Lover of Sadness Root Description http://www.loverofsadness.net/LOS/images/square_logo.jpg Lover of Sadness http://www.loverofsadness.net/LOS/images/square_logo.jpg Tue, 02 Sep 2025 17:51:51 +0000 Zend_Feed_Writer 1.11.10 (http://framework.zend.com) http://www.loverofsadness.net Story: Ranting about my pain by Rachel McConnell
When I was little, I wanna say 7 because that was around the time my mother divorced my father i saw for the first time how cruel life can be. My biological mother had become pregnant with her fourth child but this one did not belong to my father. My father was a United States Airmen and he was deployed at the time this all happened. I dont remember where he was deployed to I just know that after he left a man that he had introduced our family to started to come over a lot more often. I didn't understand why then but I do now. My mother was cheating on my father with one of his own friends. My father, after my mother started filing for divorce, tried to kill himself one night. I was in bed, trying to sleep but failing miserably like I do every night, when I heard my father sobbing. I crept out of my room and around the corner that separates the hallway from the living room and what I saw still haunts me to this day. Mu father had taken a knife and had slit his wrists. Blood was pooling and he was barely conscious still. I ran next door to the neighbors for help. My mother was not allowed on base at the time so me and my 2 brother, one who is two years younger than me and the other is seven, stayed with the neighbor for two months while my father was in a psych ward and my mother was no where to be found.

Fast forward a few years and my father has found a new lady, my current mother Amanda. Shes the best thing that's ever happened in my life but I'll get to her later. My father gets deployed again so I'm forced to move for most of my third grade year from Washington state to Missouri. My mother married the man she cheated on my father with and would eventually get pregnant with her fifth child. Living there was an absolute nightmare. My mother would get drunk or high off of I dont even know what and would beat me. I'd be beaten until I bled. My step father was worse. He was so much worse. He did things to me. He tried to do them to my two younger brothers. Not his kids but from when my mother and father were still married. I remember this one time when he took pictures of me in the shower. The humiliation I felt has never gone away. People cant be in the bathroom with me when I'm showering now, not even my little sisters, because I have panic attacks now. Whenever he wanted to hurt someone I would send my brothers away, tell them to hide in the crawl space in our closet, and I'd take the trauma. I dealt with all of it. The beatings, the touching, the things no kid should ever experience. That no person should ever experience. Fast forward a few more years again. I'm living with my family in Hawaii, specifically the island O'ahu. I have had a skin problem since I was about 5 years old and it's starting to spread rapidly across my legs, back, arms, and genitals. I dont find out the proper diagnosis until the summer of 2018. But while living there I had been prescribed so many different treatments that my body has never fully recovered. I was put on topical steroids, I had to undergo radiation treatments, and I was put on methotrexate. The skin problem is highly irritating and can be deadly if treatments do not work. My skin problem destroys connective tissues, like what's in your joints and heart. I will also become completely infertile by the age of 25. That's heartbreaking to know at 17. Knowing that chances are I wont have kids. Not only am I having issues there but I've also started self harming. I have scars on my arms, legs, hips, ribs, and neck from where I cut myself. I have burn marks on mh arm from where I held a lighter to my skin. I had even tried to overdose a few times. The first time my parents found out I was scolded and then comforted. They even took me to a therapist for a week. But when they found out I had relapsed my father told me to get out. He told me he couldn't even look at me. I walked the streets that night. Wondering what I did to deserve this life.

And I just realized I didnt say that my parents are strict. I'm so used to it now that it's just normal life to me. I am 17 and I have a curfew of 5 on school nights and 6 on weekends. I have to have almost straight A's, I have to be absolutely perfect on my chores and I'm the only one that cleans, and I even have a time limit for eating. I have to eat in more than ten minutes and less than twenty or else I get sent to bed early and I already go to bed at 9 every night. Anyways even after all that life doesn't get better. Just these past six months have been a living hell. I got kicked out for having sexual relations with guys, I had to live with my bio mom and her new fiance and while living there we barely had enough money for rent and even less money for food, and then when I move back into my father's house I find out the only parent who ever cared, that ever saw my pain and comforted me, is being divorced from my father because she cant handle it. My father does the same thing he did when divorcing my biological mother. I'm home one night, cleaning the kitchen when he walks in the front door after being out shopping and he hugs me and my brother then grabs a knife and walks out. I stayed up that night comforting my mother Amanda as she is on the phone with the cops. I had to hold back all my tears that night, I had to really grow up that night, to comfort the woman that always comforted me. She sobbed and begged and pleaded with my father on the phone to come back. The cops found him in time and took him to a psych ward. My mother, after that incident got into an accident. She was lucky she walked away from it with no more than a bruise across her shoulder. I'm lucky that that's all she walked away with.

Now my mother loves my father again and wants nothing more than for then to work things out but he doesn't want her. He manipulated her into loving him again just to say no. You wanna know the only good thing in my life right now? The one thing keeping me alive and sane? My boyfriend, Matthew. Hes the only one right now that is making me a priority. That is comforting me. Loving me. Treating me with care and respect which is something I never got from my other boyfriends. Hell I had a boyfriend two years back that beat me. He got so mad he bashed my head into a wall and knocked me unconscious and while I was out he did things to me. I'm sorry for ranting here but I just needed it all out. I needed to let go of some of my stuff. You guys dont even know all of it. This isnt even half. This is a taste just so I can breathe again. Anyone out there suffering as i do please know you're not alone. Not even a little bit. Thanks for reading if anyone does. Moral of this story no matter how hard life gets keep loving. Theres always something good. Just keep living. No matter how hard it is something will get better. The way I look at it is you cant have good in life with out the bad. You need your ups for your downs and your downs for your ups.
Tags: Pain, Family, Abuse, Rape, Molestation, Parents, Drugs, Alcohol]]> Wed, 26 Jun 2019 23:35:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3479 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3479
When I was little, I wanna say 7 because that was around the time my mother divorced my father i saw for the first time how cruel life can be. My biological mother had become pregnant with her fourth child but this one did not belong to my father. My father was a United States Airmen and he was deployed at the time this all happened. I dont remember where he was deployed to I just know that after he left a man that he had introduced our family to started to come over a lot more often. I didn't understand why then but I do now. My mother was cheating on my father with one of his own friends. My father, after my mother started filing for divorce, tried to kill himself one night. I was in bed, trying to sleep but failing miserably like I do every night, when I heard my father sobbing. I crept out of my room and around the corner that separates the hallway from the living room and what I saw still haunts me to this day. Mu father had taken a knife and had slit his wrists. Blood was pooling and he was barely conscious still. I ran next door to the neighbors for help. My mother was not allowed on base at the time so me and my 2 brother, one who is two years younger than me and the other is seven, stayed with the neighbor for two months while my father was in a psych ward and my mother was no where to be found.

Fast forward a few years and my father has found a new lady, my current mother Amanda. Shes the best thing that's ever happened in my life but I'll get to her later. My father gets deployed again so I'm forced to move for most of my third grade year from Washington state to Missouri. My mother married the man she cheated on my father with and would eventually get pregnant with her fifth child. Living there was an absolute nightmare. My mother would get drunk or high off of I dont even know what and would beat me. I'd be beaten until I bled. My step father was worse. He was so much worse. He did things to me. He tried to do them to my two younger brothers. Not his kids but from when my mother and father were still married. I remember this one time when he took pictures of me in the shower. The humiliation I felt has never gone away. People cant be in the bathroom with me when I'm showering now, not even my little sisters, because I have panic attacks now. Whenever he wanted to hurt someone I would send my brothers away, tell them to hide in the crawl space in our closet, and I'd take the trauma. I dealt with all of it. The beatings, the touching, the things no kid should ever experience. That no person should ever experience. Fast forward a few more years again. I'm living with my family in Hawaii, specifically the island O'ahu. I have had a skin problem since I was about 5 years old and it's starting to spread rapidly across my legs, back, arms, and genitals. I dont find out the proper diagnosis until the summer of 2018. But while living there I had been prescribed so many different treatments that my body has never fully recovered. I was put on topical steroids, I had to undergo radiation treatments, and I was put on methotrexate. The skin problem is highly irritating and can be deadly if treatments do not work. My skin problem destroys connective tissues, like what's in your joints and heart. I will also become completely infertile by the age of 25. That's heartbreaking to know at 17. Knowing that chances are I wont have kids. Not only am I having issues there but I've also started self harming. I have scars on my arms, legs, hips, ribs, and neck from where I cut myself. I have burn marks on mh arm from where I held a lighter to my skin. I had even tried to overdose a few times. The first time my parents found out I was scolded and then comforted. They even took me to a therapist for a week. But when they found out I had relapsed my father told me to get out. He told me he couldn't even look at me. I walked the streets that night. Wondering what I did to deserve this life.

And I just realized I didnt say that my parents are strict. I'm so used to it now that it's just normal life to me. I am 17 and I have a curfew of 5 on school nights and 6 on weekends. I have to have almost straight A's, I have to be absolutely perfect on my chores and I'm the only one that cleans, and I even have a time limit for eating. I have to eat in more than ten minutes and less than twenty or else I get sent to bed early and I already go to bed at 9 every night. Anyways even after all that life doesn't get better. Just these past six months have been a living hell. I got kicked out for having sexual relations with guys, I had to live with my bio mom and her new fiance and while living there we barely had enough money for rent and even less money for food, and then when I move back into my father's house I find out the only parent who ever cared, that ever saw my pain and comforted me, is being divorced from my father because she cant handle it. My father does the same thing he did when divorcing my biological mother. I'm home one night, cleaning the kitchen when he walks in the front door after being out shopping and he hugs me and my brother then grabs a knife and walks out. I stayed up that night comforting my mother Amanda as she is on the phone with the cops. I had to hold back all my tears that night, I had to really grow up that night, to comfort the woman that always comforted me. She sobbed and begged and pleaded with my father on the phone to come back. The cops found him in time and took him to a psych ward. My mother, after that incident got into an accident. She was lucky she walked away from it with no more than a bruise across her shoulder. I'm lucky that that's all she walked away with.

Now my mother loves my father again and wants nothing more than for then to work things out but he doesn't want her. He manipulated her into loving him again just to say no. You wanna know the only good thing in my life right now? The one thing keeping me alive and sane? My boyfriend, Matthew. Hes the only one right now that is making me a priority. That is comforting me. Loving me. Treating me with care and respect which is something I never got from my other boyfriends. Hell I had a boyfriend two years back that beat me. He got so mad he bashed my head into a wall and knocked me unconscious and while I was out he did things to me. I'm sorry for ranting here but I just needed it all out. I needed to let go of some of my stuff. You guys dont even know all of it. This isnt even half. This is a taste just so I can breathe again. Anyone out there suffering as i do please know you're not alone. Not even a little bit. Thanks for reading if anyone does. Moral of this story no matter how hard life gets keep loving. Theres always something good. Just keep living. No matter how hard it is something will get better. The way I look at it is you cant have good in life with out the bad. You need your ups for your downs and your downs for your ups.
Tags: Pain, Family, Abuse, Rape, Molestation, Parents, Drugs, Alcohol]]> Story: when they were 8 years old by Ashlyn
when they were 9 years old they started school together. everyone in the school knew they were friends.

when they were 10 years old people started to tease and called them love birds. they didn't like it.

when they were 11 years old the girl started to get feelings for him, but she ignored them and thought it was silly.

when they were 12 years old the girl told the boy she liked him, but before he could respond she said it was a stupid prank.

when they were 13 years old the boy started to get feelings for another girl in his grade, and she had feelings for him too. she was his first girlfriend, but the boy broke up with her shortly after.

when they were 14 years old the girl got her first boyfriend, with a different boy from her grade, but it dint't feel right, so it didn't last long either.

when they were 15 years old the girl heard about the prom next year, and decided she was going to ask the boy to dance with her.

when they were 16 years old the girl lost courage to ask the boy to the prom. at the night of the dance she went to ask him but decided not to because she saw him dancing with another girl. later that night he saw them kiss in the back by the bleachers. she ran home and cried. the next day the boy asked what was wrong and she ignored him. he walked away feeling rejected by his best friend. they didn't talk for a while after that.

when they were 17 years old the girl apologized for ignoring him. she said she wanted to still be friends, and the boy agreed and they again became friends. the same year the boy was diagnosed with severe depression. the girl tried to cheer him up everyday and everyday she failed.

when they were 18 years old on the boys birthday the girl and the boy had a moment and she leaned in to kiss him, but instead the boy gave her a hug. she told him she was moving away next month, he said hes wanted to move with her because he couldn't imagine being without her. after all, she was his best friend. the girl agreed and within a month they moved into a small apartment far away and started college together.

when they were 19 the boy again got another girlfriend, and she stayed the night at their apartment, and his girlfriend slept in his room with him. the girl stayed up all night crying and didn't sleep. only a few weeks later the boy broke up with her.

when they were 20 years old they went to a party together. they illegally drank that night and they both got drunk. very drunk. the girl told the boy everything and how she loved him so much, and the boy told her the same. they kissed for a long time. they were both so desperate for each other. when they got back to the apartment they slept together in the same room. when they woke up neither of them remembered anything and agreed that it was stupid to drink and to forget that they slept in the same bed.

when they were 21 years old the girl was diagnosed with cancer. her death date was in 6th months. she dropped out of school and the guy and the girl moved back to their home town to be with their family. everyone was crying. one month before the girls death date she told the boy she loved him. although the boy had feelings for her as well, he was afraid to fall in love because he knew it was already going to hurt so bad when she passed and he didn't want to make it worse. two weeks before she was supposed to die the boy told her he loved her too and was sorry he didn't say it earlier, and he just didn't want to lose her. she told him she understood. they kissed and hugged and fell deeper in love. the next day the boy went to visit her in the hospital, but he couldn't find her. he asked the doctor and she told him that she had died last night. without a word he ran away in tears and hung himself from a bridge wishing he would have been their for her. he wanted to die so he could see her in the after life, but his afterlife never came. the boy and the girl never saw each other again.
Tags: Death, Depressing, Sad, Stupid, Cancer, Suicide]]> Thu, 04 Apr 2019 17:40:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3484 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3484
when they were 9 years old they started school together. everyone in the school knew they were friends.

when they were 10 years old people started to tease and called them love birds. they didn't like it.

when they were 11 years old the girl started to get feelings for him, but she ignored them and thought it was silly.

when they were 12 years old the girl told the boy she liked him, but before he could respond she said it was a stupid prank.

when they were 13 years old the boy started to get feelings for another girl in his grade, and she had feelings for him too. she was his first girlfriend, but the boy broke up with her shortly after.

when they were 14 years old the girl got her first boyfriend, with a different boy from her grade, but it dint't feel right, so it didn't last long either.

when they were 15 years old the girl heard about the prom next year, and decided she was going to ask the boy to dance with her.

when they were 16 years old the girl lost courage to ask the boy to the prom. at the night of the dance she went to ask him but decided not to because she saw him dancing with another girl. later that night he saw them kiss in the back by the bleachers. she ran home and cried. the next day the boy asked what was wrong and she ignored him. he walked away feeling rejected by his best friend. they didn't talk for a while after that.

when they were 17 years old the girl apologized for ignoring him. she said she wanted to still be friends, and the boy agreed and they again became friends. the same year the boy was diagnosed with severe depression. the girl tried to cheer him up everyday and everyday she failed.

when they were 18 years old on the boys birthday the girl and the boy had a moment and she leaned in to kiss him, but instead the boy gave her a hug. she told him she was moving away next month, he said hes wanted to move with her because he couldn't imagine being without her. after all, she was his best friend. the girl agreed and within a month they moved into a small apartment far away and started college together.

when they were 19 the boy again got another girlfriend, and she stayed the night at their apartment, and his girlfriend slept in his room with him. the girl stayed up all night crying and didn't sleep. only a few weeks later the boy broke up with her.

when they were 20 years old they went to a party together. they illegally drank that night and they both got drunk. very drunk. the girl told the boy everything and how she loved him so much, and the boy told her the same. they kissed for a long time. they were both so desperate for each other. when they got back to the apartment they slept together in the same room. when they woke up neither of them remembered anything and agreed that it was stupid to drink and to forget that they slept in the same bed.

when they were 21 years old the girl was diagnosed with cancer. her death date was in 6th months. she dropped out of school and the guy and the girl moved back to their home town to be with their family. everyone was crying. one month before the girls death date she told the boy she loved him. although the boy had feelings for her as well, he was afraid to fall in love because he knew it was already going to hurt so bad when she passed and he didn't want to make it worse. two weeks before she was supposed to die the boy told her he loved her too and was sorry he didn't say it earlier, and he just didn't want to lose her. she told him she understood. they kissed and hugged and fell deeper in love. the next day the boy went to visit her in the hospital, but he couldn't find her. he asked the doctor and she told him that she had died last night. without a word he ran away in tears and hung himself from a bridge wishing he would have been their for her. he wanted to die so he could see her in the after life, but his afterlife never came. the boy and the girl never saw each other again.
Tags: Death, Depressing, Sad, Stupid, Cancer, Suicide]]> Story: Biology (Humor) by Elise Harvey My freshman year of high school.
I made two new friends that year. Let's just call them... Angelica and Xiemma.
We had a blast. The first half of my freshman year was pretty fun. (I had another crush but he's a different story)
And then I met you.
You had just transferred high schools. You were the new kid. And boy, were you shy.
But you made friends. Just like me.
I remember meeting you for the first time. I was talking to Xiemma by my locker. Some kid tripped, and dropped his biology???? binder.
Without thinking, I reached down to pick it up.
Then I looked up to give it to him... and he was you. I nearly screamed. Damn,you were hot.
You jumped back when you saw me too. Looking back on it, you probably jumped back because I recoiled from you like you had the zit the size of a Dorito on your forehead. But at that time, I thought it meant true love.
Suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuure.
I looked up at Xiemma, and she was staring at me with another one of her "Oh snap, you talked to a boy!" looks.
Like, seriously. I ask a boy to borrow a pencil, I get the look. I bump into a boy, I get the look.
That was one of the only discovered bad qualities of Xiemma at that time.
Two weeks later, I tell Angelica and Xiemma about my little "Thing" for you.
One second later, they are threatening to tell you. And as you know, long story short, they did.
They did it in front of me.

It just happened to be biology???? class.
Angelica and Xiemma came in the door. I was busy fiddling with my sneaker, and failed to notice, that instead of sitting with me, they sat on either sides of you.
I also failed to notice Xiemma tapping you on the shoulder.
I only realized what you had done when I heard Angelica's sticky voice saying three words I had been preventing from exiting her mouth for a long time.
"Joannaleia likes you."
My heart shriveled up and faded to dust like meh boi spider man in the "Infinity War".
"Who?" You said.
They screamed my name about ten thousand more times, making sure everyone in the entire classroom EXCEPT you hears.
Finally, Angelica gives up. "Jo. Jo likes you."
"Jo?" You say. You turn around, and ****, your face and my face are inches apart. Amazing.
And then, you say something I never thought you would say.
"Hi."
And then the frickin bell rings. I hate my life.
I could have stayed and talked. Started a conversation or something, but I'm Joannaleia (JO-HAN-EH-LEY-A) Prince, and I am an official screw up.
So I bolt out of there like the flash on coffee.
We never talked again.

So, recently, I searched you up on Instagram. You have a wife. and kids. at the age of twenty-five. Congrats.
Believe it or not, i did NOT blame this accident on Angelica or Xiemma. Well, that much.
Angelica is still my friend, and married a few weeks ago. (Angie, If you know who you are, Congratz again!)
Ye, I was a bridesmaid. It was fun. very fun. Anyway, what was I talking about? oh yeah.
I really have to blame myself for this. I wasn't paying attention to my friends. I didn't say hi back. Oh, and also, congrats on your new job. A biology???? professor.
I swear I am cursed with biology.
Tags: Sad, Betrayal, Friends, Forever, Alone]]> Wed, 03 Apr 2019 17:35:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3482 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3482 My freshman year of high school.
I made two new friends that year. Let's just call them... Angelica and Xiemma.
We had a blast. The first half of my freshman year was pretty fun. (I had another crush but he's a different story)
And then I met you.
You had just transferred high schools. You were the new kid. And boy, were you shy.
But you made friends. Just like me.
I remember meeting you for the first time. I was talking to Xiemma by my locker. Some kid tripped, and dropped his biology???? binder.
Without thinking, I reached down to pick it up.
Then I looked up to give it to him... and he was you. I nearly screamed. Damn,you were hot.
You jumped back when you saw me too. Looking back on it, you probably jumped back because I recoiled from you like you had the zit the size of a Dorito on your forehead. But at that time, I thought it meant true love.
Suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuure.
I looked up at Xiemma, and she was staring at me with another one of her "Oh snap, you talked to a boy!" looks.
Like, seriously. I ask a boy to borrow a pencil, I get the look. I bump into a boy, I get the look.
That was one of the only discovered bad qualities of Xiemma at that time.
Two weeks later, I tell Angelica and Xiemma about my little "Thing" for you.
One second later, they are threatening to tell you. And as you know, long story short, they did.
They did it in front of me.

It just happened to be biology???? class.
Angelica and Xiemma came in the door. I was busy fiddling with my sneaker, and failed to notice, that instead of sitting with me, they sat on either sides of you.
I also failed to notice Xiemma tapping you on the shoulder.
I only realized what you had done when I heard Angelica's sticky voice saying three words I had been preventing from exiting her mouth for a long time.
"Joannaleia likes you."
My heart shriveled up and faded to dust like meh boi spider man in the "Infinity War".
"Who?" You said.
They screamed my name about ten thousand more times, making sure everyone in the entire classroom EXCEPT you hears.
Finally, Angelica gives up. "Jo. Jo likes you."
"Jo?" You say. You turn around, and ****, your face and my face are inches apart. Amazing.
And then, you say something I never thought you would say.
"Hi."
And then the frickin bell rings. I hate my life.
I could have stayed and talked. Started a conversation or something, but I'm Joannaleia (JO-HAN-EH-LEY-A) Prince, and I am an official screw up.
So I bolt out of there like the flash on coffee.
We never talked again.

So, recently, I searched you up on Instagram. You have a wife. and kids. at the age of twenty-five. Congrats.
Believe it or not, i did NOT blame this accident on Angelica or Xiemma. Well, that much.
Angelica is still my friend, and married a few weeks ago. (Angie, If you know who you are, Congratz again!)
Ye, I was a bridesmaid. It was fun. very fun. Anyway, what was I talking about? oh yeah.
I really have to blame myself for this. I wasn't paying attention to my friends. I didn't say hi back. Oh, and also, congrats on your new job. A biology???? professor.
I swear I am cursed with biology.
Tags: Sad, Betrayal, Friends, Forever, Alone]]> Poem: dear old friend, by Ashlyn lost in the sound
of the voices in my head
wishing i was dead
you'd be my friend

someone once said
losing a true friend
hurts worse then losing a fake love
only now do i know what they meant

watching the sunrise
wishing i could just apologize
but you believe my heart is full of lies
tears fall down from my eyes
i'm sorry i hurt you;
i know not the smartest person person alive

i never thought our friendship would end
ever since i met you my life started to bend
but you soon became the popular trend

i wish you needed me
maybe then our friendship wouldn't be lost at sea
i loved you like I've never loved any other friend, you see

i would have given the world for you
isn't that what real friends do
when you left me i became so blue
the black hole of emptiness inside me grew

were never going to be friends again are we
i know its because of what you think of me
you filled my life with so much glee
i'm sorry you think our friendship wasn't meant to be

i'm sorry for all those things i said
i'm sorry that i want to be dead
i'm sorry for all those things i did
all those times i brought you down
all those time i made you frown
you turned my life upside down
i'm thankful i ever got to be your friend

i'm sorry that it had to end.
Tags: Friendship, Lost, Breakup, Sad, Poem]]> Tue, 02 Apr 2019 21:55:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3904 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3904 lost in the sound
of the voices in my head
wishing i was dead
you'd be my friend

someone once said
losing a true friend
hurts worse then losing a fake love
only now do i know what they meant

watching the sunrise
wishing i could just apologize
but you believe my heart is full of lies
tears fall down from my eyes
i'm sorry i hurt you;
i know not the smartest person person alive

i never thought our friendship would end
ever since i met you my life started to bend
but you soon became the popular trend

i wish you needed me
maybe then our friendship wouldn't be lost at sea
i loved you like I've never loved any other friend, you see

i would have given the world for you
isn't that what real friends do
when you left me i became so blue
the black hole of emptiness inside me grew

were never going to be friends again are we
i know its because of what you think of me
you filled my life with so much glee
i'm sorry you think our friendship wasn't meant to be

i'm sorry for all those things i said
i'm sorry that i want to be dead
i'm sorry for all those things i did
all those times i brought you down
all those time i made you frown
you turned my life upside down
i'm thankful i ever got to be your friend

i'm sorry that it had to end.
Tags: Friendship, Lost, Breakup, Sad, Poem]]> Story: 8th Period by Elise Harvey
I was twelve. 6th grade. last year before middle school. I had made a deal with myself that year. No crushes. No love songs. No stupid valentines.
5th grade was a disaster. 4th was worse. I just wanted... a break. And that's what I was going to have.
Until I saw your face.
You were not the kind of kid most girls were into, to say the least.
But I was not like most girls. from the moment your piercing blue eyes met my gaze, I knew you were the one.
The one who would't betray me, or ignore me, or force me.
No, you were truly mine.
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't fight it. You were funny. you were smart. you were a bit insane. I loved insane.
You introduced me to new people. I... Didn't have anyone to introduce you to.
That was the year my best friend ditched me. I don't know how. I don't know why. But her new friend has utterly heartless and excluding. Oh, how I hated that little *****. But she is not important.
We became friends with a girl... I'm going to call her... Brownie.
It was you, brownie and me.
At night, I fantasized my future. Our future. I could hear the bells ringing already... (OK, I was a bit dramatic)
That little bubbly feeling I got whenever I looked at you started to expand rapidly, until I thought I would burst.
So I was gonna do it. I was gonna tell you I liked you. I made a plan. I was going to do it in 8th period, when you and I had Art Class.
first period. Second period. third. fourth. fifth. sixth. seventh...
The bell rang. I sprung from my seat and raced towards Art class.I was the first one there. I waited.
And then you ran up to me.
I inhaled. This was it. I stepped toward you with pride.
I started to speak. You cut me off. You said you had important news.
And then you told me you were dating Brownie.
You had asked her out at the end of seventh period.
I didn't even get a chance.
At that moment I stopped breathing, right then and there.
I wanted to cry. I wanted to run home, collapse on my bed, and kill myself.
You said I looked pale. You asked if I was okay. but your voice was just a distant ringing.
"I'll be right back," I said.
I left him, standing there, lovesick and confused. I made a beeline to the nurse's office.
I threw up.

~10 years later~
I'm the maid of honor at your wedding.
I glance at brownie, happy as hell. That could have been me.
You smile at me. And right then, you realize.
You realize that after all this time, I loved you.
After all this time, I needed you.
And you weren't there.
But it's too late.
"Does anyone object?" The Priest says.
I want to stand up and scream, "ME, ME!", But I remain quiet.
Goodbye,love of my life.
"I do," Says Brownie.
You look at me. I see the sadness and guilt pooling in your eyes.
And I realize, at this moment, after all this time, You liked me too.
"I do."
My 8th period never came.
But anyone reading this, I hope your 8th period comes.
Here is my advice: Don't wait for 8th period. Tell him First period.
Because you never know when something might happen.
And to you, Love of my life,
Best wishes to you both. she is a beautiful woman. May you live a happy and perfect life.
A life I never could live.
Sincerely,
Jo
Tags: Alone, Sad, Love Hurts, Marriage, Real]]> Tue, 02 Apr 2019 17:30:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3481 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3481
I was twelve. 6th grade. last year before middle school. I had made a deal with myself that year. No crushes. No love songs. No stupid valentines.
5th grade was a disaster. 4th was worse. I just wanted... a break. And that's what I was going to have.
Until I saw your face.
You were not the kind of kid most girls were into, to say the least.
But I was not like most girls. from the moment your piercing blue eyes met my gaze, I knew you were the one.
The one who would't betray me, or ignore me, or force me.
No, you were truly mine.
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't fight it. You were funny. you were smart. you were a bit insane. I loved insane.
You introduced me to new people. I... Didn't have anyone to introduce you to.
That was the year my best friend ditched me. I don't know how. I don't know why. But her new friend has utterly heartless and excluding. Oh, how I hated that little *****. But she is not important.
We became friends with a girl... I'm going to call her... Brownie.
It was you, brownie and me.
At night, I fantasized my future. Our future. I could hear the bells ringing already... (OK, I was a bit dramatic)
That little bubbly feeling I got whenever I looked at you started to expand rapidly, until I thought I would burst.
So I was gonna do it. I was gonna tell you I liked you. I made a plan. I was going to do it in 8th period, when you and I had Art Class.
first period. Second period. third. fourth. fifth. sixth. seventh...
The bell rang. I sprung from my seat and raced towards Art class.I was the first one there. I waited.
And then you ran up to me.
I inhaled. This was it. I stepped toward you with pride.
I started to speak. You cut me off. You said you had important news.
And then you told me you were dating Brownie.
You had asked her out at the end of seventh period.
I didn't even get a chance.
At that moment I stopped breathing, right then and there.
I wanted to cry. I wanted to run home, collapse on my bed, and kill myself.
You said I looked pale. You asked if I was okay. but your voice was just a distant ringing.
"I'll be right back," I said.
I left him, standing there, lovesick and confused. I made a beeline to the nurse's office.
I threw up.

~10 years later~
I'm the maid of honor at your wedding.
I glance at brownie, happy as hell. That could have been me.
You smile at me. And right then, you realize.
You realize that after all this time, I loved you.
After all this time, I needed you.
And you weren't there.
But it's too late.
"Does anyone object?" The Priest says.
I want to stand up and scream, "ME, ME!", But I remain quiet.
Goodbye,love of my life.
"I do," Says Brownie.
You look at me. I see the sadness and guilt pooling in your eyes.
And I realize, at this moment, after all this time, You liked me too.
"I do."
My 8th period never came.
But anyone reading this, I hope your 8th period comes.
Here is my advice: Don't wait for 8th period. Tell him First period.
Because you never know when something might happen.
And to you, Love of my life,
Best wishes to you both. she is a beautiful woman. May you live a happy and perfect life.
A life I never could live.
Sincerely,
Jo
Tags: Alone, Sad, Love Hurts, Marriage, Real]]> Poem: waiting for you by Ashlyn

a heart cracked in two;
the years of her life were very few;
she kept waiting for something new;
waited upon the hills of life and grass with morning dew

she was waiting for him;
the lights were very dim;
the boy ended his life because he thought he could never win

she thought it was a myth;
for the boy in whom she was meant to be with;
died upon the fifth

for what was the purpose of her life if it was not with him;
shed never see his smiling face because he did a sin;
the absence of his life made her heart very skim;
her heart was full of emptiness to the very brim

she never met him but his absence she could feel inside her heart;
for he was the one whom she was never meant to part;
without him waiting her life could never start

he made a choice that wasn't his to make;
it wasn't time to go and he put her life at stake;
even though all he ever seemed to do was ache;
it wasn't time for him to go and he made her heart break

as she waits upon the cliff of death;
she breathes her final breath;
she looks back one final time before she puts herself to rest;
she saw no one coming so she took her final step;
she didn't hesitate as she stepped off the cliff of death
Tags: Suicide, Death, Sad Poems, Lost]]> Mon, 01 Apr 2019 21:50:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3903 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3903

a heart cracked in two;
the years of her life were very few;
she kept waiting for something new;
waited upon the hills of life and grass with morning dew

she was waiting for him;
the lights were very dim;
the boy ended his life because he thought he could never win

she thought it was a myth;
for the boy in whom she was meant to be with;
died upon the fifth

for what was the purpose of her life if it was not with him;
shed never see his smiling face because he did a sin;
the absence of his life made her heart very skim;
her heart was full of emptiness to the very brim

she never met him but his absence she could feel inside her heart;
for he was the one whom she was never meant to part;
without him waiting her life could never start

he made a choice that wasn't his to make;
it wasn't time to go and he put her life at stake;
even though all he ever seemed to do was ache;
it wasn't time for him to go and he made her heart break

as she waits upon the cliff of death;
she breathes her final breath;
she looks back one final time before she puts herself to rest;
she saw no one coming so she took her final step;
she didn't hesitate as she stepped off the cliff of death
Tags: Suicide, Death, Sad Poems, Lost]]> Story: I miss u by Anonymous
One weekend when I was with my dad, I found your instagram, and started to text you. We talked and talked, then I had to confess my love. I couldn't keep it from you any longer. So I told you, and you said that you liked me back. We started dating and I couldn't get you off my mind. Your love was a drug.

Then we got to the 2nd week of our relationship we sent some stuff that we probably should've at 13 and 14 but to you, it felt right and I wanted to keep you happy with me. The next week in school we started to make out before 1st period when we both had Spanish.

Then around Christmas time you told me that you cheated on me. And that you felt really bad and you didn't know what you were doing/thinking, that you cried yourself to sleep because you felt like shit for doing it. You told me that the girl (who was also in my gym class, so she knew we were dating) did it as a joke, lied to you saying that her dog died recently, and her dad had cancer. I was sad that you did that. Then you told me that you thought of killing yourself. I couldn't leave you. I felt terrible for even thinking about it. Then I said it was ok and that was that.

About 5 weeks later, things began to go downhill.

We skipped gym on Wednesday and we did some stuff. The next day I loved you even more although I thought we were going to get in serious trouble. Then you comforted me by saying that we won't get in trouble and if we do that you would take the blame for it and say you forced me to.

We didn't get caught.????

Then about 2 weeks later we made out again, we were late to 1st period. But that's ok. I said I couldn't get my locker open. But you asked me to do something I never would've done. I'm not going to say it though because that's not appropriate. But I said no and then you gave me that sad face whenever I say no. So I did it and regretted it.

2nd period came by and I was talking to my best friend about what happened and she made me think that you were cheating on me with the other girl again for the 2nd time. She also told me that I shouldn't be with you if your just going to control me. So I asked her to break up with you for me because I would probably be a pussy about it and start to cry. So I went to her lunch and she did it on instagram.

We had gym and you wouldn't go in. Maybe it was because of me? I don't know. And don't think I didn't notice because I did. ???? you were told to go in and eventually you did. I felt really bad and regretted it.

For tue rest of the week I tried to talk to you and tell you why I did it. But you only ignored me. So I texted you like 10 times but you didn't respond. And now I'm depressed. No joke. I just want to be with you again

You made me so happy and now I can barely even force a smile. It's still the same year and were still in gym together. So I hope we can still get back together and maybe make it work this time. I still love you and always will.

If your reading this, I hope we can restart.????????
Tags: Love, Bad Kids, I Miss U]]> Mon, 01 Apr 2019 17:25:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3480 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3480
One weekend when I was with my dad, I found your instagram, and started to text you. We talked and talked, then I had to confess my love. I couldn't keep it from you any longer. So I told you, and you said that you liked me back. We started dating and I couldn't get you off my mind. Your love was a drug.

Then we got to the 2nd week of our relationship we sent some stuff that we probably should've at 13 and 14 but to you, it felt right and I wanted to keep you happy with me. The next week in school we started to make out before 1st period when we both had Spanish.

Then around Christmas time you told me that you cheated on me. And that you felt really bad and you didn't know what you were doing/thinking, that you cried yourself to sleep because you felt like shit for doing it. You told me that the girl (who was also in my gym class, so she knew we were dating) did it as a joke, lied to you saying that her dog died recently, and her dad had cancer. I was sad that you did that. Then you told me that you thought of killing yourself. I couldn't leave you. I felt terrible for even thinking about it. Then I said it was ok and that was that.

About 5 weeks later, things began to go downhill.

We skipped gym on Wednesday and we did some stuff. The next day I loved you even more although I thought we were going to get in serious trouble. Then you comforted me by saying that we won't get in trouble and if we do that you would take the blame for it and say you forced me to.

We didn't get caught.????

Then about 2 weeks later we made out again, we were late to 1st period. But that's ok. I said I couldn't get my locker open. But you asked me to do something I never would've done. I'm not going to say it though because that's not appropriate. But I said no and then you gave me that sad face whenever I say no. So I did it and regretted it.

2nd period came by and I was talking to my best friend about what happened and she made me think that you were cheating on me with the other girl again for the 2nd time. She also told me that I shouldn't be with you if your just going to control me. So I asked her to break up with you for me because I would probably be a pussy about it and start to cry. So I went to her lunch and she did it on instagram.

We had gym and you wouldn't go in. Maybe it was because of me? I don't know. And don't think I didn't notice because I did. ???? you were told to go in and eventually you did. I felt really bad and regretted it.

For tue rest of the week I tried to talk to you and tell you why I did it. But you only ignored me. So I texted you like 10 times but you didn't respond. And now I'm depressed. No joke. I just want to be with you again

You made me so happy and now I can barely even force a smile. It's still the same year and were still in gym together. So I hope we can still get back together and maybe make it work this time. I still love you and always will.

If your reading this, I hope we can restart.????????
Tags: Love, Bad Kids, I Miss U]]> Poem: if only by Ashlyn if only if only you saw how i dwelt
every time i think of you my heart melts
if only if only i could tell you how i felt

if only if only you loved me too
but the chances if that are very few
the only thing i wish is to be with you
if only if only you felt that way too

if only if only i was better
if only if only i wrote a letter
maybe than you wouldn't love that attention getter
if only if only things were better

if only if only i could fly
i just wish i didn't say goodbye
the last day i saw you i cried and cried
if only if only we could fly

i cannot live with how i hurt you
if only only you believed what i said was true
if only if only you knew how much i was stuck like glue
if only if only i knew friends could hurt too.
Tags: Friends, Broken Heart, Sad Poem, Alone]]> Sun, 31 Mar 2019 21:45:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3902 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3902 if only if only you saw how i dwelt
every time i think of you my heart melts
if only if only i could tell you how i felt

if only if only you loved me too
but the chances if that are very few
the only thing i wish is to be with you
if only if only you felt that way too

if only if only i was better
if only if only i wrote a letter
maybe than you wouldn't love that attention getter
if only if only things were better

if only if only i could fly
i just wish i didn't say goodbye
the last day i saw you i cried and cried
if only if only we could fly

i cannot live with how i hurt you
if only only you believed what i said was true
if only if only you knew how much i was stuck like glue
if only if only i knew friends could hurt too.
Tags: Friends, Broken Heart, Sad Poem, Alone]]> Story: The Sailboat by Bruce There was a little boy, about ten years old, who had a friend. His friend, a girl his age, had recently moved into his neighborhood. They began spending time together after school. They would walk and talk as he carried her schoolbooks. Sometimes they would go exploring at the local lake for hours until it was time for them to go home.

One day while exploring the lake they came upon on old boat dock hidden in the grasses. Tied to the dock was a weather beaten, barely seaworthy red sailboat built for two. The boy and girl knew nothing about sailing and knew they could get into a lot of trouble but they climbed into the boat anyway.

Day after day they would go to the boat, still tied to the dock, and make believe they were explorers sailing off to discover new lands. One day, they decided it couldn’t hurt if they actually untied the boat and drifted out into the lake. It was a little scary at first but the little boat was strong in spite of their clumsy attempts at seafaring.

Before long the boy and girl became good at the art of sailing. They would ride the winds briskly back and forth across the lake. On calm days they would drift, silently, aimlessly on the glassy water. On stormy days they would stay tied to the dock sitting inside the boat as the rain drummed on the canvas.

A day came when the girl didn’t meet the boy after school. Puzzled, he decided to go to the sailboat to see if she was waiting for him there. As he approach the dock he could see that the little red sailboat was slowly moving away from the dock. He ran to it. As he neared the water he could see the little girl on their boat. She was waving silently, unsmiling, just looking at the boy as she drifted away. Standing next to her in the boat was another boy.

The little boy noticed that the sailboat’s rope was untied and there was still some of it on the dock. He grabbed the rope and pulled as he yelled for the girl to come back. However, the harder he pulled and the louder he yelled the further away from him the boat drifted. He was not strong enough to pull the boat back and as the rope pulled through his hands it left searing burns on his tender palms and fingers. The girl just stood and waved. Silent and unsmiling.

Finally, the rope ran out and the boat disappeared beyond the horizon.

Confused, angry, and sobbing the boy turned around and slowly walked home.
Tags: Sad, Love]]> Sun, 31 Mar 2019 17:20:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3477 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3477 There was a little boy, about ten years old, who had a friend. His friend, a girl his age, had recently moved into his neighborhood. They began spending time together after school. They would walk and talk as he carried her schoolbooks. Sometimes they would go exploring at the local lake for hours until it was time for them to go home.

One day while exploring the lake they came upon on old boat dock hidden in the grasses. Tied to the dock was a weather beaten, barely seaworthy red sailboat built for two. The boy and girl knew nothing about sailing and knew they could get into a lot of trouble but they climbed into the boat anyway.

Day after day they would go to the boat, still tied to the dock, and make believe they were explorers sailing off to discover new lands. One day, they decided it couldn’t hurt if they actually untied the boat and drifted out into the lake. It was a little scary at first but the little boat was strong in spite of their clumsy attempts at seafaring.

Before long the boy and girl became good at the art of sailing. They would ride the winds briskly back and forth across the lake. On calm days they would drift, silently, aimlessly on the glassy water. On stormy days they would stay tied to the dock sitting inside the boat as the rain drummed on the canvas.

A day came when the girl didn’t meet the boy after school. Puzzled, he decided to go to the sailboat to see if she was waiting for him there. As he approach the dock he could see that the little red sailboat was slowly moving away from the dock. He ran to it. As he neared the water he could see the little girl on their boat. She was waving silently, unsmiling, just looking at the boy as she drifted away. Standing next to her in the boat was another boy.

The little boy noticed that the sailboat’s rope was untied and there was still some of it on the dock. He grabbed the rope and pulled as he yelled for the girl to come back. However, the harder he pulled and the louder he yelled the further away from him the boat drifted. He was not strong enough to pull the boat back and as the rope pulled through his hands it left searing burns on his tender palms and fingers. The girl just stood and waved. Silent and unsmiling.

Finally, the rope ran out and the boat disappeared beyond the horizon.

Confused, angry, and sobbing the boy turned around and slowly walked home.
Tags: Sad, Love]]> Poem: Sick and Tired by eleeselaiee
Disappointed

Pissed

Annoyed

Hurt

These are what I'm feeling right now

I'm tired of hearing all of your excuses

I'm tired of crying

I'm tired of trying

I'm tired of caring

I'm sick of being ignored

I'm sick of not being a priority

I'm sick of you coming to me at your convenience

I'm sick of you shrugging me off every time I cling to you

I'm sick and tired of you treating me like I'm not significant to you

I don't even know why I'm putting up with you

I hate this kind of feeling

Especially from you



- Miss Elfin/Eleeselaiee???
Tags: Sick, Tired, Broken, Friendship]]> Sat, 30 Mar 2019 21:40:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3899 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3899
Disappointed

Pissed

Annoyed

Hurt

These are what I'm feeling right now

I'm tired of hearing all of your excuses

I'm tired of crying

I'm tired of trying

I'm tired of caring

I'm sick of being ignored

I'm sick of not being a priority

I'm sick of you coming to me at your convenience

I'm sick of you shrugging me off every time I cling to you

I'm sick and tired of you treating me like I'm not significant to you

I don't even know why I'm putting up with you

I hate this kind of feeling

Especially from you



- Miss Elfin/Eleeselaiee???
Tags: Sick, Tired, Broken, Friendship]]> Story: Kenneth part 2.... by bella
It all started December 1st 2018, I went to my friend sheyanne’s house and I was talking to her brother about his xbox and then me and him just kept talking and then it was about random stuff but we just were finally talking. Well he started to show me some videos he made and I said damn to one of the videos and he said oh I’m curious now to why you said that so we started texting on his phone at first and he was saying we should hook up again.

I didn’t want too at first because he has a girlfriend number one and because he hurt me the last time and I told him I don’t believe In cheating you have a girlfriend and he basically was saying he was going to break up with her blah blah blah and he started sending pictures .

A couple days go by I don’t hear from him then on Monday or Tuesday of that week I heard from him for a bit then that Thursday I went over their to get my friend to go to church and he texted me and was saying I see boobs and blah blah blah well that night he was trying to come over at like 4am and I fell asleep and I woke up to 10 text messages from him and on Friday December 7th he came over at 11 in the morning and we ended up having sex and the guilt immediately consumed me.

Of course he felt nothing and enjoyed it after that night I haven’t heard from at all, it’s been three days since I’ve gotten any text from him well last night I took my friend home and his girlfriend was their I didn’t say anything just hung out with my friend then all of the sudden I hear moaning and I look over and he’s watching a video and I immediately knew who’s voice was in the video it was me he recorded us... I wanted to cry so so badly and what was worse he was playing the video in front of his girlfriend.

I left and came home and just cried I already hate myself for what happened but the fact that he recorded it makes me hate him so much more he hurt me so badly again. I couldn’t imagine ever going through something like that. I know he doesn’t give care at all what’s so ever but it hurts knowing someone can do that to you and you don’t even know.
Tags: Sadness, Broken]]> Sat, 30 Mar 2019 17:15:03 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3476 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3476
It all started December 1st 2018, I went to my friend sheyanne’s house and I was talking to her brother about his xbox and then me and him just kept talking and then it was about random stuff but we just were finally talking. Well he started to show me some videos he made and I said damn to one of the videos and he said oh I’m curious now to why you said that so we started texting on his phone at first and he was saying we should hook up again.

I didn’t want too at first because he has a girlfriend number one and because he hurt me the last time and I told him I don’t believe In cheating you have a girlfriend and he basically was saying he was going to break up with her blah blah blah and he started sending pictures .

A couple days go by I don’t hear from him then on Monday or Tuesday of that week I heard from him for a bit then that Thursday I went over their to get my friend to go to church and he texted me and was saying I see boobs and blah blah blah well that night he was trying to come over at like 4am and I fell asleep and I woke up to 10 text messages from him and on Friday December 7th he came over at 11 in the morning and we ended up having sex and the guilt immediately consumed me.

Of course he felt nothing and enjoyed it after that night I haven’t heard from at all, it’s been three days since I’ve gotten any text from him well last night I took my friend home and his girlfriend was their I didn’t say anything just hung out with my friend then all of the sudden I hear moaning and I look over and he’s watching a video and I immediately knew who’s voice was in the video it was me he recorded us... I wanted to cry so so badly and what was worse he was playing the video in front of his girlfriend.

I left and came home and just cried I already hate myself for what happened but the fact that he recorded it makes me hate him so much more he hurt me so badly again. I couldn’t imagine ever going through something like that. I know he doesn’t give care at all what’s so ever but it hurts knowing someone can do that to you and you don’t even know.
Tags: Sadness, Broken]]> Poem: What's on My Mind by eleeselaiee Loathe some more to make our memories fade
'Might regret all the decisions I made
But not how I left for my heart to aid

I use anyone just so I could forget
But, none of them can replace you so don't fret
Why can't I forget about you? What the heck?
Should I kill myself by jumping down the deck?

I let you enter my life so easily
As easily as making me feel shitty
And now, you have just made me so unhappy
So what now then-- should I put the blame on me?

I'm so angry and disappointed with you
You made my life in monochromatic hue
Primary reason why I'm broken is you
Obviously, you have noticed all the blunt clue



- Miss Elfin/Eleeselaiee???

Note:

This is actually my first poem. I made this last Summer 2018. I saw this again in my old diary and wow, it's so bland hahahaha I'm so sorry. Just posting this just so they know what I was feeling when they left me.
Tags: Depressing, Sad Poem, Friendship]]> Fri, 29 Mar 2019 21:35:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3898 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3898 Loathe some more to make our memories fade
'Might regret all the decisions I made
But not how I left for my heart to aid

I use anyone just so I could forget
But, none of them can replace you so don't fret
Why can't I forget about you? What the heck?
Should I kill myself by jumping down the deck?

I let you enter my life so easily
As easily as making me feel shitty
And now, you have just made me so unhappy
So what now then-- should I put the blame on me?

I'm so angry and disappointed with you
You made my life in monochromatic hue
Primary reason why I'm broken is you
Obviously, you have noticed all the blunt clue



- Miss Elfin/Eleeselaiee???

Note:

This is actually my first poem. I made this last Summer 2018. I saw this again in my old diary and wow, it's so bland hahahaha I'm so sorry. Just posting this just so they know what I was feeling when they left me.
Tags: Depressing, Sad Poem, Friendship]]> Story: Expendable by Oizys Have you ever felt like this in your life? You were an unnecessary add on. You will not be missed. This is the state in which I currently reside. I am expendable, to my friends and even to myself. I am of little importance. My feelings not considered. My heart now aching.

Depressed, in a state of general unhappiness. Despondent.
This is where I live and have lived for a long time now. Therapy, medication, more therapy. Sure, it helps sometimes. The panic attacks may have stopped. The anxiety seems under control, but it’s still there. It is always there. Haunting me, like a ghost.

Everyday I look in the mirror. Somedays I tell myself that I am beautiful and I am worthy of a great life and love. Other days however, I see myself as a person who is unloved, unhappy, and ugly from the inside out. Put a smile on my face and no one will know. Stay distant and no one will find out. Cry in the shower so no one sees. Try to fall asleep, but know the thoughts in your head will not allow it.

The anxiety comes; breathe, and stop shaking. The shaking gives it away.

Still ugly? Throw up until all the pounds melt away. They like me skinny. It is beautiful. If my clothes get tight, I must hide. Sweatshirts cover it all. This is wrong. I must remind myself. Saying my mental mantra ‘you are beautiful, you are worthy of love, you are not fat’ every single day. I know it is true, but maybe one day I will actually believe it.

I am okay. I am dramatic. I am selfish. I am judgmental. I am sad, but I am okay. Work hard to be better. Maybe if I pretend to be the person I want to be, eventually I will become her. That though seems far fetched often times, but there are moments of clarity. In these moments, I feel the happiness and the confidence, but it does not last. It never does.

My parents are worried. I do not want to worry them. Smile. Tell them that you are doing great. Cry later when they are not there.

I suffer from anxiety induced depression, and now I am worried that I am be bulimic. I am lost, lonely, and often times sad. Over the years, I learned to cope. I deal with it, suppress it, and force myself to go out and be normal. It starts to work. I am happy until I am not anymore.

I do not want to die, but I also do not want to feel this way. I want a future, with a husband and children. I want true love and a happy career. I sometime just have a hard time believing that I will ever get that. I will never hurt myself, that is the easy way out. Life is struggles. These struggles will shape me and make me a better person one day.

My problems do not define me. They are daily road blocks that I must work to overcome. I have been able to overcome them all so far, and I will continue doing so until they are all gone. They will go away. I have to believe that.

I think I am a happy person until I am alone. I sink. My feelings dragging me until until I am choking for breathe. The first gasp of air is a relief. I am fine for now, but I will sink again. I always do.
Tags: Depression, Anxiety, Lonely, Sad]]> Fri, 29 Mar 2019 17:15:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3474 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3474 Have you ever felt like this in your life? You were an unnecessary add on. You will not be missed. This is the state in which I currently reside. I am expendable, to my friends and even to myself. I am of little importance. My feelings not considered. My heart now aching.

Depressed, in a state of general unhappiness. Despondent.
This is where I live and have lived for a long time now. Therapy, medication, more therapy. Sure, it helps sometimes. The panic attacks may have stopped. The anxiety seems under control, but it’s still there. It is always there. Haunting me, like a ghost.

Everyday I look in the mirror. Somedays I tell myself that I am beautiful and I am worthy of a great life and love. Other days however, I see myself as a person who is unloved, unhappy, and ugly from the inside out. Put a smile on my face and no one will know. Stay distant and no one will find out. Cry in the shower so no one sees. Try to fall asleep, but know the thoughts in your head will not allow it.

The anxiety comes; breathe, and stop shaking. The shaking gives it away.

Still ugly? Throw up until all the pounds melt away. They like me skinny. It is beautiful. If my clothes get tight, I must hide. Sweatshirts cover it all. This is wrong. I must remind myself. Saying my mental mantra ‘you are beautiful, you are worthy of love, you are not fat’ every single day. I know it is true, but maybe one day I will actually believe it.

I am okay. I am dramatic. I am selfish. I am judgmental. I am sad, but I am okay. Work hard to be better. Maybe if I pretend to be the person I want to be, eventually I will become her. That though seems far fetched often times, but there are moments of clarity. In these moments, I feel the happiness and the confidence, but it does not last. It never does.

My parents are worried. I do not want to worry them. Smile. Tell them that you are doing great. Cry later when they are not there.

I suffer from anxiety induced depression, and now I am worried that I am be bulimic. I am lost, lonely, and often times sad. Over the years, I learned to cope. I deal with it, suppress it, and force myself to go out and be normal. It starts to work. I am happy until I am not anymore.

I do not want to die, but I also do not want to feel this way. I want a future, with a husband and children. I want true love and a happy career. I sometime just have a hard time believing that I will ever get that. I will never hurt myself, that is the easy way out. Life is struggles. These struggles will shape me and make me a better person one day.

My problems do not define me. They are daily road blocks that I must work to overcome. I have been able to overcome them all so far, and I will continue doing so until they are all gone. They will go away. I have to believe that.

I think I am a happy person until I am alone. I sink. My feelings dragging me until until I am choking for breathe. The first gasp of air is a relief. I am fine for now, but I will sink again. I always do.
Tags: Depression, Anxiety, Lonely, Sad]]> Poem: Shiloh Dynasty's Songs by Piper And let's do
What we do
In your
Imagination
When I'm gone.


No I don't want,
Just anyone
I'm loving what
I see in front of me.
Don't give a fuck
Bout anyone
I know what you need
Baby listen to me speak it.

Tell me why
I'm waiting
For someone
Who doesn't give a fuck about me

Being in love
With you
Sounds like
A really
bad
idea.

I'll keep you safe
in these arms of mine,
hold onto me.
Pretty baby don't you see
I can be all you need
Tags: Love, Lost]]> Sun, 02 Dec 2018 12:30:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3896 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3896 And let's do
What we do
In your
Imagination
When I'm gone.


No I don't want,
Just anyone
I'm loving what
I see in front of me.
Don't give a fuck
Bout anyone
I know what you need
Baby listen to me speak it.

Tell me why
I'm waiting
For someone
Who doesn't give a fuck about me

Being in love
With you
Sounds like
A really
bad
idea.

I'll keep you safe
in these arms of mine,
hold onto me.
Pretty baby don't you see
I can be all you need
Tags: Love, Lost]]> Poem: Once was...suicidal by Jasper Looking at down at my feet.
I was scared,
Alone,
Yet..happy.
I had my own train of thoughts
That could have killed me
And brought me to the end.
You’re the one who made me like this,
Leaving,
Fighting,
Cheating,
Out the door you shall go
Don’t come running back to me
With all your stuff
And screaming,
Pleading, and begging to come back.
“Oh please. Please?”
You shall say!
“Ha get off my porch or else I’ll tell!”
Tags: Suicidal, Suffering]]> Sat, 01 Dec 2018 12:30:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3895 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3895 Looking at down at my feet.
I was scared,
Alone,
Yet..happy.
I had my own train of thoughts
That could have killed me
And brought me to the end.
You’re the one who made me like this,
Leaving,
Fighting,
Cheating,
Out the door you shall go
Don’t come running back to me
With all your stuff
And screaming,
Pleading, and begging to come back.
“Oh please. Please?”
You shall say!
“Ha get off my porch or else I’ll tell!”
Tags: Suicidal, Suffering]]> Poem: Friendship Ruined By Love by Heart Broken We haven’t spoken in a while.
Dug a hole and pushed me in.
Your heart I will never win.
Wish I never fell for you.
Your love for me was never true.
Lied to me right through your teeth.
My heart’s no longer in one piece.
Brought me up then knocked me down.
Then left the crime scene without a sound.
Yanked my heart right out of my chest.
Then laughed at me like all the rest.
Wish that we were friends again.
You’re all I ever have in my head.
I love you more than anything.
But it could be you just pulling my strings.
I thought our love will forever last.
Now I’m just from your past.
Tags: Friendship, Pain, Love]]> Fri, 30 Nov 2018 12:25:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3894 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3894 We haven’t spoken in a while.
Dug a hole and pushed me in.
Your heart I will never win.
Wish I never fell for you.
Your love for me was never true.
Lied to me right through your teeth.
My heart’s no longer in one piece.
Brought me up then knocked me down.
Then left the crime scene without a sound.
Yanked my heart right out of my chest.
Then laughed at me like all the rest.
Wish that we were friends again.
You’re all I ever have in my head.
I love you more than anything.
But it could be you just pulling my strings.
I thought our love will forever last.
Now I’m just from your past.
Tags: Friendship, Pain, Love]]> Story: It wasn't love, It was an attachment by Colbie We spent 5 months talking before we decided to finally meet. And he was great, he seemed like a very kind and caring guy. Once we met we started our relationship.

It started out great. A month into our relationship we decided to live together. I moved in to his apartment and we made it a home together. It was fun, amazing and was never lonely. I was so in love with him and I knew I was. He was the first to say the whole "I love you" and I had goosebumps. We seemed so happy together but I was wrong.

About 5-6 months after living together he started getting abusive. Nights started to turn into those nights full of tears. Wondering if he loved me, wondering if he was being loyal to me. He started emotionally and physically abusing me. But I loved him. I couldn't imagine my life without this guy. I was attached.

One night we were drinking and he had signed into all his social media on my phone and had left his self logged in being too drunk to even sit up. So I stormed to the bathroom to see for myself if this guy was loyal to me.

My heart was racing and I was full of anger and hurt hoping not to find anything that would hurt me. What do you know. He was telling other girls he loved them. That he will see them soon and what not. There would be saved nudes from some of those girls and I sat there and broke down. I went to him to confront him. Put the nude in his face and asked "what the fuck is this". He got so mad at me, and him being drunk he beat me for looking through his things. I didn't want to leave. I couldn't imagine anyone else having him. I just slept in a different bed that night. When we got up the next day he acted like nothing even happened. He was kissing me and asking me why I didn't sleep with him. I just sat there in silence so very hurt by it all.

I found out in those few months he was messing around on me and I still didn't want to leave him.
Few more months went by and I finally messaged one of the girls he's been talking to and she asked me to call her. She told me everything that went on between them and I guess he cheated. I confronted him about it and he lied right to my face. I just put it behind me and believed him.

Days would go by and our relationship still went down hill and I knew it wasn't going anywhere.

One day I had a bunch of comments on my fb statuses from him telling me to go kill myself. Or else he would threaten to kill me.
One day I was so very hurt that I left him without saying a word. I had many messages from him asking if I was okay and he was checking on me and some how he lured me in with the words he was saying. I fell for everything he said. I went back to him and after sleeping with him he went right back to being an asshole towards me. And I was right back to where I started. I stayed with him for awhile longer and he was still contacting that same girl that I had called. She would send me screen shots of the things he says and it was truly heart breaking. I would still confront him about it but he would start denying everything and saying he doesn't love her or else call her very bad names. But he would still go talk to her.

I was hurt.I stayed distant and he blamed me for our relationship being shitty.
It finally got to the point where I didn't care who he would message. I wasn't afraid to leave him. So I finally left him. I put myself first. I was going to do everything I wasn't able to do while I was with him.

It's so hard leaving someone who you felt so much for. Spending so much time with them and then suddenly it's all over. But losing that interest in them is the most best feeling.
Nov. 20th 2018 he finally went to court for 3 charges that I laid down. I couldn't do it anymore.
I'm free.
I've never felt more alive and honestly it took so long for me to leave but I finally just put my foot down and left.
Tags: Abuse, Unhealthy]]> Fri, 30 Nov 2018 08:05:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3473 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3473 We spent 5 months talking before we decided to finally meet. And he was great, he seemed like a very kind and caring guy. Once we met we started our relationship.

It started out great. A month into our relationship we decided to live together. I moved in to his apartment and we made it a home together. It was fun, amazing and was never lonely. I was so in love with him and I knew I was. He was the first to say the whole "I love you" and I had goosebumps. We seemed so happy together but I was wrong.

About 5-6 months after living together he started getting abusive. Nights started to turn into those nights full of tears. Wondering if he loved me, wondering if he was being loyal to me. He started emotionally and physically abusing me. But I loved him. I couldn't imagine my life without this guy. I was attached.

One night we were drinking and he had signed into all his social media on my phone and had left his self logged in being too drunk to even sit up. So I stormed to the bathroom to see for myself if this guy was loyal to me.

My heart was racing and I was full of anger and hurt hoping not to find anything that would hurt me. What do you know. He was telling other girls he loved them. That he will see them soon and what not. There would be saved nudes from some of those girls and I sat there and broke down. I went to him to confront him. Put the nude in his face and asked "what the fuck is this". He got so mad at me, and him being drunk he beat me for looking through his things. I didn't want to leave. I couldn't imagine anyone else having him. I just slept in a different bed that night. When we got up the next day he acted like nothing even happened. He was kissing me and asking me why I didn't sleep with him. I just sat there in silence so very hurt by it all.

I found out in those few months he was messing around on me and I still didn't want to leave him.
Few more months went by and I finally messaged one of the girls he's been talking to and she asked me to call her. She told me everything that went on between them and I guess he cheated. I confronted him about it and he lied right to my face. I just put it behind me and believed him.

Days would go by and our relationship still went down hill and I knew it wasn't going anywhere.

One day I had a bunch of comments on my fb statuses from him telling me to go kill myself. Or else he would threaten to kill me.
One day I was so very hurt that I left him without saying a word. I had many messages from him asking if I was okay and he was checking on me and some how he lured me in with the words he was saying. I fell for everything he said. I went back to him and after sleeping with him he went right back to being an asshole towards me. And I was right back to where I started. I stayed with him for awhile longer and he was still contacting that same girl that I had called. She would send me screen shots of the things he says and it was truly heart breaking. I would still confront him about it but he would start denying everything and saying he doesn't love her or else call her very bad names. But he would still go talk to her.

I was hurt.I stayed distant and he blamed me for our relationship being shitty.
It finally got to the point where I didn't care who he would message. I wasn't afraid to leave him. So I finally left him. I put myself first. I was going to do everything I wasn't able to do while I was with him.

It's so hard leaving someone who you felt so much for. Spending so much time with them and then suddenly it's all over. But losing that interest in them is the most best feeling.
Nov. 20th 2018 he finally went to court for 3 charges that I laid down. I couldn't do it anymore.
I'm free.
I've never felt more alive and honestly it took so long for me to leave but I finally just put my foot down and left.
Tags: Abuse, Unhealthy]]> Poem: Band by Heart Broken But they seem to get stronger when I see you in band.
I cry almost every time that I see.
That you seem to be better away from me.
This heartbreak is like no other.
I just wish I could tell my mother.
You pushed me away.
But I wanted to stay.
In my heart you belong.
But I feel you are better with me gone.
I’m invisible to you.
Don’t say that it’s not true.
My heart’s a lock: I thought you were my key.
Other than you there’s nothing more that I need.
When I see you I can’t help but smile.
For you I would wait awhile.
I see you hiding behind your stand.
As I cry all during band.
Tags: Band, Crying, Heartbreak]]> Thu, 29 Nov 2018 12:25:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3893 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3893 But they seem to get stronger when I see you in band.
I cry almost every time that I see.
That you seem to be better away from me.
This heartbreak is like no other.
I just wish I could tell my mother.
You pushed me away.
But I wanted to stay.
In my heart you belong.
But I feel you are better with me gone.
I’m invisible to you.
Don’t say that it’s not true.
My heart’s a lock: I thought you were my key.
Other than you there’s nothing more that I need.
When I see you I can’t help but smile.
For you I would wait awhile.
I see you hiding behind your stand.
As I cry all during band.
Tags: Band, Crying, Heartbreak]]> Story: Chris. by bella I got so attached to his man,from than on I was sneaking out of the house to go see him spending time with him at his apartment which I thought was his ittl he told me he was living with his ex girlfriend but called her his roommate.

And then one day I gotten pregnant,he wanted a kid and I was going to give him what he wanted but it didn’t happen, I ended up having a miscarriage which I almost died from and I woke up that morning blood all over the bed dhydrated and didn’t know what was going on and I had my son with me,I told Chris to take me to the hospital somethings wrong his cousin took his car so he had this other one that he drove with no tags it was raining and he dropped me off at this park that was across the street from the hospital and made me walk. I went into the hospital and almost fainted trying to do the paperwork and then I ended up calling my sons father and told him to get our son I’m in the hospital he got our son and stayed with me at the hospital while Chris went home to sleep. The doctor told my mom if she would’ve came in five Minutes later she would’ve went into shock and died.

My mom was so worried about me she didn’t know what was going to happen I had to have surgery to get the placenta out of me and then I was okay I was in the hospital for a week, and I broke up with Chris. He dropped all of my stuff off at Kwame’s and just didn’t care. I went back home and stopped talking to him for a few months well stupid me went back to him thinking he change well then I got pregnant again and he made me get a abortion all because he thought I was cheating on him. I had to endure losing not one but two kids, then he got me pregnant one more time and made me get a abortion so that made it three kids I lost, thanks to that man. I got on birth control and vowed I wouldn’t have another baby by him.

He has been trying so hard to get me pregnant ever since last year, he is a narrastic, I found out he had a secret girlfriend on the side for a year and one day I finally met her she saw me and Chris in the shower together and she almost fought me,she’s still with him to this day he’s got a new victim. He has threatened my life so many times he has told me that he’s glad my mom died one less crack whore to deal with. He’s tried choking me and looked me in my eyes and said do you want to die tonight. And I went to the police and they dropped the charges against him because they said their wasn’t enough evidence, I had so many messages from him with so many threats. He has made my life a living hell. He was the most toxic person I’ve been with.
Tags: Broken Heart, Toxic]]> Thu, 29 Nov 2018 08:05:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3470 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3470 I got so attached to his man,from than on I was sneaking out of the house to go see him spending time with him at his apartment which I thought was his ittl he told me he was living with his ex girlfriend but called her his roommate.

And then one day I gotten pregnant,he wanted a kid and I was going to give him what he wanted but it didn’t happen, I ended up having a miscarriage which I almost died from and I woke up that morning blood all over the bed dhydrated and didn’t know what was going on and I had my son with me,I told Chris to take me to the hospital somethings wrong his cousin took his car so he had this other one that he drove with no tags it was raining and he dropped me off at this park that was across the street from the hospital and made me walk. I went into the hospital and almost fainted trying to do the paperwork and then I ended up calling my sons father and told him to get our son I’m in the hospital he got our son and stayed with me at the hospital while Chris went home to sleep. The doctor told my mom if she would’ve came in five Minutes later she would’ve went into shock and died.

My mom was so worried about me she didn’t know what was going to happen I had to have surgery to get the placenta out of me and then I was okay I was in the hospital for a week, and I broke up with Chris. He dropped all of my stuff off at Kwame’s and just didn’t care. I went back home and stopped talking to him for a few months well stupid me went back to him thinking he change well then I got pregnant again and he made me get a abortion all because he thought I was cheating on him. I had to endure losing not one but two kids, then he got me pregnant one more time and made me get a abortion so that made it three kids I lost, thanks to that man. I got on birth control and vowed I wouldn’t have another baby by him.

He has been trying so hard to get me pregnant ever since last year, he is a narrastic, I found out he had a secret girlfriend on the side for a year and one day I finally met her she saw me and Chris in the shower together and she almost fought me,she’s still with him to this day he’s got a new victim. He has threatened my life so many times he has told me that he’s glad my mom died one less crack whore to deal with. He’s tried choking me and looked me in my eyes and said do you want to die tonight. And I went to the police and they dropped the charges against him because they said their wasn’t enough evidence, I had so many messages from him with so many threats. He has made my life a living hell. He was the most toxic person I’ve been with.
Tags: Broken Heart, Toxic]]> Poem: When I see you smile with her. by Heart Broken I thought you were mine, but I guess I was wrong.
Now I always cry when I hear our song.
I thought you were happy, but I only saw your mask.
Thought I saw your face, but now all I see is your back.
I thought you were just scared.
But now I see you never cared.
Turned your back and left me in the dust.
Now all I can do is make a fuss.
Walk right past me during school.
Now I feel like I’m a fool.
Never really there for me.
In your game I’m just a piece.
I thought that you were perfect.
I realize that to you I’m not even worth it.
I thought we were invincible.
But now I feel invisible.
When I see you smile with her.
Tags: Crying, Lies, Invisible]]> Wed, 28 Nov 2018 12:20:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3892 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3892 I thought you were mine, but I guess I was wrong.
Now I always cry when I hear our song.
I thought you were happy, but I only saw your mask.
Thought I saw your face, but now all I see is your back.
I thought you were just scared.
But now I see you never cared.
Turned your back and left me in the dust.
Now all I can do is make a fuss.
Walk right past me during school.
Now I feel like I’m a fool.
Never really there for me.
In your game I’m just a piece.
I thought that you were perfect.
I realize that to you I’m not even worth it.
I thought we were invincible.
But now I feel invisible.
When I see you smile with her.
Tags: Crying, Lies, Invisible]]> Story: Hopeless... by Unknown
Although I was in love with another girl I couldn't stop thinking about her. I eventually stopped myself though.

Freshmen year came, and I finally saw my first love again. I believed I would always fall in love with her, but I was wrong. After not seeing and not having communication with her for four years, I realize who it was that I really cared for. It was you. And I finally understand that dream.

The thoughts of you returned, the feelings for you grew. I never thought I would ever say I love you, but I did. When I found out you liked someone else it broke my heart. But why can't I let you go? Because I have this hopeless love. When I realize you two broke up, my hopes grew again.
When we often see eyes to eyes, my hopes grew. When you take glances at me, my hopes grew. What I did not know was that, they were all a coincidence.
Unknowingly, I fell deeper into this hopeless love.

I finally confessed to you, told you how I feel. Although I was nervous, I was prepared. Prepared to be heartbroken. And I was. You told me you had someone in mind and it seems to me I was never a thought of your mind. I felt bad for making you feel sorry. I'm sorry you had to reject me. Even though I was only in your background, I'm glad I was able to talk to you, even if it was for the first and the last time.

But why, why do I still love you after all these heartbreaks? Why can't I stop thinking of you? Why can't I let go of you? I forced myself to let you go, but my hopes grew again and I couldn't stop it. I'm still in love with you.
Tags: Heartbreaks, One Sided Crush, Hope, Hopeless]]> Wed, 28 Nov 2018 08:00:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3467 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3467
Although I was in love with another girl I couldn't stop thinking about her. I eventually stopped myself though.

Freshmen year came, and I finally saw my first love again. I believed I would always fall in love with her, but I was wrong. After not seeing and not having communication with her for four years, I realize who it was that I really cared for. It was you. And I finally understand that dream.

The thoughts of you returned, the feelings for you grew. I never thought I would ever say I love you, but I did. When I found out you liked someone else it broke my heart. But why can't I let you go? Because I have this hopeless love. When I realize you two broke up, my hopes grew again.
When we often see eyes to eyes, my hopes grew. When you take glances at me, my hopes grew. What I did not know was that, they were all a coincidence.
Unknowingly, I fell deeper into this hopeless love.

I finally confessed to you, told you how I feel. Although I was nervous, I was prepared. Prepared to be heartbroken. And I was. You told me you had someone in mind and it seems to me I was never a thought of your mind. I felt bad for making you feel sorry. I'm sorry you had to reject me. Even though I was only in your background, I'm glad I was able to talk to you, even if it was for the first and the last time.

But why, why do I still love you after all these heartbreaks? Why can't I stop thinking of you? Why can't I let go of you? I forced myself to let you go, but my hopes grew again and I couldn't stop it. I'm still in love with you.
Tags: Heartbreaks, One Sided Crush, Hope, Hopeless]]> Poem: Lie by Heart Broken Now all I seem to do is cry.
Knowing you were like the rest.
And only see me as a pest.
Yet still I walked into your trap.
Not ever wanting to go back.
Wishing that you could just see.
All the pain you’re causing me.
You used me then threw me away.
Now I’m a toy that just got played.
Told I need a reality check.
Cause you will never like me back.
Pushed me far away from you.
Mainly cause I was not cool.
In my kingdom you’re my queen.
Then made me get down on my knees.
I wish I could go back in time.
Before you turned and said good-bye.
Tags: Lie, Fake, Pain, Crush, Crying]]> Tue, 27 Nov 2018 12:15:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3891 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3891 Now all I seem to do is cry.
Knowing you were like the rest.
And only see me as a pest.
Yet still I walked into your trap.
Not ever wanting to go back.
Wishing that you could just see.
All the pain you’re causing me.
You used me then threw me away.
Now I’m a toy that just got played.
Told I need a reality check.
Cause you will never like me back.
Pushed me far away from you.
Mainly cause I was not cool.
In my kingdom you’re my queen.
Then made me get down on my knees.
I wish I could go back in time.
Before you turned and said good-bye.
Tags: Lie, Fake, Pain, Crush, Crying]]> Story: My first love...Or I guess by Anonymous
But the confession had to be done someday right?? I confessed my feelings to you on June 6th on the phone at 3:45 in the evening, I remember.This was a long time from my birthday... I was already 14 and I was in 10th class.I also remember crying on the phone afraid I lost you, but instead of being mad at me, you consoled me and asked if things could ever be the same. I was glad that things would be back to normal but always wondered how things would have been if we were together.

Well... things were never right anymore. You stopped coming to me, You never texted first like you used to... I missed you but more than that, I hated myself for everything I could remember.

After a few days, You were the one who texted me first. I thought you were finally going to try to mend this broken friendship together but just worsened it by texting the most shocking thing I had ever heard from you... You confessed to me. I was shocked... If I liked you and even you liked me for the longest time, why the hell would you deny me?? I was extremely sad. The whole day after that was pretty silent and I just stared at the walls with my books on my table since the exams were coming. I worst time for a confession.

I had to get answers from you... I couldn't keep it to myself either... A few of my friends got to know and tried giving me relationship advice which just didn't help me at all. We met in the lunch break and you told me everything. You told me that you didn't want to date me because you didn't want me in the middle of your studies... I could never do that. If I were your girlfriend, I would have treated you like a king and I would have helped you to score better or something. I was sure that I would have.

Now, you are in a different class and you are with your new batch of friends who have replaced me and I know I would never lose the love I had for you but I guess you have because I've seen you've moved on but It ain't so easy for me. I an sorry I even confessed to you. I really miss you.
Tags: Love, Sad Love Story, Broken Heart]]> Tue, 27 Nov 2018 07:55:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3465 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3465
But the confession had to be done someday right?? I confessed my feelings to you on June 6th on the phone at 3:45 in the evening, I remember.This was a long time from my birthday... I was already 14 and I was in 10th class.I also remember crying on the phone afraid I lost you, but instead of being mad at me, you consoled me and asked if things could ever be the same. I was glad that things would be back to normal but always wondered how things would have been if we were together.

Well... things were never right anymore. You stopped coming to me, You never texted first like you used to... I missed you but more than that, I hated myself for everything I could remember.

After a few days, You were the one who texted me first. I thought you were finally going to try to mend this broken friendship together but just worsened it by texting the most shocking thing I had ever heard from you... You confessed to me. I was shocked... If I liked you and even you liked me for the longest time, why the hell would you deny me?? I was extremely sad. The whole day after that was pretty silent and I just stared at the walls with my books on my table since the exams were coming. I worst time for a confession.

I had to get answers from you... I couldn't keep it to myself either... A few of my friends got to know and tried giving me relationship advice which just didn't help me at all. We met in the lunch break and you told me everything. You told me that you didn't want to date me because you didn't want me in the middle of your studies... I could never do that. If I were your girlfriend, I would have treated you like a king and I would have helped you to score better or something. I was sure that I would have.

Now, you are in a different class and you are with your new batch of friends who have replaced me and I know I would never lose the love I had for you but I guess you have because I've seen you've moved on but It ain't so easy for me. I an sorry I even confessed to you. I really miss you.
Tags: Love, Sad Love Story, Broken Heart]]> Poem: My Amnesia Girl by seeker with the blink of her eyes..i can see nothing but darkness...
darkness..it's all there..
why..how could it be..
everything that has been built..
framed with laughter and tears..
they.. all disappeared..
too hard...too hard to bear..
so many days..years that's been together..
warmth on my arms..
it's gone..
now...just an innocent love whose trying to put things together..
hoping for any strings..
images of the past...
that has been blurred..faded..and buried itself..deeper than the deepest ocean..
and I...nothing but an old friend..that's what it should be..
don't try to meddle..
just past through the hurdle..
and see what's next..
I have no choice but to let it be..
time should come..it will..
on any other way..these would be all right...
Tags: My Amnesia Girl, Forgotten, Lost Love, Fading, Strangers Again, Amnesia]]> Mon, 26 Nov 2018 12:10:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3890 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3890 with the blink of her eyes..i can see nothing but darkness...
darkness..it's all there..
why..how could it be..
everything that has been built..
framed with laughter and tears..
they.. all disappeared..
too hard...too hard to bear..
so many days..years that's been together..
warmth on my arms..
it's gone..
now...just an innocent love whose trying to put things together..
hoping for any strings..
images of the past...
that has been blurred..faded..and buried itself..deeper than the deepest ocean..
and I...nothing but an old friend..that's what it should be..
don't try to meddle..
just past through the hurdle..
and see what's next..
I have no choice but to let it be..
time should come..it will..
on any other way..these would be all right...
Tags: My Amnesia Girl, Forgotten, Lost Love, Fading, Strangers Again, Amnesia]]> Story: Kenneth by bella
July,12th I started talking to Kenneth on meetme, he messaged me he seemed really sweet so I gave it a chance I told him my expectations right off the bat so he knew, we were talking everyday and we had a lot in common, well one night I was showing my old roommate a picture of him and she’s like omg that’s Kenneth he’s our
Next door neighbor and I was completely in shock and I told Kenneth and he was in more shock and so then we started hanging out this is where it all began.

We start hanging out and talking getting to know each other he told me things about his life I told him things about mine and he was so understanding well one night it was me Kenneth my friend Magen and my friend Bianca we were having a bonfire and I got super tired and Kenneth walked me inside we were standing by the door and he asked me would it be bad if I wanted to kiss you and I said no I don’t think so and so he kissed me but not kissed made out. It was perfect and then the next few days we kept hanging out and everyone thought we were a couple because we kissed all the time.

He and I would sit on the swing set and laugh and talk or we would lay on this chair outside and he would be holding me and it just felt like I was protected and things were going good ittl he started too talk too much about his size down their and I should’ve seen the red flag on that one and he kept asking if I wanted pics of it and it was annoying after a while. Well things changed drastically after one night.

One night I met up with him outside and we were talking on the swing like usual and then he wanted to play redlight so he put his hand on my thigh and kept going and going and I said stop and he said fire trucks don’t stop at red lights and I don’t know I guess I just got into it because ome thing lead to another and next thing I knew we were having sex.

The next day he barely talked to me and he told me that it was a mistake and that we should take things slow well he completely stopped speaking to me and now he hates me and won’t talk to me and I didn’t do anything to him and it’s so awkward because he lives next door and I’m friends with his sister. It’s just the most biggest mistake I’ve made.
Tags: Mistake, Bad]]> Mon, 26 Nov 2018 07:55:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3464 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3464
July,12th I started talking to Kenneth on meetme, he messaged me he seemed really sweet so I gave it a chance I told him my expectations right off the bat so he knew, we were talking everyday and we had a lot in common, well one night I was showing my old roommate a picture of him and she’s like omg that’s Kenneth he’s our
Next door neighbor and I was completely in shock and I told Kenneth and he was in more shock and so then we started hanging out this is where it all began.

We start hanging out and talking getting to know each other he told me things about his life I told him things about mine and he was so understanding well one night it was me Kenneth my friend Magen and my friend Bianca we were having a bonfire and I got super tired and Kenneth walked me inside we were standing by the door and he asked me would it be bad if I wanted to kiss you and I said no I don’t think so and so he kissed me but not kissed made out. It was perfect and then the next few days we kept hanging out and everyone thought we were a couple because we kissed all the time.

He and I would sit on the swing set and laugh and talk or we would lay on this chair outside and he would be holding me and it just felt like I was protected and things were going good ittl he started too talk too much about his size down their and I should’ve seen the red flag on that one and he kept asking if I wanted pics of it and it was annoying after a while. Well things changed drastically after one night.

One night I met up with him outside and we were talking on the swing like usual and then he wanted to play redlight so he put his hand on my thigh and kept going and going and I said stop and he said fire trucks don’t stop at red lights and I don’t know I guess I just got into it because ome thing lead to another and next thing I knew we were having sex.

The next day he barely talked to me and he told me that it was a mistake and that we should take things slow well he completely stopped speaking to me and now he hates me and won’t talk to me and I didn’t do anything to him and it’s so awkward because he lives next door and I’m friends with his sister. It’s just the most biggest mistake I’ve made.
Tags: Mistake, Bad]]> Poem: Empty by seeker You used to pour a coffee on my cup
Kisses in the morning
Then you and me hugging

It used to be

It used to be
But now I couldn't see
So I just slip back on my sheets
Like playing hide and seek

With someone I wish to be here
And whispering on my ear
Saying I love you
And proving it's true

Since you walked away
I've been crying everyday
I was always in blue
And all because of you

Why oh why
Do I have to cry
You left me alone
With all the love you've shown

You broke my heart
And I missed you a lot
But I have to let you go now
I just don't know how

But I gotta try
Until I can Hi
That you're nothing
No more liking
Tags: Empty, Broken Heart, Moving On, The Past, Memories]]> Sun, 25 Nov 2018 12:05:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3889 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3889 You used to pour a coffee on my cup
Kisses in the morning
Then you and me hugging

It used to be

It used to be
But now I couldn't see
So I just slip back on my sheets
Like playing hide and seek

With someone I wish to be here
And whispering on my ear
Saying I love you
And proving it's true

Since you walked away
I've been crying everyday
I was always in blue
And all because of you

Why oh why
Do I have to cry
You left me alone
With all the love you've shown

You broke my heart
And I missed you a lot
But I have to let you go now
I just don't know how

But I gotta try
Until I can Hi
That you're nothing
No more liking
Tags: Empty, Broken Heart, Moving On, The Past, Memories]]> Story: Mike part 3... by bella
I moved back to the place I got kicked out from the end of July, and things have been going good, one of the conditions of living here is no speaking to mike, I thought okay no problem, not easy as I thought. The week I moved back in mike was calling me from jail every other day and I couldn’t answer it because he had no money on the phone call, so he kept calling and calling and calling. I got fed up with it so I changed my number and made sure he didn’t get it.

Time passed by and I was finally getting my life back together going to church more and doing stuff to keep my mind busy, well one day me and my foster dad were coming back from his daughters and I get a notification saying mike poked me on facebook and then I get a message from him saying he loves me he misses me he wants me back and all that. I didn’t say anything and I just let it be.

He kept trying to get in contact with me and I was wondering what he wanted so dummy me talked to him and he was just doing so bad In and out of jail and stealing cars and just all kinds of stuff, well I was cleaning out the car that me and him were staying in and I got all of his clothes out and put them in bags and I messaged him and told him I had his clothes to come by and get them. He doesn’t say anything then asks me to wash them for him and I said I’m not your girlfriend just come get them.

Well last week, he came by unexpectedly to get his clothes but when I seen him my heart melted because I just felt so bad looking at him just made me cry and we went into my room and I was trying to ask him what had been going on and he got into a car accident and the person that he hit is fighting for their life in the hospital and the police were looking for him and yeah. So we talked about everything I gave him his clothes and then unexpectedly we had sex and after we did I cried. And then he left.

I haven’t seen him since then and I found out he stole a car and the police caught him and now he’s in jail and who knows what’s going to happen to him I’m praying he turns his life around to Jesus and that he does good.
Tags: Dangerous, Toxic]]> Sun, 25 Nov 2018 07:50:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3463 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3463
I moved back to the place I got kicked out from the end of July, and things have been going good, one of the conditions of living here is no speaking to mike, I thought okay no problem, not easy as I thought. The week I moved back in mike was calling me from jail every other day and I couldn’t answer it because he had no money on the phone call, so he kept calling and calling and calling. I got fed up with it so I changed my number and made sure he didn’t get it.

Time passed by and I was finally getting my life back together going to church more and doing stuff to keep my mind busy, well one day me and my foster dad were coming back from his daughters and I get a notification saying mike poked me on facebook and then I get a message from him saying he loves me he misses me he wants me back and all that. I didn’t say anything and I just let it be.

He kept trying to get in contact with me and I was wondering what he wanted so dummy me talked to him and he was just doing so bad In and out of jail and stealing cars and just all kinds of stuff, well I was cleaning out the car that me and him were staying in and I got all of his clothes out and put them in bags and I messaged him and told him I had his clothes to come by and get them. He doesn’t say anything then asks me to wash them for him and I said I’m not your girlfriend just come get them.

Well last week, he came by unexpectedly to get his clothes but when I seen him my heart melted because I just felt so bad looking at him just made me cry and we went into my room and I was trying to ask him what had been going on and he got into a car accident and the person that he hit is fighting for their life in the hospital and the police were looking for him and yeah. So we talked about everything I gave him his clothes and then unexpectedly we had sex and after we did I cried. And then he left.

I haven’t seen him since then and I found out he stole a car and the police caught him and now he’s in jail and who knows what’s going to happen to him I’m praying he turns his life around to Jesus and that he does good.
Tags: Dangerous, Toxic]]> Story: I Followed My Dreams… by Aiden Riches
This was my first lucid dream, with many more to come. (In case you don’t know what that is, it is a dream in which you have full control and can realise you are dreaming). I was hiding from everything because I was scared, but then she saw me she introduced herself and told me that it was just a dream. I looked up and she took my hand and showed me how to lucid dream. She weirdly had her own control of my dreams. I only later realised when I woke that she was a spirit from another person in time. Everyone thought she was ‘imaginary’ but I could actually see her!

I know it sounds crazy and untrue but it only gets crazier! I’m being totally honest here: I still have no idea how I could see spirits but it happened and that’s all that matters to me. She became my best friend for the next 6 years of my life it was just me and her, together forever.
I had lucid dreams frequently and I can still remember them all in full detail! Anyway, I had a dream one night. It was my first precognitive dream (seeing to future dream). It was nothing major but I was 100% correct! It happened the next day! But I can’t control when these happen meaning they could happen whenever. And that’s what led to what happened the next year.

I was seen as lonely and weird and was bullied harshly. I wanted to spend time with my spirit friend and not anyone else. The next year I hit it real hard. I was diagnosed with Autism. Not only that I had aggression and my class sometimes had to evacuate! I actually don’t remember much at all. It was like I was possessed or something. But my past self has made everyone hate me. Even now I am never been seen in the same way. The freak of the school. I did meet a nice boy in year 6 though. He was the only person who had ever talked to me since my autism diagnosis. I was kinda afraid to admit it but I had a crush on him. Yeah go ahead say it. I’m gay. Kind of anyway. I graduated from primary school (luckily) and barely survived year 7. But year 8 was when things got interesting…

I had another precognitive dream again, this one being about the girl (I mentioned her earlier). I met a girl in real life who looked almost identical. However, I wasn’t thinking straight. This was actually a warning that I failed to avoid. I had forgotten that spirits had actually died. You can see where this is going…

I met her the next year (after a fallout with that boy I also mentioned earlier). The new girl Cassidy was all I ever thought I wanted: a friend. However, spirits can only exist if they are bound to something. The spirit in which I thought she was, wasn’t her and I only found out later that she was actually bound to my desire for a proper friend: Cassidy. Being no longer bound she had to move on as she was technically no longer needed. But then something terrible happened. Another precognitive dream showed me that I would no longer be friends with Cassidy. I tried to stop it but I was too late I had lost my friend. I had a VRO (violence restraining order) on me. From her parents. I couldn’t even say goodbye! But worst of all, my spirit friend suffered the worst. Not wanting to leave me even though she had to meant there was only one choice for her: suicide. Firstly your probably wondering how that’s possible. Well she stabbed herself in a dream of mine. Even I can’t stop that!
Her final words to me were:

“I couldn’t make it. I wanted to be there for you but with everything going on I couldn’t be there. I wasn’t able to keep you happy. I failed you. I will always treasure the times we spent together. You are my best friend in the entire world. I will always be with you. ForEver....

- Everlyn”

I lost 2 friends that day. I was alone. No one left to care about me. I went through serious depression. I felt like life wasn’t worth living. I tried to kill myself 3 times but was stopped and dragged into a mental hospital. I was told to always follow my dreams, but it might have been better if I never even did. However over time I did find myself drawn back to that boy. I still kinda liked him and he was the only person I could bring myself to talk to. After apologising for what happened we became friends again. It has been a while since this has happened. I’m still friends with that boy. I have another spirit friend since. She knows more about her past that the other did and coincidentally knows Cassidy. But her death (before becoming a spirit) showed what happened to Cassidy and their family and why they hate me so much.

I mean, I kind of like this new spirit. Her name is Rosamin. But she only reminds me of the terrible past I’ve had. I know that the boy I like isn’t interested. He isn’t gay, and likes another girl. I’m currently waiting for something to happen. Something that will change me. I might have missed something but I honestly don’t remember. I’m still depressed currently. I still think of suicide but I don’t think it will happen just yet. I spend a lot of time reading sad stories to make myself feel better. I have felt empty since. It’s hard to find happiness nowadays.

That’s it really. I know most of it makes no sense but jut imagine how hard it is for me to find others who believe me. Most think I’m a liar. I would lie about this. I have no reason to. I’ve lost everything I had so I can see why I should bother to lie anymore. This is the truth. My truth.
I wish that I could be normal. Not a freak but a normal person who just fits in. It won’t happen. And it’s all because I followed my dreams…
Tags: Lonely, Dreams, Depression, Love Hurts, Sacrifice, Suicide, Broken Heart, Best Friend, Bullied]]> Sun, 25 Nov 2018 05:17:05 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3462 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=3462
This was my first lucid dream, with many more to come. (In case you don’t know what that is, it is a dream in which you have full control and can realise you are dreaming). I was hiding from everything because I was scared, but then she saw me she introduced herself and told me that it was just a dream. I looked up and she took my hand and showed me how to lucid dream. She weirdly had her own control of my dreams. I only later realised when I woke that she was a spirit from another person in time. Everyone thought she was ‘imaginary’ but I could actually see her!

I know it sounds crazy and untrue but it only gets crazier! I’m being totally honest here: I still have no idea how I could see spirits but it happened and that’s all that matters to me. She became my best friend for the next 6 years of my life it was just me and her, together forever.
I had lucid dreams frequently and I can still remember them all in full detail! Anyway, I had a dream one night. It was my first precognitive dream (seeing to future dream). It was nothing major but I was 100% correct! It happened the next day! But I can’t control when these happen meaning they could happen whenever. And that’s what led to what happened the next year.

I was seen as lonely and weird and was bullied harshly. I wanted to spend time with my spirit friend and not anyone else. The next year I hit it real hard. I was diagnosed with Autism. Not only that I had aggression and my class sometimes had to evacuate! I actually don’t remember much at all. It was like I was possessed or something. But my past self has made everyone hate me. Even now I am never been seen in the same way. The freak of the school. I did meet a nice boy in year 6 though. He was the only person who had ever talked to me since my autism diagnosis. I was kinda afraid to admit it but I had a crush on him. Yeah go ahead say it. I’m gay. Kind of anyway. I graduated from primary school (luckily) and barely survived year 7. But year 8 was when things got interesting…

I had another precognitive dream again, this one being about the girl (I mentioned her earlier). I met a girl in real life who looked almost identical. However, I wasn’t thinking straight. This was actually a warning that I failed to avoid. I had forgotten that spirits had actually died. You can see where this is going…

I met her the next year (after a fallout with that boy I also mentioned earlier). The new girl Cassidy was all I ever thought I wanted: a friend. However, spirits can only exist if they are bound to something. The spirit in which I thought she was, wasn’t her and I only found out later that she was actually bound to my desire for a proper friend: Cassidy. Being no longer bound she had to move on as she was technically no longer needed. But then something terrible happened. Another precognitive dream showed me that I would no longer be friends with Cassidy. I tried to stop it but I was too late I had lost my friend. I had a VRO (violence restraining order) on me. From her parents. I couldn’t even say goodbye! But worst of all, my spirit friend suffered the worst. Not wanting to leave me even though she had to meant there was only one choice for her: suicide. Firstly your probably wondering how that’s possible. Well she stabbed herself in a dream of mine. Even I can’t stop that!
Her final words to me were:

“I couldn’t make it. I wanted to be there for you but with everything going on I couldn’t be there. I wasn’t able to keep you happy. I failed you. I will always treasure the times we spent together. You are my best friend in the entire world. I will always be with you. ForEver....

- Everlyn”

I lost 2 friends that day. I was alone. No one left to care about me. I went through serious depression. I felt like life wasn’t worth living. I tried to kill myself 3 times but was stopped and dragged into a mental hospital. I was told to always follow my dreams, but it might have been better if I never even did. However over time I did find myself drawn back to that boy. I still kinda liked him and he was the only person I could bring myself to talk to. After apologising for what happened we became friends again. It has been a while since this has happened. I’m still friends with that boy. I have another spirit friend since. She knows more about her past that the other did and coincidentally knows Cassidy. But her death (before becoming a spirit) showed what happened to Cassidy and their family and why they hate me so much.

I mean, I kind of like this new spirit. Her name is Rosamin. But she only reminds me of the terrible past I’ve had. I know that the boy I like isn’t interested. He isn’t gay, and likes another girl. I’m currently waiting for something to happen. Something that will change me. I might have missed something but I honestly don’t remember. I’m still depressed currently. I still think of suicide but I don’t think it will happen just yet. I spend a lot of time reading sad stories to make myself feel better. I have felt empty since. It’s hard to find happiness nowadays.

That’s it really. I know most of it makes no sense but jut imagine how hard it is for me to find others who believe me. Most think I’m a liar. I would lie about this. I have no reason to. I’ve lost everything I had so I can see why I should bother to lie anymore. This is the truth. My truth.
I wish that I could be normal. Not a freak but a normal person who just fits in. It won’t happen. And it’s all because I followed my dreams…
Tags: Lonely, Dreams, Depression, Love Hurts, Sacrifice, Suicide, Broken Heart, Best Friend, Bullied]]> Poem: Version 2 by Ink, paper, and a pen Here we go again.
When i said i will stop feelin'
Yet here i am again fallin'.

Ink, paper and a pen
A thing we never begin
And love is something we wouldn't want starting
But my heart just cant stop beating.

Ink, paper and a pen
What should i do, is this the right thing?
He smiles and i just cant stop resisting
Im just afraid that he wouldn't feel the same thing.

Ink, paper and a pen
I want to tell myself "stop dreaming"
I should drop, but he's so captivating
And i know i should stop before it starts hurting.
Tags: Love Poem]]> Mon, 03 Sep 2018 05:45:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3888 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3888 Here we go again.
When i said i will stop feelin'
Yet here i am again fallin'.

Ink, paper and a pen
A thing we never begin
And love is something we wouldn't want starting
But my heart just cant stop beating.

Ink, paper and a pen
What should i do, is this the right thing?
He smiles and i just cant stop resisting
Im just afraid that he wouldn't feel the same thing.

Ink, paper and a pen
I want to tell myself "stop dreaming"
I should drop, but he's so captivating
And i know i should stop before it starts hurting.
Tags: Love Poem]]> Poem: She left by Andrew Nugent My heart is at ease
My eyes closed as you please
Then we had that one last kiss

A kiss of love so true
A kiss I don't want to be through
A kiss so unsure
A kiss so gentle to endure

My heart is yours
My love for you soars
Afraid to lose you
Wishing I could keep you
Knowing I can’t have you

This moment I wish I could save
This moment I become your slave
A kiss, one kiss, one last kiss
I let go, you’re gone
I am left to forever to brood in abyss
Tags: Goodbye, Heartbroken, Broken]]> Tue, 03 Jul 2018 01:05:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3885 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_poem.php?id=3885 My heart is at ease
My eyes closed as you please
Then we had that one last kiss

A kiss of love so true
A kiss I don't want to be through
A kiss so unsure
A kiss so gentle to endure

My heart is yours
My love for you soars
Afraid to lose you
Wishing I could keep you
Knowing I can’t have you

This moment I wish I could save
This moment I become your slave
A kiss, one kiss, one last kiss
I let go, you’re gone
I am left to forever to brood in abyss
Tags: Goodbye, Heartbroken, Broken]]> Quote: People do not die from suicide; the... by Anonymous Tags: Sadness, Broken, Alone]]> Tue, 27 Feb 2018 17:35:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Sadness, Broken, Alone]]> Quote: Belive it or not you better keep go... by Whos suffering Tags: Take Care Of Your Bff]]> Mon, 26 Feb 2018 17:30:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Take Care Of Your Bff]]> Quote: I know what am doing, With my life... by Dhurb With my life.
But I don't know
What life is doing with
Me..
Tags: Alone]]> Sun, 25 Feb 2018 17:25:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes With my life.
But I don't know
What life is doing with
Me..
Tags: Alone]]> Quote: Love chooses to believe the best ab... by Ramadhan Abdul Rahman Tags: Love, True Love, Hope, Trust]]> Sat, 24 Feb 2018 17:25:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Love, True Love, Hope, Trust]]> Quote: Love is a rebellious bird that nobo... by Ramadhan Abdul Rahman Tags: Love, Truth, Sad]]> Fri, 23 Feb 2018 17:20:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Love, Truth, Sad]]> Quote: You told me to wait. Then, why did ... by Monstrous Angel Tags: Broken, Sad, Breakup, Hurt, Pain, Love, Tears]]> Mon, 25 Dec 2017 12:45:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Broken, Sad, Breakup, Hurt, Pain, Love, Tears]]> Quote: You said you don't want to see me c... by Monstrous Angel Tags: Depression, Broken, Hopeless, Sad, Breakup, Hurt]]> Sun, 24 Dec 2017 12:40:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Depression, Broken, Hopeless, Sad, Breakup, Hurt]]> Quote: The sad thing is I waited because y... by Monstrous Angel Tags: Heartbreak, Dying, Depressed, Sadness]]> Sat, 23 Dec 2017 12:35:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Heartbreak, Dying, Depressed, Sadness]]> Quote: Be the reason that someone believes... by Ramadhan Abdul Rahman Tags: Hope, Love, Trust, Faith]]> Fri, 22 Dec 2017 12:30:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Hope, Love, Trust, Faith]]> Quote: Apologizing for what you feel is li... by unknown Tags: Real, Feel]]> Thu, 21 Dec 2017 12:25:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Real, Feel]]> Quote: What doesn't kill you, makes you st... by Friedrich Nietzsche Tags: Stronger, Pain]]> Wed, 20 Dec 2017 12:20:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Stronger, Pain]]> Quote: Pain, it enters the body as guilt a... by Mads Tags: Sad Quote]]> Tue, 19 Dec 2017 12:15:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Sad Quote]]> Quote: I tell myself to keep it together. ... by Empty Tags: Sadness, Empty]]> Mon, 18 Dec 2017 12:10:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Sadness, Empty]]> Quote: When you're happy you enjoy the son... by The understanding When you're sad you understand the lyrics.
Tags: True, Sorrow]]> Sun, 17 Dec 2017 12:05:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes When you're sad you understand the lyrics.
Tags: True, Sorrow]]> Quote: Beauty doesn't always come with cou... by Kira Garbett Tags: Courage, Beauty, Just Be Yourself]]> Sat, 16 Dec 2017 12:00:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes http://www.loverofsadness.net/quotes Tags: Courage, Beauty, Just Be Yourself]]> Picture: Last steps as a couple by Rose H. Together, Him, Moments, Last memory
Tags: Together, Him, Moments, Last Memory]]> Mon, 24 Jul 2017 07:35:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1831 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1831 Together, Him, Moments, Last memory
Tags: Together, Him, Moments, Last Memory]]> Song: Rootless Tree by Damien Rice & Lisa Hannigan
What I want from you is empty your head
They say be true, don't stain your bed
We do what we need to be free
And it leans on me like a rootless tree

What I want from us is empty our minds
We fake the thoughts, and fracture the times
We go blind when we've needed to see
And this leans on me, like a rootless...

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
There's nothing in you
And if you hate me, hate me, hate me, then hate me so good
That you can let me out, let me out, let me out
Of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out

What I want from this
Is learn to let go
No not of you
Of all that's been told
Killers re-invent and believe
And this leans on me, like a rootless...

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
There's nothing in you
And if you hate me, hate me, hate me, then hate me so good
That you can let me out, let me out, let me out
Of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out
Of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out

Fuck you, fuck you, love you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
It's nothing in you
And if you hate me, hate me, hate me, then hate me so good
That you can let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out

Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around

Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around

Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around
Tags: Hurt, Breakup, Damien Rice]]> Sun, 02 Jul 2017 22:35:05 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=239 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=239
What I want from you is empty your head
They say be true, don't stain your bed
We do what we need to be free
And it leans on me like a rootless tree

What I want from us is empty our minds
We fake the thoughts, and fracture the times
We go blind when we've needed to see
And this leans on me, like a rootless...

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
There's nothing in you
And if you hate me, hate me, hate me, then hate me so good
That you can let me out, let me out, let me out
Of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out

What I want from this
Is learn to let go
No not of you
Of all that's been told
Killers re-invent and believe
And this leans on me, like a rootless...

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
There's nothing in you
And if you hate me, hate me, hate me, then hate me so good
That you can let me out, let me out, let me out
Of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out
Of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out

Fuck you, fuck you, love you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
It's nothing in you
And if you hate me, hate me, hate me, then hate me so good
That you can let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out

Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around

Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around

Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around
Tags: Hurt, Breakup, Damien Rice]]> Picture: Crying Alone by LoveHurts sad girl, crying, heartbroken, sad
Tags: Sad Girl, Crying, Heartbroken, Sad]]> Thu, 20 Apr 2017 15:15:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1807 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1807 sad girl, crying, heartbroken, sad
Tags: Sad Girl, Crying, Heartbroken, Sad]]> Picture: In My Dreams, You'll Forever Be by jerry harrenstein memories, missing you
Tags: Memories, Missing You]]> Wed, 19 Apr 2017 03:15:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1822 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1822 memories, missing you
Tags: Memories, Missing You]]> Picture: Alone by LoveHurts Sad, Alone, Why, Crying
Tags: Sad, Alone, Why, Crying]]> Mon, 17 Apr 2017 15:10:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1806 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1806 Sad, Alone, Why, Crying
Tags: Sad, Alone, Why, Crying]]> Picture: music helps by LoveHurts crying, music
Tags: Crying, Music]]> Sun, 16 Apr 2017 03:05:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1803 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1803 crying, music
Tags: Crying, Music]]> Movie: La La Land by Damien Chazelle
Mia, an aspiring actress, serves lattes to movie stars in between auditions and Sebastian, a jazz musician, scrapes by playing cocktail party gigs in dingy bars, but as success mounts they are faced with decisions that begin to fray the fragile fabric of their love affair, and the dreams they worked so hard to maintain in each other threaten to rip them apart.

Tags: Breakup, Love, Life, Career]]> Wed, 01 Feb 2017 05:33:18 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=137 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=137
Mia, an aspiring actress, serves lattes to movie stars in between auditions and Sebastian, a jazz musician, scrapes by playing cocktail party gigs in dingy bars, but as success mounts they are faced with decisions that begin to fray the fragile fabric of their love affair, and the dreams they worked so hard to maintain in each other threaten to rip them apart.

Tags: Breakup, Love, Life, Career]]> Song: What will I Do Without Your Love by Jerry Harrenstein
Just as things get sweet
you back down again
leaving me to ponder if
this is the end.
When I think we are going
to meet my heart skips a beat
and capturing your love would
be something to cherish and keep.

Now you are fading out of view
and I do not know what to do.
When I last looked into your eyes
you began to cry and with hesitation
I wondered if I saw a lie.
Then I began to cry.
Do I go on without knowing, or do I
let my heart say I must be going?

My pain is so deep
I can not even sleep.
The days are getting shorter
and my love is going in that order.
Time is near my dear
and I must make things clear.
Perhaps a smile, or your gentle touch.
Would that be asking too much?

Loving you is all I want to do
and that is not hard for me to do
especially when it is someone like you.
I believe in love and you too, but
without your love what will I do?
What will I do without you...
Tags: Sad, Unloved]]> Sat, 03 Dec 2016 19:51:20 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=238 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=238
Just as things get sweet
you back down again
leaving me to ponder if
this is the end.
When I think we are going
to meet my heart skips a beat
and capturing your love would
be something to cherish and keep.

Now you are fading out of view
and I do not know what to do.
When I last looked into your eyes
you began to cry and with hesitation
I wondered if I saw a lie.
Then I began to cry.
Do I go on without knowing, or do I
let my heart say I must be going?

My pain is so deep
I can not even sleep.
The days are getting shorter
and my love is going in that order.
Time is near my dear
and I must make things clear.
Perhaps a smile, or your gentle touch.
Would that be asking too much?

Loving you is all I want to do
and that is not hard for me to do
especially when it is someone like you.
I believe in love and you too, but
without your love what will I do?
What will I do without you...
Tags: Sad, Unloved]]> Picture: Gloomy Sunday by Neriak gloomy, art
Tags: Gloomy, Art]]> Sat, 12 Nov 2016 08:05:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1798 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1798 gloomy, art
Tags: Gloomy, Art]]> Picture: Gloomy day by Smil gloomy, trees
Tags: Gloomy, Trees]]> Thu, 10 Nov 2016 20:00:03 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1797 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1797 gloomy, trees
Tags: Gloomy, Trees]]> Picture: Your Kind Of Love Hurts by jerry harrenstein hurt, art
Tags: Hurt, Art]]> Wed, 09 Nov 2016 08:00:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1771 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1771 hurt, art
Tags: Hurt, Art]]> Picture: Gloomy by malialeon gloomy, face
Tags: Gloomy, Face]]> Tue, 08 Nov 2016 05:50:41 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1796 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1796 gloomy, face
Tags: Gloomy, Face]]> Picture: Sad Lonely Boy by Shivam das alone, sad
Tags: Alone, Sad]]> Mon, 25 Jul 2016 15:10:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1772 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1772 alone, sad
Tags: Alone, Sad]]> Picture: Your Leaving Me by jerry harrenstein sad, heartbroken, scared, hurt
Tags: Sad, Heartbroken, Scared, Hurt]]> Fri, 22 Jul 2016 15:05:01 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1763 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1763 sad, heartbroken, scared, hurt
Tags: Sad, Heartbroken, Scared, Hurt]]> Picture: #PAIN# by sathees pain, broken, death
Tags: Pain, Broken, Death]]> Thu, 21 Jul 2016 03:00:03 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1762 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1762 pain, broken, death
Tags: Pain, Broken, Death]]> Article: Sadness and Recovery from Addiction  

For over 50 years now, standard treatments for recovery from addiction have included cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and 12-step approaches. The past couple of decades, though, have seen alternative treatment models emerge, largely because of the relatively low success rate of some of the most popular treatments available. Since there is no single road to addiction, standard treatments sometimes fail because they fail to address the needs of the particular individual, or the reasons why they have sought their own private escape, through drugs. Addiction can arise from a variety of causes, according to recent research. Contributing causes include genetic factors, having a mental illness, abuse, etc.

Alternative therapies that are currently being used successfully in many top rehabilitation centers across the globe include yoga and mindfulness meditation (which focus on keeping the individual’s mind ‘in the here and now’, encouraging them to feel and ‘ride through’ their cravings instead of succumbing to a ‘higher power’ for help or trying to push their desires away). Horticultural therapy and art therapy, too, have garnered their fair share of success; the former because of its strong mindfulness component and the latter because of its ability to embrace an addict’s ambivalent feelings about quitting drugs. Art therapy is an important component of motivational interviewing, which seeks to promote reliance on the self to overcome addiction by finding inspiring reasons to quit.

A person who is addicted to drugs has many positive things to look forward to when they are drug-free. These include mending bridges with family and friends who may feel let down, finding one’s place in one’s profession once again and having he chance to do what ignites one’s passion, and enjoying a sense of greater physical and mental wellness. Motivational interviewing through art therapy, however, provides the recovering person with the chance to express their sadness. It is unrealistic to think that there is nothing an addict will miss when they are no longer using and they should have a chance to recognize and express their ambivalent feelings. Because art is so symbolic, it permits many interpretations and through their work (and with an aid of a trained therapist), the person in recovery can talk about why using drugs fulfilled them, without feeling like they are being judged, blamed or criticized.

What is there to feel sad about when one quits drug use? Addicts in recovery may miss the group of friends they used to use with, or a person they were romantically involved with; they may miss the high, the feeling of escape, the elation of avoiding responsibility. The individual should be allowed to express their grief about quitting drugs. Like all other grief, theirs travels through different stages (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance). Note that depression (feeling intensely sad, feeling hopeless or without the motivation to do things one used to love) is an undeniable part of the recovery process. We should never disenfranchise someone of the right to grieve, yet many recovery therapies fail because they seek to do just that. Families and friends should be sensitive to this issue and should not force the individual to see only the positive side of recovery.

Sadness should be acknowledged and heard, largely because for many drug users, it is a feeling of emptiness, loneliness or lack of self-worth that lead them to use drugs in the first place. Families supporting a loved one through recovery can help their loved one by also undergoing therapy/counselling. When a loved one is struggling, the last thing they need is to be nagged, criticized or blamed, yet family members, too, should refrain from blaming themselves. Rather, any weaknesses in the family’s manner of communication, poor conflict resolution techniques etc. should be identified and addressed, with family members always looking ahead towards the common goal – helping the person in recovery and every other member in the family achieve greater health and wellbeing. During counselling, family members, too, should be encouraged to express their sadness. Many individuals harbour guilt because they feel they could have done more for their loved one, yet in the end, the causes of addiction are too profound and complex to identify so that everyone should work on improving what they can, accepting themselves and their loved one just as they are – with their sadness, anger, and disappointment, but also with their dreams, their hope and their love, which always remains, regardless of the vicissitudes faced.

 

- Article from Gemma Galway 


Tags: Recovery, Drug, Sadness, Gemma Galway]]> Fri, 15 Jul 2016 09:36:08 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=6 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=6  

For over 50 years now, standard treatments for recovery from addiction have included cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and 12-step approaches. The past couple of decades, though, have seen alternative treatment models emerge, largely because of the relatively low success rate of some of the most popular treatments available. Since there is no single road to addiction, standard treatments sometimes fail because they fail to address the needs of the particular individual, or the reasons why they have sought their own private escape, through drugs. Addiction can arise from a variety of causes, according to recent research. Contributing causes include genetic factors, having a mental illness, abuse, etc.

Alternative therapies that are currently being used successfully in many top rehabilitation centers across the globe include yoga and mindfulness meditation (which focus on keeping the individual’s mind ‘in the here and now’, encouraging them to feel and ‘ride through’ their cravings instead of succumbing to a ‘higher power’ for help or trying to push their desires away). Horticultural therapy and art therapy, too, have garnered their fair share of success; the former because of its strong mindfulness component and the latter because of its ability to embrace an addict’s ambivalent feelings about quitting drugs. Art therapy is an important component of motivational interviewing, which seeks to promote reliance on the self to overcome addiction by finding inspiring reasons to quit.

A person who is addicted to drugs has many positive things to look forward to when they are drug-free. These include mending bridges with family and friends who may feel let down, finding one’s place in one’s profession once again and having he chance to do what ignites one’s passion, and enjoying a sense of greater physical and mental wellness. Motivational interviewing through art therapy, however, provides the recovering person with the chance to express their sadness. It is unrealistic to think that there is nothing an addict will miss when they are no longer using and they should have a chance to recognize and express their ambivalent feelings. Because art is so symbolic, it permits many interpretations and through their work (and with an aid of a trained therapist), the person in recovery can talk about why using drugs fulfilled them, without feeling like they are being judged, blamed or criticized.

What is there to feel sad about when one quits drug use? Addicts in recovery may miss the group of friends they used to use with, or a person they were romantically involved with; they may miss the high, the feeling of escape, the elation of avoiding responsibility. The individual should be allowed to express their grief about quitting drugs. Like all other grief, theirs travels through different stages (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance). Note that depression (feeling intensely sad, feeling hopeless or without the motivation to do things one used to love) is an undeniable part of the recovery process. We should never disenfranchise someone of the right to grieve, yet many recovery therapies fail because they seek to do just that. Families and friends should be sensitive to this issue and should not force the individual to see only the positive side of recovery.

Sadness should be acknowledged and heard, largely because for many drug users, it is a feeling of emptiness, loneliness or lack of self-worth that lead them to use drugs in the first place. Families supporting a loved one through recovery can help their loved one by also undergoing therapy/counselling. When a loved one is struggling, the last thing they need is to be nagged, criticized or blamed, yet family members, too, should refrain from blaming themselves. Rather, any weaknesses in the family’s manner of communication, poor conflict resolution techniques etc. should be identified and addressed, with family members always looking ahead towards the common goal – helping the person in recovery and every other member in the family achieve greater health and wellbeing. During counselling, family members, too, should be encouraged to express their sadness. Many individuals harbour guilt because they feel they could have done more for their loved one, yet in the end, the causes of addiction are too profound and complex to identify so that everyone should work on improving what they can, accepting themselves and their loved one just as they are – with their sadness, anger, and disappointment, but also with their dreams, their hope and their love, which always remains, regardless of the vicissitudes faced.

 

- Article from Gemma Galway 


Tags: Recovery, Drug, Sadness, Gemma Galway]]> Article: The Cathartic Nature of Sad Music

Popular music tends to fall into two wide (and generalised) categories): it is either the kind of music you want to dance to, and listen to when you are partying with your friends or, it is soulful and heart-breaking ballads that make you want to think, reminisce about loves that you have lost, and have a good cry.

There is nothing wrong with crying when listening to sad music: in fact, it is a common and natural response. What you may not realise however is that crying in these circumstances can actually be cathartic, helping to stabilise your emotions and, ultimately release hormones that make you feel happier and more well-balanced. This is supported by research from a study into our complicated emotional responses to sad music, conducted by researchers at the Free University of Berlin in Germany. They interviewed 772 music lovers from around the world and found that rather than making them feel exclusively sad, listening to sad music also made them feel nostalgic, tender and peaceful.  The researchers concluded that “For many individuals, listening to sad music can actually lead to beneficial emotional effects…  “Music-evoked sadness can be appreciated not only as an aesthetic, abstract reward, but [it] also plays a role in well-being, by providing consolation as well as regulating negative moods and emotions.”

The Mood of the Audience

It is true that people tend to listen to sad music when they are feeling sad themselves. However, that doesn’t mean that listening to those designated ‘sad songs’ will make them sadder. In fact, it may help to regulate your mood, put your own sad emotions back into perspective and, ultimately, you may find that you get to the end of your favourite sad album feeling happier, more calm, and generally in a much better mood.  Thus the intended emotions depicted in the song are not necessarily reflected in the mood of their audience.

It is no coincidence that many of the best musicians, composers and song writers are no strangers to sadness themselves: whether they have suffered from the personal tragedy of loss, or feel a sense of wider sadness in the world (caused by hyper-sensitivity, depression, or mental illness) many musical artists will report that they understand sadness and pain. Many musical performers also succumb to the hell and subsequent sadness of alcoholism and substance abuse, which is probably why they have such a natural affinity with sadness, and why it is a common theme in their work. It is widely reported that writing about sad experiences can be cathartic. In fact, individuals that indulge in memoir writing and keeping a diary are found to be happier overall than individuals who don’t write down their thoughts and feelings and ‘writing therapy’ is a widely acknowledged and very effective treatment for individuals suffering from depression, anxiety, or overcoming substance abuse problems. Therefore it could well be that for the artists involved, writing their sad songs is actually a cathartic act, designed to help them to overcome their sad and negative emotions and break through to a place that is healthier and happier.

An Important Form of Self-Expression

For adolescents and adults experiencing emotional or mental health disconnections, sad music can be appealing because it provides a way of verbalising emotions they are experiencing but simply don’t have  the vocabulary to express themselves. This is also common as a way of self-expression amongst teenager: choosing to listen to sad or angry music (for example) as a way of expressing, in a non-verbal way, the way that they feel towards their parents, their peers, or the world in general. However that doesn’t mean that those individuals are feeling sad or angry: by expressing those emotions through their musical choices, they are often able to relieve themselves of their stress and tension, meaning that they end their listening experience feeling calm, heard, understood and under control

No matter what your reason for choosing to listen to a sad tune or two, there is nothing more cathartic than listening to a truly sad song, so why not turn on your stereo and listen to some of your favourites. However, don’t be surprised if you find yourself feeling happy and calm, and not sad at all, at the end of your session. 

 

- Article from Gemma Galway 


Tags: Music, Sad Music, Gemma Galway]]> Mon, 11 Jul 2016 03:41:46 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=5 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=5

Popular music tends to fall into two wide (and generalised) categories): it is either the kind of music you want to dance to, and listen to when you are partying with your friends or, it is soulful and heart-breaking ballads that make you want to think, reminisce about loves that you have lost, and have a good cry.

There is nothing wrong with crying when listening to sad music: in fact, it is a common and natural response. What you may not realise however is that crying in these circumstances can actually be cathartic, helping to stabilise your emotions and, ultimately release hormones that make you feel happier and more well-balanced. This is supported by research from a study into our complicated emotional responses to sad music, conducted by researchers at the Free University of Berlin in Germany. They interviewed 772 music lovers from around the world and found that rather than making them feel exclusively sad, listening to sad music also made them feel nostalgic, tender and peaceful.  The researchers concluded that “For many individuals, listening to sad music can actually lead to beneficial emotional effects…  “Music-evoked sadness can be appreciated not only as an aesthetic, abstract reward, but [it] also plays a role in well-being, by providing consolation as well as regulating negative moods and emotions.”

The Mood of the Audience

It is true that people tend to listen to sad music when they are feeling sad themselves. However, that doesn’t mean that listening to those designated ‘sad songs’ will make them sadder. In fact, it may help to regulate your mood, put your own sad emotions back into perspective and, ultimately, you may find that you get to the end of your favourite sad album feeling happier, more calm, and generally in a much better mood.  Thus the intended emotions depicted in the song are not necessarily reflected in the mood of their audience.

It is no coincidence that many of the best musicians, composers and song writers are no strangers to sadness themselves: whether they have suffered from the personal tragedy of loss, or feel a sense of wider sadness in the world (caused by hyper-sensitivity, depression, or mental illness) many musical artists will report that they understand sadness and pain. Many musical performers also succumb to the hell and subsequent sadness of alcoholism and substance abuse, which is probably why they have such a natural affinity with sadness, and why it is a common theme in their work. It is widely reported that writing about sad experiences can be cathartic. In fact, individuals that indulge in memoir writing and keeping a diary are found to be happier overall than individuals who don’t write down their thoughts and feelings and ‘writing therapy’ is a widely acknowledged and very effective treatment for individuals suffering from depression, anxiety, or overcoming substance abuse problems. Therefore it could well be that for the artists involved, writing their sad songs is actually a cathartic act, designed to help them to overcome their sad and negative emotions and break through to a place that is healthier and happier.

An Important Form of Self-Expression

For adolescents and adults experiencing emotional or mental health disconnections, sad music can be appealing because it provides a way of verbalising emotions they are experiencing but simply don’t have  the vocabulary to express themselves. This is also common as a way of self-expression amongst teenager: choosing to listen to sad or angry music (for example) as a way of expressing, in a non-verbal way, the way that they feel towards their parents, their peers, or the world in general. However that doesn’t mean that those individuals are feeling sad or angry: by expressing those emotions through their musical choices, they are often able to relieve themselves of their stress and tension, meaning that they end their listening experience feeling calm, heard, understood and under control

No matter what your reason for choosing to listen to a sad tune or two, there is nothing more cathartic than listening to a truly sad song, so why not turn on your stereo and listen to some of your favourites. However, don’t be surprised if you find yourself feeling happy and calm, and not sad at all, at the end of your session. 

 

- Article from Gemma Galway 


Tags: Music, Sad Music, Gemma Galway]]> Picture: how hard it is to hold on to by alone in tears alone, tears, missing, isolated, crying, lonely, tired, broken
Tags: Alone, Tears, Missing, Isolated, Crying, Lonely, Tired, Broken]]> Tue, 07 Jun 2016 13:05:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1756 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1756 alone, tears, missing, isolated, crying, lonely, tired, broken
Tags: Alone, Tears, Missing, Isolated, Crying, Lonely, Tired, Broken]]> Picture: The Killing by Kaitlin pills, death, depression
Tags: Pills, Death, Depression]]> Mon, 06 Jun 2016 01:00:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1754 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1754 pills, death, depression
Tags: Pills, Death, Depression]]> Picture: Your Just A Memory Fading by jerry harrenstein memories
Tags: Memories]]> Mon, 23 May 2016 12:20:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1750 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_picture.php?id=1750 memories
Tags: Memories]]> Song: So Close by Evanescence
I've spent so much time throwing rocks at your window
That I never even knocked on the front door

I walk by statues never even made one chip
but if i could leave a mark on the monument of the heart
I just might lay myself down for a little more than I had the last day

Wait a time to spare these lies we tell ourselves
These days have come and gone
But this time is sweeter than honey
Tags: Evanescence, Longing, Unloved]]> Thu, 13 Nov 2014 23:36:33 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=237 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=237
I've spent so much time throwing rocks at your window
That I never even knocked on the front door

I walk by statues never even made one chip
but if i could leave a mark on the monument of the heart
I just might lay myself down for a little more than I had the last day

Wait a time to spare these lies we tell ourselves
These days have come and gone
But this time is sweeter than honey
Tags: Evanescence, Longing, Unloved]]> Video: The Divorce

Tags: Love, Divorce, Breakup, Hurt]]> Mon, 10 Nov 2014 10:38:19 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=75 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=75

Tags: Love, Divorce, Breakup, Hurt]]> Video: A life story

Tags: Life, Love, Death, Animal]]> Fri, 31 Oct 2014 10:18:04 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=74 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=74

Tags: Life, Love, Death, Animal]]> Video: A Blind Father and His Daughter - Short Sad Story

Tags: Blind, Father, Family]]> Fri, 31 Oct 2014 10:08:58 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=73 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=73

Tags: Blind, Father, Family]]> Video: My Shoes
And most importantly, Be Happy With What You Have.

Tags: Shoes, Unhappy, Unloved]]> Fri, 31 Oct 2014 10:04:19 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=72 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=72
And most importantly, Be Happy With What You Have.

Tags: Shoes, Unhappy, Unloved]]> Song: Heartless by Kriss Allen
In the night
I hear 'em talk
Coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

How could you be so
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You know need to watch the way you talkin' to me you know
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
And yo I know of some things that you ain't told me
And yo I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend
Well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

How could be so Dr. Evil
You're bringin' out a side of me that I dont know
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know she's hot and cold
I won't stop I won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than
Me

'Cause in the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

Talk and talk and talk and talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night

In the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far far far he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless
Oh

'Cause in the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
Tags: Kriss Allen, Heartbroken, Hurt, Rock]]> Mon, 20 Oct 2014 08:39:39 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=236 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=236
In the night
I hear 'em talk
Coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

How could you be so
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You know need to watch the way you talkin' to me you know
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
And yo I know of some things that you ain't told me
And yo I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend
Well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

How could be so Dr. Evil
You're bringin' out a side of me that I dont know
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know she's hot and cold
I won't stop I won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than
Me

'Cause in the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless

Talk and talk and talk and talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night

In the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far far far he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless
Oh
How could you be so heartless
Oh

'Cause in the night
I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
Tags: Kriss Allen, Heartbroken, Hurt, Rock]]> Movie: If I Stay by R.J. Cutler
Mia Hall thought the hardest decision she would ever face would be whether to pursue her musical dreams at Juilliard or follow a different path to be with the love of her life, Adam. But what should have been a carefree family drive changes everything in an instant, and now her own life hangs in the balance. Caught between life and death for one revealing day, Mia has only one decision left, which will not only decide her future but her ultimate fate.

Tags: Accident, Coma]]> Wed, 08 Oct 2014 06:15:52 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=136 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=136
Mia Hall thought the hardest decision she would ever face would be whether to pursue her musical dreams at Juilliard or follow a different path to be with the love of her life, Adam. But what should have been a carefree family drive changes everything in an instant, and now her own life hangs in the balance. Caught between life and death for one revealing day, Mia has only one decision left, which will not only decide her future but her ultimate fate.

Tags: Accident, Coma]]> Song: Dreaming With a Broken Heart by John Mayer
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment, you can hardly breathe

Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No, she's not 'cause she's gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once, you have to say goodbye

Wondering could you stay, my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No, she can't 'cause she's gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

Now do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
And do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my
Roses in my hand?

And would you get them if I did?
No, you won't 'cause you're gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
Tags: John Mayer, Broken, Hurt, Heart]]> Sun, 21 Sep 2014 08:05:32 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=235 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=235
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment, you can hardly breathe

Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No, she's not 'cause she's gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once, you have to say goodbye

Wondering could you stay, my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No, she can't 'cause she's gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

Now do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
And do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my
Roses in my hand?

And would you get them if I did?
No, you won't 'cause you're gone
Gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
Tags: John Mayer, Broken, Hurt, Heart]]> Video: The Little Girl In The Hallway

Tags: Child, Missing]]> Thu, 18 Sep 2014 07:44:28 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=71 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=71

Tags: Child, Missing]]> Video: *WARNING* This WILL make you cry.

Tags: Cry, Sadness, Pain]]> Wed, 03 Sep 2014 20:19:57 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=70 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=70

Tags: Cry, Sadness, Pain]]> Video: South Park - Beautiful Sadness Raisins - Season 7, Episode 14

Tags: South Park, Alone]]> Wed, 03 Sep 2014 20:14:53 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=69 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=69 Raisins - Season 7, Episode 14

Tags: South Park, Alone]]> Video: A heart touching story of a deaf girl.

Tags: Hearttouching, Sad, Anger]]> Sun, 24 Aug 2014 21:38:51 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=68 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=68

Tags: Hearttouching, Sad, Anger]]> Video: deepest part of your heart.

Tags: Heart, Teacher]]> Sun, 24 Aug 2014 21:36:15 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=67 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=67

Tags: Heart, Teacher]]> Movie: The Remains of the Day (1993) by James Ivory
A rule bound head butler's world of manners and decorum in the household he maintains is tested by the arrival of a housekeeper who falls in love with him in post-WWI Britain. The possibility of romance and his master's cultivation of ties with the Nazi cause challenge his carefully maintained veneer of servitude.

Tags: James Ivory, Drama, Romance]]> Sun, 24 Aug 2014 21:20:52 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=135 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=135
A rule bound head butler's world of manners and decorum in the household he maintains is tested by the arrival of a housekeeper who falls in love with him in post-WWI Britain. The possibility of romance and his master's cultivation of ties with the Nazi cause challenge his carefully maintained veneer of servitude.

Tags: James Ivory, Drama, Romance]]> Song: Dear John by Taylor Swift
Long were the nights when my days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps praying the floor won't fall through again
And my mother accused me of losing my mind
But I swore I was fine

You paint me a blue sky and go back and turn it to rain
And I lived in your chess game, but you changed the rules everyday
Wondering which version of you I might get on the phone tonight
Well, I stopped picking up and this song is to let you know why

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home
I should've known

Well, maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame
Or maybe it's you and your sick need to give love then take it away
And you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand
And I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said run as fast as you can

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

Dear John, I see it all now it was wrong
Don't you think nineteen's too young to be played by
Your dark twisted games when I loved you so
I should've known

You are an expert at sorry and keeping lines blurry
Never impressed by me acing your tests
All the girls that you've run dry have tired, lifeless eyes
'Cause you've burn them out

But I took your matches before fire could catch me
So don't look now
I'm shining like fireworks over
Your sad, empty town

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think i was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress wrote you a song
You should've known

You should've known
Don't you think I was too young?
You should've known
Tags: Taylor Swift, Tears, Saddest]]> Wed, 20 Aug 2014 22:30:15 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=234 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=234
Long were the nights when my days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps praying the floor won't fall through again
And my mother accused me of losing my mind
But I swore I was fine

You paint me a blue sky and go back and turn it to rain
And I lived in your chess game, but you changed the rules everyday
Wondering which version of you I might get on the phone tonight
Well, I stopped picking up and this song is to let you know why

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home
I should've known

Well, maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame
Or maybe it's you and your sick need to give love then take it away
And you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand
And I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said run as fast as you can

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

Dear John, I see it all now it was wrong
Don't you think nineteen's too young to be played by
Your dark twisted games when I loved you so
I should've known

You are an expert at sorry and keeping lines blurry
Never impressed by me acing your tests
All the girls that you've run dry have tired, lifeless eyes
'Cause you've burn them out

But I took your matches before fire could catch me
So don't look now
I'm shining like fireworks over
Your sad, empty town

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think i was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress wrote you a song
You should've known

You should've known
Don't you think I was too young?
You should've known
Tags: Taylor Swift, Tears, Saddest]]> Song: Come In With The Rain by Taylor Swift
I could go back to every laugh,
But I don't wanna' go there anymore,
And I know all the steps up to your door,
But I don't wanna' go there anymore.

Talk to the wind, talk to the sky,
Talk to the man with the reasons why,
And let me know what you find.

I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I could stand up and sing you a song,
But I don’t wanna’ have to go that far.
And I, I’ve got you down,
I know you by heart,
And you don’t even know where I start.

Talk to yourself, talk to the tears,
Talk to the man who put you here,
And don’t wait for the sky to clear.

I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cus I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Oh, just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I’ve watched you so long,
Screamed your name,
I don’t know what else I can say.

But I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cus I’m too tired at night for all these games.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I could go back to every laugh,
But I don’t wanna’ go there anymore…
Tags: Taylor Swift, Sorrow, Breakup]]> Wed, 20 Aug 2014 22:27:18 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=233 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=233
I could go back to every laugh,
But I don't wanna' go there anymore,
And I know all the steps up to your door,
But I don't wanna' go there anymore.

Talk to the wind, talk to the sky,
Talk to the man with the reasons why,
And let me know what you find.

I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I could stand up and sing you a song,
But I don’t wanna’ have to go that far.
And I, I’ve got you down,
I know you by heart,
And you don’t even know where I start.

Talk to yourself, talk to the tears,
Talk to the man who put you here,
And don’t wait for the sky to clear.

I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cus I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Oh, just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I’ve watched you so long,
Screamed your name,
I don’t know what else I can say.

But I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cus I’m too tired at night for all these games.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I could go back to every laugh,
But I don’t wanna’ go there anymore…
Tags: Taylor Swift, Sorrow, Breakup]]> Movie: Children Underground (2001) by Edet Belzberg
One of the most astonishing and engaging cinematic works of the past decade, CHILDREN UNDERGROUND is a profoundly intimate and heart-wrenching drama about homeless children struggling for survival on the streets and in the subways of Bucharest, Romania.

Tags: Edet Belzberg, Documentary]]> Wed, 20 Aug 2014 22:22:42 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=134 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=134
One of the most astonishing and engaging cinematic works of the past decade, CHILDREN UNDERGROUND is a profoundly intimate and heart-wrenching drama about homeless children struggling for survival on the streets and in the subways of Bucharest, Romania.

Tags: Edet Belzberg, Documentary]]> Movie: Dogville (2003) by Lars Von Trier
Late one night, a beautiful and well-dressed young woman, Grace, arrives in the mountainous old mining town of Dogville as a fugitive; following the sound of gunshots in the distance which have been heard by Tom, the self-appointed moral spokesman for the town. Persuaded by Tom, the town agree to hide Grace, and in return she freely helps the locals. However, when the Sheriff from a neighbouring town posts a Missing notice, advertising a reward for revealing her whereabouts, the townsfolk require a better deal from Grace, in return for their silence; and when the Sheriff returns some weeks later with a Wanted poster, even though the citizens know her to be innocent of the false charges against her, the town's sense of goodness takes a sinister turn and the price of Grace's freedom becomes a workload and treatment akin to that of a slave. But Grace has a deadly secret that the townsfolk will eventually encounter.

Tags: Lars Von Trier, Drama]]> Wed, 20 Aug 2014 22:19:30 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=133 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=133
Late one night, a beautiful and well-dressed young woman, Grace, arrives in the mountainous old mining town of Dogville as a fugitive; following the sound of gunshots in the distance which have been heard by Tom, the self-appointed moral spokesman for the town. Persuaded by Tom, the town agree to hide Grace, and in return she freely helps the locals. However, when the Sheriff from a neighbouring town posts a Missing notice, advertising a reward for revealing her whereabouts, the townsfolk require a better deal from Grace, in return for their silence; and when the Sheriff returns some weeks later with a Wanted poster, even though the citizens know her to be innocent of the false charges against her, the town's sense of goodness takes a sinister turn and the price of Grace's freedom becomes a workload and treatment akin to that of a slave. But Grace has a deadly secret that the townsfolk will eventually encounter.

Tags: Lars Von Trier, Drama]]> Video: Sad Emotional Love Story With Sad Music

Tags: Sadness, Cry, Death]]> Mon, 11 Aug 2014 11:01:04 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=66 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=66

Tags: Sadness, Cry, Death]]> Video: Heart Touching Video Father and son are sitting on a bench. Suddenly a sparrow lands across them.
You don't need to be looking for some deep ideas of the video. You either feel the message deep within yourself or you don't.

Tags: Emotional, Cry, Father, Son]]> Mon, 11 Aug 2014 10:49:10 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=65 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=65 Father and son are sitting on a bench. Suddenly a sparrow lands across them.
You don't need to be looking for some deep ideas of the video. You either feel the message deep within yourself or you don't.

Tags: Emotional, Cry, Father, Son]]> Movie: Blue Is the Warmest Color (2013) by Abdellatif Kechiche
Adèle is a high school student who is beginning to explore herself as a woman. She dates men but finds no satisfaction with them sexually, and is rejected by a female friend who she does desire. She dreams of something more. She meets Emma who is a free spirited girl whom Adèle's friends reject due to her sexuality, and by association most begin to reject Adèle. Her relationship with Emma grows into more than just friends as she is the only person with whom she can express herself openly. Together, Adèle and Emma explore social acceptance, sexuality, and the emotional spectrum of their maturing relationship.

Tags: Abdellatif Kechiche, Drama]]> Sat, 09 Aug 2014 21:53:43 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=132 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=132
Adèle is a high school student who is beginning to explore herself as a woman. She dates men but finds no satisfaction with them sexually, and is rejected by a female friend who she does desire. She dreams of something more. She meets Emma who is a free spirited girl whom Adèle's friends reject due to her sexuality, and by association most begin to reject Adèle. Her relationship with Emma grows into more than just friends as she is the only person with whom she can express herself openly. Together, Adèle and Emma explore social acceptance, sexuality, and the emotional spectrum of their maturing relationship.

Tags: Abdellatif Kechiche, Drama]]> Movie: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button by David Fincher
On the day that Hurricane Katrina hits New Orleans, elderly Daisy Williams (nee Fuller) is on her deathbed in a New Orleans hospital. At her side is her adult daughter, Caroline. Daisy asks Caroline to read to her aloud the diary of Daisy's lifelong friend, Benjamin Button. Benjamin's diary recounts his entire extraordinary life, the primary unusual aspect of which was his aging backwards, being diagnosed with several aging diseases at birth and thus given little chance of survival, but who does survive and gets younger with time. Abandoned by his biological father, Thomas Button, after Benjamin's biological mother died in childbirth, Benjamin was raised by Queenie, a black woman and caregiver at a seniors home. Daisy's grandmother was a resident at that home, which is where she first met Benjamin. Although separated through the years, Daisy and Benjamin remain in contact throughout their lives, reconnecting in their forties when in age they finally match up. Some of the revelations ...

Tags: David Fincher, Romance, Drama, Fantasy]]> Sat, 09 Aug 2014 21:51:37 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=131 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=131
On the day that Hurricane Katrina hits New Orleans, elderly Daisy Williams (nee Fuller) is on her deathbed in a New Orleans hospital. At her side is her adult daughter, Caroline. Daisy asks Caroline to read to her aloud the diary of Daisy's lifelong friend, Benjamin Button. Benjamin's diary recounts his entire extraordinary life, the primary unusual aspect of which was his aging backwards, being diagnosed with several aging diseases at birth and thus given little chance of survival, but who does survive and gets younger with time. Abandoned by his biological father, Thomas Button, after Benjamin's biological mother died in childbirth, Benjamin was raised by Queenie, a black woman and caregiver at a seniors home. Daisy's grandmother was a resident at that home, which is where she first met Benjamin. Although separated through the years, Daisy and Benjamin remain in contact throughout their lives, reconnecting in their forties when in age they finally match up. Some of the revelations ...

Tags: David Fincher, Romance, Drama, Fantasy]]> Song: You're Not Sorry by Taylor Swift
All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no oh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no, oh

You're not sorry no no oh

You had me crying for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no oh

You're not sorry, no no oh
Tags: Taylor Swift, Sorrow, Sorry]]> Wed, 23 Jul 2014 22:07:35 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=232 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=232
All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no oh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no, oh

You're not sorry no no oh

You had me crying for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no oh

You're not sorry, no no oh
Tags: Taylor Swift, Sorrow, Sorry]]> Song: Still Loving You by Scorpions
Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there

I'll fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can break down the wall someday
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again
I'm loving you

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you, I need your love
I'm still loving you
Tags: Scorpions, Love, Pride]]> Wed, 23 Jul 2014 22:05:30 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=231 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=231
Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there

I'll fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can break down the wall someday
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again
I'm loving you

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you, I need your love
I'm still loving you
Tags: Scorpions, Love, Pride]]> Movie: Sunshine (1999) by István Szabó
The film follows a Jewish family living in Hungary through three generations, rising from humble beginnings to positions of wealth and power in the crumbling Austro-Hungarian Empire. The patriarch becomes a prominent judge but is torn when his government sanctions anti-Jewish persecutions. His son converts to Christianity to advance his career as a champion fencer and Olympic hero, but is caught up in the Holocaust. Finally, the grandson, after surviving war, revolution, loss and betrayal, realizes that his ultimate allegiance must be to himself and his heritage.

Tags: István Szabó, Drama, Romance]]> Tue, 22 Jul 2014 21:55:50 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=130 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=130
The film follows a Jewish family living in Hungary through three generations, rising from humble beginnings to positions of wealth and power in the crumbling Austro-Hungarian Empire. The patriarch becomes a prominent judge but is torn when his government sanctions anti-Jewish persecutions. His son converts to Christianity to advance his career as a champion fencer and Olympic hero, but is caught up in the Holocaust. Finally, the grandson, after surviving war, revolution, loss and betrayal, realizes that his ultimate allegiance must be to himself and his heritage.

Tags: István Szabó, Drama, Romance]]> Movie: The Duchess (2008) by Saul Dibb
Georgiana Spencer became Duchess of Devonshire on her marriage to the Duke in 1774, at the height of the Georgian period, a period of fashion, decadence, and political change. Spirited and adored by the public at large she quickly found her marriage to be a disappointment, defined by her duty to produce a male heir and the Duke's philandering and callous indifference to her. She befriends Lady Bess but finds she is once again betrayed by her husband who wields his power with the three eventually living uncomfortably together. Against this background, and with the pressures of an unfaithful husband, strict social pressures and constant public scrutiny, Georgiana falls passionately in love with Charles Grey, a rising young Whig politician. However, despite his ongoing liaison with Lady Bess, the Duke refuses to allow her to continue the affair and threatens to take her children from her.

Tags: Saul Dibb, Biography, Drama, History]]> Tue, 22 Jul 2014 21:36:47 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=129 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=129
Georgiana Spencer became Duchess of Devonshire on her marriage to the Duke in 1774, at the height of the Georgian period, a period of fashion, decadence, and political change. Spirited and adored by the public at large she quickly found her marriage to be a disappointment, defined by her duty to produce a male heir and the Duke's philandering and callous indifference to her. She befriends Lady Bess but finds she is once again betrayed by her husband who wields his power with the three eventually living uncomfortably together. Against this background, and with the pressures of an unfaithful husband, strict social pressures and constant public scrutiny, Georgiana falls passionately in love with Charles Grey, a rising young Whig politician. However, despite his ongoing liaison with Lady Bess, the Duke refuses to allow her to continue the affair and threatens to take her children from her.

Tags: Saul Dibb, Biography, Drama, History]]> Movie: Australia (2008) by Baz Luhrmann
In northern Australia at the beginning of World War II, an English aristocrat inherits a cattle station the size of Maryland. When English cattle barons plot to take her land, she reluctantly joins forces with a rough-hewn stock-man to drive 2,000 head of cattle across hundreds of miles of the country's most unforgiving land, only to still face the bombing of Darwin, Australia, by the Japanese forces that had attacked Pearl Harbor only months earlier.

Tags: Baz Luhrmann, History, Drama]]> Sun, 20 Jul 2014 22:37:06 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=128 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=128
In northern Australia at the beginning of World War II, an English aristocrat inherits a cattle station the size of Maryland. When English cattle barons plot to take her land, she reluctantly joins forces with a rough-hewn stock-man to drive 2,000 head of cattle across hundreds of miles of the country's most unforgiving land, only to still face the bombing of Darwin, Australia, by the Japanese forces that had attacked Pearl Harbor only months earlier.

Tags: Baz Luhrmann, History, Drama]]> Song: All Of Me by John Legend
[Verse 1:]
What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

[Verse 2:]
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

[Bridge:]
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh
Tags: John Legend, Love, Soft]]> Sat, 12 Jul 2014 21:19:56 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=230 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=230
[Verse 1:]
What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

[Verse 2:]
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

[Bridge:]
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh
Tags: John Legend, Love, Soft]]> Movie: Her (2013) by Spike Jonze
Theodore is a lonely man in the final stages of his divorce. When he's not working as a letter writer, his down time is spent playing video games and occasionally hanging out with friends. He decides to purchase the new OS1, which is advertised as the world's first artificially intelligent operating system, "It's not just an operating system, it's a consciousness," the ad states. Theodore quickly finds himself drawn in with Samantha, the voice behind his OS1. As they start spending time together they grow closer and closer and eventually find themselves in love. Having fallen in love with his OS, Theodore finds himself dealing with feelings of both great joy and doubt. As an OS, Samantha has powerful intelligence that she uses to help Theodore in ways others hadn't, but how does she help him deal with his inner conflict of being in love with an OS?

Tags: Spike Jonze, Emotional, Alone]]> Thu, 10 Jul 2014 20:43:21 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=127 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=127
Theodore is a lonely man in the final stages of his divorce. When he's not working as a letter writer, his down time is spent playing video games and occasionally hanging out with friends. He decides to purchase the new OS1, which is advertised as the world's first artificially intelligent operating system, "It's not just an operating system, it's a consciousness," the ad states. Theodore quickly finds himself drawn in with Samantha, the voice behind his OS1. As they start spending time together they grow closer and closer and eventually find themselves in love. Having fallen in love with his OS, Theodore finds himself dealing with feelings of both great joy and doubt. As an OS, Samantha has powerful intelligence that she uses to help Theodore in ways others hadn't, but how does she help him deal with his inner conflict of being in love with an OS?

Tags: Spike Jonze, Emotional, Alone]]> Movie: Dead Snow (2009) by Tommy Wirkola
Several friends take to the mountains and shack-up in the wilderness of back-of-beyond to enjoy a little R & R together, their peace is soon interrupted by a mysterious old man, warning them of a local curse that during the German occupation of the local area that these Nazi invaders were brutal and harsh in their methods of control. Telling of the legend of the villager's revolt that drove them up into the cold, dark mountains where they perished, that is until rumour of their return in the form of zombies, evil Nazi zombies.

Tags: Tommy Wirkola, Horror, Zombies]]> Thu, 10 Jul 2014 20:32:40 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=126 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=126
Several friends take to the mountains and shack-up in the wilderness of back-of-beyond to enjoy a little R & R together, their peace is soon interrupted by a mysterious old man, warning them of a local curse that during the German occupation of the local area that these Nazi invaders were brutal and harsh in their methods of control. Telling of the legend of the villager's revolt that drove them up into the cold, dark mountains where they perished, that is until rumour of their return in the form of zombies, evil Nazi zombies.

Tags: Tommy Wirkola, Horror, Zombies]]> Movie: Silver Linings Playbook (2012) by David O. Russell
Against medical advice and without the knowledge of her husband Pat Solatano Sr., caring Dolores Solatano discharges her adult son, Pat Solatano Jr., from a Maryland mental health institution after his minimum eight month court ordered stint. The condition of the release includes Pat Jr. moving back in with his parents in their Philadelphia home. Although Pat Jr.'s institutionalization was due to him beating up the lover of his wife Nikki, he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Nikki has since left him and has received a restraining order against him. Although he is on medication (which he doesn't take because of the way it makes him feel) and has mandatory therapy sessions, Pat Jr. feels like he can manage on the outside solely by healthy living and looking for the "silver linings" in his life. His goals are to get his old job back as a substitute teacher, but more importantly reunite with Nikki. He finds there are certain instances where he doesn't cope well, however no less so ...

Tags: Romance, Love, Separation, Struggle, David O. Russell]]> Mon, 07 Jul 2014 21:37:15 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=125 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=125
Against medical advice and without the knowledge of her husband Pat Solatano Sr., caring Dolores Solatano discharges her adult son, Pat Solatano Jr., from a Maryland mental health institution after his minimum eight month court ordered stint. The condition of the release includes Pat Jr. moving back in with his parents in their Philadelphia home. Although Pat Jr.'s institutionalization was due to him beating up the lover of his wife Nikki, he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Nikki has since left him and has received a restraining order against him. Although he is on medication (which he doesn't take because of the way it makes him feel) and has mandatory therapy sessions, Pat Jr. feels like he can manage on the outside solely by healthy living and looking for the "silver linings" in his life. His goals are to get his old job back as a substitute teacher, but more importantly reunite with Nikki. He finds there are certain instances where he doesn't cope well, however no less so ...

Tags: Romance, Love, Separation, Struggle, David O. Russell]]> Video: Hospital Window - Inspirational Video

Tags: Support, Inspirational, Hope]]> Sun, 06 Jul 2014 21:35:31 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=64 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=64

Tags: Support, Inspirational, Hope]]> Movie: About Time (I) (2013) by Richard Curtis
At the age of 21, Tim Lake (Domhnall Gleeson) discovers he can travel in time... The night after another unsatisfactory New Year party, Tim's father (Bill Nighy) tells his son that the men in his family have always had the ability to travel through time. Tim can't change history, but he can change what happens and has happened in his own life-so he decides to make his world a better place...by getting a girlfriend. Sadly, that turns out not to be as easy as you might think. Moving from the Cornwall coast to London to train as a lawyer, Tim finally meets the beautiful but insecure Mary (Rachel McAdams). They fall in love, then an unfortunate time-travel incident means he's never met her at all. So they meet for the first time again-and again-but finally, after a lot of cunning time-traveling, he wins her heart. Tim then uses his power to create the perfect romantic proposal, to save his wedding from the worst best-man speeches, to save his best friend from professional disaster and to ...

Tags: Richard Curtis, Love, Romance, Drama]]> Thu, 03 Jul 2014 20:26:02 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=124 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=124
At the age of 21, Tim Lake (Domhnall Gleeson) discovers he can travel in time... The night after another unsatisfactory New Year party, Tim's father (Bill Nighy) tells his son that the men in his family have always had the ability to travel through time. Tim can't change history, but he can change what happens and has happened in his own life-so he decides to make his world a better place...by getting a girlfriend. Sadly, that turns out not to be as easy as you might think. Moving from the Cornwall coast to London to train as a lawyer, Tim finally meets the beautiful but insecure Mary (Rachel McAdams). They fall in love, then an unfortunate time-travel incident means he's never met her at all. So they meet for the first time again-and again-but finally, after a lot of cunning time-traveling, he wins her heart. Tim then uses his power to create the perfect romantic proposal, to save his wedding from the worst best-man speeches, to save his best friend from professional disaster and to ...

Tags: Richard Curtis, Love, Romance, Drama]]> Song: Trouble Is by Backstreet Boys
[Howie:]
How come you never know
What you got until it's gone
Too bad
Because I never felt so good with anyone
How fooled was I into thinking
I was gonna be alright
Okay
Fine

[Nick/Howie:]
So every day I try a little harder
To forget her
Lie here convince myself
Tomorrow will be better

[Chorus:]
The trouble is I can't get her out of my mind
When I close my eyes at night
Who's gonna save me
Now she's gone
The trouble is there's a part of me
That still can't let go of her memory
And now I know what it is
Love is what the trouble is

[Howie:]
Love is what the trouble is

[AJ:]
How come she said
You never wear your heart
Where I can see
Too bad
Cause now I'm the one
Who's sorry
How stupid was I into thinking
I was gonna be alright
Okay
Fine
So everyday I find a little something
To remind me
No matter how I try
I can't put the past behind me

[Repeat Chorus]

[AJ:]
Love has let me go
I'm alright, I'm okay
I'll be fine, give it time

[All:]
But the only trouble is I can't get her out of my mind
When I close my eyes at night
Who's gonna save me
Now she's gone (she's gone)
The trouble is there's a part of me
That still can't let go of her memory (I just can't)
And now I know what it is (now I know)
And now I know what it is
Cause love is what the trouble is
The trouble
Love... Love is what the trouble is
Tags: Backstreet Boys, Love, Memories]]> Thu, 03 Jul 2014 20:22:20 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=229 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=229
[Howie:]
How come you never know
What you got until it's gone
Too bad
Because I never felt so good with anyone
How fooled was I into thinking
I was gonna be alright
Okay
Fine

[Nick/Howie:]
So every day I try a little harder
To forget her
Lie here convince myself
Tomorrow will be better

[Chorus:]
The trouble is I can't get her out of my mind
When I close my eyes at night
Who's gonna save me
Now she's gone
The trouble is there's a part of me
That still can't let go of her memory
And now I know what it is
Love is what the trouble is

[Howie:]
Love is what the trouble is

[AJ:]
How come she said
You never wear your heart
Where I can see
Too bad
Cause now I'm the one
Who's sorry
How stupid was I into thinking
I was gonna be alright
Okay
Fine
So everyday I find a little something
To remind me
No matter how I try
I can't put the past behind me

[Repeat Chorus]

[AJ:]
Love has let me go
I'm alright, I'm okay
I'll be fine, give it time

[All:]
But the only trouble is I can't get her out of my mind
When I close my eyes at night
Who's gonna save me
Now she's gone (she's gone)
The trouble is there's a part of me
That still can't let go of her memory (I just can't)
And now I know what it is (now I know)
And now I know what it is
Cause love is what the trouble is
The trouble
Love... Love is what the trouble is
Tags: Backstreet Boys, Love, Memories]]> Video: A Wedding That Will Move You
Early this year, Rowden and Leizl decided to get married on July 8, 2014, Rowden's 30th birthday. Together with their adorable 2-year-old daughter, they already had a perfect family.

Then a twist of fate, Rowden got diagnosed with stage IV liver cancer in late May. His last request was to marry his one true love. After 12hours of preparations, his dream was fulfilled. Unable to take him outside the hospital, we brought the church to him. It was like a heartbreaking fairytale.

Rowden Go, at the age of 29-years-old, passed away on June 11, 2014. Less than 10hours after he said his vows.

He is survived by his wife Leizel May, daughter Zakiah Rowzel, mother Lorelei, and brothers Hasset & Hisham.

Tags: Death, Wedding, Sick, Cancer, Bride]]> Mon, 30 Jun 2014 03:01:09 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=63 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=63
Early this year, Rowden and Leizl decided to get married on July 8, 2014, Rowden's 30th birthday. Together with their adorable 2-year-old daughter, they already had a perfect family.

Then a twist of fate, Rowden got diagnosed with stage IV liver cancer in late May. His last request was to marry his one true love. After 12hours of preparations, his dream was fulfilled. Unable to take him outside the hospital, we brought the church to him. It was like a heartbreaking fairytale.

Rowden Go, at the age of 29-years-old, passed away on June 11, 2014. Less than 10hours after he said his vows.

He is survived by his wife Leizel May, daughter Zakiah Rowzel, mother Lorelei, and brothers Hasset & Hisham.

Tags: Death, Wedding, Sick, Cancer, Bride]]> Movie: The English Patient (1996) by Anthony Minghella
Beginning in the 1930's, "The English Patient" tells the story of Count Almásy who is a Hungarian map maker employed by the Royal Geographical Society to chart the vast expanses of the Sahara Desert along with several other prominent explorers. As World War II unfolds, Almásy enters into a world of love, betrayal, and politics that is later revealed in a series of flashbacks while Almásy is on his death bed after being horribly burned in a plane crash.

Tags: Anthony Minghella, War, Romance, Drama]]> Sun, 29 Jun 2014 20:33:19 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=123 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_movie.php?id=123
Beginning in the 1930's, "The English Patient" tells the story of Count Almásy who is a Hungarian map maker employed by the Royal Geographical Society to chart the vast expanses of the Sahara Desert along with several other prominent explorers. As World War II unfolds, Almásy enters into a world of love, betrayal, and politics that is later revealed in a series of flashbacks while Almásy is on his death bed after being horribly burned in a plane crash.

Tags: Anthony Minghella, War, Romance, Drama]]> Song: High Hopes by Pink Floyd
Beyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were young
In a world of magnets and miracles
Our thoughts strayed constantly and without boundary
The ringing of the division bell had begun

Along the Long Road and on down the Causeway
Do they still meet there by the Cut

There was a ragged band that followed in our footsteps
Running before time took our dreams away
Leaving the myriad small creatures trying to tie us to the ground
To a life consumed by slow decay

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
With friends surrounded
The nights of wonder

Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forwards but sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some inner tide

At a higher altitude with flag unfurled
We reached the dizzy heights of that dreamed of world

Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
Though down this road we've been so many times

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river

Forever and ever
Tags: Pink Floyd, Alone]]> Sun, 29 Jun 2014 20:17:56 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=228 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=228
Beyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were young
In a world of magnets and miracles
Our thoughts strayed constantly and without boundary
The ringing of the division bell had begun

Along the Long Road and on down the Causeway
Do they still meet there by the Cut

There was a ragged band that followed in our footsteps
Running before time took our dreams away
Leaving the myriad small creatures trying to tie us to the ground
To a life consumed by slow decay

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
With friends surrounded
The nights of wonder

Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forwards but sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some inner tide

At a higher altitude with flag unfurled
We reached the dizzy heights of that dreamed of world

Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
Though down this road we've been so many times

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river

Forever and ever
Tags: Pink Floyd, Alone]]> Song: The Final Cut by Pink Floyd
through the fish eyed lens of tear stained eyes
i can barely define the shape of this moment in time
and far from flying high in clear blue skies
i'm spiralling down to the hole in the ground where i hide
if you negotiate the minefield in the drive
and beat the dogs and cheat the cold electronic eyes
and if you make it past the shotgun in the hall
dial the combination. open the priesthole
and if i'm in i'll tell you what's behind the wall
there's a kid who had a big hallucination
making love to girls in magazines
he wonders if you're sleeping with your new found faith
could anybody love him
or is it just a crazy dream
and if i show you my dark side
will you still hold me tonight
and if i open my heart to you
and show you my weak side
what would you do
would you sell your story to rolling stone
would you take the children away
and leave me alone
and smile in reassurance
as you whisper down the phone
would you send me packing
or would you take me home
thought i oughta bare my naked feelings
thought i oughta tear the curtain down
i held the blade in trembling hands
prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
i never had the nerve to make the final cut
Tags: Pink Floyd, Depressed, Hurt]]> Sun, 29 Jun 2014 20:16:34 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=227 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=227
through the fish eyed lens of tear stained eyes
i can barely define the shape of this moment in time
and far from flying high in clear blue skies
i'm spiralling down to the hole in the ground where i hide
if you negotiate the minefield in the drive
and beat the dogs and cheat the cold electronic eyes
and if you make it past the shotgun in the hall
dial the combination. open the priesthole
and if i'm in i'll tell you what's behind the wall
there's a kid who had a big hallucination
making love to girls in magazines
he wonders if you're sleeping with your new found faith
could anybody love him
or is it just a crazy dream
and if i show you my dark side
will you still hold me tonight
and if i open my heart to you
and show you my weak side
what would you do
would you sell your story to rolling stone
would you take the children away
and leave me alone
and smile in reassurance
as you whisper down the phone
would you send me packing
or would you take me home
thought i oughta bare my naked feelings
thought i oughta tear the curtain down
i held the blade in trembling hands
prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
i never had the nerve to make the final cut
Tags: Pink Floyd, Depressed, Hurt]]> Song: Dust In The Wind by Kansas
I close my eyes
Only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes with curiosity

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

(Aa aa aa)
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Oh, ho, ho

Now don't hang on
Nothin' lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
(All we are is dust in the wind)

Dust in the wind
(Everything is dust in the wind)
Everything is dust in the wind
(In the wind)

(Ooo)
(Ooo)
(Ooo)
Tags: Kansas, Empty, Love]]> Mon, 09 Jun 2014 19:29:53 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=226 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=226
I close my eyes
Only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes with curiosity

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

(Aa aa aa)
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Oh, ho, ho

Now don't hang on
Nothin' lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
(All we are is dust in the wind)

Dust in the wind
(Everything is dust in the wind)
Everything is dust in the wind
(In the wind)

(Ooo)
(Ooo)
(Ooo)
Tags: Kansas, Empty, Love]]> Video: The most inspiring video you will ever watch!

Tags: Inspirational, Staystrong]]> Mon, 26 May 2014 20:32:14 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=62 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=62

Tags: Inspirational, Staystrong]]> Song: Shattered by Backstreet Boys
[A.J:]
So empty, can't feel no more,
As I'm left with my tears on the floor
I wait for my heart to mend,
But you keep tearing a hole

[Brian:]
Inside, I'm so lost,
In the middle of my heart
It's a battlefield of love,
I've been fighting far too long

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered,
[Nick:] (From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke)
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered)
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] (Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered)
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] (Can't believe, you left me, ah)

[Brian:] So shattered

[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered

[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside, oh

[Nick:]
What am I still here for,
Could it be that I'm just waiting
Hoping you'd rescue me,
And put the pieces together again

[Howie:]
Inside, I'm so lost,
In the middle of my heart
It's a battlefield of love,
I've been fighting far too long

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered
[Howie:] Oh
[Nick:] From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, ah
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside, oh

[Nick:]
Tell me what you're really here for,
If you never really loved me
I gave my all but it still wasn't enough

'Cause all you had to say was that you ain't
Looking for commitment
Instead of telling me what I wanted to hear, oh-ho

[Howie:]
You took my emotions
And scattered them on the ground
So hard to just pick up,
And move on with life, again

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered
[A.J.:] Oh
[Nick:] From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, ah
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside

[A.J.:] So shattered
[Brian:] Oh yes, I can't believe, you left me, so shattered
Tags: Backstreet Boys, Shattered, Alone, Hurt]]> Mon, 26 May 2014 20:28:54 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=225 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_song.php?id=225
[A.J:]
So empty, can't feel no more,
As I'm left with my tears on the floor
I wait for my heart to mend,
But you keep tearing a hole

[Brian:]
Inside, I'm so lost,
In the middle of my heart
It's a battlefield of love,
I've been fighting far too long

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered,
[Nick:] (From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke)
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered)
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] (Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered)
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] (Can't believe, you left me, ah)

[Brian:] So shattered

[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered

[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside, oh

[Nick:]
What am I still here for,
Could it be that I'm just waiting
Hoping you'd rescue me,
And put the pieces together again

[Howie:]
Inside, I'm so lost,
In the middle of my heart
It's a battlefield of love,
I've been fighting far too long

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered
[Howie:] Oh
[Nick:] From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, ah
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside, oh

[Nick:]
Tell me what you're really here for,
If you never really loved me
I gave my all but it still wasn't enough

'Cause all you had to say was that you ain't
Looking for commitment
Instead of telling me what I wanted to hear, oh-ho

[Howie:]
You took my emotions
And scattered them on the ground
So hard to just pick up,
And move on with life, again

[Brian:] And now I'm shattered
[A.J.:] Oh
[Nick:] From you chipping my heart, kept taking it till it broke
[Brian:] Oh how it hurts
[Nick:] Felt it slip from your hand, hit the ground and now it's shattered
[Brian:] I'm so shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, ah
[Brian:] So shattered
[Nick, Howie:] Can't believe, you left me, I'm so shattered
[Brian:] I'm shattered, cut from with-inside

[A.J.:] So shattered
[Brian:] Oh yes, I can't believe, you left me, so shattered
Tags: Backstreet Boys, Shattered, Alone, Hurt]]> Video: "Hey" - Short Film on Bullying

Tags: Bullying, Alone, Hurt]]> Fri, 09 May 2014 22:43:20 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=61 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_video.php?id=61

Tags: Bullying, Alone, Hurt]]> Article: Sad quotes for a broken heart Sadness is a part of life that is unavoidable and arises from lost dreams and opportunities. It engulfs people into its pit and right then sad quotes can come to the best rescue. Sad quotes are soul-stirring that strikes a chord when we feel sad. These powerful words express deep truths right from the heart. There are many famous sad quotes that seem to echo our emotions which has been written when that person felt that way and it's always comforting to know that there are others who has also traveled in the same path.

Some of the amazing top sad quotes that I find really comforting when depressed and you might find them soothing too are:
'Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.' This quote is by Javan. It jerks and brings me to reality and makes me think logical.

'They that sow in tears shall reap in joy' by Psalms reminds me not to lose hope and one drop of tear draws a person one step more closer to happiness.
'Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears' by Marcus Aurelius and 'Solitary trees, if they grow at all, grow strong' by Winston Churchill are two favorite quotes I like a lot as it talks about being strong and not feel the pain. It's really inspiring when I feel hurt or isolated.

Another cool sad quote that I often recall when I feel sad is, 'Hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable'. It reminds me that experiences only make one more practical in life.

Then there are some other really great sad quotes like,
'Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad' by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.
'For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been' by John Greenleaf Whittier
'Let your tears come. Let them water your soul' by Eileen Mayhew

'Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation' by Kahlil Gibran
And finally the most heart touching one that I often secure it deep in my heart is the quote, 'The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you' by Unknown Author which reminds me to realize the love of the ones who love me before it's too late and not go through the pain of losing a loved one by taking too long to recognize the love.

These sad quotes will help you to go through tough times and bring more tranquility of mind.


Tags: Sad Quotes, Best Quotes, Quotes]]> Sun, 12 May 2013 14:54:58 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=4 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=4 Sadness is a part of life that is unavoidable and arises from lost dreams and opportunities. It engulfs people into its pit and right then sad quotes can come to the best rescue. Sad quotes are soul-stirring that strikes a chord when we feel sad. These powerful words express deep truths right from the heart. There are many famous sad quotes that seem to echo our emotions which has been written when that person felt that way and it's always comforting to know that there are others who has also traveled in the same path.

Some of the amazing top sad quotes that I find really comforting when depressed and you might find them soothing too are:
'Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.' This quote is by Javan. It jerks and brings me to reality and makes me think logical.

'They that sow in tears shall reap in joy' by Psalms reminds me not to lose hope and one drop of tear draws a person one step more closer to happiness.
'Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears' by Marcus Aurelius and 'Solitary trees, if they grow at all, grow strong' by Winston Churchill are two favorite quotes I like a lot as it talks about being strong and not feel the pain. It's really inspiring when I feel hurt or isolated.

Another cool sad quote that I often recall when I feel sad is, 'Hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable'. It reminds me that experiences only make one more practical in life.

Then there are some other really great sad quotes like,
'Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad' by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.
'For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been' by John Greenleaf Whittier
'Let your tears come. Let them water your soul' by Eileen Mayhew

'Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation' by Kahlil Gibran
And finally the most heart touching one that I often secure it deep in my heart is the quote, 'The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you' by Unknown Author which reminds me to realize the love of the ones who love me before it's too late and not go through the pain of losing a loved one by taking too long to recognize the love.

These sad quotes will help you to go through tough times and bring more tranquility of mind.


Tags: Sad Quotes, Best Quotes, Quotes]]> Article: Top 5 Sad Movies Titanic

TitanicTitanic (1997) is probably the most well-known movie on this top 5. The movie itself takes place on the first trip of the ship “Titanic”.
 
The movie starts in 1996, where a team of divers tries to find the sunken ship. They are searching for a previous diamond. The divers find the ship, but they do not find the diamond that they were looking for in the first place.
 
We hear the story about Rose Dewitt Bukater. She was only 17 years old when Titanic sat sails from Southampton in England. Titanic was supposed to travel to New York. She is traveling along with her mother and her fiancé. At the first night at the ship, Rose tries to commit suicide by jumping in the water. It does not work out because she is stopped by a man named Jack.
Jack and Rose falls in love with each other, which causes a lot of problems due to the fact that Rose has already promised to marry someone else. Jack and Rose come from different parts of society and this also causes them a lot of problems.

What happens next is that Titanic hits and iceberg, which in the end, causes the ship to sink.

Titanic is a lot about love and happiness, but we also see the darker side of these. We see anger, desperations and other dark emotions. The desperation is mostly clear between Jack and Rose, due to the fact the she is already engaged when they meet and fall in love with each other.

 

Boys Don’t Cry

Boys don't cry“Boys don’t cry” (1999) is about a based on the true story of the life of Brandon Teena. The movie tells us the story about a woman, who chooses to live her life as a man. Throughout her life, she suffers from her choice because of the consequences of her actions. Brandon moves away from Nebraska and into a new community. In her new town, the other people are not seeing person of transgender as human beings. Through the movie, Brandon ends up with a reputation of being a ladies’ man. Later in the story, Brandon ends up in prison. In prison, he develops to be a very, angry young man whose anger turns into actions after some time.
 
“Boys don’t cry” is a movie which is full of emotions. Through the movie, we get to feel all of the emotions that Brandon feels. We can feel the anger, pain and suffering he is going through. The whole community around his new neighborhood shows what conditions some of us have to live with. It is not easy to be different from the “normal” and in this movie; we get to see the life of a human in another perspective than we are used to. All these emotions in this film reminds, at least some of us, that we should be glad about what we have, because there will always be a lot of people, who has it a lot worse than we do. 

 

The Perfect Storm

At this point, we have now made it to the highest ranked on this list.
 
The number one on this list is the movie “The Perfect Storm” (2000) directed by Wolfgang Petersen and Allen Payne. The movie is in many ways a lot like the other movies, but it has its differences, which is why it has made it to number one.
 
The Perfect Storm is about a group of fishermen from Gloucester, who leaves everything behind and is chasing their road to happiness and wealth and the ocean. In October 1991, the ship “Andrea Gail”, with fishermen, sets sail. After some time, they get their weather report which tells them that there is a storm coming their way, which can cause a perfect storm.
 
Due to the fact that the Hurricane “Grace” is behind them, they decide to continue with their fishing. At the ocean, the fishermen faces a lot of problems like weather, they relationship which each other and other disasters.
 
When everything is good and there are catching a lot of fish, their ice machine breaks down and they needs to make a big decision. They can now choose between letting the fish root or try to make it through the hurricane. The desperate fishermen decide to make their way through the huge hurricane. Soon, they find themselves in the middle of the biggest storm in ages.
 
The Perfect Storm is definitely a sad movie. As in the previous movies, we get to feel a lot of emotions. In this movie, I felt mostly sadness and desperation towards the fishermen. The ending of the movie was priceless in my opinion and that is one of the places where “The Perfect Storm” is different from the other movie that I has mentioned.

 

Philadelphia

PhiladelphiaPhiladelphia (1993) is an American movie. With Tom Hanks and Denzel Washington as the stars of the movie, Philadelphia is about a young man who suffers from AIDS and the need to hide the real him.
 
Andrew Beckett is homosexual and is working in one of the largest companies in Philadelphia. He is not open about his homosexuality, or the fact that he has got AIDS, on his work and do to the fact that he has got no one to turn to, this costs him a lot of pain and suffering.
 
One day, he is assigned to one of the company’s most important cases. During the case, a worker notices something odd on Andrew. Embarrassed, he stays home to cover the lesion on his forehead. At home, he tries to finish the case and then deliver it to the office, but it gets worse and he is rushed to the hospital to make sure that he is not dying.
 
Andrew’s life gets a lot worse and he even gets fired from his job. Andrew prosecutes his previous contractor and the case goes to court. As the case goes to court, Andrew faces some new problem; his previous contractor tells the court, that Andrew has been hiding his condition for them and therefore, it was okay to them to fire him. During the testimony, Andrew collapses. His lawyer and family visit him there. After the family has gone, Andrew tells that he is ready to die.
 
At the end of the movie, we see Andrew’s funeral where there is a lot of mourners.
 
As seen in the movie, Philadelphia is about trying to overcome your problems to stay above water. In this movie, it is one man against all the others and we get to see how sickness can break you down in so many ways. Philadelphia is a frustrating movie in many ways, because it is even hard, as a viewer, to imagine all the problems that Andrew was going through and it is even harder to put ourselves in his place.

 

 

We Were Soldier

We were soldier“We were soldier” (2002) is directed by Randall Wallace. The movie is about the major battle of the Vietnam War and we see it through the eyes of the American units in Vietnam.
The film itself is based on the book “We were soldiers once… and young” by Hal Moore, who participated in the war himself.
The United States has entered the Vietnamese war. At this point, Hal Moore is a dedicated and committed young man and he is training the troops that are under his command.
After arriving in Vietnamese area, Hal finds out that an American base has been attacked and several of their soldiers have been killed. After this information, he needs to move his men and eliminate their enemy. At the time of their moving, Hal has not got any idea of the number of the Vietnamese troopers in the area at this point.

Later in the film, the group of soldiers is lured into an ambush by a Vietnamese. With no options left, Hal decides to call on his radio and tell the other Americans that they have been lured into an ambush and cannot defend themselves. They will now stay alive much longer so he orders all the available aircraft to attack their Vietnamese enemy to kill or chase them away from Hal and his soldiers. The aircraft bombs and uses machine guns at the enemy. After the attacking, the Vietnamese troopers repel and the surviving Americans are rescued.

In the end, the Vietnamese plans a big counter attack and you must see the movie yourself to see the outcome.
 
This movie has made it to this list, because it shows us the horrific actions of war. Throughout the movie, we can almost feel the pain that the soldiers feel during the movie and we see what war really is about. We can feel the love that the soldiers feel for their country while they are willing to sacrifice their lives to make a difference in Vietnam. The movie proves that you may need to sacrifice something important to you, if you want to make a difference for the next generations.


Tags: Sad Movies, Movies, Top 5]]> Mon, 22 Apr 2013 21:08:46 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=3 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=3 Titanic

TitanicTitanic (1997) is probably the most well-known movie on this top 5. The movie itself takes place on the first trip of the ship “Titanic”.
 
The movie starts in 1996, where a team of divers tries to find the sunken ship. They are searching for a previous diamond. The divers find the ship, but they do not find the diamond that they were looking for in the first place.
 
We hear the story about Rose Dewitt Bukater. She was only 17 years old when Titanic sat sails from Southampton in England. Titanic was supposed to travel to New York. She is traveling along with her mother and her fiancé. At the first night at the ship, Rose tries to commit suicide by jumping in the water. It does not work out because she is stopped by a man named Jack.
Jack and Rose falls in love with each other, which causes a lot of problems due to the fact that Rose has already promised to marry someone else. Jack and Rose come from different parts of society and this also causes them a lot of problems.

What happens next is that Titanic hits and iceberg, which in the end, causes the ship to sink.

Titanic is a lot about love and happiness, but we also see the darker side of these. We see anger, desperations and other dark emotions. The desperation is mostly clear between Jack and Rose, due to the fact the she is already engaged when they meet and fall in love with each other.

 

Boys Don’t Cry

Boys don't cry“Boys don’t cry” (1999) is about a based on the true story of the life of Brandon Teena. The movie tells us the story about a woman, who chooses to live her life as a man. Throughout her life, she suffers from her choice because of the consequences of her actions. Brandon moves away from Nebraska and into a new community. In her new town, the other people are not seeing person of transgender as human beings. Through the movie, Brandon ends up with a reputation of being a ladies’ man. Later in the story, Brandon ends up in prison. In prison, he develops to be a very, angry young man whose anger turns into actions after some time.
 
“Boys don’t cry” is a movie which is full of emotions. Through the movie, we get to feel all of the emotions that Brandon feels. We can feel the anger, pain and suffering he is going through. The whole community around his new neighborhood shows what conditions some of us have to live with. It is not easy to be different from the “normal” and in this movie; we get to see the life of a human in another perspective than we are used to. All these emotions in this film reminds, at least some of us, that we should be glad about what we have, because there will always be a lot of people, who has it a lot worse than we do. 

 

The Perfect Storm

At this point, we have now made it to the highest ranked on this list.
 
The number one on this list is the movie “The Perfect Storm” (2000) directed by Wolfgang Petersen and Allen Payne. The movie is in many ways a lot like the other movies, but it has its differences, which is why it has made it to number one.
 
The Perfect Storm is about a group of fishermen from Gloucester, who leaves everything behind and is chasing their road to happiness and wealth and the ocean. In October 1991, the ship “Andrea Gail”, with fishermen, sets sail. After some time, they get their weather report which tells them that there is a storm coming their way, which can cause a perfect storm.
 
Due to the fact that the Hurricane “Grace” is behind them, they decide to continue with their fishing. At the ocean, the fishermen faces a lot of problems like weather, they relationship which each other and other disasters.
 
When everything is good and there are catching a lot of fish, their ice machine breaks down and they needs to make a big decision. They can now choose between letting the fish root or try to make it through the hurricane. The desperate fishermen decide to make their way through the huge hurricane. Soon, they find themselves in the middle of the biggest storm in ages.
 
The Perfect Storm is definitely a sad movie. As in the previous movies, we get to feel a lot of emotions. In this movie, I felt mostly sadness and desperation towards the fishermen. The ending of the movie was priceless in my opinion and that is one of the places where “The Perfect Storm” is different from the other movie that I has mentioned.

 

Philadelphia

PhiladelphiaPhiladelphia (1993) is an American movie. With Tom Hanks and Denzel Washington as the stars of the movie, Philadelphia is about a young man who suffers from AIDS and the need to hide the real him.
 
Andrew Beckett is homosexual and is working in one of the largest companies in Philadelphia. He is not open about his homosexuality, or the fact that he has got AIDS, on his work and do to the fact that he has got no one to turn to, this costs him a lot of pain and suffering.
 
One day, he is assigned to one of the company’s most important cases. During the case, a worker notices something odd on Andrew. Embarrassed, he stays home to cover the lesion on his forehead. At home, he tries to finish the case and then deliver it to the office, but it gets worse and he is rushed to the hospital to make sure that he is not dying.
 
Andrew’s life gets a lot worse and he even gets fired from his job. Andrew prosecutes his previous contractor and the case goes to court. As the case goes to court, Andrew faces some new problem; his previous contractor tells the court, that Andrew has been hiding his condition for them and therefore, it was okay to them to fire him. During the testimony, Andrew collapses. His lawyer and family visit him there. After the family has gone, Andrew tells that he is ready to die.
 
At the end of the movie, we see Andrew’s funeral where there is a lot of mourners.
 
As seen in the movie, Philadelphia is about trying to overcome your problems to stay above water. In this movie, it is one man against all the others and we get to see how sickness can break you down in so many ways. Philadelphia is a frustrating movie in many ways, because it is even hard, as a viewer, to imagine all the problems that Andrew was going through and it is even harder to put ourselves in his place.

 

 

We Were Soldier

We were soldier“We were soldier” (2002) is directed by Randall Wallace. The movie is about the major battle of the Vietnam War and we see it through the eyes of the American units in Vietnam.
The film itself is based on the book “We were soldiers once… and young” by Hal Moore, who participated in the war himself.
The United States has entered the Vietnamese war. At this point, Hal Moore is a dedicated and committed young man and he is training the troops that are under his command.
After arriving in Vietnamese area, Hal finds out that an American base has been attacked and several of their soldiers have been killed. After this information, he needs to move his men and eliminate their enemy. At the time of their moving, Hal has not got any idea of the number of the Vietnamese troopers in the area at this point.

Later in the film, the group of soldiers is lured into an ambush by a Vietnamese. With no options left, Hal decides to call on his radio and tell the other Americans that they have been lured into an ambush and cannot defend themselves. They will now stay alive much longer so he orders all the available aircraft to attack their Vietnamese enemy to kill or chase them away from Hal and his soldiers. The aircraft bombs and uses machine guns at the enemy. After the attacking, the Vietnamese troopers repel and the surviving Americans are rescued.

In the end, the Vietnamese plans a big counter attack and you must see the movie yourself to see the outcome.
 
This movie has made it to this list, because it shows us the horrific actions of war. Throughout the movie, we can almost feel the pain that the soldiers feel during the movie and we see what war really is about. We can feel the love that the soldiers feel for their country while they are willing to sacrifice their lives to make a difference in Vietnam. The movie proves that you may need to sacrifice something important to you, if you want to make a difference for the next generations.


Tags: Sad Movies, Movies, Top 5]]> Article: Why I Love Sad Songs It is said and believed that music is food for the soul. This is best shown in how we relate to different types of music depending on our mood and our feelings. Our state of mind and state of emotions decide our mood and our choice of music in turn is driven by the mood we are in. I love sad songs because they act as my best friend when I’m feeling sad and low.

With my collection of sad songs, I do not need someone to talk to because these songs become a mirror to my emotions. The lyrics in sad songs when I hear them, it feels like they have been written for me and I can sink deeper into my lonely, sad emotion. Sad songs have a marvelous effect on us. When we are broken and hurt due to whatever reason, sad songs give us an outlet to be on our own and talk to ourselves. It is not however necessary that one should like sad songs only when they are sad; it is but human to be happy yet listen to a sad song. This is only an indication that we are still human and our feelings have not become numb in this fast paced life; our emotions are still alive. If we are feeling ‘OK’ and suddenly a sad song brings tears to our eyes it is only for us to remember that nothing lasts forever. There is always an end to every beginning and happiness is always followed by sadness, so we should keep our doors open for sadness as well. Pain and misery never knocks before coming neither does an opportunity so we should always be prepared for good and bad times alike.

I may laugh in public, I may fake a smile only not to let anyone else know what I’m going through inside. I love sad songs because they bring out my real emotions and make me weep out my sorrows; my grievances, regrets and tragedies. They remind me of my loved ones that I have lost due to one reason or the other and the emptiness I feel without them. Listening to sad songs not only gives me remembrance of bitter sweet memories but they touch the chords of my heart. At this point I wish to lock myself away from the world because it is this world that has caused me all the pain and grief. Had I not lived I wouldn’t have suffered. So you can see what multiple effects music can have on you.

Sad songs also are a way to melt the toughest of persons and the harshest of emotions.  When we are angry at someone we are rather angry with ourselves; we may shout and yell at them but inside we are shaking. And sad songs have the quality to wash away that harshness in us. Whenever I have had a bad day at work and an argument with a customer or a co-worker; I listen to sad songs on my way back home to soothe and calm my nerves and most of all for the reason so that I may cry and wash out my anger.


Tags: Sad Songs, Songs]]> Fri, 11 Jan 2013 04:14:47 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=1 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=1 It is said and believed that music is food for the soul. This is best shown in how we relate to different types of music depending on our mood and our feelings. Our state of mind and state of emotions decide our mood and our choice of music in turn is driven by the mood we are in. I love sad songs because they act as my best friend when I’m feeling sad and low.

With my collection of sad songs, I do not need someone to talk to because these songs become a mirror to my emotions. The lyrics in sad songs when I hear them, it feels like they have been written for me and I can sink deeper into my lonely, sad emotion. Sad songs have a marvelous effect on us. When we are broken and hurt due to whatever reason, sad songs give us an outlet to be on our own and talk to ourselves. It is not however necessary that one should like sad songs only when they are sad; it is but human to be happy yet listen to a sad song. This is only an indication that we are still human and our feelings have not become numb in this fast paced life; our emotions are still alive. If we are feeling ‘OK’ and suddenly a sad song brings tears to our eyes it is only for us to remember that nothing lasts forever. There is always an end to every beginning and happiness is always followed by sadness, so we should keep our doors open for sadness as well. Pain and misery never knocks before coming neither does an opportunity so we should always be prepared for good and bad times alike.

I may laugh in public, I may fake a smile only not to let anyone else know what I’m going through inside. I love sad songs because they bring out my real emotions and make me weep out my sorrows; my grievances, regrets and tragedies. They remind me of my loved ones that I have lost due to one reason or the other and the emptiness I feel without them. Listening to sad songs not only gives me remembrance of bitter sweet memories but they touch the chords of my heart. At this point I wish to lock myself away from the world because it is this world that has caused me all the pain and grief. Had I not lived I wouldn’t have suffered. So you can see what multiple effects music can have on you.

Sad songs also are a way to melt the toughest of persons and the harshest of emotions.  When we are angry at someone we are rather angry with ourselves; we may shout and yell at them but inside we are shaking. And sad songs have the quality to wash away that harshness in us. Whenever I have had a bad day at work and an argument with a customer or a co-worker; I listen to sad songs on my way back home to soothe and calm my nerves and most of all for the reason so that I may cry and wash out my anger.


Tags: Sad Songs, Songs]]> Article: How to Write a Sad Story Writing a sad story is truly a great art in itself; an art to bring tears into someone’s eyes by your words and not many writers have successfully achieved the reward of doing so. Greatest sad stories that have ever been produced are the ones that are written by the writer’s heart. I will be sharing with you what I believe are the essentials to write a sad story.

As I just said a story can only have enough sadness and pain in it if the writer is writing with all their heart. When writing a sad story one should bring themselves to feel any sort of agony and sadness they have ever felt in life. It could be out of loss of a loved one, being parted from a loved one or a best friend, leaving school or leaving childhood town, a loss in the business, loss of a dear pet and so on. It can be an endless list of reasons that ever made you sad. The more closely one relates to painful moments in their life the sadder their story will be.  Example of this is that most of the sad stories are experience from people’s lives; their sufferings in times of hunger, prison or being abandoned.

A sad story should be simple and easily understandable to the readers and the character sketches for each character should be well built so that the reader builds a link with them. By making the story understandable it means that one should employ a descriptive writing style that paints clear pictures of scenes and characters so that the readers can actually visualize them in their minds. Remember that your words should have a powerful impact like it does in sad movies. The characters as you line them up in your story should be done in such a way that audience should ‘feel’ for the characters; only then will your story be touching enough to make them cry. Make your characters more human than superficial and heroic.

A big No-No for Happy Endings! Yes, a sad story is sad because it does not end happily ever after so bear this simple rule in mind. Your story should leave a yearning and a vacuum only then the audiences feel sympathetic towards the characters involved and cry on their ill-fate and misfortune. The sudden death or a similar twist in the story goes a long way in guaranteeing the success of a sad story but this works best only if the characters are well developed and the audiences are kept intact throughout. Their interest should be maintained at every level; if they lose interest then the story will not have the desired effect.

So, what are you waiting for? Pick up your pen; take your imagination to all the points in life when you got sad and felt pain and you will find yourself creating a great sad story that will have the ability to move its readers.


Tags: Sad Story, Story, How To, Write]]> Fri, 11 Jan 2013 03:29:00 +0000 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=2 http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_article.php?id=2 Writing a sad story is truly a great art in itself; an art to bring tears into someone’s eyes by your words and not many writers have successfully achieved the reward of doing so. Greatest sad stories that have ever been produced are the ones that are written by the writer’s heart. I will be sharing with you what I believe are the essentials to write a sad story.

As I just said a story can only have enough sadness and pain in it if the writer is writing with all their heart. When writing a sad story one should bring themselves to feel any sort of agony and sadness they have ever felt in life. It could be out of loss of a loved one, being parted from a loved one or a best friend, leaving school or leaving childhood town, a loss in the business, loss of a dear pet and so on. It can be an endless list of reasons that ever made you sad. The more closely one relates to painful moments in their life the sadder their story will be.  Example of this is that most of the sad stories are experience from people’s lives; their sufferings in times of hunger, prison or being abandoned.

A sad story should be simple and easily understandable to the readers and the character sketches for each character should be well built so that the reader builds a link with them. By making the story understandable it means that one should employ a descriptive writing style that paints clear pictures of scenes and characters so that the readers can actually visualize them in their minds. Remember that your words should have a powerful impact like it does in sad movies. The characters as you line them up in your story should be done in such a way that audience should ‘feel’ for the characters; only then will your story be touching enough to make them cry. Make your characters more human than superficial and heroic.

A big No-No for Happy Endings! Yes, a sad story is sad because it does not end happily ever after so bear this simple rule in mind. Your story should leave a yearning and a vacuum only then the audiences feel sympathetic towards the characters involved and cry on their ill-fate and misfortune. The sudden death or a similar twist in the story goes a long way in guaranteeing the success of a sad story but this works best only if the characters are well developed and the audiences are kept intact throughout. Their interest should be maintained at every level; if they lose interest then the story will not have the desired effect.

So, what are you waiting for? Pick up your pen; take your imagination to all the points in life when you got sad and felt pain and you will find yourself creating a great sad story that will have the ability to move its readers.


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