Mom Of 4~Saved By Grace

Surrendering to Christ

2012-01-19T16:18:00.001-06:00

God created women to be life givers & the enemy of our soul wants to destroy life. He manipulates & twists God’s truth until we believe it. At age 17, I listened to many lies that my unborn baby was not a life, but instead, a blob of tissue. I believed those lies & made a choice to abort my child for selfish reasons. The next lie I believed was that the abortion was solving my problems & my life would be back to normal after it was over with. I lived the next 15 yrs. in shame & complete secrecy. During those yrs., I met & gave my heart to Jesus. In October 2006, I laid my secret at Jesus’ feet. He immediately started calling me to minister with Him to the hearts of women who have been bound up in the guilt of a past abortion. Later, almost 2 years to the date, in October 2008 I broke my silence & surrendered to do whatever He had called me to. After surrendering to start a post abortion ministry, God put a special lady in my life, Alisha Fussell. We knew from the beginning there was a connection. God had called us both to “fight for life” and put us in ministry together. We had no idea of the bond the Lord would form between the 2 of us. The freedom I felt after surrendering was amazing but I was warned of being a “target” & the fiery darts the enemy was going to throw at me. There was no way of wrapping my mind around just how much of an attack I would face. I started facing struggles with insecurities regarding my self-worth, questioning if was I hearing God correctly, and also struggled with finances and relationships. He then attacked my marriage hard. We had allowed him to enter in and he attacked where it was weak, and destroyed it. When I chose to stay & fight for my marriage, he knew to move on to another area. Next, he attacked my heart as a mother & attempted to take away 2 of my children. Fortunately he was unable to succeed in destroying either of those relationships and God revealed truth. At the end of 2010, I was released from my marriage and moved out of my home. Within 8 days, the enemy knew how to hurt me and because I was in such a vulnerable state, I took the bait.

On February 9, 2011, when all other attempts had failed at getting me to stop working for the Lord, the enemy tried to take my life. God at that very hour woke up my sister in Christ, Alisha, from her sleep and gave her an urgency to pray for me & against the spirit of suicide. She later told me she saw me lying at His feet and He was mending every hurt that I felt. She immediately went to war and did not stop until after the feeling of urgency was gone.

John 10:10 says “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” Over this last year God has rebuilt my life and showed me how to lay down my pride in order to completely trust Him. He has also made me aware of how big the war on “Life” is and that I am a part of His army. I am grateful for Alisha interceding that night through prayer. In addition, I am honored to be on the front lines fighting this battle alongside her & the East Texas Pregnancy Help Center, in Jasper.

For those of my family and friends that haven’t been able to see the whole picture I felt that it was important to share this testimony with you so that you might understand the story behind “Me”. I’d also like to tell you all thank you for your support this last year

Dropping in...

2011-12-02T21:56:00.001-06:00

It's been a long time since I blogged about anything. My life does not compare as to when I posted last. God 's mercy and grace only have saved me. I am forever grateful! I'd liked to blog some again tho. Just a quick update.
I am newly divorced, which took 10 months, my heart is still healing, God gently took my hand and pulled me back to my calling. Post Abortion healing. I'm volunteering @ our new pregnancy help center. My relationship with God is all about trusting him completely. Something I have never done before. My boys are getting so big. My oldest is in college with a powerful testimony! And my only baby girl was 18 today. Life is different because God is so good!!

Doing what he loves for Christ

2010-10-30T10:43:00.008-05:00

Sights of San Antonio

2010-07-23T10:01:00.035-05:00

My oldest was nominated to play in the Texas All Star Game @ The Alamo dome for the South team
Dustin and Little Brother Lane

MY #1 Center

there were over 13,300 coaches there for the convention this past week

BEAUTIFUL

observation deck of the Tower of America in San Antonio

Lane missing a couple of teeth, Myself and my honey

Chris and Lauren

We don't have these in Kirbyville..... LOL

My family minus one

lane digging for um i am not too sure, maybe silver or gold

Whew that is one hefty man there.

picture I had to take in the elevator that made me leave the kids on the 2nd floor. I could hear Lane hollering "Mom wait. Where are you going?"

I couldn't stop laughing... almost peed my self actually and when i went back up he was standing right there wait..... poor kid

Wes and Lane

Petting zoo

A little too close to the car..... eeekkk

Lane wanted to know how this big thing only walked on 2 front legs.... lol got to love kids

Shamu...... note to self never go to sea world during the summer, watch Shamu performance 1st, and sit in the splash zone. You will smell like fried whale poop by the heat of the day....

some recent pictures

2010-07-10T20:59:00.017-05:00

Wes after a race. (notice the name of our team on

his bike)

Lane being silly at VBS

Lane praying during the children's message at church

Wes at VBS (crazy hat day)

The day lauren came home...... 14.5 wks apart

Chris receiving his one yr. soberity chip, I did chips that night

at CR for that very reason.... Proud of him

my 2 oldest

Me and Dustin after graduation

Lauren and Big D

Dustin and Nana

Lauren and I before her 1st prom

Lauren and Garrett

I'm Still Yours by Kutless

2010-01-16T11:12:00.001-06:00

I am clinging to God with my all right now, Total Trust, Total Faith. I feel like if I swallow one more time I will choke to death, everything I know has been shaken. But I'm Still His!

Our newest adventure

2010-01-08T21:30:00.005-06:00

This is what my two youngest are into now.... We have a dirty track now at our house. They love it and we are going to serve God through it. Saved By Grace Motosports.

Wes's bike # is 777 and Lane's # is 316. We already have the graphic kit for Wes's race bike and Lane's is next and also the magnet for our trailer.

We pray that God will be glorified as they ride and that we as a family might be a witness to those at the different tracks that do not know Jesus.

Identity In Christ

2010-01-03T17:16:00.000-06:00

(Org. Post 1/11/08)

My Identity in Christ

I am a child of God (John 1:12)
I have peace with God (Romans 5:1)
The Holy Spirit lives in me (1Corinthians 3:16)
I have access to God’s wisdom (James 1:5)
I am helped by God (Hebrews 4:16)
I am completely forgiven (Colossians 1:14)
I am tenderly loved by God (Jeremiah 31:3)
I am Christ’s friend (John 15:5)
I am a member of Christ’s body (1Corinthians 12:27)
I am born of God, and the evil one

cannot touch me (1 John 5:18)
I have been made complete in Christ (Colossians 2:10)
My needs are met by God (Philippians 4:19)
I have been bought with a price, and I

belong to God (1Corinthians 6:19,20)
I cannot be separated from the love of God (Romans 8:35f)
I am a personal witness of Christ’s (Acts 1:8)
I can do all things through Christ, who gives me

the strength I need (Philippians 4:13)

“Faith Comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God”

Merry Christmas to you and yours......

2009-12-25T00:29:00.000-06:00

May the Almighty King richly bless you during this Christmas Season. Peace and Love to all my family and friends.

Remembering the reason.....

2009-12-24T03:27:00.001-06:00

How Sweet it is......

2009-12-02T00:59:00.001-06:00

For my beautiful Baby Girl...... Happy Birthday Sweetness!

May God Bless you, my Lauren Ashley :)

recent pics

2009-11-22T20:20:00.004-06:00

Seniors of 2010, Friends For a lifetime

My Boys, Wes (10), Dustin (17), and Lane (6)

My Family, always a clown in the bunch.....

Quarterfinals This Week

2009-11-22T20:10:00.004-06:00

This Friday we will be traveling for the Quarterfinals for Texas 2A Division 1 High School Football Playoffs......

Here we come..... Facing the same team as last year in 3rd round. The Arp Tigers. We are expecting another win, but it could be very close.... Last year it came down to the end with just 2 points ahead. Good luck to the Wildcats.

2009 District 22-2A Champs

2009-11-07T01:18:00.006-06:00

Chris, Lane, Dustin, Wes and Lauren
Senior Friends - Macy, Dustin, Dillon, Kelsey

District 22-2A Championionship

Kirbyville Wildcats 29 - Newton Eagles 26

We reclaimed the District Championship again tonight. 2 years running.

STS training pictures

2009-11-01T08:53:00.012-06:00

"Our Group" minus a few that left early

Amy and Tricia Heflin

Our Hostesses

My New Friends from Louisiana

Pat Layton Teaching

Me and Pat

Surrendering the Secret Leader Certification Training

What an amazing weekend this was. I am sorry it has been forever since I posted.

The weekend that Pat Layton was in Kirbyville Texas will be one I will never forget. The training day went well. All the ladies enjoyed their selves and lots of friends were made. We had 3 states represented and CPCs, churches, ministries and counselors in attendance.

Each lady there had a story to tell of why God wanted her there. I believe we were about 1/2 and 1/2 of post abortive/non post abortive.

We even had a mother/daughter team there. The mom is post abortive and because of the destructive lifestyle, God has put a calling on the daughter, who isn't post abortive, to start a ministry. Also her mom was in the first post abortive healing group she lead.

Oh the stories went around the table, It took us just over an hour, and none of us had a dry eye.

It was an amazing day!

hugs to ya!

2009-09-24T23:33:00.004-05:00

I am so excited that this weekend is finally here. It has been in the making (for me) for 9 months, for God, since the beginning of time.

I am so ready to put my arms around this lady and hug her precious neck, again!

Pat Layton is coming to Texas.

My church Trout Creek Baptist is the hosting church for her

Surrendering the Secret Leadering Certification Training.

She will also be in our services on Sunday morning at 10:30 giving her awesome, powerful testimony of God's redeeming Love.

It will change your life.

Join us please.

almost here......

2009-09-22T10:10:00.003-05:00

Well I think I am all geared up for this weekend. God has been so faithful.
2 1/2 weeks ago there were only 4 women signed up for the Surrendering the Secret leader certification training. I was fretting it but Pat Layton, in her Godly wisdom, told me God would provide. He is so faithful. (did i already say that?) There are 21 women attending, not including myself, the training on Sat. From 3 states, coming from churches, crisis pregnancy centers, post abortion ministries, and 3 Christian Counselors. I am so excited to finally meet the women I have been praying for all these months. God is going to bless our socks off at the training. Praying for the sweetest spirit that day.
Please Pray for Pat as she will also be speaking to our church in Sunday morning services. Lots of prayer has gone into this weekend. I know God is going to open doors, heal hearts, mend marriages, and save souls this weekend. To God Be the Glory!

Will the next Trainee please stand-up?

2009-09-21T18:09:00.001-05:00

Trout Creek Baptist Church will host a one day

“Leader Certification Training” for Surrendering the Secret.

It will feature Pat Layton, author of Surrendering the Secret,

founder of A Women’s Place in Tampa, Florida.

Surrendering the Secret is a study published by LifeWay, designed to bring healing to women

who have abortion in their past. Although abortion is not a secret anymore and is freely

discussed in today’s society, many women still do not feel comfortable talking about their painful

experiences. In fact, there are millions of women who continue to hold this secret deep inside

and are suffering severe consequences. Surrendering the Secret will allow these women who

need help to connect with women who can help them.

Training will be held at:

Trout Creek Baptist Church, Kirbyville, Texas

Saturday, September 26, 2009

from 9 am to 4 pm

(Lunch will be provided.)

(Deadline for registration is September 12, 2009, 14 days prior to the event)

For coordinating, planning or directions contact:
Amy Sauls, founder of Finding Freedom Ministry at 409-423-0825

Stacy Spence, TCBC Women’s Ministry Director, at 409-656-4031
Certification will be given to those who complete the training.

Please join us on this journey to healing and restoration!

Heartbeat International--10 Things You Can Do

2009-09-16T19:13:00.001-05:00

Heartbeat International--10 Things You Can Do

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For I know the Plans I have for you!

2009-09-06T22:15:00.006-05:00

Some of my random notes from She Speaks:

"God can do the UNLIKELY"
Dependant on who God is, if you have God- you have everything you need.
Ministry is what God chooses, NOT YOU
The Dream God put into your heart may be bigger than the environment you are in.
Pray for a team, give me people who GET my calling.
Don't sacrifice the future on the alter of the immediate.
SURRENDER!
Be a willing vessel.
with doubt prayers don't get answered.
God is Always on time!
Always answers prayer-don't ever doubt the power of a prayer!
Friends don't often understand your calling God has on your life.
Trust Him more than my feelings.

Some of my random notes from Beth Moore:

Faith will become Sight~His word promises it.

Be Still and wait patiently.

Believe His word(promises)

over your circumstances and your history.

If you want what is in the will of God for you~you CAN have it.

How much do you want it? Are you willing to do what it takes?

The battlefield is in the mind.

Put all you longings at the Feet of Jesus.

As I sat down this morning in Church services, getting ready to take my sermon notes, I took out my steno pad. Just as I was getting ready to turn to a clean page, I read this:

8-26-09 Wed. night

TRUST ME!
Even when it doesn't add up or make any sense,
what have you got to loose?

To Grow our Faith in HIS Faithfulness- to change your relationship with HIM.

You will not know the whole picture until you take that step of obedience.

He knows what is best for you.

To understand Why?
SUBMIT & APPLY

I have been for a while feeling that God is calling me into ministry (part or full time).

I work full time outside the home, Have a family of 6 to minister too, very involved with church and women's ministry and now my own Finding Freedom, and it is just too much.

Something is always neglected, usually my home and my family.

So I have been praying for a long while for God to make provisions for me to cut back or quit work. In recent months this has been a family prayer too. Ever since it became a family affair, God has really been speaking to me about Faith and Trust. WILL I TRUST AND OBEY HIM?

Just this week my husband got a job offer that would afford me to quit my job....... I know you are thinking wow that is great, God is so good.

But it is 585 miles away from here. But does that make God not so good now? Why would God do all that He has this year in my life and then pull me away to another state? Well I am totally unsure of that but He Knows the Plans He has for me, Jeremiah 29:11

I just forgot to pray for Him to keep me in East Texas to do HIS MINISTRY.

We are praying and seeking God on this live changing event, and would appreciate your prayers or encouragement as well.

Delighting in the Lord

2009-08-30T14:21:00.003-05:00

"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."

Psalm 37:4

This was our key scripture this weekend at the Beth Moore Conference. It was so awesome. The worship was great and it really spoke to my heart. I could feel the spirit of God there both days. God spoke to me over and over about several different things.

I learned that a true desire is a sustained longing that is not moved by our surroundings, circumstances or moods. And that we were created to delight ourself in the Lord and Him in us.

Some of the things Beth said that struck a chord in my heart were:

*Do not give up on God or the desires of your heart.

*Put all your longings at the feet of Jesus.

*What do you want the statement of your witness to be?

*If you want what is in the will of God for you, you CAN have it.

*He is not overlooking my desires~either GLORY or DESTINY is at stake~Wait on HIM

*He delights to show us mercy!

*Faith will become sight, His word promises it.

*We were called to Be Mighty!

*God will deal with evil!

*NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR LOVED ONES!

Over and Over He spoke to me about my dad's salvation and bondage, Healing for Lane, and Me in Full time Ministry.

How much do I want it? Am I willing to do what it takes?

YES LORD, I AM! then I am going to have to Believe His Word(Promises) over my circumstances and my history. Until Faith becomes Sight I need to Trust God and DO GOOD. (Ps. 37:3)

He Came To Get Messy

2009-08-27T20:52:00.001-05:00

Bloodmoney Trailer

2009-08-23T21:56:00.001-05:00

She Listens and Is Humbled!

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Jennifer Rothschild

Lysa TerKeurst

Proverbs 31 Ministry Team

Stacy and Deb

Me and Heather

I have decided that I will attend She Speaks every year God allows me too.

I have never been to a conference that met so many needs of the women attending. God showed up in a mighty way.... Lives were changed, hearts softened, dreams confirmed and life long friends were made! For me it was confirmation, a revelation, and answered promises. God brought me 945 miles to meet a lady from Houston named Heather who is walking in my shoes.... It is an answered prayer. Gods Grace is So good.

I am learning to love on and depend on my Jesus way more than I have been...... and that is what filled my heart at She Speaks

getting ready......

2009-07-29T10:15:00.004-05:00

www.shespeaksconference.com

God has provided the opportunity for me and 5 ladies from my church to travel 945 miles to meet with Him and 600 other ladies that are wild about their Lord. We are all getting the last minute things inorder: clothes washed/ironed, bags packed, houses cleaned, groceries bought, speeches tweeked, book proposals finished. I have been spending some extra time resting in His arms for the reassurance, comfort and grace I will need to get through the weekend. I am so excited to see what He has planned for us all, meet up with friends, make new ones and put faces to some ladies I have grown to love in bloggy land. Most of all I just want to feel the presence of God, and worship Him.
Please pray for all of us at She Speaks this weekend, and our families we will leave at home.

*Mom Of 4~Saved By Grace*