【My Heart♥Speech】

Happy CNY 2012 :)

2012-02-04T19:46:00.002+08:00

大年初一头一天 :)

身穿白色连身裤裙 :D

初二跟了干妈去拿红包,还有在家...赌. :P

初三呆在家 :(

初四:

跟KUAN MING & MEI QI 唱K去!!! :D

原本计划是有SOOK YEE的...可是计划不成功 :'(

在NEWAY,CHERAS 唱K~~~

Kampai!!!! :DDD

晚上,我就跑去了PAVILION xDDD

438一下... LOL

初五：

MAY TING 来我家拜年! :)

虽然时间逗留不久,但是已经很足够 :)

他好不容易才回来KL叻....

初7, 人日 :)

捞生还有盘菜!!!

第一次吃盘菜,不便宜...RM398(包括那个盘)

正月初十

I-CITY : D

第一次去,很美的地方!!!

那些灯饰超赞的!!! :)

SNOW WALK!!!

-5'C

超级的冷.无法想象我如何生存在冬天,要庆幸我出生在全年如夏的国家. xD

LOL. This is EPIC!!!

Angpau not much,

as we know, economic crisis,

one year less than the year before.

Quite boring while CNY.

One week holiday just over like it never happened.

LOL.

End of my CNY story :)

2012 has started...

2012-01-17T22:18:00.004+08:00

2nd January

Date my babe- Co Shin :)

We hung out at Ts, Sg.$ & Pavilion.

My legs were freaking exhausted when I got home. TIRED!

We had our lunch at Sushi King, Times Square.

We walked a lot & also bought some stuffs.

It's taken at Sushi King :D

I look weird.. Am I? :(

Location: Toilet, Pavilion :P

The mirror shows that do not take photograph. LOL. Who cares? What kind of rule is that? :P

I DYED MY HAIR.

It's dark burgundy... IT SUPPOSE TO BE.

It's such a FAILURE.

Know what? 'Cause my hair look dark ( Black ) in room. WTH?

You can only see the colour WHEN I WALK UNDER THE SUN.

Come on, are you kidding? -.-

AND, why it become reddish? I'm so so speechless...

I was thinking to dye again within a week.

My mum called me insane. She said my hair going to... broke? I don't know how to say. It's harmful to my pretty hair. LOL.

So, I just forget it. Save my money some more.

My friends said the colour will appear someday... O_O

Means, it takes time... Come on, CNY is coming!!! :(

Anyone please sponsor me a spotlight... :P

I gonna hang it over my head.

~~I look like a little child... SHUT UP.~~

I told my friends I ain't going to buy new cloth for CNY.

Eventually, I bought... SOME. A FEW. LOL.

Sounds stupid... -.-" I know I know. That WAS my plan. I screwed it up.

There's too many temptations... :P SO MANY SALES.

But I haven't buy shoes. :\

It's bothering me... I haven't found a pair of shoes that I WANTED.

Well, I don't really know what kind of shoes I want, I just haven't found it YET.

& I'm thinking WHICH cloth should I wear on the 1st day of CNY. LOL.

Why is it so troublesome huh? ~~Don't tell me to be naked. I WON'T DO SO.~~

ANGPAU ANGPAU.

It's getting less & less every year. Economy Crisis D:

Please gimme more. I want & need MONEY desperately!!!

Talking about money, I'm thinking of which college should I enter too.

It's about the money too. Which one is cheaper? Which one got better scholarship? IF.. this & that. Transport. Convenience. BLA BLA BLA.

Have to depends on my SPM result some more... *sigh*

So far, I've narrow down the choices.

Either Saito or MIA. IACT, I don't feel like wanted you anymore :P

I still got time to think right? Take it easy, take it easy...

Uhuh! I need to prepare portfolio too... GOSH. I haven't started YET.

I need some time to do it.... Hehe...

So many worries. D:

LIFELESS MAN! Don't feel like study college that fast... It's SCARY.

How to make friends? I AM NOT A SOCIABLE PERSON. Seriously.

I'm kinda passive actually. I don't talk much to STRANGERS. Mummy taught me not to speak with strangers. LOL!

CHILL. Just let it be :)

Wishing List of year 2012:

1. Earn enough of money for college

2. SAVE MONEY!

3. Choose the right COLLEGE.

4. Find a driver/ Car pool

5. ~~Get a BF. LOL!~~

6. Get some new friends!!!

7. TRY some new stuffs! ( Strictly Not cigarette, drugs...or any illegal thingy )

8. Improve myself!!! (Mentally & also Physically)

9. Braces :(

10. KEEP FIT! LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Erm...

I can't think of it anymore.

Just wordless when I started to write such things.

Humans got endless desires. SO DO I. Cause I'm a human. LOL

But these 10 stuffs are the most reasonable & also possible things to achieve. LOL.

Just get started with my new life :DDD

CHEER!

This YEAR, I wanna watch A LOT OF MOVIE!

Prior one is... TITANIC!!! :DD

I wanna watch how they die. LOL. Just joking.

How sad when I watch the trailer, one pair of old couple hug each other & lie on the bed, waiting the death to swallow them. :'(

Madagascar move it move it!!! :DDD

Ice Age 4!!! FUNNY!

Underworld!!! WOW!

So many great movies I wanna watch :D

Anyone sponsor me? LOL!

Happy 2012!!!

2012-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

WELCOME 2012.

I left the sorrows behind my footsteps.

Let the unhappy memories stuck in 2011.

Welcome 2012 happily :D

2011, it's a precious year.

Last year of my high school life.

Time flies.

What I could remember about 2011, mostly it's about study & exam.

Well, also about FRIENDS.

Uncountable obstacles & challenges in our lives.

How many mistakes & stupid things we did?

Tears & laughter in our memories.

I've grown up.

My thoughts, become more mature.

Honestly I'm not an optimistic human, but I try to think more positive.

I'm trying to not think too much.

This year, from now on, I wanna be a better man.

I'll keep improving myself.

I'll not repeat my mistakes again.

Friends, I never mean to hurt you.

I'll always love you & I care a lot.

I hope everything will last long.

Especially our friendships.

Keep in touch.

Even though we might be busy in the future, but please remember take some times out for us to gathering or even have a talk.

I MISS YOU GUYS & LOVE YA!!! ♥

Best of Luck in 2012!!! :)

Everyone is moving on but doesn't mean that you can forget bout me!!! :P

Don't miss me~ xD

From You, For You.

2011-12-31T03:00:00.000+08:00

This post, I've prepared for 2 weeks.

I just couldn't complete it. But now, I have to complete it.

All these memories, the photos, the smile, the laughter, the tears...

I will never forget. I can't forget.

Firstly, I need to say

I'M SORRY.

Sorry for what I did, I hurt both of us.

Now, let me take the punishment, let me take the pain, let me suffer for the consequences,everything...

As long as you're happy :)

If the way you chose would make you feel better, I will deal with it.

Maybe you're better of without me.

I have to say, I'm not a good friend.

You will meet someone better, you deserve better.

It's easy to find someone better than me. 'Cause I'm suck.

I've been thinking what should I buy for you.

I was thinking to buy something for you on 30th. Too bad, I couldn't find what I want.

Until this morning, I realized, it might be a sign, to hint me everything is going to end.

I text my friends to ask some opinions, where to buy this & that.

One of them said, I must be a good friend, my best friend must be glad and proud.

I answered, I'm not a good friend.

In fact, I proved that I was right.

Another friend asked me, what is the present for?

I said, it's like a friendship gift or a goodbye gift.

Actually,there's another reason. I was thinking to buy you something to warming up so that everything can get back to normal.

~~Now, I'm thinking, it might not be necessary anymore.~~

You said let you be the bad one. Let me hate you.

Do you think I could hate you?

I wish I could.

You said you wanna end this. You don't wanna suffer anymore.

I'm suffering too. But if this could make you feel better, I have nothing to insist.

I wish I could stop you. But I'm afraid I could not.

I'm not strong enough to stop you. If you feel happier, why should I stop you?

Why I can't just tell you what I feel?

Well, I asked this to myself for a thousand times. Still, I didn't get the answer.

Since when I like to run away & avoid everything in front of me?

Seriously, I have no idea.

I just don't know where to start. I just don't know what to do.

I just know I don't wanna lose you. ~~Well, it's LOST.~~

People told me what I shouldn't do but no one tell me what should I do.

You stuck in my mind.

I've been thinking of you.

Even a simple song can remind me of you.

You said I always 'pop out' in your mind. But I think it would never happen again.

Heartache, so what? Just let me suffer by myself.

There's no painkiller for me.

I feel that something pushing on me, something heavy on my chest.

~~Breathless. Helpless. I'm worthless.~~

I didn't mean to not talk to you.

I just don't know what to talk about.

You have to study overseas. I took my time to digested.

& I give you my best wishes.

I did some mistakes.

I'm trying to figure out something to make it right.

I haven't got the chance to make it right & you cut me down.

I'm not efficient on this kind of stuffs. 'Cause I need some times.

I think there's no chances for me anymore.

I think I'm destined to be a loser in friendship.

Never mind, I will find someone like you.

I wish I could find...

For your best friend in your future, I think she will give you things that I didn't give to you.

~~ILY.~~

New Life with New Hairstyle.

2011-12-26T15:16:00.002+08:00

I cut my hair.
I changed my hairstyle.
I kept my hair long for 1 year++
I was just thinking to have a long hair on my graduation day & I did.
BUT today, I cut it & become short AGAIN.

After graduated, we move on.
The 1st thing we would do is do something with our hair.
Many people dye their hair.
I choose to cut my hair. LOL.
Well, I'm thinking to highlight or dye my hair.
In fact, I saw many people dyed their hair so I also feel like doing it. :P
I'm thinking... RED. Dark Red. Of course, ain't "ROCK & ROLL-RED".
Not consider colour like, brown. ~~Too common & boring.~~ :x

I cut my hair & I'm not that satisfy.
How to say? I don't really know what kind of hairstyle should I have.
JUST CUT IT!
My aim : I want a hairstyle which won't make my head feel like very... FLAT? & my face won't look too chubby. xD
~~My English ain't that good, I couldn't find the word to describe.~~LOL
My new hairstyle kinda.. POP.
I will take some photos, but not now.
STAY STUNNED.
Just give you some PREVIEW. xD

IT'S GONE~~~~~~

~~Btw, long hair very troublesome. Lazy person like me, uh uh, not a good idea.~~

OMG~~ xDDD

~~Kena Shocked.~~

Merry X'mas 2011

2011-12-25T21:55:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas! :D

I spent my X'mas at Mid Valley, I went for SHOPPINGGGGG~~~

I bought a bag, at FOS :)

I saw a pair of Carlo Rino shoes looking good,50% discount some more!!!

I was thinking to buy it but I didn't :(

'Cause it's white colour, easy to get dirty...

~~( Well, I'm lazy to take good care of my shoes )~~

It's not convenient - if you are a person who chooses public bus as your transportation LIKE ME. SAD!!!

I wanted to buy shoes, I couldn't find any suitable one, TOO BAD.

My dad bought a camera, OLYMPUS.

FINALLY, our home got a CAMERA.

It's not really a X'mas for us, it's a SHOPPING DAY! :DD

We had our lunch at Garden, Mid Valley.

* The restaurant called- GARDEN, so don't misunderstand that we had our lunch at THE GARDENS.*

Mummy ate Nasi Lemak. LOL.

It's mine! Looks so little. Seafood Spaghetti. It got its name, I Forgot :P

We had our tea at COME BUY.

Well, the name of this cafe is really funny.

I drank Pudding Chocolate, not bad, NICE! :D

I look like an Alien. LOL

My mum's like promoting it. xDD

X'mas decor in Mid Valley.

I feel like there's nothing special & extraordinary pretty decor in any shopping mall this year.

Kinda BLUR...

GOSH, My chubby face... SO FAT!!! :(

Merry X'mas to everyone :)

Dear Santa, did you forgotten me? Where's my present?

All I want for x'mas is you- MONEY! LOL

I guess Santa couldn't find my address in google map. ~~TOO BAD.~~

A date with buddy :)

2011-12-17T14:57:00.004+08:00

14th Dec 2011

I dated my buddy, Sook Teng :)

We met when we were 7.

Do the math, we already knew each other for 10 years. :D

It's a bless. Even though we went to different high school but we still keep in touch.

We're buddies! & We're talkative, we can just talk & talk & talk... NON-STOP.

It's a good thing. There's endless topic in our conversations.

Our friendship won't get... COLD? LOL.

We went to Ts,Sg.Wang, Fahrenheit & Pavilion.

We walked A LOT. Talk A LOT as well.

She became my private photographer for one day. xD

There's different bear bear from all over the world at Pavilion!

How amazing & nice! :DD

It's from S'pore if not mistaken.

Don't tell me you don't know where is it from. USA! I suppose to buy an ice-cream then only take pic with it. LOL

Me + She = BUDDIES :P

SNOW FLAKE AT PAVILION :D

We went back to TS for tea time! :D

We had over tea at SHARE TEA,TS.

She drank what I drank that morning in the same day :P

After tea, we took bus to Leisure Mall.

We waited her daddy to fetch us over there.

We were planning to have sushi for lunch that day.

But the restaurant at Fahrenheit didn't open.

We were pretty pissed. We waited it for hours. At last it still close.

No idea what were the clerks doing inside. -.-

So we bought sushi at Leisure Mall. LOL.

We're CRAZY & I know it. :P

Had a good day with her! :)

We at least date once a year. & we'll keep doing this.

Some episodes in my life.

2011-12-10T17:39:00.001+08:00

15 October 2011
Graduation Day :)

Hsu Ann & I :)

I Love this one! =D

Kun Yi, Me & Mrs.Yong :) (Pls ignore the background/stranger)

Me & my stupid form teacher :PPP

~~There's a lot of pictures in FB .~~

24th November 2011

Science Paper-SPM!

Sing K + Nickee's birthday celebration :D

(Our original plan was watching movie)

Kei, Mk,Me,Nickee,Jian & Shin :)

Me & the birthday girl- Nickee =)

Btw, the cake is TOO SWEET.

Mk + Me

Shin & Me. I know I got pimples on my tiny little poor face D:

It was tiring yet FUN :D

25th Nov 2011

Our movie plan was screwed up on 24th so we finally had our movie on 25th :P

You're The Apple of My Eye 那些年,我们一起追过的女孩.

This movie's AWESOME! :)

Touched! But I didn't cry. Many people cried when they're watching it.

I don't really get it, which part make them cried?

I love the graduation part. They drew something on each other's school uniform. How memorable & touching?! I do envy them. In reality, mine was just... pretty USUAL. Nothing special.

In the movie, they said something meaningful. It's like... this is our movie. Teen's movie! This movie totally expressed what we feel inside.

Moreover, it's FUNNY!

Why is it classified as a movie which is 18 & above only can watch? That's stupid.

Fortunately, we watched! :D

28 Nov 2011

I hung out with May Ting. :)

Don't ask me was I still having SPM, the answer is YES.

We were having group study. :P I'm HONEST! She taught me Perdagangan. I was going to have my Perdagangan paper on the same week.

We studied at Old Town, Leisure Mall.

Mei Qi suddenly appeared! LOL. It was so called SURPRISE. Well, I was thinking to meet her over there because she lives somewhere around leisure mall. But she just came to us without I invited her. Funny. May Ting told her & she asked May Ting to not tell me. Lame. LOL. We grabbed some pictures. :)

May Ting Babe + Me :)

She said, finally we got a photo together. LOL

Mei Qi & Me.

9 December 2011

I hung out with my sis :)

We've done a "Food Mission".

We'd the soup in bread at Expresso Soup, Times Square.

Ireland Potato,Planet Popcorn & 歇脚亭 (We grabbed some drinks before we left).

Our main destination was having a movie - Petaling Street Warriors!

It's a lame, funny Comedy :DDD

I would never forget the MJ part. The guy became MJ to have a kung fu fight with a.... Bondan? LOL

Petaling Street Warriors

Planet Popcorn!!! Seaweed Flavour! =9

Just some episodes in my recent life.

I'm looking forward to the date with my gang.

There's not much chances to meet or hang out anymore.

Since, we already graduated. We're growing apart.

Life still moves on. We will be keep in touch. I'll never forget our friendships.

I'm going to have a new life.

What have done is done. Will I change? Maybe. Probably.

Even though I might changed someday, there's still something remain.

I won't tell you what it is. Just keep it as a little secret.

Move on, Human! ♥

正式告别高中生活

2011-12-07T13:00:00.000+08:00

今天,最后一天SPM。
也是最后一天穿校服，校鞋，鞋袜...
最后一科，终极考卷-华语。
我很喜欢它的作文题目，感觉太对了!
[毕业钟声响起]

其实很感触...之前自己说过，如果SPM出离别的话我一定很有FEEL写...
还不错，毕业跟离别没差... :')
还以为我会写到哭，但是没有，因为我欲哭无泪...
只是超级感触，感慨...
美君说得对，那些年我们一起追过的女孩，没白看!
虽然我们真实的毕业没人家的很有回忆，很温馨...
但感觉很对!
（我喜欢他们毕业时，画对方的校服，好棒哦!）

SPM结束了...
兴奋?说不上...
悲伤?还好嘢...
就感慨，欲哭无泪罢了...

原来，我已经没有机会说假期后再见,再回来这学校，没有上课的日子，没有朋友聚在一起的日子，我怕我会不习惯...
不想离开，我不舍得...
2011年12月7日,中午1点正,我已经正式告别了高中生活...

没有钟声，没有唱国歌，没有开周会，没有吵吵闹闹，
我突然觉得毕业后的日子太宁静，寂寞来袭...
5年，说多不多，说少不少，但以足够我们拥有不少的回忆...
有哭有笑有泪，酸甜苦辣尽在其中...

面对离别，告诉我该如何潇洒?
我其实无法就那样挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩...

给不舍一个时间限制，伤心不可以太久，伤身...

时光，没有重来，没有停顿，时间只有一个方向，顺时钟...

HIGH SCHOOL NO TAKE TWO. :')

SPM! FIGHT!

2011-11-13T12:07:00.001+08:00

SPM!!! 老娘跟你拼了!!!

其实信心....是没有的...我只知道我要跟它死过罢了!!!

Dear School, at first I was going to miss you after spm.
BUT NOW, so sorry, u pissed me off. I HATE U DAMN MUCH NOW.

It was humiliating me. My Pride, My Efforts, My A's.
What I paid for my results just proves in vain? WTH.

If I get a good result in SPM. I tell u, all of u gonna 'die'!!! xD
I'll prove to u what I capable of!

Gambateh! FIGHT!

SMILE :)

Running Out of Time.

2011-11-01T21:45:00.001+08:00

13 days left.
SPM is getting nearer & nearer.
NO NO! I'm not ready yet! NOT YET! :(
History, you're killing me.
You've no idea how many cells in my body have been killed when I study history.
I just seek for B... Just gimme. Please?
Competing myself & also Time now.
I need more time.
I'm running out of time. Tik & Tok.
Facebook, Twitter, Bloggie... I've to abandoned you guys TEMPORARILY.

I want to be confident! Confident enough to maintain my A's.
Meanwhile, I afraid of the word - Overconfident!
Just... at least get 5 or 6 A's. My target is 7 or 8 A's. LOL.
FIGHT! :)

When You Believe... You can achieve some miracles.

毕业=离别

2011-10-22T23:46:00.003+08:00

毕业了...
形式上算是毕业了...毕业典礼已经过了...(迟点上载毕业典礼的帖子)

毕业典礼当天,还真没什么感觉...
当天晚上,回到家,冲了个热凉,躺在床上,感觉来了...
突然,很不舍.
原来我要离开了...
不舍得所有一切的一切...
算一算,其实我们还剩下多少时间?
倒数,很痛苦...
滴滴答答的倒数着...不由不得你去倒数,计算...

不想考试,不想长大,不想离开 :'(

毕业典礼后,几乎每一天,甚至每个时刻都会想着...我要离开这学校了...
所有最美好,最不好的回忆都在这里发生.
最不舍的是,朋友...
每次想起,我都会有想飙泪的感觉...
真的很不舍.
纠结着,有时候一些感觉就是无法用言语来形容...

离别,很痛苦.

我想,在真的离开前,痛快地大哭一场...
在高中时期结束前,给自己一个可以留念的画面...

Hi, October!

2011-10-02T17:39:00.006+08:00

Hey, October.
Why is it so fast? :(
~~Time flies~~. No, Time flashed!
Sometimes it just gone as fast as lightning. :(

My Coming Schedule:

6 Oct, appointment with dentist.
I'll know how long should I wait for the braces.
*sigh* I need braces. My teeth is UGLY. :'(
It's not cute at all, people.

15 Oct, Graduation Day!
Wow~! How Exciting!
In the same time, I could tell how much I'm not willing to leave.
School Day. Not about those annoying teachers, not about the school, not about the homework, it's about Friends.
How many memories we have had?
How many laughter & tears in between?
How many things that we've been through?
It's an unknown. It's uncountable.
Tell me what my life would be after graduated?
I couldn't imagine.

22 Oct, Farewell :)
SPBT.
It would hold at teacher's house. (I went there once!)
Wow, this must be memorable!

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Yogurt Fruit Salad. :9

Yummy!

I ate a lot lately. It's healthy!

My mum always say my stomach, intestines or something ain't function well. LOL

I mean, always got problem.

For example, I don't dare to eat curry at outside. 'cause my stomach cannot 'tahan'... p/s: Outside foods ain't that clean either.

Basically, all my organs are sensitive.

I've a sensitive body. LOL. (sounds sexy? xD)

When I was younger, I got skin allergy.

Now, I've grown up, I got nose allergy.

How pity. This is so call, sensitive.

Every time I think of yogurt it must remains me of Mrs.Yong.

She dislikes Yogurt. -.-

I like cheese, she doesn't. I like yogurt, she doesn't. I like cinnamon, she doesn't.

LOL. We're so not match. :P

+++++++++++++++++++++++++

October, please be friendly to me :)

Flow away slowly but smoothly.

Need some study-mood,

Me :)

Talking to myself...

2011-09-30T20:19:00.001+08:00

有时, 一点寂寞.

有时,一点烦恼.

有时,一点快乐.

有时,一点欢笑.

有时,我觉得我好像自己一个人在说话罢了...
不是疯子般的自言自语.是在网络里,自己对自己说话的感觉.
怎么说?
也许自己多疑了,当我在fb里对别人述说一些东西时,就好像自己讲自己爽... -.-
我甚至会认为别人嫌我烦...还是说人家太忙了?我干嘛想太多?
像是,别人懒得回复我之类吧?
因为通常我一激动就打太多字了...? LOL.

不懂啦...也许真的想太多. ~~HYPERSENSITIVE.~~

我可能就是那种不能被忽视的人.
因为会挑起我的自卑心,自尊太强了...
一时的冷落,我会烦恼. 真笨啊...不是我想要的...
IGNORE. 不可以,请不要忽略我.
我是易碎品.虽然我的心是橡胶做的,不是玻璃,不是石头.
对友谊太过重视,所以我也希望朋友也重视回我.
我要的其实只是---真心.

朋友问我,如果我可以选择回到最初点,我会选择不去认识某些人吗?
好问题,我确实想过这样的东西.
答案是,我会!
也许我就不会这么伤,我就不会对从前那么后悔.
但是,过去已是过去,说多无谓.
回不去,但至少生命经历多了,甚至学到学校学不到的东西,那叫作【成长】.

有时,很庆幸,总有朋友能让我倾诉. HEART TO HEART TALK.
有朋友,很健谈,可以无所不谈.
有朋友,会给予安慰,鼓励.
我突然有点害怕,
我会毕业后遇到一样真诚的朋友吗?
50/50?

我无法想象毕业后的生活...
我会不舍得,读书的日子,甚至老师,最主要是朋友.
我怕剩下的只有寂寞陪伴.
因为毕业了都没有什么机会听到朋友们一起38的欢笑了...
我还是这么的依赖,不要怪我.

日子还是要过,
时间飞逝...怎么那么快? :(
剩下40++天.
除了担心,害怕,一天还没拿完我的成绩,我没有那种读书的心情. :\
Account,我爱你,竟然还在A里面. 77,还可以,但比起上次的89,我就想崩溃.
Economy, English. 老师,你们的动作不是一般的慢.虽然我知道你们忙,就不可以有效率一点吗?
BM,叽喳婆,玩嘢,不派,应该也还没改完.一个服字送给你.
Perdagangan, I Never Like You. 跟history一样,羞辱了我的成绩.真难看.

SPM,请你告诉我该怎么面对你?

Everyone wants happiness, and no one wants pain.

But you can't have a rainbow without a little rain.

Rolling In The Deep!

2011-09-27T19:44:00.001+08:00

Adele. The original version. This is amazing! I know her because of this song :)
She's a diva!!! Incredible Voice!

Linkin Park's version. Another style. This cover is so smurf cool!!!

Maddi Jane. An adorable girl with talented voice. She sings great!!!

Glee cast version by Lea Michele & "Jessie" ...
The 1st time I heard this song.
It's a duet. Nice! Acappella version.

Rolling in the deep. This is an awesome song. No matter which version, they're all amazing!!!
I heart this song so smurf much!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDD

I Smurf Them!

2011-09-23T20:08:00.000+08:00

The Smurf smurf my day! :D

I watched it with Laine today :)
It's smurfing funny!!!
The clumsy really funny. LOL.
The most smurfing EPIC part was :
Gargamel smurf to Garbagesmell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The wizard is smurfing funny & stupid! xD
His cat is smurfing funny too.
Are you dead? xDD
That's smurfing hilarious!
The whole movie is smurfing nice! AWESOME ;D
I smurf the smurf language :P
Smurfing All Around.
Smurf here, smurf there, smurfing everywhere!

I smurf 'em :)

I AM FREE!!!

2011-09-20T13:00:00.000+08:00

I'm FREE!!!

I got freedom now!

Trial has come to an END!

Woohooo~~~!!! :D
Well, I wanna say hello to Graduation Day! :)

SPM? Not ya turn yet babe.

I LOVE MYSELF!<3

~~I AM CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!~~

Friends.

2011-09-17T21:59:00.001+08:00

朋友.

其实,真正的朋友,真的不需要常联络,常沟通就可以维持得好吗?
难道感情不会淡下来?
我很好奇...
有时我觉得是真的会冷淡,甚至距离也远了...

我不敢说自己是否是个称职的朋友.
但至少我是真心的.

不知何时开始,
我开始会对某些朋友较冷淡了...
总有个时期是我谁也不想理.
为什么?
也许我认为我不该对其他人那么好,因为不见得我得到相等的待遇.
我知道,做人应该以德报怨.
我有. 但是有时候还是要看情况和看对象吧...
有时候就是犯贱,特地的,特地刁难的..
因为我想如果大家都不怎么在乎,不怎么关心这段友谊,
毕业时会好过点.
因为我就是~~感性派.~~
我怕我舍不得,我不想哭.
明知自己重友情,所以我就更不该令自己为难.
因为我知道,就算我多在乎,不见得他们也一样的在乎.
那么,为什么我要这么傻?
别人说我不应该. 最亲的应该要是亲人.但是连我家人都说我对朋友还好过家人.
我认为友谊是长久的.不会像爱情一样不知哪天会分离了.
但是原来只不过自己太天真.
在友情的角度上,原来我是如此的单纯.
也因为自己太过于在乎,经历了不少.
所以开始建立保护层,保护自己,因为我没有想象中坚强.

我认为友谊就该要有信任.
有个朋友曾经告诉过我,
也许每个人定义不一样,想法不一样,
不是友谊都该要有信任.
我不知道这是什么道理.
如果一段友谊没有信任,告诉我,那是什么?
对我来说,每一段感情都要有信任吧?无论是友情,亲情还是爱情.

真诚.
朋友就是要真心对待彼此.
不是真心的,为什么还要继续伪装当'朋友'?

我就是一个很敏感的人.
更不用说在友情上,我是OVERSENSITIVE...
也许一个status,一个小动作,我就会变得多疑.
也许不是在说着我,我可能也会想太多,开始把自己困在死胡同,专牛角尖...
我的情绪化,最主要被影响的,还是友情.
我不喜欢我这种对友谊过分紧张,过分在乎的心态.
因为我觉得我很笨.很吃亏.很不值.

价值观.
一个朋友的价值.
处女座也许就是这样,全部人都被我标上了price tag.
我会去分析,谁值得我去付出...
幻想与现实可以同时并存的我.
我很现实. 你不是真心,不值得的话,我没必要要对你好. ~~(虽然有时还是忘了去计较.)~~
我可以很大方,我可以很小气.只是看对象是谁罢了.
我可以对一个人很好,也可以不去理会任何人.
我可以跟你计较,我也可以很快忘记.
其实我很善忘. 第二天我就可以没事了.
那是通常. 视事情严重性.
我发现原来不是很多人值得我去对待得好.
我指的是,朋友.

我告诉自己,毕业后我要新生活!!!
上COLLEGE后,我要认识很多人,很多朋友,取代以前所谓的朋友.
当然,值得的朋友,我依然爱他们,只不过怕是他们遗忘了我.
我想要换新号码!但是我不想没有了SUPER SMS :'(
其实我想换很久了...只是因为SMS的原因,而且我的号码很多~~UNKNOWN~~常出现,最主要我想脱离以前...
人就是要向前看.
朋友,老师说过,通常在COLLEGE/U 时期认识到的朋友才会是比较投契,比较长久,甚至是知己.
我认同. 因为通常认识到的都会是相同兴趣吧?（同科系）
而且,大家都会比较成熟吧...(思想)
迫不及待地想要新生活,但是我很舍不得现在.
我没有想象中潇洒...
我就是那么矛盾.或许是人格分裂症? D:
挣扎.自己犯贱了吗?

Friends.
Is all about trustworthy.
I don't know what is it like without trust.
I would call it a falsehood relationship.
It means we're only Hi-Bye Friends.
And I'll be a stranger then.
Whoever is sincere to me. I'll know.
People who even don't give a damn, thank you, I already know who you really are.
I just want sincere friendships. Is it that hard?
Maybe I'll only meet real friends in the future but not now?
To some true friends I've already met. ILY always :)
Friends. Sometimes I barely know what is it really mean...

累.因为压力而泪.

2011-09-15T16:51:00.002+08:00

今天的我,感觉很失败...
因为ACCOUNT.
*叹气*
第一张试卷已经错了很多不该错的问题.
本以为可以再从试卷二下手,像以往一样都是靠那边得分.我想,这次肯定死了...

我不会.
别人会以为我在骗他们.
事实上,我真的不会...
批改方式改了.
我无法想象我的分数会跌去哪个国家.
甚至A也不保...
这机率很大... 如果连B也没有,怎么办?
这一科,我从来没有试过低于A的分数.
之前还想标这科的目标为A+...
我看还是不要傻了... :'(

我试过很多次考试考到很想哭...
这次,我真的忍不住哭了... :'(
我浪费了很多时间在前面的问题,后面我很赶...
我还在为那些问题"拼命"时,时间也剩不多,历史老师竟然叫我去弄好我隔壁的那个烂臭窗帘!!!
其实那时我很想说可以给我考完先吗?但是费事得罪了他.
但是他很不应该咯!他没看到我在考着吗?
如果我已经完成了的话我无所谓啊!但是我还在赶我的考卷叻!
那时我已经考得很烦了,因为我找不到答案.
他竟然为了一件小事而阻扰我作答.
难不成在他眼里,我们的班的成绩就只不过是那样,认为我们都好不到哪里去,打不打断我都是so so 的成绩?
我很给他面子咯...
我弄好后坐下来继续作答时我更有要哭的冲动...
时间到了,
告诉你,~~我没有完全的做完...~~
我强忍着泪...
有人问我有做完吗?
我只是不出声...我怕我一出声,我的泪就飙出来了...

10分钟后放学.
我走过去Maggie身旁,我哭出来了...
无声的哭泣.我一直强忍的泪也忍不住掉了...
我很在意.我在意我无法把考卷做好.
虽然大家都说真的还蛮难,但是这些无法安抚我的伤心.
眼红红,全世界都懂我哭了.
只不过滴下了几滴泪...请不要夸张化.

压力很大.
我的世界正在崩溃...

很累...
因为压力,而泪...

给自己的一封信

2011-09-13T18:08:00.000+08:00

今天,生日...快乐吗?

感觉还不错... :)

今天考科学... 压力很大,考到有点头昏脑溢...
但是考完后却很开心,就是很开心...
有时,我就真的像个孩子一样简单.
考第二张科学时,
Mrs.Yong走到我旁边看我写, 我就停下来,看着她...
然后她轻轻摸我的头就走开了...
一种说不出的感觉,就是有点自HIGH的(暗爽)... xD
也许考试期间我就是~~特别的疯狂~~...

没有特别的庆祝,没有特别的礼物...
但是不知道为什么,我总感觉到今天很快乐...
也许生日拿了一份A-的考试卷,爽了? 哈哈...
不懂,就是感觉到快乐...
很难得我会这样呢!
因为通常我都是那个EMO的我...

我想,也许是知足了...
也许看开了...
也许不再奢望些什么了...
因为目前我只希望把成绩考好来...
礼物如果再好,成绩不好也是没有用的...
也许长大,成熟了...
现实派的我,总觉得礼物要实在的...
我想,成绩变得实在才是最实在的礼物,给自己的一份礼物... :)
物质上的东西,要,就自己去得到,不要期望人家送给你.
这是我学到的一点东西.
因为人也~~靠不住~~的...干嘛要浪费自己的期望放在别人身上?而且也不见得你会得到...
我觉得,我要的,别人不肯能会送,也不一定会送到合心意的...钱,永远都是个问题.
我觉得,我要的,等我找到适合的了,就送给自己,当作是一种奖励...
毕竟,读书压力很大,虽然我还是很懒,但是有时也应该好好地疼惜自己,奖励自己! :)

记得,最爱惜自己的永远是自己.

知足.
要的东西就自己去得到,拥有到也变得长久...

真诚,
往往是从小事里发掘...

生日, 其实也可以令我们看得出哪些人是真心对待的...
我不清楚,但我认为,如果是真心对待的朋友,哪怕你忘了吃饭,朋友的生日怎可能会忘记?
如果世上没有面子书,我想其他人也不记得甚至不知道你的生日吧?
太忙碌而忘记? 嗯...有这种可能性,但如果真的有心的话,你真的会忘记么?
也许每个人不一样? 但我觉得有点牵强... :\
我想表达的是,
生日其实真的没什么大不了, 今天对我而言依然是个普通的日子...
礼物无需很贵重,因为我都是那种,物轻情意重派...
就算是个普通的祝福,我也可以感受到你的真诚...
不是真心的,我宁可不要...
就是一件小事，
你就可以得知一个人的真诚到哪家门口了...
虽然无法直接判断,你也略知一二了吧...
我不介意...
因为我思想也更成熟得多了...
不要为小事而介怀吧...
I deserve better, right?
至少我多懂了一些在学校学不到的东西... :)

我发现,
我已不再因为他人而破坏我自己的心情,
我要的,是为了自己而快乐.
我现在很快乐... :)
生日快乐!

最爱你的自己 ♥

Happy Birthday to ME.

2011-09-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Myself :D
I wish I can get a good result for my SPM.
Well, still have a little bit further but also quite near already.

I don't dare to expect anyone would celebrate for me 'cause there's no one free.
Birthday in trial , tell me who's going to bother my birthday?
Even myself also have no mood for anything.
The main thing is, I'm having Science paper on my birthday. D:
Maybe I'll be good luck in my science paper on my birthday? LOL

Be Happy :)

Happy or Sad September?

2011-09-09T18:36:00.004+08:00

September now.
Should I be happy? Since that it's my birth month. LOL
Well, I can tell ya, I'm not.
'cause this is a trial month.
When we're counting down how many days left to finish this trial, at the same time the official SPM is getting nearer. :(
Times flies.
Tomorrow is weekend. I've no idea how does time passed through without me noticing.
I've finished BC,BM, BI, Maths,Moral & History papers.
Thanks Gosh!
Once I finished the history paper, I feel so relieved. :D
Before started the paper, I was so stress & wanted to cry out.
It's the hardest paper for me.
The most stressful one.
I think I might fail, again? Teacher is so damn strict!
Those difficult papers are coming soon too. D:
Science. Account. Economy. Perdagangan.
Started to worry about my science.
I'm not well-prepared. Seriously, none of these papers I feel like I've been prepared.
I'm worrying how to maintain my A's. *sigh*

Exam makes me so stressful.
The evidence is right on my pretty little face!
Damn! I hate pimples.
Why is it seems like each exam day grows one more pimples?! WTH!
My pimples are getting worse & worse while trial.
That's why I hate exam that much.
I feel so ugly. Even my friends said that I look so... erm, pale or sick or whatever.
Just make it simple, I look ugly! ;'(

Exam makes me more emotional. Seriously.

I already knew my result of BC paper 1 & Maths paper 1.
Bc, hmm, just fine, okay, still have to see how sucks is my paper 2.
ARGHH.. I got 38/40 for my maths paper 1 :( I wanna score it! Depends my paper 2 now...

I just want everything be fine, trial get through smoothly.. :)

Today is my mummy's birthday.
I baked a cake :D
Next week is mine.
Well. I'm going to celebrate with Science paper ,books & also Chinese Class. xD
How 'wonderful'! Fascinating!!!
I've no any hope/expectation of anyone would celebrate my birthday.
I don't even dare to think of it. What will be, will be :)
Here, I wish myself Happy Birthday. :P

AFAMOSA TRIP :)

2011-08-31T13:20:00.001+08:00

Don't ask me how's my holiday.

2011-08-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

Just went back from Malacca, AFAMOSA :D
Spent my weekend over there, 2 days 1 night.
Water World, Cowboy Town, Animal World Safari :)
It was awesome!
BUT it ain't awesome at all when I got home :(
I'm going to post photos in my bloggie...
Maybe soon or maybe after trial? D:

What am I going to deal with my one week holiday?

It's not really a HOLIDAY, cause I'm going to study for my trial.

( Well, I'm not really sure that am I 100% focus on my 'study plan' , I might sneaking around with TV & Internet :P )

I did some mistakes on my 1st paper, Bahasa Cina.
I blamed on those people who sang patriotic songs loudly that day.
YES I DO BLAME.
The environment is pretty important to me, I need silence!!!
Those people huh, they didn't even show how patriotism are they on normal day, I mean usually...
ARGHH... Just spoiled my mind to focus & I screwed up my trial.
I've had a BAD START, how am I going to go through with other papers?
I'm doomed. I'm screwed.
Negative thoughts. BUT WHAT TO DO?
Kill Me Man.
I'm going to INSANE, officially.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHH...........

STRESSFUL.

FML.

Depressed - ME.

'Disfigurement' caused by STRESS.

2011-08-23T22:42:00.001+08:00

Trial makes me look uglier,

SPM gonna disfigure my poor little face then. :'(

There's many "Sign of Puberty" on my face.

The Main Reason to cause it: STRESS!

Gosh.

This Friday gonna start my trial.

1st subject : Bahasa Cina.

Well, even though I've gained some knowledge from the seminar,

but I don't think because of that I will sure get A.

Ain't that EASY man...

I'm going to have my Science paper ON MY BIRTHDAY.

WTH???

Should I call it LUCKY or what?

Wish my birthday would bring me luck then. :')

Hsu Ann asked me how am I going to celebrate my birthday.

I was so... speechless...

I stared at her with unpleasant look,

answered: "I'm going to have science paper that day,

after that I'm going to have Chinese lesson class.

You asking me HOW TO CELEBRATE?"

It's my last birthday in schooling life,

why should be so cruel to me? :(

Trial is going to start.

I might not online for days...

After trial only get back to my 'entertaining internet life'.

Wish Me Luck.

Knock On Wood :)