Faded Memories by Phillip Michaels

SEVER GRANT BARRATT

2014-04-02T05:03:00.000-07:00

Dear Sever Grant Barratt, Today i found out that i lost one of thee most best friends and my heart is torn in millions of pieces as my mind replay the memories we had over and over, the sound of your voice echoes with the ideas we shared and our interesting debates and opinions on art your written art and your extensive vocabulary. word cannot describe what i'm going through. The thought of saying good-bye does not seem like reality and the words I'll miss you does not justify how i feel right now....therefore i will not say good-bye or i'll miss you instead i'll keep you and the memories of and with you, alive in my heart forever until i meet you again...All my love goes to your family and those whose lives you've touch in your unique way. love you bro always and for ever kido.

Thank you

2014-03-10T23:43:00.000-07:00

Dear bloggies Thank you for your support reading my blog over the years I love you all Please don't forget to to subscribe to our youtube channel and to follow us on twitter Love Phil

Dear Mommy

2013-12-31T10:24:00.000-08:00

Dear Mommy today mark 14 years, that you have past on, and not a day goes past that i do not morn your passing, i reminisce on all the moments we shared all through our childhood whether they were good, bad, happy or sad, for all of these memories is now all that i have. there i days that i miss you so much and no-one seem to understand why i keep them at hand. every year i isolate my self from the friends and family just so that i can light i candle for you on this day, I would like to tell you about life since you have been gone and i'm pretty sure that you know all these things as you watch over us. First of all you have a beautiful grandson named Aimar and looks so very much just like you the more i look at him the more i see you smiling back at me. Dad misses you just as must but you know him and He'll never admit it tho but deep down i know he wish you were at his side, my brother on the other hand has turned into a fine man and you'd be so proud of him, he has a beautiful lady in his life which is also the mother to you grandson. i in turn have a shop of my own which takes most of my time but i love it every second. Life has not been easy since your passing... i am writing this as it is the only way i know how to put what i feel inside out there and giving it a voice and knowing that i find relief, every day feels like you have just gone away on a business trip or like a holiday and all i want is for you to return as you have been gone for far to long, just the other night i even dream't that you were alive and then reality kicked in when i arose from my dream, i tried to go back just to spend more time with you... I LOVE YOU so very much and MISS YOU with all my heart, for i have lost my everything, i miss the sound of your laughter and your voice, life sometimes gets unbearable and all i want to do is to run to you knowing everything will be just fine. Love you always and forever mommy, may God grant your soul peace as you accompany him in heaven, someday we will meet again, but for now in my heart and memory you'll remain All my Love Your Son Phillip

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2009-08-15T08:26:00.000-07:00

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St. Theresa's Prayer

2009-08-14T00:51:00.001-07:00

Okay, I picked my blog to connect with several people whom I thought would DO this. You are all people who do little things every day to help others. I hope I chose the right method. Please send this back to me at criebo@gmail.com (You'll see why).

In case anyone is interested, Saint Theresa is known as the Saint of the Little Ways. Meaning she believed in doing the little things in life well and with great love. She is also the patron Saint of flower growers and florists. She is represented by roses. May everyone be blessed who receives this message.

Theresa's Prayer cannot be deleted. REMEMBER to make a wish before you read the poem. That's all you have to do. There is nothing attached. Just send this to other people and let me know what happens on the fourth day. Sorry you have to forward the message, but try not to break this, please.

Suggestion: copy and paste rather than forward to protect email addresses and access to e-virus.

(Did you make a wish?)

If you don't make a wish, it won't come true. Last chance to make a wish.

St. Theresa's Prayer:
May today there be peace within.
May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.
May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you.
May you be content knowing you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into our bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.

It is there for each and every one of you.

Now, send this to people within the next 5 minutes and your wish will come true. And remember to send this back...I count as 1...you'll see why

LIfes' Natural Highs

2009-08-14T00:31:00.000-07:00

1. Being in love.

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.

3. A hot shower.

4. No queues at the supermarket.

5. Taking a drive on a pretty road.

6. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.

7. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

8. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.

9. Chocolate milkshake ... (or vanilla ... or strawberry!)

10. A bubble bath.

11. Giggling.

12. A good conversation.

13. Finding a £20 note in your coat from last winter.

14. Running through sprinklers.

15. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.

16. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.

17. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.

18. Waking up and realising you still have a few hours left to sleep.

19. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.

20. Having someone play with your hair.

21. Sweet dreams.

22. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.

23. Holding hands with someone you care about.

24. Running into an old friend and realising that some things (good or bad) never change.

25. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.

26. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

27. Knowing that somebody misses you.

28. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.

29. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

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2009-08-08T08:46:00.001-07:00

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2009-08-08T08:40:00.001-07:00

What will you do to be happier

2009-08-08T06:15:00.000-07:00

What will you do..

In order to be happier, ___________________.

Leave your answer in the comments.

3 lucky commentators with the best comments will receive a "COASTER " below:

Childish

2009-08-08T05:09:00.000-07:00

Childish

Today I saw a little boy making a paper clip chain and it really hit home that not to long ago my brother and I did the same thing when ever we went to the bank with my mom. I also recalled lost (hidden)childhood memories like how we used lay on our backs and look at the clouds and say ” Hey that cloud looks like a dog, a face and even Captain Hook of Peter pan. The way we used to chase butterflies and make wishes with every lady-bird we saw. We even made wishes on shooting stars and left no stone unturned when we would go bug and snake hunting. Then there were the times when we used to play hide-and-seek, and don't forget the night before Christmas.Its a never ending list of fun like the time we build our very first tree house,It’s really amazing how time flies by and your carefree is replaced with responsibilities and when we think back it feels like as if it happened yesterday.

Can you still remember when you enjoyed life the way a kid does, so come on and share some memories with me .

My Heart is full of love for you.

2009-08-08T05:00:00.000-07:00

How would you feel about giving your heart to someone who would love to make you happy who would love to see you smile. Who would love to e loved y you, and how would you feel if I gave my heart to you.

When we’re together the only thing that matters is being in your arms the most and nothing feels so perfect as the warmth of your touch… but as soon as I think my happiness is complete, you kiss me, and I fall even deeper into the wonder of your love.

When ever I’m down your always around.

Open Your eyes, start reading my mind. So much to ask you but cant find away. I’d Go any where for you, anywhere you ask me to.

I’d Do anything for you, anything you want me to.

Id walk halfway around the world for just one kiss from you.

Hold me closer to your dreams, closer to your fears. Closer to hear your laughter. Hold me when your close to tears.

All I want is to e closer to you.

If only you could get the tears in the world you left behind.

If only you could hear my heart just one more time.

Even when I close my eyes there’s a picture of your face. And once again I came to realize that… I love you

I can still hear the inside of me that is calling out your name. I’ve even trying to reach you, cause I’ve got something to say.

When you know what’s on your mind, You’ve got to follow the feelings inside.

Every day I write love letters in my mind, but for some reason when I’m with you I can never find the words to tell you what’s on my mind. Even though I don’t always share my feelings with you.

I hope you know my heart is full of love for you

Beautiful Advice

2009-08-08T04:57:00.000-07:00

An Angel says, ‘Never borrow from the future. If you worry about what may happen tomorrow and it doesn’t happen, you have worried in vain. Even if it does happen, you have to worry twice..’

1. Pray or meditate.
2. Go to bed on time.
3. Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed.
4. Say No to projects that won’t fit into your time schedule, or that will compromise your mental health.

5. Delegate tasks to capable others.
6.. Simplify and unclutter your life.
7. Less is more. (Although one is often not enough, two are often too many.)
8. Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.

9. Pace yourself. Spread out big changes and difficult projects over time; don’t lump the hard things all together.
10. Take one day at a time.
11. Separate worries from concerns . If a situation is a concern, find out what you can do and let go of the anxiety . If you can’t do anything about a situation, forget it..
12. Live within your budget; don’t use credit cards for ordinary purchases.

13. Have backups; an extra car key in your wallet, an extra house key buried in the garden, extra stamps, etc.
14.. K.M.S. (Keep Mouth Shut). This single piece of advice can prevent an enormous amount of trouble.
15. Do something for the Kid in You everyday.

16. Carry inspirational reading with you to read while waiting in line.
17. Get enough rest
18. Eat right.
19 Get organized so everything has its place.

20. Listen to a tape while driving that can help improve your quality of life.
21. Write down thoughts and inspirations.
22. Every day, find time to be alone.
23. Having problems? Try to nip small problems in the bud.
24. Make friends with good people.

25. Keep a folder of favorite quotes on hand.
26. Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a good laugh.
27. Laugh.
28. Laugh some more!
29. Take your work seriously, but not yourself at all.
30. Develop a forgiving attitude (most people are doing the best they can).

31. Be kind to unkind people (they probably need it the most).
32. Sit on your ego
33 Talk less; listen more.
34. Slow down.
35. Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe.
36 Every night before bed, think of one thing you’re grateful for that you’ve never been grateful for before.

My instructions is o send this to as many people that I wanted to bless and I picked you. I decided to send it to more than , because I didn’t want to limit blessings.

SEND IT FORWARD PLEASE,

Not backward!

Life through the eyes of ourselves & others

2009-08-08T04:50:00.000-07:00

Life through the eyes of ourselves

love

How do we see ourselves in this world from another’s eye or should I say others point of view of us…

I have recently decided to become an introvert instead of and extrovert as my extrovertivness has seem to gather and audience for gossip of vulgarity and words uttered from these humanism is in ruin of my existence and tears down my soul with each word spoken. Slowly but surely the flame of love is fading and soon the light emitted will be gone for ever. So there for I have decided to keep to myself the most deepest secrets which I so often worn on my sleeve so carelessly and naïevingly just like a child just trying to make others happy, instead the joy and love I carry inside of me just added to more pain. What good is this love that I carry in my heart, if all it does is bring pain to others not just to them but most importantly to me.

With each awakening of the sunrise I find myself slipping a away to a place that is unknown to my heart. A place where the is no love joy, happiness, instead there is only agony and darkness and within this darkness there is evil. I am losing myself with each fading light my life emits. I find myself wondering where I’m heading and what will I find on my journey, will there be light at the end of my tunnel shall darkness overcome a heart which was once filled with so much love and joy formed from each beat.

Not to long ago it was, when this old heart had so many dreams, hopes and plans for a life to be enjoyed with every rising morning, filled with the excitement of what will be next, and what a full moon had in store for me as I lay gazing underneath the stars and the milky way.

“Where has it all gone and how do I get it back”

Words can not describe how I feel inside…how do we retrace our steps and fix the wrongs we have done…impossible I tell you!.. There is no worst torture then beating yourself with resentment. Thoughts that flow in and out your mind… questions of how ?when? Why? With each question we ask our self there is an emotion attached to it whether it be anger, hate, tears, agony, love, or contentment. These are the beatings we live with each day even though they are not physical but emotionally it leaves a permanent scar which never heals.

There is a saying that goes seize the moment and seize the day, let me tell you there is no moment like the present for the past is history and the future untold but the moment in which we find our self this very instance is the present were we can make the difference and correct the doings committed by our hand.

Open that closet so the Skelton’s can be dusted of and become an armor from which others can learn… I know some is thinking that its a lot easier said then done right: but have u ever felt the relief of getting something out in the open . Why wait till you cant take it any more. So empty up those closets if you must and get it over and done with… from there All you can do is look ahead to what is to come knowing that there is no more skeletons and that all there is to know about you is out in the open … doesn’t matter what others think of you… what counts is that you are at peace with yourself and living life the way that you want to live it not the way others want you to live it. People will talk about you till the day you die and there is nothing you can do about it. So why not be honest to yourself.

Don’t loose yourself in what others will think and say about you rather find yourself and discover who you are and enjoy every moment of it , and who knows what u will find along the way, after all the sky is the limits.

A change of heart

2009-08-08T04:47:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt you’re connected to some one as if they belong to you, as if you were one, which means you’re destined to be… well I have and still do… I even had the chance to meet my other half and from the moment our eyes first met I knew she was the one and from that moment, I could feel her heart beat, beat at the same pace as mine which made us one. We spoke the same language, a language that few will ever grasp to understand… its called love. Without uttering a word we could communicate through the echoes of our hearts after all its beat was as one. With the days passing the love grew stronger not even distance could keep us apart.

I remember so clearly the day she came to came over for the very first time, I prepared and as she entered with her siblings my heart skipped a beat with ever breath she took. I welcomed them. With my pounding heart, beating wilder then a race horse as her gentle touch seems to tame my heart. As time drifted by it was soon time to say good bye, for a brief moment we were left alone to do the only thing for which our hearts has longed but sadly it was interrupted. She left and I knew that I will never see her again so I watched each hour, minutes and seconds tick by just to see her one last time. Finally the moment arrived and my heart so longed to touch her heart. From the distance see gave me one last glance and the most breathtaking smile which will be my memory till the end of time. As they drove of to there home town she starred back through that Caravel’s Window and gave me a last goodbye smile followed with a loving wave.

She had only left an hour and It felt like an eternity. I phoned but it was out of reach I phoned her home and they were not home yet.. It drove me up the wall, for the love that was within in me could not let go until I hear her voice one last time. I tried all day then finally I reached her and could no longer keep the secret that was raging within me, Instantly all flown gently from my lips and to my surprise her heart has felt the same as mine.

A love so strong that not even distance could part the oneness of our hearts.

Regret tingly, we both were saddened that we had not done what our hearts has told us sooner.

Even thou our hearts still beat as one, it will never be, for the love we shared is now just a memory.

As the changing tide, she had a change of heart, for it now belongs to another.

While my fragile heart still beats the same, it now listens to the pain and tears for which in our hearts remain.

Should I set her free or was this love meant to be

As to this day our hearts still beats as one

but we cannot be, for she no longer belongs to me.

FEAR

2009-08-08T04:39:00.001-07:00

How often do we say, i wish i haven’t done that.?

I know i do it every so often.

Why do we limited our self when the world is our playground?

why do we let fear get in the way of what we want.

why are we scared to take chances and makes a success of it, -

everything is within our reach and it all starts with a dream.

dreams do come true,

i believe every day is a dream, live is a dream,

but its up to us what we make of it.

I am pinned down with fear in my heart.

The same fear that keeps me enchained from reaching my dreams.

The fear of not trying.

The fear of failure.

The fear of losing and even dying.

it seems we have a fear for everything, but my biggest fear is being affraid of being me.

The fear of being alive and live the life i am destined to live…

Ghosts from my past

2009-08-08T04:37:00.000-07:00

Today feel s like ghosts from my past haunt me.

A recent occurrence of things is constantly arising and leaves me filled with emotions that are best been forgotten.

Every day it feeds of my mistakes, disappointments and heartache, and the urge to fall into bad habbits grows stronger on me as every second and seems as if there is no escape.

The shadow of my past is in my midst and seems more vengeful then ever. Will I survive? Who knows? Maybe it is time to fight and take back what is rightfully mine… no longer shall I be overwhelmed by fear or be walked over, but rather remind them of, on who’s shoulder which they stand.

So instead I will keep my head high and fill my thoughts with happiness and love and make the best of each day for no longer will I go astray.

Follow your dreams

2009-08-08T04:21:00.000-07:00

Trouble arrives in measures,
and we stack it up real high,
until we’re convinced,
we have no reason to try.
If you feel defeated,
you’re absolutely wrong,
for if you follow your dream,
you could never lose for long.
Ignore the minor set-backs
that pile up and trouble you,
or you will build a mountain,
out of the stones hurled at you.
The future holds great promise,
your destiny unknown,
but God is always helping,
and you’re never alone.
Soar bravely toward your goal.
Let nothing darken the way.
You can change your tomorrow,
if you seek your dream today

QUOTE FOR THE DAY

2009-08-08T04:07:00.000-07:00

Few people know how to take a walk. The qualifications are endurance, plain clothes, old shoes, an eye for nature, good humor, vast curiosity, good speech, good silence and nothing too much. --Ralph Waldo Emerson

Pumpkins

2009-08-08T02:24:00.000-07:00

A woman was asked by a coworker, "What is it like to be a Christian?"

The coworker replied, "It is like being a pumpkin." God picks you from
the patch, brings you in, and washes all the dirt off of you. Then He
cuts off the top and scoops out all the yucky stuff.

He removes the seeds of doubt, hate, and greed. Then He carves you a new
smiling face and puts His light inside of you to shine for all the world to
see."

This was passed on to me by another pumpkin. Now it's your turn to pass
it to other pumpkins. I liked this enough to send it to all the pumpkins
in my patch!!

Love Ya Pumpkins!

Memories fade...photographs shoudnt

2006-12-29T04:11:00.000-08:00

Memories has a way of fading as time drifts by, and as time passes we only treasure what we have lost in our hearts forever...it makes us think of what we had and what could have been... memories can bring as much happiness and as much sorrow at the same time...It takes us right back to our childhood whether good or bad, happy or sad... and even makes us miss the life we had.

Sometimes we live in the past in order to gain nothing but more heartache... i know i still do it often... One of my friends recently told me the following:
"You cant live with the dead while you still alive" but it is hard to just forget and move on...

I live by the follwing quote :

Life is a mixture of successes and failure
May you be encouraged by your successes and
strengthened by your failures.
As long as you never loose faith in God, you will be victorius over any situation you face

I believe that memories must never be forgotten cause they define you, and that if you live in the past long enough and don't bury it the past bury you.

I