Obsession

The best part of my day

noreply@blogger.com (gorjusgirl) — Tue, 04 Mar 2008 05:32:00 +0000

So, this is taking some getting used to, sorry about that!

My weekend was alright, Friday night I just went round to Tracey’s place and we had leftover Chinese for dinner and watching some terribly awesome girlie movies… Bratz and Bring It On 4!! Naturally I loved both of them! If anyone has seen Brazt, hands in… BFF’s!!!! Being serious though, the costumer were bloody amazing, I was pretty impressed by them! Sorry Barbie but unless you come out with an uber-cool movie I think I might just turn over to the dark side…

So then Saturday my Nan came round for lunch, and to give me my 21^st present since she wont be here for it… she went on a trip round Australia last year and she got me… a Black Pearl!! It is GORGEOUS, such a perfect colour!! I just need to buy a nice chain for it, she couldn’t afford that as well haha, she kept telling me it was SO expensive, and basically I wouldn’t find it retail for under $1000… so yeah, was incredibly happy with that!!

Saturday night, well I started at the Twins 21^st where I kinda wish I had stayed, because I left after an hour to go into the city for Stu’s birthday at Lowenbrau, and ok so the night started off really well, everyone was pretty happy (Ian was especially happy, although karma came back to bite me in the arse later on for making fun of him for being drunk) and it was good to catch up with people! Lauren & I were doing shots of Apple Schnapps and drinking Vodka Orange so we were having fun… however, I think it was around midnight, the shots hit me. I’d had 5 and up until that point didn’t really feel too drunk… but then it very quickly went downhill from there and I went straight from drunk to bent over the toilet bowl throwing my guts up. It was horrible, seriously the worst I’ve ever been!! It just came on so quickly, argh!! So after about an hour in the bathroom the security guard came in to help me outside because he said I really needed fresh air and the faster I got outside the faster I’d be in a taxi and on my way home (meanwhile Kristy’s like “Amy get up, he’s gonna kick you out, honey you need to stand up by yourself” haha and the security guard’s just like “I’m not kicking her out, but she does need to be outside not in here!”, it would have been funny if I wasn’t so sick!!). So after that is a bit blurry, I think Ian pretty much carried me out, helped by Franco at some point, and well he told me Bodero was there but I SO don’t remember that… finally found a taxi, although the driver kept trying to kick me out until I finally managed to convince him I actually hadn’t been sick for like an hour so I wasn’t going to be again, I just wanted to sleep in the taxi until we got home!! And then the last memory I have is getting out of the car and sitting on the pavement in Ian’s driveway, while Franco is chasing the taxi yelling “Oi, my fags are still in there!!”…

So needless to say, Sunday was spent in bed feeling VERY sorry for myself! First half of the day was at Ian’s until he eventually kicked me out of bed and made me shower, then I drove him and collapsed in my own bed, where I continued the day with Girl, Interrupted, How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days and Crazy/Beautiful! Then that night Ian came around to check on me again, god I love him so much, he is so good to me and I am so lucky to have him!!

Ok well after all of that, work has been really uneventful so I don’t have much to write about, I’m going to see Meet The Spartans tonight with Loz & Tracey so I’ll write about that tomorrow!

xx

You mean to me
What I mean to you
And together baby,
There is nothing we won't do
'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.

And oh!
I'm into you,
And girl
No one else would do,
'cause with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I know I can't be the only one,
I bet there heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of their life who feel..
What I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you, Girl

And I..
Will never try to deny,
that you are my whole life,
'cause if you ever let me go,
I would die..
So I won't front,
I don't need another woman,
I just need your all and nothing,
'cause if I got that,
Then I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best part of my day

Holdin' me tight

noreply@blogger.com (gorjusgirl) — Fri, 29 Feb 2008 02:11:00 +0000

So, I know it's been a while since I last wrote here, but I'm going to try and do it a lot more... therapeutic and whatnot. If you read my last entry you'll see I was freaking out over a guy (naturally), but I'm happy to say we made it through my initial craziness and are still together, and very very much in love... took just over 4 months to get to that, but it has been an amazing journey and I feel so lucky to have such an amazing guy in my life - soppy, I know! But he's actually really good for me, he makes me want to be a better person, which is exactly what I need, and I'm planning on keeping him around for a while...

Anyway, on a totally different note I got caught at work today on Facebook, one of the girls I work with saw me on it even though it's been firewalled - personally think she just wishes she knew how to bypass the firewall, but she just told me not to do it and that she wouldn't take it any further. Something about her bugs me, she treats me like I'm her assistant rather than her colleague, and I don't like that - even my supervisor doesn't do that and I am her assistant! Ah well, I'll just be more careful, I wasn't on that much anyway... but thinking next time the IT guy comes in I'll ask if there's any chance he can set it up so that we can access it between 12-1 because my friends do a lot of their organising on there and it's really annoying not being able to at least check in my lunch break...

Umm what else... had an interview the other week with Universal Music for a Copyright Assistant, I get the feeling they didn't think I suited the job, but did want to try and offer me something, so waiting to hear back from them. My problem is I don't really know what I want to do, so it's hard to be really enthusiastic in an interview when it's just as much a gamble for you as it is for them, and while the job sounded awesome I didn't really know what it entailed so I think that was what worried them... but he said he really wanted me back in to meet with the other HR person, so I mean even a job at their Reception with the potential to move up would be great, I'd just love to be in a company like that... much more exciting industry than Homewares I suppose.

Well, Friday, Leap Day, and I have no plans for tonight - awesome! I might just grab dinner with a friend when she finishes uni, I really don't want to sit at home doing nothing!!

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows
Cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

so much left to say

noreply@blogger.com (gorjusgirl) — Sun, 07 Oct 2007 08:34:00 +0000

In a relationship, broken up, single, dating... all in about 3 weeks. I'm freaking out, I don't want it to come back around to "in a relationship" so quickly... but I think I've really hurt him in the process. He has never asked me about my ex, has agreed to trot along at my pace and give me time, but I still freaked out, and now I'm regretting it.

Why do I have such a hard time trusting guys? I know he's a good guy... but my mind starts playing tricks, and suddenly all I can see is another guy out to get me, use me and get rid of me... and I don't want that, so I pushed him away. It's all in my mind, and I do know that, but for some reason it doesn't stop me from thinking it.

Why couldn't you see I just needed you to hold me, promise me everything would be ok. I'm just a girl, I need reassurance, I need someone to fight for me and to show me that they care.

Maybe I do need some time by myself to sort things out... I just dont know if I can call him when I'm done. I keep thinking it will be better to leave it, better if I let him go, I'm bad for him... ok, I have some thinking to do, but in the meantime I need some mindless tv!

Sweet Dreams
xx

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all