The best word to describe this year is “challenging.” I feel exhausted. My limits — physically, mentally and emotionally — were tested. But I can’t really complain (I’m not sure if I am complaining, actually) because this is what I wanted before the year started. I wanted something that would shake me, take me out of my comfort zone. Do I want the same thing for next year? I don’t think I’m ready to answer that yet.
What I do want to achieve next year is mindfulness. Achieve doesn’t seem like the right word but if you know me, you’d know that actually doing that will be quite a feat. But I’m determined to do it. I feel over the place, so I don’t think I have a choice but to try being focused and centered.
So, how do I actually plan on accomplishing that goal? Well, I have quite a list, to be honest. But I think it all boils down to what I spend my time on. We use that term a lot — “spend time on” but I don’t think many of us realize its gravity. I know I didn’t. But I’m more than willing to change my mindset. I’ve actually started trying already.
A couple of weeks ago, my friend Rae sent me a link to a Buzzfeed video where they tried to copy the morning and evening routines of famous CEOs. I didn’t think I could do it when she first shared it with me, to be honest. But I’m now on my second day of trying it. I can’t say I’m succeeding at it. Waking up early is hard, especially when you live somewhere cold. But I’m trying. And I plan to continue doing so until I can, until I’m no longer trying and it’s already something I’m accustomed to doing.
This (as in writing and posting this) is part of the plan to invest my time on things that are worthwhile (to me). And I know I say this every end of the year, but I really do plan on making something out of this space. I’ve already said it so many times, I’m tired of hearing myself already. So I plan on not hearing myself say the same thing again next year.