whatever it takes.

Way back.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Sun, 07 Jul 2013 17:44:00 +0000

What would you do if your past is the cause of your loved one's pain?

To see them in pain..to see them hurting themselves over the pain.

And there's nothing you can do about it.. There's no point apologizing.

To be reminded of what you've done. Of the period you're afraid to go back into.

To grieve back in time but of a completely opposite reason.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Wed, 13 Mar 2013 17:29:00 +0000

Everyone needs a man cave.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Sat, 09 Feb 2013 15:27:00 +0000

What I really want for my birthday this year is..happiness.

Every night, I feel tired of life, of trying to be happy.

If I could wish for anything, it would be just these.

Maybe I need something new in life.

Something to live for, idk. I don't know what I need.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Sun, 13 Jan 2013 13:27:00 +0000

Dr. Gregory House: I've made a decision... Being happy and being in love with you... makes me a crappy doctor.
Dr. Lisa Cuddy: Shut up! You're too drunk to end this relationship.
Dr. Gregory House: I am drunk, and I am also right. You have made me a worse doctor, and people are going to die because of that... and you... are totally worth it. If I had to choose between... between saving everyone or loving you, being happy. I choose you. I choose being happy with you. I will always choose you.

Responsibilities.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Tue, 08 Jan 2013 13:16:00 +0000

Everyone holds so many responsibilities.

Family, friends, religion, work, etc.

You just can't be the best in every one.

One I fail so miserably...being responsible to myself, my life..

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Wed, 02 Jan 2013 16:05:00 +0000

Rejecting doesn't make one lonely you.

I do feel lonely as well...

Why do I feel guilty?

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Fri, 14 Dec 2012 17:36:00 +0000

Not appropriate for a tweet or a status update.

So I'll just blog it off my chest.

Everyone has to know that they are amazing.

Some people may reject your affection. Please don't start calling mean names and the hate game.

If they don't have feelings for you, its probably not meant to be.

They are great, they will grow to become even greater men. Sometimes, its just not meant to be.. Maybe its not the right time, neither the right person. They need to move on.....for that right person.

Move on for your HER. It will be worth it.

Motivation boost

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Tue, 20 Nov 2012 16:14:00 +0000

Today, my lecturer decided to have a one to one talk with us while the others waited in the other room.

This lecturer is different from any lecturers. Unexplainable.

We talked for about 15 minutes about why I'm progressing slow, etc.

Why I'm blogging this is because I feel motivated again.

He said I'm talented. Very talented. He stressed on it.

I've always and will always doubt this. I know I'm far from it.

But it makes me happy.

Thank you :)

Midnight thoughts.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Sun, 18 Nov 2012 17:29:00 +0000

"If u fall for a second person while in a relationship, choose the second one cuz if you really love the first one u won't fall for the second one"

I've seen this everywhere. I think, people will always fall for anyone, anytime. But if you really love the first one, you will make it work, whatever it takes.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Mon, 16 Jul 2012 17:30:00 +0000

Anything that has no due should not be rushed. It took me years to learn this, yet I have not perfected it. My weakest point.. That is who I was and if my wrong decisions have taught me to change now then I've no regrets of all my wrong decisions in the past if it makes me a better person now. It is not pretty, ugly stains everywhere, visible for everyone to see. I feel worthless, comparing myself with any other. Every single night in the dark, I feel terrible of myself. Every night, I tell myself not to involve anyone. And every day, I fail. It haunts me even in my dreams. If i'm not able to accept and forgive myself, why would anyone who doesn't know me better than I do, would?

I wish I'm emotionless.

I'm not sadistic. Why judge me on my weakness? I've never had any intention to hurt anyone.

Just..

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Mon, 06 Feb 2012 18:06:00 +0000

I'm not blaming anyone for this. I allowed it to happen and I shall accept whatever the consequences are. I could have chosen for a better path but I'm not allowing myself to. The idea might have stayed awhile but I'm not attempting, but just leaving marks.. It could be a relief, a scream or just my own reminder.

Recap; 2011

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Fri, 06 Jan 2012 10:47:00 +0000

Inspired by Syaza to do a recap on year 2011 post :)

Last year has definitely been very different from previous years. Being 18 was no doubt not easy due to all the huge changes, choices and decision-making, time management, etc etc BUT I survived and I'm proud to say that I've nothing to regret! :) Though I did not do the best I could have did, I have 2012 :))

Got my driving license

Failed once :( I still remember how down I was. LOL. Big big smile after I passed all three stages. :D Though..not that I drive often anywhere anyway.

First working experience :)

Went for job-hunting and the last job I applied was at Shepherdoo which I spent my 3 months there :) Work starts at 5pm till after midnight. During the job interview with the manager, he said I just applied for the hardest job. Definitely not easy when customers pay for service charge, and the amount of people during the weekend is just crazy especially Valentine's Day! Nevertheless I enjoyed working there and it was the best experience ever. I've learned soooo many things :)

College!

*photo courtesy of BLHJ

After months and months to over a year of thinking and discussing with family on either accountancy or design, I finally made my own decision to go for design :)) It was the 'rightest' choice everrrr and I'm glad that in the end they supported me :) I could totally imagine myself failing every paper if I've did otherwise.

Joined the dark side.

Not gonna leave. Def an i- now.

First DSLR :)

Got this on 0306. I dedicated a post for my belovedddd. Still lovin' it :)

Terengganu (Study Trip)

Stayed at Ri-Yaz Heritage. I'm grateful Sunway University helped us by subsidizing our trip :) It was a nice experience (first time staying at a 5 star resort, getting to know art cultures and histories) and great bonding with my course mates.

Second lens!

Got this after I got back from the Terengganu trip :)) One of the best lens everrrrr.

Other than all that, I think I spent most of my time rushing on assignments and all those sleepless nights. Spent so much this year especially on printing and art materials which most of them I've to throw now or else my room looks like a store room.

I think thats all :)

I've also started a 366 blog;

www.threesixtysixdegrees.blogspot.com

Thanks for reading! ;)

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Sat, 17 Dec 2011 07:38:00 +0000

Last semester was terrible. Semester break started. Making good use of time :) Unlike the previous semester break. Practicing on my photography skill, reading books <3, learning stuffs that girls at this age are suppose to know. Lol. Wants to spend time with family when I'm home too but idk :/ Oh wellz.

2011 is coming to an end. Make every single day a memorable one :)
Have a good day, everyone!

Random blah.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Mon, 10 Oct 2011 08:19:00 +0000

Oh I was just thinking of the Terengganu trip while doing my assignment and I remember across the resort that we stayed, there are neon lighted trees like the ones in I-City. but they only have a few trees. The next day we passed by the place the trees are all down on the ground. It must be the monsoon. So sadd. KTata.

So much blog mojo.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Sat, 01 Oct 2011 15:58:00 +0000

I've so much to blog. Most are delayed since super long. So I am thinking whether to blog about it, which takes time too, which at the end i decided it's too long ago. I want to blog about the trip but so lazehhh. I haven't even upload the pictures on Facebook. Which I hope I will not decide to not upload. Wherezz the kick?! Anyway, I want to thank some people around me for helping me when they could easily not. I'm so blessed :')
I've now have my own lappy to do my work and ...blog :P Not to forget a new lens for the cam. Lovin it <3 I'm really grateful. Promise I won't take things for granted.

Gahhh all my babies. Okaythankyougoodbye.

Penny for your thought.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Tue, 20 Sep 2011 12:31:00 +0000

Look at the comment at the chatbox! That encouraged me to update! Okay so I'm finding for an interesting photo to upload while thinking of interesting stuffs to type. I cut my bangs this afternoon! I was so bored so I cut straight bangs IDK what you call it bleh. Graphic Design assignment is not going well, i'm worried :( OH! And I'm going Terengganu this coming Monday. So exciteddddd. It was supposed to be ~RM500 for everything excluding food but the Uni subsidized the trip so we only have to pay half of it. Its such a steal for a 5 star resort. Yay BYE!

Is this pasta bothering you?

Sheez.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Tue, 13 Sep 2011 07:01:00 +0000

It's sad when life has to be about money money money. Without money, you can't get experiences to be more creative, more knowledgeable, and everything else. Without money, you can't get better stuffs cuz good materials are always expensive. You can't do trial and error. Its okay if money is only to have a better lifestyle but the case when money can let you experience, that's really sad.

Nightmare

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Sat, 10 Sep 2011 16:36:00 +0000

Hey there, i think this is like the second dream that really really scares me off that i can remember the whole dream. So it started off like this; i was innthe car with my college friends and one of them was fetching a few of us back home so she was asking me some questions (i was at the back seat) and she looked at me. I saw a red car infront, very near. And this is when my dream went slow motion. My friend hit the break button and i can feel the pressure. It felt so real.i kept waiting for the 'hit' but my dream was really that slowmo. I felt myself pulling my friend while i shut my eyes hard. The thing that scares me is not the death but feeling the pressure. Everything was so vivid. I remember enough details. I woke up before the 'accident'. Stunned for few minutes and started tearing. I was feeling very tired and everytime i was going to fall asleep, i find myself quickly opening my eyes. Everything was okay after few minutes. And now i'm so paranoid when people drive really close.

I thought it was dinky.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Tue, 23 Aug 2011 11:18:00 +0000

Oh yeaaah. My results for sem 1. Got an A for english and principles of design 2d. The rest 3 subjects are B's. Not as satisfying but I'm thankful :) Hopefully this sem will be better to bring up my overall percentage. Thinking bout the assignments pressures me. AFFECT OF THINKING TOO MUCH D:<

Butter Cookies :)

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Thu, 21 Jul 2011 18:12:00 +0000

Credits to Sherlyn for her butter cookies recipe. Yay, it was a success. Its easy peasy lemon squeezy! All you need is just an oven.

Mr Haareh

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Thu, 21 Jul 2011 06:16:00 +0000

Mr Harry, my computer graphics lecturer is leaving soon :( A very friendly lecturer. I emailed him an attachment of my assignment without a word and he replied me Thanks May Yee... Have a great holiday ahead... :). Which lecturer would take the time to do that :( MUST TAKE PICTURE WITH HIM ON WEDNESDAY. Ng family! Woohoo.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Sun, 17 Jul 2011 08:59:00 +0000

We were so bored we planned a last minute plan, friends came to Klang :D Met them at Aeon. The taxi they took from Uni to Aeon is only RM25 :O Not bad eh?, cool cool. While waiting for Helena, we took pictures. Hehe. Lazy to upload here, so go to my profile if you want to see. Nice grandmother mmhm.

Headed to Boston, YAY. Waited for our food for an hour thirty minutes but I still feel it's worth the wait :) The first dish was so fail. We planned to take picture of all the dishes but after finishing it up in 3 minutes only comes to realization.

WX came to fetch me and went to 1986 Cafe--Shanmuga for high school gathering. Pictures on Facebook. Klazytoblogbye.

Believe.

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Sat, 16 Jul 2011 06:30:00 +0000

Aren't you suppose to be advising people instead of forcing or 'threatening'? I'm starting to dislike the people. They make me feel that what I'm believin all these while is fake. The more you're forcing me, the more pressured I feel. In fact I don't even feel like going anymore at all. I go, I know what will happen and as expected, it happens. I feel like changing place. A place that is different from this.

jacksfilms;

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Thu, 07 Jul 2011 18:34:00 +0000

Lonely night ~

noreply@blogger.com (May Yee) — Thu, 07 Jul 2011 18:10:00 +0000

Sitting on the edge of my bed with the laptop on the table drinking strawberry yogurtdrink feeling fat and unhappy wants to finish up my assignment and start studying but yet don't feel like it because I have the urge to blog but still sitting on the edge of my bed with the laptop and a few mouth left of the strawberry yogurtdrink I can't think of anything worth blogging because my life is boring and I finished reading Mini Shopaholic by Sophie Kinsella and ayam saddingz cuz it was such a great book I wished it never ended. Just a moment ago while I was watching some videos on youtube I wished I have a digital camera eventhough I already have a dslr and right away I felt guilty though it was just a thought and I never actually intended to buy one. Certainly I do have a greedy mind :( Monday and Tuesday I'll be having exam and Thursday I'll be having my final presentation so all the best to me. Donate some luck(s) to me though I don't believe in luck its still fun to do so. Goodnight world. I'll be blogging as soon as those ling gan and the kicks come to me.