"My World Vs. Real World"

how to sneak out from your house?

2012-01-29T01:26:00.000-08:00

Mekong Quilt

This is very unbelievable true story. My friend and I went around some fancy and European style shops(window shopping ~.~) behind the Royal Palace. Accidentally, we saw a grand opening shop so we decided to stop by if they let us without invitation. Yes, we got in. Unexpectedly, we got free food too.

The most excited moment came, there was a lucky draw. I told my friend that we would just ignore the lucky draw part because we both in our whole life never win even once. Suddenly, they announce his name. A few minutes later, I heard my name, and i thought to myself that was i dreaming? geez, i won a prize yayaya.... So we ended buying some stuffs at shop,and plus some gift ^^ what a lucky day.

Riverhouse
The next day. Another friend called me if i wanted to sneak out for a clubbing, and i said yes why not. I really don't know how to get visa from my parents (permission), but we decided to sneak out successfully :p not gonna tell detail how lolz. But u might get some ideas from Google.

The best part is dancing like the world end. We all love dancing, shouting, jumping, but not interested in drinking -.- I would rate it as number one since i came back from hk. I have to tell u guys that i love dancing more than anything in the world.lolz

Pontoon
After had a drink at one of a fancy hotels in Cambodia, Le Raffle, we had dinner at La Khmer food village. The next round was at Saint Tropess... then pontoon... not much to tell, unless u ask me -.-

okay let me stop here then. :P

H&M - so me

2012-01-25T08:56:00.001-08:00

Cute cafe - Bloom

2012-01-25T01:20:00.000-08:00

I'm sitting at a cute cafe shop while thinking of life what to do next, how to plan, how to backup bla bla bla. This actually feels great, quiet, peaceful, relax.

In life, there is always up and down, depending on how to reach your goal. Sometime, your goal is too high, and when you can't make it, u get depress. Here doesn't mean that you have to set your goal lower, but you just have to do your best in every goal you set, and that's it. If you can't make it, you have to tell yourself that you done your best.

Sometime i strike too much, too hash, and too short. Maybe, i should slower down a little bit in things that i expected. Instead, I should be more productive at work, extra work, extra activity, extra exercise ( devil laugh ^.^)

I know that i'm not perfect, nor good person in the eyes of --- but i will try to make up and will try to forgive myself for negative guilty i have, and move on with life, work, and reach my goals.

I haven't forgotten my dream anyway.

2012-01-23T10:15:00.000-08:00

nothing is certain in life! it seems to be easy to say but its never easy to do! I think I should strike even harder that things around me! anyway, i will fight till the end of d world! :)

forgotten

2012-01-20T09:33:00.000-08:00

There are many reasons, why i like blogging, photoing! one of them is being forgotten...

Just in case, some day, suddenly i disappear... i hope people still remember me... and still remember my face!!! then i won't be forgotten...

!.!

2012-01-19T07:16:00.001-08:00

as long as i could remain my smile, all bad things will turn good~.~

sigh or no sigh!

"Lost Love"

2012-01-13T19:02:00.000-08:00

A few friends and I watched the "Lost Love" at Cineplesx. During the first few minutes, i really got annoyed by a group of unbelievable girls that kept talking loud while they are watching a very sad movie based on true story of the film maker. And, all my friends none cried while i cried my eyes off. However, i have to accept that everyone is different, I can't force people to be like me.

I have involved a lot regarding Genocide, killing field, year zero, and whatsoever its called. I read some of those confession letter of S21 Prisoners, it was like killing my heart, i couldn't believe that could happen around Cambodia for 3 years 8 months and 20 days, while the whole world left us behind.

"I was evicted a rural village, and i was addressed as a new people from PP. Most people who had been staying with me in that village, were destroyed because they are educated people because they didn't burn their diploma certificate, and Angkar found it so they got killed. I tried my best to follow Angkar, and worked hard that's why i can live till today."

My Mum:

"Even I was based people at the village, we still got killed one by one. I kept poison and a knife with me . Whenever it were my turn, i would run to the forest, and suicide. Luckily, i am still alive"--- mum, i couldn't bear listening her story, it kills me so much.

I am sad because i don't know how to... i think questions full in my head will lead me to go wherever i am trying to do.

the owner is on holiday :P

2011-12-27T10:07:00.001-08:00

doesn't matter

2011-12-12T07:15:00.000-08:00

It doesn't matter how the stormy goes across you, it doesn't matter how other people look at you, it doesn't matter how the world treat you, it doesn't matter how your good friend turns out to be a dvil or little disappointed you, it doesn't matter how people around you put poker face which could scare you off, it doesn't matter how your bf doesn't treat you right, it doesn't matter how your parents treat you unfairly with yours sis/bro,

it really doesn't matter because you believe in yourself in everything you have crossed, it a lesson which make you strong and move on!

all you have to do is just enjoy the journey :)

Cute Little Dress Shop turns out to be a devil ?.?

2011-12-04T07:35:00.001-08:00

Girls, how do you feel when you are trying on clothes at a cute shop, suddenly the shop owner/just slaver shouted at you that you can only try on 3 pieces of clothes, what the F*k policy is that? what if i want to buy four pieces ??? Shit, i feel so assaulted >.<

Broken promise

2011-11-29T03:41:00.001-08:00

Broken promise could cause many things in life!!! i experienced from family and life... i am somehow feel so uncomfortable with many things which cause me a lot problem... i do not feel want to meet friends... i am kinda lost!!! i don't know

Bathroom

2011-11-26T07:17:00.001-08:00

There is a story to tell about bathroom... i get to feel that bathroom is very useful for many reasons!

what i mean here is wc at home and work place!

What is Bathroom?-> a place to be used for ...

What is Bathroom?-> a private room, no one could interrupt you.

What is Bathroom?-> a place where you could have a moment in your life... to think, to miss, to feel about all your personal life, to cry!!! Bathroom could be a good place to be used as a shoulder when everyone in the world turn back at you; turn you down; or everything in the world seems to be too gray for you!

What is Bathroom?-> a place where you could have a break from work!

What is Bathroom?-> a place where you could just hang out ... avoiding people!!!

What is Bathroom?-> a place where you could take yourself-picture :)

What is Bathroom?-> there are a lot more reasons that Bathroom could be used!!!

2011-11-25T08:23:00.001-08:00

Is there anyone following my blog like a drama on TV? there was one guy, my fan said that to me that everything in my blog is like adventure, and like a drama on TV!!! i smiled and i speak to myself there is someone will remember even when i'm gone... I will be remembered!!!

Will this drama end soon???????????????????

Working Life

2011-11-21T06:50:00.001-08:00

It's not easy starting something very new! I know it!

I still chose it for a sake of challenging life experience!

Anyway, again I am learning slowly or too slow gosh!!

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at a sudden i feel like...

2011-11-18T21:58:00.001-08:00

why this age of a woman has change very fast, mood, appearance to older n older??? I feel I take everything a little too serious, and can't build my excitement moment every time i start blogging? or i am that old already?

Sometime at a sudden I feel like I am lost and I don't know what to do where to go what to say ... is it happening to other people? or am i have having a sigh of stress or depress? what is next? Sigh

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2011-11-16T23:03:00.001-08:00

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Hot News

2011-11-15T02:32:00.001-08:00

I am tying in a car now reporting a hot news about an accident bwt a 2002-Camery and a Motobike riding with tow little girls (one is high school girl another one is jusst about 9 years old) in front the New World institute. What i saw is that the car ran a bit over the motobike till she jumped out with some injuries. I can't believe the guy in the car doesn't come out and help these two poor girls. How can people live in khmer society without ethic and moral in their head!!!'

Blame you!!! suck

Vote topic plz

2011-11-04T20:56:00.000-07:00

I am thinking of writing my trip experience but I could not decide which trip I share yet, is it okay if you guys vote for me? here are the topics:

India Trip: I had my first competition in Bagalore.
USA: I had my second competition in Washington D.C.
Italy: My third competition in a small and extraordinary island, Siracusa.
Malaysia and SG trip by my own
Hong kong???
what else??? can't remember
my backpack experience?

Bai Srob

2011-11-03T00:18:00.000-07:00

This is a typical breakfast for Khmer people, called Bai Srob.

I never know that Bai Srob now cost me 8500 Reil ( is about $2) at Russina Market. When i was young about 10 years ago, one breakfast it cost me only 1500-2000 Reil only, and see the inflation now is very big. How can poor people survive @.@

I really do not know what are the causes this inflation in Cambodia, but willing to find out more!

How to Gain Control of Your Emotions

2011-11-01T08:19:00.000-07:00

I find myself very depressed lately dealing with job, people, family bla bla bla... fine i really run out of words to describe my situation right now; however, just so you know i am fighting within myself first and things around me! su su...

I hope the above article helping anyone who are failing in same disaster like me :)

Controlling your emotions doesn't mean ignoring them. It means you recognize them and act on them when you deem it appropriate, not randomly and uncontrollably.

Steps

On the Spot

1
Know your emotions. There are a million different ways you can feel, but scientists have classified human emotions into a few basics that everyone can recognize: joy, acceptance, fear, surprise, sadness, disgust, anger, and anticipation.^[1] Jealousy, for example, is a manifestation of fear - fear that you're not "as good" as something else, fear of being abandoned because you're not "perfect" or "the best".
2
Recognize that emotions don't just appear mysteriously out of nowhere. Many times, we're at the mercy of our emotions on a subconscious level. By recognizing your emotions on a conscious level, you're better able to control them. It's also good to recognize an emotion from the moment it materializes, as opposed to letting it build up and intensify. The last thing you want to do is ignore or repress your feelings, because if you're reading this, you probably know that when you do that, they tend to get worse and erupt later. Ask yourself throughout the day: "How am I feeling right now?" If you can, keep a journal.
3
Notice what was going through your mind when the emotion appeared. Stop and analyze what you were thinking about, until you find what thought was causing that emotion. Your boss may not have made eye contact with you at lunch, for example; and without even being aware of it, the thought may have been in the back of your mind, "He's getting ready to fire me!"
4
Write down the evidence which supports the thought that produced the emotion or against that thought. When you begin to think about it, you might realize that sincenobody gets along well with this particular boss, he can't afford to actually fire anyone,because the department is too short-staffed. For example, you may have let slip something that you should not have said which angered him, but which it is too late to retract.
5
Ask yourself, "What is another way to look at the situation that is more rational and more balanced than the way I was looking at it before?" Taking this new evidence into account, you may conclude that your job is safe, regardless of your boss's petty annoyances, and you're relieved of the emotion that was troubling you. If this doesn't work, however, continue to the next step.
6
Consider your options. Now that you know what emotion you're dealing with, think of at least two different ways you can respond. Your emotions control you when you assume there's only one way to react, but you always have a choice. For example, if someone insults you, and you experience anger, your immediate response might be to insult them back. But no matter what the emotion, there are always at least two alternatives, and you can probably think of more:
- Don't react. Do nothing.
- Do the opposite of what you would normally do.
7
Make a choice. When deciding what to do, it's important to make sure it's a conscious choice, not a reaction to another, competing emotion. For example, if someone insults you and you do nothing, is it your decision, or is it a response to your fear of confrontation? Here are some good reasons to act upon:
- Principles - Who do you want to be? What are your moral principles? What do you want the outcome of this situation to be? Ultimately, which is the decision you'd be most proud of? This is where religious guidance comes into play for many people.
- Logic - Which course of action is the most likely to result in the outcome you desire? For example, if you're being confronted with a street fight, and you want to take thepacifist route, you can walk away--but, there's a good chance that burly drunk will be insulted if you turn your back. Maybe it's better to apologize and keep him talking until he calms down.
Ideas that Cause Negative Emotions

1
Change your perspective. The above steps show how to not let your emotions control your behavior on the spot. If you want to experience fewer negative emotions to begin with, change the way you see the world. If you learn how to be optimistic and laid back, you'll find that negative emotions make fewer appearances to be reckoned with.
2
Eliminate many of the underlying core beliefs which give rise to your disturbing thoughts and negative emotions. There are many irrational ideas that repeatedly upset us^[2] They are all false, but many of us are inclined to at least some of them part of the time. You can get rid of these ideas by debating within yourself until you have cast them out...
3
"I must be perfect in all respects in order to be worthwhile." Nobody can be perfect ineverything that we have to do in life. But if you believe that you're a failure unless you are perfect in every way, you are setting yourself up for a lifetime of unhappiness.
4
"I must be loved and approved of by everyone who is important to me." Sometimes you just can't help making enemies, and there are people in the world who bear ill will to almost everyone. But you can't make your own life miserable by trying to please them.
5
"When people treat me unfairly, it is because they are bad people." Most of the people who treat you unfairly have friends and family who love them. People are mixtures of good and bad.
6
"It is terrible when I am seriously frustrated, treated badly, or rejected." Some people have such a short fuse, that they are constantly losing jobs or endangering friendships because they are unable to endure the slightest frustration.
7
"Misery comes from outside forces which I can’t do very much to change." Many prison inmates describe their life as if it were a cork, bobbing up and down on waves of circumstance. You can choose whether to see yourself as an effect of your circumstances, or a cause.
8
"If something is dangerous or fearful, I have to worry about it." Many people believe that "the work of worrying" will help to make problems go away. "Okay, that's over. Now, what's the next thing on the list that I have to worry about?"
9
"It is easier to avoid life’s difficulties and responsibilities than to face them." Even painful experiences, once we can get through them, can serve as a basis for learning and future growth.
10
"Because things in my past controlled my life, they have to keep doing so now and in the future." If this were really true, it would mean that we are prisoners of our past, and change is impossible. But people change all the time -- and sometimes they change dramatically!
11
"It is terrible when things do not work out exactly as I want them to." Could you have predicted the course of your own life? Probably not. By the same token, you can't predict that things are going to work out exactly as you want them to, even in the short term.
12
"I can be as happy as possible by just doing nothing and enjoying myself, taking life as it comes." If this were true, almost every wealthy or comfortably retired person would do as little as possible. But instead, they seek new challenges as a pathway to further growth.
Ideas that Make Negative Emotions Worse

1
Learn to avoid the cognitive distortions which make things look worse than they really are. Most of us have heard the expression, "looking at the world through rose-colored glasses." But when you use cognitive distortions, you tend to look at the world through mud-colored glasses! Here are some ideas that you should stop from rolling through your head if you catch yourself thinking them...
2
All-or-nothing thinking. Everything is good or bad, with nothing in between. If you aren't perfect, then you're a failure. You procastinate doing stuff because they are not perfect until you have no other choice than doing them.
3
Overgeneralization. A single negative event turns into a never-ending pattern of defeat. "I didn't get a phone call. I'll never hear from anybody again."
4
Mental filter. One single negative thing colors everything else. When you're depressed, it sometimes feels like you're "looking at the world through mud-colored glasses."
5
Disqualifying the positive. If somebody says something good about you, it doesn't count. But if somebody says something bad about you, you "knew it all along."
6
Jumping to conclusions. You make a negative interpretation even though there are no definite facts that convincingly support your conclusion.
7
Mind reading. You think somebody is disrespecting you and don't bother to check it out. You just assume that he is.
8
The Fortune Teller Error. You think that things are going to turn out badly, and convince yourself that this is already a fact.
9
Magnification (catastrophizing) or minimization. Imagine that you're looking at yourself or somebody else through a pair of binoculars. You might think that a mistake you made or somebody else's achievement are more important than they really are. Now imagine that you've turned the binoculars around and you're looking through them backwards. Something you've done might look less important than it really is, and somebody else's faults might look less important than they really are.
10
Emotional reasoning. You assume that your negative emotions necessarily reflect the way things really are: "I feel it, therefore it must be true."
11
Should statements. You beat up on yourself as a way of getting motivated to do something. You "should" do this, you "must" do this, you "ought" to do this, and so on. This doesn't make you want to do it, it only makes you feel guilty. When you direct should statements toward others, you feel anger, frustration, and resentment.
12
Labeling and mislabeling. This is an extreme form of overgeneralization. When you make a mistake, you give yourself a label, such as, "I'm a loser." When someone else's behavior rubs you the wrong way, you attach a negative label to him, "He's a louse." Mislabeling involves describing an event with language that is highly colored and emotionally loaded.
13
Personalization. You believe that you were the cause of something bad that happened, when you really didn't have very much to do with it. And ask a friend to help you realize your emotions or worries so that you can have someone to rely on.

Tips

No matter what you choose to do, it's important to continue acknowledging the emotion. Just because you're not reacting to an emotion doesn't mean that emotion doesn't exist.
Learn to recognize and anticipate "triggers" that set you off.
Some experiences like watching a film, hearing a sound or tasting a food (sensory input) can trigger or bring about good emotions. The more good ones you can recognize, pay attention to and be aware of, the easier it is to put your self in that kind of a recognizable mood. It's far easier to get out of an angry or sad state of mind when you can know what happy or joyful state of mind is like.

Warnings

It is important to control your emotions, but suppressing them or denying that they exist is entirely different. Suppressing your emotions can cause physical disorders and more emotional symptoms.
Many emotional problems are so complex that they require the additional professional assistance of a licensed psychologist, counselor, or social worker.

This whole article belongs to http://www.wikihow.com/Gain-Control-of-Your-Emotions

Nin Ja

2011-10-26T01:48:00.000-07:00

Nin Ja, Nearirath

Only if i could be a real Nin ja, i would Bit Poung to everywhere i wanna go >_<

unfortunately, reality is still there waiting for me to accept it.

if i die young,____ ???

2011-10-24T19:25:00.001-07:00

Things to do ^-^

2011-10-24T02:10:00.000-07:00

The following is a schedule of different events. I copy it from Lady Penh website for those who are looking for something to do or sth interesting :)

Monday, October 24

18:00 Woody Allen's Midnight in Paris (2011) @ The Flicks

19:30 Nerd Night Phnom Penh #nnpp @ FCC

20:00 Green Lantern @ The Flicks

Regulars and reminders

06:30 Yoga @ The Flicks

08:00 Yoga @ The Flicks

Selected Works from Prom Vichet and Suos Sodavy @ Java Café & Gallery

Exhaustive live music listings @ Leng Pleng

Barcamp PP 4, see ya'll there ^^

2011-10-20T21:17:00.000-07:00

Day-Dreaming @.@

2011-10-20T20:52:00.000-07:00