poetic alchemy

All He Cared Was...

2013-11-30T00:19:00.001+08:00

Just others,
Laugh at the movie without any bothers,
What balance does it take for emotions,
To be weight without any heavy baggage,
What he cared was not her feelings.

Worth

2012-10-15T20:50:00.001+08:00

The battle of life,

Does it worth the strife?

The gasp of air,

Does it worth the despair?

The fall of heart,

Does it worth the dart?

The rush of time,

Does it worth the chime?

The carve of smile,

Does it worth the mile?

28 Wish List

2012-09-28T16:24:00.000+08:00

1. A quiet day for me 2. Get a new hairdo 3. Massage and spa 4. Facial Treatment 5. KLCC Sky Bridge 6. Go to an art gallery 7. Watch an orchestra symphony 8. Skate on real snow 9. Write to 28 random people on a snail mail 10. Wax 11. Manipedicure 12. Walk in a park 13. Watch the sky 14. Bake a cake 15. A theme park 16. Finish 28 anime series 17. Go to a foreign country 18. Read 5 fiction books 19. Draw an art for Parent's wall 20. A model shoot 21. Write 28 poems 22. A new phone 23. New purse 24. New bag 25. Good 10 hours sleep 26. Quiet breakfast in a nice cafe 27. Personalized gift to 28 people 28. Get to know 28 more new friends :)

Time

2012-01-27T13:53:00.002+08:00

Time is like a dash of wind...

You can feel the rustle made by it...

Yet you can't see it rushing by...

Before you knew it, it has passed you by...

All it made was just mere memories...

As if you have experienced it....

Without the chance to keep it...

Just a way it gives the adrenaline...

Of hope in a split second...

The joy of a moment...

Treasure it while you can...

Time that never returns...

Gone is 2011, Here is 2012

2012-01-04T12:08:00.002+08:00

2011

Jan - Ipoh

Feb - First Ang Pau to Grandparents.

Mar - Emotionless

Apr - First Trip to Shanghai

May - Mom and Dad responded to altar call :)

Jun - Trip to Bukit Cahaya

Jul - Got back in love again + Bersih 2.0 Adrenaline

Aug - First Trip to Sabah

Sep - Wine Tasting

Oct - Bought the first digital Camera (Sony WX7) + Started as a Cell Group Leader

Nov - Combine Subzone Event + Started to serve in Counselling Ministry + First China Coating Show, Shanghai

Dec - First PAINtball experience + ChromeHeart and many testimonies from cell members

2012

First Half Tentative Busy Events

Jan - CNY Celebration

Feb - Camerons

Mar - Marathon

Apr - Easter Celebration

May - Retreat

Jun - Mission Trip

Walk of Liberty

2011-08-14T23:12:00.007+08:00

Holding earth in her palm,
Smell of dust, where she came,
The flower she held, her birth land,
Staring visions into the horizon,
There she saw, the glorious flag,
A patriotic song dances through,
Heart of strength, a voice she sung,
Lives of future, her standing end,
Freedom of souls, she avenged,
The growing crowd, the intensity,
Hand in hand, heart to heart,
The walk of faith, a peace march,
One vision she knew them clearly,
The walk as an individual soon to change,
To the walk of unity as one nation,
Freedom, a grace from God,
None could ever steal from one's heart,
Truth she knew,
Fear not she says, to stand in,
For what she believed in,
Justice is worth the battle,
For freedom a nation rise,
Emerging as a rising sun,
Purity, a change of maturity,
A day not forgotten for the tens thousands,
Throughout the world, a voice is heard,
Without shame, without complain,
Patriotism, a nation displayed,
She knew liberty is in the nation,
The security she knew, her future saved,
Lifting up her sunflower,
Into the air of her nation breathed,
A memorial day she walked,
Making the difference.

The Call

2011-06-04T19:52:00.002+08:00

As she wonders night and day,

Would it be realized of what he say,

Come the dates to the sandy bay,

From mud comes alive, hand of clay.

Days come closer, to the touch down date,

A promise of hope, words that bait,

Heart of patience, at the little gate,

For the worse, she knows it's just a wait.

The call as important as it was spoken,

Carved in her heart, a dream not awaken,

For the worse result, may it kill the knot,

A promise of hope, hope it forgotten not.

Shanghai

2011-04-07T11:21:00.010+08:00

Appear it was the sunny light,

Away in the air, she went alight,

Lifted high, a new world sight.

Shivery air felt she did,

As winter is at its closing lid,

Into her thick wear, she hid.

Sze Chuan food her tummy fits,

Garden of jade she first visits,

Trying new things, curiosity hits.

A great walk along its river,

Iconic pearl tower glittering shines over,

One day top of it, she would lever.

Canton cuisine to Vietnamese,

A good meal, the custom of Chinese,

Due to disaster, sadly no Japanese.

Busy roads, crowded subways,

Crazy drivers, left and right she sways,

Hanging on to life, safety she prays.

Lovely park one day she strolls,

Kung fu trainings, skater rolls,

Saxophonist made its ambient jolls.

People swarming here and there,

Xu Jia Hui, in the middle of nowhere,

Directionless, in the shopping sphere.

Tian Zhi Fang the maze of art,

Old buildings, a shopping cart,

Home she brought, creative heart.

Into the largest Apple center she went,

For grown-ups, a huge play tent,

After work, stresses vent.

Up to the Ritz, dark was it an attic,

Iced wine plus soft music, terrific,

Mesmerized she was, view in panoramic.

A nice Italian get-to-know lunch,

Exchange of info, in her vege-munch,

Prevention of tummy hunch.

In they went, a church so ancient,

Friendly gestures, time needs patient,

"Wait upon the Lord", the day's quotient.

Walking along the little street,

Trust it was her follow feet,

Lu Xun, writes her first meet.

Tea and rest in an old theater,

Point of views, sparks a chatter,

Sniffing cold, may it gets better.

Taobao a land of shops,

Comes a salesman in he pops,

Aggressive like bunny he hops.

End a day with a hot soup noodle,

Simple and nice, none to grumble,

Acquaintance paints color of purple.

Days of labor, experience increase,

Problems discussed, solutions release,

Common understanding, smile and please.

Fly a kite, came a suggestion,

Weather cheers the warmth impression,

Work denies the delighted intention.

Final morning, the last look,

In the lovely park, reads her book,

Nice picnic place if she could cook.

Sounds of music birds composed,

Back to reality her heart proposed,

Knowing life is to go on as supposed.

Mind renewed, creativity aspires,

Tick of heartbeat, across the wires,

A visit again, gratefully she desires.

Good Byes

2010-05-20T08:00:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was my final day with Kansai Paint. These 3 years had been fruitful as I know that many had loved me very much. I really thank those who has been working with me and had taught me quite a lot. Therefore I wrote these to them before I left:-

To the Sales Team:-

Fire fighting ever always,
As frequent as Bomba drill,
Afterall we went through days after days,
No results, time to grill.

Like front soldiers - keeping guard,
Like comrades, support,
Things are not very hard,
Viewing them as things to sort.

To the Technical Team:-

You, Techy Geek,
Gentle and meek,
Books so thick,
For best formulation pick.

Some subs always sick,
Some are wick,
Always need to peek,
Advancement always we seek.

Week by week,
Day by day,
Hour by hour,
Always smile, don't sour.

May all of them grow in life and flourish like a tree so big.

Temptation

2010-05-20T07:24:00.000+08:00

Perhaps it was just merely infatuation,
Charming as you are, timing imperfection,
Words lingers, the soul, attraction,
Gestures, body language's seduction.

Perhaps it was just merely an illusion,
Best left as it is, leading not to confusion,
Feelings and reality - state of diffusion,
Detached, making the right decision.

Perhaps it was merely an attraction,
Gentle as you are, an admiration,
No strings attached, no expectation,
Whatever that lies behind presentation.

Man of My Life

2010-04-21T22:20:00.005+08:00

Since a child, he cherished me,
Love and hate, times we grew,
Ups and down, putting through,
Risk taker, adventurous,
A dreamer, a joker,
The man of my life.

Nothing had I ever imagined,
Surprises after surprises,
Bitter sweet, storms and quakes,
Summer and springs, went all through,
Tears and joy, life went on,
With the man of my life.

Pride of a lion, bites me,
Work of his hands, feeds me,
Joy of his soul, delights me,
Quietly, protecting my life,
Lovingly, hope I do fine,
Hoping I chose his replica as a man of my life.

With less expression, I concerned,
Silently, heart was crushed,
Seeing him under pressures of life,
Determined for his burdens lifted up,
To the end, I will fight, for his stake,
Prayer is the only answer of life.

I love you, Dad.

Missing

2010-03-07T21:41:00.006+08:00

Immersing into depths of feelings,
Running thoughts of no endings,
Tears running down her cheeks,
Days felt as if weeks.

Lingering around her phone,
Waiting for the slightest tone,
As her heart fell from the top,
As her thought bubbles pop.

Numbing her heart and soul,
Holding on to her little pillow,
Longing for his presence,
His hugs and his kisses.

He as she misses,
Emerge desire rises,
Needing him the more,
Pain in her heart core.

"I miss you"

Love

2010-02-08T20:21:00.001+08:00

Love is a cut so deep,

Showered with salt water,

Love is rhythm of the seas,

Countless times beating of shores,

Love is drizzling of rain,

Soft and gentle,

Love is oceans wide,

In a living pore,

Love is capacity to give,

Without a thought to gain,

Love is a breeze,

Unseen but felt,

Love is membrane,

Protect and provide,

Love is draws of rainbows,

Colour smiles to faces,

Love is an art,

Created extraordinarily.

Evaporation

2010-02-08T20:05:00.003+08:00

Tiny droplet of water,
Stands on a glass,
Beautiful sparkling clear,
Twinkle of joy,
Quiet it seems,
Strong it holds,
Against perpetual attacks,
Gushes of winds,
Stirring dusts,
Tiny droplet closes it eyes,
Holding on a capacity so huge,
Rushing heat,
Shape losses,
Little tiny droplet, it's time to stop,
Leave them alone,
Time to retreat,
Let it go, off little tiny droplet,
Exploding into mists,
Multiplications of small droplets,
Into the air it went,
Releasing her tension,
Exposed to the sun,
Creating new colors,
Rainbows formed,
Tiny droplet of water,
Recharged.

Princess Free Fall: Above the Clouds

2010-02-06T06:20:00.005+08:00

High above the clouds,
Safe in Him, no doubts,
Thousand words as His eyes gleams,
Expressing life of dreams.

Touch of gentle wind,
Caressing her skin,
Warmth felt within,
As love evergreen.

A stroll of sight-seeings,
Overlooking routine of beings,
They knew this isn't the way they seek,
Life in future is greater indeed.

Quietness of whisper sound,
Hot chocolate on top of the Mount,
As time slowly rushes itself,
Quality time spent more precious than wealth.

Send her safely home,
How sweet has time flown,
Tiredness felt as physical,
Warmth in heart, musical.

Balloons

2010-02-06T06:11:00.003+08:00

Floating high and above,
Silence of a flying dove,
Flavor of sweet clove,
Popped it goes, gone its love.

Emerging one by one,
Just like the rising sun,
Times of joy and fun,
Left it was, feeling undone.

Drifting along the gentle wind,
Oh, the air so fresh and clean,
Encapsulated, flying without fin,
Wandered off, nothing to lean.

Submerging as weight decreases,
Still and calm, its' color pleases,
Down they land, journey ceases,
Walked away, left breathless.

Hope

2010-02-06T06:02:00.000+08:00

Emitted light,
Enlightened might,
Endeavored sight,
Energized fight.

Hiding

2010-02-06T05:59:00.001+08:00

Hiding in the shadow,
Heart of sorrow,
Needing time alone,
Away the wind blown.

Why

2010-02-06T05:55:00.000+08:00

I have been your obedient daughter.
I have studied hard to make you proud.
I have not been hanging out with friends to make you not worried.
I have tried to be as best as I can.
I have cried without your knowledge.
I have been strong in front of you.
I don't touch anything without your permission.
I work hard.
I gave you all I have.

But you still think I am selfish.
But you still think I am worthless.
But you still think I am worst person in the whole world.
But you still think I am disobedient.

Why can't I choose my own partner?
Why it has to be your way?
Why you think my choice is the worst?
Why must you force me to make a choice to make you happy?
Why must you force me to lie to you even more?
Why must you force me?

I never dared to answer you.
In your anger, I am silent.
In your worries, I am a liar.
In your sadness, I am your shadow.
In your pride, I am worthless.

She has no reasons why can't I choose him.
I can never answer her why I love him
Cause she told me before she doesn't want to hear anything about him.

Bored

2010-02-06T05:52:00.000+08:00

No money,
To do anything that is the key,
No mood,
Can't do anything that feels good,
No time,
All spent for study, if not it's a crime,
No line,
In front of computer I would spent from time to dine,
No fun,
As life now is about book, exam and eating bun,
No outing,
Or a sport, I am doing nothing.

Princess Free Fall:- Hope Not Found

2009-11-27T23:08:00.001+08:00

Rapunzel, Rapunzel, let down your hair,
Above I shall climb the stair,
Letting down her hair out from her tower,
Not knowing who has called from the lower.

It was just an invitation,
For friends, a little celebration,
Heart called out for his presence,
Dismay, he's out the field outside the fence.

What can words say,
It's all her support day by day,
Freedom dispersed in the air,
He may not climb her long hair.

Party still had to go on,
Heart never dare to hope on,
Priorities are different,
Give is all she had always given.

Strength in faith she relies,
Positivity ever she eyes,
For without him, hearts are close,
Just a tear, never going to lose.

Hope on his promises,
The only can she believes,
Hope in heart greatly abound,
Physically, a hope not found.

Love is...

2009-11-26T22:24:00.000+08:00

...when I make no room for reasons to give any reason not to sacrifice...

What If....

2009-11-10T21:52:00.001+08:00

What if noise stopped its reminder,
What if life uncolored turns purple,
What if new life in foreign land,
What if things went out of hand,
Should I.....?
Would I.....?

What if decisions made and time never waits,
What if flight took off and it was too late,
What if nothing could stop it,
What if nothing stops the heart beat,
Must I....?
Can I....?

What if everything isn't the same,
What if it wasn't according to plan,
What if life was even harder,
What if balloons became lighter,
How do I....?
What do I....?

What if words were not action,
What if action was not completion,
What if completion was aimed not,
What if aimed was merely just a knot,
Why am I....?
Who am I....?

Tired is he the mind kept running,
As the clock never stopped ticking,
Pausing to find her heart stomping,
Having the couple hands do their typing,
Breathe oh air into lungs of suffocation,
Resting eyes for relaxation.

Creation

2009-10-28T21:41:00.002+08:00

Genesis 1:31
Then God looked over all he had made, and he saw that is was very good!
[NLT]

As she looked at her computer,
All she had was Excel sheets of boring formulas,
Raw materials, its uses, characters and its ratio,
Putting on her thinking cap,
In darkness before her light bulb glow,
Selecting the best materials suited its purpose,
Testing its qualities to its maximum,
Concoction of colors she had made,
Beautify the smiles of clients face,
The creator sights on her own product,
As it fulfilled its purpose,
Coloring the lives of others,
Delights her heart.

Paint Me Invisible

2009-10-13T21:41:00.002+08:00

Left nothing itself could it change,
Purple flowers turned brownish blue,
Sightly breeze along its wave,
Tender touch unreachable.

Riding along paths within its range,
Revealing nothing that was ever true,
Walking down its path towards the grave,
Quietness lighting variables.

Creaking sounds of the hinge,
Mysteriously giving no clue,
Rush of fire rages to save,
Stunned but it's quenchable.

Immersing felt the tinge,
Painting walls of no hue,
Warmth felt in the dark cave,
Painting me invisible.

*poetic alchemy*