, went through every test known to diagnose her and every time she was taken away from me I felt horrified. I told her she was going to be fine this is a good place. I think she saw my poker face though and told me to stay calm.

You might of never herd about this because its not common in eastern united states. Moya Moya, yeah that's what caused the stroke. Its a Japanese word for puff of smoke. Oddly when you looked at her brain vessels the resemblance off a puff of smoke was plain as day. The doctor explained that the main artery in her brain was narrow, thin, and clenching. This caused new smaller capillary blood vessels to form. In order to get blood to the vital parts of the organ this caused an odd a peculiar formation of those capillaries. Basically its like relying on a ford to run your brain.

A few years later she gained control of the left side of her body again. Things are looking good with now huge stroke for three years. We took up bicycling and healthier food. Some things needed to be avoided one thing was having a baby. We tried before the stroke and was told babies are not happening anyway. I guess the new healthy lifestyle was enough to get the baby maker in motion because she showed me a positive test.

Doctors, doctors, more doctors. Seven months and a whirl of confusion we come down to a plan. She might now survive a natural birth so a surgery was the choise. It took a congregation of doctors to decide that. I don't want to go in to all the detail but or little love bean was doing okay for the situation also shell was doing good.

Thanksgiving day also shell's birthday she was having contractions...concerned we left for the hospital. The hospital I didn't like but the closest. Confused intern nurse in training could not find the heart beat just like last time. An hour goes by and still the nurse couldn't find it. I grew impatient and told her to get a professional doctor to do the exam. Shell has been in pain the whole time. Tension has been growing and the thought of or son being dead loomed in or heads. Although not spoken yet I seen it in her eyes. The doctor opened the door with a computer that can see into the womb. Well I am sorry I can't find a heart beat....the room was full of tears when the grandparents came in. The pain I felt at that time for the first time was not of my own. Each face I looked at was a samurai sword slicing my sole. I couldn't look up. The doctors order an emergency c.section I freaked out and said. You didn't want to touch her when my son was alive and she is not having surgery here! We want a transport now! With in minutes we got into an ambulance.

I don't know if this was the best idea but I never trusted that hospital. I was buckled in just arms lanth from her. I couldn't take my eyes off her as the ambulance sped off. Not even three minuets go by and she starts to go in labor. A hour Cruz to get to the next trust worthy hospital the paramedic said to drive faster. Looking at my wife I was confused. I don't know how other men feel about a woman in labor? I think its stunningly beautiful how a woman's body can do that. This situation was wrong though. The greatest moment of my life was choking me. If she pushes him out she might have a stroke, I won't hold my son and see him take his first breath. This might be the last time I see my wife. As we get on the highway the sirens blasted and I seen the speedometer hit a hundred and shell said she couldn't breath and started to vomit. I couldn't speak no word all I had in me now was resentment for god. How could we be going through this why would god make her carry a baby to term and take him? How could you give me the most beautiful sight and turn it into the most painful moment I've been in. Five minutes to get there and she is fully in labor. I knew it was to late for surgery and a lost all faith in god. Before I knew it i was walking in the hospital and in fear that I was leaving alone in the next hour. I never left my wife but I was told a few time to leave. But I saw my sons foot come out first. Even though the circumstances I felt very proud yet grief struck me when I seen his lifeless body emerge. On November 27th 2016 a child was born. A child we fought for and longed for. We now grieve for. I could write a book about what happened the few days we spent in the hospital. Shortly said it was hard to believe a miracle happened even thought shell beat all the odds against professional advice. The hardest part for me was the funeral home,I didn't want to sign nothing and I didn't want to be in a house of death.

Its January 28th 2017 two months after the most beautiful disaster I've seen. I see into her eyes after all that's been done for us. Its still isn't enough for the wounds that I too have. They bleed no more from the loss but from when every night she crys. Every moment she wishes for time to turn back, and asks god why all these things happen. I bleed for her, the love we share is that vascular system that pumps between us. But what if love could tear us apart. Like cardiac arrest will the things that keep us together survive another tragedy. Im not saying I would give up on her im just afraid to be torn apart by love its self.
Tags: Love, Lost, Death, Painful, Heartbroken, Scared]]>
Story: Open The Darkness, I'm Home by casey
My mind was racing my heart was breaking and for the first time in my life i lost control of my thoughts. All I could do is think about how worthless my life had become in one weekend's time. I don't know if this caused my depression or if its always been there. But right now I want to hang myself. Trying to shake away my thoughts I went for a walk. I stopped at the speedy mart I grabbed a Mt.dew and a five dollar scratch ticket. Walking out of the store I scratch of all the prizes and by the looks of all the high dollar prizes I didn't win but I put it in my pocket anyway. My thoughts were getting to me. How could I feel this much pain? I am not physically hurt, and I can't seem to find myself. Im not making any sense to myself. Now im talking to myself. Something happend to me that night and I need professional help.
My life was at a stand still i can feel a thickening silence in me. I am very relaxed and at ease with my self. I can tend to my feelings and mend my sole. I felt the weight of gravity lifting off my body. I am unsure of how long its been but I can see visions of a pill bottle and my sister with her finger in my mouth. I can here the soft silence starting to break with a horrible ringing noise. My body is in pain again I open my eyes crying. Im in a hospital hooked up to all kinds of stuff. I pulled all the tubes out and screamed. That was all I can remember I woke up in a different room with a desk and paper work. How to cope with thoughts and depression. Try a hobby....really  I asked I dropped the paper on the floor. I looked out the window across from my bed. It must be early morning I can here people moving around out side the door. A male nurse comes in and asked me if I had any thoughts of suicide or harming others. I said no, he asked me what happend? I don't know I guess I almost died from taking pills. With a raised eye brow he asked. Do you know where you are? Yeah I am in a hospital. You been in the i.c.u. for a few days then you came here last night. Here? What's here? Casey you are now in a mental health care unit the doctor here wanted to evaluate you. I raised my voice and said I don't need it! He interrupted my soon to be rant with...well your here for seventy two hours like it or not and walked our. I was to weak to leave any way.Emerging from the hospital I was glad to walk home. I love long walks anyway and it was a calm breezy day with puffy clouds in the air. Walking for an hour and a half gave me time to think how I want to plan my life but all I could do is admire the world...must be the meds. All I really wanted was my bike and a long trail to ride. I finally made it to my sisters house nobody was home but the basement door was unlocked. I was going through some close I had and found that lottery ticket. At first i thought loser but I never checked I scratched the rest off and won twenty grand. Shocked and happy I claimed my prize in a week without anyone knowing.  Now fifteen grand in my pocket I grasped my bike and caught the first bus out of Pittsburgh. Heading to Erie pa. and out of the town full of people I hate and away from drugs in my face. On the bus I thought about what I would do. I knew I couldn't live long off this money it might be better if I save it and find a job. So when I arrived in my new town I saw the lake and it was beautiful. The bus station was right on the shore I seen sea gulls everywhere and boats. The sun was shining bright and the air was cool, the smell was new. I explored the town with a feeling of curiosity on every turn. I found bike stores places that have live music and free food at a soup kitchen that is so good. It was the only place I ate every day three meals. I put  my money in a bank and told the story about how I won and what I wanted to do. They suggested a cash deposit for a year and I would gain what I paid in taxes back. So I was broke for a year witch want bad  I had hopes of finding a job. Living on the was not fun though but I soon found the place I ate, they too sheltered people. I had to be there by nine at night and hope I get a bed and I had to leave by seven in the morning. After a few days I found out that they let people live there also. Only if you had a drug addiction and you wanted help. If I signed on i could stay for the year get my life together and move on. One problem I was not hooked on drugs.
Tags: Depression]]>
Wed, 08 Mar 2017 11:40:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3262 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3262
My mind was racing my heart was breaking and for the first time in my life i lost control of my thoughts. All I could do is think about how worthless my life had become in one weekend's time. I don't know if this caused my depression or if its always been there. But right now I want to hang myself. Trying to shake away my thoughts I went for a walk. I stopped at the speedy mart I grabbed a Mt.dew and a five dollar scratch ticket. Walking out of the store I scratch of all the prizes and by the looks of all the high dollar prizes I didn't win but I put it in my pocket anyway. My thoughts were getting to me. How could I feel this much pain? I am not physically hurt, and I can't seem to find myself. Im not making any sense to myself. Now im talking to myself. Something happend to me that night and I need professional help.
My life was at a stand still i can feel a thickening silence in me. I am very relaxed and at ease with my self. I can tend to my feelings and mend my sole. I felt the weight of gravity lifting off my body. I am unsure of how long its been but I can see visions of a pill bottle and my sister with her finger in my mouth. I can here the soft silence starting to break with a horrible ringing noise. My body is in pain again I open my eyes crying. Im in a hospital hooked up to all kinds of stuff. I pulled all the tubes out and screamed. That was all I can remember I woke up in a different room with a desk and paper work. How to cope with thoughts and depression. Try a hobby....really  I asked I dropped the paper on the floor. I looked out the window across from my bed. It must be early morning I can here people moving around out side the door. A male nurse comes in and asked me if I had any thoughts of suicide or harming others. I said no, he asked me what happend? I don't know I guess I almost died from taking pills. With a raised eye brow he asked. Do you know where you are? Yeah I am in a hospital. You been in the i.c.u. for a few days then you came here last night. Here? What's here? Casey you are now in a mental health care unit the doctor here wanted to evaluate you. I raised my voice and said I don't need it! He interrupted my soon to be rant with...well your here for seventy two hours like it or not and walked our. I was to weak to leave any way.Emerging from the hospital I was glad to walk home. I love long walks anyway and it was a calm breezy day with puffy clouds in the air. Walking for an hour and a half gave me time to think how I want to plan my life but all I could do is admire the world...must be the meds. All I really wanted was my bike and a long trail to ride. I finally made it to my sisters house nobody was home but the basement door was unlocked. I was going through some close I had and found that lottery ticket. At first i thought loser but I never checked I scratched the rest off and won twenty grand. Shocked and happy I claimed my prize in a week without anyone knowing.  Now fifteen grand in my pocket I grasped my bike and caught the first bus out of Pittsburgh. Heading to Erie pa. and out of the town full of people I hate and away from drugs in my face. On the bus I thought about what I would do. I knew I couldn't live long off this money it might be better if I save it and find a job. So when I arrived in my new town I saw the lake and it was beautiful. The bus station was right on the shore I seen sea gulls everywhere and boats. The sun was shining bright and the air was cool, the smell was new. I explored the town with a feeling of curiosity on every turn. I found bike stores places that have live music and free food at a soup kitchen that is so good. It was the only place I ate every day three meals. I put  my money in a bank and told the story about how I won and what I wanted to do. They suggested a cash deposit for a year and I would gain what I paid in taxes back. So I was broke for a year witch want bad  I had hopes of finding a job. Living on the was not fun though but I soon found the place I ate, they too sheltered people. I had to be there by nine at night and hope I get a bed and I had to leave by seven in the morning. After a few days I found out that they let people live there also. Only if you had a drug addiction and you wanted help. If I signed on i could stay for the year get my life together and move on. One problem I was not hooked on drugs.
Tags: Depression]]>
Story: Heart-Broken by Arianna
I wasn’t always like this, but I had to secure myself from any feelings for anyone. I used to be completely and madly in love. And I thought we’d end up together, but we didn’t. He ended up falling for the blonde headed, skanky look, ugly faced, whore. When I first met, her I did not like her. I met the ex-love of my life at my school. He made my face light up with just his smile. I was about 6 and he was 9 when I first met him. He was tall, handsome, smart, funny, and amazing. I could stare into his light brown eyes and never look away. His name was Jackson. But, I ended up leaving for a year. I didn’t come back and I didn’t know what for.

I came back after summer break to find a new student there. Her name was Crystal. She wasn’t all that great at anything, but she seemed nice. As I walked through those hallway doors again, I found Jackson standing at the other side of the room talking to Crystal. When he saw, me he rushed over and hugged me tight and I felt so happy to know I was still his girl. May I remind you I wasn’t his girlfriend but the new girl seemed interested in that position. She was very touchy and clingy over him. It kind of made me mad, but I had to remember he wasn’t mine.

A few months passed and Jackson stopped hanging with me. He was always around Crystal and this time I wasn’t too happy. I tried everything texting, talking, calling, but nothing. So, I finally decided I wanted to tell him how I felt about him. I was about to leave to Florida for summer break and I told Crystal to tell him for me and report back. At that time, I thought she was my friend so I trusted her. When she told, him he told me that he didn’t feel the same way. I was upset. So, out of sadness I told her to tell him I didn’t want to be friends anymore. When I asked how he reacted she told me he was crushed.

When I left to Florida I realized I made a mistake. I wanted to be friends with him again. But I knew he wouldn’t want the same thing and I was right. I spent the whole summer thinking about what I would say to him. Would I just beat around the bush or just tell him? After about two months in the hot, I came home. I was excited to be back, but crushed to know that my best friend isn’t my best friend anymore. He and Crystal became close. When I mean, close I mean CLOSE. They both developed feelings for each other. The one person I wanted to see after I got back, was Jackson and my best girlfriend. When I came back that Monday I was told that Jackson and Crystal were together. I just couldn’t believe that after I told her to tell him how I felt she still went after him.

This is when I realized she wasn’t a friend anymore. I spent days and weeks crying my eyes out. The thought of them being together was really upsetting, but knowing that Jackson didn’t even try to fix our friendship was the worst feeling in the world. We’ve been friends for almost 5 years and he didn’t try to fix it. That point made me realize that he wasn’t my best friend anymore, he was hers.

For all my readers, I want you to know that this whole story is true. I went through every upsetting and crushing moment. Now she’s going to his house all the time and stealing the people I love. They don’t call me to hang out anymore. They call her. I just feel that since she arrived my life has been even more depressing than it was before. Every day I wish that she would’ve never walked through those doors. But, he’s happy. So, I’m happy. I just wish he could’ve been happy with me. I guess love is something you can’t push, but something you find.

That is why I close my heart off with 3 chains and 7 locks. I can’t be broken again. I know I’m young but he was everything to me, and now he’s everything to her.
Tags: Love Hurts, Heartbroken, Depressed, Sadness]]>
Sun, 26 Feb 2017 11:00:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3258 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3258
I wasn’t always like this, but I had to secure myself from any feelings for anyone. I used to be completely and madly in love. And I thought we’d end up together, but we didn’t. He ended up falling for the blonde headed, skanky look, ugly faced, whore. When I first met, her I did not like her. I met the ex-love of my life at my school. He made my face light up with just his smile. I was about 6 and he was 9 when I first met him. He was tall, handsome, smart, funny, and amazing. I could stare into his light brown eyes and never look away. His name was Jackson. But, I ended up leaving for a year. I didn’t come back and I didn’t know what for.

I came back after summer break to find a new student there. Her name was Crystal. She wasn’t all that great at anything, but she seemed nice. As I walked through those hallway doors again, I found Jackson standing at the other side of the room talking to Crystal. When he saw, me he rushed over and hugged me tight and I felt so happy to know I was still his girl. May I remind you I wasn’t his girlfriend but the new girl seemed interested in that position. She was very touchy and clingy over him. It kind of made me mad, but I had to remember he wasn’t mine.

A few months passed and Jackson stopped hanging with me. He was always around Crystal and this time I wasn’t too happy. I tried everything texting, talking, calling, but nothing. So, I finally decided I wanted to tell him how I felt about him. I was about to leave to Florida for summer break and I told Crystal to tell him for me and report back. At that time, I thought she was my friend so I trusted her. When she told, him he told me that he didn’t feel the same way. I was upset. So, out of sadness I told her to tell him I didn’t want to be friends anymore. When I asked how he reacted she told me he was crushed.

When I left to Florida I realized I made a mistake. I wanted to be friends with him again. But I knew he wouldn’t want the same thing and I was right. I spent the whole summer thinking about what I would say to him. Would I just beat around the bush or just tell him? After about two months in the hot, I came home. I was excited to be back, but crushed to know that my best friend isn’t my best friend anymore. He and Crystal became close. When I mean, close I mean CLOSE. They both developed feelings for each other. The one person I wanted to see after I got back, was Jackson and my best girlfriend. When I came back that Monday I was told that Jackson and Crystal were together. I just couldn’t believe that after I told her to tell him how I felt she still went after him.

This is when I realized she wasn’t a friend anymore. I spent days and weeks crying my eyes out. The thought of them being together was really upsetting, but knowing that Jackson didn’t even try to fix our friendship was the worst feeling in the world. We’ve been friends for almost 5 years and he didn’t try to fix it. That point made me realize that he wasn’t my best friend anymore, he was hers.

For all my readers, I want you to know that this whole story is true. I went through every upsetting and crushing moment. Now she’s going to his house all the time and stealing the people I love. They don’t call me to hang out anymore. They call her. I just feel that since she arrived my life has been even more depressing than it was before. Every day I wish that she would’ve never walked through those doors. But, he’s happy. So, I’m happy. I just wish he could’ve been happy with me. I guess love is something you can’t push, but something you find.

That is why I close my heart off with 3 chains and 7 locks. I can’t be broken again. I know I’m young but he was everything to me, and now he’s everything to her.
Tags: Love Hurts, Heartbroken, Depressed, Sadness]]>
Movie: La La Land by Damien Chazelle
Mia, an aspiring actress, serves lattes to movie stars in between auditions and Sebastian, a jazz musician, scrapes by playing cocktail party gigs in dingy bars, but as success mounts they are faced with decisions that begin to fray the fragile fabric of their love affair, and the dreams they worked so hard to maintain in each other threaten to rip them apart.

Tags: Breakup, Love, Life, Career]]>
Wed, 01 Feb 2017 05:33:18 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=137 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=137
Mia, an aspiring actress, serves lattes to movie stars in between auditions and Sebastian, a jazz musician, scrapes by playing cocktail party gigs in dingy bars, but as success mounts they are faced with decisions that begin to fray the fragile fabric of their love affair, and the dreams they worked so hard to maintain in each other threaten to rip them apart.

Tags: Breakup, Love, Life, Career]]>
Quote: You still get your hopes us, even t... by Gabriella R Tags: Hurt, Broken, Hope, Hopless, Hate]]> Sat, 21 Jan 2017 11:45:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Hurt, Broken, Hope, Hopless, Hate]]> Quote: You can't wait for something that w... by Gabriella R Tags: Lonely, Hope, Heartbroken, Hoplessness, Broken, Hurt, Sad]]> Fri, 20 Jan 2017 11:40:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Lonely, Hope, Heartbroken, Hoplessness, Broken, Hurt, Sad]]> Quote: She will cry, and get over it, She... by unknown She will hate you and
then love u again
But one day she will leave and
she won't come back
Tags: Unloved, Gone]]>
Thu, 19 Jan 2017 11:35:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes She will hate you and
then love u again
But one day she will leave and
she won't come back
Tags: Unloved, Gone]]>
Quote: "You don't have the right to give u... by Gabriella R Tags: Try, Give Up, Alone]]> Wed, 18 Jan 2017 11:30:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Try, Give Up, Alone]]> Quote: Even though you try to forget, forg... by Olivia Tags: Unloved]]> Tue, 17 Jan 2017 11:25:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Unloved]]> Song: What will I Do Without Your Love by Jerry Harrenstein
Just as things get sweet
you back down again
leaving me to ponder if
this is the end.
When I think we are going
to meet my heart skips a beat
and capturing your love would
be something to cherish and keep.

Now you are fading out of view
and I do not know what to do.
When I last looked into your eyes
you began to cry and with hesitation
I wondered if I saw a lie.
Then I began to cry.
Do I go on without knowing, or do I
let my heart say I must be going?

My pain is so deep
I can not even sleep.
The days are getting shorter
and my love is going in that order.
Time is near my dear
and I must make things clear.
Perhaps a smile, or your gentle touch.
Would that be asking too much?

Loving you is all I want to do
and that is not hard for me to do
especially when it is someone like you.
I believe in love and you too, but
without your love what will I do?
What will I do without you...
Tags: Sad, Unloved]]>
Sat, 03 Dec 2016 19:51:20 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=238 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=238
Just as things get sweet
you back down again
leaving me to ponder if
this is the end.
When I think we are going
to meet my heart skips a beat
and capturing your love would
be something to cherish and keep.

Now you are fading out of view
and I do not know what to do.
When I last looked into your eyes
you began to cry and with hesitation
I wondered if I saw a lie.
Then I began to cry.
Do I go on without knowing, or do I
let my heart say I must be going?

My pain is so deep
I can not even sleep.
The days are getting shorter
and my love is going in that order.
Time is near my dear
and I must make things clear.
Perhaps a smile, or your gentle touch.
Would that be asking too much?

Loving you is all I want to do
and that is not hard for me to do
especially when it is someone like you.
I believe in love and you too, but
without your love what will I do?
What will I do without you...
Tags: Sad, Unloved]]>
Picture: Gloomy Sunday by Neriak gloomy, art
Tags: Gloomy, Art]]>
Sat, 12 Nov 2016 08:05:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1798 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1798 gloomy, art
Tags: Gloomy, Art]]>
Picture: Gloomy day by Smil gloomy, trees
Tags: Gloomy, Trees]]>
Thu, 10 Nov 2016 20:00:03 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1797 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1797 gloomy, trees
Tags: Gloomy, Trees]]>
Picture: Your Kind Of Love Hurts by jerry harrenstein hurt, art
Tags: Hurt, Art]]>
Wed, 09 Nov 2016 08:00:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1771 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1771 hurt, art
Tags: Hurt, Art]]>
Picture: Gloomy by malialeon gloomy, face
Tags: Gloomy, Face]]>
Tue, 08 Nov 2016 05:50:41 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1796 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1796 gloomy, face
Tags: Gloomy, Face]]>
Quote: And at the end of the day we are al... by Unknown Tags: Love, Broken]]> Wed, 26 Oct 2016 04:55:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Love, Broken]]> Quote: We were not perfect for the world, ... by IAU Tags: Love, Breakup, Precious, Quotes]]> Tue, 25 Oct 2016 04:50:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Love, Breakup, Precious, Quotes]]> Quote: When life gives you pain make sure ... by zanele it's killing them to see you strong.
Tags: Be Strong, Be Happy]]>
Mon, 24 Oct 2016 04:45:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes it's killing them to see you strong.
Tags: Be Strong, Be Happy]]>
Quote: Love is Hard to find... Harder to ... by Wall-e Das Harder to keep.... &
Hardest to Forget.. !!!
Tags: Suffering, Love]]>
Sun, 23 Oct 2016 04:40:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Harder to keep.... &
Hardest to Forget.. !!!
Tags: Suffering, Love]]>
Picture: Sad Lonely Boy by Shivam das alone, sad
Tags: Alone, Sad]]>
Mon, 25 Jul 2016 15:10:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1772 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1772 alone, sad
Tags: Alone, Sad]]>
Picture: Iranian sad by Hiva blood
Tags: Blood]]>
Sun, 24 Jul 2016 03:05:03 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1770 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1770 blood
Tags: Blood]]>
Picture: Your Leaving Me by jerry harrenstein sad, heartbroken, scared, hurt
Tags: Sad, Heartbroken, Scared, Hurt]]>
Fri, 22 Jul 2016 15:05:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1763 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1763 sad, heartbroken, scared, hurt
Tags: Sad, Heartbroken, Scared, Hurt]]>
Picture: #PAIN# by sathees pain, broken, death
Tags: Pain, Broken, Death]]>
Thu, 21 Jul 2016 03:00:03 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1762 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1762 pain, broken, death
Tags: Pain, Broken, Death]]>
Article: Sadness and Recovery from Addiction  

For over 50 years now, standard treatments for recovery from addiction have included cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and 12-step approaches. The past couple of decades, though, have seen alternative treatment models emerge, largely because of the relatively low success rate of some of the most popular treatments available. Since there is no single road to addiction, standard treatments sometimes fail because they fail to address the needs of the particular individual, or the reasons why they have sought their own private escape, through drugs. Addiction can arise from a variety of causes, according to recent research. Contributing causes include genetic factors, having a mental illness, abuse, etc.

Alternative therapies that are currently being used successfully in many top rehabilitation centers across the globe include yoga and mindfulness meditation (which focus on keeping the individual’s mind ‘in the here and now’, encouraging them to feel and ‘ride through’ their cravings instead of succumbing to a ‘higher power’ for help or trying to push their desires away). Horticultural therapy and art therapy, too, have garnered their fair share of success; the former because of its strong mindfulness component and the latter because of its ability to embrace an addict’s ambivalent feelings about quitting drugs. Art therapy is an important component of motivational interviewing, which seeks to promote reliance on the self to overcome addiction by finding inspiring reasons to quit.

A person who is addicted to drugs has many positive things to look forward to when they are drug-free. These include mending bridges with family and friends who may feel let down, finding one’s place in one’s profession once again and having he chance to do what ignites one’s passion, and enjoying a sense of greater physical and mental wellness. Motivational interviewing through art therapy, however, provides the recovering person with the chance to express their sadness. It is unrealistic to think that there is nothing an addict will miss when they are no longer using and they should have a chance to recognize and express their ambivalent feelings. Because art is so symbolic, it permits many interpretations and through their work (and with an aid of a trained therapist), the person in recovery can talk about why using drugs fulfilled them, without feeling like they are being judged, blamed or criticized.

What is there to feel sad about when one quits drug use? Addicts in recovery may miss the group of friends they used to use with, or a person they were romantically involved with; they may miss the high, the feeling of escape, the elation of avoiding responsibility. The individual should be allowed to express their grief about quitting drugs. Like all other grief, theirs travels through different stages (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance). Note that depression (feeling intensely sad, feeling hopeless or without the motivation to do things one used to love) is an undeniable part of the recovery process. We should never disenfranchise someone of the right to grieve, yet many recovery therapies fail because they seek to do just that. Families and friends should be sensitive to this issue and should not force the individual to see only the positive side of recovery.

Sadness should be acknowledged and heard, largely because for many drug users, it is a feeling of emptiness, loneliness or lack of self-worth that lead them to use drugs in the first place. Families supporting a loved one through recovery can help their loved one by also undergoing therapy/counselling. When a loved one is struggling, the last thing they need is to be nagged, criticized or blamed, yet family members, too, should refrain from blaming themselves. Rather, any weaknesses in the family’s manner of communication, poor conflict resolution techniques etc. should be identified and addressed, with family members always looking ahead towards the common goal – helping the person in recovery and every other member in the family achieve greater health and wellbeing. During counselling, family members, too, should be encouraged to express their sadness. Many individuals harbour guilt because they feel they could have done more for their loved one, yet in the end, the causes of addiction are too profound and complex to identify so that everyone should work on improving what they can, accepting themselves and their loved one just as they are – with their sadness, anger, and disappointment, but also with their dreams, their hope and their love, which always remains, regardless of the vicissitudes faced.

 

- Article from Gemma Galway 


Tags: Recovery, Drug, Sadness, Gemma Galway]]>
Fri, 15 Jul 2016 09:36:08 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=6 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=6  

For over 50 years now, standard treatments for recovery from addiction have included cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and 12-step approaches. The past couple of decades, though, have seen alternative treatment models emerge, largely because of the relatively low success rate of some of the most popular treatments available. Since there is no single road to addiction, standard treatments sometimes fail because they fail to address the needs of the particular individual, or the reasons why they have sought their own private escape, through drugs. Addiction can arise from a variety of causes, according to recent research. Contributing causes include genetic factors, having a mental illness, abuse, etc.

Alternative therapies that are currently being used successfully in many top rehabilitation centers across the globe include yoga and mindfulness meditation (which focus on keeping the individual’s mind ‘in the here and now’, encouraging them to feel and ‘ride through’ their cravings instead of succumbing to a ‘higher power’ for help or trying to push their desires away). Horticultural therapy and art therapy, too, have garnered their fair share of success; the former because of its strong mindfulness component and the latter because of its ability to embrace an addict’s ambivalent feelings about quitting drugs. Art therapy is an important component of motivational interviewing, which seeks to promote reliance on the self to overcome addiction by finding inspiring reasons to quit.

A person who is addicted to drugs has many positive things to look forward to when they are drug-free. These include mending bridges with family and friends who may feel let down, finding one’s place in one’s profession once again and having he chance to do what ignites one’s passion, and enjoying a sense of greater physical and mental wellness. Motivational interviewing through art therapy, however, provides the recovering person with the chance to express their sadness. It is unrealistic to think that there is nothing an addict will miss when they are no longer using and they should have a chance to recognize and express their ambivalent feelings. Because art is so symbolic, it permits many interpretations and through their work (and with an aid of a trained therapist), the person in recovery can talk about why using drugs fulfilled them, without feeling like they are being judged, blamed or criticized.

What is there to feel sad about when one quits drug use? Addicts in recovery may miss the group of friends they used to use with, or a person they were romantically involved with; they may miss the high, the feeling of escape, the elation of avoiding responsibility. The individual should be allowed to express their grief about quitting drugs. Like all other grief, theirs travels through different stages (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance). Note that depression (feeling intensely sad, feeling hopeless or without the motivation to do things one used to love) is an undeniable part of the recovery process. We should never disenfranchise someone of the right to grieve, yet many recovery therapies fail because they seek to do just that. Families and friends should be sensitive to this issue and should not force the individual to see only the positive side of recovery.

Sadness should be acknowledged and heard, largely because for many drug users, it is a feeling of emptiness, loneliness or lack of self-worth that lead them to use drugs in the first place. Families supporting a loved one through recovery can help their loved one by also undergoing therapy/counselling. When a loved one is struggling, the last thing they need is to be nagged, criticized or blamed, yet family members, too, should refrain from blaming themselves. Rather, any weaknesses in the family’s manner of communication, poor conflict resolution techniques etc. should be identified and addressed, with family members always looking ahead towards the common goal – helping the person in recovery and every other member in the family achieve greater health and wellbeing. During counselling, family members, too, should be encouraged to express their sadness. Many individuals harbour guilt because they feel they could have done more for their loved one, yet in the end, the causes of addiction are too profound and complex to identify so that everyone should work on improving what they can, accepting themselves and their loved one just as they are – with their sadness, anger, and disappointment, but also with their dreams, their hope and their love, which always remains, regardless of the vicissitudes faced.

 

- Article from Gemma Galway 


Tags: Recovery, Drug, Sadness, Gemma Galway]]>
Article: The Cathartic Nature of Sad Music

Popular music tends to fall into two wide (and generalised) categories): it is either the kind of music you want to dance to, and listen to when you are partying with your friends or, it is soulful and heart-breaking ballads that make you want to think, reminisce about loves that you have lost, and have a good cry.

There is nothing wrong with crying when listening to sad music: in fact, it is a common and natural response. What you may not realise however is that crying in these circumstances can actually be cathartic, helping to stabilise your emotions and, ultimately release hormones that make you feel happier and more well-balanced. This is supported by research from a study into our complicated emotional responses to sad music, conducted by researchers at the Free University of Berlin in Germany. They interviewed 772 music lovers from around the world and found that rather than making them feel exclusively sad, listening to sad music also made them feel nostalgic, tender and peaceful.  The researchers concluded that “For many individuals, listening to sad music can actually lead to beneficial emotional effects…  “Music-evoked sadness can be appreciated not only as an aesthetic, abstract reward, but [it] also plays a role in well-being, by providing consolation as well as regulating negative moods and emotions.”

The Mood of the Audience

It is true that people tend to listen to sad music when they are feeling sad themselves. However, that doesn’t mean that listening to those designated ‘sad songs’ will make them sadder. In fact, it may help to regulate your mood, put your own sad emotions back into perspective and, ultimately, you may find that you get to the end of your favourite sad album feeling happier, more calm, and generally in a much better mood.  Thus the intended emotions depicted in the song are not necessarily reflected in the mood of their audience.

It is no coincidence that many of the best musicians, composers and song writers are no strangers to sadness themselves: whether they have suffered from the personal tragedy of loss, or feel a sense of wider sadness in the world (caused by hyper-sensitivity, depression, or mental illness) many musical artists will report that they understand sadness and pain. Many musical performers also succumb to the hell and subsequent sadness of alcoholism and substance abuse, which is probably why they have such a natural affinity with sadness, and why it is a common theme in their work. It is widely reported that writing about sad experiences can be cathartic. In fact, individuals that indulge in memoir writing and keeping a diary are found to be happier overall than individuals who don’t write down their thoughts and feelings and ‘writing therapy’ is a widely acknowledged and very effective treatment for individuals suffering from depression, anxiety, or overcoming substance abuse problems. Therefore it could well be that for the artists involved, writing their sad songs is actually a cathartic act, designed to help them to overcome their sad and negative emotions and break through to a place that is healthier and happier.

An Important Form of Self-Expression

For adolescents and adults experiencing emotional or mental health disconnections, sad music can be appealing because it provides a way of verbalising emotions they are experiencing but simply don’t have  the vocabulary to express themselves. This is also common as a way of self-expression amongst teenager: choosing to listen to sad or angry music (for example) as a way of expressing, in a non-verbal way, the way that they feel towards their parents, their peers, or the world in general. However that doesn’t mean that those individuals are feeling sad or angry: by expressing those emotions through their musical choices, they are often able to relieve themselves of their stress and tension, meaning that they end their listening experience feeling calm, heard, understood and under control

No matter what your reason for choosing to listen to a sad tune or two, there is nothing more cathartic than listening to a truly sad song, so why not turn on your stereo and listen to some of your favourites. However, don’t be surprised if you find yourself feeling happy and calm, and not sad at all, at the end of your session. 

 

- Article from Gemma Galway 


Tags: Music, Sad Music, Gemma Galway]]>
Mon, 11 Jul 2016 03:41:46 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=5 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=5

Popular music tends to fall into two wide (and generalised) categories): it is either the kind of music you want to dance to, and listen to when you are partying with your friends or, it is soulful and heart-breaking ballads that make you want to think, reminisce about loves that you have lost, and have a good cry.

There is nothing wrong with crying when listening to sad music: in fact, it is a common and natural response. What you may not realise however is that crying in these circumstances can actually be cathartic, helping to stabilise your emotions and, ultimately release hormones that make you feel happier and more well-balanced. This is supported by research from a study into our complicated emotional responses to sad music, conducted by researchers at the Free University of Berlin in Germany. They interviewed 772 music lovers from around the world and found that rather than making them feel exclusively sad, listening to sad music also made them feel nostalgic, tender and peaceful.  The researchers concluded that “For many individuals, listening to sad music can actually lead to beneficial emotional effects…  “Music-evoked sadness can be appreciated not only as an aesthetic, abstract reward, but [it] also plays a role in well-being, by providing consolation as well as regulating negative moods and emotions.”

The Mood of the Audience

It is true that people tend to listen to sad music when they are feeling sad themselves. However, that doesn’t mean that listening to those designated ‘sad songs’ will make them sadder. In fact, it may help to regulate your mood, put your own sad emotions back into perspective and, ultimately, you may find that you get to the end of your favourite sad album feeling happier, more calm, and generally in a much better mood.  Thus the intended emotions depicted in the song are not necessarily reflected in the mood of their audience.

It is no coincidence that many of the best musicians, composers and song writers are no strangers to sadness themselves: whether they have suffered from the personal tragedy of loss, or feel a sense of wider sadness in the world (caused by hyper-sensitivity, depression, or mental illness) many musical artists will report that they understand sadness and pain. Many musical performers also succumb to the hell and subsequent sadness of alcoholism and substance abuse, which is probably why they have such a natural affinity with sadness, and why it is a common theme in their work. It is widely reported that writing about sad experiences can be cathartic. In fact, individuals that indulge in memoir writing and keeping a diary are found to be happier overall than individuals who don’t write down their thoughts and feelings and ‘writing therapy’ is a widely acknowledged and very effective treatment for individuals suffering from depression, anxiety, or overcoming substance abuse problems. Therefore it could well be that for the artists involved, writing their sad songs is actually a cathartic act, designed to help them to overcome their sad and negative emotions and break through to a place that is healthier and happier.

An Important Form of Self-Expression

For adolescents and adults experiencing emotional or mental health disconnections, sad music can be appealing because it provides a way of verbalising emotions they are experiencing but simply don’t have  the vocabulary to express themselves. This is also common as a way of self-expression amongst teenager: choosing to listen to sad or angry music (for example) as a way of expressing, in a non-verbal way, the way that they feel towards their parents, their peers, or the world in general. However that doesn’t mean that those individuals are feeling sad or angry: by expressing those emotions through their musical choices, they are often able to relieve themselves of their stress and tension, meaning that they end their listening experience feeling calm, heard, understood and under control

No matter what your reason for choosing to listen to a sad tune or two, there is nothing more cathartic than listening to a truly sad song, so why not turn on your stereo and listen to some of your favourites. However, don’t be surprised if you find yourself feeling happy and calm, and not sad at all, at the end of your session. 

 

- Article from Gemma Galway 


Tags: Music, Sad Music, Gemma Galway]]>
Picture: how hard it is to hold on to by alone in tears alone, tears, missing, isolated, crying, lonely, tired, broken
Tags: Alone, Tears, Missing, Isolated, Crying, Lonely, Tired, Broken]]>
Tue, 07 Jun 2016 13:05:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1756 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1756 alone, tears, missing, isolated, crying, lonely, tired, broken
Tags: Alone, Tears, Missing, Isolated, Crying, Lonely, Tired, Broken]]>
Picture: The Killing by Kaitlin pills, death, depression
Tags: Pills, Death, Depression]]>
Mon, 06 Jun 2016 01:00:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1754 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1754 pills, death, depression
Tags: Pills, Death, Depression]]>
Picture: Your Just A Memory Fading by jerry harrenstein memories
Tags: Memories]]>
Mon, 23 May 2016 12:20:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1750 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1750 memories
Tags: Memories]]>
Song: So Close by Evanescence
I've spent so much time throwing rocks at your window
That I never even knocked on the front door

I walk by statues never even made one chip
but if i could leave a mark on the monument of the heart
I just might lay myself down for a little more than I had the last day

Wait a time to spare these lies we tell ourselves
These days have come and gone
But this time is sweeter than honey
Tags: Evanescence, Longing, Unloved]]>
Thu, 13 Nov 2014 23:36:33 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=237 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=237
I've spent so much time throwing rocks at your window
That I never even knocked on the front door

I walk by statues never even made one chip
but if i could leave a mark on the monument of the heart
I just might lay myself down for a little more than I had the last day

Wait a time to spare these lies we tell ourselves
These days have come and gone
But this time is sweeter than honey
Tags: Evanescence, Longing, Unloved]]>
Video: The Divorce

Tags: Love, Divorce, Breakup, Hurt]]>
Mon, 10 Nov 2014 10:38:19 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=75 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=75

Tags: Love, Divorce, Breakup, Hurt]]>
Video: A life story

Tags: Life, Love, Death, Animal]]>
Fri, 31 Oct 2014 10:18:04 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=74 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=74

Tags: Life, Love, Death, Animal]]>
Video: A Blind Father and His Daughter - Short Sad Story

Tags: Blind, Father, Family]]>
Fri, 31 Oct 2014 10:08:58 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=73 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=73

Tags: Blind, Father, Family]]>
Video: My Shoes
And most importantly, Be Happy With What You Have.

Tags: Shoes, Unhappy, Unloved]]>
Fri, 31 Oct 2014 10:04:19 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=72 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=72
And most importantly, Be Happy With What You Have.

Tags: Shoes, Unhappy, Unloved]]>
Song: Heartless by Kriss Allen
In the night
I hear 'em talk
Coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

How could you be so
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You know need to watch the way you talkin' to me you know
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
And yo I know of some things that you ain't told me
And yo I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend
Well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

How could be so Dr. Evil
You're bringin' out a side of me that I dont know
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know she's hot and cold
I won't stop I won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than
Me

'Cause in the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

Talk and talk and talk and talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night

In the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far far far he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless
Oh

'Cause in the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
Tags: Kriss Allen, Heartbroken, Hurt, Rock]]>
Mon, 20 Oct 2014 08:39:39 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=236 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=236
In the night
I hear 'em talk
Coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

How could you be so
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You know need to watch the way you talkin' to me you know
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
And yo I know of some things that you ain't told me
And yo I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend
Well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

How could be so Dr. Evil
You're bringin' out a side of me that I dont know
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know she's hot and cold
I won't stop I won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than
Me

'Cause in the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

Talk and talk and talk and talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night

In the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far far far he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless
Oh

'Cause in the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
Tags: Kriss Allen, Heartbroken, Hurt, Rock]]>
Movie: If I Stay by R.J. Cutler
Mia Hall thought the hardest decision she would ever face would be whether to pursue her musical dreams at Juilliard or follow a different path to be with the love of her life, Adam. But what should have been a carefree family drive changes everything in an instant, and now her own life hangs in the balance. Caught between life and death for one revealing day, Mia has only one decision left, which will not only decide her future but her ultimate fate.

Tags: Accident, Coma]]>
Wed, 08 Oct 2014 06:15:52 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=136 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=136
Mia Hall thought the hardest decision she would ever face would be whether to pursue her musical dreams at Juilliard or follow a different path to be with the love of her life, Adam. But what should have been a carefree family drive changes everything in an instant, and now her own life hangs in the balance. Caught between life and death for one revealing day, Mia has only one decision left, which will not only decide her future but her ultimate fate.

Tags: Accident, Coma]]>
Song: Dreaming With a Broken Heart by John Mayer
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment, you can hardly breathe

Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No, she's not 'cause she's gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once, you have to say goodbye

Wondering could you stay, my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No, she can't 'cause she's gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

Now do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
And do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my
Roses in my hand?

And would you get them if I did?
No, you won't 'cause you're gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
Tags: John Mayer, Broken, Hurt, Heart]]>
Sun, 21 Sep 2014 08:05:32 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=235 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=235
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment, you can hardly breathe

Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No, she's not 'cause she's gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once, you have to say goodbye

Wondering could you stay, my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No, she can't 'cause she's gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

Now do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
And do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my
Roses in my hand?

And would you get them if I did?
No, you won't 'cause you're gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
Tags: John Mayer, Broken, Hurt, Heart]]>
Video: The Little Girl In The Hallway

Tags: Child, Missing]]>
Thu, 18 Sep 2014 07:44:28 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=71 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=71

Tags: Child, Missing]]>
Video: *WARNING* This WILL make you cry.

Tags: Cry, Sadness, Pain]]>
Wed, 03 Sep 2014 20:19:57 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=70 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=70

Tags: Cry, Sadness, Pain]]>
Video: South Park - Beautiful Sadness Raisins - Season 7, Episode 14

Tags: South Park, Alone]]>
Wed, 03 Sep 2014 20:14:53 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=69 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=69 Raisins - Season 7, Episode 14

Tags: South Park, Alone]]>
Video: A heart touching story of a deaf girl.

Tags: Hearttouching, Sad, Anger]]>
Sun, 24 Aug 2014 21:38:51 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=68 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=68

Tags: Hearttouching, Sad, Anger]]>
Video: deepest part of your heart.

Tags: Heart, Teacher]]>
Sun, 24 Aug 2014 21:36:15 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=67 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=67

Tags: Heart, Teacher]]>
Movie: The Remains of the Day (1993) by James Ivory
A rule bound head butler's world of manners and decorum in the household he maintains is tested by the arrival of a housekeeper who falls in love with him in post-WWI Britain. The possibility of romance and his master's cultivation of ties with the Nazi cause challenge his carefully maintained veneer of servitude.

Tags: James Ivory, Drama, Romance]]>
Sun, 24 Aug 2014 21:20:52 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=135 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=135
A rule bound head butler's world of manners and decorum in the household he maintains is tested by the arrival of a housekeeper who falls in love with him in post-WWI Britain. The possibility of romance and his master's cultivation of ties with the Nazi cause challenge his carefully maintained veneer of servitude.

Tags: James Ivory, Drama, Romance]]>
Song: Dear John by Taylor Swift
Long were the nights when my days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps praying the floor won't fall through again
And my mother accused me of losing my mind
But I swore I was fine

You paint me a blue sky and go back and turn it to rain
And I lived in your chess game, but you changed the rules everyday
Wondering which version of you I might get on the phone tonight
Well, I stopped picking up and this song is to let you know why

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home
I should've known

Well, maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame
Or maybe it's you and your sick need to give love then take it away
And you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand
And I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said run as fast as you can

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

Dear John, I see it all now it was wrong
Don't you think nineteen's too young to be played by
Your dark twisted games when I loved you so
I should've known

You are an expert at sorry and keeping lines blurry
Never impressed by me acing your tests
All the girls that you've run dry have tired, lifeless eyes
'Cause you've burn them out

But I took your matches before fire could catch me
So don't look now
I'm shining like fireworks over
Your sad, empty town

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think i was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress wrote you a song
You should've known

You should've known
Don't you think I was too young?
You should've known
Tags: Taylor Swift, Tears, Saddest]]>
Wed, 20 Aug 2014 22:30:15 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=234 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=234
Long were the nights when my days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps praying the floor won't fall through again
And my mother accused me of losing my mind
But I swore I was fine

You paint me a blue sky and go back and turn it to rain
And I lived in your chess game, but you changed the rules everyday
Wondering which version of you I might get on the phone tonight
Well, I stopped picking up and this song is to let you know why

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home
I should've known

Well, maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame
Or maybe it's you and your sick need to give love then take it away
And you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand
And I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said run as fast as you can

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

Dear John, I see it all now it was wrong
Don't you think nineteen's too young to be played by
Your dark twisted games when I loved you so
I should've known

You are an expert at sorry and keeping lines blurry
Never impressed by me acing your tests
All the girls that you've run dry have tired, lifeless eyes
'Cause you've burn them out

But I took your matches before fire could catch me
So don't look now
I'm shining like fireworks over
Your sad, empty town

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think i was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress wrote you a song
You should've known

You should've known
Don't you think I was too young?
You should've known
Tags: Taylor Swift, Tears, Saddest]]>
Song: Come In With The Rain by Taylor Swift
I could go back to every laugh,
But I don't wanna' go there anymore,
And I know all the steps up to your door,
But I don't wanna' go there anymore.

Talk to the wind, talk to the sky,
Talk to the man with the reasons why,
And let me know what you find.

I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I could stand up and sing you a song,
But I don’t wanna’ have to go that far.
And I, I’ve got you down,
I know you by heart,
And you don’t even know where I start.

Talk to yourself, talk to the tears,
Talk to the man who put you here,
And don’t wait for the sky to clear.

I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cus I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Oh, just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I’ve watched you so long,
Screamed your name,
I don’t know what else I can say.

But I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cus I’m too tired at night for all these games.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I could go back to every laugh,
But I don’t wanna’ go there anymore…
Tags: Taylor Swift, Sorrow, Breakup]]>
Wed, 20 Aug 2014 22:27:18 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=233 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=233
I could go back to every laugh,
But I don't wanna' go there anymore,
And I know all the steps up to your door,
But I don't wanna' go there anymore.

Talk to the wind, talk to the sky,
Talk to the man with the reasons why,
And let me know what you find.

I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I could stand up and sing you a song,
But I don’t wanna’ have to go that far.
And I, I’ve got you down,
I know you by heart,
And you don’t even know where I start.

Talk to yourself, talk to the tears,
Talk to the man who put you here,
And don’t wait for the sky to clear.

I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cus I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Oh, just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I’ve watched you so long,
Screamed your name,
I don’t know what else I can say.

But I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cus I’m too tired at night for all these games.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I could go back to every laugh,
But I don’t wanna’ go there anymore…
Tags: Taylor Swift, Sorrow, Breakup]]>
Movie: Children Underground (2001) by Edet Belzberg
One of the most astonishing and engaging cinematic works of the past decade, CHILDREN UNDERGROUND is a profoundly intimate and heart-wrenching drama about homeless children struggling for survival on the streets and in the subways of Bucharest, Romania.

Tags: Edet Belzberg, Documentary]]>
Wed, 20 Aug 2014 22:22:42 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=134 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=134
One of the most astonishing and engaging cinematic works of the past decade, CHILDREN UNDERGROUND is a profoundly intimate and heart-wrenching drama about homeless children struggling for survival on the streets and in the subways of Bucharest, Romania.

Tags: Edet Belzberg, Documentary]]>
Movie: Dogville (2003) by Lars Von Trier
Late one night, a beautiful and well-dressed young woman, Grace, arrives in the mountainous old mining town of Dogville as a fugitive; following the sound of gunshots in the distance which have been heard by Tom, the self-appointed moral spokesman for the town. Persuaded by Tom, the town agree to hide Grace, and in return she freely helps the locals. However, when the Sheriff from a neighbouring town posts a Missing notice, advertising a reward for revealing her whereabouts, the townsfolk require a better deal from Grace, in return for their silence; and when the Sheriff returns some weeks later with a Wanted poster, even though the citizens know her to be innocent of the false charges against her, the town's sense of goodness takes a sinister turn and the price of Grace's freedom becomes a workload and treatment akin to that of a slave. But Grace has a deadly secret that the townsfolk will eventually encounter.

Tags: Lars Von Trier, Drama]]>
Wed, 20 Aug 2014 22:19:30 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=133 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=133
Late one night, a beautiful and well-dressed young woman, Grace, arrives in the mountainous old mining town of Dogville as a fugitive; following the sound of gunshots in the distance which have been heard by Tom, the self-appointed moral spokesman for the town. Persuaded by Tom, the town agree to hide Grace, and in return she freely helps the locals. However, when the Sheriff from a neighbouring town posts a Missing notice, advertising a reward for revealing her whereabouts, the townsfolk require a better deal from Grace, in return for their silence; and when the Sheriff returns some weeks later with a Wanted poster, even though the citizens know her to be innocent of the false charges against her, the town's sense of goodness takes a sinister turn and the price of Grace's freedom becomes a workload and treatment akin to that of a slave. But Grace has a deadly secret that the townsfolk will eventually encounter.

Tags: Lars Von Trier, Drama]]>
Video: Sad Emotional Love Story With Sad Music

Tags: Sadness, Cry, Death]]>
Mon, 11 Aug 2014 11:01:04 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=66 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=66

Tags: Sadness, Cry, Death]]>
Video: Heart Touching Video Father and son are sitting on a bench. Suddenly a sparrow lands across them.
You don't need to be looking for some deep ideas of the video. You either feel the message deep within yourself or you don't.

Tags: Emotional, Cry, Father, Son]]>
Mon, 11 Aug 2014 10:49:10 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=65 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=65 Father and son are sitting on a bench. Suddenly a sparrow lands across them.
You don't need to be looking for some deep ideas of the video. You either feel the message deep within yourself or you don't.

Tags: Emotional, Cry, Father, Son]]>
Movie: Blue Is the Warmest Color (2013) by Abdellatif Kechiche
Adèle is a high school student who is beginning to explore herself as a woman. She dates men but finds no satisfaction with them sexually, and is rejected by a female friend who she does desire. She dreams of something more. She meets Emma who is a free spirited girl whom Adèle's friends reject due to her sexuality, and by association most begin to reject Adèle. Her relationship with Emma grows into more than just friends as she is the only person with whom she can express herself openly. Together, Adèle and Emma explore social acceptance, sexuality, and the emotional spectrum of their maturing relationship.

Tags: Abdellatif Kechiche, Drama]]>
Sat, 09 Aug 2014 21:53:43 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=132 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=132
Adèle is a high school student who is beginning to explore herself as a woman. She dates men but finds no satisfaction with them sexually, and is rejected by a female friend who she does desire. She dreams of something more. She meets Emma who is a free spirited girl whom Adèle's friends reject due to her sexuality, and by association most begin to reject Adèle. Her relationship with Emma grows into more than just friends as she is the only person with whom she can express herself openly. Together, Adèle and Emma explore social acceptance, sexuality, and the emotional spectrum of their maturing relationship.

Tags: Abdellatif Kechiche, Drama]]>
Movie: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button by David Fincher
On the day that Hurricane Katrina hits New Orleans, elderly Daisy Williams (nee Fuller) is on her deathbed in a New Orleans hospital. At her side is her adult daughter, Caroline. Daisy asks Caroline to read to her aloud the diary of Daisy's lifelong friend, Benjamin Button. Benjamin's diary recounts his entire extraordinary life, the primary unusual aspect of which was his aging backwards, being diagnosed with several aging diseases at birth and thus given little chance of survival, but who does survive and gets younger with time. Abandoned by his biological father, Thomas Button, after Benjamin's biological mother died in childbirth, Benjamin was raised by Queenie, a black woman and caregiver at a seniors home. Daisy's grandmother was a resident at that home, which is where she first met Benjamin. Although separated through the years, Daisy and Benjamin remain in contact throughout their lives, reconnecting in their forties when in age they finally match up. Some of the revelations ...

Tags: David Fincher, Romance, Drama, Fantasy]]>
Sat, 09 Aug 2014 21:51:37 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=131 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=131
On the day that Hurricane Katrina hits New Orleans, elderly Daisy Williams (nee Fuller) is on her deathbed in a New Orleans hospital. At her side is her adult daughter, Caroline. Daisy asks Caroline to read to her aloud the diary of Daisy's lifelong friend, Benjamin Button. Benjamin's diary recounts his entire extraordinary life, the primary unusual aspect of which was his aging backwards, being diagnosed with several aging diseases at birth and thus given little chance of survival, but who does survive and gets younger with time. Abandoned by his biological father, Thomas Button, after Benjamin's biological mother died in childbirth, Benjamin was raised by Queenie, a black woman and caregiver at a seniors home. Daisy's grandmother was a resident at that home, which is where she first met Benjamin. Although separated through the years, Daisy and Benjamin remain in contact throughout their lives, reconnecting in their forties when in age they finally match up. Some of the revelations ...

Tags: David Fincher, Romance, Drama, Fantasy]]>
Song: You're Not Sorry by Taylor Swift
All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no oh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no, oh

You're not sorry no no oh

You had me crying for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no oh

You're not sorry, no no oh
Tags: Taylor Swift, Sorrow, Sorry]]>
Wed, 23 Jul 2014 22:07:35 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=232 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=232
All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no oh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no, oh

You're not sorry no no oh

You had me crying for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no oh

You're not sorry, no no oh
Tags: Taylor Swift, Sorrow, Sorry]]>
Song: Still Loving You by Scorpions
Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there

I'll fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can break down the wall someday
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again
I'm loving you

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you, I need your love
I'm still loving you
Tags: Scorpions, Love, Pride]]>
Wed, 23 Jul 2014 22:05:30 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=231 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=231
Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there

I'll fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can break down the wall someday
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again
I'm loving you

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you, I need your love
I'm still loving you
Tags: Scorpions, Love, Pride]]>
Movie: Sunshine (1999) by István Szabó
The film follows a Jewish family living in Hungary through three generations, rising from humble beginnings to positions of wealth and power in the crumbling Austro-Hungarian Empire. The patriarch becomes a prominent judge but is torn when his government sanctions anti-Jewish persecutions. His son converts to Christianity to advance his career as a champion fencer and Olympic hero, but is caught up in the Holocaust. Finally, the grandson, after surviving war, revolution, loss and betrayal, realizes that his ultimate allegiance must be to himself and his heritage.

Tags: István Szabó, Drama, Romance]]>
Tue, 22 Jul 2014 21:55:50 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=130 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=130
The film follows a Jewish family living in Hungary through three generations, rising from humble beginnings to positions of wealth and power in the crumbling Austro-Hungarian Empire. The patriarch becomes a prominent judge but is torn when his government sanctions anti-Jewish persecutions. His son converts to Christianity to advance his career as a champion fencer and Olympic hero, but is caught up in the Holocaust. Finally, the grandson, after surviving war, revolution, loss and betrayal, realizes that his ultimate allegiance must be to himself and his heritage.

Tags: István Szabó, Drama, Romance]]>
Movie: The Duchess (2008) by Saul Dibb
Georgiana Spencer became Duchess of Devonshire on her marriage to the Duke in 1774, at the height of the Georgian period, a period of fashion, decadence, and political change. Spirited and adored by the public at large she quickly found her marriage to be a disappointment, defined by her duty to produce a male heir and the Duke's philandering and callous indifference to her. She befriends Lady Bess but finds she is once again betrayed by her husband who wields his power with the three eventually living uncomfortably together. Against this background, and with the pressures of an unfaithful husband, strict social pressures and constant public scrutiny, Georgiana falls passionately in love with Charles Grey, a rising young Whig politician. However, despite his ongoing liaison with Lady Bess, the Duke refuses to allow her to continue the affair and threatens to take her children from her.

Tags: Saul Dibb, Biography, Drama, History]]>
Tue, 22 Jul 2014 21:36:47 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=129 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=129
Georgiana Spencer became Duchess of Devonshire on her marriage to the Duke in 1774, at the height of the Georgian period, a period of fashion, decadence, and political change. Spirited and adored by the public at large she quickly found her marriage to be a disappointment, defined by her duty to produce a male heir and the Duke's philandering and callous indifference to her. She befriends Lady Bess but finds she is once again betrayed by her husband who wields his power with the three eventually living uncomfortably together. Against this background, and with the pressures of an unfaithful husband, strict social pressures and constant public scrutiny, Georgiana falls passionately in love with Charles Grey, a rising young Whig politician. However, despite his ongoing liaison with Lady Bess, the Duke refuses to allow her to continue the affair and threatens to take her children from her.

Tags: Saul Dibb, Biography, Drama, History]]>
Movie: Australia (2008) by Baz Luhrmann
In northern Australia at the beginning of World War II, an English aristocrat inherits a cattle station the size of Maryland. When English cattle barons plot to take her land, she reluctantly joins forces with a rough-hewn stock-man to drive 2,000 head of cattle across hundreds of miles of the country's most unforgiving land, only to still face the bombing of Darwin, Australia, by the Japanese forces that had attacked Pearl Harbor only months earlier.

Tags: Baz Luhrmann, History, Drama]]>
Sun, 20 Jul 2014 22:37:06 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=128 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=128
In northern Australia at the beginning of World War II, an English aristocrat inherits a cattle station the size of Maryland. When English cattle barons plot to take her land, she reluctantly joins forces with a rough-hewn stock-man to drive 2,000 head of cattle across hundreds of miles of the country's most unforgiving land, only to still face the bombing of Darwin, Australia, by the Japanese forces that had attacked Pearl Harbor only months earlier.

Tags: Baz Luhrmann, History, Drama]]>
Song: All Of Me by John Legend
[Verse 1:]
What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

[Verse 2:]
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

[Bridge:]
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh
Tags: John Legend, Love, Soft]]>
Sat, 12 Jul 2014 21:19:56 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=230 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=230
[Verse 1:]
What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

[Verse 2:]
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

[Bridge:]
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh
Tags: John Legend, Love, Soft]]>
Movie: Her (2013) by Spike Jonze
Theodore is a lonely man in the final stages of his divorce. When he's not working as a letter writer, his down time is spent playing video games and occasionally hanging out with friends. He decides to purchase the new OS1, which is advertised as the world's first artificially intelligent operating system, "It's not just an operating system, it's a consciousness," the ad states. Theodore quickly finds himself drawn in with Samantha, the voice behind his OS1. As they start spending time together they grow closer and closer and eventually find themselves in love. Having fallen in love with his OS, Theodore finds himself dealing with feelings of both great joy and doubt. As an OS, Samantha has powerful intelligence that she uses to help Theodore in ways others hadn't, but how does she help him deal with his inner conflict of being in love with an OS?

Tags: Spike Jonze, Emotional, Alone]]>
Thu, 10 Jul 2014 20:43:21 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=127 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=127
Theodore is a lonely man in the final stages of his divorce. When he's not working as a letter writer, his down time is spent playing video games and occasionally hanging out with friends. He decides to purchase the new OS1, which is advertised as the world's first artificially intelligent operating system, "It's not just an operating system, it's a consciousness," the ad states. Theodore quickly finds himself drawn in with Samantha, the voice behind his OS1. As they start spending time together they grow closer and closer and eventually find themselves in love. Having fallen in love with his OS, Theodore finds himself dealing with feelings of both great joy and doubt. As an OS, Samantha has powerful intelligence that she uses to help Theodore in ways others hadn't, but how does she help him deal with his inner conflict of being in love with an OS?

Tags: Spike Jonze, Emotional, Alone]]>
Movie: Dead Snow (2009) by Tommy Wirkola
Several friends take to the mountains and shack-up in the wilderness of back-of-beyond to enjoy a little R & R together, their peace is soon interrupted by a mysterious old man, warning them of a local curse that during the German occupation of the local area that these Nazi invaders were brutal and harsh in their methods of control. Telling of the legend of the villager's revolt that drove them up into the cold, dark mountains where they perished, that is until rumour of their return in the form of zombies, evil Nazi zombies.

Tags: Tommy Wirkola, Horror, Zombies]]>
Thu, 10 Jul 2014 20:32:40 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=126 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=126
Several friends take to the mountains and shack-up in the wilderness of back-of-beyond to enjoy a little R & R together, their peace is soon interrupted by a mysterious old man, warning them of a local curse that during the German occupation of the local area that these Nazi invaders were brutal and harsh in their methods of control. Telling of the legend of the villager's revolt that drove them up into the cold, dark mountains where they perished, that is until rumour of their return in the form of zombies, evil Nazi zombies.

Tags: Tommy Wirkola, Horror, Zombies]]>
Movie: Silver Linings Playbook (2012) by David O. Russell
Against medical advice and without the knowledge of her husband Pat Solatano Sr., caring Dolores Solatano discharges her adult son, Pat Solatano Jr., from a Maryland mental health institution after his minimum eight month court ordered stint. The condition of the release includes Pat Jr. moving back in with his parents in their Philadelphia home. Although Pat Jr.'s institutionalization was due to him beating up the lover of his wife Nikki, he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Nikki has since left him and has received a restraining order against him. Although he is on medication (which he doesn't take because of the way it makes him feel) and has mandatory therapy sessions, Pat Jr. feels like he can manage on the outside solely by healthy living and looking for the "silver linings" in his life. His goals are to get his old job back as a substitute teacher, but more importantly reunite with Nikki. He finds there are certain instances where he doesn't cope well, however no less so ...

Tags: Romance, Love, Separation, Struggle, David O. Russell]]>
Mon, 07 Jul 2014 21:37:15 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=125 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=125
Against medical advice and without the knowledge of her husband Pat Solatano Sr., caring Dolores Solatano discharges her adult son, Pat Solatano Jr., from a Maryland mental health institution after his minimum eight month court ordered stint. The condition of the release includes Pat Jr. moving back in with his parents in their Philadelphia home. Although Pat Jr.'s institutionalization was due to him beating up the lover of his wife Nikki, he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Nikki has since left him and has received a restraining order against him. Although he is on medication (which he doesn't take because of the way it makes him feel) and has mandatory therapy sessions, Pat Jr. feels like he can manage on the outside solely by healthy living and looking for the "silver linings" in his life. His goals are to get his old job back as a substitute teacher, but more importantly reunite with Nikki. He finds there are certain instances where he doesn't cope well, however no less so ...

Tags: Romance, Love, Separation, Struggle, David O. Russell]]>
Video: Hospital Window - Inspirational Video

Tags: Support, Inspirational, Hope]]>
Sun, 06 Jul 2014 21:35:31 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=64 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=64

Tags: Support, Inspirational, Hope]]>
Movie: About Time (I) (2013) by Richard Curtis
At the age of 21, Tim Lake (Domhnall Gleeson) discovers he can travel in time... The night after another unsatisfactory New Year party, Tim's father (Bill Nighy) tells his son that the men in his family have always had the ability to travel through time. Tim can't change history, but he can change what happens and has happened in his own life-so he decides to make his world a better place...by getting a girlfriend. Sadly, that turns out not to be as easy as you might think. Moving from the Cornwall coast to London to train as a lawyer, Tim finally meets the beautiful but insecure Mary (Rachel McAdams). They fall in love, then an unfortunate time-travel incident means he's never met her at all. So they meet for the first time again-and again-but finally, after a lot of cunning time-traveling, he wins her heart. Tim then uses his power to create the perfect romantic proposal, to save his wedding from the worst best-man speeches, to save his best friend from professional disaster and to ...

Tags: Richard Curtis, Love, Romance, Drama]]>
Thu, 03 Jul 2014 20:26:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=124 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=124
At the age of 21, Tim Lake (Domhnall Gleeson) discovers he can travel in time... The night after another unsatisfactory New Year party, Tim's father (Bill Nighy) tells his son that the men in his family have always had the ability to travel through time. Tim can't change history, but he can change what happens and has happened in his own life-so he decides to make his world a better place...by getting a girlfriend. Sadly, that turns out not to be as easy as you might think. Moving from the Cornwall coast to London to train as a lawyer, Tim finally meets the beautiful but insecure Mary (Rachel McAdams). They fall in love, then an unfortunate time-travel incident means he's never met her at all. So they meet for the first time again-and again-but finally, after a lot of cunning time-traveling, he wins her heart. Tim then uses his power to create the perfect romantic proposal, to save his wedding from the worst best-man speeches, to save his best friend from professional disaster and to ...

Tags: Richard Curtis, Love, Romance, Drama]]>
Song: Trouble Is by Backstreet Boys
[Howie:]
How come you never know
What you got until it's gone
Too bad
Because I never felt so good with anyone
How fooled was I into thinking
I was gonna be alright
Okay
Fine

[Nick/Howie:]
So every day I try a little harder
To forget her
Lie here convince myself
Tomorrow will be better

[Chorus:]
The trouble is I can't get her out of my mind
When I close my eyes at night
Who's gonna save me
Now she's gone
The trouble is there's a part of me
That still can't let go of her memory
And now I know what it is
Love is what the trouble is

[Howie:]
Love is what the trouble is

[AJ:]
How come she said
You never wear your heart
Where I can see
Too bad
Cause now I'm the one
Who's sorry
How stupid was I into thinking
I was gonna be alright
Okay
Fine
So everyday I find a little something
To remind me
No matter how I try
I can't put the past behind me

[Repeat Chorus]

[AJ:]
Love has let me go
I'm alright, I'm okay
I'll be fine, give it time

[All:]
But the only trouble is I can't get her out of my mind
When I close my eyes at night
Who's gonna save me
Now she's gone (she's gone)
The trouble is there's a part of me
That still can't let go of her memory (I just can't)
And now I know what it is (now I know)
And now I know what it is
Cause love is what the trouble is
The trouble
Love... Love is what the trouble is
Tags: Backstreet Boys, Love, Memories]]>
Thu, 03 Jul 2014 20:22:20 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=229 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=229
[Howie:]
How come you never know
What you got until it's gone
Too bad
Because I never felt so good with anyone
How fooled was I into thinking
I was gonna be alright
Okay
Fine

[Nick/Howie:]
So every day I try a little harder
To forget her
Lie here convince myself
Tomorrow will be better

[Chorus:]
The trouble is I can't get her out of my mind
When I close my eyes at night
Who's gonna save me
Now she's gone
The trouble is there's a part of me
That still can't let go of her memory
And now I know what it is
Love is what the trouble is

[Howie:]
Love is what the trouble is

[AJ:]
How come she said
You never wear your heart
Where I can see
Too bad
Cause now I'm the one
Who's sorry
How stupid was I into thinking
I was gonna be alright
Okay
Fine
So everyday I find a little something
To remind me
No matter how I try
I can't put the past behind me

[Repeat Chorus]

[AJ:]
Love has let me go
I'm alright, I'm okay
I'll be fine, give it time

[All:]
But the only trouble is I can't get her out of my mind
When I close my eyes at night
Who's gonna save me
Now she's gone (she's gone)
The trouble is there's a part of me
That still can't let go of her memory (I just can't)
And now I know what it is (now I know)
And now I know what it is
Cause love is what the trouble is
The trouble
Love... Love is what the trouble is
Tags: Backstreet Boys, Love, Memories]]>
Video: A Wedding That Will Move You
Early this year, Rowden and Leizl decided to get married on July 8, 2014, Rowden's 30th birthday. Together with their adorable 2-year-old daughter, they already had a perfect family.

Then a twist of fate, Rowden got diagnosed with stage IV liver cancer in late May. His last request was to marry his one true love. After 12hours of preparations, his dream was fulfilled. Unable to take him outside the hospital, we brought the church to him. It was like a heartbreaking fairytale.

Rowden Go, at the age of 29-years-old, passed away on June 11, 2014. Less than 10hours after he said his vows.

He is survived by his wife Leizel May, daughter Zakiah Rowzel, mother Lorelei, and brothers Hasset & Hisham.

Tags: Death, Wedding, Sick, Cancer, Bride]]>
Mon, 30 Jun 2014 03:01:09 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=63 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=63
Early this year, Rowden and Leizl decided to get married on July 8, 2014, Rowden's 30th birthday. Together with their adorable 2-year-old daughter, they already had a perfect family.

Then a twist of fate, Rowden got diagnosed with stage IV liver cancer in late May. His last request was to marry his one true love. After 12hours of preparations, his dream was fulfilled. Unable to take him outside the hospital, we brought the church to him. It was like a heartbreaking fairytale.

Rowden Go, at the age of 29-years-old, passed away on June 11, 2014. Less than 10hours after he said his vows.

He is survived by his wife Leizel May, daughter Zakiah Rowzel, mother Lorelei, and brothers Hasset & Hisham.

Tags: Death, Wedding, Sick, Cancer, Bride]]>
Movie: The English Patient (1996) by Anthony Minghella
Beginning in the 1930's, "The English Patient" tells the story of Count Almásy who is a Hungarian map maker employed by the Royal Geographical Society to chart the vast expanses of the Sahara Desert along with several other prominent explorers. As World War II unfolds, Almásy enters into a world of love, betrayal, and politics that is later revealed in a series of flashbacks while Almásy is on his death bed after being horribly burned in a plane crash.

Tags: Anthony Minghella, War, Romance, Drama]]>
Sun, 29 Jun 2014 20:33:19 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=123 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=123
Beginning in the 1930's, "The English Patient" tells the story of Count Almásy who is a Hungarian map maker employed by the Royal Geographical Society to chart the vast expanses of the Sahara Desert along with several other prominent explorers. As World War II unfolds, Almásy enters into a world of love, betrayal, and politics that is later revealed in a series of flashbacks while Almásy is on his death bed after being horribly burned in a plane crash.

Tags: Anthony Minghella, War, Romance, Drama]]>
Song: High Hopes by Pink Floyd
Beyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were young
In a world of magnets and miracles
Our thoughts strayed constantly and without boundary
The ringing of the division bell had begun

Along the Long Road and on down the Causeway
Do they still meet there by the Cut

There was a ragged band that followed in our footsteps
Running before time took our dreams away
Leaving the myriad small creatures trying to tie us to the ground
To a life consumed by slow decay

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
With friends surrounded
The nights of wonder

Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forwards but sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some inner tide

At a higher altitude with flag unfurled
We reached the dizzy heights of that dreamed of world

Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
Though down this road we've been so many times

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river

Forever and ever
Tags: Pink Floyd, Alone]]>
Sun, 29 Jun 2014 20:17:56 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=228 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=228
Beyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were young
In a world of magnets and miracles
Our thoughts strayed constantly and without boundary
The ringing of the division bell had begun

Along the Long Road and on down the Causeway
Do they still meet there by the Cut

There was a ragged band that followed in our footsteps
Running before time took our dreams away
Leaving the myriad small creatures trying to tie us to the ground
To a life consumed by slow decay

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
With friends surrounded
The nights of wonder

Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forwards but sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some inner tide

At a higher altitude with flag unfurled
We reached the dizzy heights of that dreamed of world

Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
Though down this road we've been so many times

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river

Forever and ever
Tags: Pink Floyd, Alone]]>
Song: The Final Cut by Pink Floyd
through the fish eyed lens of tear stained eyes
i can barely define the shape of this moment in time
and far from flying high in clear blue skies
i'm spiralling down to the hole in the ground where i hide
if you negotiate the minefield in the drive
and beat the dogs and cheat the cold electronic eyes
and if you make it past the shotgun in the hall
dial the combination. open the priesthole
and if i'm in i'll tell you what's behind the wall
there's a kid who had a big hallucination
making love to girls in magazines
he wonders if you're sleeping with your new found faith
could anybody love him
or is it just a crazy dream
and if i show you my dark side
will you still hold me tonight
and if i open my heart to you
and show you my weak side
what would you do
would you sell your story to rolling stone
would you take the children away
and leave me alone
and smile in reassurance
as you whisper down the phone
would you send me packing
or would you take me home
thought i oughta bare my naked feelings
thought i oughta tear the curtain down
i held the blade in trembling hands
prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
i never had the nerve to make the final cut
Tags: Pink Floyd, Depressed, Hurt]]>
Sun, 29 Jun 2014 20:16:34 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=227 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=227
through the fish eyed lens of tear stained eyes
i can barely define the shape of this moment in time
and far from flying high in clear blue skies
i'm spiralling down to the hole in the ground where i hide
if you negotiate the minefield in the drive
and beat the dogs and cheat the cold electronic eyes
and if you make it past the shotgun in the hall
dial the combination. open the priesthole
and if i'm in i'll tell you what's behind the wall
there's a kid who had a big hallucination
making love to girls in magazines
he wonders if you're sleeping with your new found faith
could anybody love him
or is it just a crazy dream
and if i show you my dark side
will you still hold me tonight
and if i open my heart to you
and show you my weak side
what would you do
would you sell your story to rolling stone
would you take the children away
and leave me alone
and smile in reassurance
as you whisper down the phone
would you send me packing
or would you take me home
thought i oughta bare my naked feelings
thought i oughta tear the curtain down
i held the blade in trembling hands
prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
i never had the nerve to make the final cut
Tags: Pink Floyd, Depressed, Hurt]]>
Song: Dust In The Wind by Kansas
I close my eyes
Only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes with curiosity

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

(Aa aa aa)
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Oh, ho, ho

Now don't hang on
Nothin' lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
(All we are is dust in the wind)

Dust in the wind
(Everything is dust in the wind)
Everything is dust in the wind
(In the wind)

(Ooo)
(Ooo)
(Ooo)
Tags: Kansas, Empty, Love]]>
Mon, 09 Jun 2014 19:29:53 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=226 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=226
I close my eyes
Only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes with curiosity

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

(Aa aa aa)
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Oh, ho, ho

Now don't hang on
Nothin' lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
(All we are is dust in the wind)

Dust in the wind
(Everything is dust in the wind)
Everything is dust in the wind
(In the wind)

(Ooo)
(Ooo)
(Ooo)
Tags: Kansas, Empty, Love]]>
Video: The most inspiring video you will ever watch!

Tags: Inspirational, Staystrong]]>
Mon, 26 May 2014 20:32:14 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=62 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=62

Tags: Inspirational, Staystrong]]>
Song: Shattered by Backstreet Boys
[A.J:]
So empty, can't feel no more,
As I'm left with my tears on the floor
I wait for my heart to mend,
But you keep tearing a hole

[Brian:]
Inside, I'm so lost,
In the middle of my heart
It's a battlefield of love,
I've been fighting far too long

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered,
[Nick:] (From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke)
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered)
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] (Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered)
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] (Can't believe, you left me, ah)

[Brian:] So shattered

[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered

[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside, oh

[Nick:]
What am I still here for,
Could it be that I'm just waiting
Hoping you'd rescue me,
And put the pieces together again

[Howie:]
Inside, I'm so lost,
In the middle of my heart
It's a battlefield of love,
I've been fighting far too long

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered
[Howie:] Oh
[Nick:] From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, ah
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside, oh

[Nick:]
Tell me what you're really here for,
If you never really loved me
I gave my all but it still wasn't enough

'Cause all you had to say was that you ain't
Looking for commitment
Instead of telling me what I wanted to hear, oh-ho

[Howie:]
You took my emotions
And scattered them on the ground
So hard to just pick up,
And move on with life, again

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered
[A.J.:] Oh
[Nick:] From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, ah
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside

[A.J.:] So shattered
[Brian:] Oh yes, I can't believe, you left me, so shattered
Tags: Backstreet Boys, Shattered, Alone, Hurt]]>
Mon, 26 May 2014 20:28:54 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=225 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=225
[A.J:]
So empty, can't feel no more,
As I'm left with my tears on the floor
I wait for my heart to mend,
But you keep tearing a hole

[Brian:]
Inside, I'm so lost,
In the middle of my heart
It's a battlefield of love,
I've been fighting far too long

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered,
[Nick:] (From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke)
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered)
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] (Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered)
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] (Can't believe, you left me, ah)

[Brian:] So shattered

[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered

[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside, oh

[Nick:]
What am I still here for,
Could it be that I'm just waiting
Hoping you'd rescue me,
And put the pieces together again

[Howie:]
Inside, I'm so lost,
In the middle of my heart
It's a battlefield of love,
I've been fighting far too long

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered
[Howie:] Oh
[Nick:] From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, ah
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside, oh

[Nick:]
Tell me what you're really here for,
If you never really loved me
I gave my all but it still wasn't enough

'Cause all you had to say was that you ain't
Looking for commitment
Instead of telling me what I wanted to hear, oh-ho

[Howie:]
You took my emotions
And scattered them on the ground
So hard to just pick up,
And move on with life, again

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered
[A.J.:] Oh
[Nick:] From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, ah
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside

[A.J.:] So shattered
[Brian:] Oh yes, I can't believe, you left me, so shattered
Tags: Backstreet Boys, Shattered, Alone, Hurt]]>
Song: You're Not Sorry by Taylor Swift
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All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
No, oh, no, oh, no oh
Whoa, no, no
Tags: Taylor Swift, Lost, Breakup, Broken]]>
Thu, 22 May 2014 21:52:41 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=224 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=224
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All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
No, oh, no, oh, no oh
Whoa, no, no
Tags: Taylor Swift, Lost, Breakup, Broken]]>
Video: "Hey" - Short Film on Bullying

Tags: Bullying, Alone, Hurt]]>
Fri, 09 May 2014 22:43:20 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=61 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=61

Tags: Bullying, Alone, Hurt]]>
Article: Sad quotes for a broken heart Sadness is a part of life that is unavoidable and arises from lost dreams and opportunities. It engulfs people into its pit and right then sad quotes can come to the best rescue. Sad quotes are soul-stirring that strikes a chord when we feel sad. These powerful words express deep truths right from the heart. There are many famous sad quotes that seem to echo our emotions which has been written when that person felt that way and it's always comforting to know that there are others who has also traveled in the same path.

Some of the amazing top sad quotes that I find really comforting when depressed and you might find them soothing too are:
'Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.' This quote is by Javan. It jerks and brings me to reality and makes me think logical.

'They that sow in tears shall reap in joy' by Psalms reminds me not to lose hope and one drop of tear draws a person one step more closer to happiness.
'Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears' by Marcus Aurelius and 'Solitary trees, if they grow at all, grow strong' by Winston Churchill are two favorite quotes I like a lot as it talks about being strong and not feel the pain. It's really inspiring when I feel hurt or isolated.

Another cool sad quote that I often recall when I feel sad is, 'Hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable'. It reminds me that experiences only make one more practical in life.

Then there are some other really great sad quotes like,
'Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad' by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.
'For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been' by John Greenleaf Whittier
'Let your tears come. Let them water your soul' by Eileen Mayhew

'Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation' by Kahlil Gibran
And finally the most heart touching one that I often secure it deep in my heart is the quote, 'The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you' by Unknown Author which reminds me to realize the love of the ones who love me before it's too late and not go through the pain of losing a loved one by taking too long to recognize the love.

These sad quotes will help you to go through tough times and bring more tranquility of mind.


Tags: Sad Quotes, Best Quotes, Quotes]]>
Sun, 12 May 2013 14:54:58 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=4 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=4 Sadness is a part of life that is unavoidable and arises from lost dreams and opportunities. It engulfs people into its pit and right then sad quotes can come to the best rescue. Sad quotes are soul-stirring that strikes a chord when we feel sad. These powerful words express deep truths right from the heart. There are many famous sad quotes that seem to echo our emotions which has been written when that person felt that way and it's always comforting to know that there are others who has also traveled in the same path.

Some of the amazing top sad quotes that I find really comforting when depressed and you might find them soothing too are:
'Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.' This quote is by Javan. It jerks and brings me to reality and makes me think logical.

'They that sow in tears shall reap in joy' by Psalms reminds me not to lose hope and one drop of tear draws a person one step more closer to happiness.
'Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears' by Marcus Aurelius and 'Solitary trees, if they grow at all, grow strong' by Winston Churchill are two favorite quotes I like a lot as it talks about being strong and not feel the pain. It's really inspiring when I feel hurt or isolated.

Another cool sad quote that I often recall when I feel sad is, 'Hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable'. It reminds me that experiences only make one more practical in life.

Then there are some other really great sad quotes like,
'Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad' by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.
'For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been' by John Greenleaf Whittier
'Let your tears come. Let them water your soul' by Eileen Mayhew

'Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation' by Kahlil Gibran
And finally the most heart touching one that I often secure it deep in my heart is the quote, 'The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you' by Unknown Author which reminds me to realize the love of the ones who love me before it's too late and not go through the pain of losing a loved one by taking too long to recognize the love.

These sad quotes will help you to go through tough times and bring more tranquility of mind.


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Article: Top 5 Sad Movies Titanic

TitanicTitanic (1997) is probably the most well-known movie on this top 5. The movie itself takes place on the first trip of the ship “Titanic”.
 
The movie starts in 1996, where a team of divers tries to find the sunken ship. They are searching for a previous diamond. The divers find the ship, but they do not find the diamond that they were looking for in the first place.
 
We hear the story about Rose Dewitt Bukater. She was only 17 years old when Titanic sat sails from Southampton in England. Titanic was supposed to travel to New York. She is traveling along with her mother and her fiancé. At the first night at the ship, Rose tries to commit suicide by jumping in the water. It does not work out because she is stopped by a man named Jack.
Jack and Rose falls in love with each other, which causes a lot of problems due to the fact that Rose has already promised to marry someone else. Jack and Rose come from different parts of society and this also causes them a lot of problems.

What happens next is that Titanic hits and iceberg, which in the end, causes the ship to sink.

Titanic is a lot about love and happiness, but we also see the darker side of these. We see anger, desperations and other dark emotions. The desperation is mostly clear between Jack and Rose, due to the fact the she is already engaged when they meet and fall in love with each other.

 

Boys Don’t Cry

Boys don't cry“Boys don’t cry” (1999) is about a based on the true story of the life of Brandon Teena. The movie tells us the story about a woman, who chooses to live her life as a man. Throughout her life, she suffers from her choice because of the consequences of her actions. Brandon moves away from Nebraska and into a new community. In her new town, the other people are not seeing person of transgender as human beings. Through the movie, Brandon ends up with a reputation of being a ladies’ man. Later in the story, Brandon ends up in prison. In prison, he develops to be a very, angry young man whose anger turns into actions after some time.
 
“Boys don’t cry” is a movie which is full of emotions. Through the movie, we get to feel all of the emotions that Brandon feels. We can feel the anger, pain and suffering he is going through. The whole community around his new neighborhood shows what conditions some of us have to live with. It is not easy to be different from the “normal” and in this movie; we get to see the life of a human in another perspective than we are used to. All these emotions in this film reminds, at least some of us, that we should be glad about what we have, because there will always be a lot of people, who has it a lot worse than we do. 

 

The Perfect Storm

At this point, we have now made it to the highest ranked on this list.
 
The number one on this list is the movie “The Perfect Storm” (2000) directed by Wolfgang Petersen and Allen Payne. The movie is in many ways a lot like the other movies, but it has its differences, which is why it has made it to number one.
 
The Perfect Storm is about a group of fishermen from Gloucester, who leaves everything behind and is chasing their road to happiness and wealth and the ocean. In October 1991, the ship “Andrea Gail”, with fishermen, sets sail. After some time, they get their weather report which tells them that there is a storm coming their way, which can cause a perfect storm.
 
Due to the fact that the Hurricane “Grace” is behind them, they decide to continue with their fishing. At the ocean, the fishermen faces a lot of problems like weather, they relationship which each other and other disasters.
 
When everything is good and there are catching a lot of fish, their ice machine breaks down and they needs to make a big decision. They can now choose between letting the fish root or try to make it through the hurricane. The desperate fishermen decide to make their way through the huge hurricane. Soon, they find themselves in the middle of the biggest storm in ages.
 
The Perfect Storm is definitely a sad movie. As in the previous movies, we get to feel a lot of emotions. In this movie, I felt mostly sadness and desperation towards the fishermen. The ending of the movie was priceless in my opinion and that is one of the places where “The Perfect Storm” is different from the other movie that I has mentioned.

 

Philadelphia

PhiladelphiaPhiladelphia (1993) is an American movie. With Tom Hanks and Denzel Washington as the stars of the movie, Philadelphia is about a young man who suffers from AIDS and the need to hide the real him.
 
Andrew Beckett is homosexual and is working in one of the largest companies in Philadelphia. He is not open about his homosexuality, or the fact that he has got AIDS, on his work and do to the fact that he has got no one to turn to, this costs him a lot of pain and suffering.
 
One day, he is assigned to one of the company’s most important cases. During the case, a worker notices something odd on Andrew. Embarrassed, he stays home to cover the lesion on his forehead. At home, he tries to finish the case and then deliver it to the office, but it gets worse and he is rushed to the hospital to make sure that he is not dying.
 
Andrew’s life gets a lot worse and he even gets fired from his job. Andrew prosecutes his previous contractor and the case goes to court. As the case goes to court, Andrew faces some new problem; his previous contractor tells the court, that Andrew has been hiding his condition for them and therefore, it was okay to them to fire him. During the testimony, Andrew collapses. His lawyer and family visit him there. After the family has gone, Andrew tells that he is ready to die.
 
At the end of the movie, we see Andrew’s funeral where there is a lot of mourners.
 
As seen in the movie, Philadelphia is about trying to overcome your problems to stay above water. In this movie, it is one man against all the others and we get to see how sickness can break you down in so many ways. Philadelphia is a frustrating movie in many ways, because it is even hard, as a viewer, to imagine all the problems that Andrew was going through and it is even harder to put ourselves in his place.

 

 

We Were Soldier

We were soldier“We were soldier” (2002) is directed by Randall Wallace. The movie is about the major battle of the Vietnam War and we see it through the eyes of the American units in Vietnam.
The film itself is based on the book “We were soldiers once… and young” by Hal Moore, who participated in the war himself.
The United States has entered the Vietnamese war. At this point, Hal Moore is a dedicated and committed young man and he is training the troops that are under his command.
After arriving in Vietnamese area, Hal finds out that an American base has been attacked and several of their soldiers have been killed. After this information, he needs to move his men and eliminate their enemy. At the time of their moving, Hal has not got any idea of the number of the Vietnamese troopers in the area at this point.

Later in the film, the group of soldiers is lured into an ambush by a Vietnamese. With no options left, Hal decides to call on his radio and tell the other Americans that they have been lured into an ambush and cannot defend themselves. They will now stay alive much longer so he orders all the available aircraft to attack their Vietnamese enemy to kill or chase them away from Hal and his soldiers. The aircraft bombs and uses machine guns at the enemy. After the attacking, the Vietnamese troopers repel and the surviving Americans are rescued.

In the end, the Vietnamese plans a big counter attack and you must see the movie yourself to see the outcome.
 
This movie has made it to this list, because it shows us the horrific actions of war. Throughout the movie, we can almost feel the pain that the soldiers feel during the movie and we see what war really is about. We can feel the love that the soldiers feel for their country while they are willing to sacrifice their lives to make a difference in Vietnam. The movie proves that you may need to sacrifice something important to you, if you want to make a difference for the next generations.


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Mon, 22 Apr 2013 21:08:46 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=3 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=3 Titanic

TitanicTitanic (1997) is probably the most well-known movie on this top 5. The movie itself takes place on the first trip of the ship “Titanic”.
 
The movie starts in 1996, where a team of divers tries to find the sunken ship. They are searching for a previous diamond. The divers find the ship, but they do not find the diamond that they were looking for in the first place.
 
We hear the story about Rose Dewitt Bukater. She was only 17 years old when Titanic sat sails from Southampton in England. Titanic was supposed to travel to New York. She is traveling along with her mother and her fiancé. At the first night at the ship, Rose tries to commit suicide by jumping in the water. It does not work out because she is stopped by a man named Jack.
Jack and Rose falls in love with each other, which causes a lot of problems due to the fact that Rose has already promised to marry someone else. Jack and Rose come from different parts of society and this also causes them a lot of problems.

What happens next is that Titanic hits and iceberg, which in the end, causes the ship to sink.

Titanic is a lot about love and happiness, but we also see the darker side of these. We see anger, desperations and other dark emotions. The desperation is mostly clear between Jack and Rose, due to the fact the she is already engaged when they meet and fall in love with each other.

 

Boys Don’t Cry

Boys don't cry“Boys don’t cry” (1999) is about a based on the true story of the life of Brandon Teena. The movie tells us the story about a woman, who chooses to live her life as a man. Throughout her life, she suffers from her choice because of the consequences of her actions. Brandon moves away from Nebraska and into a new community. In her new town, the other people are not seeing person of transgender as human beings. Through the movie, Brandon ends up with a reputation of being a ladies’ man. Later in the story, Brandon ends up in prison. In prison, he develops to be a very, angry young man whose anger turns into actions after some time.
 
“Boys don’t cry” is a movie which is full of emotions. Through the movie, we get to feel all of the emotions that Brandon feels. We can feel the anger, pain and suffering he is going through. The whole community around his new neighborhood shows what conditions some of us have to live with. It is not easy to be different from the “normal” and in this movie; we get to see the life of a human in another perspective than we are used to. All these emotions in this film reminds, at least some of us, that we should be glad about what we have, because there will always be a lot of people, who has it a lot worse than we do. 

 

The Perfect Storm

At this point, we have now made it to the highest ranked on this list.
 
The number one on this list is the movie “The Perfect Storm” (2000) directed by Wolfgang Petersen and Allen Payne. The movie is in many ways a lot like the other movies, but it has its differences, which is why it has made it to number one.
 
The Perfect Storm is about a group of fishermen from Gloucester, who leaves everything behind and is chasing their road to happiness and wealth and the ocean. In October 1991, the ship “Andrea Gail”, with fishermen, sets sail. After some time, they get their weather report which tells them that there is a storm coming their way, which can cause a perfect storm.
 
Due to the fact that the Hurricane “Grace” is behind them, they decide to continue with their fishing. At the ocean, the fishermen faces a lot of problems like weather, they relationship which each other and other disasters.
 
When everything is good and there are catching a lot of fish, their ice machine breaks down and they needs to make a big decision. They can now choose between letting the fish root or try to make it through the hurricane. The desperate fishermen decide to make their way through the huge hurricane. Soon, they find themselves in the middle of the biggest storm in ages.
 
The Perfect Storm is definitely a sad movie. As in the previous movies, we get to feel a lot of emotions. In this movie, I felt mostly sadness and desperation towards the fishermen. The ending of the movie was priceless in my opinion and that is one of the places where “The Perfect Storm” is different from the other movie that I has mentioned.

 

Philadelphia

PhiladelphiaPhiladelphia (1993) is an American movie. With Tom Hanks and Denzel Washington as the stars of the movie, Philadelphia is about a young man who suffers from AIDS and the need to hide the real him.
 
Andrew Beckett is homosexual and is working in one of the largest companies in Philadelphia. He is not open about his homosexuality, or the fact that he has got AIDS, on his work and do to the fact that he has got no one to turn to, this costs him a lot of pain and suffering.
 
One day, he is assigned to one of the company’s most important cases. During the case, a worker notices something odd on Andrew. Embarrassed, he stays home to cover the lesion on his forehead. At home, he tries to finish the case and then deliver it to the office, but it gets worse and he is rushed to the hospital to make sure that he is not dying.
 
Andrew’s life gets a lot worse and he even gets fired from his job. Andrew prosecutes his previous contractor and the case goes to court. As the case goes to court, Andrew faces some new problem; his previous contractor tells the court, that Andrew has been hiding his condition for them and therefore, it was okay to them to fire him. During the testimony, Andrew collapses. His lawyer and family visit him there. After the family has gone, Andrew tells that he is ready to die.
 
At the end of the movie, we see Andrew’s funeral where there is a lot of mourners.
 
As seen in the movie, Philadelphia is about trying to overcome your problems to stay above water. In this movie, it is one man against all the others and we get to see how sickness can break you down in so many ways. Philadelphia is a frustrating movie in many ways, because it is even hard, as a viewer, to imagine all the problems that Andrew was going through and it is even harder to put ourselves in his place.

 

 

We Were Soldier

We were soldier“We were soldier” (2002) is directed by Randall Wallace. The movie is about the major battle of the Vietnam War and we see it through the eyes of the American units in Vietnam.
The film itself is based on the book “We were soldiers once… and young” by Hal Moore, who participated in the war himself.
The United States has entered the Vietnamese war. At this point, Hal Moore is a dedicated and committed young man and he is training the troops that are under his command.
After arriving in Vietnamese area, Hal finds out that an American base has been attacked and several of their soldiers have been killed. After this information, he needs to move his men and eliminate their enemy. At the time of their moving, Hal has not got any idea of the number of the Vietnamese troopers in the area at this point.

Later in the film, the group of soldiers is lured into an ambush by a Vietnamese. With no options left, Hal decides to call on his radio and tell the other Americans that they have been lured into an ambush and cannot defend themselves. They will now stay alive much longer so he orders all the available aircraft to attack their Vietnamese enemy to kill or chase them away from Hal and his soldiers. The aircraft bombs and uses machine guns at the enemy. After the attacking, the Vietnamese troopers repel and the surviving Americans are rescued.

In the end, the Vietnamese plans a big counter attack and you must see the movie yourself to see the outcome.
 
This movie has made it to this list, because it shows us the horrific actions of war. Throughout the movie, we can almost feel the pain that the soldiers feel during the movie and we see what war really is about. We can feel the love that the soldiers feel for their country while they are willing to sacrifice their lives to make a difference in Vietnam. The movie proves that you may need to sacrifice something important to you, if you want to make a difference for the next generations.


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Article: Why I Love Sad Songs It is said and believed that music is food for the soul. This is best shown in how we relate to different types of music depending on our mood and our feelings. Our state of mind and state of emotions decide our mood and our choice of music in turn is driven by the mood we are in. I love sad songs because they act as my best friend when I’m feeling sad and low.

With my collection of sad songs, I do not need someone to talk to because these songs become a mirror to my emotions. The lyrics in sad songs when I hear them, it feels like they have been written for me and I can sink deeper into my lonely, sad emotion. Sad songs have a marvelous effect on us. When we are broken and hurt due to whatever reason, sad songs give us an outlet to be on our own and talk to ourselves. It is not however necessary that one should like sad songs only when they are sad; it is but human to be happy yet listen to a sad song. This is only an indication that we are still human and our feelings have not become numb in this fast paced life; our emotions are still alive. If we are feeling ‘OK’ and suddenly a sad song brings tears to our eyes it is only for us to remember that nothing lasts forever. There is always an end to every beginning and happiness is always followed by sadness, so we should keep our doors open for sadness as well. Pain and misery never knocks before coming neither does an opportunity so we should always be prepared for good and bad times alike.

I may laugh in public, I may fake a smile only not to let anyone else know what I’m going through inside. I love sad songs because they bring out my real emotions and make me weep out my sorrows; my grievances, regrets and tragedies. They remind me of my loved ones that I have lost due to one reason or the other and the emptiness I feel without them. Listening to sad songs not only gives me remembrance of bitter sweet memories but they touch the chords of my heart. At this point I wish to lock myself away from the world because it is this world that has caused me all the pain and grief. Had I not lived I wouldn’t have suffered. So you can see what multiple effects music can have on you.

Sad songs also are a way to melt the toughest of persons and the harshest of emotions.  When we are angry at someone we are rather angry with ourselves; we may shout and yell at them but inside we are shaking. And sad songs have the quality to wash away that harshness in us. Whenever I have had a bad day at work and an argument with a customer or a co-worker; I listen to sad songs on my way back home to soothe and calm my nerves and most of all for the reason so that I may cry and wash out my anger.


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Fri, 11 Jan 2013 04:14:47 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=1 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=1 It is said and believed that music is food for the soul. This is best shown in how we relate to different types of music depending on our mood and our feelings. Our state of mind and state of emotions decide our mood and our choice of music in turn is driven by the mood we are in. I love sad songs because they act as my best friend when I’m feeling sad and low.

With my collection of sad songs, I do not need someone to talk to because these songs become a mirror to my emotions. The lyrics in sad songs when I hear them, it feels like they have been written for me and I can sink deeper into my lonely, sad emotion. Sad songs have a marvelous effect on us. When we are broken and hurt due to whatever reason, sad songs give us an outlet to be on our own and talk to ourselves. It is not however necessary that one should like sad songs only when they are sad; it is but human to be happy yet listen to a sad song. This is only an indication that we are still human and our feelings have not become numb in this fast paced life; our emotions are still alive. If we are feeling ‘OK’ and suddenly a sad song brings tears to our eyes it is only for us to remember that nothing lasts forever. There is always an end to every beginning and happiness is always followed by sadness, so we should keep our doors open for sadness as well. Pain and misery never knocks before coming neither does an opportunity so we should always be prepared for good and bad times alike.

I may laugh in public, I may fake a smile only not to let anyone else know what I’m going through inside. I love sad songs because they bring out my real emotions and make me weep out my sorrows; my grievances, regrets and tragedies. They remind me of my loved ones that I have lost due to one reason or the other and the emptiness I feel without them. Listening to sad songs not only gives me remembrance of bitter sweet memories but they touch the chords of my heart. At this point I wish to lock myself away from the world because it is this world that has caused me all the pain and grief. Had I not lived I wouldn’t have suffered. So you can see what multiple effects music can have on you.

Sad songs also are a way to melt the toughest of persons and the harshest of emotions.  When we are angry at someone we are rather angry with ourselves; we may shout and yell at them but inside we are shaking. And sad songs have the quality to wash away that harshness in us. Whenever I have had a bad day at work and an argument with a customer or a co-worker; I listen to sad songs on my way back home to soothe and calm my nerves and most of all for the reason so that I may cry and wash out my anger.


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Article: How to Write a Sad Story Writing a sad story is truly a great art in itself; an art to bring tears into someone’s eyes by your words and not many writers have successfully achieved the reward of doing so. Greatest sad stories that have ever been produced are the ones that are written by the writer’s heart. I will be sharing with you what I believe are the essentials to write a sad story.

As I just said a story can only have enough sadness and pain in it if the writer is writing with all their heart. When writing a sad story one should bring themselves to feel any sort of agony and sadness they have ever felt in life. It could be out of loss of a loved one, being parted from a loved one or a best friend, leaving school or leaving childhood town, a loss in the business, loss of a dear pet and so on. It can be an endless list of reasons that ever made you sad. The more closely one relates to painful moments in their life the sadder their story will be.  Example of this is that most of the sad stories are experience from people’s lives; their sufferings in times of hunger, prison or being abandoned.

A sad story should be simple and easily understandable to the readers and the character sketches for each character should be well built so that the reader builds a link with them. By making the story understandable it means that one should employ a descriptive writing style that paints clear pictures of scenes and characters so that the readers can actually visualize them in their minds. Remember that your words should have a powerful impact like it does in sad movies. The characters as you line them up in your story should be done in such a way that audience should ‘feel’ for the characters; only then will your story be touching enough to make them cry. Make your characters more human than superficial and heroic.

A big No-No for Happy Endings! Yes, a sad story is sad because it does not end happily ever after so bear this simple rule in mind. Your story should leave a yearning and a vacuum only then the audiences feel sympathetic towards the characters involved and cry on their ill-fate and misfortune. The sudden death or a similar twist in the story goes a long way in guaranteeing the success of a sad story but this works best only if the characters are well developed and the audiences are kept intact throughout. Their interest should be maintained at every level; if they lose interest then the story will not have the desired effect.

So, what are you waiting for? Pick up your pen; take your imagination to all the points in life when you got sad and felt pain and you will find yourself creating a great sad story that will have the ability to move its readers.


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Fri, 11 Jan 2013 03:29:00 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=2 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=2 Writing a sad story is truly a great art in itself; an art to bring tears into someone’s eyes by your words and not many writers have successfully achieved the reward of doing so. Greatest sad stories that have ever been produced are the ones that are written by the writer’s heart. I will be sharing with you what I believe are the essentials to write a sad story.

As I just said a story can only have enough sadness and pain in it if the writer is writing with all their heart. When writing a sad story one should bring themselves to feel any sort of agony and sadness they have ever felt in life. It could be out of loss of a loved one, being parted from a loved one or a best friend, leaving school or leaving childhood town, a loss in the business, loss of a dear pet and so on. It can be an endless list of reasons that ever made you sad. The more closely one relates to painful moments in their life the sadder their story will be.  Example of this is that most of the sad stories are experience from people’s lives; their sufferings in times of hunger, prison or being abandoned.

A sad story should be simple and easily understandable to the readers and the character sketches for each character should be well built so that the reader builds a link with them. By making the story understandable it means that one should employ a descriptive writing style that paints clear pictures of scenes and characters so that the readers can actually visualize them in their minds. Remember that your words should have a powerful impact like it does in sad movies. The characters as you line them up in your story should be done in such a way that audience should ‘feel’ for the characters; only then will your story be touching enough to make them cry. Make your characters more human than superficial and heroic.

A big No-No for Happy Endings! Yes, a sad story is sad because it does not end happily ever after so bear this simple rule in mind. Your story should leave a yearning and a vacuum only then the audiences feel sympathetic towards the characters involved and cry on their ill-fate and misfortune. The sudden death or a similar twist in the story goes a long way in guaranteeing the success of a sad story but this works best only if the characters are well developed and the audiences are kept intact throughout. Their interest should be maintained at every level; if they lose interest then the story will not have the desired effect.

So, what are you waiting for? Pick up your pen; take your imagination to all the points in life when you got sad and felt pain and you will find yourself creating a great sad story that will have the ability to move its readers.


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