~Pamela Denise~

My Current Situation 10.25.2014

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sat, 25 Oct 2014 13:41:00 +0000

Soooooo, days ago I said I was going to tackle my scarf situation and get them organized. Well, that didn't happen. This morning, I decided to take them out of the 2 baskets. It's even scarier when I see them like this. Sigh. I still don't know what to do with them but uhhh, something has to be done so I can see what I have. This just looks like a mound of colorful fabric. I'm hoping that a solution will come to me between now and bedtime, or they will go back into the baskets, which I do not want.

My original thought was to use a shower curtain rod in my daughter's closet since she's away at college, however, I thought I had one in storage and I do not. Another possibility that I have access to currently is to use a rolling clothes rack which I'm not sure will work but I will give it a try.

Another reason this is so important to get under control is that I want to open an online scarf store in the near future and while I will be selling new scarves, I still need some sort of visual organization so that when an order comes in, I don't have to hunt through a box. Of course, that organization will be something different. Maybe I will actually use boxes to separate them but they will have to be clear boxes so I can see them and have them organized and sorted in a way that makes them easy to locate.

Okay, enough of this typing if I plan to get to this today.

~Pamela Denise~

Visiting the college student 10.24.2014

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sat, 25 Oct 2014 01:41:00 +0000

As is typical, I made my weekly trip to Atlanta to visit my daughter in college, basically to take her to get snacks and such to have in her dorm, and of course to spend time with my baby girl. I'm still not completely used to both of my girls being out of the house. It's a process, I know. I'm just glad I'm not alone. I'm pretty sure I would go insane if I were.

While this photo wasn't of me actually traveling, this is what I deal with coming back, and in spurts going. I have contemplated getting a job in Atlanta because there are more opportunities in a big city obviously BUT bay-bay....let me tell ya....this traffic is nuts and quite frankly, I ain't gon' be able to do it. Some way, some how, I will find a way to make a living without heading into Atlanta 5 days a week. The added stress of needing to be anywhere down there at a certain time scares the heck out of me and only adds to my anxiety. Granted, I worked close to Atlanta for 9 months when we first moved here and was still subjected to this sort of traffic, but I just don't see how I can handle it now. There were many days when I had to call from the car because I thought I was going to be late, and many times, I was. They understood and never fired me but I jumped at the chance to go back home to work just so I wouldn't have to deal with that. From that point up until about 18 months ago, I continued to work from home. I didn't make a lot of money from home or with the last job either as it was only part time, so my finances were always screwed up until I finally filed bankruptcy after blowing through my savings trying to keep myself a float. Thankfully, I wasn't doing it on my own because I would have surely become homeless but it was hard on my girlfriend and her finances too. She gave her all but I wanted, no needed, the madness to stop with my finances so I filed bankruptcy. I wasn't shopping but I was using my credit cards to pay bills, buy food, the usual stuff we needed once the money was gone from my savings.

Of course now, I've recently lost my job due to budget cuts and I'm in need of income. I won't say I'm in need of a job, just income, cash flow, duckets, dead presidents, paper, cheddar, greenbacks, coins, or whatever you want to call it. What I do have lined up has been a great thorn in my side this week and is therefore reminding me to continue my search to achieve multiple streams of income but that is easier said than done. I have no doubt that I will prosper, I will succeed and I will look back on this time in my life and say "Yeah, I was bankrupt and broke but that was then, this is now."

I'm tired and probably won't get much done tonight but tomorrow morning I have a date with my computer and a nice sweet cup of coffee. Wish me luck!

~Pamela Denise~

In A Funk 10.23.2014

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Thu, 23 Oct 2014 12:55:00 +0000

I didn't want to admit it but today, I am in a funk. My life is so off track right now and it's making me crazy. I feel like I don't have control of anything and that scares the heck out of me. I'm anxious, irritated, annoyed, all rolled into one. It's going to be a long day.

~Pamela Denise~

Blah....10.22.2014

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Wed, 22 Oct 2014 19:41:00 +0000

Well, today has been super boring. I've had plenty of things to do but since I was waiting on some emails and/or phone calls, I didn't want to leave the house or get too involved in any projects. Of course, around 3:00, I decide to go outside, and you guessed it, the phone rang. Glad I hadn't left yet. Anyway, now the waiting game begins again because I'm still waiting on one more call or email to get things rolling.

One good thing though....I deleted a ton of emails. I still have too many but hey, at least I deleted quite a few. Maybe by the end of the week, I will have more deleted.

I suppose I should deal with the scarf issue I have going on right now. They've been crammed in 2 baskets and that's not good because I forget what I have. We'll see if that happens.

Been doing a bit of research today though on the business front and the job front but I can't say either were successful searches. Oh well. At least I have a few checks still coming and a contractor position lined up, so everything is going to be okay for now. Aside from that, my computer has been really slow today since I did those updates. I hate when that happens. Guess I should defragment it or scan it, or something while I work on those scarves. Yep, that sounds like a plan. Have a lovely afternoon folks.

~Pamela Morrow~

Changes 10.1.2014

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Wed, 01 Oct 2014 20:58:00 +0000

This shake really has nothing to do with change but right about now with all of the stress in my life, an Egg Nog Milkshake would hit the spot and put a smile on my face.

For the past few months, I have been looking for a full-time job with not much luck. I figured since my youngest has graduated and is off at college, there's really no need for me to work part-time anymore BUT, this has been one of the hardest job searches of my life! I have applied for countless jobs. To top things off, things are super slow at work so I know what's coming down the pike, which adds even more stress to an already stressful situation. I get it, it's business, nothing personal but my finances are personal for me...just not you.

I would love to own my own company and work for myself but that has yet to come to fruition. Don't get me wrong, I've done the footwork. There are just roadblocks that I can't overcome right now, like money, among other things. On a happier note, I just received a call about winning 2 free cruise tickets if I complete a survey...pssh...yeah right...I hung up. That's what I get for answering a call on my cell labeled "unknown." I only took that chance because my daughter's cellphone has been really weird and she has been calling me from her computer using Google so I have no idea what number she will call me from.

Anyway, back to business and job hunting. After being a medical transcriptionist most of my adult life, I really don't have many transferable skills and the MT market is not that hot any more. On the business front, yeah, roadblocks, some simple, some not so simple but I'm determined to make something happen....after I get a full-time job and a little extra cash flow going. I can't just throw caution to the wind...I have bills to pay and responsibilities so I have to be an adult about things and plan. I'm trying to act quickly, just not having much luck.

I'm positive something good will happen soon. It's all I have...hope.

Until next time,

~Pamela Denise~

8.17.2014 Sunday Ramblings

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sun, 17 Aug 2014 23:23:00 +0000

Happy Sunday Evening!

I just realized that I haven't posted since June....shame, shame, shame. I don't even think I've taken many photographs. So much for building up my portfolio.

I had a very long, boring summer but relaxing nonetheless. My youngest spent the bulk of her summer in California with my parents so I got some much needed me-time. I dropped her off this weekend to move in her dorm at college. She's feeling overwhelmed but I'm sure things will get better in the next week or so once she's in class and getting adjusted to her professors. I'm still in shock that I don't have any more babies. That seems really weird to me but I'm thankful to have seen both of my girls grow up. Each day is a gift and is not promised...so yes, for that, I am thankful.

I've been busy applying for full-time jobs now that she is out of high school but I realize, I'm homesick in a big way. I left California 8 years ago but now that just about everyone has moved out of this state, it seems weird. My oldest daughter is in Ohio. She's been there almost a year and I haven't been able to get to visit yet with my finances in shambles and trying to get my other daughter situated for school. Anyway, I'm not sure I will ever make it there, only because she's trying to move to California also in the coming months, which is making me even more homesick. My parents are there again, and with both of my daughters trying to get back there, as well as one of my sisters...I'm super homesick. My youngest sister just left (not by choice though) but does plan to move back when she gets the chance. I thought I might not want to go back but I do. This weather makes me nervous. I'm fine in summer, spring and fall but as soon as winter hits, I panic. Last winter's snow and ice didn't make things any better for me either. I was stressed out just watching the news on t.v. of all of the people stranded on the highway. It was totally unreal....unreal I tell ya! I work close to home and luckily, I work in one of the departments at the hospital that didn't have to be there during the bad weather. The nurses had to stay...were given sleeping arrangements and everything. There is no way I could have done that. No ma'am...no thank you.

Okay, I'm rambling..go figure. I guess I need to end this post and go fold my laundry and get things ready for work tomorrow.

I hope everyone has an awesome evening.

~Pamela Denise~

6.15.2014 My photography

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sun, 15 Jun 2014 18:23:00 +0000

Happy Sunday! Happy Father's Day to all of you fathers out there! I'm just popping in to share my photography page with you:

http://fineartamerica.com/profiles/pamela-morrow.html

I have some pretty awesome shots there. You can get wall art or blank greeting cards so check it out. And if it's not for you, I would appreciate you sharing my link via social media.

Hope everyone is doing well. This is my current situation even though this is an old picture. Nice and creamy and hits the spot while I listen to this webinar.

Have a marvelous day!

~Pamela Denise~

Twelve years in the making 5.17.2014

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sat, 17 May 2014 09:27:00 +0000

Today is the day my youngest daughter graduates from high school. I'm super excited and scared at the same time. I know from this day forward, my life will be completely different. No more taking kids to school, picking up supplies for projects, you name it. No more of that. For the first time in my adult life (I had my first and only other daughter at the age of 19), I will only have to be responsible for myself and my needs. Sure my daughter will be away at college and will still need my support financially and mentally but the day to day will be gone. She thinks I need a hobby to fill my time but I probably won't. My focus now is on getting a full-time job since I've worked part-time for the past 4 or 5 years, mostly so I could be available for her and her needs with groups she was in, volunteering and the like. It paid off. She's graduating Magna Cum Laude and has received a scholarship to a good school here.

I'm ready to take on this new chapter in my life, but I admit, I'm nervous.

Until next time (who knows when that will be),

~Pamela Denise~

The 214 Project needs a new name 11.16.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sat, 16 Nov 2013 16:46:00 +0000

Today I am feeling overwhelmed. I have so much that I need to do that when something doesn't go the way it's supposed to, I get overwhelmed, anxious and totally irritated. It's not even 12:00 noon and I'm feeling this way. Sigh.

This feeling started hours ago when I logged into my new part-time job to do some training...and part of the file was missing that I needed to complete the training, so, feeling anxious, I logged out and decided to deal with it later. Well, fastfoward 3 hours and I decide to give it another shot and you guessed it, same thing, and the anxiety is back, full-force. I can feel it attacking my wrist and arm, which is typical and not a good sign because that means my anxiety is in full-swing, again.

Photography always makes me feel better so here I am, posting photos. It looks like I need to take a long, hard look at my life and reevaluate what I should be doing to earn some extra income.

Enjoy your day,

~Pamela Denise~

The 214 Project, 11.5.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Wed, 06 Nov 2013 00:27:00 +0000

So, I know it's been months since my last post and the 214 Project is probably well passed the 1-yr Project if I plan to make up for lost time. Until then, here are some photos of some kittens, most of which were taken with them in a tree.

The 214 Project 9.2.2013 - Happy Labor Day

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Tue, 03 Sep 2013 00:58:00 +0000

These are from yesterday morning. Sadly, I didn't even take out my camera today. He was putting in work eating whatever this was. I should have shot a video to show how fast his little cheeks were moving.

The 214 Project 8.31.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sat, 31 Aug 2013 16:32:00 +0000

I clearly have not been keeping up with the daily uploads but hey, at least I am uploading something.

I'm convinced the butterfly wanted to be photographed. It stayed around for a very long time and there were no flowers around.

The little kitten got her self in a jam but finally figured out how to jump out. Of course, as soon as she moved, her sister tried to do the same so I had to stop her.

The 214 Project 8.25.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sun, 25 Aug 2013 23:08:00 +0000

Finally found what was making that annoying sound outside.

The 214 Project 8.24.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sun, 25 Aug 2013 01:28:00 +0000

When I saw the fire truck, I pulled over and my oldest daughter looked at me funny, then I said "Photo Op." LOL.

Me and FAA 8.23.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sat, 24 Aug 2013 02:25:00 +0000

So...nope...I'm not posting any photos today but...I am leaving you with a link to a few of my photos, some of which may already be here but oh well, sorry. This is the link to my Fine Art America page where (if you like) you can purchase some of my photos as artwork. Isn't that great? I think it is.

http://fineartamerica.com/profiles/pamela-morrow.html

Okay, that's all folks...have a wonderful day, night or whatever time of day it is when you read this.

~Pamela Denise~

The 214 Project 8.18.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sun, 18 Aug 2013 19:29:00 +0000

I got a few pictures before the cat realized what I was taking pictures of and decided to pounce.

The 214-Project 8.15.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Fri, 16 Aug 2013 01:01:00 +0000

I really hate spiders but this thing was huge so I had to get a picture.

The 214 Project 8.11.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Mon, 12 Aug 2013 00:31:00 +0000

I have no idea how many days I am off so I guess I will just keep posting. The last pictures actually go together. Samson wanted to go outside because he knew the cat was on the other side but the cat isn't comfortable with him yet.

The 214 Project 8.8.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Fri, 09 Aug 2013 01:08:00 +0000

Yep, still on hiatus but I couldn't help but post these.

The 214 Project 7.30.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Wed, 31 Jul 2013 01:18:00 +0000

So, I'm still not back to posting regularly but I got a picture of this vulture...quite creepy. I wonder if he was looking at me trying to figure out what I was doing.

The 214 Project, still on hold but.....7.22.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Tue, 23 Jul 2013 02:45:00 +0000

Here are two shots I took of the cat today.

The 214 Project on hold.....7.21.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sun, 21 Jul 2013 11:32:00 +0000

It's been weeks since my last photo post. I want to take photographs but I don't know what to photograph. My surroundings have gotten old so I've decided to put the project on hold until I can find something that is photo-worthy. I'm hopeful that things won't be on hold for too long.

The 214 Project 7.13.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Sat, 13 Jul 2013 23:03:00 +0000

So, I've missed about a week of photos and now I have to try and play catch-up. I need to go somewhere that I can take some photos. I'm tired of photographing the same ol' thang...ya know?
Anyway, Samson is always a good option.

I swear there was only about 10 minutes' time span between these 2 photos lol.

7.10.2013 Sigh

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Wed, 10 Jul 2013 10:16:00 +0000

I should be posting photos but I have not taken any in days. My mind is elsewhere, on the shambles that my life has become. Sigh.... I cannot wait to have some normalcy back in my life. This uncertainty and instability are driving me crazy...but....I smile and keep moving forward like everything is okay. It's not. I know it's not. Sigh....again.

Just like before, things have to change. They can't keep going on the way that they are.

Hopefully, I will be back to taking photos by the weekend. I will have to play catch up but that's quite all right.

~Pamela Denise~

The 214 Project 7.4.2013 - 7.7.2013

noreply@blogger.com (~Pamela Denise~) — Tue, 09 Jul 2013 00:57:00 +0000

I'm a picture short but hey...I'm a work in progress.