tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715Fri, 30 Aug 2024 05:09:17 +0000rantsramblingrealtionshipsnerfrpgsThanksgivinganthem of the daybdsmboozecarscosplaycostumesdewdreamsfalloutfirstfungeneralgymmisconmoviesmusicripsexspike your juicetelevisiontrustweightworkoutThe many adventures of guy who's not looking for a destination in life, just the next patch of ground to place his footsteps.http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (Patrick)Blogger22125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-5455790740331783886Fri, 25 Mar 2011 22:30:00 +00002011-03-25T16:30:02.369-06:00rantsI haven't posted in a long while, but that hasn't been for lack of things going on.  Today I'm here to voice some personal feelings on a personal issue, mostly just to get them out of my head. My wife and I decided we'd like to try and have a kid shortly after we got married (about 5 months ago).  Knowing that she had some previous medical issues that could raise problems we consulted http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2011/03/end-or-just-continuation.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-6674927578154892132Fri, 31 Dec 2010 23:27:00 +00002010-12-31T16:27:05.466-07:00I haven't blogged in a goodly while, and while I apologize to my non-existent readership, I can't promise I'll do better.  Being employed has taken up more of my time than I expected, leaving me less time to interface with the new wife, which leaves me even less time for personal things like reading, video games, and writing.  I haven't had a normal full time job (excluding summer jobs)http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/12/new-beginnings-and-old-memories.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-5128554988591934957Thu, 09 Dec 2010 23:59:00 +00002010-12-09T16:59:14.847-07:00moviesramblingrantsis Richard Donner's 1978 superhero piece of shit, Superman. First off, Lois Lane (Margot Kidder) is the ugliest woman in that entire fucking movie, and that includes Martha Kent. Secondly, Lex Luthor shouldn't be surrounded by morons and incompetents.  The man's a filthy rich genius, he can afford better help. Third, and most fucking important is that I can't stand it when a movie, http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/12/most-fucking-retarded-movie.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-7103082220082827745Thu, 25 Nov 2010 00:36:00 +00002010-11-24T17:36:28.204-07:00realtionshipsThanksgivingYeah, it's on of those "Thanksgiving posts".  Deal with it. I've always been pretty thankful for what I've had in life, even if I couldn't fully appreciate or even truly know what I had.  This Thanksgiving is different, I've got a lot to be thankful for (as usual), but the scope of it is enormous. I'm thankful for my employer and the friend who helped me get the job.  You've http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/11/be-thankful.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-4874422005256019641Thu, 18 Nov 2010 18:19:00 +00002010-11-18T11:19:03.534-07:00rantstrustFirst, read this.  If you're thinking "wow, that's a great tool, I wish I had one to spy on my child/spouse" then slap yourself, hard. GPS trackers, keyloggers, porn detectors, etc.  All of that shit exists because nobody fucking trusts anybody anymore.  Why?  Because nobody is honest anymore.  We live in a world where nobody trusts anybody, so nobody is honest with http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/11/trust-and-lack-there-of.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-8702315935910782496Thu, 11 Nov 2010 22:08:00 +00002010-11-11T16:10:22.903-07:00rantssexweightworkoutFirst, look at this dude: That's Lou Fucking Ferrigno.  Some know him as IFBB Mr. America 1969 and Mr. Universe 1973, others know him as television's The Incredible Hulk, and my friend Wess knows him as God.  Regardless of how you are acquainted with Mr. Ferrigno, he was (and pretty much still is) a buff, sexy mother fucker. Now look at this dude: That's me.  Sure, he gets thehttp://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/11/tubby-bitch-no-more.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-8674984607385471095Thu, 11 Nov 2010 07:54:00 +00002010-11-11T00:54:21.940-07:00ramblingrantsI've been a bad blogger, but I've got legitimate excuses this time.  Kind of.  We went on a 48 hour honeymoon, I got a job, and overall shit has been busy the last few weeks.  Now it's all starting to slow down and form a regular schedule, which I like.  So on with the rambling. First off, the job.  As some of you know, I went to school to study television broadcasting.&http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/11/lots-of-shit.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-7691851366004539060Mon, 25 Oct 2010 07:27:00 +00002010-10-25T01:27:15.005-06:00ramblingrealtionshipsWe got married.  I am a married man. Nothing feels different and I don't expect it to.  I'm really happy, she's really happy, and we're happy together.  The whole thing doesn't seem real, it looks odd to see my last name on her Facebook account, and having a ring on my finger feels strange, but that's it.  I expect the adjustment will happen slowly and without notice.  http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/10/wedding-bells.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-380025078149736164Mon, 25 Oct 2010 07:12:00 +00002010-10-25T01:12:16.076-06:00ramblingrantstelevisionI love crime shows on tv.  It all started with Quincy M.E. re-runs and Law & Order (the good, old school L&O when it was about the crimes and not the detectives personal lives), then I fell in love with CSI and NCIS.  Now it's Castle, a great show staring the always badass Nathan Fillion.  I love Castle, the crimes are imaginative (except the Strangers on a Train episode http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/10/television-so-bad-its-criminal.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-4121105745995026934Fri, 15 Oct 2010 05:00:00 +00002010-10-14T23:00:49.096-06:00ramblingrantsIn my mind's eye I sit in a small, fragile, rotting wooden rowboat with only a single broken paddle.  On the horizon all around I can see a vicious hurricane raging, tearing the sea asunder.  I am in the eye of the storm, a place of calm amidst the chaos.  I know that it is only a matter of time before the tides and winds force me into the maelstrom, so I watch with my heart in my http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/10/eye-of-storm.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-1898178299614244952Mon, 11 Oct 2010 23:06:00 +00002010-10-11T17:06:14.338-06:00carsrantsripI met my car in 2004 at a dealership in Billings.  She was a 2001 Hyundai Tiburon, silver, and beautiful.  She cost $9400 used, with 56,000 miles on her.  She wasn't the fastest car, but she was sexy, easy on the fuel and girls loved her.  We drove all over Wyoming, Montana, and even once to Salt Lake City.  She never broke down and always started.  She got me http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/10/rest-in-peace-you-beautiful-peice-of.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-4850872159998294597Thu, 07 Oct 2010 03:19:00 +00002010-10-06T21:19:05.813-06:00boozedewspike your juiceI like booze.  I don't drink often, and when I do I don't drink much (anymore), but I love booze.  Part of it is the escapism of being drunk and part of it is the chemistry of it all.  See, I'm a science guy.  I love all kinds of sciences, especially chemistry.  And booze is just chemistry in action.  Someday I'd love to home brew beer, or make my own wine, or even http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/10/booze.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-2955668834276710756Wed, 06 Oct 2010 20:27:00 +00002010-10-06T14:27:52.900-06:00cosplaycostumesfalloutmisconnerfI love Fallout 3.  It is a wonderful game full of exploration, awesome sights, great story, bad ass action, and more fun than you can shake a stick at.  Since I started playing it I've wanted to do a costume based on it.  Unfortunately by the time I think of making a costume for Halloween it's too late and I wouldn't have enough time to finish it.  This time, however, I http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/10/fallout-vault-dwellerlone-wanderer.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-5390659930480388822Wed, 06 Oct 2010 09:29:00 +00002010-10-06T03:29:07.889-06:00So, for the last week or so I've been sleeping like shit. I lay awake, physically and mentally exhausted yet wide awake. When I do sleep it's only for an hour or two at a time and it's a restless sleep. Physically I'm fine, no bodily issues are keeping me up. Mentally... I'm unsure. I have no major worries that plague my thoughts, no one (or any, really) unanswered questions or stresses. Sure, http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/10/sleep-and-lack-there-of.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-1783496253846684726Sun, 03 Oct 2010 00:52:00 +00002010-10-02T18:52:54.533-06:00rpgsWhile I'm on the subject of gaming, I thought I'd talk about the game I ran and the game I want to run. Not too long ago our Thursday night game's current campaign needed to take an extended hiatus and I decided to step in with a game of my own.  Entitled "Go West" it was a fantasy western setting with a quasi-custom rule-set based off of the Star Wars: Saga Edition rules.  In my http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/10/loosing-level.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-1510964945937629785Sun, 03 Oct 2010 00:17:00 +00002010-10-02T18:17:06.487-06:00rpgsA couple of friends posted analyses of our Thursday night BASH! game and these got me thinking about gaming so I figured I'd toss in my two cents. Mic is running a 50's style sci-fi adventure with a dark bent that he's basing off of a graphic novel he digs.  I'm not sure what the campaign is called (or if it even has a name) so I'll just refer to it as Mic's Game.  This is our second http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/10/not-wanting-to-bash-my-head-in.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-6179165496896379860Thu, 23 Sep 2010 19:46:00 +00002010-09-23T13:46:29.089-06:00funnerfMy name's Patrick and I'm an addict.  I'm not hooked booze, drugs, or sex (though that last one is debatable).  I am hooked on Nerf.  Once "the name" in soft foam balls, they have in recent years become really good at producing bright yellow (and sometimes blue) guns that shoot mostly harmless foam darts.  These plastic toy guns aren't just for kids, they are the pussy's http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/09/its-nerf-or-nothin.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-1870516795559773913Thu, 16 Sep 2010 23:49:00 +00002010-09-16T17:49:51.741-06:00rantsrealtionshipsIt's crazy how fast words lose their meaning when you repeat them a lot.  Anyways, on to the topic at hand. Jealousy is a hard driving force in our lives, whether you know it or not.  A destructive combination of envy, anger, and possessiveness, it dictates how we react to many everyday situations.  Like all emotions, it's level of influence varies from person to person as does http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/09/jealously-jealous-of-jealousy.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-6121944986716596207Tue, 14 Sep 2010 21:58:00 +00002010-09-14T15:58:14.609-06:00In just about a month I'll be married. I never thought that would happen.  Ever.  Neither did my family or, I imagine, my friends. Eighteen months ago I was 27, a college drop-out, newly unemployed, only ever had one girlfriend, and a virgin. I lived in a basement apartment and played EverQuest all day.  I regularly visited a support group forum for folks in my situation, http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/09/on-getting-married.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-7598080017269518247Tue, 07 Sep 2010 23:38:00 +00002010-09-07T18:33:56.805-06:00bdsmdreamsgymrantsIt's been kind of a surreal day. This morning I had a dream in which I watched a monk in robes spray himself in the eyes with a flammable liquid then light it aflame.  If that wasn't a horrifying enough image, the fire quickly went out and the monk reapplied the spray and lit himself up again.  Why was he doing this?  Because some developers were tearing down http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/09/strange-dreams.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-5929045730593721473Mon, 06 Sep 2010 19:24:00 +00002010-09-06T14:33:23.901-06:00anthem of the daymusicI love this song, and for some reason it feels appropriate today. :) http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/09/anthem-of-day-aphex-twin-come-to-daddy.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7028097400237371715.post-2470911283215053060Mon, 06 Sep 2010 19:11:00 +00002010-09-06T14:32:46.152-06:00firstgeneralramblingMy thoughts are scrambled, incoherent, a jumble of mixed and matched ideas, words, visions, experiences, memories, hopes, fears, daydreams, nightmares, and utter shit.  If you can follow this stream of mental debris with any semblance of understanding then I congratulate you. These are my first steps in a wild and new direction in life.  I'm 28, weeks from being married, http://notlostwandering.blogspot.com/2010/09/first-steps.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Patrick)1