Pei² 2010.V1

In a mess...

2010-05-25T00:28:00.000+08:00

I seem to have neglected my blog again!... Time for a major shake up soon. Moving things around again soon... but highly unsure when "soon" will be. Totally busy with work but still left with too much spare, lonely time on my hands to think... Thinking too much leads to memories, sadness, heartache, tears, fears and more tears =_=" Having chest pains, breathlessness and dry mouth today again!... Seems like a stroke right?! They haven't really subsided. In addition to that I've developed a sore throat and a cough is starting to flare up too =_=" I hate sore throats!!! Actually I hate being sick, but doesn't everyone?! Think I need to stock up and start popping various supplements again >.<"

Went out tonight in need of shopping theraphy... thought it would make the stress subside... but alas... NO! Still feeling the stress. Thought I was coping ok for awhile!... Thought I was having fun... but as soon as I'm boxed up in my cubicle on Monday mornings... the realisation of having to face such a large pile of work just swallows me whole. I need to find more to life...

Lets start by getting Sorted...

OK... *geek*... I know I am... I love books... though... reading isn't really my passion haha... o.O?! Hopefully this will give me some organisation tips haha... Feel like I'm losing it, so hopefully after reading this and tidying up I can tidy up my life as well?! Hehe... ok not much hope. But it seems like a nice book and I like storage ideas >.<

Anyways... sorethroat is getting irritating!!!...

Losing it!!!

2010-05-05T08:08:00.001+08:00

I'm going out of my mind!!! I don't have enough time to blog, to organise or to sleep!!! And I can't find my favouite hairclip and earrings that I took to Japan! I'm still hoping they'll turn up! I haven't had time to fully unpack since the trip, so hopefully they're still lingering around. I'm hoping the same for my taxi receipt for my taxi ride home for the trip, cos if I can't find it then I can't claim!!! I know I should've taken better care of it, but I got home at a really dodgy time 2:30am!!! So I was trying to get out of the cab with my 3 luggage/bags and bottles of Amaretto & Baileys, it was quite a struggle. Plus at that dodgy time I'm only thinking bout racing up to my flat!!! Of course when home the only thing to do at that time is crash to sleep!! And the taxi receipt is so dodgily small!!! Ugghhh!!! Furthermore I had a packed weekend...

After going to sleep at about 3am I woke up at 10am then 12pm got picked up to go to Formula Drift to see the action. Fun fun!!! Went there again the next day (Sunday) and took lots of mad photos, but not before attending a work event early in the morning. Managed to fit in a foot & shoulder massage (that hurt like hell) between the events too!

Even Monday was quite busy. Had to take urgent leave cos I didn't know it was my granny's birthday (I don't look at the Chinese calendar) and didn't wanna miss her bday lunch. Wish we could've had a small party instead like we have most years but I guess everyone's busy. Family should come before work. When you're old and grey, work's not going to be there to look after you. When you're down and sick, work's not going to care for you. Must treat family better!

Until now I haven't caught up with my chores! Seems like there's never enough time!!!

~ Signing off 2 days after I started typing up this post =) *happier these days*

~ Posted via Pei²'s iPhone o.Ov

Loving Japanese cosmetics!

2010-04-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

Short post... These are some of my NEW current favourite cosmetic products =D Singapore has such a huge variety to choose from! There's your usual suspects: Shiseido, Dior, Shu Uemura, Benefit, etc. Then there's Japanese, Korean, Taiwanese, etc. products. But definitely the eye catchers are the Japanese products with their drool-worthy packaging!

I wanted these two products on first sight, but decided to wait awhile before purchasing. When I went back a few days later, the lip concealer was already sold out! So I bought the face powder and zoomed around to find another outlet with the lippy.

Sana Lip concealer/moisturiser and Pink colour face powder.

The Nude lip colour is amazing! The first time I put it on I was thinking "OMG what have I bought?! It's like dark brownish/orange colour", but now I love it! Maybe the first time I put it on I wasn't used to the natural look and I applied it a little heavy. I can't live without it now! It goes great under lipstick and gloss too! Gives a totally natural appearance which I'm loving right now.

The pink face powder is actually said to give a Computer Graphic finish to your makeup. There are 2 shades I think. Pink and Skin Tone. I usually go for the pink as it makes your face look brighter and healthier. The powder gives a nice sheen, but not overly glittery which is good :)

Another recent cosmetic product I've purchased and totally loving is Shiseido's Matte Lipstick from "The Makeup" range. It goes great over Sana's Lip Concealer too! It's seriously Matte, so if you have dry lips, avoid at all costs OR moisturise!!! If like me with slightly dry lips at times (when I forget to apply my lip balm the day before), just dab on some lip gloss on top of the lip colour... press your lips together a few times and ta-da! Still reasonably matte colour, whilst dry lips are not as noticible.

Shiseido Perfect Rogue Glowing Matte PK224 Sugar Babe
P.S. Aren't O.P.I. Designer Series nail polishes just brilliant!!!

Also I highly recommend Shu Uemura's Depsea Hydrability Moisturizing Lip Balm! Apart from the fact it tastes nice (not that I'm eating my lip gloss on purpose haha), it really works!!! Provided you apply it at least morning and night.

Time for bed. Still sleep deprived AS USUAL. I've increased my average sleeping time each night to 4hrs 48mins (over 36 nights). Ok, so the increase is only about 10mins per night on average =S Probably aided by the fact on weekends I can sleep over 12hours in a night, provided I have nothing on hehe. But on an average work night, I get about 4hrs sleep which I know is seriously not enough. Feeling the effects! And also probably the fact that I have been eating lots of wheat and totally disregarded my wheat intollerace recently =( That contributes greatly to my lethargicness and bloatedness!!! Goodnight... Zzz...

The Southern Kiwiberry

2010-03-28T00:53:00.003+08:00

Yes... FOOD again! I ♥ trying new food! Awhile ago I saw Kiwiberries in my local supermarket and couldn't get it out of my mind! Had to try it, so finally I bought a punnet to try with everyone at home...

"The sweet tasting, healthy super snack that is ready to eat... just like a grape! Delicious in salads, dips or simply as it."

Not exactly an everyday snack. Nearly $3 for a box of 12 which doesn't last very long at all as they're very small. At least they're not hairy like a usual Kiwifruit.

Flash doesn't do it justice...

Doesn't look "ripe" as per the Kiwiberry website photos, but they were really soft already, so I guess ready to eat.

Amazes me that they're so small, but exactly like a Kiwifruit on the inside!!!

So what's the general consensus?!... Yummy! Sweeter than your normal Kiwifruit! I'm loving it! But a con is that they finish too fast! It's great for lazy people, cos you don't need a spoon to dig out the flesh. Just pop it in your mouth after getting rid of the end bit. Even my granny likes it!

How do they come up with miniature fruit?! It's amazing! Or is it genetically modified?! o.O?! But the website says "organic"... However the packaging for this didn't say anything about being organic... The price was pretty organic though!

I'd probably buy this again on a day when I'm in need of "food theraphy". I'm craving Honeydew all of a sudden! Please make Honeydew berries o.O?

Just some thoughts...

2010-03-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

I'm still hooked to listening to Autumn's Concerto soundtrack everyday! It plays while I'm getting ready for work and when I get home from work as well. 90% of the time I'm listening to music at home these days the songs are on repeat haha. I should transfer it to my HD and bring it to work so I can listen to it on repeat there too >.<

Originally I fell in love with the song 我愛他, however I've moved on to love the lyrics of Victor Wong's 我以為:

Victor Wong - 我以為 ( I thought)

你曾说不想有天让我知道
nǐ céng shuō bú xiǎng yǒu tiān ràng wǒ zhī dào
You once said, you wouldn’t want me to ever find out

你对他有那么好
nǐ duì tā yǒu nà me hǎo
How good you’ve been to him

你说会懂我的失落
nǐ shuō huì dǒng wǒ de shī luò
You said you understood my disappointment

不是靠宽容就能够解脱
bú shì kào kuān róng jiù néng gòu jiě tuō
And that to forgive didn’t meant a total liberation

我以为我出现的时候刚好
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ chū xiàn de shí hòu gāng hǎo
I thought my appearance into your life was just about right

你和他正说要分开
nǐ hé tā zhèng shuō yào fèn kāi
You and him were about to break apart

我以为你已对他不再期待
wǒ yǐ wéi nǐ yǐ duì tā bú zài qī dài
I thought you no longer had any expectations for him

不纵容他再给你伤害
bú zòng róng tā zài gěi nǐ shāng hài
And wouldn’t allow him to hurt you anymore

我以为我的温柔能给你整个宇宙
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ de wēn róu néng gěi nǐ zhěng gè yǔ zhòu
I thought my gentleness could give you the entire universe

我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ néng quán lì tián mǎn nǐ gǎn qíng de quē kǒu
I thought I could try my best to fill that empty space in your heart

专心陪在你左右弥补他一切的错
zhuān xīn péi zài nǐ zuǒ yòu mí bǔ tā yī qiē de cuò
And be by your side always to compensate for the mistakes he made

也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生
yě xǔ wǒ tài guò tiān zhēn yǐ wéi qí jì huì fā shēng
Maybe I was overtly naïve to assume that a miracle could happen

我以为终究你会慢慢明白
wǒ yǐ wéi zhōng jiū nǐ huì màn màn míng bái
I thought you would slowly understand eventually

他的心已不在你身上
tā de xīn yǐ bú zài nǐ shēn shàng
That his heart was no longer focused on you

我的关心你依然无动于衷
wǒ de guān xīn nǐ yī rán wú dòng yú zhōng
You remain unmoved by my love for you

我的以为只是我以为
wǒ de yǐ wéi zhī shì wǒ yǐ wéi
My assumptions were just my assumptions

我以为我的温柔能给你整个宇宙
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ de wēn róu néng gěi nǐ zhěng gè yǔ zhòu
I thought my gentleness could give you the entire universe

我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ néng quán lì tián mǎn nǐ gǎn qíng de quē kǒu
I thought I could try my best to fill that empty space in your heart

专心陪在你左右弥补他一切的错
zhuān xīn péi zài nǐ zuǒ yòu mí bǔ tā yī qiē de cuò
And be by your side always to compensate for the mistakes he made

也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生
yě xǔ wǒ tài guò tiān zhēn yǐ wéi qí jì huì fā shēng
Maybe I was overtly naïve to assume that a miracle could happen

他让你红了眼眶你却还笑着原谅
tā ràng nǐ hóng le yǎn kuàng nǐ què hái xiào zhe yuán liàng
He made you cry your eyes out and yet you forgave him with a smile

原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁
yuán lái nǐ zǎo jiù xiǎng hǎo nǐ yào liú zài shuí de shēn pang
It turns out you’ve decided long ago, by whose side you will remain

我以为我够坚强却一天天地失望 (却输得那么绝望)
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ gòu jiān qiáng què yī tiān tiān dì shī wàng (què shū dé nà me jué wàng)
I thought I was strong enough but I’ve lost hope as the days go by (but I’ve lost with all disparity)

少给我一点希望希望就不是奢望
shǎo gěi wǒ yī diǎn xī wàng xī wàng jiù bú shì shē wàng
Give me less to hope for; and hope will not turn into expectations

Lyrics taken from D-Addicts ;)

Hmmm... 我愛他 lyrics reflect my feelings better, but these are meaningful lyrics nonetheless. Nothing much else to blog about at the moment. Work still sucks, I'm broke as usual, extremely sleep deprived (also as usual) and still listening to sad love songs >.<

Oh, web-wise. I've taken down some of my sites/blogs and given up on some fanlistings. Lets hope this coming weekend I'll have some motivation to work on my websites *fingers crossed*. Oh and amidst my entire night of insomnia on Sunday-Monday, I drew my first fashion sketch in 3+ years! Must *add oil* and try to finish it this weekend. I think my fashion design skills are slipping through my fingers, but will try to practise more. >.<

Just a random post...

2010-03-19T07:45:00.001+08:00

On the way to work as usual. Teh-si in one hand and iPhone in the other. Actually it seems that my iPhone is permanently glued to the palm of my hand haha. STILL lovin' it!!! Still waiting for an iPad to fill the void in my lap haha.

It's gonna be a LONG day today! Work then to Zirca to see the CLEO most eligible bachelors finals. Not that I find any I'd those guys hot, but it'll be good to get out of the flat on a Friday night. Then tomorrow... Just SLEEP!!!

Then on Sunday I should work on my sites cos my host moved servers and there are some problem I haven't fixed :( Also gonna take down my 365. YES! I've given up on my Project 365 again! Basically cos my life is pretty boring and I'm always struggling to find things to take photos of when everyday I only go to my office then home. =_=" And that makes my 365 filled with random object photos rather than being a reflection of what I did for the day.

However I will start a photo blog that will just showcase photos I find interesting on a more infrequent basis, but I feel it'll be more interesting than my current 365.

Reaching my cubicle soon. Must not get stressed today!!! :S

~ Posted via Pei²'s iPhone o.Ov

Abnormal sleeping patterns?!

2010-03-18T00:49:00.001+08:00

I'm still not bored with my Sleep Cycle Alarm Clock App! But my sleeping patterns are getting worse and so are my sleeping hours!

Last night my graph looked something like this...

Is it normal or really disrupted sleeping?! They say that the graph I'd supposed to show a pattern in 90min intervals?! Well for "normal" sleeping patterns. But I think I don't sleep enough to have normal sleeping patterns =_=" obviously the graph shows I slept after 12am and woke up at 5:30am. My average sleeping time is 4hrs and 39mins. I know it's not enough sleep, but how to achieve everything in one day if you don't stay awake longer?!

Tonight I was supposed to get at least 6hrs sleep, but as usual it's nearly 1am and I'm distracted from sleeping again! My head is getting more sore everyday haha. Ok, totally NOT funny. I am actually worried. But I just want more time!

~ Posted via Pei²'s iPhone o.Ov

No benefits

2010-03-17T09:00:00.001+08:00

Blogging in the car again on the way to work. Let's hope today there's no traffic jam like the last time I was blogging in this ride.

I think my understanding of Chinese is sort of getting better, as I actually understood some of the topics they were discussing on the radio this morning on the Chinese radio station I'm forced to listen to on the way to work every morning. It's THE most boring radio station ever! Yes it's 97.2FM.

They were discussing the fact that in Singapore how in a lot of companies, they don't pay for your medical expenses if you don't go to government or appointed "company doctors". Sometimes the Medical Certificate is not even valid if you see an "outside" doctor.

In Singapore society where you NEED a Medical Certificate to claim your medical leave, this is a huge injustice to human rights! It's not like in Australia or other developed nations where you can just call in sick and only need a certtificate in the case of being absent more than 2 days?! This is another example of how Singapore companies treat their workers like children and run the company like a school putting in place ridiculous rules. They don't trust their society as adults.

Why they appoint "company doctors"?! I'm pretty sure that they can use the excuse that it helps us to claim our medical benefits. But from my perspective, I'm pretty sure they have some agreement to cut down our medical leave for the benefit of the company. As opposed to the benefit of our health.

[Edit] A week later... I actually forgot to post this when I arrived at work last week ;P

This past week I've spent some time with my high school friend from Australia who stopped by in Singapore for a few days in her epic holiday around Asia. It was great to meet up with her and at the same time got to meet her boyfriend who also went to our high school but graduated a year before us, but we never knew he existed back then. Must be fate :)

I met up with my high school exchange student friend before we headed to meet them together. My friend's boyfriend introduced us to his friend ALSO from our high school and graduated in the same year as him who is now living in Singapore! Similar circumstance as we're 3 ladies all from the same high school but living in Singapore now. We discovered that we're all experiencing the same types of hardships living in Singapore, be it lifestyle, culture, finding new friends, being away from family and just living away from the "home" we know so well in Australia.

Great to meet a new friend who understands how hard it's been to adapt to the Singapore lifestyle. She's been here 6 years, married, with a baby but is still finding it tough and would like to move back. IF I'm still here 6 years down the track, will I still be holding back the tears everyday not knowing how to deal with everything?! Ugghh!!!

Half way through our mini 5 person high school reunion I was asked "So are you attached?" because the two other ladies are here basically cos they've found their significant other. My reply of course was "No". To get the reply I've been hearing all 3 years since I've been here "Then why are you here?!". LOL. All I can say is "Momentary lapse of stupidity" made me choose to come here. I know I shouldn't be running away from what I need to face one day, but I've already run away. If I go back and have achieved nothing won't I get mocks of "I told you so!" =_="

The same lines keep running through my head: "Why are you here?", "Why would you do that to yourself?", "Go back to Australia", "Get away from here (SG) while you still can!" LOL. Seems I've screwed up BIG time!!!

*heartaches & headaches* =_="

~ Posted via Pei²'s iPhone o.Ov

In another one of those depressive moods...

2010-03-09T00:17:00.000+08:00

This is a really nice song with really meaningful and relatable lyrics...

... song from Autumn's Concerto... a really good Taiwanese series to watch!...

I miss Bubu... my dog who passed away 14th October 2006 after being with me for about a decade?! (I think more, should've paid more attention at the start)... I guess things have been going downhill since then. But did he really die?! I never got to see his body. I wasn't home. I wasn't there for him. I'm never there for the people and things that need me. From that point on, I lost everything else important to me.

I hate me now. I hate where I am. I could get a way better job and way better pay that could actually sustain the type of lifestyle that I want instead of earning the peanuts that I am now. But when you have nothing to look forward to, what's the point. Just stay in one place, day to day routines, waiting for life's grand finale. Unless something meaningful comes along. Which doesn't seem likely at this point in time and in these types of places.

Should I stay or should I go?! Singapore Vs. Australia. Ugghh! Sometimes I wish I was a robot devoid of any emotion. Have a dagger through my heart and now an arrow through my head. Hurts more than a physical wound. =_="

Must try to concentrate on making more $. For my benefit and the benefit of people around me. To be able to live the type of lifestyle I want. But then again... No motivational source... Conflicted. No one to lean on, no one to talk to, no one that understands. Everyday just watching people being pretentious while they try to climb on top of everyone else. Why can't people be more considerate and compassionate?! This is an ugly world!!!

*white flag*

Triumphant...

2010-03-05T08:23:00.001+08:00

Currently on the way to work. Haven't had the time to blog recently due to my current obsession "Autumn's Concerto" series. Damn heart wrenching!!! Watching this show, it makes me realise why people always say Taiwanese series are all sad and about crying LOL. Can't deny I've shed a tear or two ;P

Had a very fruitful shopping day last Sunday at 313 Somerset... Unfortunately for my bank account! Was supposed to be 'passing through' and 'window shopping' then to make my way down to Takashimaya Cold Storage then Ion 360 Marketplace... Yes! Slight obsession with grocery shopping, house wife syndrome LOL.

Anyways, got to 313 around 6pm ish if I remember correctly. Ended up shopping till 9pm+ carrying 3 bountiful bags of shopping *dies* only to realise I haven't done my grocery shopping! Thank goodness for Google on my iPhone and the fact that Cold Storage Centrepoint stays open till 10:30pm on a Sunday night.

Cold Storage at Centrepoint is not bad. Less salad greens than Northpoint CS, but infinitely better than Causeway Point CS which has COCKROACHES in their shelving! And hardly any fresh greens! What They have look pretty disgusting an the store's layout is crap! Venting, anyways... Another 2 bags of bountiful groceries and I surrendered to Starbucks for a sit down before the long trip back home on the stupid MRT.

I swear I NEVER fail to return home empty handed after going shopping! I don't understand this "window shopping" concept. IF I see it. I will want it and will NEED to buy it to keep my sanity!

Best experience that night would have to be my visit to the Triumph store. Never buy Triumph lingerie at a department store again! I think I spent ages in the store! And their dressing rooms are super nice! Spacious with a vanity, seat, curtains, fluffy rug, "mood simulator" and they have THE best lighting ever that makes you look flawless!!! Would be so good for a cam whoring session haha.

And they give you a membership card so that you get $40 off after buying $300, which is ok considering how much Their stuff costs in the first place. Do they have the membership at department stores too?! How come I've never been offered it till now?! Could've saved heaps haha.

I'm looking forward to watching Alice in Wonderland 3D! LOVE 3D shows! Resisted from buying Urban Decay's Alice Alice Limited Edition eyeshadow palette from Sephora! Only $88!!! But I just got Maquillage's new eyeshadows so attempting not to splurge! But the Alice Alice set is to die for! *regrets* Sometimes sensibility is a pain in the butt!!!

1h later... I'm still on the way to work and LATE! Already late by 15 mins and nowhere near work haha *doomed*. Whenever there's a car crash, the traffic jams are humongous! Should've gone to the docs again today if I had known! My cough is getting worse again! Probabaly cos I'm now sitting directly under an air con at work =_=" I'll never stop coughing!!!

I wonder when I get to work if my 300MB+ of working files have finished downloading so I can do my work! Was downloading for 4hrs yesterday and when I left work it still had 7hrs remaining!!! Insanely slow!... Just like the traffic this morning. I'm SUPER hungry now!!! And 22mins late with no office in sight!

~ Posted via Pei²'s iPhone o.Ov

Zero connectivity... Day 1

2010-02-26T17:46:00.000+08:00

I seriously CAN NOT live without Internet access to civilisation!!! Day 1 company trip. Bored out of my mind! Totally like drift wood today! Just going with the flow!!!

Found connectivity! But my hopes were short lived... Found a free Internet service, but the connection or speed is SO bad that it doesn't work!!! *pulls out hair*

And right now as I'm typing this up on my iPhone, it's absolutely POURING!!! WTF!!! And from the looks of it, this stupid conference room is isolated away from the damn hotel! So either this stupid meeting ends later or the stupid rain ends SOON!!! Farkin'!!! I have to walk on wet ground!!! Ahhh!!! This is not relaxing at all!!!

Now waiting for my medicine to kick in and numb my senses! *screaming*

~ Posted via Pei²'s iPhone o.Ov

Never enough time!!!

2010-02-25T02:01:00.001+08:00

It's nearly 2am and I'm not asleep yet! So many things left undone and I have no time to finish it!!! Plus on Friday we have to go to Malaysia for a company thing and we don't get to come back till Saturday evening! It couldn't be at a worse time! What a waste if a Saturday! And I don't even want to think about the roaming charges for my phone!!! What a waste of money because it's wasted on Malaysia instead of some better country!

OMG I'm freaking out!!! I'm not even feeling sleepy! Probably because of the adrenalin rush from anxiety! So much to worry about!!! And Malaysia's known for robberies etc. Now I gotta worry what I bring there and if I lose it will I be mortified! But I'll throw a fit if I lose any of my belongings! Cos to buy it back costs MONEY!!! And money is a very precious and rare commodity to me at this point in time!!! Raawwrrr!!! Angry!!!

Needs to earn extra cash. Weekend job? =_="

~ Posted via Pei²'s iPhone o.Ov

Irritatingly painful!

2010-02-23T23:58:00.001+08:00

I've been constantly reminded of my prawn fishing expedition for 16 days already! And it's a painful reminder!

Started off on a scorching hot sunny Singapore day... my friend's visiting from Aus and he wanted to go fishing. After taking a huge detour taking a taxi from Pasir Ris MRT to the kayaking end of Pasir Ris Park (where the taxi driver thought the fishing pond was), then trekking and eventually tandem cycling our way through the Park to the pond (which is actually just across the road from Pasir Ris MRT station *slams head into brick wall*). We looked around and decided to prawn fish instead. THE best decision EVER!

After paying for an hour each ($13), at the end of the hour our total prawn count was ZERO!!! (@^_^@) But we weren't going to go there and not catch anything at all! So we extended the time. They have a 3h + 1h free package for $39 which is great because if you go with 2 people they let you split it for 2 hours each! Whilst paying for the next two hours I embarrassingly asked the uncle at the booth "so... how exactly do you prawn fish?" LOL as we kept getting bites, but we couldn't figure out the technique to hook them out of the water!

The uncle there was really nice and got another uncle who is seriously an expert at prawn fishing to teach us. Even though as a pro the said the prawns weren't biting well that day, we managed to catch around 15 decent sized prawns in that 2 hours. Best challenging fun ever! I totally want to go again... and again... and again >;P

Worms! (which I didn't want to touch initially, but eventually did for the sake of the prawns) ;P

Big prawns!

Yummy prawns!!! Butter prawns & Sambal prawns! I *heart* the butter prawns!

Now the painful reminder... as I was scared to catch the live prawns, I wasn't very quick and decisive in the way I grabbed them, so a couple managed to flick and their tail spike pricked me a few times on my pinky finger. One prick was quite bad and managed to draw some blood, but I'm no stranger to cuts so I just ignored it. A few days later I tried to write something and felt the side of my pinky knuckle hurting. The worst prick has actually grown into a small lump =( The other pricks are slowly healing.

I happened to bring it up with my doctor when I went in because of my cough. He said there was some tissue build up, but because I was on anti-biotics it should heal too. Which is what I figured in the first place, but decided to bring it up with him because I was already on anti-biotics for 5 days at that stage. He asked if it has been less painful since taking the anti-biotics. I said no. Then he said it will heal... o_O! Sometimes doctors give the most blatant answers! *rolls eyes*

But 1 week on... it's still a lump and it still hurts at the slightest touch! And I was on anti-biotics for 8 days! Obviously they didn't help!... So now... how? I've googled for other people who have had something similar and only got one lady who got pricked while she was peeling prawns. But her prick developed puss then she went to the docs and got it fixed. But my doctor thinks it'll heal itself?! =_=" I can't write properly or use my Wacom tablet properly either! Rawwrrr!!! Anyways, my cough still isn't going away and I'm nearly out of medicine plus I have to go on my company's sales retreat in a few days so I'll have to pay the doctor a visit and tell him about this painful reminder again ~_~"

Sleep Cycle

2010-02-22T23:08:00.001+08:00

Absolutely lovin' my iPhone apps! Found this one last night and decided to buy it for $0.99... hehe it's such a gimick! All the prices are so cheap you just think to yourself "it's not even the price of a coffee!" then the downloading begins!!!

That graph is my Sleep Cycle from last night. According to the site, the iPhone might not be picking up my movements properly. But I don't usually move much at night. Or maybe I was too sleepy and was in totally deep sleep that I didn't move?! Will see how it goes tonight =) According to the stats, I slept for 4hrs and 43 mins last night. YES! I know I NEVER sleep enough =_="

I didn't hear the alarm go off in the morning though, maybe because my iPhone alarm got in the way haha. I will push my iPhone alarm to a later time for tomorrow as a precautionary alarm in case I don't get woken up by Sleep Cycle.

I love iPhone Apps!!! I don't think I can live without an iPhone now that I have one! Everything I need! Notes, blogging, calendar, to do, alarm, music, video, youtube, internet, games, PDF viewer, recipes, tools, chat, mafia wars, contacts, syncing and so much more! And yes... Mafia Wars *bang bang* Anyone out there with Mafia Wars on their iPhone and wants to add me as a member? I need to grow my mafia LOL!

Little thoughts...

2010-02-21T21:31:00.000+08:00

Ok, whilst I'm force feeding myself before I take my cough medicine, there's some things on my mind.

Firstly... I think they should invent a meal in a tablet form. So when you need to take your medicine, you can just pop a food pill first to fill your stomach! Haha... sometimes when you're sick, you're just not in the mood to eat ANYTHING! Not even the yummiest of foods!

Secondly... Even in Singapore where it is considered a very "safe" environment, I find there are all kinds of wierdos that are making me feel unsafe! I don't like going clubbing as I feel a lot of people there have a motive of some sort. But even people I know are starting to give me chills! Firstly at my workplace, I hold everyone as my colleague and only a colleague. Don't ask me anything personal, especially not out of office hours! And especially not at 2am or 3am in the morning!!!

Seriously?! If you're SMSing at that time you are either DRUNK or just... I don't know how to explain, but a decent guy wouldn't be up at that time SMSing people they don't know that well / their colleagues!!! My friends SMS me in the middle of the night I can understand, but I don't even know you that well and you're sending stupid questions in the middle of the night?! Are you trying to pull a fast one?! Do you think I'm an "easy" target?! WTH is wrong with you people?!

Just because I am nice to people at work, it's only because I don't want to cause trouble at work. I am only there to WORK! And just because I'm nice doesn't mean I wont stand my ground if you cross the line! Even if there is something you want to ask me, don't you think it'd be better off asked during a decent time of the day?!

Maybe I should stop being so nice and be more of a bitch! When I'm nice people think they can take advantage of me. When I'm a bitch, they think I'm stuck up. Maybe I should just lie and tell everyone I have a boyfriend. Will that keep them from trying anything?! I am super annoyed! Is it only Singaporean guys that try whimpy, corny moves?! I never worked properly in Australian society, so I've never come across this type of thing in Australia. The only wierdos there was this boy who followed me around the city for 1.5 days then ran after me when I escaped on to a bus and a old man who wanted to "get to know me better" and meet me at the State Library often.

Actually one thing in common!... All Chinese / Asian!!! WTH?! Why am I always being attacked by these sorts of people?! Even shopping in Singapore, I just get randomly stared down by old men, then when I try to death stare them they ask me stupid things like "are you from Singapore? You don't look like you're local. You look like you're Korean..." etc. Why would I want to talk to some random man, old enough to be my father, in the middle of a shopping centre?!

Raaaawwwwwrrrrrrr!!! Makes me SO mad!

Next Friday & Saturday I'm going to be out of town... on a Company Sales "Retreat" which I am NOT looking forward to one bit at all!!! Send me to somewhere decent like Japan, Korea, Hong Kong, Taiwan etc. I'm still ok with it. But seriously to Malaysia?! OMG That's one of my "to avoid" places along with Thailand, Indonesia, China, Cambodia, Philaphines... No offence to anyone from those countries, but it's just my personal preference! The things I want to see and experience are in mainly Japan and Korea. The thought of going to Malaysia is already giving me anxiety attacks! And I have to stay there overnight! *stress*

Essential Naunce Airy Intensive Hair Mask

2010-02-21T19:38:00.001+08:00

Very impressed with Essential's New Intensive Hair Mask!

Used it a few times in the last couple of weeks and it really leaves my hair super smooth and soft. You can feel the softness straight away when you're washing it out of your hair! Their Shampoo and Conditioners are ok too, but I like Herbal Essence's Dangerously Straight range too much as that leaves hair without kinks, even after tying it up.

Tao Kae Noi Hot Chilli Squid Vs. Tao Kae Noi Kimchi

2010-02-21T15:45:00.001+08:00

FOOD!

Tao Kae Noi Hot Chilli Squid Vs. Tao Kae Noi Kimchi

Tao Kae Noi Japanese Crispy Seaweed is yummy, their Super Crisp Seaweed is even yummier! I think the crispness is a contributing factor! I love my spicy flavours! It just doesn't taste right without a slight burning sensation. The one flavour that I find absolutely disgusting is Tom Yum! Even though I'm an avid fan of Tom Yum soup, Tom Yum flavoured seaweed is a definite NO GO ZONE!

These are the two Super Crisp flavours I've tried recently, Hot Chilli Squid and Kimchi. Hands down I still love the aroma, slight sweetness and spiciness of the Hot Chilli Squid Flavour. I keep going back for more!!! I've tried the Kimchi flavour once. If they ever run out of Hot Chilli Squid flavour, I'd go for the Kimchi, but it can't beat Chilli Squid for me. For chilli loving humans, the Kimchi flavour is the way to go! It is seriously scorching! And the more you eat, the more spicy it gets! I had to take a few breaks in between to finish one pack whereas Hot Chilli Squid isn't as spicy and can easily be finished in one session with no drink breaks.

Each 24g pack supposedly contain 2 servings, but these are one of those addictive "once you start, you can't stop" type of snacks. And it contains 0% fats! I wont try to analyse the Nutrition Facts here as I'm not a health junkie so I have absolutely no idea what Carbs content etc. mean or what they contribute to at all! Nor do I have any interest to figure out what it means as I don't want to spend my whole life analysing everything I eat and not being able to enjoy food as it should be. And yes! People that ALWAYS analyse their food intake, especially in front of me, annoy me to the fullest extent! Just enjoy your food! If you feel you've eaten excessively, then go have some salad for the next few days, but DON'T tell me about it!

And yet again I'm into venting mode (*＾-＾*) will resist... On to other "once you start, you can't stop" foods...

O'tori Nugget Baked Corn Snack - Grilled Cuttlefish Flavour

So I'm a big fan of squid/cuttlefish flavour although I detest eating actual squid or cuttlefish! Ironic. O'tori Nuggets are super yummy!!! And GLUTEN FREE! Corn snacks are the best! These are Grilled so the nuggets have a golden sheen and a slightly caramelised shell. Super crispy! Supposed to be 5 servings in one container, but easily finished in one session! The Chicken Spicy flavour is also yummy! I've seen a Tom Yum flavour too, but too scared to try that lest it tastes like Tom Yum Seaweed. There's also Seaweed and Coconut flavours which I haven't seen around. What would Coconut Nuggets taste like?! Now I'm curious! Must go on a search for Coconut O'tori Nuggets now! ~ not literally NOW! (_ _;)…

Next up... Strawberry Mochi Vs. Strawberry Mochi haha :P

Bitter...

2010-02-21T00:53:00.000+08:00

I HATE MEDICINE!!! Especially those tiny non-coated ones! Why do they still make them?! I wish that all medicine, tablets, were encapsulated in those plastic looking capsules!!! Aren't we advanced enough to do that?! It's so disgusting. I pause before I take my tiny little yellow cough tablets to concentrate on getting it down the first time and not having the thing touch any part of my mouth before being washed down! It's THE most disgusting bitter tasting tablet!!! And it's only about 4mm in diameter and 1mm thick, but it's deadly to the taste buds!!! Raaawwwrrr!!! Annoyed... cos I just had a bad run in with it before and it got stuck right at the back of my mouth... and taste... OMG super foul!!!

I am SO over taking medicine!!! This year alone I've already been on anti-biotics for over 20 days! Taken like 4 different types of cough medicine, 2 or 3 types of flu medicine, steroids, allergy medicine, nose spray and asthma inhaler. I want to get better already!!! *throws a tantrum* And I have so many things I want to get done, but resting to get better is such a waste of time! I know I need my rest, and I know that I'm not better yet because I haven't exactly spent all my time resting up and I've been pushing myself cos I want to get my stuff done. Being sick is such a set-back! And even when I do what I want to, the medicine has a way of knocking me out and makes me feel lathargic all day! Even now I'm fighting my medicine to stay awake! I know it's not going to make me better this way, but I've been in bed ALL day already! So counter productive!!! SUPER ANNOYED!!!

I'm so conflicted at this point in time too! To add relatives to my Facebook or not?! I know they're my family, but I deserve SOME privacy right?! I have added some relatives, the ones I know wont pry into what I share with my friends, but more and more relatives are asking me to add them! I feel NAKED! Don't you find that the things you share between friends are sometimes things that you can't share with family?! Not because you're doing anything bad, but sometimes family look too much into things (maybe "trying" to protect you) and take things WAY out of context?! Hard to explain the feeling, but I would feel so much more at ease without relatives looking in on everything I do. Maybe this is the freedom-loving side of me being a Sagittarian?!

Helpless

2010-02-19T01:19:00.000+08:00

Never have I felt so totally overcome by sickness that I can't do anything about. Puff after puff of asthma inhaler and I still feel breathless! It's only February! ONLY the 7th week of the year... and I've already used up like 6 maybe 7 days medical leave out of the 14 days I'm entitled to! Been to the doctors at least 7 times! That averages to once a week!!! And I'm feeling awful right now, can't breathe properly, rashes from probable food allergy, sinus as a result of allergy to air pollution, and cough as a result of sinus and/or asthma. This is turning out the be a really good start to the year! *insert sarc mark*

Maybe Singapore climate really doesn't suit me. I hardly used to get sick in Australia. But I do remember that when I was studying in Singapore, around primary 4, I was also always sick. Always visiting the doctors and always being sat aside to breathe using one of nebulizer machines. Not fun! I remember the first time I had an asthma attack when I was a toddler in Singapore too! I refused to be seen by the doctor so they threatened to hospitalise me... yet I refused! So... yes hospitalised! Then I kicked and punched all the nurses and doctors around me hehe... such a wise kid I was =P

I thought my asthma had subsided. I guess I was wrong =( Feeling so weak and helpless for the first time in ages! I can't be one of those weak people who always look sick and act lathargic!!! But unfortunately at the moment I am =_=" Sooo sick of being sick!

iPhone iRony

2010-02-19T00:20:00.001+08:00

Being the observationist that I am >;P I have noticed that some people like me who have Black iPhones, use White casings (in my case a White Mophie Juice Pack Air). Whilst some people with White iPhones use Black casings. Ironic No?!

In my case I like the white iPhone. However I ran into lots of sites documenting the visible crack lines on a White iPhone, versus a crack that is less noticeable on a Black iPhone, therefore I went for the Black. As for the Mophie case, I left the colour choice up to my trusted little cousin and I have no regrets with her choice of a White Mophie.

Ok. So this post is just to point out how ironic we all are as humans. But seriously if you're going to put a Black carbon fibre look case on your iPhone, you should've just got a black one cos the white edges just stand out too much and spoils the look >;P

Loading issues...

2010-02-15T01:50:00.000+08:00

Is anyone else noticing loading issues with my blog?! I think it might be my Cozy Cot Adify ad unit. Boo hoo! Will have to test it out again and maybe remove it!

Anyway, I've had a pretty long CNY day (thankfully with minimal reminders that it's also Hall Mark day) plus I'm heavily drugged up in hope that I'll get through my allergy/viral infection/asthma phase. So I'm pretty worn out. Will blog about not so sad things soon... like FOOD!!! Still can't belive I was so sick and busy a fortnight ago that I forgot to go to the Hokkaido Fair to pig out!!! First Hokkaido Fair I've missed!!! *throws a tantrum*

Goodnight world!

斗牛。要不要 Bull Fighting

2010-02-15T01:38:00.000+08:00

Up to the finale episode of Bull Fighting! Yay! and Boo!!!... That's always the way when it comes to the end of a series. I'm happy that there's going to be a resolution and everyone will end up happy. But at the same time, sad because it's all coming to an end and I have to return to my own reality which honestly... sux!

I've been drawn to this song from the series. I've heard it tonnes of times, but for some reason when a song is related to a series it becomes so much more in depth and emotional. These are the lyrics with translation...

Artist: S.H.E
Song: 你最近還好嗎
   Ni Zui Jin Hai Hao Ma
   How You've Been Lately
Album: 斗牛.要不要 OST
   Bull Fighting OST

挑一張耶誕卡寫上滿滿祝福的話
tiao yi zhang ye dan ka xie shang man man zhu fu de hua
Picked a Christmas card and filled it with many blissful syaings
地址寫的是心底
di zhi xie de shi xin di
The address is written on the heart
你能不能收到它
ni neng bu neng shou dao ta
are you able to receive it?
天有點冷
tian you dian leng
The weather is a bit cold
風有點大
feng you dian da
The wind is a bit windy
城市寧靜而喧嘩
cheng shi ning jing er xuan hua
The city is peaceful yet noisy
這一個冬天我得一個人走回家
zhe yi ge dong tian wo dei yi ge ren zou hui jia
This winter I must go home alone

問自己習慣了嗎
wen zi ji xi guan le ma
(I) ask myself if I am use to it yet
沒有你每到夜裏回聲變得好大
mei you ni mei dao ye li hui sheng bian de hao
Without you, every night the echoes becomes very loud
有沒有什麼好方法
you mei you shen me hao fang fa
Is there a good method
讓寂寞更聽話
rang ji mo gen ting hua
to make the loneliness be good?

你最近還好嗎
ni zui jin hai hao ma
How you've been lately?
是不是也在思念裏掙扎
shi bu shi ye zai si nian li zhen zha
Are you still struggling in the longings?
你說會記得我還記得嗎
ni shuo hui ji de wo hai ji de ma
You've said you'll remember me, do you still remember?
你最近還好嗎
ni zui jin hai hao ma
How you've been lately?
忙碌嗎累嗎心還會痛嗎
mang lu ma lei ma xin hai hui tong ma
Are you busy, tired, does your heart still hurt?
如果真不得已忘了我
ru guo zhen bu de yi wang le wo
If you really had to forget me
快向快樂出發
kuai xiang kuai le chu fa
hurry up and head towards happiness

有再多的牽挂都已沒有權利表達
you zai duo fe qian gua duo yi mie you tren li biao da
Even if we held hands, (I) still wouldn't have the strength to express (my feelings)
舊情人給的問候比陌生人還尷尬
jiu qing ren gei de wen hou bi mo shen ren hai gan ga
An ex's greeting is more awkward then a stranger's
昨天遠了
zou tian yuan le
Yesterday was far
明天還長
ming tian hai chang
Tomorrow is still long
回憶模糊但巨大
hui yi mu hu dan ju da
The memories are vague but huge
這樣的深夜眼淚要怎樣不流下
zhe yang de shen ye yan lei yao zen yang bu liu xia
How to stop the late night tears from falling?

問自己習慣了嗎
wen zi ji xi guan le ma
(I) ask myself if I am use to it yet
沒有你每到夜裏回聲變得好大
mei you ni mei dao ye li hui sheng bian de hao
Without you, every night the echoes becomes very loud
有沒有什麼好方法
you mei you shen me hao fang fa
Is there a good method
讓寂寞更聽話
rang ji mo gen ting hua
to make the lonliness be good?

你最近還好嗎
ni zui jin hai hao ma
How you've been lately?
是不是也在思念裏掙扎
shi bu shi ye zai si nian li zhen zha
Are you still struggling in the longings?
你說會記得我還記得嗎
ni shuo hui ji de wo hai ji de ma
You've said you'll remember me, do you still remember?
你最近還好嗎
ni zui jin hai hao ma
How you've veen lately?
忙碌嗎累嗎心還會痛嗎
mang lu ma lei ma xin hai hui tong ma
Are you busy, tired, does your heart still hurt?
如果真不得已忘了我
ru guo zhen bu de yi wang le wo
If you really had to forget me
快向快樂出發
kuai xiang kuai le chu fa
hurry up and head towards happiness

你最近還好嗎
ni zui jin hai hao ma
How you've been lately?
是不是也在思念裏掙扎
shi bu shi ye zai si nian li zhen zha
Are you still struggling in the longings?
你說會記得我還記得嗎
ni shuo hui ji de wo hai ji de ma
You've said you'll remember me, do you still remember?
你最近還好嗎
ni zui jin hai hao ma
How you've veen lately?
忙碌嗎累嗎心還會痛嗎
mang lu ma lei ma xin hai hui tong ma
Are you busy, tired, does your heart still hurt?
如果真不得已忘了我
ru guo zhen bu de yi wang le wo
If you really had to forget me
快向快樂出發
kuai xiang kuai le chu fa
hurry up and head towards happiness

Credit: Chinese Music Blog

All I can say is that it's so saddening ;( The people I want to remain in my life, even just as friends, couldn't give a crap. And guys I have no emotional attraction to are the ones showing me affection and causing me to push them away even on a friend level because I don't want to lead them on. Seriously wish I could just get through life without having to tip toe around people's feelings! And I know that when I reach a certain degree of being annoyed, I can be extremely blunt with my words to hurt people once and for all so that they get the idea through their heads even if I don't mean to hurt them.

Breadou Macaron

2010-02-12T03:02:00.001+08:00

Got this Breadou Macaron "Rosie" a couple weeks ago to cheer myself up when visiting the doctors. Totally forgot about it, but found it today whilst packing my room for CNY.

It's totally cute. Attached it to my iPhone pouch to hopefully remind me to be happy. It smells SO good! Not as good as real macarons, but it'll sure continue to make me crave macarons now!

So many things have gone wrong recently so I want this to remind me to appear happy cos even though everyone places their burdens on me, I never like to burden others so I need to put on a front. It's getting tougher, but I won't show my weakness so easily for people to take me down.

Action City has lots of cute things that lifts my mood. Currently I'm infatuated with their love hug cushion massager that has a face and arms(sort of). I'm loving the pink one with this face ">_<" cos it sorta reminds me of myself! I'm always typing that face cos that's how I feel a lot of the time.

Their description of this cushion is "I give you the license to throw tantrum" LOL... TOTALLY me!!! I think some certain peoples will agree. These days I don't really have anyone to throw tantrums at. Or maybe only at work I throw lots of tantrums on the inside. On the outside I hope I appear quite tollerant (cos I'm scolding the heck out of them in my head. Remember Ally McBeal??!)

Anyways, I really want the cushion so I can being it to work to use cos my chair is frigging uncomfortable! Let's hope after CNY I can afford it >_<"

~ Posted via Pei²'s iPhone o.Ov

Noodling...

2010-02-06T15:25:00.006+08:00

[Edit] haha I just realised these noodles are not gluten-free... I always make slip ups like this when food looks good ~_~"

Eating Asian Noodles for brunch courtesy of granny! Extremely yummy for the first meal of the day whilst watching 'Bull Fighting' Ep. 5. Mike He or Lee Wei?!?! ;)

Anyways, this is a noodle post haha. The other day in the office I tried Koka's Rice Noodles Spicy Marinara. It's nice to try rice noodles seeing that I'm not supposed to eat wheat. Darn wheat intolerance!

These Koka noodles are... DISGUSTING!!! It's like a try hard Tom Yum that has the essence of rotten seafood!

And I totally missed the part that says "contains wheat" haha. WTF?! Totally defeats the purpose of rice noodles *rolls eyes* And where is the wheat in the ingredients?! ;( *sighs*

And totally contradicts their write-up on the fact the noodles are "gluten-free"! I think I actually forgot to read the ingredients this time and merely bought it reading their write-up. =_=" stupid!

Contains wheat and tastes like crap. PERIOD!!!

Chinese New Year is approaching too fast!!! I need to clean up but I have no time! The only thing I've accomplished for CNY is buying drinks for my family & visitors! Bought a good assortment of drinks from my company and gave away all the drinks that they gave out to us staff as their drink selection wasn't very nice and none reflected the feel of CNY =_=" All my colleagues that I've talked to feel that our company only gave us the drinks to clear stock levels and that the drinks weren't CNY-ish either *sighs* No CNY spirit these days ~_~"

Shopping @ Gipsy Scarlet

2010-02-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

One of my new favourite online shops is Gipsy Scarlet... Already purchased twice from them last month. They reply to their orders promptly and their next day delivery service(if you order 3 or more items) is great especially when you have an event to attend and want something nice to wear.

So far I've bought...

Perfect Work Dress (in a couple of colours hehe) $27

Shawl Collar Cardigan (also in a couple of colours *smug*) $26.50

Tiffany Dress $27

The perfect work dress is great! The material is something like stretchable sateen. I used to love working with this fabric when I was doing fashion design as it's opaque, stretchable and has just the right amount of crispness which is great for work wear. And all the colours are so nice it was difficult to choose just one!

Same goes for the cardigan which is perfect for wearing in the office, on casual days and to events too (see photos below). The fabric is not the very stretchy, ultra thin cheap type of knitted fabric. The fabric used for this is great as it holds it's form (ie. no warping out of shape as it goes through the wash).

As I mentioned, their next day delivery is great! I had a wedding to attend last Sunday, so I ordered and paid on Thursday night. Then they arranged for my delivery on Friday! Although I knew I probably wouldn't be home by the time they delivered, I knew someone would be and they sent an SMS before delivery so I could call home to inform of the delivery. A very smooth transaction indeed. So I got to wear my Pink Tiffany Dress and Black Shawl Collar Cardigan to the wedding on Sunday...

Gipsy Scarlet has just uploaded their new collection and I am definitely getting a few items! Just nice for Chinese New Year too! And the prices are great seeing I'm on a really tight budget these days =(

Think I might go and submit my order after I post this ;) *woot* new clothes!