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Honey, I'm home!

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Wed, 09 Mar 2011 04:36:00 +0000

Hello english blog of mine! I was so stuck on other places that I totally have forgotten you! Sorry! I even forgot my login email, how bad is that! So, when I almost forgotten about your existence, I made a sister for you :D She's a malay blog and she's kinda cranky. Lately I gotta give full attention to her because she's still a baby you see. For human, it's like breastfeeding. So that's why I gotta keep on feeding her, if you catch my drift.

Dear Pepe (pronounce: PP),

You can visit your little sister here. She's entering a beauty contest. Do vote for her ok :) The dateline is until 10th of March 2011. Lets hope there are still readers in here who can help us win. Please and thank you in advance!

p/s: I still think you're the prettiest blog in the block, if I was a better mother (and still remember you), I would've entered you for the beauty pageant. Love you, Pepe.

Goodbye Blogger, Hello Tumblr!

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Sun, 02 May 2010 13:44:00 +0000

click on the image to be redirected :)

Yesh, I've moved from Blogger to Tumblr for quite some time now. Why? Simply because I'm too lazy to type out whatever that I have so say, I reblog other people's posts instead! Haha. You might call it being NOT original, but no one's really THAT original after all. You follow other people's haircut, follow other's fashion sense, follow this and follow that. Reblogging is not wrong at all! In fact the original author would love it to be reblogged, noted and liked :)

Tumblr's IS that much simpler because I've no time to update my blog. Link me there and follow me if you want to. But I still have yet to figure out how to enable comments and such. Reblog is the new blogging! (for me it is! shhhhh~)

Love everyone, everyday

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 17:14:00 +0000

itu tangan saya, itu serpihan biskut oreo saya

The ol' panda wished, which I hope someone else would've (ok, ayat pelik gila nak mati, gonna leave it there fullstop).

Anyways, how's your Single Awareness Day?

My date for Valentine's day ;)

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Tue, 09 Feb 2010 16:45:00 +0000

Oh wait, I don't have any. Be mine, anyone? Hehe. Anyways, just wanna update something since the start of a new semester.

1. Week 1, was like hell yeah eager to start studying and score kononnya, just to find out the lecturer could've been better..and less boring. Yes, could have been.

2. Got a big bruise from futsal. Yeay, playing futsal now :)

3. Playing for sport's week! Yeay again!

4. Got another injury, first time for a bleeding knee. And both knees got bruises. Finally, I'm living life. Haha.

5. Never ever put an alcohol swab on an open wound, if you don't know it's gonna hurt, LIKE HELL. Seriously.

Running away

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 20:05:00 +0000

Oh, wait. You don't have to be scared anymore. I know my place; and it's not in your heart.

2010's to-do list

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 15:20:00 +0000

As of year 2010, I will...

Upload a video on youtube/facebook.
~~Have a conversation with a stranger~~.
Run a marathon.
Visit an art museum.
Learn to commit.
Enjoy the outdoors.
High five the person next to me.
~~Tell him that I like/love him.~~
~~Let go.~~
Solve a rubic's cube.
Take more photos.
Jog.
Eat more fruit.
Be happy and healthy.
Take more chances.
Start acting my age.
Watch a movie in 3D.
Find Mr Right.
Bake cookies from scratch.
Love.

Why so serious?

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 19:26:00 +0000

via here

Wise men say only fools rush in

But I cant help falling in love with you

p/s: love is history. i hate history. now do the math.

I just wanna be okay

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 15:25:00 +0000

I'm back! I will try to update weekly from now on (rather than daily cuz my life isn't interesting enough for you to read). Say awwww! Hahaha. Oh well, finals over yesterday. Tomorrow, is a brand new day! Of second semester *heart break*. Yeah, no semester break for Nottingham students. Azam baru yaw? Study smart not hard ok. These past few weeks I've been studying sooooo hard and the outcome was shet. No more playing around, Aez. You're in your 2nd year where your results will be taken for the final transcript. Huhu.

p/s: somebody teach me french pls? it sounds super adorable and romantic liedat <3

To-do list of 2010

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 08:08:00 +0000

via here

Hahaha..oh man. Don't do this to me. Alright, before year 2010 ends! That's if I managed to *ahem* lose a couple of stones :)

p/s: tell me what's yours!

The last day of oh-nine

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 18:34:00 +0000

Hello. Today's the last day of 2009. Current mood: ughh, tummy ache. Okays, anyway...this year has taught me to be friendly and warm-hearted and caring and loving :)

(BRB tummy aches real bad)

OK.back! I'm not sure if I've fulfilled this year's resolution. Heck, I can't even remember what were my resolutions. Heh, so for dearest 2010, I decided to keep it simple and achievable. Sounds good enough, right?

1. To spend wisely, save up monthly and stop buying unnecessary stuffs.

2. To spend more time with friends and family, reconnect the bonds from where it was left. Reconnect with old friends, visit the old school.

3. Study smart, stop skipping classes, be more organised. Use books, instead of papers. Be ORGANISED!

4. Stop being emotional.

5. Be nice to others, don't judge them without knowing them.

Ok, that's all for now. Shall be adding more to the list. At least, these are manageable, I guess.

Here comes December photos!

Batting was fun! RM3 on Wednesdays! :D

The old gang from high school.

Toilet pic is a must ;)

I loike this pic :3

Cousin's wedding

The yummy cake

Zara the niece, so comel I wanna bite her!

That's all for '09.

New year comes with new responsibility.

My aim? 1st class please, insyaallah :)

Avatar!

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 13:06:00 +0000

On hiatus because final exam starts on the 11th. 4 papers to sit for, 2 more weeks. Ganbatte! I went back to my mum's hometown in Muar, Johor last Thursday to attend my cousin's wedding which was on Saturday. Hohum, go back so early, to help out before and during the big day. Wanted to transfer the pictures but then the battery is empty. No charger, (still) no lappy, no memory card thingy blablabla. Tomorrow lah I'll post the pics. Anyways, have y'all watch Avatar? I wanna watch! Come accompany me :)

I know it's good :3 but being in a so-called-study-mode..makes me feel guilty to go out and enjoy..tralalala.

Study break

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 17:06:00 +0000

Oh yeah, we I really need this. Happy study break! Time to study and score 'em papers! 11th of January is the starting of my examination week yaw. All the best :)

Young at heart

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Sat, 19 Dec 2009 10:57:00 +0000

My heart is still too young,
overtime I have tortured it by acting mature.
Am I happy?
NO.
So, back to my old self,
the silly and naive self.

xoxo

How to be both man and woman

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Fri, 18 Dec 2009 18:23:00 +0000

It's not wrong to fall for a nice person, just don't fall for everyone who's nice to you. Even strangers can be nice if they knew your weakness. Just because they're nice doesn't mean their intentions are always like that. Man and woman, both have brain and heart. To think logically and to feel emotions. If you're falling hard, listen to the brain. The heart might just wound your feelings. Don't be over optimistic with your emotions because love starts with falling, and ends with where you land-either on a hard ground or cloud 9. Only fools fall on cloud 9. The smart ones withdraw from the battle like a man, hit the effing hard ground and cry out loud like a little girl for the pain he/she feels. This is how we can be both man and woman. It hurts to finally realise all those feelings are just temporary but the sooner you get over it, the better it'll be.

I do fall for nice fellas. So, I can say I've fallen for most of my guy friends. Different is, I get over them easily cuz their flaws are easy to spot. Still, they're the best friends anyone could ask for :)

Remember me?

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 19:06:00 +0000

I hope you haven't forgotten me! I know I've been away for awhile, but that doesn't mean I've totally forgotten about you! Assignments, I've typed this word oh so many times in here, muak dah ok. Well, it's pay back time for being a lazy kid. Kids, when you're finally in college, never ever skip any classes! It's important to get every single drop of knowledge so that you'll understand everything.

I feel like smashing the keyboard, tak makan saman (read: bloody fool). Oh, I've been in the computer lab every night now because my lappy is in the lappytal. Hopefully she'll be ok soon. Tiscra (the computer lab) is so empty right now. Usually it's full with people doing their assignments. I guess after 4.30 pm today, they've all declared 'merdeka' and probably enjoying their study break now. As for me, I still have an assignment due Monday, gonna be stuck here in Semenyih probably the entire 3 weeks of study break to...study, what else! Today's the start of the soon to be gila boring study break. Computer lab is my bestfriend now. I feel so...lifeless being here every night, playing tetris HAHA. Macam loser, sigh. Where's everyone?! Why am I the one stressing out?! Help :(

I wanna go to the annual dinner next year, pretty please? :D

Oh, yummy Jacob

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 15:40:00 +0000

Yes, can't seem to stay away even though the lappy went kaboom! I had a dream (yea duhh, like everyone else doesn't? =.=) Ok, so...yeah. I was in a war/battle something like that. My weapon - a water gun. The enemy - dinosaurs. My hunky team mate - Jacob aka Taylor Lautner. HAHAHA. It was friggin random. I don't think it was Taylor but it seems like his body though, so must be him then. I haven't watch New Moon, but here I am dreaming and killing dinosaurs with him. Sweet.

Let's kill dino again tonite ♥

Anyways, time to be super rajin yaw. So, lets do our best okay :)

To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

Hello, and goodbye

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 16:54:00 +0000

Sorry I missed yesterday's post. I think baby V's finally dead. *whisper* I accidently dropped her last night. But it wasn't from a high place! Probably about 5 cm, or 10 :( Turned it on today but she's on showing anything on the external monitor. Maybe the wires aren't properly connected but then, I sort of lost hope. Too pressured because I have yet to finish my last part for 1 out of 3 assignments. I'm using my sister's laptop at the moment, feel like going back to the university tomorrow to finish up my work. No mood for the weekend.

No mood at all because I'm losing my mind. Like I always do when I...ah, forget it. I wasn't even doing this post whole-heartedly. I almost forgot that I'm doing this right now. Anyways, I fall real hard for nice fellas. So stop being nice to me please, cuz it's hard to get it out of my mind T__________T

p/s: if u noe what I'm talking about, especially neo, sila jauhkan diri anda daripada membocorkan apape disini, sekian :)

I choose you!

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 15:59:00 +0000

www.failblog.org

I miss Pokemon, like seriously. Installed a game inside my hp but I don't know how to save it =.= I even had a dream of having a Pokemon battle. Haha. Those years, how long ago was it?

Too much curry, ma

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 13:06:00 +0000

Just finished my nestum chicken. Too much egg this time, I think. Well, come over to Nottingham University (Malaysia campus ok!!) and I'll belanja, but you'll pay :P

Anyways, today is a hot hot day, even at night. Maybe I should shower soon, hmmm. Today I was up, in the a.m (12 ain't a.m anymore that's why I was happy to wake up early) but 15 minutes too late for class. It's the fierce one that's teaching this time so I thought of sneaking in during break . BUT there was no break given, she finished it all in an hour and a half. I was so determined, was so gonna stop the 'all talk, no action' routine. Guess I failed. Tomorrow still got tutorial, so yeah not gonna skip that one! Next week's the final week before we're having our study break. Need to start the other 2 assignments ASAP! All talk and no play, makes me a dull one but I've been playing all semester. Time to stop procrastinating.

I'm color-deprived. Ever since, baby Vaio's screen turned white, I gotta use this external monitor. Now I can only see blue and yellow. Stalking others and looking at their pictures aint fun anymore. Their lips look either black or dark blue, very the gothic. Even little kids look that way. Color plays a major role in our life, the more the colour, the happier we are. As for me, that's why I got so blue and this cough is celebrating for me lazying around.

Of heels and shoes from the annual dinner, how I miss you :,)

I'll enjoy being a stalker after sending Vaio to the hospital next month!

Oh, I almost forgot why I wanted to make an entry today.

We know no one's perfect. Everyone changes from time to time, sometimes for better and sometimes for the worst. In the past years, even though I'm always acting like a child - it's because I'm young at heart :P For those that's still holding on to the past and not changing for their own good, I pity you. You're so stuck, you refuse to let go and let your ego takes over. I've learned from the past, and won't allow history to repeat itself. So, why are you being so bitter? Let go, let go. Karma's always a bitch.

p/s: too much curry, ma = too much karma

pp/s: someone just shouted "LET IT GO!". oh wow, maybe there's a fight out there, ngehs

The Archibald

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 09:08:00 +0000

via ♥

Finally, I've grown to love this man again. Aw, how can you not when he's so vulnerable and got his heart broken *drool*

p/s: the perfect kind of Mr. Right, don't you think >.<

Gimme a pep talk please!

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 06:35:00 +0000

One more month til its time for final exam. To tell you the truth, I'm hell yeah NOT prepared. Seriously. I think the amount of classes that I've been skipping (uh, massive headaches ok!) is far way less than last year. But why do I feel like I've learn nothing? Ok, nothing might be an exaggeration, but still, I feel...stupid T_____T Yeah, that's the word. I constantly keep asking for help and sometimes, I don't feel like asking anymore cuz I'm embarrassed to be such a fool T_____T

There's always a will, and what's the other one...uhm yeah, determination. Where's my will and determination this year? Please come back. You know I gotta achieve more than I could possibly imagine to keep the loan low (sobbb). Will, I know you're in me, somewhere. Ughhh, looks like I gotta give myself a pep talk. I need you dear Will, to go on through this journey, we gotta endure it together! Determination, help me achieve my goal!

I read the Fullmetal Alchemist manga the whole day yesterday (now I've finished 101 chapters in just 2 days OMG =.=), and I got sick. Like really sick, tummy aches so badly, I think I was having diarrhea, then I feel as if there's no oxygen to breathe. I feel like fainting, passing out, dying. I've been such a lazy kid...lazy lazy kid. But I know if I'm interested in something, I'll give my all to know everything about it. Like DSLR. Not gonna aim for that this year I guess, cuz my education comes first (yeay, determination!)

How to stop procrastinating? Hmmm :,(

Where did it go?

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 14:50:00 +0000

My 'just bought Dorothy Perkins like 2days before birthday top oh wait maybe it's a tunic', fml. I remember bringing it back here, in my room, Nottingham (Malaysia campus la wei). It's still in the bag, tak basuh lagi LOL cuz I like the smell of new clothes. You know, cuz they've been in the air-conditioned shop for so long, they smell new and sejuk. Where oh where is it? Am gonna cry now if I can't find it T___________T

What makes me suddenly think of it? Cuz I was browsing through their online shop and suddenly got the "wait a minute I just bought something the other day" feeling. And oh, it's been a while since I set foot in a mall. A proper mall with lots of shop (Amcorp Mall for the Big Bad Wolf Book Sales seriously doesn't count). I still have the 20% birthday discount for Dorothy Perkins *smiles wide*. And oh, wanna check out Crocs if this baby has arrived (uh yeah, the screen's still blue, so I assume they're black and white, eh?).

p/s: S, why'd you have to go with Tripp? Kesian Nate :(

Ice cream, anyone?

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Sat, 05 Dec 2009 16:00:00 +0000

As much as I love vanilla. Vanilla milkshake, gotta get one after recovered! But then, thank God that I'm sick. I don't feel like having any for now :) Hello, Sunday. Don't know if I wanna go back to Semenyih yet.

p/s: vanilla is the most erotic scent to elder men, so don't eat vanilla ice cream whenever you're with the elderlies x)

Away

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Sat, 05 Dec 2009 10:09:00 +0000

Yeah, I think I'll be away from blogging until further notice. Still sick and updating daily in this condition is such a hassle. My mind has already been invaded with germs and bacterias (sick!!), then having a 10pm dateline and now gotta think what to blog about? That's too much for a sickie like me :( Plus, blogging randomly without any aim and purpose seems more like mumbling babbling kinda thing. I know those things bore you (and me). So, I shall stop babbling now, continue my assignments and hope this headache will fck off. Toodles. See ya when I'm feeling better.

Much love,

Aez

p/s: but if you still find me here, on daily basis, it's because uh, I can't help myself :P

The ghost of high school past

noreply@blogger.com (Aezlika) — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 15:16:00 +0000

Notice how little I ~~expose~~ talk about myself here? Probably it's because that's what I always do in my previous blogs. I keep on making new ones with an aim NOT to blog too much about personal stuffs. It's tiring too read the older posts, especially when you blog about the problems you have with your friends or family. Tears keep on coming and I can hardly make it stop.

I've been such a cry baby ever since I was well, a little baby. I think I was born with extra tear ducts, that's why I tend to cry whenever I watch ANYTHING. Every stories have touching moments in them, even if they don't I'll still find it touching. Yes, emotional I am. That's the first thing you should know about me. However I hardly express my feelings to anyone. I keep them to myself, sometimes I blame myself for knowing too much of things that I shouldn't have. That's why I'm such a mess, because I care too much.

I was enrolled in an all-girls school from standard one until form five. Assunta, fyi. I didn't regret at all not being in a co-ed school. Because I am finally in a co-ed university and I think this has been the most miserable time of my life. Hearts were broken, tears were shed. Truth and confrontations hurt like hell, but that's what you have to go through in life. If you think I haven't seen the real world, well think again. What I've seen in my 20 years of life ARE real and re-living those moments will permanently damage the brain.

These girls were my confidante, my secret keepers, my everything. I love them very much and I'd do anything not to see them feeling down. I even help one of them to break up with her boyfriend, if that's what makes her happy. Back in form 3, we used to write funny letters where one of us would write a sentence and the rest would continue. Who knew it'd be such a pornographic letter. Girls those days, knew little about the word 'porn' but sigh...what to do when the tv influence was so strong.

Those moments kind of slowly stopped after form 3. We got into different classes. 2 of them were in the 1st class, I was in the 2nd class and another was in a different stream. Our hangout and talking cock moments were immediately stopped. Then school was over. We got into different places too. We've known each other since form 1, but I don't know why the bond isn't strong enough. We went on our separate ways and we keep lying to ourselves that things were as before. Because everyone knows, everyone noticed, we were not as close as last time. We would plan to hangout but that never really happen.

The girls I loved so much, cared so much. Now, I hardly know them anymore. People change as they grow up. So was the bond that we had. We didn't take the effort to cherish it, that's why sometimes those that you know in highschool won't be the friends of your life time. Distance is a bitch. Blegh! If there's a chance to get to know you again, I'd run across the sea to grab it. But that'll only happen if you would do the same. The question is, are you willing to? Can you show some initiative? I guess not, after waiting the answers for 3 bloody years. High school's long over, girls.