I was “inspired” by these two photos I shot the other day!

If you have any suggestions, comments, questions, I would love to hear it!

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I thought it would be nice to share some past photographs of mine to showcase all the lovely spring flowers that should bloom shortly!

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Ingredients

• 1 medium red bell pepper, medium dice
• 5 lean turkey Italian turkey sausages, casings removed
• 1/2C low fat ricotta
• 29oz canned tomato puree
• 1 TBSP dried oregano
• 1/2C chopped fresh basil
• 3 cloves garlic, minced
• kosher salt
• freshly ground black pepper
• 6C cooked whole wheat pasta

We love this dish because it is SO fast to prepare and cook!

Directions
Heat a skillet over high heat (non-stick or sprayed with a bit of olive oil cooking spray) and add your sausages. Use the back of a wooden spoon to break up the meat. You still want it to have fairly large bits. After 8-10minutes, add your diced red bell pepper with a pinch of kosher salt and cook for an additional five minutes.

In a separate pot over medium heat, add your garlic, canned tomato puree, oregano, salt, pepper, and ricotta. Cook this mixture for five minutes. Then add in your Italian sausage and red bell pepper mixture. Stir to combine.

In a bowl place 1C of the pasta and top with 1/2C of sauce.

The sauce makes 8 servings of 1/2C each, for those doing Weight Watchers, each serving of sauce is three points.

I also thought that a homemade Caesar salad would be super tasty as well!

Dressing Ingredients

• 1oz Parmesan cheese, grated
• 1 garlic clove, minced
• Juice of 1 lemon
• 1/2C low fat buttermilk
• 3TBSP light sour cream
• 1tsp anchovy paste
• kosher salt and freshly ground black pepper

This makes 15 servings (1 serving = 1TBSP) which is 0 points for Weight Watchers.

Salad Ingredients

• 4 pieces of light wheat toast, cubed
• 1/2oz Parmesan cheese, grated
• 1 romaine heart, cut into bite sized pieces

The salad makes three servings!

Directions
In a small bowl, combine all of the dressing ingredients and whisk until everything is combined. Let sit for at least ten minutes to develop the flavor. In a separate larger bowl, add your salad ingredients and top with 4TBSP of dressing.

I hope everyone tries these recipes out and enjoys them!

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I am having one heck of a time of it lately, emotionally anyway. I am really unsure of why. I know part of this feeling, this “what’s the point” or “I am never productive”, isn’t based in reality, and yet that doesn’t stop my brain from THINKING that way. This feeling only cropped up about 2–3 weeks ago or so.

Logically I know being stuck in the house, lack of outside time, limited adult contact (aside from the boyfriend), all contribute to this feeling. I’ve also been having a lot more PTSD issues when it comes to trying to deal with my failed VBAC (placenta abruption), sadly that is just going to take a lot of time to accept.

I’m sure getting my fertility back isn’t helping matters either.

It’s frustrating though, I am a lot more weepy, bitchy, and tired lately because of the emotional overload and I am just not sure how to rectify the situation.

The boys however are doing awesome. Daniel currently has a paper mache volcano drying and some rock crystals growing. Tristan is such a little chatterbox, it’s so adorable to have a “conversation” with him. I still have moments every day where I can’t believe I have TWO children. It’s so amazing to me. Daniel is always playing with his baby brother or carrying him. I can’t wait until the baby is able to chase his big brother around!

Keith pretty much forced me to go outside this morning and shoot some photos while Tristan is asleep.

I am really enjoying the D90 although I haven’t spent much time with it or played with any of the different features (compared to the D50). I do like the more intuitive controls, much better in low light situations, very low noise at high ISO’s… I am really happy with that purchase.

Lastly, when Keith ran to the store late last night, he bought me a small miniature rose plant! I can’t wait until it blooms further and grows so we can plant it outside!

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Ingredients

• 2 medium bell peppers, chopped
• 3 small onions, chopped
• 3 medium stalks of celery , chopped
• 1 Tbsp chili powder
• 1 Tbsp ground cumin
• 1 1/2 cups canned pumpkin
• 1 cup fire roasted diced tomatoes
• 15 oz canned kidney beans, drained and rinsed
• 15 oz canned black beans
• 28 oz canned diced tomatoes
• 29 oz canned tomato sauce
• 6 cloves of garlic, minced
• 1 cup cilantro, chopped
• kosher salt
• freshly ground black pepper

Garnishes

• Avocado tossed with kosher salt and lime juice
• Corn tortillas baked in the oven until crispy
• 2% Shredded sharp cheddar
• Light sour cream
• Chopped cilantro
• Diced red onion

Directions
In a large pot on high heat, add your celery, bell pepper, onion, garlic, ground cumin, chili powder, kosher salt, and freshly ground black pepper. Cook until the vegetables are softened, approx five minutes.

Then add everything else except for the cilantro. Add more kosher salt and freshly ground black pepper to season the new additions. Simmer on a medium heat for around twenty minutes, stirring often. Add your cilantro, and simmer for another five minutes. Then it’s ready to serve!

Each serving is 1cup and this makes 11 servings. For those doing WeightWatchers, it’s 2pts per serving. If you omit the garnish of shredded cheese, this dish is also vegan! Hope you all enjoy!

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I couldn’t take it anymore! We had a very small budget so we couldn’t redo the tile or the floor but I think we did a huge improvement!

The Before Shots

The Awesome After Shots

What do you think? I am so proud that he sucked it up, removed the shower doors, and let me have a shower curtain! I think it’s rather cute! Our color scheme (to match the tile really) is yellow and orange. I used my own photography of course. We also scrubbed the hell out of the bathroom so it’s so uber fresh and clean right now!

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I was however, dismayed to see that my tiny mention of us not doing vaccinations caused some individuals to take that and run with it. That was NOT the point of that entry at all and it really made me want to not post such personal things anymore. Thankfully after tweeting about it, so many of you offered your ears / comments / tweets to me so I don’t take it so personally!

I am in general still feeling raw and exposed in some ways. Hard to believe it would have been my 11yr anniversary with Daniel’s bio-dad this week! I do think in some ways, everything happens for a reason and comparing how I felt THEN to how I feel NOW… well suffice to say having Keith in our lives has show us what the word “family” really means.

Now onto other things…

Weight Watchers
So both the boyfriend and I started Weight Watchers (they have a breastfeeding option so I don’t have any supply issues yay!) this past Sunday. He’s never tried to change his eating habits before and since meeting him (including the pregnancy/after the baby) I’ve gained freaking 50lbs! Considering I was already on the “thicker” side of things already, I just feel so uncomfortable in my skin!

So first week is almost done with and if the peek at the scale today is any indication, I’ve lost around 8lbs! I will post some recipes that are WW friendly but that are still in line with “whole” foods, filling foods, and overall super fantastic delicious foods. For example I’ve made a wonderful turkey chili, which I need to make again tonight because Daniel requested it, I also made a veggie lasagna, and a great chicken and penne dish, just to name a few.

If any of you are also doing WW, let me know! Share your favorite WW links!

Photography
In other awesome news, I purchased the Nikon D90, haven’t really used it much but so far I love what I see! The feel is just great, the camera overall is much better in low light situations, and the flesh tones are spot on! There are so many new features in comparison to my D50 that I need to find some time to read the manual (oh yes… RTFM always!). I am loving that it has a self-cleaning sensor as I’m so lazy when it comes to doing that.

iPhone
I also purchased for myself, the 16GB white iPhone! The first few hours I was scared to touch it and left it in its box. I have a decent amount of apps so far (should probably do a post on that!) but always looking for new ones as the app store is just confusing and I am tired of all the “adult themed” apps cluttering things up. I also got a new phone number so if you need/want it, let me know!

ICAN
This upcoming Sunday is not only Valentine’s Day but I am going to try and go to my first ICAN meeting. I still have so many unresolved emotional (and physical) issues surrounding Tristan’s birth and the topic is supposed to be about traumatic births. How perfect for me right?

Bloggy Stuff
Anyone want to be linked up on my exit page? I need some new reads!

Interested in reading all of your comments!

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I have two sons. They each have different fathers.

To say that I witnessed different ends of the parenting spectrum is to put it mildly!

Daniel’s father… I do believe loved Dan as a baby and during the pregnancy, but once reality of being a parent kicked in, he made the choice to turn into an abuser and very bad parent. He has chosen not to be involved in Danny’s life since he was a toddler.

However I try and reflect on the good times (sadly, there are only a few). Just so everyone is aware, posting these photos is very difficult for me and in some ways, I feel like my heart is breaking for my son because I NEVER expected his bio-father to reject him like he has.

The awesomeness that is named… Keith
I never knew it was possible to be supported completely in how I wanted to raise my children. After only being together for two months (yes we moved quickly!) did we discover I was pregnant with Tristan. He suddenly became a father to a 7yr old boy and expecting a baby.

He stepped into the father role right away with Daniel and they are the best of friends. He calls him dad/daddy/real daddy. I sometimes joke that if I didn’t know better, I would swear Danny was biologically his because they have SUCH similar personalities! I am thankful for that though because I could not spend as much time discussing StarWars, Ben10, etc, as they do.

He had zero experience with babies and began to do his own research when I explained I was unbending on certain things such as:

• breastfeeding (and self-weaning!)
• no vaccinations
• no circumcision
• co-sleeping
• cloth diapering
• babywearing

He would ask questions and I answered to the best of my ability, he would spend hours doing his own research.

I rarely if ever, have to change diaper. Keith changes 95% of the diapers AND does all the diaper laundry. He will make me a grilled cheese at 3am when I am starving (during those growth spurts of Tristan’s, I am STARVING). He supports me in just about everything I do, everything I WANT to do (minus some debate on decorating the house lol).

I still reflect on that time occasionally, what it must have felt like for him to go from being single to having a live-in girlfriend who was pregnant with your first biological baby, and having a 7yr old boy who went through an extremely traumatic living experience for 5months with his bio-dad (who experienced night terrors for MONTHS).

I don’t even know how to express myself in words (that’s a first!) so I shall express myself in photos.

Because he is an awesome big brother…

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Please take time to read the submissions by the other carnival participants:

• A Thank You to my Husband
  Lactating Girl at The Adventures of Lactating Girl thanks her husband for keeping her grounded and giving her unwavering support in the face of discouragement from within and without.
  (@lactatinggirl)
• My Reverse Traditional Husband In the Wild
  Paige at Baby Dust Diaries gives us a lesson on how dads in the wild parent their young. Can you guess which male animal actually nurses its young?
  (@babydust)
• February Carnival of Natural Parenting
  TopHat at The Bee in Your Bonnet tells us how the patience of a partner can make a difficult breastfeeding relationship succeed.
  (@TopHat8855)
• Parenting Together
  For Alison at BluebirdMama and her husband, parenting is simply an extension of the way they live.
  (@childbearing)
• If We Had A MIllion Dollars
  Melodie at Breastfeeding Moms Unite! and her husband would both agree to be crunchier parents if they had a million dollars to ease the way.
  (@bfmom)
• February Carnival of Natural Parenting: Co-Parents
  Dionna at Code Name: Mama has written a letter to her husband, thanking him for his incredible support in every aspect of their natural parenting journey.
  (@CodeNameMama)
• Natural Parenting Fathers
  Sarah at Natural Parenting is balancing being all there for her son with being present for her husband.
  (@considereden)
• Just Wonderful: Love and Partners and Natural Parenting
  Zoey at Good Goog let her husband lead her to babywearing and cosleeping.
  (@zoeyspeak)
• All that stuff I don’t get comes so easy to him
  The Grumbles is taking this opportunity to say thank you to her husband for his mad parenting skills.
  (@thegrumbles)
• The Power of Having a Supportive Co-Parent
  Chrystal at Happy Mothering and her husband started with vaccinations and moved on from there.
  (@HappyMothering)
• February Carnival of Natural Parenting: Love and partners
  Lauren at Hobo Mama makes do with babbling incoherently about how her husband practices natural parenting in such an effortless fashion, with bonus video.
  (@Hobo_Mama)
• Love and Partners
  Mrs Green at Little Green Blog shares her husband’s moving account of her birth story, and his testament to the power of a woman.
  (@myzerowaste)
• labor support…
  Mandy at Living Peacefully with Children is thankful that her partner has provided her immeasurable labor support through each of their last three unassisted homebirths (and will again for their upcoming fourth!).
• What co-parent? On prams, routines, ideals, sickness, and finding my way alone.
  Ruth at Look Left of the Pleiades describes life without a present co-parent: making new choices and taking care of things herself.
  (@brightravenmum)

• Parenting With Support
  How many people can say that their husband talked them into cloth diapering? Darcel at The Mahogany Way can!
  (@MahoganyWayMama)
• Co-Parenting Support
  Summer at Mama2Mama Tips knows the importance of being supported in the face of criticism.
  (@mama2mamatips)
• Natural Parenting Carnival: Love and Partners
  pchanner at A Mom’s Fresh Start has been blessed with an incredibly involved partner. Her husband loves to take part in every aspect of parenting!
  (@pchanner)
• Daddy’s Little Girls
  Kate Wicker at Momopoly finds her husband right at home in a tangle of girls.
  (@Momopoly)
• How do I love my parenting partner? Let me count the ways.
  Sybil at Musings of a Milk Maker is thankful that she and her partner co-parent fluidly and gracefully.
  (@mamamilkers)
• Interview with a Daddy
  NavelgazingBajan brings us a highly amusing peek into her husband’s perspective.
• Being Supported in Natural Parenting
  Sarah at OneStarryNight has witnessed both ends of the parenting spectrum, and is grateful she found a father who is comfortable with natural parenting.
  (@starrymom)
• Moments in time: a love letter
  Arwyn at Raising My Boychick will make you cry with the beautiful way she describes the complete relationship between father and child.
  (@RaisingBoychick)
• Natural parenting converts
  Jen at Recovering Procrastinator brought her reluctant husband around to cloth diapers, bed sharing, and time-ins as a discipline method.
  (@jenwestpfahl)
• Breastfeeding Father
  Amber Strocel at Strocel.com describes how her husband helped her overcome the breastfeeding challenges she encountered with her premature daughter.
  (@AmberStrocel)
• A Natural Parenting Village
  Acacia from Art, Body & Soul, in a guest post for Jamie at Suddenly Stay at Home, broadens the term “coparents” to embrace supportive extended family on both sides.
  (@SuddnlyStyAtHme)
• A Natural Dad
  Shana at Tales of Minor Interest doesn’t have a husband who merely supports her
  she has a husband just as dedicated to natural parenting as she is.
• Love and Support From My (sometimes pantsless) Man
  Joni Rae at Tales of a Kitchen Witch Momma describes life with the sometimes bumbling but always lovable Pantsless Man.
  (@kitchenwitch)
• G-O-T-E-A-M!
  Jessica at This Is Worthwhile made sure her future husband agreed with her parenting choices early in their dating.
  (@tisworthwhile)
• how we come to parenthood
  Michelle at womanseekingmother dances with her husband around the subject of cosleeping.
  (@seekingmother)

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