Miracle Prayer & A Course In Miracles

The War Against Myself Is Over

2009-01-03T20:16:00.000-08:00

As long as one brother is asleep the dream, there is a justification to kill. This is not about a world out there. This is about your individual decision only. And I am done.

I felt like posting this:

TOWARDS A MIRACLE IN THE MIDDLE EAST
By Marianne Williamson

Today is a day to cry for Israel. Today is a day to cry for the Palestinians. Today is a day to cry for all of us.

Today is a day of war.

War anywhere, at this point in our history, is an action that threatens peace everywhere. Particularly when it comes to the Middle East. From its spiritual significance to its political significance, it is humanity's hot spot. It always has been and probably it always will be. It's where all the rivers of human perspective meet, to become either a cauldron of hatred or an ocean of love.

While it might be tempting to “take sides” between Israel and the Palestinians, spiritually there are no sides to be taken. God does not give us victory in battle but rather lifts us above the battlefield. As a generation, our moral imperative to end war period, to somehow move beyond the idea that war is an acceptable means of solving problems. Anything less then that makes us attitudinal conspirators with a line of probability leading to nuclear catastrophe.

According to Swiss psychologist Carl Jung, humanity's biggest problems cannot be solved; they must be outgrown. Our task is to create a field of consciousness in which the idea of war has dropped from the ethers.

So how do we outgrow war?

The first thing we do is to accept the possibility that the end of war is possible. In fact, in the words of Congressman Dennis Kucinich, “we must challenge the belief that war is inevitable.” We must embrace the possibility that a world without war could exist.

Secondly, we must mature beyond the belief that the thinking that got us into this mess can lead us out of it. “The problems of the world will not be solved on the level of thinking we were at when we created them,” wrote Einstein. We must realize that the mortal ego will not provide us with a solution, because it itself is the problem. Notions such as, “The Israelis have a right to defend themselves,” and “The Palestinians have taken so much abuse; what do you expect them to do?” are both insidious drivers of war masquerading as principled stands. They keep us attached to the very duality that is the root of separation and war.

On a spiritual level, our greatest service to both Israelis and Palestinians is to reach for a higher truth within our own minds. For an essential principle of metaphysical reality is that all minds are joined; as any of us are drawn to higher thoughts, then all of us are drawn to higher thoughts. As we ourselves embrace a higher truth, we help create an anti-gravitational force field that lifts all minds above separation, hatred and war.

For all our talk about wanting to be the change, how many of us are siding now against one side or the other in the current Mid-East conflict. If you really want to help the situation there, ask God to remove from your heart any judgment you have against the Israelis or the Palestinians. Any thought of judgment you hold is like a gun that you yourself are firing.

The human race is evolving to the realization that what is happening on the level of consciousness both precedes and determines what happens in the world. War is just an effect, not a cause. With the power of our minds, we can move beyond the level of effect to the level of cause. There, and only there, can we wipe out what President Franklin Roosevelt called the “beginnings of all war.”

As Americans, we have a creed --- a set of principles enshrined and institutionalized in our founding documents. First and foremost among them is that “all men are created equal.” Period. End of story. Don't be lured into thinking that either Israelis or Palestinians have been either the perfect innocents or the perfect victims here; such thinking serves neither. The greatest gift you can give to both is to realize that on a spiritual level, Israelis and Palestinians are one. Their only true reality is the reality of whom they are in this moment, freed from any thoughts of the past.

Complexity is of the ego; do not linger there. Of course there is a complicated history to the struggle currently playing out in the Middle East, and that complicated history has significance and relevance for traditional political formulation. So leave that to the traditional politicians. Our task as seekers and purveyors of a higher human consciousness is to move beyond traditional political notions, to a holistic politics that embraces the relevance of psychological and spiritual realities to the political issues of our time. As students of Gandhi and Dr. King, we know that moving beyond the violence in our own hearts is essential if we are to be conduits for the creation of a world at peace. The truly new politics goes beyond mere “post-partisan” hand-shaking and collaboration among former rivals. It takes us to a new kind of thinking as a basis for the creation of a new kind of world.

Traditionalists can call us naïve all they want to. But anyone who thinks that human hatred can simply be bombed away…they are naïve. Anyone who thinks we can continue to tolerate violence on this planet at ever-increasing levels and have such conflagrations not lead to the ultimate cataclysm of nuclear catastrophe… they are naïve. Anyone who thinks that the narrowness of a rationalistic, mechanistic human perspective can lead us out of the hell which that perspective itself has created…they are naïve. And those who see prayer as merely “symbol, not substance”… they are naïve. Prayer is hardly just symbol; it is a mover of hearts, and thus a mover of mountains.

Mountains we now need desperately to move.

Through the grace of God we are not powerless; according to A Course in Miracles, moving mountains is small compared to what we can do. War is at heart a spiritual problem and it can only be eradicated with a spiritual solution….a solution that lies within all of us.

Martin Luther King Jr. said there is a power in our hearts more powerful than the power of bullets. He described Mahatma Gandhi as the first person in the world to take the love ethic of Jesus Christ and turn it into a broad scale social force for good (To Gandhi himself, non-violence was not just the love ethic of Jesus, but rather the heart of all religion and the heart of reality itself). On today's geo-political landscape, we see hatred turned into a political force all around us; the politics of non-violence turns love into a political force. The question for any conscious human being, much less spiritual seeker, is, “How can I help do that?” Only the power in our hearts will be able to eradicate the idea of war, and then the reality of war from the experience of the human race.

According to Gandhi, the problem with the world was that humanity was not in its right mind. And arguably, we still are not. War, quite simply, is insane. For those of us who wish to be part of the solution, not part of the problem of war; it is time to change our own minds, to accept a healing of our own war-like thoughts, in order to create a new field of possibility. Whether dealing with the transformation of the individual or of the transformation of the world, only what is changed on the level of consciousness becomes a fundamental change in the conditions of the world.

For five minutes each day, be a spiritual activist.

You probably already know what to do. Turn off the TV; neither CNN, MSNBC or FOX know the news. They only know data.
Turn off the bright lights. Put down the newspaper. And go within.
However you do it, turn your attention to the God of your understanding. Surrender your own hatred, give over your own wars, and ask that this year you be lifted above the violence that still lives inside your heart.

With your eyes closed, see on one side of your inner vision the Israeli people. See their physicality, their mannerisms, as you recognize them on the material plane. Now see a light within their hearts, and slowly watch that light expand, extending beyond the confines of their bodies. See the bodies begin to fade before the greater light of their eternal selves.

Now with your inner eye look to the other side of your inner vision, and see there the Palestinian people. See their physicality, their mannerisms, as you recognize them on the material plane. Now see a light within their hearts, and slowly watch that light expand, extending beyond the confines of their bodies. See the bodies begin to fade before the greater light of their eternal selves.

Now using your inner eye - your greatest source of power -bear witness to what happens as the inner light of the Israelis begins to merge with the inner light of the Palestinians. Bear witness to the merging of their spiritual selves. Simply watch and focus, for what you focus on grows stronger.

You are bearing witness now to a higher truth, thus using the power of your mind to draw a heavenly truth into material manifestation. In the presence of higher thought forms, lower ones fall of their own dead weight. In the presence of light, darkness disappears. In the presence of eternal truth, temporal lies begin to fall away.

In the words of Dr. King, “No lie can last forever.” The idea that the Israeli and Palestinian people are truly separate, or have separate needs, is simply a lie of the mortal mind. Spiritually, we are all one. Israelis and Palestinians were created by the same God; in Him they are equal and they are joined eternally. Only thought forms have separated them. Thought forms of guilt and separation have been handed down to children born innocent of such lies, generation after generation; those are the true enemy here, not either group of people.

As any of us move beyond the fear-based thought forms of separation and guilt to the truth of our eternal oneness, it becomes easier for everyone else to do so as well. Let's give up the way-too-easy, so-American way of chiding either Israelis or Palestinians for their difficulty in forgiving the past. What both peoples have endured is almost unimaginable, and only the truly sainted among us should even for a minute consider judging either side.

We don't have to; and when in our own right minds, we don't want to.
Use the power of your mind to create a new possibility… a miracle in the Middle East.

As the poet Rumi wrote so eloquently, “Out beyond all ideas of right and wrong, there is a field. I'll meet you there.” So go there now. Such thoughts are not just poetry, or even symbol, any longer. In the world that's being born, they're the stuff of a new politics.

No more simply asking, “But what can I do?” Go even further, to “What can I think? What can I pray for? What can I meditate on?” Pray for the removal of all walls that separate any of us from any of us, not only on our earth but also in our minds. Pray for the removal of the guns that still fire within your own mind as you accuse or withhold your forgiveness from anyone. And pray that at this perilous hour, those of us whose lives have not been touched by the horrors of war can be of service to those whose lives have been.

Dear God, please deliver them.
And dear God, deliver us.

A COURSE IN MIRACLES UNLEASHED with LISA NATOLI

2008-09-02T12:56:00.000-07:00

Show starts September 8th!

A Course in Miracles Unleashed is "A Direct Encounter with Jesus Christ In the Evolution and Enlightenment of the Human Species."

Lisa is starting this incredible radio show. Please go to the website and tune in. She is so fun and I am sure you are going to have a blast. Don't miss it!

A Course In Miracles Unleashed

2008-08-30T16:46:00.000-07:00

This is incredible. A Course In Miracles is changing the world you see. Make sure you watch the movie. Get a copy @ http://www.acourseinmiraclesunleashed.com

Uncompromising Joel

2008-07-02T15:23:00.000-07:00

Prayer becomes effective when you do not pray for anything! That is the basic law of prayer. Anyone can receive answers to prayer as long as they will release themselves from human desires for personal good or personal gain.

It is trying to make a “house of merchandise” of God that interferes with prayer, asking for food for me or for you – or asking for clothing or housing in spite of the Master’s teaching that you shall not pray for what you shall eat or what you shall drink or wherewithal you shall be clothed – that you shall not take thought for things.

When you pray, pray only that the Kingdom of God be revealed to you. Pray that the will of God be revealed to you. Pray only that God’s Grace reveal Itself within you and let that prayer result in whatever form of good is within the realm of spiritual Grace.

Study & Meditation #49
From Joel Goldsmith
1960 Chicago Open Class (1:2A)
Tape 321 Side 2

I LOOOOOVE IT! Thanks Joel.

I call upon God's Name and on my own.

2008-07-01T17:26:00.000-07:00

This morning I got a call from a brother asking: What name should I use all through the day? God, Jehova, Abba, Father, Jim?

We were laughing together because if you are in the experience of God you could call him anything, like coat hanger for example. God is the BIG Name behind any form and so little things and names join in that ONE meaning.

And...what does it say in today's lesson?
Repeat the Name of God, and little names have lost their meaning. No temptation but becomes a nameless (!!!!) and unwanted thing before God's Name. Repeat His Name, and see how easily you will forget the names of all the gods you valued.

I love this lesson because there is no room to ever be in conflict or unhappy, because you literally will create an altar for truth, each time you turn to God.

Those who call upon the Name of God can not mistake the nameless for the Name, nor sin for grace, nor bodies for the holy Son of God. And should you join a brother as you sit with him in silence, and repeat God's Name along with him within your quiet mind, you have established there an altar which reaches to God Himself and to His Son.

I went with friends on the Wisconsin river today. I live here about 10 years, but I never rented a boat to go play on the river and it was the most beautiful thing.
So, we parked the boat on a little beach and my friend read today's lesson.
We had been in this quiet almost surreal space. Nobody was around. No boats, no people. All of the sudden while reading this passage of the lesson:

God's Name can not be heard without response(!!!!), nor said without an echo in the mind that calls you to remember.
....and there they where, at least 6 boats at once with everyone waving at us, big waves coming up the shore and just a lot of energy. Like EVERYTHING responded to this lesson. I am telling you soon on every airport, shopping mall or bus station there will be an hourly reminder of the daily lesson of A Course In Miracles coming over the speakers.
God thank you for this day. I love you.

7%

2008-06-23T15:31:00.000-07:00

A Swami was having a conversation with Lord Shiva one day and said:

'Lord, I would like to know what Heaven and Hell are like.

Lord Shiva led the Swami to two doors.

He opened one of the doors and the Swami looked in.
In the middle of the room was a large round table. In the middle of the table was a large pot of stew, which smelled delicious and made the Swami's mouth water.
The people sitting around the table were thin and sickly.
They appeared to be famished. They were holding spoons with very long handles that were strapped to their arms and each found it possible to reach into the pot of stew and take a spoonful.

But because the handle was longer than their arms, they could not get the spoons back into their mouths.

The Swami shuddered at the sight of their misery and suffering.

Lord Shiva said, 'You have seen Hell.

They went to the next room and opened the door. It was exactly the same as the first one. There was the large round table with the large pot of stew which made the holy man's mouth water. The people were equipped with the same long-handled spoons, but here the people were well nourished and plump, laughing and talking. The Swami said, 'I don't understand.'

'It is simple,' said Lord Shiva.

'It requires but one skill. You see they have learned to feed each other, while the greedy think only of themselves.'

When Lord Shiva created the world, He was thinking of you. It's estimated 93% won't forward this. If you are one of the 7% who will, forward this with the title '7%'.

I'm in the 7%

Remember that I will always share my spoon with you.

Thought this was a fun story and this my way t forward the message.
I love you.

HAVE A GREAT DAY

Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

2008-06-13T18:39:00.000-07:00

I was sitting this morning in my room reading today’s Lesson: Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

And I was praying to have a different day.

A day, that will open a new door for me.

I asked for a change---and: it did (it still surprises me when it happens).

This is also the reason I am writing this post. Well there isn’t really a reason I could define, I only know: I should. For my self. All my judgments aside. Like I really believe I am a bad and not very interesting writer. But I figure: just follow the instruction. Judgment is not my department.

It’s also when Dear One appeared, how he does EVERY time I need him. And THIS is that wants to be shared.

When I got the call at 11pm on Tuesday, May 20th about the transition of The Old Man, I have to admit that I wasn’t surprised. I actually gave him complete permission to leave for a while. The thing is though: he did not leave.-Or better: I am gone with him. He feels so much closer to me. He never was the identity I gave to him, when he was sitting in front of me every day --my way of separating my self from him. He came back as my self.

So, this morning I prayed for a change.

I had the most amazing day. Most of all I am grateful to todays lesson.

Let not my mind deny the thought of God.

Today I actually remembered the lesson a lot. Each time I would catch my self going into a judgment about someone, I applied it. Looking beyond. Having my gaze fixed on God. Not making up stories, but staying with the lesson. Staying present.

I LOVE IT!

There is a God.- and He is there for me. He does not judge me. He looks right at me disregarding my insanity completely. And so does Dear One and Jesus and my brother.
I was only mistaken about my self. And that is the lesson to "for-give".

My stroke of insight

2008-03-21T18:46:00.000-07:00

Read this(or watch the video)--it's very interesting.

I grew up to study the brain because I have a brother who has been diagnosed with a brain disorder, schizophrenia. And as a sister and as a scientist, I wanted to understand, why is it that I can take my dreams, I can connect them to my reality, and I can make my dreams come true -- what is it about my brother's brain and his schizophrenia that he cannot connect his dreams to a common, shared reality, so they instead become delusions?

So I dedicated my career to research into the severe mental illnesses. And I moved from my home state of Indiana to Boston where I was working in the lab of Dr. Francine Benes, in the Harvard Department of Psychiatry. And in the lab, we were asking the question, What are the biological differences between the brains of individuals who would be diagnosed as normal control, as compared to the brains of individuals diagnosed with schizophrenia, schizoaffective, or bipolar disorder?

So we were essentially mapping the microcircuitry of the brain, which cells are communicating with which cells, with which chemicals, and then with what quantities of those chemicals. So there was a lot of meaning in my life because I was performing this kind of research during the day. But then in the evenings and on the weekends I traveled as an advocate for NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness.

But on the morning of December 10 1996 I woke up to discover that I had a brain disorder of my own. A blood vessel exploded in the left half of my brain. And in the course of four hours I watched my brain completely deteriorate in its ability to process all information. On the morning of the hemorrhage I could not walk, talk, read, write or recall any of my life. I essentially became an infant in a woman's body.

If you've ever seen a human brain, it's obvious that the two hemispheres are completely separate from one another. And I have brought for you a real human brain. [Thanks.] So, this is a real human brain. This is the front of the brain, the back of the brain with a spinal cord hanging down, and this is how it would be positioned inside of my head. And when you look at the brain, it's obvious that the two cerebral cortices are completely separate from one another. For those of you who understand computers, our right hemisphere functions like a parallel processor. While our left hemisphere functions like a serial processor. The two hemispheres do communicate with one another through the corpus collosum, which is made up of some 300 million axonal fibers. But other than that, the two hemispheres are completely separate. Because they process information differently, each hemisphere thinks about different things, they care about different things, and dare I say, they have very different personalities. [Excuse me. Thank you. It's been a joy.]

Our right hemisphere is all about this present moment. It's all about right here right now. Our right hemisphere, it thinks in pictures and it learns kinesthetically through the movement of our bodies. Information in the form of energy streams in simultaneously through all of our sensory systems. And then it explodes into this enormous collage of what this present moment looks like. What this present moment smells like and tastes like, what it feels like and what it sounds like. I am an energy being connected to the energy all around me through the consciousness of my right hemisphere. We are energy beings connected to one another through the consciousness of our right hemispheres as one human family. And right here, right now, all we are brothers and sisters on this planet, here to make the world a better place. And in this moment we are perfect. We are whole. And we are beautiful.

My left hemisphere is a very different place. Our left hemisphere thinks linearly and methodically. Our left hemisphere is all about the past, and it's all about the future. Our left hemisphere is designed to take that enormous collage of the present moment. And start picking details and more details and more details about those details. It then categorizes and organizes all that information. Associates it with everything in the past we've ever learned and projects into the future all of our possibilities. And our left hemisphere thinks in language. It's that ongoing brain chatter that connects me and my internal world to my external world. It's that little voice that says to me, "Hey, you gotta remember to pick up bananas on your way home, and eat 'em in the morning." It's that calculating intelligence that reminds me when I have to do my laundry. But perhaps most important, it's that little voice that says to me, "I am. I am." And as soon as my left hemisphere says to me "I am," I become separate. I become a single solid individual separate from the energy flow around me and separate from you.

And this was the portion of my brain that I lost on the morning of my stroke.

On the morning of the stroke, I woke up to a pounding pain behind my left eye. And it was the kind of pain, caustic pain, that you get when you bite into ice cream. And it just gripped me and then it released me. Then it just gripped me and then released me. And it was very unusual for me to experience any kind of pain, so I thought OK, I'll just start my normal routine. So I got up and I jumped onto my cardio glider, which is a full-body exercise machine. And I'm jamming away on this thing, and I'm realizing that my hands looked like primitive claws grasping onto the bar. I thought "that's very peculiar" and I looked down at my body and I thought, "whoa, I'm a weird-looking thing." And it was as though my consciousness had shifted away from my normal perception of reality, where I'm the person on the machine having the experience, to some esoteric space where I'm witnessing myself having this experience.

And it was all every peculiar and my headache was just getting worse, so I get off the machine, and I'm walking across my living room floor, and I realize that everything inside of my body has slowed way down. And every step is very rigid and very deliberate. There's no fluidity to my pace, and there's this constriction in my area of perceptions so I'm just focused on internal systems. And I'm standing in my bathroom getting ready to step into the shower and I could actually hear the dialog inside of my body. I heard a little voice saying, "OK, you muscles, you gotta contract, you muscles you relax."

And I lost my balance and I'm propped up against the wall. And I look down at my arm and I realize that I can no longer define the boundaries of my body. I can't define where I begin and where I end. Because the atoms and the molecules of my arm blended with the atoms and molecules of the wall. And all I could detect was this energy. Energy. And I'm asking myself, "What is wrong with me, what is going on?" And in that moment, my brain chatter, my left hemisphere brain chatter went totally silent. Just like someone took a remote control and pushed the mute button and -- total silence.

And at first I was shocked to find myself inside of a silent mind. But then I was immediately captivated by the magnificence of energy around me. And because I could no longer identify the boundaries of my body, I felt enormous and expansive. I felt at one with all the energy that was, and it was beautiful there.

Then all of a sudden my left hemisphere comes back online and it says to me, "Hey! we got a problem, we got a problem, we gotta get some help." So it's like, OK, OK, I got a problem, but then I immediately drifted right back out into the consciousness, and I affectionately referred to this space as La La Land. But it was beautiful there. Imagine what it would be like to be totally disconnected from your brain chatter that connects you to the external world. So here I am in this space and any stress related to my, to my job, it was gone. And I felt lighter in my body. And imagine all of the relationships in the external world and the many stressors related to any of those, they were gone. I felt a sense of peacefulness. And imagine what it would feel like to lose 37 years of emotional baggage! I felt euphoria. Euphoria was beautiful -- and then my left hemisphere comes online and it says "Hey! you've got to pay attention, we've got to get help," and I'm thinking, "I got to get help, I gotta focus." So I get out of the shower and I mechanically dress and I'm walking around my apartment, and I'm thinking, "I gotta get to work, I gotta get to work, can I drive? can I drive?"

And in that moment my right arm went totally paralyzed by my side. And I realized, "Oh my gosh! I'm having a stroke! I'm having a stroke!" And the next thing my brain says to me is, "Wow! This is so cool. This is so cool. How many brain scientists have the opportunity to study their own brain from the inside out?"

And then it crosses my mind: "But I'm a very busy woman. I don't have time for a stroke!" So I'm like, "OK, I can't stop the stroke from happening so I'll do this for a week or two, and then I'll get back to my routine, OK."

So I gotta call help, I gotta call work. I couldn't remember the number at work, so I remembered, in my office I had a business card with my number on it. So I go in my business room, I pull out a 3-inch stack of business cards. And I'm looking at the card on top, and even though I could see clearly in my mind's eye what my business card looked like, I couldn't tell if this was my card or not, because all I could see were pixels. And the pixels of the words blended with the pixels of the background and the pixels of the symbols, and I just couldn't tell. And I would wait for what I call a wave of clarity. And in that moment, I would be able to reattach to normal reality and I could tell, that's not the card, that's not the card, that's not the card. It took me 45 minutes to get one inch down inside of that stack of cards.

In the meantime, for 45 minutes the hemorrhage is getting bigger in my left hemisphere. I do not understand numbers, I do not understand the telephone, but it's the only plan I have. So I take the phone pad and I put it right here, I'd take the business card, I'd put it right here, and I'm matching the shape of the squiggles on the card to the shape of the squiggles on the phone pad. But then I would drift back out into La La Land, and not remember when I come back if I'd already dialed those numbers.

So I had to wield my paralyzed arm like a stump, and cover the numbers as I went along and pushed them, so that as I would come back to normal reality I'd be able to tell, yes, I've already dialed that number. Eventually the whole number gets dialed, and I'm listening to the phone, and my colleague picks up the phone and he says to me, "Whoo woo wooo woo woo." [laughter] And I think to myself, "Oh my gosh, he sounds like a golden retriever!" And so I say to him, clear in my mind I say to him. "This is Jill! I need help!" And what comes out of my voice is, "Whoo woo wooo woo woo." I'm thinking, "Oh my gosh, I sound like a golden retriever." So I couldn't know, I didn't know that I couldn't speak or understand language until I tried.

So he recognizes that I need help, and he gets me help. And a little while later, I am riding in an ambulance from one hospital across Boston to Mass General Hospital. And I curl up into a little fetal ball. And just like a balloon with the last bit of air just, just right out of the balloon I felt my energy lift and I felt my spirit surrender. And in that moment I knew that I was no longer the choreographer of my life. And either the doctors rescue my body and give me a second chance at life or this was perhaps my moment of transition.

When I awoke later that afternoon I was shocked to discover that I was still alive. When I felt my spirit surrender, I said goodbye to my life, and my mind is now suspended between two very opposite planes of reality. Stimulation coming in through my sensory systems felt like pure pain. Light burned my brain like wildfire and sounds were so loud and chaotic that I could not pick a voice out from the background noise and I just wanted to escape. Because I could not identify the position of my body in space, I felt enormous and expensive, like a genie just liberated from her bottle. And my spirit soared free like a great whale gliding through the sea of silent euphoria. Harmonic. I remember thinking there's no way I would ever be able to squeeze the enormousness of myself back inside this tiny little body.

But I realized "But I'm still alive! I'm still alive and I have found Nirvana. And if I have found Nirvana and I'm still alive, then everyone who is alive can find Nirvana." I picture a world filled with beautiful, peaceful, compassionate, loving people who knew that they could come to this space at any time. And that they could purposely choose to step to the right of their left hemispheres and find this peace. And then I realized what a tremendous gift this experience could be, what a stroke of insight this could be to how we live our lives. And it motivated my to recover.

Two and a half weeks after the hemorrhage, the surgeons went in and they removed a blood clot the size of a golf ball that was pushing on my language centers. Here I am with my mama, who's a true angel in my life. It took me eight years to completely recover.

So who are we? We are the life force power of the universe, with manual dexterity and two cognitive minds. And we have the power to choose, moment by moment, who and how we want to be in the world. Right here right now, I can step into the consciousness of my right hemisphere where we are -- I am -- the life force power of the universe, and the life force power of the 50 trillion beautiful molecular geniuses that make up my form. At one with all that is. Or I can choose to step into the consciousness of my left hemisphere. where I become a single individual, a solid, separate from the flow, separate from you. I am Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor, intellectual, neuroanatomist. These are the "we" inside of me.

Which would you choose? Which do you choose? And when? I believe that the more time we spend choosing to run the deep inner peace circuitry of our right hemispheres, the more peace we will project into the world and the more peaceful our planet will be. And I thought that was an idea worth spreading.

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Happy Easter

2008-03-14T18:14:00.000-07:00

This does not mean I have my ducks in a row:)

I am having an incredible experience at this Easter Retreat at our Healing Center. Everyone stays in light and everything goes easy. Including the cleaning up. Thank you!
I am trying to stay in the present moment and be with Jesus, who is tangible present here.

I'd like to share a story of David here, who found us through the internet and called. He shared his story with me:

The Encourager’s Story………………….

The doctor said,” There is nothing more we can do for you David, the cancer is gone but the pain will remain. We think it is radiation burn from the radiation treatments that you had received in 1992 that is the cause of your pain. The doctor then said “I will have you enter the hospital and we will remove your rectum and you can live with a colostomy bag. Many people live this way and have a good life with out the devastating pain that you are in everyday.”

At that time I had a wake up call.

I had a colostomy bag before during recovery from my first bout with colon rectal cancer and although I could live with one and the undesirable side affects which that brings. I did not want too. Still in pain I went home and called another doctor. He was a pain management doctor. I meet with him and he proscribed to me Vicodin and Percocet to end the pain. It worked to ease the pain however my life was still unmanageable. My colon was not working properly. I had two bouts with colon rectal cancer along with two surgeries and the last surgery in 2006 the doctor removed 1/3 of my colon. My quality of life was, well not good at best. I do not want to elaborate, I just want to give you some background on my situation. I am no longer on any pain pills and the pain has all but subsided. It was God calling me all the time. God uses ALL the events in our lives to call us when he knows that we are one of His chosen. If you are reading this note today you are one of His chosen spirits that he created so long ago. Remember, in ALL the religious texts; He tells us “I new you before you were conceived in your mothers womb.”

The doctors found my recovery to be unexplainable and truly extraordinary. But then, as they say, "these things do sometimes happen." Don't they? You bet they do. And so it was and still is. I offer to anyone who cares to listen, the simple message of total God-dependence: "Simply let go and let God". To some, it sounds like surrender and so it is. But what awesome healing power is found in letting His Will be done. His will is your perfect will !!

I believe in miracles. More than that, I know they happen and are happening. It is God's Will that we be whole and perfect as we were created. And in the "great good fortune" of this eternal Truth, we, as so-called mortal men, have nothing whatsoever to say about it. I live in, and continue to practice living in "the right here and now, just as it is". Please remember the past is gone, the future is not here yet, so if you are thinking in one of these two realms then your mind is really “blank”. Nothing you are thinking about is real. I hope this helps you. I think it will. I love you. I carry a message of miraculous spiritual recovery and try to serve the best I can our Savior Jesus Christ. Without whom, this life and all eternity is meaningless. The miraculous healing of our minds and bodies occur through the Holy Spirit, in the continuing power of our acts of forgiveness and love, with no regard whatsoever for this unforgivable world of pain and death.

God Bless Us Everyone

Smiling As the Shit Comes Down- Day

2008-02-25T14:49:00.000-08:00

I am actually really happy today. Thank God I only have to look to this day. Everything I want and need is offered to me today.

Every situation is exactly what I need to awaken.

I had to remember this.
We had a udge leak in the sealing and it was dripping everywhere and the sealing came down in one place.
I was disappointed with my husband too.
All just for a moment.
Isn't any expectation towards another pure bullshit? It's always based on the past. It is being "McDreamy" and has absolutely nothing to do with now or who my brother is in truth or what is real in this moment.

Teleportation is being offered me. A whole new continuum. Why would I want to hold on to this one?-old, stinky and rotten?

My latest "painting":
I so much enjoy this now.

Thank you. Mean it.

Journey Home

2008-02-22T17:45:00.000-08:00

I am so so so exited!
First: I do not have to write, I can just post my art, because thats what I really LIKE doing. I was a bit struggling the last months with writing anything that would be worth mentioning at all. The truth is: I am mostly bored with myself. At least the moment I am supposed to put it into words, I feel completely fake, like doubly fake since I am a born fakeism.
Second: I am in need of a miracle--NOW. I am totally depended on this moment of grace. I want to leave this world forever and jet I find myself justifying. Here on this blog, in the morning when i got up and thought I have to brush my teeth and when I look out and see anything with my bodies eyes. HELP!
One thing for sure: I LOVE YOU!
I am exited, because I am expecting the biggest quantum leap ever to happen- NOW.
So, here is my latest creation:

This is all I have to say...

2008-02-19T18:58:00.000-08:00

I had the most incredible day in light. - You are so dear to me and I am so grateful that you are considering the reality of God more valuable then what you see.

Lately I find it difficult to formulate anything in words. Painting seems so much easier to me. So this is all I have to say:

"I suspect that we are not the light of consciousness in a dead universe, but the local darkness in a universe of light."
Thaddeus Golas

Little Speck

2008-02-17T12:32:00.000-08:00

Michael just send this to me and I'd like to share it:

"Radical truth means you've got to take the mask off everything and be willing to see it for what it is, and now handle it from the viewpoint of emotional honesty. There is a big massive payoff in ego positions or you wouldn't be sitting here in a body today. The fact that one is back here in a body again means that one has sold out spiritual truth for the gratifications of the ego over and over again.

But in this lifetime it's coming up to be questioned. Is the experience of the Presence of God worth sacrificing all that you get out of your ego? The answer can only be arrived at via faith. Experientially no; nothing in your experience tells you that giving up the pleasure of resentments and hatreds and the satisfactions of winning is worth it. It takes the teachings of a great teacher who has been through it to tell you that the experience of God is beyond all description, beyond all the pleasure and values and aquisitions emotionally and materially, which are like a speck compared to the Presence of God. Therefore you have to sacrifice the familiar."
From the Dr. David Hawkins Lecture of February 2002 lecture

Just today, especially today. Give up the familiar. Question every value here.
There is nothing to fear.

I love that it always seems only a leap of faith. There is no way I could get it right here and I am constantly missing it. ( See image )My good intention never helped me.
I am saved by pure grace. Thats basically it.-I think:) ha-ha.
Oh: "There is nothing to fear."

Easter Celebration

2008-02-12T16:58:00.000-08:00

You will be the first one seeing this invitation, cause i just got done designing it.
Hope you'll come. I'd love to see your face.

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My Holiness Blesses the World

2008-02-06T17:00:00.000-08:00

Today I mostly played...
Blessings from a snowed in Healing Center
with Love...

A Course in Miracles Unleashed

2008-02-05T07:03:00.000-08:00

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Breaking The Spell

2008-01-24T19:52:00.000-08:00

I have not written a word for so long, that I have to make this step just to brake the "spell"- to write just a few words without knowing what to say.

We are so blessed, to simply not know what the next step is going to be. You are willing to listen and to do according to the instructions you receive. Every day I experience the impossibility of myself- just this identity that pinned itself to looking at a world it does not understand. And then I can go to session and watch the latest video with Master Teacher on Christian Sience and I get simply exstatic. I am out of my mind happy and still don't have a clue. I feel I am on this great adventure.

This is my little contribution today in hopes that I will write more often.

Just doing it and see what happens.
I am deeply grateful for you joining me in this great awakening.
Love ya!

Isn't this winter beautiful? I never knew how many different kinds of snow there are. Wow!

This Body Is Not Me

2008-01-08T10:42:00.000-08:00

This is my salvation today:

“Prayer – The Upward Dimension: Earthbound - Landlocked
by Joel Goldsmith

We are earthbound and we are landlocked until we break out by going upward. Only as our vision goes upward out of this body, out of this world of force, do we get up into a free strata, a free realm, where we’re no longer body locked, landlocked, earthbound, but where we are free souls. You know that all of this world, except the mystics or those on the mystical path, are locked up in their bodies. Their body is the most real thing to them. They’re fastened into it and can’t escape from it, and that’s where their misery comes—being landlocked inside of the body, being earthbound inside of the body and having no freedom.

The very first freedom that an individual attains is when they can look in the mirror and say that this body is not Me. This body is not Me. I am Me. I, I am Me. I am Joel. Not this body, this body isn’t Joel. I am Joel, and if the doctors searched from head to foot they couldn’t find Joel inside of this body for I am not here.

And that was the great mystical statement: “He is not here. He is risen”. That’s the symbology of the Resurrection. We are not entombed in this body. In our Resurrection we rise out of the tomb of this body and realize I am Joel. I am not body. I am Joel and I am not in a body. They could not search this body from top to bottom and find me for I am not here. I do not live in a body. I live in Consciousness. I live in God. I live and move and have my being in God therefore I fill all space. I am here and I am there and I am everywhere. I am where God is and God is where I am for we are one, and that one is not limited to time or to space or to place. And that’s why the materialist fears death because they think that with the end of the body, there comes an end of me. How foolish! I’m not in the body. I never was in the body. I won’t live in the body and I won’t die out of the body for I will never be in the body. And therefore, there is no need to fear death because death is just checking the body at a weigh station while we keep going on.

God Rest You Merry Gentlement

2007-12-24T19:31:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas!

2007-12-24T18:35:00.000-08:00

Beautiful Story
by Pastor Rob Reid

The pastor and his wife, newly assigned to their first ministry--to reopen a church in suburban Brooklyn--arrived in early October, excited about their opportunities When they saw their church, it was very run down and needed much work. They set a goal to have everything done in time to have their first service on Christmas Eve.

They worked hard, repairing pews, plastering walls, painting, etc, and on December 18 were ahead of schedule and just about finished. On December 19 a terrible tempest - a driving rainstorm - hit the area and lasted for two days.

On the 21st, the pastor went over to the church. His heart sank when he saw that the roof had leaked, causing a large area of plaster, about 20 feet by 8 feet, to fall off the front wall of the sanctuary just behind the pulpit, beginning about head high.

The pastor cleaned up the mess on the floor and, not knowing what else to do but postpone the Christmas Eve service, headed home. On the way he noticed that a local business was having a flea market type sale for charity, so he stopped in. One of the items was a beautiful, handmade, ivory-colored, crocheted tablecloth with exquisite work, fine colors and a Cross embroidered right in the center. It was just the right size to cover up the hole in the front wall. He bought it and headed back to the church.

By this time it had started to snow. An older woman running from the opposite direction was trying to catch the bus. She missed it. The pastor invited her to wait in the warm church for the next bus 45 minutes later.

She sat in a pew and paid no attention to the pastor while he got a ladder, hangers, etc., to put up the tablecloth as a wall tapestry. The pastor could hardly believe how beautiful it looked and it covered up the entire problem area.

Then he noticed the woman walking down the center aisle. Her face was like a sheet. 'Pastor,' she asked, 'where did you get that tablecloth?' The pastor explained. The woman asked him to check the lower right corner to see if the initials, EBG were crocheted into it there. They were. These were the initials of the woman, and she had made this tablecloth 35 years before, in Austria. The woman could hardly believe it as the pastor told her how he had just gotten the Tablecloth. The woman explained that before the war she and her husband were well-to-do people in Austria.

When the Nazis came, she was forced to leave. Her husband was going to follow her the next week. He was captured, sent to prison and she never saw her husband or her home again. The pastor wanted to give her the tablecloth; but she made the pastor keep it for the church.

The pastor insisted on driving her home, that was the least he could do. She lived on the other side of Staten Island and was only in Brooklyn for the day for a housecleaning job.

What a wonderful service they had on Christmas Eve. The church was almost full. The music and the spirit were great. At the end of the service, the pastor and his wife greeted everyone at the door and many said that they would return. One older man, who the pastor recognized from the neighborhood, continued to sit in one of the pews and stare, and the pastor wondered why he wasn't leaving.

The man asked him where he got the tablecloth on the front wall because it was identical to one that his wife had made years ago when they lived in Austria before the war and how could there be two tablecloths so much alike.

He told the pastor how the Nazis came, how he forced his wife to flee for her safety and he was supposed to follow her, but he was arrested and put in a prison. He never saw his wife or his home again in all the 35 years in between.

The pastor asked him if he would allow him to take him for a little ride. They drove to Staten Island and to the same house where the pastor had taken the woman three days earlier. She helped the man climb the three flights of stairs to the woman's apartment, knocked on the door and he saw the greatest Christmas reunion he could ever imagine.

True Story - submitted by Pastor Rob Reid

Who says God does not work in mysterious ways...

The Relationship of Oneness

2007-12-01T12:39:00.000-08:00

This bit is by Joel Goldsmith and is all I needed to hear today.
Happy first of Christmas.

Several years ago in a period of distress, it came to me that I must love those who hate me, I must give love for ingratitude; and my answer was, “Father, I just can't do it. I don't know how to do it. Yes, I can be a hypocrite and say I love these people who are hating, judging, condemning and fighting me; but I can tell you truthfully that I don't – I don't know how to love them. It is true that I have no antagonism towards them because I know what motivates them and I do not blame them. If I did not have a little understanding of Your infinite Love I might do the same thing in their position; so I have no sense of judgment, criticism or condemnation of them. I can even say, ‘Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do’ – but to love them! No, I cannot honestly say that I love them… I just cannot do that. If there is to be any loving, I am perfectly willing to be the avenue through which You, God, can love them through me. If that can be arranged, let's have it that way; but don't ask me to love them because that is beyond my capacity.”

It was less than a minute after that that I settled down into a beautiful peace, went to sleep, and awakened completely healed. It is impossible to love ingratitude, injustice, misrepresentation and lies, but we can be willing to let God take over: “God, You who could love the thief on the cross and the woman taken in adultery. You love these people too.”

What was required for the demonstration that I had to make? Was it not the ability to "nothingize" myself, even to the extent of not trying to be self-righteous about loving my enemy? When you say that you are loving your enemy, that is self-righteousness. We have to learn to let God do the loving and be willing to be an instrument through which God's love flows to our friends and our enemies.

In the world there are good people and bad people, just and unjust people, but when you climb up into that circle of God, you find that God is the Principle of all people; God is the only Principle of people, the animating Love and Life and Truth of all people – those in your business, in your social relationships, and in your home.

Your home is a composite of your consciousness of home. You are the doorkeeper of your household, and you should stand guard at the door and see that nothing gets past that door which does not have a right to be there. This door, however, is not a material door. The only door there is, is the door of consciousness, and the only door for which you are responsible is that door. What do you allow to get past that door, your consciousness? Do you accept contagion and infection as power in your home? Are you a party to discord and bickering? You should make it a matter of daily realization that nothing should enter the doorway of consciousness except the Truth of BEING, and that no suggestion of human power, whether physical, material or mental, is law. Any belief that enters your home must first enter through your consciousness, and the truth of BEING in your consciousness will act as a law of annihilation to any false belief that would intrude.

Everything that comes within range of your consciousness will take on the nature and character of that consciousness. Your own life is not only affected by what gets past the door of your consciousness, but the life of everyone who has brought himself to your consciousness is affected, and that includes the members of your family and sometimes the members of your community and your church. All these look to you for bread; they look to you for the Truth of BEING, but oftentimes your mind is so occupied with concern over your own discords and inharmonies that they are turned away without the divine substance which they sought from you.

Deep within every person is a hunger for the bread of life. Friends, relatives, and even acquaintances who find their way to your home ostensibly seeking companionship, supply or any form of material good, even though from their point of view that may be their purpose, are in reality longing and craving for the true Substance of Life, the meat which perisheth not. If you give them money and give them that alone; if you give them your physical human companionship and give them that alone; you are giving them a stone. You are not giving them the bread of life; you are not lifting their state of consciousness. This you can only do in the degree that you are specifically entertaining the consciousness of Truth within your being as they come to you:

"God is the substance and the activity of my home; God is the consciousness of every individual who enters my home, whether it is family or friends, Nothing enters my home to contaminate or violate its sanctity, because God is my only home. As long as my home appears on earth as a material structure it will express the harmony of God. Those in that home will either reflect that harmony or they will be removed because nothing unlike God can remain in my home, my temple, my being, my body. Anything of a discordant nature that would enter, or might temporarily be permitted to enter, will be removed in its time and in such a way that it will injure no-one, but be a blessing to everyone involved.
Since God is my consciousness, nothing can enter that consciousness that defileth or maketh a lie and even if I in my ignorance or human softness permit something to enter which has no place there, it will not long remain. The consciousness of Truth and Light which I am will heal it or remove it. I am willing that everybody and everything that enters my consciousness shall be either healed or removed. I dare not cling to anyone and say, "With all your faults I still need you and want you". I take my stand with God and, if necessary, leave father, mother, brother, sister, husband, wife in order to dwell in the secret place of the most High."

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Enchanted

2007-11-28T15:35:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I went to see the movie "Enchanted".

I did not expect that I would like it that much, but SURPRISE!
It is a GREAT movie.

I LOVE how Princess Gisele comes to New York (the timely world of doubt and fear) through traveling through a "black hole". Finding herself as a stranger in "hell".

The amazing thing is: she stays completely true to herself and what she is: a Princess from beyond this world. She is so innocent and happy, that everyone thinks she is a crazy person, except of course the little girl and the ones who are recognizing her frequency -my favorite scene in the park.
She does not doubt herself one bit. She just knows who she is.
So everyone starts to join her in that and is giving love a chance.
It is such a demonstration of singularity as I experience the awakening for me. WOW!
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!

Go see it!

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Thank God for Ass Kicking

2007-11-26T13:23:00.000-08:00

So, I got a little ass kicking from Lisa today. She checks my blog every day and i am not writing.
BUT I want to learn how to write. BUT I can't learn if I don't PRACTICE. I have to give it a try. Even though I might think I suck at writing or I have nothing to say, or there is something more important and so on.
Sounds just like A Course in Miracles: I do not have to believe the lesson, or understand it, BUT I have to be WILLING to PRACTICE. TO GIVE. Time. Exposure.

In fact there is something going on in my mind for a few days/weeks or forever/whatever.
And up front I have to apologize for all those who's expectations I don't meet or that think i do not understand their problems or have the feeling I am a bit rough.
I am truly sorry, if I caused you pain.

I LOVE you.

I truly do.

I am desperate for truth. So, when you call me, I assume you are desperate for truth. It is a matter of life or death for you.
I assume you are asking for help and are ready to receive it along with me. We will ask together. Leave EVERYTHING behind. All concerns, problems, judgments, illness, the past, the future, experiences, fear, good, evil, EVERYTHING.
I understand we don't know how to do that.

This does not matter.

This is where the miracle takes place. I can't do it, but He will IF I LET HIM.
So basically I have to be willing to shut up and trust in a plan not of my own making.

I have to make room for God to enter.

That's all. No biggy. That's what I truly believe: It is NO BIG DEAL.
But hey, you DEMAND that I listen to your story. That I enter into the past with you. Pitty you for the mess you are in.

Please bare with me: I love you for the reality in you. You are that. I LONG to join with you. BUT: I do not need to know your story, because your story is exactly like mine: You feel something has gone wrong, you don't know the way out, you feel you are going to get old, sick and die in the end. This is it. Period.
You might be caught in the specifics, but the bottom line is: you end up dead.

Good news is: you are already dead.

I just hope you called, because you want to live. You want to be ALIVE! Whatever it takes. You are looking for the solution.

A thousand times: GLADLY would I join with you in your willingness to find it.

I already know it's a total mess. So: Let's get out of here. Dust to our heels. Let God find us and be willing to trust that there is something bigger than my little self image that I made and that has nothing to do with God.

Nothing in this world is true. Listen to this: NOTHING.

So, why bother? WHY?????? Why ARE you calling?????

OK. So, I need this for myself. I need God, like the air I am breathing. Better yet: God is the air I am breathing.

God is found now.

Now.

In this very instant.

...and it has NOTHING to do with my story. It is not connected with it and never will be.

You are really ONLY abiding in Him. There is no world.
AHHHH...YES.

Yes. Healing is truly instantaneous and has nothing to do with time at all.

Thank God!

There is no Conclusion to Life!

2007-11-12T11:42:00.000-08:00

"What Jesus said is actually true. When you are in spiritual consciousness you can ask God for anything and get it. Only be sure that you are asking for something spiritual, for that is all that God has to give. And what is it that is spiritual? Nothing but God.

Therefore, ask for anything you want so long as you ask for God. It doesn’t make any difference what you ask for, only be sure you are asking for God. No one in the history of the world has ever prayed for God to give them the gift of Himself, the Gift of God, who has not received it.

Whereas people are sitting around praying for companionship, money, employment and they keep praying for days and then wonder why God did not see fit to answer their prayers. God only has Himself to give and that is all that you should pray for!"--Study & Meditation #24 from Joel Goldsmith, 1958

The mind training of the Course in Miracles teaches me to let go of ANY result here.
I do not know what my best interests are.

ONLY your relationship with God has any reality.

Master Teacher told me one day on the phone:
You are waiting for a conclusion. There isn't any.

That hit me right in the eye-and I started to see. I am so grateful!

Somewhere I was still waiting for something to occur in time. A conclusion to all my efforts and dedication to God. Sometime, when I will be rewarded for my good deeds and such.

Here on earth the conclusion is always death. You really think if you will be dying some day, you will be going to heaven. Death as your foundation for heaven. NO. You are dead right NOW believing that.

Heaven can ONLY be reached right NOW.

It is your mindfulness towards an alternative.

Not THIS anyway.

Believing you are a body and separate from God was a mistake. It has been corrected.

Finally you are not afraid anymore to trust in God with all you got and GLAD, that we are NOT getting what we are praying for.
It is not going to be how I think it should or will be.

Thank God!

It is always a surprise!
I love you. Mean it.

No School Today

2007-11-03T08:24:00.000-07:00

This morning I did not go to school.

It is fantastic.

I don't want to talk to anyone or see anyone. I just want to go out and home to where I realy abide.

With God.

Fuck the world! Fuck MY world.

I forgot how much I LOVE to be just by myself
---HaHa-
I am looking at that I AM always by myself, I have to laugh.
I should really say: I finally decided to return to my source and STOP DOING. Stop judging, stop projecting, stop sorting it out( by myself)).
Let it be new.

I don't know ANYTHING. My God, what a relieve.

I am listening to the song "Four Seasons In One day" and it says:
" Smiling as the shit comes down,
-You can tell a man from what he has to say.
Everything gets turned around-
I will risk my neck again, again...
You can take me where You will,
up the creek and through the mill,
like all the things you can't explain...

Oh well, here is his video, it has some really cool elements in it, like you are just walking in your own thoughts, in a holographic universe painted on a flat screen. It's also kind of dorky- hey, what the hell:

I am just sooo grateful to you.
-Sharing this one purpose with me.
Leaving this world behind and embarking on this adventure into the unknown known. This is the ONLY thing I want to focus on. The only thing I want to look upon in you, because this must be your purpose as well because there is no other. Nothing else is of interest or value.