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The Addiction of Seeking the Unlimited

Kim Gould — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 06:06:30 +0000

There’s always the tendency to believe we should have access to the unlimited. We should be able to soar ever higher, love ever longer, be ever more successful, gorgeous, wealthy. Why ask for $1 million when we can ask for $50 million and the universe makes no distinction anyway?

The Sun has moved into it’s position ready for the New Moon tomorrow, with the Earth and North Node opposite in the Gate of Limitations in the Base Chakra. In my Human Design, having Saturn in the Gate of Limitations and Jupiter (planet of expansion) in the Gate of Decrease, the concept of limitation has been a bit of a lifetime study for me, and not always a happy one! I have come to the conclusion that in order to bring the truth of our life to frution on the material plane it has to go through the tempering fire of the time/space continuum that our physicality lives in. Hopefully this take on things has helped me live with more grace and acceptance .

Our life as humans relies upon us coming to grips with the limitations inherent in that state. This is not to say we must continue to suffer the pain of being ‘patient’ and ‘waiting’ for our heart’s desire to arrive on our doorstep. I no longer believe in such a process.

The problem lies in false limitation. The places where we have subconsciously learnt not to give ourselves what is on offer. Watch where you say no to yourself over the next few days. And then allow the small child inside to ask ‘why?’. Very often what we desire is ‘just around the corner, waiting out of view’ and the blinkers of our conditioning have us looking in entirely the other direction.

Seeking the unlimited is simply another way of avoiding the pain of focusing on what we really want. I speak as an expert here .. lol!

in love
Kim Gould
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PS. Pink concert was cancelled!! She didn’t even send me a txt msg. I had to hear it on the grapevine (sob!). And New Moon blog is on it’s way. Solar Eclipse and Yellow Cosmic Sun portal day and last day of Tzolkin calendar (mayan calendar) all happening tomorrow. Wear something wonderful.
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The Exhaustion of the Child Within

Kim Gould — Mon, 20 Jul 2009 02:38:45 +0000

I was planning to write a long and thoughtful post on the upcoming New Moon but … oh well.

I’m off to Brisbane to see Pink in concert. How I’m going to deal with being in a room with tens of thousands of other people on a day that is so intense I have no idea. But I’m guessing it will be fine or it wouldn’t be happening.

When Chiron went into Capricorn, I think it was very early 2000’s, I went into a huge spin. I was ‘told’ that I was being prepared for when Pluto went into Capricorn in 2008. It seemed a very long way off back then. I was ‘told’ that when Pluto went into Capricorn the world would go to pieces as people were confronted by all the emotional aspects of self that they had locked away deep inside their cells.

This was before I discovered Human Design. I had a few years of hell back then, as I had to confront my own submerged emotions. My life was in chaos, my mind was in chaos, I would lay on the earth sobbing and begging for scotty to beam me up. I felt that there could not possibly be any relief from such a hell.

Now of course I look back on that time quite fondly . It was a journey that gave me treasures that I could never have imagined.

This New Moon has us facing lifetimes of emotional caretaking. The child who lovingly takes on a role of caretaking the parents, grows into an adult nursing a largely unacknowledged and exhausted child within. At some core level we feel that we have been without support, that we have battled on forever doing the impossible.

Saturn is conjunct Typhon, representing the scariest monster ever. I’m seeing this over and over again, people feeling that they are dealing with some exhausting experience of battling a monster who can never be defeated. This is a transitory stage we are passing through. But emotionally it is bringing up family issues. The child who sees the overbearing and omnipotent parent as ‘monster’ and internalises the experience (I am weak, I am a bad person, I am unloveable). This conditioning is shoved so very deep and is so much a part of the structure of our society that it is close to invisible.

All of our formalised roles and societal structures including marriage, telephone companies, employment, everything, are based on this (let’s be truthful here) abusive underlying relationship of parent/child. This New Moon activates us to see the truth of that. I’ve just had the most ridiculous conversation with our telephone company. They were speaking to me as if I was a naughty 5 year old.

An existential fear of emptiness (Gate 41) is operating as a conditioning field. As my friend said this morning ~ I feel like I’ve been digging and digging and digging for so many years to be free of this pain and now all I’ve found is the bottom of the hole. And it’s empty. Indeed! As Caole Anthony points out emptiness is the creative womb of the divine. It just feels like hell because our culture is all about more, more, more in the future and don’t even take time to glimpse what we have in the present. The present holds so much truth we have been conditioned to avoid.

I was ‘told’ that July will be the crux of the Pluto in Capricorn energy.

Do not underestimate your part in this global evolution. In staying conscious through this process, in disbelieving in the bogey man under your bed and finding the truth that your emotions are leading you to, you are engaging in a profound act of spiritual warriorship. Hundreds of thousands of people would thank you for your anchoring work if only they knew you were doing it!

The defined Throat Centre has allowed people to control the energy over the past 2 weeks, but both Mars and Venus shift in the next 24 hours and then we will see what’s been going on under that control.

One of the core issues of the New Moon is about limitation. What we long for and yet do not allow ourselves to have. We don’t even believe it’s possible to have. Our trust that life will provide it is so damaged that we can’t even think about it.

I have to go have my Pink fashion crisis now .. what to wear? I will hopefully get to write something more detailed in the next day or so.

This is a huge activation and it will last a few more days. Stay present and kind. Gentleness is essential. Don’t believe anything unless it feels good. And remember that we all love you.

in love
Kim Gould
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Have Time Will Enjoy

Kim Gould — Sun, 19 Jul 2009 01:12:47 +0000

Rather than wanting to hold to the past longer, and slow things down, and stop the aging process — just revel in the power of now! You can’t stop time, and you won’t stop the recycling process that is taking place upon this planet, nor would you want to — but you do not have to suffer the moving through time. Every moment can be more wonderful than the moment before

— Abraham

Excerpted from the workshop in Houston, TX on Saturday, January 5th, 2002

Stepping Lightly Over the Emotional Chasm

Kim Gould — Sat, 18 Jul 2009 00:57:12 +0000

Zooming in a bit closer to this amazing hook up we’re in the midst of….

We’ve got the personal emotional energy of the Solar Plexus mixing it up with the higher dimensional unconditional love and acceptance of the G Centre.

We’ve got Uranus in the Gate of Darkening of the Light, a place where we would expect to find your shadow aspects - the parts of you that just don’t seem to fit in and that have been shoved into the dark. And it’s meeting up with Pluto in Capricorn in the G Centre - big business, government, patriarchial structures in general. The shadow aspects are vulnerable, because try as they might they just cannot understand why they have been continually rejected, resisted, unable to succeed. Life seems to have reflected their unsuitability back to us and we responded by stuffing them in the back wardrobe and hiding the key.

Neptune in the Gate of Desire says all I want is to be love. Not to be loved so much as to be love. Neptune is seeking the highest possible manifestation of all your true desires right now. It’s giving you an emotional upgrade from personal to transpersonal. It’s attuning your emotions to their greatest potential.

Chiron joins Neptune to open global access to the world of archetypes, dreams, the unified field. We have a VIP pass to the field of infinite possibilities and the password is ‘emotion’. This powerful combination has the ability to break down our faulty beliefs around what’s real and what isn’t real. It’s bringing quantum reality to your day to day life by allowing you access to the movement of matter, the flow of life. If it feels like everything in your life is dissolving, it is. Well not so much that it is dissolving, simply that you are becoming aware that it never really was solid, it was just the limitation of our more structured perceptions.

Jupiter represents a cross over point between personal and transpersonal. It’s a bridge to help us navigate the Neptune/Chiron process. On a personal level it represents our ability to trust life, to have faith in the flow. On a transpersonal level it represents our spiritual, religious and philosophical beliefs about life, what we subscribe to, what rules we choose to believe are real. In Gate 30.1 Jupiter says:

It is early morning and work begins. The mind has been closed to the outside world in sleep (representing the Neptunian delusions we are awakening from) now it’s connections with the world begin again. The traces of one’s impressions run crisscross. Activity and haste prevail. It is important then to preserve inner composure and not to allow oneself to be swept along by the bustle of life. The beginning holds the seed for all that is to follow.

Each one of us is in the process of developing a new uniquely personal philosophy of life that allows space for the truth of every aspect of ourselves. Like a child who’s been locked away from the world for years, we are blinking as we come into the light and feeling overwhelmed, anxious, unsure.

Gate 30, the Gate of Desire, represents the process of understanding what we cling to. What provides our emotional stability. Like a vine growing on a frame, we take on the shape of what we believe in, what we desire, what we attach ourselves to, what we rely on. Right now it feels as if the frame has been yanked away and we are quivering, not convinced we can survive without it’s comforting presence.

We are standing on a precipice, nervously looking down at the sheer gaping drop before us. It threatens to swallow us whole with barely a gulp or burp to show for our demise. When we look up we see that although the drop is immense, we have only to take one small step to get over the chasm.

We are in the process of reclaiming something of ourselves. That something is a small, vulnerable aspect that feels insignificant compared to it’s ‘foe’, the authoritarian rules and structures that have contained our lives up until now. Mars in Gate 20 gives us the courage to hold our focus on what’s important in each moment, regardless of how ridiculous our behaviour may seem: “Contemplation of my life, the superior man is without blame.” Venus in Gate 35 offers remarkable progress when we proceed gently and without force: “A goat butts against a hedge and gets its horns entangled”.

Although all of this energy gets to the Throat and so can be expressed, this is more a case of taking the time to achieve emotional clarity, to find where you have been experiencing emotional chaos and choosing new actions and behaviours. Emotional aspects of you that have been hidden away are coming out to play and in the process they are breaking down old aspects of your identity (G Centre). This feels like a dissolution (Neptune), a threat to your sense of identity (Uranus), personal philosophy (Jupiter), even a death (Pluto). Letting go of the woundedness of this part of you is part of the process (Chiron). Venus and Uranus are breaking down old emotional defences and revealing the truth. It’s a great place to build a new foundation from.

We have a second New Moon in Cancer on 21st July, representing new beginnings for your inner emotional self. These few days represent a profound moment in our evolution. Go easy and trust life.

in love
Kim Gould
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The Archetypal Story of You

Kim Gould — Fri, 17 Jul 2009 06:42:50 +0000

Do you know which Dwarf Planets, Asteroids, healing Centaurs and Trans-Neptunian Bodies are affecting your Human Design? What effect do Black Holes have on your personal energy field? What myths and archetypal stories resonate most strongly in your DNA and the cells of your body?

Next week I am doing readings based on your entire World of Earth charts. These are the integrative charts for your physical, emotional, mental and spiritual layers. The reveal layers not obvious in the standard Human Design chart, as well as giving detailed insight into ongoing family issues. You can also see how your type and profile shift between layers.

Not only will I be including the standard planets, but I will also be including any influences from a list of over 500 other worldly bodies, including Asteroids, Centaurs, TNO’s, Uranian Points and fixed points like the Galactic Centre. I will also be including in the reading any Black Holes that have a significant influence on your personal energy field.

So many of us are struggling to get a sense of who we are in this new reality we are creating. This unique reading gives a recognition of self that will resonate at your highest level and will, at the same time, be practical in your day to day life.

I never use jargon, and it’s my passion to make Human Design easy to understand and accessible. The reading will be 90 minutes of digitally recorded mp3 audio, broken up into approximately 10 individual tracks. You can download the reading directly from the secure download link I will email to you.

Dear Kim, FINALLY, I know what the hell was going on!!!!! I recognized the cycles when I studied Magi and Tarot, But things never quite fit. You have unlocked the dilemma that has dogged me . Now my life makes sense! Thank you so much. CM Ca.USA

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Kim Gould
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Your Inner Wilderness Reserve

Kim Gould — Fri, 17 Jul 2009 02:33:04 +0000

I’ve been working with the wild aspects of the feminine, masculine and the kid (aka divine child). There really is nothing ‘wild’ about these aspects. Except that they don’t fit into any neat and tidy boxes, nor do they take any notice of rules about being on time, using cutlery, or the concept of polite language. They don’t guard their thoughts, emotions or words.

Not because they’re evil. Although that’s the story. Be afraid, be very afraid. No, it’s because they trust themselves and their own innate sense of self and their connection to all that is. Which means there is no danger, nothing to be afraid of.

Most of us have relegated these aspects of ourselves to an inner wilderness reserve. Quite a small reserve, probably only a few acres, securely fenced and well hidden from the road. Where no one will see it. Including you, quite possibly.

However, the transits for the rest of July, and certainly for the next 3 days, are like a neon sign over your inner wilderness reserve that blinks out the message LOOK HERE!! and YOU ARE ALIVE!!

As our G Centres and our Solar Plexus Centres connect to the Throat Centre in an awesome display of universal power, something deep inside stirs to life. Pluto and Mars are showing us where our spiritual selves have been dominated, controlled, manipulated. The amazing stellium of planets in the Solar Plexus (emotional) Centre are aligning our spirit/soul with our personal emotional journey.

Expect survival fears (Pluto), delusions (Neptune), rebellion (Uranus), trust and faith (Jupiter), woundedness (Chiron). Expect power struggles (Pluto), addiction (Neptune), loneliness and alienation (Uranus), arrogant righteousness and indignation (Jupiter) and despair (Chiron). I could go on.

We have been long preparing a solid foundation for this week’s emotional shift. Although it feels as if the very ground beneath our feet is unstable, it’s much more reliable than we realise.

Two days ago we had a earthquake in New Zealand that generated a tsunami. Twitter was abuzz within minutes. The tsunami only got to 12 cm. As my daughter said “we’d be drowning up to our ankles in that mum”. Earthquakes and large waves are typical dream images that represent fear of emotional overwhelm. In our mass psychosis we create these external events to represent our unresolved inner landscape. 12cm isn’t going to do much more than get our feet wet. So relax, breathe and appreciate the shifts happening at this most amazing time on Planet Earth. This is mostly about trusting yourself. Even if you go a bit wild around the edges.

in love
Kim Gould
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16th July ~ A Very Interesting Day!

Kim Gould — Tue, 14 Jul 2009 01:24:27 +0000

I’m thinking the 16th might be a good day to have a ‘mental health day’ off work. What happens when Sun, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Uranus, Neptune, Pluto and Chiron ALL get access to the Throat Chakra at the same time? This is too big to call. (It’s happening around 15.30 Wednesday UT and 1.30 Thursday AEST and the moon activation lasts about 9 hours starting at 12.30UT and 22.30AEST Thursday) (PS. just had a tsunami warning here in Australia. I don’t think that’s ever happened before)

Here’s the chart.

First thing. Notice that both Pluto (in the yellow diamond - The G Soul Centre) and the Neptune/Chiron/Jupiter/Uranus group (in the brown triangle - the Solar Plexus Emotional Centre) are accessing the throat. The energies of both will be combining at the Throat Chakra, which is where we mutate, manifest, express.

Secondly, at the Throat we also have Mercury conjunct the South Node in Gate 56. This represents becoming conscious of something we need to leave behind us. Something we need to release from our lives. Gate 56 is the Wanderer who feels him or herself to be an outsider, an alien, a stranger wandering alone in a strange land.

This gate also tells us that we are on a journey and that we should become more aware of the small things that make the journey a joyful experience. Don’t get involved in the trivialities of others. This is a process of being ‘at home’ with ourselves and not allowing others to make us feel that we are strangers to ourselves and our lives.

Thirdly, the Moon is making a Channel with the Earth that connects the Crown with the Ajna. It gives us an opportunity to connect with our own inner silence and to allow a revival, a renewal to filter down to the mental level. Any healthy change needs a secure foundation from which to grow and this Earth/Moon activation will allow us to understand something of how difficult it was for us to fully ground into our inspired child and into our physical bodies.

This is the Channel of Inspired Individual Empowerment.

Back to the Pluto, Neptune, Chiron, Jupiter, Uranus mix at the Throat Centre. Let’s have a look at what each one tells us on a personal level.

Pluto in 10.4 ~ It’s dangerous to think we must interfere in life to avoid ‘bad’ outcomes. Pluto is the main representation of death and rebirth (ie. regeneration) in the chart and when we interfere we are creating a ‘false death’ in fear of true death. We block our reception to all support, and so we avoid rebirth and regeneration.

Neptune, Jupiter and Chiron in 30.2 ~ Being stuck in an adolescent emotional state brings drama, a constant shifting between high and low. Allowing ourselves to be refreshed by moving slowly and steadily brings inner peace.

Uranus in 36.5 ~ When we don’t give energy to the darkness in our lives, it simply falls away. This is the gate and line that tells us that when we try to engage with the darkness we end up being pulled into it’s insanity. When we believe we have to placate it rather than simply withdraw into our own light, we get stuck in trying to justify ourselves, rationalise ourselves, explain ourselves. In this process we forget to live our lives.

The Throat Chakra is a portal that connects your inner world with the outer world. It’s where you communicate, act, interact with others. It represents metamorphosis, manifestation and expression.

I’m not sure how these energies will play out yet. But me suspects it will be a very interesting day!

in love
Kim Gould
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A Place of Transition

Kim Gould — Mon, 13 Jul 2009 23:29:01 +0000

Mars in the Gate of Contemplation, line 3 today:

This is a place of transition. We no longer look outward to receive pictures that are more or less limited and confused, but direct our contemplation upon ourselves in order to find a guideline for our decisions. This self-contemplation means the overcoming of naive egotism in the person who sees everything solely from his or her own standpoint. By beginning to reflect in this way we acquire objectivity.

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Kim Gould
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Dealing with the Monsters

Kim Gould — Mon, 13 Jul 2009 11:16:02 +0000

Quick note on monsters.

Saturn and Ceres are in the Gate of Oppression. You know that, if you’ve been reading over the past few weeks. Joining them is the asteroid Typhon.

Typhon is a monster who has many heads. Chop one off and it grows back. Like those nightmarish creatures from the movies who are indestructible, Typhon comes back again and again to threaten us.

Okay, lets move out of the Gate of Oppression, out of the Ajna Centre and the mind and head on down to the Throat Centre. Where we find Mars. And the asteroid Nemesis.

Nemesis is your own personal bogey man who won’t leave you alone.

But lets be clear about this. Typhon and Nemesis are not terrible people or circumstances outside of you over which you have no power. They are shadow aspects of your behaviour. Aspects of yourself that you find hard to see, and places where you tend to get all drama queen, assume a habitual look of innocence and point at someone else.

I’ve talked to so many people today who have asked me … what’s today about? It’s sooo weird. And I’ve said the word - Nemesis. And every one of them has said … YES! And when I’ve mentioned that it’s time to face and clear our nemesis, they’ve all practically collapsed in relief. (I’ll just mention for the sake of completeness that the Moon has been conjunct Uranus today as well).

Let’s get back to that Gate of Oppression. It’s also the Gate of Exhaustion. It’s the place where your mind keeps taking you back again and again to a way of thinking that is oppressive and leaves you just absolutely exhausted.

It’s also a gate of mental realisation. Because if you play your cards right, you’ll get it. Ah ha! And then you don’t have to go back there .. never goin’ back again….. What does playing your cards right mean? Stop trying to find solutions. Live in the moment and allow the solution to appear. And because it’s Saturn and Ceres, we arrive at ways of thinking that are supportive on the material plane (Saturn) and that nourish us (Ceres).

See how easy that was?

That’s because we got out of our heads, which are very, very, very … did I say very? conditioned into thinking about things in logical and rational ways. Which lead us to logical and rational solutions. Which haven’t worked up till now. If they had, we wouldn’t be back here again.

The thing that’s becoming very apparent is that logical and rational solutions arrived out without intuitive, inspirational and emotional input are crazy. People who are not in touch with some sort of spiritual intelligence within themselves are appearing more and more … well, insane. The level of delusion and projection required to keep up the defences and protection is getting extreme.

So we leave the evil monster in our minds and find ourselves at Mars and Nemesis in the Gate of Contemplation in the Throat Centre. Joining Pluto in the Gate of Behaviour. Much of our current issues arise from being overly concerned with the behaviour of others. Forget them! Get on with being in love with yourself. The ones you don’t want in you life will fade out stage left. The rest love you more than they could ever say.

I’ve been feeling this energy so strongly in my heart and my body. Sometimes, over the past few days, I’ve thought I was having a heart attack. I’ve never been so aware of my open G Centre.

in love
Kim Gould
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PS. Here’s a ridiculous story. In our village (which has a very real drug problem) a wonderful skate park was built for the kids about 2 years ago. It’s never opened because it was made with metal rather than concrete and is so noisy the neighbours can’t bear it. (I’m not even going to try to explain the politics behind that chain of decisions).

So it’s barricaded closed. The kids break in and use it most days after school. In our small country town there’s not much else to do. These are great kids, doing the best they can with the little they have.

Today, first day of the school holidays, a welder was sent in to put bars on the ramps to make them unusable. All the kids stood outside, skateboards under their arms, watching the only healthy activity available to them being made inaccesible. Insane! I’ve suggested they put up a sign on the fence saying “oh well, back to selling crack!”. (Not so far from the truth here).

A bit of sound proofing would solve the problem but it’s not happening. The kids will find a way around it, they’ve been finding creative solutions for 2 years now.

Mars and Pluto in the Channel of Awakening

Kim Gould — Sun, 12 Jul 2009 05:22:05 +0000

When Mars goes into Gate 20 tomorrow it’s going to hook up with Pluto in the Gate of Behaviour. Mars and Pluto together can be very destructive. It’s the personal will resisting divine will. It’s the small toddler, in an adult body, screaming and lashing out in pain, desperate for relief but not knowing where to look for help.

But this is Mars in the Gate of Contemplation. It gives us the courage and will (Mars) to make a profound shift to living in the moment (gate 20), to allow the transformation (Pluto) in our own behaviour (Gate 10) to align with out soul identity and direction (G Centre) so that we can connect with others without loss of our own individuality (Channel of Awakening).

This is a time when you lead others to a better life simply through demonstrating your love of being yourself and your complete acceptance of your humanity. Mars gives us the energy and the strength to go through any trials, any fire, any hell in order to be truly connected to our universal power.

This is a time when you may have incredible clarity into ways that you are not caring for yourself. And ways that you choose to care for others because caring for yourself might just prove to be too painful, to bring up memories of times when you were entitled to expect care and it didn’t show up.

If you find yourself trying to get others to do things, get a mirror out and have a chat with the person staring back at you. If you’re trying to get others to give you permission to be yourself, take a moment to give that permission yourself. This is about YOUR recognition of self through behaviour that naturally flows from universal principles.

Like the Venus/Pluto hook up we’ve just completed, it’s likely that the first few days may be a bit rough as we get our training wheels off and try out our new awakened selves. Be forgiving. You’re a spiritual warrior and it’s not always going to look pretty. Not that Mars is worried about a bit of blood between the toes, so long as the battle is won.

There’s a few other players in the Gate of Contemplation.

Aphrodite - who once had an adulterous affair with Ares (Mars). Aphrodite is the energy of being struck by love, beauty and desire. This seductive energy is likely to keep us enthralled with what is happening in the moment and unable or unwilling (Mars) to put our attention elsewhere. Or keeping us out of a true moment by moment relationship with ourselves due to bright shiny things, very beautiful and desirable bright shiny things, that keep drawing our attention away.
Nemesis - feeling trapped by our own humanity and by the constant use of our will against ourselves. Feeling that others won’t leave us alone. Look to our own willfulness, our own need for control and inability to allow a dissolution of ego power based struggles.
Thereus - using our relationships to bring us status and glamour. Giving ourselves up to the glamour of our desires in a way that leads to dissolution of our distinct individual selves.
Altijira - confusion of work/self as opposed to a strong sense of dharma and spiritual purpose.

An interesting little foursome! There’s a strong theme of loss of self through being seduced by our own Martian (masculine) desire, wanting to overpower and control that which we desire in order to keep hold of it, not lose it. Creating a sense of identity from what we lack rather than from what we have. And a definite taste of discovering a new spiritual direction.

Let’s go back to Mars and Pluto, traditionally seen as the personal will and the divine will. Essentially this is a realignment of our ego self to our divine self, in a three pronged approach of work, relationship, and general willfulness in our relationship to ourselves.

The rage of the betrayed and abused ancient goddess (Lilith) is conjunct the Sun in Gate 62, telling us that rather than vent our rage at those we blame for past wrongs, we should focus on what’s good right now, and eventually things will resolve themselves. Lilith represents the positive ways we have to deal with our unexpressed rage, to rebirth our dispossessed selves. We are grounded through this process by the Earth in Gate 61, personal empowerment that comes from connecting with our own numinous inner mystery.

Remember that Saturn is conjunct Typhon (the terrifying monster of our nightmares) in the Gate of Oppression. Remember too, that the Gate of Oppression is in the Ajna Centre, in other words, in our minds. Ceres, the great nourishing mother is there as well. When we connect with her positive aspects of differentiated support rather than the all consuming powerful archetypal smothering mother (which looks like loving care but is not), we are well clear of the nightmare.