Milligrams

Sleep!

Mo — Sat, 14 Apr 2012 14:07:10 +0000

I think I’ve broken out of the caffeine spiral of drinking coffee to wake up, losing all kinds of sleep, then getting anxious from the next morning’s ritual of drinking too much coffee to become alert. The huge French press that I use for iced decaf helped immensely, as did, possibly, the small dose of [...]

Hell Yes, Iced Decaf

Mo — Fri, 13 Apr 2012 01:03:00 +0000

The headaches haven’t been too bad, though that’s probably because I do doctor myself with a little caffeine here and there across the day. I’m here to preach it: Iced Decaf Coffee, the nectar of the gods. Cools you down, I think there’s a placebo (or is it Pavlovian?) response to wake up a little, [...]

My Caffeine Withdrawal Part … oh god … 1

Mo — Thu, 29 Mar 2012 01:17:10 +0000

Without much in the way of caffeine, I see the world as seemingly very inconsequential. I’m so detached I nearly crash into people on the subway platform (Or I’m just more scared to crash into another person, my shrink would say). I’m sluggish, though not so much upstairs, in the legs, the muscles, the propulsion [...]

One Less Med

Mo — Sat, 24 Mar 2012 19:33:57 +0000

Caffeine …. Goodbye for now. I mean, we’ll see each other every now and then, but really, this is the beginning of the end. You make me hot in the summer and increase anxiety and sweating to no end. You’re getting harsher, too. Is it the trend toward stronger and stronger coffee, or am I [...]

Intuniv is

Mo — Wed, 21 Mar 2012 19:20:18 +0000

This Intuniv stuff is strange. I want to know what this med is thinking. Where’s it coming from, what’s its angle? Because so far I’ve only gotten the moderately rare side effects of dry mouth and loss of appetite. I want to live in the future. I want to live in the time where you [...]

Intuniv side effects and how they’re pretty good in the end

Mo — Sat, 17 Mar 2012 04:17:20 +0000

I hit my first wall of side effects today, the culmination of 8 days on Intuniv. What a weird drug. I haven’t gone and done any kind of responsible research on the stuff, just popped them in the mouth as soon as I got home from the CVS. Tightness in head dry mouth zero appetite [...]

Fashion Victim

Mo — Tue, 13 Mar 2012 00:09:36 +0000

I’m starting to wonder whether I’m just another psychopharmacological fashion victim. Bipolar, adult ADD. Abilify, Welbutrin, Lamictal, and now an ADD med. Just a cliche, or this century’s plague? According to my mother, I was hyperfocused as a kid, and last month she laughed off the possibility that I could have ADHD now. I don’t [...]

Intuniv

Mo — Mon, 12 Mar 2012 02:34:14 +0000

Looks pretty unassuming. Not like some of the giant tangled molecules we take daily. Say hi to Intuniv. Abilify has a challenger for worst-named med. It’s also a med you’ve never heard of, I assume. I’d not heard of it until my pdoc prescribed it to me last Tuesday. It’s part of the pre-teen world [...]

Will work for work

Mo — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 02:43:05 +0000

I used to read LifeHacker and still like it, and I briefly followed Merlin Mann’s talks. I nearly got overtaken by productivity pr0n. Since this is the highest form of procrastination (putting off doing something by preparing to do it indefinitely), I was, of course, drawn to its awesome power. I didn’t do anything the [...]

Forged in Retail

Mo — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 09:53:21 +0000

It’s nature plus nurture, it’s genes expressing themselves within a particular environment, it’s ending up like your parents. We’ve both got something that’s gone wrong with our heads, my mom and I, and have each shuffled through several medications to squash it, whatever it is (something on the bipolar spectrum). In the meantime, something must [...]