I saw this time-lapse video of a snowstorm.

Although I find it really awesome, I don’t think I’d want to live in a place that has snowstorms. I’ll be too cold and freeze and die.
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Well, I’ll probably stay at home and curl up in front of a fireplace or something. I won’t even attempt to step outside without being wrapped in 10 jackets. I did find out that there are such things called outdoor fireplaces like this Celestial Fire Dome.

I want to get one like that if ever I end up living in a cold country.

Speaking of freezing, I need to bring to work a thicker blanket. I think it’s getting colder and colder in the office lately. I wish they’d turn the air conditioner off once in a while. My jacket + blanket isn’t working effectively anymore.

I don’t even know where to start. Someone told me before to divide my room in parts and then clean up part by part. That’s easy to do, but I’ll probably (like I usually do) clean one part and dump it to another part, and then so on.

I’m imagining this would take at least a week.

And there’s one thing (among other things) that I’ve really been wanting to have in my room. I want a rug. Even a href=”http://www.rugshowplace.com”>discount rugs would be fine. It doesn’t have to be fancy, because most likely Taba’s hair will be all over it. But yeah, I really want to have a rug.

I’ll have to replace my curtains. They’ve been there for over a year. I’ll also be doing repairs in my room here and there.

Hopefully, I diligently do all these. I know it’s still about 3 weeks but I figure I should start considering my mind about this major clean up.

23 Days to go…

I was wrong.

Ever since I formally submitted it, the people who thought I was joking is now saying that they’re gonna miss me. Other team leaders are asking me why, and to ‘fess up with my real reason for resigning. My former boss treated me to my favorite hand-pulled noodles and said that since he fed me, he’s going to tear up my resignation letter.

I formally submitted my resignation letter on the 2nd of February, but my team leader asked if I was willing to leave earlier, on the 28th, 4 days before the end of the 30-day notice. I agreed. Doesn’t sound something like they’re willing to let me go? Willing to let me go early, for that matter. And now people are stopping me left and right

They’re trying to stop me but they’re not giving me a good reason to stay. Usually companies who don’t want their employee to leave would at least offer something, right? A payraise, or improvement of processes, a promotion… nothing. Nothing at all. Not that I’m wanting anything. Not that if they throw something at me, I’d just take it. But nothing at all. It’s so sad.

Anyway, one thing that I’m worried about leaving is my gym membership. I’m thinking of asking one of the TLs I gymmed with if she could kind of like have me as her friend so I can continue my gym at least for another 3 months. How I wish I could just have my own workout equipment here at home. I want a treadmill, even the cheapest one that could come with a nordictrack promotion code would do fine. But I guess I’ll have to settle with walking from one place to another now.

Ah… well, I’ll be updating if I get anymore problems about leaving. Today while I was at the gym, my current TL told me that my former TL tore up my resignation letter. I told her I never agreed to any retraction. *sigh* Let’s see how it goes. I really hope she was just joking.

I’ve mentioned over and over again about my plans of getting some rest. Like a month or two of rest. And then I’ll get another job. Is it wrong of me too much to be confident that I’ll be able to get a job when I decide that I want to work again?

My friend in Michigan told me that the unemployment rate there is double digit (more than 10%). He’s been unemployed for some years now. I looked it up again recently and I read that it had gone down, however it was also mentioned that a big chunk of that is because a lot of people have moved to another state. A Boston job search would definitely be different from a Detroit job search or a Los Angeles job search.

I sometimes feel guilty that I have a job because some people don’t. I sometimes feel guilty knowing that I’ll be able to get a job in the field I prefer pretty easily. I might not be able to start soon on where I want to work, but I know I’ll be able to get it.

I’ve also loaned out a lot of money to people and with this pending plan to stop working for a couple of weeks, I’ll need to gather all my resources so that I won’t be too much of a freeloader at home. I also need spending money.

Aargh.. need to be more aggressive in collection -_-;

Not here in the Philippines. But in other places. I hear my friends online talk about how cold it is where they are. One of them said they don’t even get snow, only ice. It’s funny that here I am snuggling in my warm blanket because my air conditioner keeps my room cold that I need a blanket. But I can’t stand it if it’s hot in my room. I’m even tempted to look for heated blankets. I just don’t know where to find them here.

Maybe Baguio? Taba keeps me warm when I’m about to sleep. He’s furry and smelly though, not that I mind. Lately he’s been staying with me until I fall asleep too. He’s not beside me anymore when I wake up though. Sometimes he’s at my feet or under the bed.

I’ve lowered the thermostat to 6 now. It’s 1-9, 9 the coldest. If I put it on 5, it gets … not cold enough.

I was chatting with my friend from Japan and she mentioned that she found one of the guys working at the convenience store near her place really cute. She said she wanted to try looking him in the eye but she really couldn’t. Then she mentioned about Valentine’s Day approaching. In Japan, Valentine’s Day is mainly big on girls giving chocolates to guys. I suggested giving that guy some chocolate. She’s worried that he’ll see her eye wrinkles and get scared. *lol*

Maybe I should have just sent her wrinkle-removers. I sent her earrings and she just received them yesterday.

Same as what I have. I bought 2 sets. She just received them yesterday. Hopefully she could find a chance to wear it. I’ll be really happy if one day I watch a video of her somewhere and see her wearing the earrings I sent.

I feel like I’ve been eating nonstop for the past three days. Seriously. I feel like if I lie on my tummy right now my body can be used as a see-saw, like my tummy can be a fulcrum already. I’m hardly even eating at home! but the days I’ve been out… it really feels like I just went out to eat. Food is just so good. Today I’m going out again. I’m going to meet with my brother to return my netbook to him (I’m lending it to him, but I borrowed it for yesterday, so now lending it again) and then this evening I’ll be meeting with Loraine. Ohhh… I should control myself. Next thing I know is I’m looking up fda approved diet pills again because I’m too lazy to go to the gym to burn off everything I ate.

Just a rambling. I’m going to take a nap.

And so I went and conquered Corregidor yesterday. Man, I’m so tired. We were even planning to go to Ocean Park after it but we were so exhausted we just wanted to go home when we got back to Manila.

Now on to the damages.

Financial Damage:
The travel package was P1999 from Sun Cruises.
Lights and Sound show is an addition P150. This is optional and it lasts for 30 minutes. But what are you going to do in a remote place for 30 minutes? You also won’t get to go inside the historical Malinta tunnel with out it, so it’s going to end up a requirement. I paid for my brother so it’s P300 total.
I wanted to buy souvenirs but I ran out of cash. Good thing the place where we ate accepted credit cards. The keychains I got were P175 each. I got 2, so that’s P350 in total.
When we got back to Manila, I wanted to thank my brother for coming with me even if he had work that same night, so I treated him to dinner. We ate at Sizzling Pepper Steak amounting to P620.
We met at Ministop in the morning and I bought Silvanas, Powerade, and candies = P98.
Random transportation fares that I paid for:
Jeepney from house to train station = P7 x 2 = P14
Cab from Pureza LRT2 station to the bay = P100
Cab from the bay to Recto LRT2 station = P100

Weight Damage
Lunch was a buffet with Menudo, Roasted Chicken, Leche Flan, Buttered Vegetables. Minestrone, Pandan juice, and my favorite of the day, SEAFOOD PAELLA!
The damage here is to my tummy. :( And to my weight.

Tiredness
Well… I’m sooo tired and sleepy.

I read some phentermine reviews and this one uses caffeine to raise the heart rate for fat burning purposes. But a lot of people drink coffee and other caffeinated drinks anyway right? Maybe I should just drink espresso everyday.

So much being a tourist. My camera’s battery died out on me in the last hour of the trip :( I need to buy a spare battery.

Another thing I’m worried about is my headache. I’ve had this headache since yesterday at work and I’ve already gone home and slept and woken up but I still have my headache. I feel like I need some energizing. I was looking around if there were safe energizer supplements and guess what I found? There’s this supplement called Stimerex ES that gives an energy boost AND burns fat. I don’t know how they intend to make it work since I couldn’t bother reading everything since it’s almost 5am and I should get going soon instead of blogging, but I think that is an awesome thing that I should check out.

Anyways, my friend said it’s a ferry, not a ship.

While I was thinking of what to write here, I kept saying to myself, “I have no motivation. I have no motivation.” I kept uttering it to myself, as if saying a mantra. Not that it would do me any good, but I just somehow ended up saying it over and over again. I couldn’t think of anything–a topic, a gimmick–anything at all.

Until it clicked in. I could just write about how I have no motivation at all. I don’t want to go to work anymore. I don’t want to blog anymore. I don’t want to think about things anymore. I want some things. I want money, I want to meet with my friend, I want to share my thoughts and ideas to the world… but for what purpose?

Someone tried to be philosophical with me and told me that it’s the journey, not the destination, that matters. But the end justifies the means.

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I guess.

I know I just posted my New Year’s “Resolutions” but I feel that it’s such a great big effort. Like for getting thin, I still keep on looking at reviews to find out what are the best weight loss pills because I have to admit that I’m still being lazy with going to the gym. I know I have to think that I paid a lot for the monthly membership for the gym, but I don’t really have the time. Or rather, I’m not willing to lose 3 hours of sleep to go to work. I get really cranky when I lack sleep and being in the Escalations team, it’s not a good idea to be cranky.

Anyways, the Corregidor trip is tomorrow. I’m excited! I’ve never been on a boat. Or a ship. Whatever the best term is…