my confession

I Miss You

2012-04-30T05:49:00.001-07:00

facing the time,

saying thank you and goodbye,

and giving a smile,

indeed on that time.

walking in different way,

i blink to think of you each day,

we're facing miles between you and I

& embracing the breeze for flight.

i always think of you,

bu sometimes, it makes me blue,

you're far away.

and my heart turns gray.

i miss your appearance,

i miss our first acquaintance,

and even the way you dance.

... i'm now loosing my resistance.

i miss those smiles that made me happy,

and those laughter's that made me crazy.

i set my self to pretend just for you to comprehend,

i came to realization that i'm just a friend.

i miss the voice of yours,

that sounds better in my ears.

i miss the times that we were together,

and those thoughts that we shared together.

it's like a wound that won't stop bleeding,

a thorn that i am bringing

and a pin that won't stop hurting.

it's when i think that you are missing.

i'm looking at the night sky,

then i close my eyes,

& say "i wish you were here,

i miss you!"

You broke my Silence

2012-04-30T05:37:00.004-07:00

I've been alone for so long

I've been making myself strong

but there was a roar inside me

that gave me beautiful melody.

i'm feeling alive

when i ruined the knife,

the knife of silence.

i kill my being emotionless.

my old stereo hearts whispered,

it turned to shout its thought.

coz you've turned me on.

i don't feel so alone,

coz i've been thinking of you

i don't care if they have known,

i just express what's true to me and you.

you make my world upside down

my world got no more drowned.

i can feel your steps on the ground,

coz i got you, you are found. !

and now i don't have anything to hide,

i'm breaking the loneliness,

every moment feels right,

coz you broke my silence.

A Poem

2012-04-16T06:02:00.000-07:00

here i am, writing a poem,

writing a poem with all may soul,

writing a poem, it;s all i know.

it's me, emotions has been shown.

words have flown in my heart, soul and mind

i've seen many concepts even i'm blind.

pens got damn but the ink flows.

it invaded my paper coz' it grows.

for all the poems that i did,

i just act the what i do.

emotions has been guiding me to lead.

all of my poems are just for you.

The way i spend my time

2012-04-16T05:55:00.004-07:00

time is gold and we can't afford,

we live with time that you can only record

we create to spend time like buzzing on the phone.

me too like making a poem.

sometimes i waste my time imagining,

thinking for what will happen if the world's ending

but i turned on and switched on thinking

and after, day dreaming.

time is a heart that beats fast.

it can take slow or fast.

the way i spend my time with you,

i always think that my heart beats for you.

I've been spending my time waiting for the right time,

the right time to say, i love you for my whole life.

i'm not pulling your leg and playing a dice

i'd only stop when pigs fly.

the time runs faster and faster

i wish i could set the time back

just to cherish one another

sadly, let's just a accept the fact.

the way i spend my time writing,

is the way i'm thinking and dreaming.

and the way i spend my time with you jamming,

is the way my heart beat singing.

friend's comfort

2012-04-16T05:37:00.001-07:00

i'm in an empty room,

it's so gloom

they don't understood

they were not good.

i was looking at the window,

looking at my reflection,

talking to my shadow.

i was hurt on that tension!

i'm on the walls,

stunning my head,

my tears shed

on my face and falls.

i'm buzzing' with my best friend

even she's not here,

i'm grate to have her.

she's my good adviser.

i'm not crying anymore.

hatred has been gone.

i'm looking on the floor,

i'll just say that was fun !!

Picture

2012-04-16T05:27:00.001-07:00

making me pink,

that's how i feel

as i see the image's color,

i broke the depths of sorrow.

i'm laying down on my bed,

i'm looking at my wallet instead

and have a picture and say,

"how many poems to make you stay?"

in times when i look at the picture,

it makes me count the days,

that's how i miss this only creature,

and she's got a technicolor face.

i'm holding it while writing

i'm feeling falling.

but it's no surprise,

'coz i ____ her. it's not a lie.

as i leave the picture behind,

i pretended that's it's on my mind

but i go back, hold it and say

"in all the pictures there's only

one that makes me stay."

its eyes view,

makes me brighten the blue

and makes me feel the stellar moment.

it's when i like at a picture of you.

my life begins

2012-04-09T15:29:00.001-07:00

(the first part of "Super hero")

as i see the world today,

death and war is waiting,

fire and water is shaking

and gold & success is hiding!

there are a lot of people,

chasing their dream

making their life's sequel,

but they are in dim!

when i first saw this world,

it seems to be the arena from its birth,

where the people will face the reality

& will face their final destiny.

I've been stepping to the new world,

things were being whirled.

i risked myself tho hard strive

for me to win and survive!

i left the past that bind me,

i will have the ecstasy,

i just broke my negativity

and happiness will find me.

i'll show them what's real,

i will fight the pains

and i will standstill !

today, My Life Begins !

on the phone: message

2012-04-09T15:16:00.001-07:00

sometimes, i'm sharing thoughts

and sometimes, quotes.

if i have a load

on the phone.

i kept those good message of yours

it's my choice, i'm not forced.

if you ask me yo look at it,

i'd say it's fine.

as i remember, we were funny buzzin'

laughing on it and chillin'.

i had placed your name a smiley on my phonebook.

'coz you're the one i like, it should.

i'm always waiting for your reply,

to tell you frankly, this can't be denied!

don't ask me why,

the answer would be wide!

i start liking you when i got your number.

i reply what i do.

your message is like water,

it fills me up, it's true.

Always

2012-04-09T15:06:00.001-07:00

i always turn up the music,

i always say i'm poetic,

i always express what i feel

and i always write what i feel.

i'm alone in my room tonight,

looking at the moonlight.

can't take away what i always say

and what i always think each day.

you're always making me smile

even we're facing many miles.

i always smile even at your back.

i always love your smile. :)

Magical wind(the reality)

2012-04-02T00:09:00.000-07:00

they have blown my mind

and so as my heart.

they have healed the blinds

and so as my eyes.

they wept out my tears

that's full of fears

they helped my wings to fly.

i kissed the sky.

i was facing the magic of the wind

they have summoned the gravity,

they were playing the reality.

but i was facing the fantasy,

I've called the son of eternity.

the moment was magical,

when they hit me.

then i saw a girl,

one of my inspiration.

i kissed the wind and left some thoughts.

thoughts won't be an emotion to toss.

then it came to a message to remember,

and they realized that "I ____ her".

I'm shouting my feelings,

joining the rhythm

let them whisper to your ear

and let them wipe your tear.

they made me groovy!

Super HERO

2012-04-01T02:51:00.002-07:00

I was facing the world

with twists and turns

I wanted to curse

but it was so blurred!

i was startled

when the enemies came.

that was whistled

by the king of pain.

i was so wicked,

they made me naked,

made me in pain

and interlaced by the chain.

they made me breathless

coz they got my weakness.

suddenly, they were speechless

coz i broke the darkness!

the enemies were shattered

the blood went to scatter.

i saw my power,

a power to conquer.

before,

i was only zero.

now,

I'm more that just a Super HERO

...

another life to strive,

another time of my life

.. it's to win a woman's heart

... i am inspired

Remember

2012-03-25T19:00:00.000-07:00

Feeling the soft breeze,

watching the night sky,

listening music of my life

and thinking that can't be ceased.

i remember the days when you called me,

calling me with a nickname "tih"

calling like the wind whispers me.

that's why i was tickled pink

i remember the laughters that we had.

you've been done a lot of jokes

you've just acted like the jerks(hahaha!)

yea! i pretty liked it like that.

i remember the days when our eyes collided.

i got damn, i was shy.

feeling like i'm so bombarded

it was just like looking the cloud's life

i remember the days when you smiled at me.

the smile took like no one can have it.

and i was smiling without any reason

and i was jerk answering my question.

i remember the day when i shared you my secret.

you were a part of it, a bit shy but laughing!

i'm not kidding!... crush lagi taka! :P

and i made you as my sweet inspiration.

i remember the days when i think of you.

thinking may thins but you're the one thing

that i always think all over again.

i can see the birds fly 'coz i got the one thing:)

in every moment that i can remember,

i always have my pen and paper.

the routine has been so better.

pen and paper has been working together

before i end this poem,

i just wanna say and show.

I love you as my inspiration.

hope it won't come to rejection.

at the end, i'm just a friend.

i got a feeling and i don't wanna shatter.

my words will have to scatter.

This would be a poem to remember.

Pages

2012-03-25T18:38:00.000-07:00

1.in every notes
2. there's another thought to read,
3.another thought to face
4.that's full of changes
5.in every scan that i made
6. I've seen the pages
7.that seems to take the lead
8.to my story of my emotions
9.I came to may realizations
10.that this pages of confession,
11. the notes of my confession
12.is the sweet chapter of my emotions
13.every story of my poem
14.words were expressed,
15.letters were exposed
16.and emotions got intense!
17.1-20 pages
18.but this is not an end,
19.my emotions and its stories
20.are just for you :)

To my Secret Keeper

2012-03-25T18:30:00.000-07:00

You've been so good to me
You've been screwing me on how to be.
"ah ok" one of your trademarks(i don't think you're insane)
Mitchie Auditor Agusto ! what a unique name !

Indeed, we've shared a lots of laughs and pains
in every laugh and pain, there's a lesson we gained.
we don't have to be afraid to break a chain
chase your dreams and let your pain fade away.

I've shared all my secrets to you
and you've kept it just the way you do.
oh ! i've something to say!
crush gud nakoo si joe , so true!

sorry for what i've done wrong,
sorry for the wrong acts i've shown
don't laugh, i'm not pulling your leg
SORRY- this is how i beg

you've told me lots of advice.
thanks a lot, you're such a prize
a prize becomes without a price
and a prize that has a big size!

there's only one simple gift i'll give
a PRAY i always pray for my friends,
especially you, you're one of my special friends!
I'm always here and GOD's beside you. remember the gift.

this is the time that we're facing goodbye
this is the time that we would cry
this is the time that we're going back home.
thanks for the time that you've shown.

oy mitts! remember this points
sorry, thank you and i always pray for you.
this is how i confess to you.
live young, wild and free! :)

for all the memories we made,
for all the time we shared.
even if we live our life unfair.
this is how i say my sweet flair

Days =]

2012-03-01T20:34:00.000-08:00

We need sun and moon in every day
in every day, i always say
"There's another life i have to play"
it's life, this is how i celebrate

now, I'm looking at the sky so high
looks like looking at your eyes, so bright
last day, i was fighting for my wole life
because of this, the fight was so tight.

tonight, i don't wanna fall a sleep,
pencil and paper - this is i always seek
writting poems with all emotions so deep,
writing stories of my life, indeed

in every hour of my day of a year,
i always wish that you're here with me,
for me to express just for you to hear,
for them to confuse and for us to bring you and me

you've been inspiring me for a hundred days
in my hundred days I didn't waste.
the day that i found you was my fairytale phase
that's why today, i always keep up the good race.

for a hundred days, you've been molding my heart
i never thought i got this, just a simple crush
tongue's heart was cut, don't know hat to say.
so the heart keeps on witting, all i can do is to have hush.

you're always in my eyes, I shouldn't have to cry,
I don't have to live half-life
you don't have to ask me why.
feelings got better like a beautiful D-A-Y .

A Long Walk

2012-01-15T18:09:00.000-08:00

I'm walking all alone
I've seen persons that I've known
walking w/ no direction
'coz I think oe you w/ all emotion

last Friday, I was walking in the rain
I was wet, looking at the place but not in pain
now, every time i see a tear drop , it brings up your name
so when it falls over me, it can't wash my feelings away.

in every step that i make
it makes me think, "how many steps I'll take"
1, 2, 3, 4, ... there's only one direction that I'd take
it's family, school, work and to you - that's the route that i made

in every breath that I take,
breathe in - this is the time that I wish and pray
breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out
- that's the moment that i wanna check out.

i've been searching someone like you
at last I found you, let me walk into you
the day that I found you, you taught me how to screw
thank you, you're making me inspiring & my heart says "it's true"

I'm still walking all alone w/ all emotion
I won't be afraid to step and find the answer
"I always think of you" just always remember
ohhh !!!! I lost my direction ... All I See Is You .. :)

Lights .

2012-01-02T05:18:00.000-08:00

my life can't live w/o the lights
i always need lights for me to live right
when i'm sad or in dark, it's always by my side
...you are my crush, i like you like the lights

in day, you're like my sunshine
everytime I wake up, it always make me smile
everytime I set my coffee, it made me realize
that Love is fashion , it depends on how you style.

everytime I walk & walk on the street,
I always see a traffic light that's signaling
everytime I step & step on my feet
it makes me think "if you say stop making this, would I have to stop writting?"

last day, there was a whole night black out
I was so blind, I can't check things out
I was so thankful, i saw a candle light
it's like you, w/o you, I can't make things right.

I've got a spot light, i putted it in my life
'coz of this, they saw my admiration for you
I've been carefully & obviously doing my efforts for you, so true,
if you're lost... "my days is now bluer"- this would be my life.

I'm gazing at the stars and the moon light
as I look at it, i see a constellation of your face
this time, it make me feel like floating tonight
tonight, I won't sleep, i'll just gaze & gaze.

tomorrow I'll just continue writing
zzzzzZZZZZZZ. . .
. . . . . . . .
yeah ! It's 5 'o clock in the morning !

yea !

oww ! thanks for the light that you always give it to me
today, you're keeping me smiling :)
wanna have some coffe ?
hope that you're always there, you're keeping me Inspiring . . .

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2011-12-09T06:53:00.000-08:00

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All i wish for christmas

2011-12-03T04:39:00.000-08:00

this is the most awaited season,
exchanging gifts, sharing love,
smiling faces, caroling on,
and the birth of Jesus-He is the Love :)

listening and dancing on the Christmas music
party all night long, no on could break
sharing the love and care-healing the sick !
a Christmas season that will not make you weak!

"i love you my friend , i like you my crush"
I love you like them,
i like you like them.
keep this as a damn secret, just hush hush..

Christmas is all about love
all i want for Christmas is love
all I really wish for Christmas is your hug
it's true , i got a feeling like a Love Bug !

feeling the weather and soft breeze,
i wish to have your hug and let's freeze
feeling heart beat like a sweet kiss
and feeling that you're my master piece!

Christmas season is yet to come,
i don't wish an expensive gift on Christmas,
money can't buy my happiness, it's been said and done.
again, Christmas is all about love... adv aced Merry Christmas :)

continue my felings for you or end it up ?

2011-12-03T04:22:00.000-08:00

a cold weather, tonight I'm outta my mind
i'm thinking of you everyday and night
there's a question to answer that i can't find
a question that bothers, this can't be right !

I just want you to know that i'm confused right now
it's like I'm looking myself in a bizarre crowd
what will I do , i can't speak so loud
I want you to ask personally, bu how ?

"pildi naka" on of my friend said,
"hmm.. no I won't!" I said.
I'm now asking myself "why?"
and I answered myself "I don't know why"

I've been trying to set myself fee, jst to be happy,
i'm hinking for the possible answer, there are many.
there's only one question that bothers me,
a question that has its story

sometimes, i'm thinking that I'm weak
i'm confused with my feeling, so freak !
the question is already given, so big !
the question is in the tittle of this poem

yea right, the best answer is my answer
but, i'm confused to answer
your answr is my beat option.
id wait for your answer ...

20 seconds :)

2011-11-02T05:40:00.000-07:00

Every second is a highlight,
when we move is a good fight.
every second drops by
let it move and pass by

1, 2, 3, 4
there's only one way to say those 3 words for you
"I like you"
and this are words I wish to hear from you.

5, 6, 7, 8
you're a test paper that i will take
on this, my mind's gonna shake
but, it's okay, this could be great !

9, 10, 1, 12
can't fight this feeling, no one can help.
I may fall for you, coz' I'm hanging in the edge!
if i fall for you, I can't really help myself !

13, 14, 15, 16
I was listenin' music while writtin'
I wrote your name, i wrote my name.
listenin', writtin', and of course.. day dreamin'

17, 18, 19, 20
you made me feel good, and now I'm not empty,
oh my gosh ! i can't help myself !. I'm falling slowly !
it's like 0.2 m/s falling slowly and deeply !

go back to 1, 2, 3, 4
my heart's stereo, it beats for you so listen close
make me your radio, turn me up when you feel low
hear my thoughts in every note, the melody was meant for you .

i made you my apple of my eye in just 20 seconds,
you made me complete in just 20 seconds,
I made you my inspiration in just 20 seconds,
and you made me fall from you in just 20 seconds !

20 seconds is a sweet surrender,
20 seconds that I can treasure,
I'm now attracted in just 20 seconds.
for me, "20 seconds attracts 20 seconds"

dedicated to: "tih" :))

Music !

2011-10-24T08:23:00.000-07:00

listening music that i like
i always listen music every day and night
I'm a music lover, one of the hobbies that i can't hide
imagine life without music ? boring right ?

listening different moods of music
this is my medicine when i was so sick
music that totally fades my pain away
"music plays m life" that's all i can say...

music made me feel complete
"coz it made me low my heart beat
music made me so alive
therefore, "MUSIC is my LIFE" !

The Time

2011-10-24T08:16:00.000-07:00

this is the time that we're facing goodbye
this is the time that we would cry
this is the time that we're going back home
thanks for the time that you've shown

lots of fun and memories
thank you for filling up my emptiness
there are quarrels and enemies,
sorry , i was just defensing the armor less

this is the time that we'll be chasing our dream
chasing our dream with good rhythm
let's expose our talents with good standing
we're versatile, thanks for God's blessings

and this is the time that I will miss you like crazy
i wish that this weather will get so breezy
so that all pains will totally fade away
thank you so much my friend, I looked at you unique in your own way :))

you are so . . .

2011-10-20T07:03:00.000-07:00

yea ! I'm happy in this year
for me you entered with no fear
you entered my heart and mind, it's real
you're mah friend/crush that i can't tear

at first we didn't know each other
we we were making friends when the time came after
we had known each other when i got your number
buzin', laughin' and chillin', do you still remember ?

you're sitting near at the window
i'm sitting here in the corner
i used the mirror just to see you
you're far from me , i wish that i'm a shadow..

you are fine, kind, sweet in style
you are so hot like burning fire!
this is the most that i like
oh my gosh ! i wanna die !

you already know that you're the apple of my eye
i'm hypnotized in your eyes, it's not a lie
i'm still shy looking at your eyes
for me, to be with you is a big prize !

good and complete, you made me feel it
healthy and vibrating, this is my heart beat
list of good memories, you're a part of it
my tongue is tied, just a little bit

yea ! no boyfriend since birth
neat personality, it has no dirt
you're the girl that's hard to lurk
good to hear , imma dance like a jerk !

good to hear that you said "studies first"
chase your dream and let your talent burst
i trust you,you can finish your degree course
i hope that your degree course will not curse

"every second and move is a highlight"
can i dance with you under the moonlight ?
the night that will spark and grow
i will surely fall in love like a domino!

oh ! , thanks a lot for the friendship
you gave my life lots of colors
although there are some angry professors
once again, thanks a lot for the friendship !

KABALO NAKA SA BALITA "tiih" ?

2011-10-07T06:59:00.001-07:00

kabalo naka sa balita ?

na ikao ra akoong gi pangita ?

kabalo naka na ikao akong crush ?

samani ui !! pwede mag blush ?

kabalo naka sa balita ?

na nag buhat ko'g poem pra sa imuha ?

dili lng nako ipiakita

lisud na , ma in love jud ko sa imuha

kabalo naka sa balita ?

na ikao ra akong gi huna huna ?

tungod ani , dugai ko maka tulog

ako rang gi pugong pugong

kabalo naka sa balita ?

nga dili keo ko naga absent ?

tungod mani sa imuha

ang feelings nako dili ma prevent ..

kabalo naka sa balita ?

nga sigi rakog tan ao sa imuha ?

naga ______ gud ko usahay

para makita lang ka kynunay !

kabalo naka sa balita ?

naga sabay ko'g pagwas sa inyuha

para lng ma istorya ka

ug para ihatod lng ka

kabalo naka sa balita ?

naga dala dala gud ko'g payong

actually, para gud ni sa imuha

wa palang ka kabalo kai kron paman nako gisaba

kabalo naka sa balita ?

maulaw gud ko na mag tinan away tang duha

hahaist !

tungod mani sa "atom" bah !

pwede makuyapan ? crush man gud taka

kabalo naka sa balita ?

naa ta koi balak manguyab sa imuha

saon taman maulaw man ko

mahadlok pud ko kai basi'g i basted rako...

kabalo naka sa balita ?

hapit najuud ko ma in love sa imuha !

mura gud ko'g nikabit sa dunggan ni Budha

mao ganing ni taas , kai tungod man sa akua :))

kabalo naka sa balita ?

na tinuod ni akong gipang storya ?

mu sulti jud kog prangka sa imuha

na ______ jud ko sa imuha !

unya , kabalo naka sa balita ?

na ang gugma nako murag lantaka ?

ga buto buto na pina paka !

~~gipagawas jud nako akong feelings na walay pinataka !~~